Some nights I just don't feel like sleeping.

I'm trying not to force change upon anything. Though I've talked a lot about how I want things to be, it's only because I'm living in 2 worlds that are polar opposite. Really, neither needs to change, because then it wouldn't be real. You'd be faking what I wanted. I just.. I don't like to choose. I know I cannot mix oil with water but I continue to try.