Being normal is highly overrated.
I think just about anyone would agree with this statement.
Or perhaps...maybe they'd agree more w/the fact that there's no such thing as "normal". Think about it...who decided what's normal?

Life is Short...Enjoy It.


Who said I had to smile? Why not make goofy faces...


I've grown up on a farm....

And I wouldn't change it for the world...

Hope yall enjoy the pic pictures.
If you have a MySpace look me up.
www.myspace.com/initialdefeat

Love yall.

So Summer has been pretty great lately.
There has been AT LEAST 1 party a week that I go to--which are kick butt amazing.
I've gone to the movies and shopping--had a sleepover or two--slept late watched late night TV--ate tons of junk food--gone out for ice cream--I've been loving my life a lot lately.
I'm just not looking forward to this fall when all my friends will be leaving. =[
I hate growing up...
I should go to Chuck-E-Cheese and recapture my youth.
What do you think?

I think my hair looks cool here.

I've realized that lately I've been doing a lot of looking at the past.
I'm constantly looking behind me to see if there's something I can salvage from past realtionships...
But even when I'm out shopping I constantly glance behind my shoulder to see if he's still waiting for me...
All this reminds me of a song.

"Settle For A Slowdown"

I must look just like a fool here
in the middle of the road
standing there in your rearview
and getting soaked to the bone
this land is flat as it is mean
a man can see for a hundred miles
So I'm still praying I might see
the glow of a brake light.

But your wheels just turn,
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

I held on longer then I should
Believing you might change your mind
And those bright lights of Hollywood
would fade in time.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign
that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
if it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
your just a tiny dot on that horizon line come on tap those brakes
baby just one time
I know there's nothing stopping you now
Im not asking you to turn back around

I'd settle for a slowdown
come on just slow down
I'd settle for a slow down.


And then this picture just made me giggle. =)

So I've finally uploaded these pics from my trip to NC almost 3 months ago...whoops. =)
Take a look though.

Pretty sure I was driving by and wanted a pic of this amazing car...


Rest Area--SO cute--It snowed when we were going through the moutains.


I took this in that 7 hour car ride--I got BORED!


I was *trying* to sleep and drifted in and out--my sis thought it was funny. =)


Blonde Hair--Black Hoodie--Camera--Car Ride--Equals = THIS PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So leave me some love.
Summer Countdown--5 days.

So teen Banquet was fun.
The food was pretty terrible.
Sarah spent the night afterwards.
I've decided I don't fit in with those that knit.
I have decided I love Soccer eventhough my coach sucks.
I'm pretty sure that's all I've got to say--so leave me some comments!

Me and Miguelito...


b4 Banquet!


Sarah was my entertainment! =) I loveeee her.


Full dress pic...lossssssssssssssssst in that look.

Happy Easter!
I love you guys so much.
I'm soo thankful Lent it over and I kept to all my goals...
Now I can finally eat sweets, popcorn, and soda again. yayyy.

Remember today isn't only about getting candy and spending time with family it's about Jesus..our Savior...rising from the dead. Pretty powerful. =)

I hope you all have an amazing and blessed day.

Te Amo.

So It's my sweet 16th Birthday TODAY!

I am so so so excited.
I just wanna thank everyone out there for another *amazing* year.
God has blessed me with the coolest friends ever...
I also have a really supportive family.
Thank you ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

I'm hanging out w/Sarah Beara this afternoon and then the famous family dinner...ahhhh. I can't wait.

Te Amo!

Could someone please tell me when being nice became a bad thing?
We're not supposed to be afraid of who we are--we're supposed to let our own light shine--we're supposed to let it shine so big that it pierces the darkness. I think it's time to wake up and smell the coffee.

So in case you hadn't noticed I have new pictures.

And I've found my new line of work "hookerism".
I'm jussssssst kidding.

I smile to confuse you.

Blondes will soon be taking over the world. "Beware"

A great man (actually the first president of the Unitned States) once said, "Courage is not the absence of fear. It is going forward with the face of fear."

"The worst sin towards our fellow creatures is not to hate them, but to be indifferent to them: that's the essence of inhumanity."
--George Bernard Shaw

"Love and compassion are necessities, not luxuries. Without them, humanity cannot survive."

"Laughter is good for thinking because when people laugh, it is easier for them to admit new ideas to their minds."

--Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama

Love Love Love to you ALL!

So life has been not that great lately.
Swing Dance was a disappointment.

Now I've been talking to this guy name Chris Slate.
He makes me smile.
Crazy kid.

School is beyond hectic.
I can't wait for prom.
I don't have a date though--uuuh frustration.
We'll see if Justin comes around in time.
But I'm thinkin' going alone wouldn't be so bad.

