i just windexed my car.

yes. windex.

can you get high off of that?

cause im pretty sure i just did. ahaha


me & sarah layed in the street & played airplanes tonight.

it was fun.

i havent been on here for a while.
there's really no reason.
but summer is over.
& im pretty sad.
it just wasnt what i expected.

i miss rocketown.
i havent been there in weeks.
i ihad mae/the spill canvas tickets;;
then got grounded = (

anyways.
someone come see me.

before i go crazy.

my brother has a buncha friends over.

so its the house with all the cars.

you'll find it ;]

so basically, today was my mom's birthday.
i thought i was fine,
but apparently im not.
i know its good to cry,
but my head is killing me.

please pray for me.
i finally faced reality today.
& i feel like falling apart.
i feel somewhat deserted.
& quite strangely, scared.
scared of change,
scared of being hurt,
& scared of being lonely.

& worst of all, im sick of giving.
time & myself.

i know its all part of life;; but im just tired.


"everyone's looking around,
& wants to be found.
And im just hanging on,
i give you ALL THAT I AM.

& as a sit here,
in the midst of you,
i come to you,
i come with all that i am."


i miss her.

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy
tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let
go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."

jazzfest was way fun last night.
hung out mostly with michelle. phillip. REESY!! emily & ben.
it was amazing<3
especially the b a l l o o n s.... ; )
haha
& i made [2] wishes in the fountain.
= )

there's this army in Uganda, Africa
called the Lord's Resistance Army that has this leader who thinks he's
God...he abducts thousands of children everyday & not only trains
& brainwashes them to fight in his war, but also uses them as sex
slaves. there are some shelters in Africa that these children go to
every night to hide from these warriors that come & abduct them.
they walk up to five miles (2 hours every night) & cram themselves
in these tiny shelters basically fearing that they're gonna die any
minute...

these three college guys found out about it &
decided to go to Uganda & make a documentary about it...they put
together this thing called the "invisible children" because nobody
really cares about these kids & kinda overlook them like they're
invisible. they have bracelets and newsletters to try & raise money
for this cause.

this Saturday they are holding a walk in 130
cities around America...if we get 75,000 people signed up for this
walk, the USA's government will do something about it.

it's this
Saturday (April 29th) & the closest place near us is in Franklin.
we meet at the Target in Franklin (by Cool Springs Mall) & walk
five miles to the People's Church & camp out there for the night
simulating what the children do every night sort of like a wake up call
for our government.

Be there.
sign up at www.invisiblechildren.com
spread the word. ya heard?

so im not sure why i update this thing,
no one really comments..
but, here i am again.. haha

4 more weeks then school's out.
that makes me really really happy.
i cant wait for this summer.
its going to be i n c r e d i b l e..

i had a pretty sucky weekend..
but saturday was ok..
-drove around with bart, emily, & emily all day.
-went to lebanon & saw bethy & sarah & john
- hung out with chris
THEN i got home & got my car taken away = (

but yeah i get it back friday just in time ; )
yayyye<3

hope everyone has a good week.

<33 chels

switchfoot concert tonight;;

Florida with michelle tomorrow.

have a great week guys<3

i love this song.

Stay up all night and sleep all day,
We were smart kids with too much to say,
and so, so sure that they
were missing out.

They're the ones who are missing out
We were elemental. Talked down to bear essentials.
Who knew we'd get so far?

Cause our days were numbered
by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we'd burn so bright.
We burn this city and
go.

 
Play it again, (our games of love and lust.)
There's no such
thing (no there's never too much).
And we were so, so sure, oh we never had
a doubt.
Now  were  counting  days  to  getting  out.
 

We were elemental, took down to bear essentials.
Who knew we'd get so
far?

Cause our days were numbered
by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we're wasting our lives,
Oh at least we know, that if we die
-we lived with
passion.

They said we'd burn so bright.
We burn this city and
go.

Pack our bags and let's get away
- they're catching on to us.
Pack our bags and get away
- they're catching on to us.

++Cartel++

 one week
today.

= ]

= ]

&& btw,
this girl is amazing<3

whyyyyyy
do
i
keep
falling
for him....

so basically the rest of the week is going to r o c k.

tomorrow im at erica's all day, then going to moe's with emily & then we're going to meet up with some people at bonhoeffer's to see finding steve cunningham & echosflow its gonna be lovely = ]

friday- babysiting [money, money] then going out with the girls <3

saturday night- hanging out with rachel at cafe express

sunday- church, then that night is MAE!!!!!!

yeah im pretty excited = ]

hope everyone else has a great weekend too!!! <3

i really dont think this week/weekend can get any worse..
if it does, i might cry.... again.
im really tired of this. = (

my so called "date" cancelled on me tonight = (
he has to do his taxes.. hah & its true.
not just some dumb excuse.. haha
but he needs to get them done
so i told him its ok.. = )
so now im hangin with the girls tonight..
yayeee!!

happy valentine's
day!!!

&& just when the week was beginning to get good = [

take your time,
don't live too fast
troubles will come
&& they will pass.

i need to let go of a l o t.
its just so hard..

i feel like the worst person ever. = (

sometimes life's confusing.
&& no one understands you.
then again their is ONE person that understands all.


//you looked into my life
and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple but so b e a u t i f u l.
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak,
you let me know, i am understood.

you're the only one who understands
completely,
you're the only one who knows me yet still loves completely,
and sometimes the place i'm at is at a loss for words.

if i think of something worthy, i know that it's already yours
and through the times i've faded and you've outlined me again
you've just patiently waited, to bring me back and then//

have
you ever known something about someone & wanted to talk to that
person about it but couldn't because you weren't really supposed to
know it in the first place?
what did you do??


i found something out not too long ago about someone that care alot about..
we're not as close as we used to be, but still i care.
when i found out i was completely shocked.
i dont know what to do.
it makes me sick to think about.
&& now i've lost alot of respect for this person.
but its impossible for me to tell anybody.

i
don't
know
what
to
do.

LIPSCOMB WON!!!
they beat belmont like 95-85.
i think. haha
but i really did pay attention to the game!!
aha.
i guess..
&& i got a shirt.
&& met some hott boys. = ]
&& saw jess.
yayee.

i really hope this weekend turns out good.
&& the way i planned it before crap happened.
but it probably wont.
such as life...
but i do know one limo plus 10 of us,
is going to be AMAZING.
oh yeah.

have a good & happy weekend. <3