Growing up isn't such a bad thing.

Yep. 18. Older.

 

Now all I have to do is graduate. Then I'm outta here. 

@#@$#$$#@##$@# YEAH!!!!!!!! I just got accepted to UTC!!!!!!

Yep, Phusebox is losing steam. Or maybe I'm just not as active with it as I used to be. The latter, yes.

 

I guess the reaon I don't update is because I SEE most of you daily, if not weekly. If you're not up to date with my goings on... there's a communication problem we need to fix.

 

I've officaily started planning for my 18th birthday, sent off college applications, got a 22 on the ACT, need to get a drawing of my tattoo so I can get it soon (WOO!!, and start working on the Skitzo 

script (I'm writing the play). Basically I'm living like a crazy person about to graduate high school. Which is what I am. Makes sense. 

It’s all over
It’s all over now
The seal is broken
Creatures spoken now

I hope you come up
To heaven right now
It’s all over
It’s all over now

Can I be changed
Or am I the same

It’s all over
It’s all over now
No room for hiding
We’re children fighting now

And I hope you come up
To heaven right now

It’s all over
It’s all over now
Can I be the same

The rain is falling
The rain is falling now
Today we’re leaving
Our souls are calling now

The stars on his right
Holding seven right now
The rain is falling
The rain is falling now

Can I be changed
Or am I the same

[Repeat Chorus]

The same
Can I be changed

[Jay Z:]
Yeah, what you critics said would never happen.
We dedicate this album to anybody, people said couldn't make it.
To the fans that held us down till everybody came around.
Welcome. It's here.

Last summer we took threes across the board
But by fall we were a cover story "now in stores"
Make us poster boys for your scene
But we are not making an acceptance speech
I found the safest place to keep all our old mistakes
Every dot com's refreshing for a journal update

So long live the car crash hearts
Cry on the couch all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

So long live the car crash hearts
Cry on the couch all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

I can take your problems away with a nod and a wave
Of my hand, 'cause that's just the kind of boy that I am
The only thing I haven't done yet is die
And it's me and my plus one at the afterlife
Crowds are won and lost and won again
But our hearts beat for the diehards

So long live the car crash hearts
Cry on the couch all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

So long live the car crash hearts
Cry on the couch all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

Long live the car crash hearts
(Long live the car crash hearts)
Long live the car crash hearts
(Long live the car crash hearts)

Long live the car crash hearts
Cry on the couch all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

Hehe... Woo!

[Jay Z:]
Young F-O-B.
Let's go

Soooo Judgment's over. YAY!! I can sleep again!! But I have mysteriously managed to catch something. And it sucks.

 

Haven't been doing a whole lot lately worth posting about, but I am looking for a job. So if anyone knows of anywhere that may be hiring, let me know and I'll pursue that as soon as I'm not hacking my head off.

I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.
Is it over yet, in my head?
I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.
Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.


You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

This will be all over soon.
Pour salt into the open wound.

Is it over yet? Let me in.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.


You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.


I'm waiting, I'm praying, realize, start hating.


You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you

I found this on youtube last night, and it's pretty amazing.

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6_upMaelLE

 

Theres another one that I may or may not post later. 

Fall break, yeah... no. Alabama was fun, but practice today was crazy madness. I'll be happy when it's over.

 

I'm thinking about trying out for Seussical in November, but I don't really know if I'll have time for it. 

 

 

This is what I brought you this you can keep,
This is what I brought you may forget me.
I promised to depart just promise one thing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

This is what I brought you this you can keep,
This is what I brought you may forget me.
I promise you my heart just promise to sing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

This is what I thought,
I thought you need me,
This is what I thought so think me naive,
I promise you a heart you promised to keep,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep

 

 

You have to love AFI sometimes. 

And over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and FREAKING OVER!!!!!!

 

So have I made it clear that I'm not a happy camper yet? 

Mmmm-kay I've been given a deadline to do something I DO NOT want to do. And I have discovered I don't have the physical, emotional, or mental capability to do it

Muahahaha!! I have the new Within Temptation CD!!! Ahahahahaha!!

 

So yeah, I've benn plugging the old earbuds in when I have the chance ( I think I'm addictied to music). And it's really making me miss dancing, so if anyone knows where I might be able to get some cheap lessons...

I really do. Every single time I go to one of those blasted things I'm stuck with a headache. And the seniors have no choice but to go. I guess I could just hide out in the bathroom or something.

 

But yeah, I'm already sure I've contracted senioritis, which is no bueno. But I'm just dealing with it. 

Is one of the best after school snack I think there is. But I'm pretty sure my brain is turning into mush, three math classes is more than taxing to my right brain dominant self.

 

 

I think this was one of those days where I'm tired in every way possible. No wait, I know it was.

Yeah... wow.

Firt week of school is over and I have yet to understand why people make such a big deal out of being a senior. You still have a few years of school left if you ever want a decent job, you are nowhere near done with school.

 

Ah well, I guess that's my pessimistic mini rant for the day.

  

Yep, school started back today. And I am not at all pleased. My schedule is about eight kinds of jacked up. It'll be sorted out soon, at least it should be. Until then I have crap loads of papers to fill out.

 

Oh and I have a cold. Yay. 

Yeah, that song is only good when it's not stuck in your head.

 

*sigh* It's been a long week. Mom had to go to Michigan for a friend thingy and she should be back tommorow morning. All the while I've been playing mother and I have decided I don't want kids, teenage ones to be specific. I've never know myself to have the barely containable urge to smother Camden in her sleep, somebody please tell me if I was ever that annoying when I was her age.

 

We head out for Fine Arts on Tuesday (at six in the frikin morning) so somebody is bringing me coffe, or I'm stocking up on Coke Black. so either way, I'm not a morning person. Never have been, don't plan on ever being one.

 

 

Yeah, never thought I'd say that, but hey.

 

I went to the neurologist yesterday. They told me what I already knew and advised me to quit caffene and take the medicine they give me. I can do one of the two immediately, the no caffene thing is gonna be a real pain.

 

I absolutely refuse to be miserable and go cold turkey, so I'm "weaning" myself. Ehghgh.  

We're back. And omigawsh I'm tired...

 

Anyways, i got a puppy. Super cute. 

I'm taking advantage of some free time time to gve the highlights of my trip thus far...

 

Robert got us in Kalamazoo, so we don't let him drive while Mom sleeps anymore. 
photo from Sinatra


photo from Sinatra


We got there in one piece and so far so good. I haven't seen my cousins in about 10 years, and they look a little different. David (shorty in the red shirt) wasn't even born at that point.
photo from Sinatra


Uncle Rick tried to  teach me how to play the piano, and then settled down to his guitar when he realized I'm "instrumentaly challenged". 
Mom's high school friend Missy 
The house on the Amish farm Mom grew up near. They're great people, and that's where I sewed my finger to the sewing machine. I was 7, sue me. 
Fluffy cuteness!!Not so fluffy or cute. 
We all roke out into
Weird Al at this point.    

 



 

 

   

 

I love it up here!!!!!!!