I gottttta go.
Lent starts tomorrow.
I'm singing.
blah.
We'll see how that goes.
Leave me love.

<3

I guess the best thing to do in this sort of situation is just to move on. I don't exactly mean move on to other guys, because I still think he is the one for me, at least for now. I just mean that I can't dwell on what can't be--I just gotta put all my focus on positive things.

I mean we are really good friends right now.
I know he's not going to leave me.
He claims he'll care about me forever.
We're probably going to become best friends.
And he promises to always take care of me.

I guess I'm pretty lucky just to know a guy like him huh?

So I get a snow week. That's right people--no homework--whole friggin' week. Pretty amazing huh?
Too bad we didn't get snow...bummmmmer.

I'm tired and I think I'm gonna hit the sack.
You all are wonderful.
Thank you Sarah for supporting me through all of this.
You're amazing beyond all else.

It shouldn't be this way.
I care about him to much to walk away.
He says I'll move on day.
But I just want him to stay.
He's the only one I care for.
He was the perfect score.
Last night ended it all.
That was the last call.

I cry, I weep, I mourn.
I feel so torn.
From Love and Passion
To a new kind of fashion.

He says he'll always care.
But it's just too hard to bear.
He says for me to trust Him.
But my hope for him is dim.

He'll become a man one day.
And I know I'll hear him say.
"This way is best."
And as he thrusts out his chest.
He smiles at me knowing eyes
And flies away into clouded skies.

I may might see him again.
But if I do it'll be in ten.

My man's a military man.
With a golden tan.
Black hair and eyes.
Knowing and wise.
Loving and Caring
Keen and Daring.

He'll be in my heart forever and ever.
I love him, he's my military man.

It wasn't supposed to be a poem or really make a lot of sense. I just wrote it because it pretty much sums up my thoughts.
I'm gonna miss him a whole heap.
He's becoming my best friend.
And I guess it's just hard.
Because we care a lot about eachother.
But we can't even be together.
And that sucks.
But anways...
Hope u all have a great rest of the week.
Teresa

The Subject line is the day that two of my friends were killed in a car accident along with their best friend Kimmy. Not a day goes by that they aren't missed. Brittany and Bionca Toombs were two of the most amazing girls that I have ever come in contact with. Their smiles could brighten up a room and it was rare to see them w/out a baby or little kid in their arms.

Their love for their friends, family, and for Jesus shone through them like a bright light.

*Brittany is my shining star and Bionca my glowing moon.*

Today is February 5, 2006. It's been 3 whole years since their death. To some this might seem a long time, but to me it seems like yesterday.

Memories flood through my mind and I see their faces flash into view. I grew up with these two girls and their little brother Randy who I am still friends with to this day. Their family has become like my family and I love them dearly. Although they are not physically here they are here with us in our hearts today--especially in those who were close to them. I won't admit that it's not hard but I know that they are up in Heaven with Jesus. I know one day, one day soon, we'll be reunited once again.

Brittany was 14 when she died and Bionca had just turned 16. It seems like only yesterday we were planning VBS and laughing till we were crying over a nice big cheesy pepperoni pizza.

It's things like there which will stay with me--forever.

R.I.P. Brittany - 7/11/88 - 2/5/03

R.I.P. Bionca - 1/24/87 - 2/5/03

"Forever In Our Hearts---Until We Meet Again"

This one is for you two:

Trading In My Sorrows:

I'm trading my sorrow
I'm trading my shame

I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

I'm trading my sickness
I'm trading my pain
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

Chorus:

And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord

Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord

Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen

I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned

Struck down but not destroyed

I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure

And his joy's gonna be my strength

Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning

I love you two so very much.

~~Teresa~~

It's official people...I've totally fallen for him.

His charm...his eyes...his laugh...his walk...his everything.

Dazed and Confused...

See...he reminds me of this song...because as much as we might care about eachother we can't be together...we understand it...we know it...we accept it...we embrace it...it's our life...

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I belive that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
Deny

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
(but I'm dreaming of you babe)
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear (say it lord)
My world crumbles when you are not here

Goodbye and I choke (I'm choking)
I try to walk away and I stumbe
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah..

I try--Macy Gray

Until further notice I only have half my heart.

Baby Baby sing my a lullaby...
Hold my hand...
Let this darkness fade into the morning light...

I'm really bored...and tired, but it's Friday so I'm rejoicing. I've got a whole weekend ahead of me. Thank GOODNESS.

I hope everyone else out there is doing great.
I got a few new pictures...check them out.

<3

So, we had a sleepover for all the girls in our Youth Choir @ Church.

It was pretty nifty...

This was at 11pm...and it was 37 degrees outside...

I love star gazing with mi amigas.

