Yesterday was Santini's Bday so we got a bunch of people together for lunch at Chef Wangs. 

  It was a fun day.  So if you haven't said happy 17th to him yet.  You def should.

PotC 2 is decidedly more enjoyable when viewed on a decent amount of sleep, at a decent hour.

Lord Jerkface's real name is Lord Cutler Bennet.
And I think I know how the dice game works.

Still vastly displeased by the ending, however.  That ruling was never expected to change.

I've started compiling a folder of Renaissance portraits for costume-y references when March rolls around.  It is a much larger undertaking than I had anticipated.  Egad!  Because, well, there are a bloody lot of people who insisted on having portraits made, to say nothing of the vast quantity commissioned by our very own Elizabeth I.  And then there are people from different countries, and laa-de-laa-de-laa.  It's insane.  But conquerable.

This, in addition to a new costume-y fetish revolving around the late 18th century.

Calm, calm.

okay the bluecoats are here in franklin and im going to see my best friend...if you wanna come you are welcome to....im leaving at 6 to go over there so if you wanna come with me give me a call!

Leah

So who else is addicted to MineSweeper????

Going to the beach... yeah

late night sonic run + whistles + pixie stick + energy drink +  a couple a pretty tired guys + going to the bathroom with no light other than mere's fancy "entertainment cell phone" + telling funny stories+ fiting/smooshing 4 people in the little back seat = a recipe for F-U-N!! ahh yes SPONSER RUSH! i would have to say IT one FANTASTIC night!!!!

hey guys this one is to everyone i know...

read it slowly and carefully...

guys...we lost the vision
the vision of heaven and hell...
we lost it guys....think about this for a sec...
what does the death of jesus christ mean to you...
because i take a look at this world...at the country...
at my church...and to tell you the truth...it means...
nothing...why the heck do you say you know
God and you accept him you are still not transformed...
if you really seeked christ he would transform you...
dont even put on acts about these things...
i mean cmon guys why are you still the same...
why is it that when someone hurts you or others
you get mad and retaliate...huh?..why is it that you
still dont listen to your parents the first time they tell you to
do somethin...why is it that everytime his or her names pop
up you think about those things...thoughts of hate...why
is it that when you talk about how much of you are hatin them...
you still dont drop your knees and take some time to pray for them...
why dont you pray for your enemies...guys...
this is my wake up call to you...guys...if you dont answer this call...
guys...thats not right...we lost the vision...we need to find it...just..
keep strong...follow jesus...

i've been thinking a lot lately; a lot about love & where i stand with it. i hate the world's view of love. it's distorted & not how it should be. whenever you hear of so & so being "in love", our immediate reaction is "again?", "who isn't","big deal" or sayings of the sort. we should be so extatic & happy for the couple, but love isn't special anymore. it gets on my nerves so bad when couples who don't know what love is start saying their "i love you"'s so fast. we throw love around like it's nothing at all & true love has lost it's value in our lives. we don't even know what love is, & we don't take the time to find the lost meaning of what it really is. love is so amazing. it's this incredible rush feeling that spreads throughout your body continually & never leaves you. it's that feeling of when your significant other walks into the room & your stomach drops to the floor. it's that smile that instantly spreads across your face when you see your best friend is doing something that makes them happy. it's that feeling you try to put in words, but no word or meaning could possibly convey that very spark we have in our hearts when we express our love towards each other. it's unexplainable, undeniable, & undescribable. love is a touchy subject, but i think it's safe to say that i've experienced it firsthand.

this is why i am so in love with the spill canvas. their lyrics aren't just those cliche lines you hear all the time. they took the time to pick apart their feelings & put them into these wonderful lyrics that leave me breathless.

i can't wait 'til their concert.

i worked so incredibably hard on this stupid movie, and now stupid youtube is all stupid and stuff, so it wont let me upload that stupid movie!!! argh..... it's all too stupid......

so on top of me getting my car...

i also managed to get a job making an average of 10 to 15 an hour.

like yesterday... i worked for not even 7 hours... and made over 100 dollars.

and thats amazing for a 16 year old.

so yeah...

but a couple of bad things happened on my first 2 days of work.

1- i managed to lock my keys in my car. as well as my phone.

2- some girl who USED to work with me stole 21 dollars from me and it had to come out of MY paycheck.

but yeah...

i have a great car.

a better job.

and an amazing girlfriend.

so take that!.

Got a racecar grin and a calculation
And every gun for a secret agent
Defunct that timebomb at the space station
Hey, Secret Agent X-9 why don't you drop me a line?
And say, would it cost you your job
to say what was in that gold box?
So why did they give you that job?
And why can they give you that job?
You think this guy was on a permanent vacation
But no he's not, he's a secret agent

Forget what I said earlier and read this. I'm happy again. you may thing that I'm just crazy, but I just got some really great news.

I

LOVE

Pixie Sticks..........

Whistles................

AND

Energy Drinks!!!!!!!!!!!

and admit that I'm not ok."

"It's time to take off the shades and let you see I've cried."

"It's time to end the charade and just let it all out."

I sit down, and I cry, and I'm miserable. But I lie and tell everyone it's nothing, that I'm alright.But I'm not. I'm going crazy, and I'm falling apart. There are days when I just want to scream cause it hurts so much, and it's so unfair. I feel in love with a guy over a thousand miles away.

It's like yesterday I curled up in my room and just cried my eyes out. I couldn't even think straight. Am I an idiot for putting myself through this? I don't know. Sometimes I wonder.

I know I'm tedious and my ramblings about my love life are annoying, so I'll just apologize now.

