so  this song totally describes the way i feel right now...i think.  some of it does anyway.  here are the lyrics, along with side thoughts.

"He and I...it's something beautiful...but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last...I loved him so, but I let him go..." (did i though???  i don't think.) "...cuz i knew he'd never love me back.  Such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced..." (too bad it is.) "...I'm still reeling from the loss, still a little bit delirious...Near to you, I am healing but it's taking so long.  Cuz though he's gone, and you are wonderful, it's hard to move on..." (tell me about it.  amen.) "...Yet, I'm better near to you..." (i'm not so sure.) "With you and I, it's something different...and I'm enjoying it cautiously.  I'm battle scarred..." (YES i am.  this sucks.) "...but I am working oh-so-hard to get back to who I used to be.  He's disappearing, fading suddenly..." (that's really suckish.) "...I'm so close to being yours..." (even though i wish i was his...) "...won't you stay with me...please...I only know that I am better where you are...I only know that I am better where you are...I only know that I belong where you are..." (but i want him to be there all the time..forever.  and this stinks.  i belong where he is...and i'm better there.  but i can't move.  i'm stuck in this spot, no matter how badly i want to get out of it.  when i'm with you and he's not there, it's no problem.  then i see him, and my knees go weak.  my heart beats fast...my mind starts racing with thoughts of how he and i could have been and should be.  but i can't move...help.)