Me and Hannah we still going strong at 4am...

So I don't really know what to say.
I'm frustrated, but I'm happy.
See it's like this:
I was in love with someone.
I tried to forget about him.
We became best friends.
I started to move on.
I found a new guy.
Now this new guys history.
And deep down inside...
I still love him.
I don't like it.

How can I just stop Loving?
How can I just stop Caring?
How can I forget those Feelings deep within?

Does anyone got any good advice???

Am I really that ugly?

How can it be?
That you're too good for me.
Why Can't you see?
In your arms is where I want to be..

Your smile is radiant.
Your touch is sweet.
Your words are true.
Your view is distorted.

So...life's not too bad.
School is OVERLY hectic.
I've stopped thinking about *him* so much.
Yet, on days like these, it doesn't seem real.
He's gone--and he's not coming back.
But I'm really at peace-
With my life.
My family.
My friends.

Anywhooooooo
How is everyone else???

So life's not all that bad.
I decided I want a guy that can be sensitive. All the guys I end up with are like slave drivers and have hard hearts...most of the time anyways.

Now don't get me wrong...I don't want a guy crying all the time and being all emotional--that's my job. :)

Now for all you people out there here's some things you need to know aobut me.

I'm blonde
I'm crazy
I'm loud
I'm loveable
I'm a sarcastic smart ass
I'm Catholic
I'm a darn good Soccer player
I'm athletic
I heart Photography
I made a 97 in Honors Chem.
I'm allergic to wheat
I smile all the time...
I'm addicted to my friends
I've got an amazing mom
Now my siblings I'm not sure about
I've got a Xanga, MySpace, PhuseBox, and FaceBook
I need a life
I crush under stupid types of peer pressure
I'm a strong person
I'm a believer in many things
Miracles can happen
God is great
I'm single and pretty ok with it
Older guys like me
They have all been at least 20
It scares the royal crap outta me
Private school is blah
Public school is for druggies
Private school kids can afford drugs
Beer is nasty
I like wine
I don't really drink alcohol
I'm really bored right now.
Did I mention I'm a Sophmore
I'm in love with the South
Chick flicks aren't all that amazing
I believe in real life
I'm not all about seeing and believing
I have faith, hope, trust, and determination
I'm driven
I'm passionate
I love hugs
I hate drugs
I'm a mommy's girl
I used to be a tomboy
I'm still not sure if I'm a punk or a prep
I think I'm both
I like prep clothes in the summer
Punk clothes in the winter
I'm dyslexic
I think I'm finished now.

I love you alllllllllllllllll.

ILK! I made up a new word.
I dislike braces and it's only been 2 1/2 days. :(
Ohwell...I just miss my smile--

Love me--love me like there's no tomorrow.

Is it Better to Have Loved and Lost Or to have Never Loved At All???

And I want some remarks on this one people.

Life = Hard

Love = Sacrifice

Me = Determined

I really should be doing homework, but me being the oh-so-wonderful procrastinator that I am decided to hold it off a little longer.

My hair has grown about 3in since I cut it in May...
I think I might go get it cut today...wouldn't that be niiiiice. lol.
I dunno--it's naturally curly as u can see below and I'm just a lil bit tired of it. hmmmm
We'll see. If I do I will def. post pics.
<3 u all.

me and the oh-so-cute Hannah.

That girl--her name is Sarah Elizabeth Gearhart.
She is without a doubt and for lack of better words an amazing friend.

I think everyone just needs to take a chill pill and relax.
Life isn't that bad people. Talking about Drama just makes more Drama. Just take a step back...enjoy this life through all the hectic schedules and homework overloads...life is good...eventhough it doesn't seem like it sometimes. We've gotta Live this Life--
I love you guys.
Take it Light.
3 weeks till Christmas Break! (yay)
3 Days till my Rents 21st Anniversary! (yay)
4 days till I babysit! (money)
16 days till I get my braces. (oh shit)
27 days till Christmas!!!
Today is Melvin' Birthday. Happy 17th to ya kiddo...eventhough u don't have a PhuseBox. :)

Whoa! I like updating b4 I go to Memphis...ain't that w-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l of me? Yeah, I thought so too.
Well, I hope everyone has a super duper Thanksgiving. Eat lots of turkey, but don't overdue it or anything. haha

I'm exhausted...oooooh wow am I exhausted...but it's all good. I talked to Logan till 3...sheesh I need to get a life.

Well, I'm outta here. "como mas pollo" << hmmm randomness.

I wuv u all!!!

So everyone was like "get a phusebox" it's so amazing and so much better.
So yeah...I've got a phusebox now everyone. yay?!

I hope everyone has an amazing Turkey Day!!!

Love!