SPONSER RUSH=amazing

you boys all look so beautiful @ 2 AM!

contest between me and tyty to see who can jump out of the swing the farthest...

story time with mr. jeremy... he loved it!

being pushed in the baby swing, was a way to end the night! : )

So as of yesterday I started my new Job at New York Cafe......It is amazing at the time I am delevering although I don't know how long it will last since I am going to be losing my car here soon.......if I can make enough money to keep my rental then I think I will just extend it a bit longer then what I already did.....but yesterday in 5 hours I made like 50 some odd bucks......including tips......I am really enjoying it.......anyways I just thought I would give a little up date.......peace out bye bye

Hmmm... Not really knowing what 's going on.  Need someone to talk to.  Want to talk to him.  Want him to call.  Won't 'til he sees this.  Love him so much.  gotta go...
Nothing to say...

And no one believes me

the movie can be found here.

once again, courtesy to the swb crew.

enjoy.

Hi !

Im a little upset right now guys. One of my favoritest horses Jumper died last night. Im nto sure how but when I walked out to feed her there she was dead.

I hope ya'll have a marvelous day !

currently in Nags Head NC looking threw my 3rd stoy window of our condo at the ocean which is only about 300 ft away.  So much family....my uncle's hair is longer than mine... :) We watched the Big Liboski (sp) last night like my entire family was squeezed in this little room to watch it.  It was great.  I am have a great time. I'll get back to you in a couple days.  by that time Im sure I will be completely sick of everyone.

i'm here planes suck. i typed up long blog. the computer ate it. i shall cry..no i'm good. i'll try to update later.....

---

these feelings come like swift winds through a canyon
a paper cut to my heart
do i know what causes them, no
do they have an apparent reason, no
but as far as i remember i've felt this way
good one moment, then not the next
paranoid i'm all alone, and then on top of the world...
but atlast i've found someone that cares enough
to pick up the phone, even if it's late at night
and listen to my paranoid self...
God, thank You, she is amazing in every way.

I just got back from RYM - Reformed Youth Movement. It was a one week christian camp at Launa Beach in Panama City Florida. It was AWESOME! I spent hours on the beach, met some really cool people, learned about God, and made some great memories. I''l post pictures as soon as I get em cleaned up on the computer. Hope you guys are havin a summer as good as mine!

<JA(OB>

Every penny in a well,every broken wish bone, every 11:11 on a clock, every crossed finger, every turn of a necklace pendant, every star in the sky, every fallen eyelash, every blown out candle, every wish I could make....will never give me you.

Several years ago, I installed Red Hat Linux on a computer to learn how to use Linux. In the process, I found this simple, yet addictive game bundled into the Operating System called Frozen Bubble (combine Pinball and Bejeweled).



Fast forwarding to last week, I found a Windows version of the game =). If anyone would like to try it, it can be downloaded from the link below:

http://shannon.fsa.mtsu.edu/FrozenBubble-Win32.zip

Follow the instructions in the install-instructions text file and enjoy.

---

If you are a Mac user, a version of Frozen Bubble for Mac OS X 10.3.* and higher can be downloaded from the link below:

http://redivi.com/~bob/frozenbubble.html

Alas, an adult in all legal aspects ... today Josh is 21 YO.  What a great achievement for him.  His life is moving forward.  He has a plan ... and he is working his plan.

I am very proud of Josh (as I am with all 3 of my sons).  Josh has proven that having parents that live on separate corners of the world does not destine one for failure.

Josh excelled in high school.  Entered Tenn Tech Univ in the honors program.  Has maintained a 4.0 through for years of college.  Has a beautiful wife and son.  Has a plan ...  very well done, my son !!!!

Do you know what I am particularly proud of for Josh?  Its that he has a good personality and is very caring.  He has a great blend of intellectual, artistic, and humanity atributes.  Again, very well done, my son !!!!

Happy Birthday Josh

Made new progress on the move front late Friday and over the weekend.

First, the shipper finally "gets it" .... (a) boxes go by air from Angola to Indonesia, (b) LDN crates go by air from Angola to USA, and (c) 50% of storage is added to item (b) and they go by boat to Indonesia .... of course, I had to reduce 2 degrees of complexity to get to this point ... but, I'm still getting a 95% answer .... yeah, success on this.

Second, made great progress on item (a) above.  We loaded up 14 boxes of stuff, inventoried it, and got it ready to ship.  Even this "quick delivery" by air probably won't be available to us until October ... but I'm working on that.

Completed the inventory list and separated the items into all the different travel routes/classifications .... and then, totalled the valuations on "each page" just like the instructions said .... I think I now have 20 pages of stuff .....

Next major challenges:  (a) get money from the Expat Center that they owe me, (b) complete Customs forms .... never a dull momemnt

Im asking for people to pray for my mothers best friend , Laurie Brock. She is dying of Lou Gehrig's  disease. She was fine and healthy and walking all last year, and she was having a pain and went to see the doctor and told her she had it. Its a disease were everything in your body shuts down slowly and painfully. And some dissenigrates. And she is to the point right now were she said she wants to go . Because she is to the point were she can't move anything but to open and close her eyes, and that is how she says stuff, and my mom is ok with this and God letting this happen , which is good. This is just very sad, to see this wonderful, sweet woman have this, bc you would never think someone like her would get something so horrible like this. And her daughter is one of my friends, but she is not dealing with this well. But now were all just praying for mercy on her, because she is in pain, and we would rather her now be out of pain and with her heavenly father , and pain free. Because Life is good,  but eternal life is better. And all of ur sadness, pain , hurt goes away. Because God is such a powerful creator . Without him I don't know what I would do . I would be so confused, hurt, angry , mad, dissapointed...  LOST . Sometime I do feel those things, but in the end I am happy bc I know I have God , and that is all that matters. I just ask that people pray  for Laurie, because it is a good feeling when you know more people are praying for her. So I guess that is all I have to say . Sorry this blog was like uber long and depressing . But I love all you guys, and I cant wait to come up and see my friends in TN... yay 18 days... holy mo. haha. Ok well I hope everyone has had a wonderful summer...

