When Did You Fall by Chris Right

August 19 2006
You're all smiles and silly conversation

As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C'mon, tell me what's right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody's talkin'

And there's something here I'm supposed to realize

'Cause your secret's out, and the universe laughs at it's joke on me

I just caught it in your eyes, it's a beautiful surpriseWhen did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue

'Cause I swear I never knew it

When did you let your heart run free?

Have you been waiting long?

When did you fall in love with me?

When did you fall in love?



Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let's rewind

C'mon, let's go back and replay all our scenes

You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time

All the ones that slipped by me

I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin'

Well I guess it don't matter now that I realize

'Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now

Right there before my eyes

You're my beautiful surprise



When did you fall in love with me?

Was it out of the blue

'Cause I swear I never knew it

When did you let your heart run free?

Have you been waiting long?

When did you fall in love with me?

When did you fall in love?



Was it at the coffee shop

Or that morning at the bus stop

When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand

Or the time we built the snowman

The day at the beach, sandy and warm

Or the night with the scary thunderstorm

I never saw the signs

Now we've got to make up for lost time

And I can tell now by the way that you're looking at me

I'd better finish this song so my lips will be free



Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love

I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall

Have you been waiting long

When did you fall in love with me

When did you fall in love?I really love this song. I heard it on the radio, and it reminded
me of how everything turned out with Kenny and me.

Cloud******A New Song by me!

August 19 2006
I was thinkin today,
About our relationship.
And how it use to be,
So filled with happiness, and joy.
And how like everything in my life,
Was starting to fall apart.
I could see this cloud in front of me,
How I could see it in front of me.....

For this cloud hung over me,
So dark and gloomy.
Like the misery thats in my soul.
It wont go away,
It just builds and builds.
Like the misery in my soul....oul...

I had a dream the other day.
It was of a man,
That was filled with loneliness.
For you see this man lived on an island,
use to be so full with people and joy.
And now he has this cloud that hangs over the island,
For you see now hes alone the only one on that island.
And like me his cloud is hangin in front of him.....

For this cloud hung over me,
So dark and gloomy.
Like the misery thats in my soul.
It wont go away,
It just builds and builds.
Like the misery in my soul....oul...

I cant take it anymore,
Im sorry I just gotta let it out.
Some people might call me the devil's advicate,
If they knew how well I could act.
For the pain I just cant take anymore,
Im sorry.....

For this cloud hung over me,
So dark and gloomy.
Like the misery thats in my sould.
It wont go away,
It just builds and builds.
Like the misery thats in my soul.....oul...

Recap

August 19 2006
    So as everyone already knows, we went sailing today :-).. the boat was over fifty feet long, had six beds, including one full size, two bathrooms, a kitchen, basically everything! It was loads of fun! I have now decided that I officially love sailing! Granted it has it's downs, but it was a boatload of fun (pun intended). The wind in your face, spray of the crashing waves, and overwhelming vastness of the ocean, combination was astounding... God's creation is beautiful and this was just one more way to take it in. MJ, Zay and I are all feeling a bit lightheaded so I'm assuming sailing does that to you?

    Yesterday, I saw a lot of dolphins!! We went on a whale watch and saw one whale sorta but lots of dolphins... then last night my aunt took me shopping. She's awesome!

    Day before last we went to the beach, and then I went to see Oliver Twist in outdoor theater that night... I also saw a lot of beautiful gardens! My aunt took a pic of me in one of the gardens so I may post that just so you can see how gorgeous they are! They have really full, bright gardens all over the place.. I love it here by the coast!

     So really to cover all that I'm having a great time, my family is great and God's creation is awesome!! Hope you all arent' missing me too terribly much lol... I get back Monday which is cool cause I get to se you all... but at the same time... I really really love it here so I'm bummed :-( Plus all the people up here (my aunt, uncle, cousin, grandparents area all great) I'll miss you all!

Have a great night.

