I've either been sleeping too little or too much... I haven't decided which one.

So I was reading the latest post on "justincredible"s site about waiting... and it really made me think. Lately I've been pretty wrapped up in the way things are going to turn out, so much in fact, that I'm not enjoying what's going on right now. I'm too focused on what things WILL be, instead of what they ARE. Right now I have something amazing, something to smile for. I don't know why I'm never satisfied, but it's obvious to everyone around me. Even after losing 20 pounds, growing my hair out, getting my long-time boyfriend back, reconnecting my cellphone, having cash in my purse, and finally having my mom loosen up the slack a bit..... things still don't feel right. I've come really far, I just wanna see where it's all going. I guess I miss my huge groups of extremely close friends. And I'm so consumed with what the future brings, that I'm forgetting to see how beautiful it is... this very moment.

*sigh* I try.