in him

Sarah

as of tonight, my parents have my password to everything on here.

if you wanna contact me without them being able to read it, email me at any of these three email addresses:

drpepper1110@aol.com
woahbabyitsbecca@aol.com
love_never_fails00@yahoo.com

or there's always the cell phone... =]

i love you all...
[becca]

I. hate. computers.
And how necessary they are! I mean, the job I want one day, the major I'm in - depends on computers! Yet mine's been a real stinker lately. Since I couldn't get the Windows Movie Maker to be friendly, I had to download a free trial of some other video editing software and upload almost all (but not all for a reason that will be explained in a minute) of the footage I have ever shot for my contest video (because I'm using all sorts of random stuff.) Capturing video was interrupted because all of a sudden, apparently I have like no room left on my C drive! AUGH! Anyhow, I just deleted like half of my picture in an effort to free up some space, but it didn't do much good (not to mention an extremely painful thing for me to do, but they're all backed up on at least two CDs if not more!). I think it's mostly the video stuff. Sigh. I could really use that Mac now...

I think if I don't win it one from the contest, I'm just going to break down and buy one for myself for my birthday. I can afford it, I would just rather not spend the money. But I do have it and I don't really have anything else to use it for right now. I am saving some money in case I study abroad but there are also scholarships avaliable for that and I'll be getting more money from MTSU between now and the time I actually go (if I go). I also wanted to have some financial backing for whenever I get married, but I guess I should just chill out and realize that God will take care of all that. He controls money, and He can supply it as I need it. I probably still have another two or three years to go before I get married, so I still have time to save up money for that. And since I'm stuck at home for the moment at least I don't have rent expenses.

I guess I overthink these things, but I just want to be prepared for anything the future throws at me. I grew up in a household where my parents were very discerning in how they spent their money and often times bought much less than they could have afforded. They chose to not buy every new and big and wonderful thing, and I think that's really helped us in the long haul. But I digress... all this started from a rant about computers. I suppose if I get nothing out of this contest, God is teaching me more about trusting Him.

Well, I put up about...oh, I don't know, 4 quintillian Governor's School pictures.  Most people don't won't care, but if you'd like a glimpse at the most bizarre and wonderful group of people ever...you might check them out.

Here are a few of my personal favorites:

My roommate Brittney and I, in our everyday attire.

Rules for visiting our room.

My super cool counselor Amber.

My lovely friend Kethleen and her disclaimer.

Me and my suitemates...the best suitemates ever...at our closing banquet, which was very sad. 

Bekka making a pretty face.

Tia, one of the nicest girls I've met, and Caroline, one of the most beautiful.

My room, in one of its messier moments.

And of course my dear Brittney again, doing her thing.

Heart heart heart,

Christina

I HAVE NEW YORK PIX'S ONLY A FEW MORE TO COME!!!

So with this post I am officially smudging with virtual burning sage to cleanse any negative energies from my little Phusebox home.  Or sublet, one.

Though I must confess, it's sometimes difficult not to be irritating for irritation's sake.

*Sigh*

*Sage*  *Sage*  *Sage*  *Sage  *Sage*

Hahaha, so we visited my Dad's parents today and found a photo album from back in the day.  ...Dad's hair has not changed since he was six years old.  *Snirkle*  Close-cut, parted on the left, and what God has put together, let no man put asunder, lalala.

And, due to popular request, photographs of referee Horacio Elizondo, the extraordinary gentleman in neon jersey of the FIFA World Cup finals.  Apparently he's Argentinian and 42; who knew?  Soccer seems to have Fountain-of-Hottness capacities.

The classic Baywatch run...

Uhhhh... Macarena?  Insert your own caption here.

I don't know what to say for this one, either.

"Who's your daddy?"  ((Hey, I wouldn't object to having a badass referee for a father.  That'd just be awesome.))

There would be more, but most of my Sources just had the same ones over and over.  Sadness.  :'(

So I'm back home from another mission trip, and yet again everything seems unfamilar. Yes, this is my room....with all of my "stuff" yet it doesn't seem like I live here. I return home transfigured, changed, but how do I keep myself from changing back...molding back to this home of mine?

I had a blast with everyone at St. Paul's on our ReCreation trip and really didn't want to come home. I can speak for everyone who came on this trip that God's presence was felt in a truly mighty way. It's Sunday at 230pm, and I already want to shower(given) and then immediately pickup the phone and dial these kid's numbers to hang out. I'm really looking forward to spending time with them this week, and definitely the rest of the summer.

I hope all is going extremely well for everyone else. Hit me up if you want to hang. Peace

Going to Florida for the week on vacation with my family! :-D wohoo!!

sooo i got back from california yesterday!
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 it was sooo awesome out there we are definately going back i absolutely love malibu, oxnard and LA and yeah its soo neaat.
jessie and katie and me reunited this morning at church i hadnt seen them since end of kamp because we all were going out of town for the past 2 weeks!! so that was pretty exciting..and last night i dyed my hair brown..back to my roots ;) so no more dying from now and on, just had to get it back to more natural yep..
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and now tonight!!!
DEF LEPPARD JOURENY CONCERT!!!
i am so excited..can not wait
its going to be amazing..well im gonna go nap or something :)
oh
and did i mention that i got into WESTERN kentucky??
yeh..
so tara will be moving there at the end of august !!!!!:D

http://www.dci.org/media/theater.cfm?bctid=151749741

^watch the trailor

wow!!!! DCI national quarter finals on IMAX..... and im going!!!!

you should come with me.... tix are 18 bucks but the show is 5 and a hlaf hours long!!!!

this is going to be amazing

well in onther news...

band starts in 2 days

2... thats a very small number

its good to be home

much love

- milly 

Love God!!!

who is with me ?