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August 19 2006
We went sailing today...on a sail boat!! It was amazing! It was kind of overcast today, but the temperature was nice. It was really cool to sit at the front of the boat and go up and crash down with the waves--feeling the ocean spray...ahhhh. It was so nice. We sailed to the Isle of Shoals...kind of. We drove to it, passed it, turned around and came back. It was pretty cool. I love sailing. Right now I feel kind of...woozy. Like everything is rocking back and forth. It's...not very cool. But it was still really fun. I think tomorrow we're going to the beach (weather permitting) and Monday we're going tubing!! I love tubing. Knee boarding is pretty cool, but my uncle doesn't have a knee board. He has a wake board, but I've never gone wake boarding, and from what I've heard of it, it's pretty painful if you're not good, and I dont' think I would be good at it, and pain and me...we don't go well together. Haha. 

God is good

August 19 2006

God is good!

So today I went job hunting, needing a job with about 15-18 hours, needing to have the money to pay off school stuff.
So
I went to a place that my friend Noelle works, where she thinks she can
get me hired.  She suggests I go to a place called Moe's.  I almost
didn't, thinking I had the job where she was, but I decided to swing by.
Well
apparently they were desperate for applications, which was cool.  And
then while I'm applying, a guy I met YESTERDAY came in, and was like
"Hey! This is a Hughes guy ( my dorm ) you should hire him" So then the
girl asks if he'd vouch for me, and he said yeah, cause turns out he
works there.  Talk about awesome timing, I just happened to hang out
where my friend Noelle worked for an hour, headed to Moes, RIGHT when
he showed up to get food.
A big bonus about Moe's is when I turned
in the application, I put 6 dollars an hour, but the girl I gave it to
told me it was more.  So I'd definitely want a job there, because the
cafe place where Noelle works is 5.75
God is good!

SO THEN I
go to Cici's, and a long story short, the manager was there, I had an
interview, and he basically worked RIGHT with my desired hours, and
would have hired me right there on the spot, but I told him I just
wanted to wait a couple days cause I had dropped applications around
that day.  He gave me his card, and unless Moe's calls me in the next
couple days I'll take the job there.

So yeah, I went to three places, and each place had progressive likelihood.  It was AWESOME!!!!


So yeah, GOD IS GOOD.

Quote of the Week (a day early)

August 19 2006

we're headed up to grandma's ...for.... what i hope does not turn into a small version of WWIII, Hell, or some combination of the two. Anyway... that means internet will not be an option tomorrow and i already has this picked out. it's great... makes me think of a few people, but again.... anyway


    "Like the traveler, we have been running through that jungle, always imagining the angry face of the Judge who will sentence us. We inagine Him to be in league with Death, our Pursuer. 
    Yet it turns out that the Judge has been pursuing for love rather than vengeance. His face is compassionate rather than angry. And finally He pays the highest price imaginable so that He might provide that statement of justification that will allow restoration into His own family."
- David Jeremiah, Captured By Grace


long but definately worth it


Weekend

August 19 2006

So i just got home from shopping for the Clarinet basket for the Pancake Breakfast. Two hours of shopping for dog toys. OMG...


Football game was fun. Preformance was good also.


13 days till my Birthday. 13 Days till the Oakland Game. 13 day till i am no 16 anymore. SO you know how people come up to you and ask so what do you want for your birthday. well... i had that alot lately and i have no idea. I mean normally by now i would have a mile long list but this year i only have two things. a tide pen and the Veggie Tales soundtrack for my car.


What Happened?

August 19 2006
this silence is thunderous
with the roar of a storm
just bursting out my insides..
if nothing's wrong
then tell me why
it had to change.....
tell me that it'll pass
the sea will go to rest
and we can continue
to go on course....

LEE

August 19 2006

Getting settled in. It's exciting and stressful. All my stuff is in
my room and I'm getting things organized and settled. I went through
most of freshman orientation today. I have just a little tomorrow I
think. I found something out, I think I am basically going to have 3
instruments of study. Primary is guitar, Secondary is Voice, and Piano
is required. That is exciting because I didn't think I was going to get
to do voice stuff but it looks like I will! I think I'm going to like
it here. I'll let everone know once I'm registered and stuff. I don't
know my classes yet.


