I stayed home today and cleaned my room.. Unfortunately I didn't find my graduation list I had already made... I started on a new one the other day and I've already started doing my invitations. I got my prom dress yesterday and I'm absolutely in love with it. My cousins are staying the night tonight and I'm trying every way possible to get out of the house tonight. I'll probably go hang out with Kyle whenever he gets off work. I decided not to go to my grandparents because it's going to be cold and possibly snowing...My girl Brittany is leaving next Friday for another job and that just sucks completely. She is just awesome. I'm gonna miss her. Everyone will probably go out next Friday night and party or something. All of a sudden everyone is deciding to get tattoos when they turn 18 and I'm kind of getting to where I don't want one period. I'll get my tongue pierced, but that's probably about it. If I do decide to get one it's going to very different and unique.

I feel like I'm under so much pressure about Graduation. My mom is saying that I shouldn't send my Dad's parents an invitation saying where graduation is actually at and just send them one that says I'm graduating. To be honest I really don't want his mom down here because she will try to start shit. BUT... If they did go they possibly wouldn't let their presence be known until afterwards and when my mom or whoeever wasn't around me.This sucks.... Geeze. I just kind of wonder what it's going to be like when I turn 18. Makes me wonder what they are going to say or do, if they even do anything.

Then there's all this shit with my mom and her older brother and his crack-addicted wife (seriously). He bought her some weed knowing that she just got out of rehab that she wasn't even in for a damn month. People are so stupid. I can't stand either one of them. Sometimes I think my mom get in their life just a little too much, but I can understand why considering they have a 13 and 4 year old. They were better off without her.

I realized that Freshman year was actually good. All of the friends you had were the same they were the year before. As we progressed through the years, everyone changes and you become distant. Maybe for the best or the worst. One day your just sitting there wondering what happened with that friendship. Was is something you did? Was it something you said? Then you'll hope that one day things will become better and you'll get that friendship back.

Ah.. enough of that... I gotta go somewhere.....

*Love ALways*