Im going to Hawaii next week. I need some good movies to watch on the way over there. Does anyone know any really good ones????

off to memphis for orientation.

i'll be back late tuesday, so i'll see you kids on wednesday.

don't have too much fun without me.

*edit*

on a side note, i hate stupid people and radicals (on either end of the spectrum).

  so the summer is winding down. 

  maybe not for some of you. 

  but for me it is. 

  sucks that band kids have a shorter summer than others. 

  oh well. 

  i kinda wish it'd last longer. 

  i always feel empty at the end of the summer. 

  kinda like i missed out on something. 

  but i dont know what. 

  i just feel like i didn't do what i was supposed to do or something. 

  it's weird. 

  but this summer was fun. 

  i got to know some people a whole lot more. 

  i'm going to miss those late night convos. 

  but i can't stay up all night and still make good grades and do band. 

  it's just not physically possible. 

  and i'm going to miss making tacos at 12 am. 

  and drawing with sidewalk chalk. 

  and playing video games. 

  oh, i'm going to miss video games. 

  but no time during the school year. 

  i need to cheer up... 

  summer's not over yet. 

..............................

only 2 more days!!

Good day today, with a fantabulous ending!

This weekend at the Belcourt was another bi-weekly late night show.  This week's feature was Evil Dead 2.  For those of you unfamiliar with this title, it is the second of two prequels to one of the funniest movies in existence:

Seriously.  If you haven't ever seen this movie, watch it.  You don't have to watch Evil Dead or Evil Dead 2 to understand it.

Sure, it helps a tiny bit, but I fell in love with Army of Darkness long before I ever saw either of the prequels.  So there you have it.

And who didst I happen to run into when I went into the lobby to retrieve napkins?  Mellie Riddle!  My dearest of dear buddies with whom I haven't spoken since her birthday in early June.  She, her boyfriend, and two buddies sat in the row behind my dad and I.  We had much heckle-y fun.

(Oh.  If you have a desire to see Army of Darkness --trust me it's totally worth it-- but don't know where to lay your hands on a copy, lemme know and I'll see about lending you ours.)

    So basically while Steph was just messing around with doing some photo editing, she ended up being better at it than I am.  How cool is she?  Check these out!

That's me and her in DP, Texas.  Someday we'll head down there.

This is her and I at her lakehouse.  I haven't gotten to see it yet.

This is just us on a beach hanging out. 

And this is my favorite.  I'm chillin with the crew of Tintin. 

Isn't she just awesome?  Thought I'd brag on her. 

Pictures Tomorrow

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the summers almost up and school is coming its time to load up and prepare for school

for me its time to prepare to be the retared freak that is useless and nobody cares if you pass or fail for me it is time to try my heart out and fail no one under stands the fellings that i have towards school and the teachers that think that they are helping by telling you to stay after class and tell you again and agian the same thing that they say every freaken class hour and then when you still dont get it they call you that you are not trying to learn and that they want you to ask your parents to come met them so they can sit and talk about how bad you are doing and what they might want to do about it and it never helps.

if you do not want to read the entire post in short i hate school, school sucks, and i will be glad when it is over  

The old has become new.

 

James Blunt - Tears And Rain Lyrics

How I wish I could surrender my soul;

Shed the clothes that become my skin;

See the liar that burns within my needing.

How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.

How I wish I had screamed out loud,

Instead I've found no meaning.



I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.

I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.

It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.



How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;

Hold memory close at hand,

Help me understand the years.

How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.

How I wish I would save my soul.

I'm so cold from fear.



I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.

I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain.

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.ok so i found this pretty cool. i was listenin to "tears and rain" by james blunt and realized that the song has to do with dorian gray. and "the pictureof Dorian Gray" just so happens to be one of my summer reading books.small world.

Wow it has been awhile since writing an entry! I just want to talk to all my close friends. My friends are so awesome and if you are my good friend im probably talking about you. Ive been blessed just to get to know some awesome guys lately and kick it with them...cough...John....& Ami you are just Ami what can I say other than you make me smile. I love you guys and i am always here for you now matter what. Well im off to Brevard for XC camp tomorrow to kick it with some really cool guys. So im gonna miss every one.

Peace <><

El Dios te bendiga

Did you know that people will admit almost anything on these things... They will tell you things they would NEVER tell you in person or over the phone! They feel safer here... People show obvious cries for help and attention! And we give them the usual advice..things will get better.. I'll keep you in my prayers.... and move on... usually forgetting it... never try to talk to them or help.... Why even try? I know we mean well and I know we care... but we could do alot more!

Meag

Wow it has been awhile since writing an entry! I just want to talk to all my close friends. My friends are so awesome and if you are my good friend im probably talking about you. Ive been blessed just to get to know some awesome guys lately and kick it with them...cough...John....& Ami you are just Ami what can I say other than you make me smile. I love you guys and i am always here for you now matter what. Well im off to Brevard for XC camp tomorrow to kick it with some really cool guys. So im gonna miss every one.

Peace <><

El Dios te bendiga

Lately, I just wanna cry!

The 12 yr. old i watch needs a good smack in the face.

I'm out of Lean Pockets.

I am going to become healthy if it kills me.

What are your biggest fears?

Mine are
                 that God will stop loving me 
                                                                    or
                                                                         that I'll lose a family member or friend that I love desperately

I don't care what anybody else says, old school Disney movies have the best love songs. Driving home from Murfreesboro, I found myself sheepishly grinning as A Whole New World played.

Gawh.

. . . and may I say that finding jeans at Buckle priced under $40 definitely makes for a happy Anna.

I wrangled the pre-k and kindergardeners last week; this coming week I will take on 3rd and 4th grade. Interesting times will be had, I'm sure.

. . .we got everything we need right here, and everything we need is enough. it's so easy when the whole world fits inside of your arms. . .

i love jack johnson.

Camp was absolutely amazing.  I met some really cool people and even built up some relationships with people in youth group.  I was the oldest girl there so I hung out with the guys most of the time but I had a blast.  The beach was nice and the weather was amazing.  I even got in the ocean the last day!  The theme was Peace on Earth as it is in Heaven and the speaker was great.  I learned a whole lot.  The last night always hits me the hardest.  We were sitting on the beach having our devotion last night and Nathan was talking about how bad he felt for not being a good leader and example to the younger high schoolers and it hit me that I should have done more in my time in the youth group but I was too scared to.  I wanted so badly to say something but I clammed up and just thought about my life.  I'll be 19 in 6 days and that doesn't bother me but then I thought, wow, I now have less than a month before college.  The thought of that really stung so I sat there after we were done and just laid there on the sail boat on the beach and thought about having peace and what peace meant to me.  I so often give my mom such a hard time when it comes to me leaving and I realize I shouldn't do that because now she is losing me in less than a month and possibly Amy in January if everything goes as planned.  These thoughts made me realze how I really need to keep things peaceful at home and with friends and to try and be a good leader and role model in college.  I hope that made some sense.  I felt like it was a bunch of rambling but I wanted to share my experience because it's much easier to type out than to say in front of a group like I wish I had done last night on the beach.  I've missed you all and I love you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!

1. I need a good picture program on my compurter... I don't think my computer will hold the Gimp...

2. I think more people from my school should get a Phusebox...

3. I'm seeing how many random things I can come up with...

4. My kitty's cute...

5. I'm hungary...

6. I'm bored...

7. umm...

8. I think that's it...

9. I have to go now...

10. see most of you later...

11. ~!~Beka~!~

12. : )

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hey guys sorry i havent been keeping up with this thing itskinda hard to keep up with 3 sites well currently i am in gorgia i was heading back from flordia i wont get home till later afternoon tomorrow!! so yea ill see u guys on tuseday! CANT WAIT!
Stephanie

okay im back! for a week atleast.... talk to you all later!

Me!

"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"

yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion of self conclusion in one simplified motion.
you see, the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
no matter how unbearable this misery gets.
i would be lying if i said things would never get rough,
& all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough.
i could stand here all night trying to convince you,
but what good would that do?

My people would  whoop up on your people!!!
I have way too much time on my hands.... and some strange friends.

The blurry thing in the back is Adam. You can tell in the full size one, but the shrinkted version blurs him.

hey yall i ve moved to a new phusebox profile

Camp was a blast, but I'm so glad to be home!

Well guys all my horses got out of the fence this morning. I've been trying to round up in my Ford for forever. I just got back in the house. I still don't know how they all got out. I guess there was a hole in the fence I dunno. I just don't understand why all 34 of them had to get out why not like 3. It owuld have made it much easier on me ! Well im really nasty now so Im gonna go take a shower.

i know it's a day early... shut up....

Whatever you are, be a good one.
-Abraham Lincoln

I'm in CHICAGO!!! yep... i know that's not exactly Romania... but after several weather delays and several stupid peoples..... our 9:15 flight to London was gone before we got there at.... 9:12!!!! so we fly out THIS AFTERNOON and get there late Sunday (we miss church) anyway.... MUCH LOVE!!!

this is how i feel... i had to borrow Kim's face to express it.

Last night Steve helped me clean my room.  And by clean, I mean CLEAN!  I don't think my room has ever been that clean!  We rearranged my desk so that I had more space, threw away a ton of magazines that, lets face it, I'm not going to read from months back.  I also took out all of my winter clothes in my closet and stored them, so now my closet is only half full, which makes me kinda sad but it's ok.  I also consolidated 4 candle holders/candles into 2 and put them in the living room that is newly rennovated thanks to the motivation of Cassie's shower at our place :) I dusted in places I don't think I knew even existed and did looots of laundry.  Today I will finish my desk (we're putting my computer tower on the floor) and vaccum.  Yay for clean rooms!  Lets just hope it stays this way for awhile!

i finally have a phusebox thks to Brandon Ray. New updates me and Brandon R. made a band its called The Remembered. Were just like Switchfoot and Hawk Nelson ne way i have to go. Leave me some comments.

                 Peace _C_J_

Some things threaten to break your mind before they break your heart.

On a slightly different note... Israel is really getting annoying.  Seriously.  It's like watching a toddler pitch a fit.  With missiles.  Not to say that the human lives of those soldiers isn't worth fighting for, but Is-rizzle is doing much more harm than good.  And oh, wouldn't it be ironic if they hit the building where those men were being housed?  *Shakes head*  Did they even try diplomacy, on the off-chance that something might come through?  Or was it kind of like starting a race and saying "Onetwothreego!" and streaking away before your opponent even has time to check his shoelace?  "Give'embackorwebomb*BOOM*" 

And here we have the Reader's Digest version of current events in Southwest Asia:

Isreal: "You have some of our soldiers!"  *NUKE*
Lebanon: "Aiiiiiiiiiiii!"
U.S.: "Errr... Ooh, looky!  Something in the opposite direction!"  *Stares at it*
Israel: "Iran, you looked at us funny!  You must be with THEM!"
Iran: "Wait, what?!"  *Aide hands PR guru a brief*  "Oh.  That thing."
Israel: *Threaten* *Threaten* *Threaten*
Everyone: *Cringe*
Lebanon: "Hey you guys...?"
Israel: *NUKE*  ...*NUKE*  *NUKE*  *NUKE*
Lebanon: "Aiiiiiiiiiiii!"
Iran: "Blah blah blah, neither confirm nor deny these allegations, but if it helps we have been working with Hezbollah for, um, oh.  I mean... Bad!"
France: "Vive la revolucion!"

Vive la revolucion indeed.

In the mean time, get me some Aleve.

Yesterday I went and saw Pirates of the Caribbean 2 with my daddy... It was awesome... I had a lot of fun...

brian: "look! the eiffel tower!"

cameron: "look! shanties!"

xavier: "no, cameron, it's france . . . they're shantés!"

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xavier: "what? you don't play with wet napkins?"

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movie: "someone was hiding in the closet . . . but why?"

kelly: "well, why are most people in the closet?"

*shaban and i turn and stare*

kelly: "yeah. i just went there."

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*movie paused with shot of hula dancer's butt*

shaban: "no touchie!"

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cameron: "we just toasted a nudist colony . . ."

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*sparkling grape juice shoots out of my nose*

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me: "cameron! stop going through my drawers!"

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and that's really all that i can remember . . . anyone else got some?

  

  

 <-- i want to be there...right now. 

 <3

Jane came over to my house yesterday.

I don't know who decided to pump her up on caffine, but let me tell you... a person with -3% body fat on caffine?  Woah, nelly.  She was a little hyper.  Just a little.  She insisted on making a documentary about me.

It is quite possibly the dumbest and lamest thing we have ever done, but it was highly entertaining.  She was going to put in her myspace, but I don't know if she ever finished it.  If she does and sends me a link, I'll post it here so you can see the sheer lameness of the "suckumentary" about me.

Part of the documentary was about me cleaning my car.  Hah... There are some good pictures from that one.  Like the amazing dried up french fry.  And the mass of papers and folders that are stuck together with what we will assume is dried soda.  There was also a piece of dried (what we believe to be) beef jerkey, but we decided not to document that particular piece.

My car be junk-free now.  I tried to vacuum out the interior, but our dust buster be busted.  That didn't work out so well.

So!  If you are among those that I frequently give rides to (Mady, pretty much), REJOICE!  For you now have something besides empty plastic bottles and fast food paper bags to rest your feet on.

As for today?  Did the lazy thing and then went to see Nacho Libre with Megan.  Whooooooo... That cracked me up pretty hard.  Followed by frozen custard at Ritter's with Megan.  Which was in turn followed by a hanging out and music burning fest at Megan's house until 11:45 struck and it was time for me to go home.

The first Clerks movie is playing at the Belcourt Theatre in Hillsboro Village next weekend.  Anyone interested in going and supporting a non-profit independent theatre?

it brings hurt to
my life to see so much
pain in this world
so i'll sit here
thinking of all i can do
to get through this dream
i close my eyes today

heavy thoughts seem to slip away
when You are here on my darkest days
i trust in You
many debts i cannot repay
too many clouds in my sky today
i trust in You

this is for the broken hearted
this is for the pain that's started
i know with the waters parted
you'll see we will be
at peace

so think clear
remember all that has
brought us here to stay
and don't fear
the face of change it will heal
and help deal with the pain
i open my eyes today

when i reach out for a hand to
guide me through the storm
pull me through the norm
i reach for You

we are born innocent
we are born innocent

And admit that I am not okay"

I realized tonight that who I am in the comfort of my own room is not who I am at any other time. And who I am in my room is the real me. I can fake it to everyone, my friends, the youth group, stephen, even my parents. But I can't fake it to myself. And so finally I'm willing to admit I'm not okay. Life is not great...I'm lucky if some days it's good. And I'm tired of acting like it is.

I'm living with colitis, pancreatitis, an ulcer and anemia. Fighting all this leaves me with no energy, moods I hate being in, and the one I hate the most to admit...battling a bit of an eating disorder. I'm constantly worried about somethin. Mostly college. I'm sorta afraid to leave. I'm afraid of how I'll do (especially w/being sick), how things will go here at home, etc. Work has worn me to my end. I love special education, but I'm not making the progress I feel like I should with one of my kids and while I know it's mostly due to her condition I feel like I'm failing her. Which makes me doubt how I'll do in this field. And then personal relationships and issues there...well that would be a short book worth of things to talk about.

I'm trying to be patient and wait on God, but right now it feels like I can't do this much longer. I'm doing my best, and it doesn't feel like enough. All I can do is continue to fight it and pray it's over soon...

how things change so quickly........

what can I say?
It was "eventful".

want quotes?
demand them from Brian King!

trust me...it's worth it...you'll want to know.

life at the moment is......stressful.......
pretty sure i have like a bajillion knots in my back. =/
and i've pulled three muscles in about two days time. gah. it sucks.

been having these REALLY weird and awkward dreams about the end times. seeing one of my closest friends (or we used to be anyways) turn and go the wrong way...in one dream, he got the mark and tried to get me to get one...the next, he was with the antichrist and was verbally abusing me because i was a "christian" and god was never going to come back for me and the others, and that i was never good enough anyways.

these dreams have been happening every night for about the past week. i've only slept about a total of 3 hours...you know, cat naps basically...i'm extremely low on energy, and sometimes i wonder if i'll make it through the day. today, i was driving in franklin for my mom and i had to let her drive the rest of the day...it was just too much for me at that moment. i also didn't get to see gabri =( almost made me cry!! especially since she's leaving tomorrow....gah, i miss that girl.

then, you know..the family problems arise in the household...you guys don't wanna hear about those...

but everything together has been....almost too much....
can't sleep, hard to eat, and stress is slowly taking over my life.
stupid things tick me off, and i'm on the edge 24/7.
only thing that calms me down is being with meag...i mean, i don't have to worry about anything when i'm hanging out with her. she's amazing, and i dunno what i'd do without her... =/  meag, you're the best.

and, before you ask..don't even get me started on the whole guy situation...after everything that's been going on lately with me and the guy i like...or...liked...i'm so confused at this point....i've been having really bad self image issues and doubting myself. i dunno what triggered it, because i've been rejected more than once. it's horrible. i hate feeling this way......gosh, if only the guys knew what it did to me to just make certain comments or give certain looks. ooh, especially when they rub things in your face *cough, cough*..yeah, you know who you are...it ticks me off REALLY bad. don't do it again...

just keep me in your prayers, please..and my friend..
it means a heck of a lot.
[becca]

 . . Into place, that is. Sometimes God just amazes me. No I take that back, God ALWAYS amazes me. That He can care enough about me to see about the tiny, seemingly insignificant details in my life. To not only 'see about them' but to go above and beyond and blow me away by taking care of what He KNOWS matters to me. Life isn't always easy, He knows mine sure hasn't been. But when I can look back at some of what I've experienced and use those lessons and that pain to reach someone else, or to just simply understand for someone else. Its so amazing. There is something about the summertime, the hot days and warm evenings, the nights I can sit under the stars, that makes me nostalgic and contemplative. I have a sentimental tendency anyway but this time of year it really blossoms. I have spent the last several days reflecting on the past, on my past and those of the people I love. Its not all great, in fact some of it I wish I could change, as much for those involved as for myself. However, I know without a doubt I would not be where I am and even if I were I would not appreciate where I am had I not been where I've been. I know that was confusing but it made sense in my head. Anyway I just wish I had the chance to tell all the significant people from my past and in my life what they meant to me, what they taught me. I don't know why but I do. . . Anyway I didn't mean for this to turn into a sad post, its really not. My life amazes me more every day. God has this incredible ability to make things just 'Fall into place' if I will only relinquish control and allow Him. Amazing.

More later ~ MEW

i just got back from
and we all made new friends
the only battle of the boro oakland & riverdale
we will really miss our seniors

oakland patirots showtime whoo whoo

i brought a disposible camera so when i use all of the pictures i will have more on there...these were from my mothers camera

...camp was awesome! we bonded so much..even though "flower power" thought they were cool and could come up to our floor and talk crap..thats all they could do..haha its pathetic..yeah but whatever...i love the girls and they aare awesome!

ok im bored right now but i cant wait till tomorrow cuz i get to go to a party and michelle will officially be 14 and well be the same age till sep 21 and i did some stuff on my profile cuz b4 i didnt put much effort into it

    Well everyone... I caved! I now own my own phusebox... comment :-)

Well i'm back from Florida...and it was great.

the longest car ride ever....

ah lovee <3 this was the view from our condo.

The prettiest sunsets ever are on the beach...

Me and Chelsea...we had a good time ; )

me on the beach.

me and my mom.

 it was good. i went snorkling and a 4 ft barracuda swam right under my legs...not to sure about that but whatever. but i must say this trip to the beach was just possibly the best one ever...= )

I bought this dress for prom. It was only $20. Please give me your honest opinion.

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/winrg.php

come on click the link, you know you want to. 

makes you greatful for the computer you have no matter how bad it is.

hey guys this is my last post b4 i go off to canada......
if ur good i might bring you back a moose

anyways leave some comments!!!!

i'm leaving at 4 am tomorrow

so i havent made a blog on here in....yeah...a really really long time.  so.....i love disney world.........and my dani is in romania, which is really really  far away from me.  i guess im like dani deprived....which is sad.  and she needs to come see me!!!!!!  and we need more fun kim and dani pics........
. jack sparrow makes me happy....i saw him at disneyworld!!!

look!!  we're so cute...and nicholas kinda said the universe revolves around us....sorta........mk...im done now
happy friday!

So I had my photo session today. It was completely different from how I thought.

I mean, I thought that it would be me and the photographer alone on the setting.

No. There's like 20+ people there, and they take us like 3 at a time. So I get to be looked at while I'm taking my pictures. Joy.

My mother and my 3 younger siblings had to be there. My mother doesn't seem to understand that there's some things you just don't say.

She's like "MAKE IT LOOK NATURAL, NOT LIKE THIS!" And she makes an ugly grimace. Thank you mother for making my pictures so much harder.

So the pictures inside go great.

Then I go outside in my all black, so I look kind of professional. And I take a picture with my clarinet. (Pretty sure I looked funny, but oh well). The photographer loved to take pictures when I wasn't ready.

She also wouldn't let me get away with a closed-mouth smile. She would wait and make faces and stuff to get me to smile big. But the good thing about that is that making someone laugh brings out the natural smile whether they want it or not.

There's also a person there to cover the sun with a shield.

It's kinda makes you feel self-concious when there's someone in sunglasses standing less than 2 feet away watching you, when you know that they know that you know that you look stupid.

I hate looking stupid in front of people, but then again, I'm sure they see 50 people a day looking stupid.

Overall, I think it went well.

Band will start in 4 days. That leaves me 3 days to get my playing up to the "THAT FIRST CHAIR CLARINET PLAYER IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING" level.

The things I do for recognition.

Danny

for some reason.. i am looking forward to band camp. cannot wait till july 28. mother &i are going to see gg & ben & cruise. i got back from florida monday, but my computer was being fixed &just got it back. i can burn cd`s again now.. i couldnt for the past year. i was practicing rifle last night, and got really pissed bc i was doing really bad but in practice earlier i was doing good. i couldnt do better than a 3 1/2, and so i chucked it, it bounced and hit me in the eye. [look at my newest picture.] ok i think thats all.

I sat here for about 15 minutes trying to figure out what to title this entry... so i just left it blank. Things have been going well. Chad comes back from camp today after being gone a whole week. it has been very quite around here. Got new bedding for my room but it faded so we have to take it back.