 I auditioned for the School of Music
yesterday. I think I did ok. I probably made it in on probation meaning
that if I do well over the next semester I can re-audition and probably
be accepted fully next semester, and they would credit me the first
semester as a music major without any loss for not being fully in at
first. I will know monday if I made it or not. I register on Tuesday.
Classes start Wednesday.

I'M AT LEE!!!!

International Student Welcome Lunch

August 19 2006

Monday August 21st 11:30 a.m. - 1:00 p.m.


We are feeding the new international students who will be starting at MTSU this fall!  This "Welcome Lunch" is a BCM tradition.  If you are free and would like to be a part of welcoming new international students, join us on Monday to meet, serve, and get to know 40 international students.  If you can help, please call 995-6967 or e-mail so we can be sure to have enough food.

I'm 18.. tomorrow. i expect presents.

August 19 2006

we won

August 19 2006

36-9


yayyyy---2 weeks!

Fine. Just kill the moment, why don't you?

August 19 2006

As you guys know, a week ago today, my purse got stolen at the Belcourt Theatre in Nashville.  I had gone there to see and mock one of the most rediculously bad films in the history of the universe.  And somewhere in the process, my purse disappeared with several valuables inside it.  Not to mention that, to me, the purse itself was a valuable.


So yeterday, after spending my last day with Michael Cole that I will get to spend for a long time (he's moving out of state tomorrow), I went to see Pulse with Rachel Hodorowicz.


So we enjoy Ian Somerholder's smoldering hottness and discuss the fact that Mattie and "Josh" would have a much better relationship if she could just remember that "Josh"s name is in fact, Drew Wimberly.  (Don't believe me?  Go see the movie.  It's Drew Wimberly.)


Oh yeah.  The point.


I got a phone call during the film that I missed because I'm a good girl who keeps her cell phone on silent or vibrate in the movie theatre.  But they left a message.


It was the Belcourt Theatre.


They found my purse.


A week later.  After replacing my lisence, my locks, and my auto insurance cards... And coming to peace with the fact that I did a really supremely dumb thing and bad consequences resulted of it...


They found my purse.


Someone just sat down in one of the seats in the movie theatre and was like, "Hey, there's a purse here."


What the crap?  We searched for that purse, and we couldn't find it in any of the seats in or near where I was sitting.


Know what else?  It's full.


ID, money, insurance cards, keys.  It's all there.


That kind of killed my learning experience.

Oh! S!

August 19 2006
We almost beat Riverdale!!!! Holy Crap!!! This is the first time we havent lossed to them by about 50 points!  Hopefully this is a good omen!

This day

August 18 2006
Choir is absolutely amazing.
Juvenile basses crack me up.
I will excel with practice.
Football game was so much fun.
37-to-9 we won.
Halftime show sounded great to me.
Talking to Mr. Way about how my parents don't want me to major in music. He says that I will have to live my life for me and make my own decisions.
If only it was that easy.
Danny

17 seconds

August 18 2006
I was seventeen seconds from running.  My bags are packed, and I could have them in the car, in 12 seconds.  5 then to get the car started.  I could have left, but I stayed because, well, where would I go?  I'm dying here...cramped into a small world when I need space.  I need to be able to move, to get up and go, to write and compose, to imagine and dream.  Maybe in a few weeks.

more band camp

August 18 2006

Today was a lot better than yesturday. I feel really stiff in the morning, so I feel sucky at that time, but night practices are better. We have all of the pre-game show on now, playing and everything. Yay!


Tyler is at a football game and won't get home till midnight. Grr. I thought of some really cute that I can do when I go see him and he's at school. Hehe.


<3sTTx2

ah,summer, how it has changed.

August 18 2006
remember back in the good ol days of old when summers seemed to fly by and the most work you ever did  was clean up the garbage from the kickin' party you just had. nope. no more. just work,sleep,practice, repeat. no more,no less, just keep reliving the same day over and over. it sadens me cause all im lookin forward to is for school to start. i need to talk to my freinds and get out of this downward spiral.

Untitled

August 18 2006

"I can't understand it


The search for an answer is met with a darker day 


And we've been handed these moments forever 


But I'm reassured there's another way"                                  

a little spider made my day better

August 18 2006
well high school is pretty depressing right now. and everything seems to be going pretty bad  a little spider taught me a lesson.
i was at the church looking at bruces spot on the church prayer walk.and sitting on swing i saw a spider making a web. it occured to me that this spider that is about as small as the tip of a pen. This web was so precise and soo exact that it occured to me that God created everything and God can handle anything. He put me in this situation just for his glory and that i should not be sulking in my little problem but praising him and giving him the glory of being in any situation. if you want to see this spider and its amazing web go down to belle air and there is a swing and on the right chain there is my little spider friend

Good Stuff

August 18 2006

high school's pretty stressful, but the first week is over, so maybe it'll get better from here. i dont know.


"People Should Not be Afraid of their Government. A Government Should be Afraid of Its People." -- V

August 18 2006

Warning -- Exceedingly lengthy and highly political post.  Because I like you guys, so it's only fair.

This just in from the New York Times:

Judge Finds Wiretap Actions Violate the Law

"A federal judge ruled yesterday that the National Security Agency's program to wiretap the international communications of some Americans without a court warrant violated the Constitution, and she ordered it shut down.

"The ruling was the first judicial assessment of the Bush administration's arguments in defense of the surveillance program, which has provoked fierce legal and political debate since it was disclosed last December. But the issue is far from settled, with the Justice Department filing an immediate appeal and succeeding in allowing the wiretapping to continue for the time being.

"In a sweeping decision that drew on history, the constitutional separation of powers and the Bill of Rights, Judge Anna Diggs Taylor of United States District Court in Detroit rejected almost every administration argument.

"Judge Taylor ruled that the program violated both the Fourth Amendment and a 1978 law that requires warrants from a secret court for intelligence wiretaps involving people in the United States. She rejected the administration's repeated assertions that a 2001 Congressional authorization and the president's constitutional authority allowed the program.

"It was never the intent of the framers to give the president such unfettered control, particularly when his actions blatantly disregard the parameters clearly enumerated in the Bill of Rights," she wrote. "The three separate branches of government were developed as a check and balance for one another."

Love this woman.  Love, love, love this woman.

"...said the decision was the work of a liberal judge advancing a partisan agenda."

Well the only way we'd ever get an unbiased view is if they had a judge who was not from either party rule, or some hapless, blessedly oblivious farming sod from Nebraska and neither the Republicans nor the Democrats have ever been very charitable toward the idea of Libertarian//Green//Independent members gaining a foothold.  [Let alone clueless Nebraskan sods, which is in no way a reflection on the general character of anyone originating in said state.]

"...She has ruled for the A.C.L.U. in a lawsuit challenging religious displays on municipal property. But she has also struck down a Detroit ordinance favoring minority contractors. "Her reputation is for being a real by-the-books judge," said Evan H. Caminker, the dean of the University of Michigan Law School.

"...The White House is backing a plan, drafted by Senator Arlen Specter, Republican of Pennsylvania, with the blessing of President Bush, that would allow a secret court to review the legality of the operation."

Yeah, because secret courts are completely unbiased.  Anne Boleyn was indicted by a relatively secret court.  Look where that got her.

And I'm sorry, anything that's being referred to as the 'Specter legislation' is just creepy.  Sure it's superficial.  In keeping with the Tudor analogy, this time regarding Anne of Cleves, Henry divorced her just because she was a little aesthetically challenged.  So we're good.

"Judge Taylor rejected the government's threshold argument that she should not hear the case at all because it concerned state secrets. Dismissal on those grounds was not required, she wrote, because the central facts in the case — the existence of the program, the lack of warrants and the focus on communications in which one party is in the United States — have been acknowledged by the government."

Tried their face.

"The president also violated the Constitution's separation of powers doctrines, Judge Taylor ruled. Neither a September 2001 Congressional authorization to use military force against Al Qaeda nor the president's inherent constitutional powers allow him to violate the 1978 law or the Fourth Amendment, she said."

Tried their mom's face.

"There are no hereditary kings in America and no powers not created by the Constitution," she wrote, rejecting what she called the administration's assertion that the president "has been granted the inherent power to violate not only the laws of the Congress but the First and Fourth Amendments of the Constitution itself."

Um, ouch?  *Cringe*  Somebody just got bitch-slapped in a federal ruling.  That's too blatant for written judicial documents, in my opinion.  "Hereditary kings" is random and not pertinent at all.  White 'er out.

"It is disappointing that a judge would take it upon herself to disarm America during a time of war," said Representative Peter Hoekstra..."

CONFLICT.  KAHN---FLIKT.  You're in the Senate Congress.  You should know.  Hell, I know this, and I only have one semestre of government class for reference.

"Judge Taylor did give the government a minor victory, rejecting on national security grounds a challenge to a separate surveillance program involving data mining. That ruling is consistent with recent decisions of federal courts in San Francisco and Chicago.

"Judges in those cases drew a distinction between the wiretapping program, which the administration has acknowledged and defended, and the data mining program, which has not been officially confirmed."

Eh, neither have those 'black spots' in Europe, so no worries.  *Sarcasm*

And finally, to close, since a picture is worth a thousand words, the caption must total around 500:

"Attorney General Alberto R. Gonzales said Thursday that the administration would do all it could to continue an eavesdropping program ruled unconstitutional by Judge Anna Diggs Taylor of federal court."

TOMORROW:: Coffee as a Health Drink.  Your reward for actually reading this far.

YEA!!!!!

August 18 2006

I'm so happy cause i finally got my schedule changed...its only been the first week of school but it felt like forever having to be in a 6th period that i already took last year... but anyway everything is the same except my 6th period....


1st semester starting monday i have Financial Planning and 2nd Semester i have keyboarding.


well thats all...

If you have a father, or if you havent one, I'll do anything for you

August 18 2006


My new love:


Sufjan Stevens.


His music is so incredible.  It's addicting.  I don't even know how to describe the musical styles: I guess a rock/bluegrass type thing with lots of other cultural influences.  And his lyrics are really good, too - as far as "Christian" music goes, Sufjan is one of the few artists I can listen to wothout cringing, because his lyrics aren't cheesy, cliched, or shallow, which seem unfortunatly to be the standard fare in 88.7-type Christian music.  Sufjan's lyrics are often about God, but they also reflect - in a gorgeous, poetic way - the good things in life and also the more difficult realities of life.


"On the floor at the great divide
With my shirt tucked in and my shoes untied
I am crying in the bathroom

In the morning when you finally go
And the nurse runs in with her head hung low
And the cardinal hits the window

In the morning in the winter shade
On the first of March, on the holiday
I thought I saw you breathing

All the glory that the Lord has made
And the complications when I see His face
In the morning in the window

All the glory when He took our place
But He took my shoulders and He shook my face
And He takes
and He takes
and He takes..."


Hit The Beat!!!!!

August 18 2006

Ok, the first week of school is over, and if I may say: my schedule rocks out loud!!!!!!!! I'm in one centralized area all day and I don't have to run around like a chicken with my head cut off!!!


 I am one of 5 or 6 juniors in Drivers Ed, so I feel really old. Perk: I sit next to a cute guy. Yay me! Fat Kid's home!!!!!!!! YYYAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! Actually, she'll be home tomorrow, but she still home!

FOOTBALL TIME!

August 18 2006
Football at Riverdale tonight!!!! WOO HOO!!!!

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August 18 2006

TODAY IS MY


BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Sigh

August 18 2006
So, I went to a lot of trouble to sign up for my Intro to Lit Studies class. I had to go get special permission for it and everything. Then today, I went to Phillip's to look at the books for this class, only to realize that this class is going to be pretty darn awful. One of the books we're required to read is called Literary Theory. Oh, and if that isn't bad enough, there's The Dictionary of Literary Symbols! What the mess?! I just want to read novels and short stories! Anyhow, and this is the only English class required for my minor, and I'm noticing that the other teachers aren't as hardcore as mine. The only other class that fits into my schedule with a good teacher is currently closed (mine's new so I didn't know he was going to be like this!), and what really ticks me is if I had found this out yesterday instead of tody, I could have woken up really and snagged a spot whenever the purging was going on. But no, I just found out and it's closed.

I do have the option of dropping this class instead of my Tennessee History class that I have been meaning to drop for an eternity, but I soooo want to take English and not history. When I didn't have English last semester I had withdrawls from it! I'm an English nerd, but I am not down with literary symbols and junk. I just want to read some happy stories and write papers about them. I've tried looking into other English classes but they are few and far between. Here's what's left: classes I'm not interested or bad teachers! Or it's at an awful time... my 2030 teacher, for example, whom I love very much, is teaching a class that sounds alright... too bad it's on Wednesday nights! Bleh! Anything else that sounds interesting and has a good teacher is closed or interferes with what is otherwise a perfectly lovely schedule that I have. I'm sad though because I really wanted to take this class with my good friend Jolene.

Maybe this class would be good because it would help me with other classes I take in the future. I dunno... maybe. I'm just kinda confused, and the countdown to school is pretty darn soon.

On a happier note, Aimee's Cracker Barrel get-together was tons of fun. I put up about 38 pictures from it up on Facebook, and you should go comment on them.

The Saga Continues

August 18 2006
Yesterday, the new carpet was installed.  I'm still not thrilled with the seam, but that I can live with.  What I cannot live with is the fact that they left something UNDER the carpet.  Now they'll have to come pull it up so they can pull out the scrap of carpet or whatever it is that is causing a lump in my floor.  This will make it 8 months and 5 visits from installers just to get new carpet.

I definitely have my angry face on.

All You Want...

August 18 2006

How many roads did I travel
Before I walked down one that led me to You?
And how many dreams did unravel
Before I believed in a hope that was true?
And how long? How far?
What was meant to fulfill only emptied me still
And all you ever wanted...

Only me, on my knees
Singing HOLY, HOLY
And somehow ALL THAT MATTERS NOW is
You are HOLY, HOLY

How many deaths did I die
Before I was awakened to new life again?
And how many half-truths did I bear witness to,
'til the proof was disproved in the end?
And how long? How far?
What was meant to illuminate, shadowed me still
And all YOU ever wanted...

Only me, on my knees
Singing HOLY,HOLY
And somehow all that matters now is
YOU ARE HOLY, HOLY

And all I have is gratitude to offer You

Holy, holy
Somehow all that matters now is YOU ARE HOLY

You are holy, holy
Somehow all that matters now is
You are holy, holy

Only me on my knees
Singing holy, holy
And somehow all that matters now is
You are holy, holy

HOLY, HOLY, HOLY


- Nichole Nordeman "Holy"


good music gets me through the school day..

August 18 2006

well here i am in art...ive been working on a collage drawing..and now im starving..i have fist lunch at  11 30 (i think) if anyone feels like coming to see me.


do you ever feel like you are just missing something? something huge? just the feeling that everyone gets it but you?.. ive been feeling like that today ...almost like theres something happening that i cant see or understand but its still happening.


theres the bell..talk to you soon-kels



Can I call you if I'm back in town?
Leave a message when I'm southbound?
Could I please, could I please?
Won't be long till I'll be passing through,
Maybe three days, maybe two.

Could I see you one more time, if its ok if you don't mind?
I'm the shade of a shadow, baby.
Been thinkin' bout you tonight, how sweetly you bring light.
You're the ray of the sun, and I'm the shade of a shadow.

Of all the letters I never sent and all the time we haven't spent,
Could I please, could I please?
You always said I play games I know I'd lose,
you always said that's the life I'd choose.



Oh why do they leave
On the day that you needed them the most
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets no flowers for me
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets no flowers for me
Lover why do you leave
On the day I want you for me
Say say it ain't so
That he will take you tomorrow
And I will sit here today
The worst
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets no flowers for me
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets Curtains for me
Lover why do you leave
Lover why do you leave
On the day I want you to be
The one

hello there

August 18 2006
Lol i must say i get out alot more than my last entry. I have good news i have a new NEPHEW!! Mason James i call him MJ though ..Me and mom took off last weekend to see him and bring him to his home , hes sooo cute and tiny like 6 pounds hehe premi clothes wont fit him yet they swallow him whole hehe To bad his mom is an idiot :( seriously im not just saying that to be mean, I at 18 would be a better parent then she at like 28 will be *shrugs* i cant do anything about it though anyway talks to yaz later

Well....

August 18 2006
Things could be a lot worse.........

Moving to LEE!

August 18 2006
It fully hit me about 10 minutes ago, sitting among a ton of boxes and bags and staring at a half empty room that I'm actually moving tomorrow. It's only 2 hours away, but it's the realization that I'm finally leaving my little Murfreesboro bubble that's such a strange feeling. I know a ton of people in this town. Almost every road or place holds some type of memory for me, and tomorrow I'm headed to a town where I know a handful of people and the streets and places mean nothing to me. I'm mostly looking foward to it. Two hours isn't much of a distance at all, and I'm not one to typically get homesick anyway. And I should, hopefully, be home often enough that it won't be too bad. It's just strange to think about not driving out in quiet Walter Hill at night to go home. It'll be nice to get out of Murfreesboro. There's a lot of things I need to leave behind and get away from for a while. The next few days are probably gonna be a little crazy so if you wanna talk to me call or text the cell!!

This is my life and I live it as I see fit

August 17 2006

  Well, this year looks like a good year. I like my classes, I like my teachers, I've met some nice people (cute girls, too!), I am going to like a buzzillion different things, and.... well... and... I guess that is about it. I almost feel bad about leaving this place at the end of the year, probably without saying goodbye or telling anyone...ALMOST!! Nah, I figure there is a whole world out there that I have yet to see, and as long as the good Lord makes me stay here, I mine as well I go out and see it.


  Life is too short to be taken for granted, especially if you are like me. There is no point in dwelling on the past because you cannot change it. I wait for no one and I expect no one to wait for me. I took a personality test today and learned a lot about myself. It said that I am insensitive to the hardships of others, which to me translates into I don't like to hear people complain. I believe that if you don't like it, change it and everyone has the power to change anything. I am going to have a good year whether my friends do or not. As I said, I wait for no one, if they wish to follow me they can go right ahead but I pave my own way.


  Yet, the thing that stuck out the most on the test was that I do not forgive very easily, which is of course true. Most of the time I'll make the person get down on their hands and knees and beg for forgivenss that tells me that they actually want it and if there heart is truly repentant I will forgive them but I will not allow the same mistake twice, which ironically was another one on the list. I have been forged by those around me and their decisions, the events that have occured in my life whether under my control or not, and simply because this is who I want to be. No man or woman can take any credit to who I have become except perhaps for one other person other than my parents and God. This is my life and I live it as I see fit.


  My manager bought me pizza and soda today. I think really as a going away present because I am cutting back on my hours a lot. He really is a nice guy and tries to help me out as much as he can, and for that I thank him, but some of the advice he gives me is not all that great; after all, he is still human. Buzzfest is going to be a blast of course, and I got my ticket today, finally.I think I am going to pull an all nighter with Jon and go fishing the night before Buzzfest. I probably will do the samething this Friday but I don't know, I haven't really decided yet. Anyways, that is longer than what I originally intended so talk to you all later.

voting time

August 17 2006
am i crazy vote 1
am i paranoid vote 2
am i just a teenager who is trying to get involved in polotics and not getting the whole picture  vote 3
does my paranoia have a reason vote 4
 am i using this to avoid my own paranoia vote 5


please respond

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August 17 2006
One more week...until college starts!!!

Day

August 17 2006
Here is my day:

1. I did laundry
2. I met Marlee and her boyfriend at my church and played all but one of my songs for them.  They enjoyed, but I'm not going too much on their opinions as neither of them is too musically inclined.  It is encouraging, though.
3. Saw a friend on the road and met her at her workplace to hang talk; I haven't seen her in months.
4. Found out that a guy I used to play soccer with died in a car wreck about a week ago.
5. Figured out a nifty, overused chord structure for a new song.  I think this one will be my duet piece I've been wanting to write.  We'll see.

