Well I got two days of OSS.  I didn't want to do my ISS day so I didn't go and they gave me OSS and an extra day of it too.  So I slept in late and came to the library.  If I could find that damn receipt I would take back that hat.  Grr.  I'll have to ask my grandmother where it is.  I am going to go somewhere today before work.  But I don't know where.  Maybe the dam.  I don't want sex.  I don't want lust.  I just want to be loved.  Is that so fucking hard to find?  If I can't find a date for Prom before Febuary 23rd., then I am gonna go by myself.  I will be dressed in red and black or purple and black.  Not sure yet.

Vampire Heart

You can't escape the wrath of my heart
Beating to your funeral song
All faith is lust for hell regained
And love dust in the hands of shame

Let me bleed you this song of my heart deformed
And lead you along this path in the dark
Where I belong until I feel your warmth

Hold me like you held on to life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me like you loved the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart

I am the thorns in every rose, you've been sent by hope
I am the nightmare waking you up from the dream of a dream of love

Let me weep you this poem as heaven's gates close
And paint you my soul scarred and alone
Waiting for your kiss to take me back home

Hold me like you held on to life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me like you loved the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart

Rip Out The Wings Of A Butterfly

Heaven ablaze in your eyes
We're standing still in time
The blood on our hands is the wine
We offer as sacrifice

Come on and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul

This endless mercy mile
We're crawling side by side
With hell freezing over in our eyes
Gods kneel before our crime

Come on and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul