Hey!

i finally got on.....so life has been great recently christina came up and we had so much fun! her mom, sister, dad, brother, and her helped paint the sign out front for our restraunt they did a wonderful job! this summer i have not been doing much just trying to have fun!

i can not wait to see everyone!

miss u guys!

luv meg

My best friend gets back home today !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYY

i MISSSSSS U

ITS MY BIRTHDAY I AM 18!! HELL YES!!

POLKA DOTS..... POLKA DOTS....... I LOVE POLKA DOTS!!!

I am leaving for camp on sunday. it will be fun

rehearsals for mattress are in gear and its going to be great

tonight im going to see forum with lindsay and x-tina.

have a good week!

Is WallMart Letting You Steal.....

The new changes abandon Sam Walton's policy of 'zero-tolerance,' in favor of a new policy which tells workers not to stop shoplifters for items under $25. The internal Wal-Mart policy document was given to The NYT by a former Wal-Mart worker who is deeply concerned with the negative effect this policy will have on other Wal-Mart workers, the company, and the community.

According to the internal Wal-Mart document, the new shoplifting policy has changed from "Shoplifter Apprehensions" to "Investigation and Detention of Shoplifters." In particular, the new shoplifting document explains to Wal-Mart workers that "the guidelines for prosecution of shoplifters have changed: the retail value of the merchandise recovered must exceed $25, and the suspected shoplifter must be at or between the ages of 18 and 65."

The change in shoplifting policy is a dramatic departure from Sam Walton's policies. Sam Walton believed shoplifting was "one of the biggest enemies of profitability in the retail business," and even linked employee bonuses to reducing the shrinkage in each Wal-Mart store.

"Wal-Mart has truly forgotten where it came from. Instead of valuing workers, Wal-Mart is brutally restructuring the company by cutting hours for hundreds of thousands of loyal employees which is negatively impacting customer service and destroying worker morale. Now, Wal-Mart has gone one step further. Instead of addressing the serious issue of crime at Wal-Mart stores, Wal-Mart is abandoning Sam Walton's zero tolerance and is now letting some shoplifters go,"

The shift in Wal-Mart's shoplifting policy follows widespread reports from Wal-Mart workers, many in the Loss Prevention Division, who have witnessed deep cuts, scheduling changes, and other restructuring at Wal-Mart stores. In fact, as reported in the New York Times, J.P. Suarez, Wal-Mart's Loss Prevention director admits the company is making these changes as a cost-saving measure. As Suarez states "it was no longer efficient to prosecute petty shoplifters, 'If I have somebody being paid $12 an hour processing a $5 theft, I have just lost money'," he said. "I have also lost the time to catch somebody stealing $100 or an organized group stealing $3,000."

Wal-Mart's change in shoplifting policy also follows the well-publicized release by WakeUpWalMart.com of a study of police call incidents at Wal-Mart stores. The study, entitled "Is Wal-Mart Safe?" analyzed the official 2004 police incident reports (i.e. calls for police service) at 551 Wal-Mart store locations. According to the study, based on the number of reported police incidents for the sample, it is estimated police responded to nearly 1 million police incidents at Wal-Mart in 2004 costing taxpayers $77 million annually.

ok Have You Ever Notist That On Myspace When You Choose The Religon That Under Christian There's A - Then It Says Other....

Just Another Reason Nathan Is Waaayyyy Better Than Tom

im gunna miss these kids..



if you wanna see more pics go to my facebook ...

-kels

i get my license in less than 2, yes i sed 2!, months!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoo hoo! september 9th to be exactamondo!

celebrate with me!!!

There are circles in my head,
every one of them are full of lies and despair.
just wish they would go ahead,
go ahead and stop in their tracks.
I try to run around where they can't see,
but every turn i take they follow me.
I just want to be left alone,
from the thoughts within me.
Just want to get away,
and leave these circles for the race.
Now that i tell you this,
the thoughts have slowed down just to embrace.
every where i go they just seem to be there waiting for me,
waiting for me to lose control
i try to tell them to go but they don't listen to me.
its like a nightmare come to life,
as i lay in my bed and dream the scary thougths within
i wake up just to find
myself in the middle the race.
THE race against time.
THE race against anxiety.
THE race to wake up to happiness
and not to the dream that i despise that runs my ever being.

So there we sat in the broken apartment, clustered the three of us in the one place that was untouched.  The back door was wide open to the world, and a small square of light illuminated the wall of plant life which hid the highway so nearby.  After midnight, even in Antioch, nobody was on the roads.  R was seated at the computer, clicking through MySpace and reading LiveJournal comments aloud as they came in.  S was curled up on the papisan chair rubbing C's head; it was the only thing that would calm him down.  A pump-action shotgun lay on the floor beside them as they waited for the police to come.

They did, of course, but not until after three hours had passed.  As the officer walked in the door, K took one look and literally inhaled her soda.  "You thought he was cute, too, didn't you?"  R asked.  "Yeah...." the other girl replied, as sheepish as she could be while choking.  The officer came and went, but not before they had both noticed the wedding band.  An investigator showed up, deeming nearly everything unfit for fingerprints.  After helping the officer's, S resumed his seat on the floor.  R lit another cigarette, and the smoke dangled itself through the air.  Talk of astrology as a science began, and C rattled off numerous obscure details, surprising S and intriguing R.  Marlboros mixed in the air with rum and soda and easy talk as a complete stranger wearing purple gloves picked through the remaining belongings.  He had easy going of it -- everything was on the floor.

C sighed.  "Two days before I moved..."

I need some ideas.  If your mom is as amazing as mine, what would you get her to encourage her?  I want to put together a care package for mom who is recovering from back surgery.  I want to get several little things that might encourage her... so if you have any ideas of items $10 and less then let me hear them.  Be adventurous, creative.  I've already done flowers... now i want to do something different.

This is a shout out to all the believers in christ out there........ Continue to press on in love and in all things glorify the God who created the heavens and the earth..... Continue to Fight and never get up no matter what the circumstance because our ultimate goal is not far away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                love in christ, john

so the only reason i used that title is because it meant that i could use a c with the cedilla on the bottom. woopt. but yeah . . .

HAPPY BASTILLE DAY!!!

what a great holiday . . . the french actually won a battle! of course, they were fighting themselves . . . but still. you have to give them some credit.

*waves a small french flag while humming "la marseillaise"*

So, today is the last day of Adventure Week # 1! Its been pretty good...

Next week I am learning the switcher, and the last two weeks I am directing! I am pretty excited!

Umm.. Oh! Once again I have been told Irving is trying to get me hired on. I have pretty much given up on getting too excited... But this time is sorta seems like something might happen. I have been contracting more. Now I get paid for filling in for the Video Director (volunteer) at Alliance, but I get paid for it! So basically they pay me 150 to push play! I like it! And I get to chill with Bill Smith! :)

Thats about it for now.....

Meet me on my vast veranda, my sweet, untouched Miranda
And while the seagulls are crying, we fall but our souls are flying

And oh, my love, my love, we both go down together.

I don't think it is.... I love him soooooo much!

well people yesterday was great..
went to get my other contcat
and went to get some milk from the store
then went home got the contcats in
so i got something to eat and did the dishwasher
went to starbucks and saw that day 
tim, jarred, sean,few of jarred's friends, amber, amber's step-brother(josh), tiffeny, tara, janey, karen, josheph, and thats all
there is a creepy old guy that was a starbucks.....
we sat out front of starbucks for awhile then went to the mall
then went to starbuck and stood in front of starbucks
then walked over to jarreds car
hung out there
then went back to starbuck for janey and karen
stood in front of starbucks again
tthen went to the mall walked in there
sat in those chair in font of pac sun
then went to hobby lobby
went home got my concats out
then went to karens
hung out side untill 9:00
then went in side hung out there
then took amber and matt home
well i went to bed once i got home lol
i am out

             megan

i wrote a song that i would like to share with you all and it goes something like this

band band band band band band oakland band band band band is awesome band band band band band is in 4 days band band band band band band band band band

ya like?

ok...this one is for dani
"Look at the menu, not at the boys." - the waitress at disneyworld

    So I spent today at home... not allowed to go anywhere because I am supposed to rest... well it turns out that staying home isn't enough... Joshua said "you didn't do nothing! you cleaned!!" But I didn't much. anyway so I can't go to work tomorrow either... I have to stay home. To me doing nothing is not my favorite... so I am going to try tomorrow... only because I know that if I do then maybe I can actually be doing stuff by saturday without having to take a ten minute break every time and again. so yea... maybe I can get some good movies... after one tonight I'm out. ::giant gasp!!:: I did get to have some fun tonight so that was cool. Thanks to cool friends!!
luv ya
      Immortal

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line(s) from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

1. you know everything that im afraid of
2.looking back over the years
3. months roll by and november has come around
4. me and charlie boy used to go walkin
5  in open fields of wild flowers
6 the setting sunset paints a tyedyed sky
7sometimes i think about the hearts of angels
8 if i could win your heart
9 this cant really be what life is all about
10 im just a girl with a crush on you
11 and id give up forever to touch you
12 well ive come to know the look on your face
13 ive been trying for a long long time
14 turn on the spotlight
15 there is a longing deep inside my soul
16 and when the world is crashing down on me
17 i am the only one to blame for this
18 when i survey the wonderous cross
19 when i was young
20 give me one millions problems and i promise i'll worry about them all
21 sing to me beauty
22 i close my eyes
23 among the many muted faces
24 when you found somebody new i thought i never would
25 you feel like a candle in a hurricane
26 time is a shadow
27 life's like a road that you travel on
28 am i at the point
29 im waitin on the sun to set
30 every road had a rainbow

So being a really slow day at old time pottery tonight, Mallory and I have decided to become pirates.

Our pirate names are Salty Sally (Mallory), Four-eyed Pete (me), Captain Pink Beard (Mitch, the head cashier), Tipsy Marie: the tavern wench (Tonya), and Drunken Pegleg Schme McGie (Stephanie). Our ships name is the Rusty Russian. Supposedly my job on the ship is to sit in the crows nest and yell "There ain't nothing out there!" all the time. It was really funny...we said "arr" to each other all night.

Being pirates, we had to have a treasure chest. Well, Captain Pink Beard went to McDonalds and got the treasure chest toy, so Salty and I decided we would go get our own. We drove to the McDonalds close to OTP but, alas, they only had the blow up sword. So we drove to the one close to where Salty lives...and they said they had the telescope thing, so we decided to get that one. After waiting in like for like 5 minutes (in the freaking drive through) we get up and ask again, if they had the treasure chest. No, she said they didn't get that in till next week. So we were like "ok, whatevs" and got our happy meal. What was in it? A freaking red bandana. I was pissed. "No, we only have the telescope." Grr. So we're going to find out where Captain got his tomorrow...and go get it.

The end.

Arr.

Here's an article I think is noteworthy, not to say that I agree with anything or everything said.  Still, it's thought-provoking...

http://nomuzak.co.uk/against_pop.html

: Dear Freshmen...


Congrats....now you're the lowest of the low,

Here are just a few helpful words of advice:


1) You are Not cool.


2) Everyone Does Hate You.


3) You are annoying.


- Do not wear ripped jeans and an Abercrombie shirt because you want to make "a variety of friends."


- Do not slick your bangs to your face and wear "bracelets" in you're ears because you think that you're Hood.


- Sex doesn't make you cool, and if you do have sex don't tell anyone. Nobody cares, really.


- You are a F-R-E-S-H-M-A-N.. not a "Freshie".. shut up you sound gay.


- Don't think you're smart because you filled up water bottles with
vodka and snuck it onto your 8th grade field trip. We've all done it..
so don't be proud.


- Don't try the Emo scene. Just don't do it.


- DO NOT think that the upperclass girls/guys are your best friends.


- Don't think that you have privacy now that you're in high school.
Once you're here, your business is everyone's business, yes there IS
still drama, probably even more.


- Don't try to sit at upperclassmen lunch tables. You will be picked up and thrown onto the floor.


- You'll never be as hott as the '07, '08, and '09 ppL. So don't try.


- Don't try to act older than you really are. The way you walk, dress, and talk just has freshman written all over you.


- You're "The Class of '10'" haha.. enough said.


-If you are black, hispanic, etc. WE GET IT, You love your country!
Thats peachy but dont make everything a race related issue because your
poo still stinks.


-PLEASE NO MORE XXXXL shirts and ridiculously baggy pants on skinny
white kids, nobody likes white chocolate. Allow me to kick you in the
face.***haha my fav***


- If you are going to try and rebel, it most likely won't work.


- Dont tell everyone you love your boyfriend after 2 days, your an idiot


- Girls, dont start shit with upperclassmen girls, dont be opinionated
of upperclassmen girls, dont even LOOK at upperclassmen girls


- Upperclassmen are smarter than you


- Upperclassmen will kick your ass


- Though upperclassmen may laugh with you, secretly, we're laughing AT
you. And some of us will do it in your face, myself included


- Don't be a slut. This should be the number one rule.


- DO NOT crowd our halls like cattle, because the upper classmen can
(& most likely will), push you out of the way. You will get hurt.


- Don't try to get with a boy/girl who's older than you. Chances are,
if they are attractive they are taken, & their girlfriend/boyfriend
will have no problem effing you up.


Welcome to hell.


Believe me---You can't win. Have fun being a freshman...for a fun-filled year with no life and no opinion whatsoever.


good luck!!

Sincerely,


-The Classes of '07, '08, and '09

So.  I have decided to post this on both my xanga and on here since
some of you neglect to travel to my xanga.  I have joined the
technological people and have jumped into dual moniter usage.  I really
just get a kick out of seeing my mouse and windows travel between the
two.  I highly suggest trying it for fun.  Wanna see what it looks like?

Aren't you proud of me?

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

Ah the relocation saga.

Step Forward #1 - Yesterday they finally made an announcement that I was transferring to Indonesia.  Position - Process & Controls Advisor.  Official Date - 1 September.  The preceding was no surprise ... so why the 2 month delay in making the announcement.

Step Forward #2 - Decy and the girls have the S. African VISAs for over nighting in Johannesburg ... on their wait to Jakarta.

Step Backward #1 - Allied International, the shipper, still doesn't understand the various aspects of my shipment ... that stuff leaves here in LDN air freight boxes ... to the US ... to be added to 1/2 of my stuff in storage (in the US) .... to be put in a 40 ft container ... and ocean freighted to Indonesia.  The only other aspect of this ... is an special 48 cu ft "air cargo" shipment that goes directly to Indonesia ..... I BET THAT EVEN DANIEL CAN UNDERSTAND THIS.

TGIF ......

i have new pics and i'm going to FLORIDA tomorrow morning this was just another update so leave me comments and i wish the best for you all!


Love Always
Danielle

I can't decide whether I want to laugh or cry.

Nothing is wrong by any stretch of the imagination. Things keep popping up, and it's so annoying that it's almost humorous.

Almost.

So I have just started another job hunt now that I am back in PA. It get's pretty discouraging looking for a job. You would think that if you have a college degree you could get a job. True it has only been 4 days since I have been looking and applying for jobs but it does get frustrating. Especially since for the past month I have been looking for a job in New Orleans. Tomorrow I am contacting a temp angency so I can maybe find a job that way or at least a temporary job until I find something that I want to do. Looking for a job sucks! 

i fly out TOMORROW for ROMANIA!!

 woot!

i'm so excited and nervous. I'll be working with middle school age gypsy kids at Camp Hope for about a week with my mom,

 another mother and daughter that we a re friends with, and a random woman from Florida. The Gypsies are all but persecuted in Romania- with VERY limited, and dare I say even restricted, oppertunities for education and employment.

Your prayers are MUCH APPRECIATED!!!

Dear Ashely Phillips,

On behalf of the editing team here at Photography Laureates, we would like to congratulate you for being selected for publication as part of our highly acclaimed photography anthology. As such, you are a finalist for the $6500 prize. As a laureate and talented photographer, you will have access to several networking opportunities aimed at exposing you to the photography community.

Your photograph was selected out of hundreds of competing entries and you will be published along with other talented photographers. Kyrta Reeve and John Warton, our 2 editors, have reviewed your photograph Reflection and have selected it for its light mix and general composition:

Reflection

well. it hit me...it finally hit me. ive realized so much about myself in the last few days, not only has governors school inspired me it has taught me and opened me up to so many things that i didnt even know were options...its funny how you think youve got it all figured out, two seconds later everything changes..

im really going to miss everyone here..tomorrow is the last full day.. its so annoying how you finally get the hang of this type of "college" life and you start learning people and really enjoying yourslelf and then its over. im going to miss my little cubical in the painting studio. and coming home to a bunch of crazy sweet girls...im  going to miss laughing at and just watching all the drama kids, the many many nights in the lobby of piano playing and singing from the music kids..and of course the awesome art kids that have inspired me to do so much more.

so saturday ill be finished and hopefully totally moved out by about noon..

lets do something alright? i think a party will work...can you believe school starts back in less than a month..or atleast i think so....?

love-kels


Two hearts fading, like a flower.

And all this waiting, for the power.

For some answer, to this fire.

Sinking slowly. The water's higher.

Desire


With no secrets. No obsession.

This time I'm speeding with no direction.

Without a reason. What is this fire?

Burning slowly. My one and only.

Desire


You know me. You don't mind waiting.

You just can't show me, but God I'm praying,

That you'll find me, and that you'll see me,

That you run and never tire.

Desire-ryan adams

So it would seem the literal shit has hit the proverbial fan.

Isreal is going to work on Lebanon in the own-your-face way.

And Iran is asserting its justifiable right to develop nuclear technologies.
Which I fully support.  I mean, really, they say they're going to use it for peaceful purposes, so why bother getting into a star-spangled snit about things until they violate that claim??  That's like paying interest on money you haven't yet borrowed.

Meanwhile, back on the ranch, I have uncovered an obsession with Hamlet's Ophelia, writing a poem thereof, and pre-Raphaelite artistry.

As many of you know, I triumphed early this week.  I am now one step closer to walking, literally.  To top it off, my first step was an attempt to escape Mommy.  That will teach her to try to take stuff out of my mouth.  Victory is mine.

The past couple days, I've been a bit under the weather.  My nose is so runny, I have a green moustache.  It makes it difficult to breathe and eat.  Nevertheless, I refuse to let Mommy or Daddy wipe my nose and I maintain that it is a gross violation of my personal space.  And by gross, I mean gross!  Mommy says I'm teething again and that's why I'm drooling so much right now.  Mommy keeps making me wear a bib
to keep my clothes clean.

Every night around 9:30, Mommy or Daddy wakes me up and feeds me so I won't get hungry and want a midnight snack.  A week or so ago, they tried skipping it.  Boy, was I angry around 11PM when I woke up with a rumbly belly!  I explained to them, in no uncertain terms, that it was a bad idea, and I demanded immediate sustenance.  They haven't tried skipping it again since then.  I think I got my point across.  I'll have them trained yet.

This weekend, Mommy, Daddy, and I are going to visit Grandmama and Grandpa.  Aunt Sarah and Uncle Todd are supposed to be there too.  My goal for the weekend: to not let my feet or bottom touch the floor.  I think with the assistance of Aunt Sarah and Grandmama, I'll succeed.  Wish me luck!

It's true!  My baby's alive!  After his engine attack spasm thing and a two week coma, my clunky little automobile is back on the road.

Will I miss the air conditioned cab of my aunt's truck?  Yes, yes, I will.  Very much so.

Do I miss it enough to pay $30-$40 a week in gas?

Ummm.  NO.

I've been spoiled for the past two weeks.  When I tried to drive my car away from my aunt's house, it was all lurchy and clunky and I was thinking to myself, "Why is the steering wheel so stiff?"

This is what two weeks of air conditioning and power steering and good brakes does to you.  You get soft.

Ah well, a few more days and I'm sure I'll be back on my feet.  I'll be back to wind-blown hair and constantly sweating and hoping to god that my brakes are going to work well enough to keep me from plowing into the jerk who decided to skip across three lanes without signaling.

It's good to have my baby back.

What do I do
when the time is done
when we part ways
and it all ends?

What do I do
when you are gone
when things all stop
and nothing is the same?

What do I do
when everything
seems to crash down around me
and I can't even think?

What do I do
now that I'm so
since you aren't here to find me
and I'm all numb inside?

What do I do
with you so far away
now that I'm missing you
and I'm so confused?

Tell me what to do
because I just don't know.
I used to have it figured out,
but not anymore.

Help me, love, please.
Tell me what do I do.

So I have come to a point in my life where I really want to know the difference between discernment and judgement. If anyone has any thoughts or ideas about that, please share...

On a completely different note, I am so glad because I was able to change my English class out. I was signed up for Early American Literature, and I was never really feeling it... it just seemed boring... and all wrong too... I hated the time especially. But now I am registered for a new section of Intro to Literary Studies that they didn't originally have listed in the spring, so I'm glad I discovered it! It probably won't be too exciting of a class but it's the only required class I have for my English minor (everything else is just electives) so that's good. And from what I understand, I think my teacher's supposed to be pretty cool, so I'm glad about that!

The relevant parts of Jewel's "Foolish Games":

Always felt I was outside looking in on you

You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair

You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care

Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say

Besides some comment on the weather

Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see

This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in morning

Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee

You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you

You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones

You'd teach me of honest things

Things that were daring, things that were clean

So I hid my soiled hands behind my back

Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you

Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else

Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart

You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart

This is a song I wrote for my girlfriend... Though it has no music... It's something I'm sure she'd understand about me.. But hopefully ya'll will like it too.  Have an amazing day.

---

---

Everytime I have to leave you
I hate to feel this way
There's a feeling deep inside
And I guess it's here to stay
It's a hurting little question
I hope I never ask
Just a little sickening thought
That I hope comes to pass

  (Chorus)
What if this were the last talk
Or the last hug, or the last goodbye
The one last kiss without a chance to sigh
Oh, I hate this thought,
Oh, why'd it enter my head?
Goodbye means so long, so
I'll say sweet dreams instead..
(End Chorus)

And everytime we embrace
Another emotion is felt
That wonderful feeling
I'm glad I can't help
Oh your smile is magic
With that look in your eyes
I'll kiss you good night
But no, I won't say goodbye

(Chorus)

And if these thoughts trouble you
Just so you know
There's a reason behind them
that I won't let go
There's a reason I'm here
And a reason you're there
And these thoughts inbetween
They only prove that I care

No, I won't say goodbye
But I will kiss you good night
I like the thought
You're only gone for the night
And I'll see you tomorrow
While our love still goes on
I hope never to think
That you'll ever be gone...

Oh, I hate this thought
Oh, Why'd it enter my head?
Goodbye means so long, so
I'll say sweet dreams instead...

Gabe asked me to make one for Kentucky, and so I did.  If you have a team that you want one done for, please send me a high resolution picture to shelby.craig@gmail.com and I will make it if I have time.

Thanks

What if I looked like that?

So I guess if I'm learning anything from being sick it's that God is teaching me to be patient. I decided to look up the definition and it couldn't fit my situation better.

Patient: Bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance with calmness.

 I went back to the doctor for like the millionth time today about why I still don't feel much better. Thankfully the gall bladder inflammation is almost gone, and my pancreas is getting better. And since those two things are starting to clear up she was able to find the current problem which is a result of the other two older problems. I have a duodenal ulcer. She said it wasn't too awful, it's not bleeding yet which is good. She gave me some stuff for that and hopefully it'll work, but I'm lookin at 2 months for a recovery rate on this on top of everything else that's healing.

Weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then cruel is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the fire wall
Can I lose my need to impress
If You want the truth, I need to confess

I'm not alright
I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through,
It leads me to You, it leads me to You

Burn away the pride, bring me to my weakness
'Till everything I hide behind is gone
When I'm open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on
Cause honestly,
I'm not that strong

I'm not alright
I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through,
It leads me to You, it leads me to You

(And I move, and I move, and I move)
Closer to You
(And I move, and I move, and I move)
Closer to You
(And I move, and I move, and I move)
Closer to You

I'm not alright
I'm broken inside, broken inside

I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through,
It leads me to You, it leads me to You

I'm not alright
I'm not alright
I'm not alright

That's why I need You

well i am going to starbuck and the movies today
and and and
i dont know what else
waint for justin's girldfriend to call
so we can go
yep well i am out

           megan

For all you complainers out there *cough cough amanda* Russ is now undoubtably orange.

Okay... you see this picture? It is going to be published into Endless Journies photography book. Yes, I ashely, am a Semi-Finalist in the Photo.com photography contest. Top prizes include $10,000 cash prize, $1,000 cash prize and many more. so stay tuned in to see if i won.

 

I finally got around to watchign Finding Nemo. Its such a great movie. Like I totally love it.

Anyone have any other really good movies I can watch because I haven't seen many at all so more than likely whatever you say Im not going to have seen it.

Im goign to Hawaii and need some movies to enertain me on the way over there and the way back.

So please help me out.

gahlee. in case i haven't reiterated it enough, i'm kinda stupid. but only in some matters.

so, last night after church we all went to the Mellow Mushroom, and it was mucho fun. pizza was extra good, and i got to sit in the "magic bus" (ha) with a bunch of people. had a great time.

Kudos to Justin for the amazing message last night. he made a point that really hit home with me, and that is that we should consider others better than ourselves. Christ calls us to love, not judgement. so the question is, when are we, as Christians, going to stop talking about what we believe and act on it? Love is not just an emotion, it's action. It's also a reaction to Christ's love for us that fills us up and enables us to do the same. Odds are, you are not going to walk up to the lady at the counter in McDonald's and say "I love you!", (partly  because she'd probably pepper spray you.) but you mostly certain could smile at her and tell her thank you and that you appreciate it. That's how people are going to notice a difference in us. They will know us by our love. So, next time that weird looking kid or the pregnant girl walks into your/our church, school, or anywhere else, regardless of their circumstances, appearance, politics, sexual orientation, race, or anything else, love them. We serve no purpose if all we do is judge, and as if we even had a say in how much God cares for them. We were the ones who drove the nails through Jesus' arms and feet, and He loves us anyway. We know better, and yet we sometimes act worse than non-believers. I am by no means saying that i perfectly exemplify these standards, because God Himself knows my heart. All i am saying is that it all comes down to love. Regardless of your past, God loves you the same as He loves me, and therefore i have no right to judge any of you. well, i guess i am gonna go for now. much love to all of you. ---Cari  

gahlee. in case i haven't reiterated it enough, i'm kinda stupid. but only in some matters.

so, last night after church we all went to the Mellow Mushroom, and it was mucho fun. pizza was extra good, and i got to sit in the "magic bus" (ha) with a bunch of people. had a great time.

Kudos to Justin for the amazing message last night. he made a point that really hit home with me, and that is that we should consider others better than ourselves. Christ calls us to love, not judgement. so the question is, when are we, as Christians, going to act? Love is not just an emotion, it's action. It's also a reaction to Christ's love for us that fills us up and enables us to do the same. Odds are, you are not going to walk up to the lady at the counter in McDonald's and say "I love you!", (partly  because she'd probably pepper spray you.) but you mostly certain could smile at her and tell her thank you and that you appreciate it. That's how people are going to notice a difference in us. They will know us by our love. So, next time that weird looking kid or the pregnant girl walks into your/our church, school, or anywhere else, regardless of their circumstances, appearance, politics, sexual orientation, race, or anything else, love them. We serve no purpose if all we do is judge, and as if we even had a say in how much God cares for them. We were the ones who drove the nails through Jesus' arms and feet, and He loves us anyway. We know better, and yet we sometimes act worse than non-believers. I am by no means saying that i perfectly exemplify these standards, because God Himself knows my heart. All i am saying is that it all comes down to love. Regardless of your past, God loves you the same as He loves me, and therefore i have no right to judge any of you. well, i guess i am gonna go for now. much love to all of you. ---Cari  

check my new profile pic

i LOVE it

band starts in 5 days

im home in 2

cant wait to see you guys!!!!

love you

-emily

The Backyardigans!!!!!

Nuf said.....

My dearest friends.....

I am deeply sorry to have gotten of my happy box! I just needed to vent last night....

So again i apologize.. the eternally happy Meag is back now....

Thank you,

Meag

symon && me before the wedding.

lindsey && me at angelas getting ready for the wedding.

skyler && me getting ready at angelas before the wedding.

tasha && me before the wedding at angelas.

skyler && me again at angelas.

me && em[ily] at the wedding at night after the fireworks.

me && austin at church sunday while we were watching a movie in the nursery during service.

me && em again.

me && em and our fishy faces at chuck e cheese after church for jj's 5th birthday.

me && isaiah at chuch e cheese after church for jjs 5th birthday.

yea i guess ali's right when u only have 2 friends u cant expect a lot

It's taken much too long, to get it right, would it be so wrong?

To maybe find someone, a miracle?

All you really need, is everything you could never be.

And so you give it all for a miracle.

Is there a trace, inside your face, of a onely miracle?

And so you wait, and lie awake, for a lonely miracle.

All you wanted was a, all you needed was a miracle, a miracle.

All you wanted was a, all you needed was a miracle, a miracle.

Let it be known,
How I hate goodbyes,
They end the moments
That take so long to find
They bring a close
To the nights of gold
The ones where laughter
Simply never gets old
Yes goodbyes are a killer
I'll tell you this now
But I'll be thinking of you
Even when you're not around

Honestly guys, I really wish that I could write a new post that's nothing like my xanga one, because I haven't updated on here in a while, but it's late, and I really don't feel like it.  So I have put on here an easy to use link that will take you straight to my most recent happenings.  Hope that you enjoy it!


Russell's Newest Xanga Post

The iPod-Depeche Mode thing is still a little messed up, but all of the songs are on there (even if they're not in the right order and refuse to go in the right order) and that's what counts.

As a matter of fact, my sister-in-law gave me some handy advice on how to possibly make them go in the right order.  I might have to try that.

Anyways.  The point is, listening to the entire Playing the Angel album last night, as well as Various Artists for the Masses:  A Tribute to Depeche Mode as I fell asleep was very theraputic.  And I feel lots better now.

I also feel better because I got to hang out with Carlton for an hour this morning because I accidentally showed up an hour early for work.  Then after work, I got to go to La Siesta with Carlton and Mady.  And both Carlos and Alexandro were working today.  Mmmm...

Went to visit my mommy, but she is terribly ill.  I wouldn't be very surprised if she called me at 2 AM and asked me to take her to the Vandy ER.  (I did that a lot last summer.)  But my brother, his faince, and their neighbors are well.  I got to visit with them for a while.

Then to Michael's, originally to watch Unleashed, but wound up watching Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back.  Sweet bajeezus, I do love that movie.

Sooooooo... Who's excited about Clerks 2?  *raises hand*

courtney... corey... and katrina... the effin koolest


that is all...

~tRISH

I just returned form Youth Leadership Workshop (AKA church camp). It was incredible! It was definately one of the most defining times in my life. I think it has made me a better person and able to change the crazy things in my life.

... I don't really know where to start.

My mom and I went out to pick up my brother, and when we got home there was all this smoke. Someone had set out a smoke bomb on our porch.

We walked to the front yard, and my father was waving a gun. He said he had called the cops and the fire department.

There was a lot of fighting and then the cops and firetrucks came, sirens blaring and everything. My mom was screaming at my father, 'put the fucking gun away, you're going to get yourself arrested.'

He did. He put it on top the the pie safe, in plain view of where I could see it.

For anyone who doesn't know, I'm terrified of guns. The sight of real guns makes me want to puke.

My mom is a teacher. We figure one of her students did the smoke bomb. The fact that scares me about this whole situation, is that my father was full and ready to shoot the kid who did this.

I went into the kitchen after the cops and trucks had left, thinking it would be okay. So... I went. I got in there and my mom was sitting at the table, disgusted with my father, and my father was unloading the dishwasher.

The second fact that you should know is that my father and I do not get along. At all.

He tells me to unload the dishwasher, and I'm already under a lot of distress and I'm tense, and I burst into tears.

No, he doesn't try to consol me, or ask if I'm alright. The first thing out of his mouth to me is you're fucking crazy.

What kind of father tells their daughter that she's crazy?

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.
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I don't know. I just needed to get this all out.  

Since EbGames and ESPN didn't find mtsu worthy enought to be on a cover of the new NCAA 07 football, i decided to make one myself.  The picture quality is not that great, but it is all I could find.

If you have a better picture, please email it to me at shelby.craig@gmail.com and I will make another, ENJOY!

My grandfather did get married on Monday morning.  We were all most ecstatic, if somewhat surprised. 

I went to the periodontist yesterday--had to get up at 5:45am (ie, before God) to get there by 8:00 (he's in Lebanon).  Good news: my gums are healing faster and better than normal.  I just have to keep rinsing with Listerine and doing the salt rinses (which I don't care for).

Still waiting on the "Center of Excellence" ... man, are they slow.  Urgh ......  And, still don't know what position I am going into in Jakarta ...

... sure wish I was retirement age now .. this is insane !!!!

God gives us so many oppurtnities, why dont we take them.

I regret that I did not go to Canada! I miss it so much i started crying tonight at church thinking about how much i miss it and all of the people there.

I am excited about going to Flordia I just wish i could have done both!!!

I leave very soon for Flordia and I can not wait!

I also can not wait to go back to school, I am looking forward to see what all God has in store for me this year!!!

have a great rest of the summer

Loveya bunches Jesse

my mom was in the hospital sunday -tuesday thats not the worst of it she is in new york visiting some old friends. 

now she's out and still in new york she is going to drive back this week end 

that means in stead of being home for 2 week alone it is only going to be a week and a half

ABORTION IS MURDER!

do you understand me? no matter the circumstances... or the reasoning.. it doesnt matter.. ITS STILL MURDER! so get off your high horse.. and face the freaking facts.... ok? thank you!

SECOND.....

why do people suck so bad?? why do adults hurt children so bad.... dont parents realize their actions are destroying kids.... i had a little boy maybe 12 come pray with me tonight and he just amazes me... and i really would love to get one good hit in on his parents cuz they SUCK... if you need to hurt someone... take the old advice....

PICK ON SOMEONE YOUR OWN SIZE!!!!!

LASTLY.....

Why cant we all be pretty and perfect and sweet? huh.. why do only certain people get the noticeable genes while the rest of us get stuck with the leftover genes... and have to look and act like me????

ok well im just needed to vent...

i love you guys...

i love kids......

Meag

My grandfather did get married on Monday morning.  We were all most ecstatic, if somewhat surprised. 

I went to the periodontist yesterday--had to get up at 5:45am (ie, before God) to get there by 8:00 (he's in Lebanon).  Good news: my gums are healing faster and better than normal.  I just have to keep rinsing with Listerine and doing the salt rinses (which I don't care for).

phusebox suicide

dont remark. please && thankzz ;-)

i got a new email account. it's sillylovesongs90@gmail.com

please don't send me chain mail. i don't read it. i delete it.

thanks!

POTC: DMC

so just got back from hanging out with elizabeth we saw^^^ POTC and

it was amazing.... of course johnny was in it but i HATED the ending

elizabeth is stuipid and i hate her and want to beat her up......
will is stupid and i want him to beat elizabeth up

of
course captain sparrow was cool and so was davey jones ****amazing
organ AND super cool soul bondage skills not to mention he captains the
FLYING DUTCHMAN AND he controlls the kraken.... cant get much cooler than that****

and then we went shopping

the end :)

I can't believe it's been 2 1/2 months since I last posted! Guess I've really been busy. Well today and yesterday were customs for MTSU. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Everyone was like, preparing me for the worst 2 days of my life, but they weren't too bad. I got to kinda learn my way around campus, meet some new people, schedule my classes, get t-shirts, and join groups. Of course there were a few boring boring meetings and videos, but oh well. And thanks again, Jess, for all the help you gave me! I'm not sure I could have done it without you!

Hannah, Meghan, Ali, and I went and saw The Lakehouse 2 nights ago. It was so good! That one's definately a keeper! Hannah and I were like, balling at the end. It's a beautiful movie.

Last weekend we went camping with my family on my dad's side. We were just inside North Carolina, and the best part was whitewater rafting. It was quite an adventure, especially our 2nd time down. We thought at least one of us was going to die! Ok maybe not die, but get hurt a lot worse then any of us actually did. But I'll do it again! I think we're going back in September with a family on my mom's side. If you've never been whitewater rafting, you should, but here's some advice: make sure your raft has holes so it doesn't keep filling up with 50 degree water, don't put too many people in one raft (2-4 is good), and don't go down any waterfalls backwards. Adam and my cousin Timmy tried it, and you should see the pictures! 

That's about it for now. I'll make sure I'll post sooner than 2 1/2 months away this time.

the best birthday i have ever had... hands down.i have survived 17 years, i am pretty proud of myself.  

summer has been great, except for that whole "looking for colleges" thing, and having to work when it is perfect outside. besides that it has been a whole bunch of nothing but relaxation. what more could a girl ask for? 

it would have to be the best summer i have ever had.

I have started a "trend" persay of posting on wednesdays.

I start working @ american Eagle on sunday. word.

I have discovered that i have lots of bills pay.

I put $100 into "savings" today in an attempt to start paying for school.

I went to ohio last weekend. 3 malls. one day. wow.

I went to Ashland City last night. Pictures and love was had.

I've seen The Devil Wears Prada & POTC 2. both are loved by me.

I am out of things to say. the end.

I was recently told that when a guy says "It's not you, it's me," he is actually telling the truth.  Being a person who has received this let down about 4 times in the past year and a half, I should be an expert,but alas, I am not.

What do you think?

um come to realize that me and skim boards along with broken shells definately do NOT mix... yeah its infected now. oh well will c ya all 2nite hopefully...

FUNKY.... as seen on t.v

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MWAH!!!! kissy kissy smoochy smoochy

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i'll think about this one!

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7 days...

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Emily sleeping...sorry emily love you anyways!

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Hey yall! whats up?!? well theres sume pictures hope you like... well comment me! ♥ ya

♥ Candace

Teach me to live.
Teach me to love.
Remind me that it's real.

Let me fall in love with the wrong ones
So I know when I've found the right one.
Point me in the right direction, then let me go.

Let me get my heart broken </3
Then teach me how to mend it. <3
I wanna live and learn.

Push me off the cliff
So that I learn how to fly.
Let me feel the wind for myself.

I wanna make mistakes.
Yeah I want to screw up.
I wanna do it wrong so I learn to do it right.

I wanna live.
I wanna love.
I wanna know it's real.

But I wanna live and learn.

question of the day:

¿Que comes,mujer? 

translation:  what do you eat, woman?!

she asked me this after i turned down a hotdog for breakfast.

well, funny you ask...eggs, bacon, cereal, biscuits...NOT fried cheese quesadillas, hotdogs with onions, tomatoes, ketchup, mayonaise, peppers.

hahaha, i love it here.

    HEY

ugh life...  BAH


Ecuador was good stuff. i have pictures up on myspace and facebook. but way too lazy to put them on here..

been playing a lot of tennis. very enjoyable

ultimate frisbee tonight at church!! : )

friday i leave for Northern Ireland, another mission trip : ) but i'm really not looking forward to another long plane ride. Delta made the flight to Ecuador insanely awful.. hate hate hate delta. this time i'm flying u.s. scareways. doubtful it'll be much better.

used to enjoy flying. life happened. and i got a.d.d.


then when i get back on the 23rd.
july 24-25:: ::lake day with my church and the KELSEY is coming.
first time we'll really get to hang out without having to elude the gov. school officials. + tubing + jumping off houseboats + trying to avoid sunburn as my senior pics commence two days later.. eeeee

whats not to like?

good bye family

shhhh....

listen...

...

do you hear it?

do you hear that sound?

that's the sound of my IQ

crashing, spiralling to the ground

Yup... I guess that's why I'm in such a great mood.  I mean I'm not going to be 13 anymore.  Some of you know how much of a BIG deal that is.

Anyways... I need to know if you guys are coming to my party or not.  My mom is trying to get all of the food ready.  You know how much to get and everything like that.  Well, talk to me or email or something.

O.K. off of that subject.  Yes, my birthday is tomorrow.  I'm soooo excited!!!  I'm going out to eat for my b-day and going bowling too.  Yeah, it's gonna be fun. I don't know what else I'll be doing tomorrow.  I guess that I'll find out then...

Hmmm... I kind of need some help here... I need some advice.  I've seen him almost every single day since July 6th.  Do any of you think that we are seeing too much of each other???  I mean I'm not saying that I don't want to see him I just don't want people thinking that I'm obsessive over him (not saying any names).  I just need a little courage about it. 

Well, I guess that I'll go for now but I'll up date later...


                         Qoute of the day
       "Try not to get caught doing something stupid..."

I, Christopher G. Slate, am the current owner of a new infiniti!

its blue.

its pretty.

its fast!

who wants to hang out?

I LOVE THIS PIC!!!

IF U EVER WANNA E-MAIL ME I HAVE 3 DIFFEREN ADDRESSESS (CRAZY I KNOW)

1)sportiechick@gmail.com

2)alliemoe@gmail.com

3)alliemoe1@aim.com

SOOOO IM GONNA REMEMBER THAT I PUT THESE ON HERE AND IF I DONT GET FAN MAIL(LOL) IM GONNA BE SAD!!!! : (

Yesterday was the birthday of a friend of mine from high school.  I got a call from another dude that we graduated with about having a party last night.  So I went to this party with about 15 people.  Matt (birthday boy) showed up, and, for various reasons, absolutely everyone left, promising to be back "in a minute."  So Matt and I sat out in the driveway eating Salsa Doritos and talking about Serious and Important Matters for a little over half an hour.  He was a little bummed that this party his friends were throwing turned into a "sit in the driveway and eat chips" night.  But the two of us got to talk, so that was a good thing.

Before the party, I decided to work on expanding my vocal range.  On a normal day after warming up, I can hit a strong 2.5 octaves without using my falsetto.  Well, yesterday I decided to throw all caution to the wind and see how wide of a range I could reach.  By the time I was finished, I was hoarse as all get out, but I did pass 2 notes beyond the 3 octave mark.  This was a happy thing.

Another happy thing: my UAS (work scholarship of $5000) has finally gone through and been added to my student account.  Now that I've got that, whenever my HOPE scholarship comes through, I'll be able to confirm my schedule and get $122.  Glorious day of blessing!

I AM GETTING CONCACTS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOTNEEEESSSS!!!!!!!!!

i just wanted to let ya know about that!!!!

im pretty sure that im cool

im cool enough to take about 4 hours and make a band video/slide show

i realized ( with bryans help) that i had movie maker on my compuer. when i found it i knew what i had to do!!!!

here it is

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UzU_OM-8O8g

you should go watch it

much love and good night

-milly

So my sister and I went shopping, it was great! We went to Kohls and she picked out this great comforter that was on sale, I was proud. It's grey and navy (school colors), two sets of grey sheets, some towls and wash cloths, and yeah...a big limegreen jolly rancher pillow. She was good and found everything that was on sale, so she saved me lots of money. Jeff (the roommate) and I are going to shop for his stuff tomorrow, as well as go to OTP and get some stuff I can get discounted...like cleaning and bath stuff.

I'm kinda dreading leaving on the 15th of August to move into my dorm. I'm going to miss people...mostly Tyler. He's going to make living in Memphis really hard, until he gets there (hopefully) atleast. We're going to go eat lunch together on Saturday, I hope. He's doing band camp stuff (as he is drum major) and is doing his second semester of English for summer school (he's graduating early) so I don't get to see him during the week anymore. Oh well, we'll find a way to see each other, we have been for the past four months.

All college people should get on facebook and be my friend.

Some good stuff.  Hope it brightens your day.  Got if from a friends post off xanga.

When NASA first started sending up astronauts, they quickly discovered that
ballpoint pens would not work in zero gravity. To combat the problem, NASA
scientists spent a decade and $12 billion to develop a pen that writes in zero
gravity, upside down, underwater, on almost any surface including glass and at
temperatures ranging from below freezing to 300 C.

The Russians used a pencil.

~~~

When Bruce Banner gets mad, he turns into the Hulk.  When the Hulk gets mad,
he turns into Chuck Norris.

So, in case you didn't know...I love stats.  My new health magazine had a whole page devoted to interesting stats and I thought I would share some of them with you...I promise you will find them interesting, so keep reading...

52 percent of Americans can name at least 2 members of the cartoon Simpsons family
28 percent of Americans can name at least 2 freedoms granted in the First Amendment
21 percent of Americans believe that the right to own a pet is one of them

800 millions of gallons of gas are used each year for lawn mowers
It takes 11 new cars to create the same amount of pollution that one lawn mower makes in an hour
There were 11 millions of gallons of crude oil spilled by the Exxon Valdex in the largest oil spill in U.S. history
There are 17 millions of gallons of fuel spilled each year while filling lawn mowers, tractors, and the like

A rewiew of 22,131 public swimming pools found 97 percent had health-regulation violations

Interesting, huh?  Anyone want to go to Sports Com?

  so i had this convo earlier. 

  it went a little somethin like this- 

  ... 

 me: hey 

  them: who's this? 

  me: um...holly.

  them: oh you want joel? 

  me: who is this? 

  them: this is his little sister. 

  me. oh hey. whats up? 

  them: KOOL CHICA!!! 

  them: wat it do? 

  me: ? 

  them: wat it do? 

  me: what does what do? 

  them: lol it sez what it sez 

  me: um... 

  me: blue? 

  them: jeez are you wite or somthin? 

  them: wat it do means wats ^? 

  ... 

  jeez. 

  they've even got slang for slang now. 

  and yes. 

  as a matter of a fact i am white. 

Funny how many ups and downs life decides to have, even in one day! Wow! I have been a busy bee...

I saw Superman Returns today. It was wonderful :-) I haven't said that about a new movie in a while, so trust me. It was good!

If you are female, so Beth and Cindell, try Mango Spearmint Green Tea scent the next time you are at Bath Junkie. It's yummy :-)

Well, this was a completely pointless post. Thank you for wasting some of your brain cells on it :-)

Sweet Dreams!

Yeah so I went to the Rock Quarry (spell?) today with pretty much the coolest guys ever and it would have to qualify as one of the funnest times I have had this summer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                IN CHRIST john

today was really laid back. no teacher...so i left and took a 2 hour nap!..

then later...

we watched the planets - a piano performance... it was really beautiful.. i have this thing for the piano.. there is something so beautiful about watching someone sway with that music in thier soul and watching them pour it out onto the keys..


nooow...im sitting here with a bunch of girls..listening to Usher..hes telling me to let it burn..heh.

-kels

Oh, why do they leave?

Oh, why do they leave?

On the day that you needed them the most

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, no flowers for me

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, no flowers for me


Lover, why do you leave

Lover, why do you leave

On the day I want you for me?


Say, say it ain't so

That he will take you tomorrow

And I will sit here today (The worst)

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, no flowers for me

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, Curtains for me


Lover, why do you leave

Lover, why do you leave

On the day I want you to be

The one

Yeah!  Two steps forward and only one step back today. (and thanks for the remarks).

Ok, RE the shipment ... after the company "went silent" from Friday through Monday, they emerged with an answer on Tuesday ... I get 4 LDNs air shipped from Angola to Houston.  I get to combine the LDNs with storage items and then ocean freight up to one 40 ft container from Houston to Indonesia.  I get 3 cargo boxes for Decy and the girls.  I get 2 cargo boxes for me.

I don't know why I get two boxes .... I don't even want to try to figure it out.  Next step - pre-packing inspection (today), receive the empty boxes (today I hope), then finalize the inventory.

RE the medical aspects of the move - our medical dept yesterday sent an email to our Center of Excellence and advised that we are "healthy" (I suspect that was followed up with a clarification such as "healthy but insane")

Next steps - finalize school paperwork, finalize S. African VISAs for Decy/girls, continue purging household goods .... never a dull moment.

2006 sure has been a lonely year... so far.  

When I think about it... I don't really have friends anymore. My old friends have disappeared. It feels like my boyfriend is the only friend I really have right now.

Things need to change... real soon.