Water Aeorbics really wears you out after a week of doing it. so here are new pictures. funny funny

My car is coming along nicely. Dad just finished sanding it and bought a new hood for it. and sometime next week it goes in the shop to be painted. And on August 17 i get my license. Finally... after waiting almost a year.

  

So I have decided to try and find my long lost half brother.  The only problem is I am not sure he wants to be found.  He did just disappear.  Anyways there is one other problem.  I have no clue where to start.  If anyone has any ideas let me know.  Right now the only things I know are the following:

His name is Cody Parsley.  He is 20 years old right now.  His mother's name is Angel, and they have moved at least 4 times in the past 6 years.  When he was little he had blonde hair and brown eyes just like me.  In the past they have lived in Florida, Georgia, and Alabama.  They were even supposed to be moving to Tennessee, but that was a long time ago. 

So if anyone has any ideas let me know!!!!!  Please.  I really would like to find him.

well im siting here on the couch eating half frozen jello. i just got done packing up all my suff. well when dad gets home at around 4:30 well be off to oklahoma city to meet elle for the night. then tomorrow morning ill fly out from there at around 9:30.

its so odd. i hate this feeling. it comes every time i leave dads. its hard to go becuase hes your dad and he wants you to stay with him and you want to stay with him,but then there are your friends and an entire different life in another town. the end of this summer has been great cause its been just me and dad and were so alike. its been so fun. im ready to get back to you guys though. i miss my friends SO much. i miss my youth group. i just kinda miss the boro.

well im home in less than 24 hours and band starts pom tuesday!!!!!

love you guys lots!

-milly

I love the song Show Off from The Drowsy Chaperone.
Last nite, i decided to do a mini performance from the song: sing a line and do a cart-wheel.
I entered the kitchen, sang "You'll never see this!" and leaped forward to do my cart-wheel.
My foot snagged on my grannie's old cabinet
and i now have a chunk of my heel scraped out of my right foot.
*points at herself* Dumb.

So we are having a garage sale tomorrow morning!!! i love them.... but.... this time i had 2 go through the attic. The attic has all the toys we had when we were a kid. like the wonderful Barbie Dolls!!! along with the Barbie Camper, and a Barbie Horse Stable. I decided to keep like everything except this gymnastic thing. I think it was for Skipper but Skipper doesn't have a head anymore.......her head kept on falling off and now it won't come back on as of today. Everything is going well. soccer is back up again and life is still busy!!! Our family is going to see Pirates of the Carribean (sp) tonight at the drive-in. i've heard it was good and then i've heard it was bad. so i will find out my self!!!

So I got back from the lake like.. 2 weeks ago & then as soon as I got back I had to leave for cheer camp. But the lake was fun & cheer camp was AMAZING. Our new cheer coach, Ms. Franks (she used to be Riverdale's assistant coach) is going to be so good for our squad. We improved so much just this week so I can't wait to see how much more we're going to improve from now until August 18th (that's our first football game against Blackman.. woot!). Anyway, here are some pictures from cheer camp!

Kate & I

Erin, Caroline, & I

"The Rock"

Oakland Varsity & Freshmen Cheerleading Squads

Riverdale & Oakland Varsity & Freshmen Squads

Wednesday was Caroline's birthday so we threw her a surprise birthday party!

Oakland Varsity Cheer Squad with our trophies

Our squad has grown so much & bonded with our new coach & for once I'm truly happy with where our cheerleading team is going. I love my team & I don't know what I'd do without them.

It's funny how summer has come and is going so quickly but the memories made seem to have a lasting impact on you for...forever!

This summer God has really revealed Himself and I am continually at awe with the fact that He still uses sinners like me to accomplish His mighty work. For the first time, I went as a counselor to children's camp in Ke'anae, Maui.

I fell in love with these kids.

In my small group alone, two children accepted the Lord and one boy recommited his life to Christ. 

God laid one boy on my heart and I prayed for his salvation specifically that morning.  To see him that night, one of the "tough" boys in the group, with tears streaming down his face as I shared the love of Christ was intense and is something I will remember for the rest of my life.  "I want Jesus in my heart," the boy said with tears."

Mark 10:13-16

13People were bringing little children to Jesus to have him touch them, but the disciples rebuked them. 14When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 15I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." 16And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them.

Ok Im new to this thing so I really don't know what to put on here.

Hi Im Andrew I just graduated from Middle Tennessee Christian.

I drive a Ford.

I played football for my team.

I was #55.

boys are so dumb sometimes.

like today, gnia [my cousin] called me from his girlfriend tasha [she is like really pretty, like naturally pretty. seriously. and really sweet and fun to have sleep over with, well atleast when there are like 10 ppl. lol.] cell. and i missed the call. caller her but really him back.

he wanted me to walk to the sprinkle park which is across the from my house.

i was like uh no. why would i?

then he told me love 89, our christian radio station in knoxville was ganna be there, which i went online and they were ganna be there.

but i was like uh idk what that is, what he wanted me to get from them. itts like one of those stickers for ur car, but he used some other word, so i was like ok whatever bye.

so like 15 mins later i decided to go.

and they were giving like paper stuff away so i was like whatever and we walked around and went and got icees at the gas station, well driving home from the gas station we were listening to love 89 and they were talking about the sprinkle park. and then i figured out that they WERE giving away those things he wanted. haha. but i didnt stand in line and get one. lol.

so he got mad at me. sorta, but not really, he was just being sarcastic. like usual.

he should have just gone himself. lol.

boys are stupid, and ask girls to do things for them, when they should just do it themselves if they think the girl is ganna mess it up. duh. lol.

well, i leave for boot camp sunday at about 1 or 2.

i doubt that i'll be on here before i leave, so this is my farewell.

but there is a going away party at my house tomorrow (saturday july 15th) at 3pm that goes on until..well..until everyone leaves basically

Semper Fi.