I had this dream a week ago tonight where I had a terminal illness.  Since I was dying anyway, I threw all caution to the wind and enjoyed myself, followed up on opportunities, and just didn't care about embarassment or anything like that.  When I was at church last night, I was just hit with that feeling again, and it's stuck so far.  I've enjoyed myself for the past few days.  I even yelled in one of my songs without blushing - now that is an accomplishment.

Changing gears...

I just got a cool feeling that I haven't felt in over a year.  If anyone reading this has seen Collateral, it's the feeling you're supposed to get in the scene with the coyotes.  It's this feeling of "I'm here, right now, living a life that will never be relived."  It's the feeling I used to get when I was driving home at 2 or 3 in the morning, when there aren't any cars out and you can really think about things.
I have a calling, a purpose, but I don't know what it is.  Just sitting around has never helped me get anywhere, and it's certainly not going to help now.  I've got this urge in me to get out, to do something, but I don't know what to do.  This sucks.

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August 17 2006

hey ppl miss me well sry i havent been on cause well im always on myspace lol phusebox old lol so anyways how everone doin lol


Bowing down to the trend

August 17 2006

INSTRUCTIONS
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!



How do you feel today?
Here's to you

What's your outlook on life?
Roller Derby Queen

What does your family think of you?
That's when I'll stop loving you

What do your friends think of you?
When sand runs out

What do strangers think of you?
More Than A Feeling

What do your exes think of you?
Walk Away

How has your love life been so far?
Easy Money

How will your love life be in the future?
These Dreams

Will you get married?
After The Thrill Is Gone

Will you have kids?
All The Way

Are you good in school?
In America

Will you be succesful in life?
The Day Before You

What song should they play on your birthday?
Look Away

What song should they play at your funeral?
I Can't Tell You Why

The Soundtrack of Your Life:
It's Gonna Be Me

You and your bestfriend are:
Holes

Happy times:
Still in Saigon

Sad times:
Free Bird

Every day:
Saturday In The Park

for tomorrow:
New Kid in Town

Selfish

August 17 2006

Read a story one time ( well it was really a novel, i m just telling a quick story from it :) )   of a girl.  Lets name her Jane. 


Jane was a wealthy young succesful newspaper woman.  SHe loved naked statues.  Thought they were magnificant..  One day she read of a statue.  Very old, very beautiful.. but its whereabouts were unknown.  She spents thousands of dollars to have it found.  


When she finally had it in her apartment she uncovered it and stood and stared at the life sized statue of a perfectly formed man.  She stared for hours.  Never looking away.


When she did finally take her eyes from the statue.  She took it and pushed it down the ventalation shaft of her apartment building. 


 it hit the paved ground and shattered.


She claimed it would be worthless to her if anyone else every laid eyes on it.



Reunion

August 17 2006

So my sister is home as of monday around 11:30 am.  So strange that it doesn't even feel like she was gone.  I missed her so much while she was away and now that she is here its as though she has been all along. 


i kno talking about hree bores effing everyone so i wont do it.  Cause thats usually all i do?   Im obsessive,  shoot me.



so im  crash reading into Dorian Gray.  Its my second time around with this Oscar Wilde Classic.  The first time i was simply intriqued with the story.  This time, im on about page 13 and it seems like a completely different book than the one i read 3 years ago. 


" I like persons more than principles.  Even better are persons with no principles at all."   


this book was written for me.

You Gotta Love Technology...

August 17 2006
-First, Windows Movie Maker disappeared from my computer.
-Then, after a week in MS with very little online contact, my router decides to be stupid and not work.
-Then, my computer and printer don't communicate.
-And then sometime last night, the student information system at MTSU decided to crash, thus resulting in much pandemonium this morning at work. Thankfully, I was able to bury myself in prenote checking.

Also thankfully, three out of the four above problems have been fixed. The one that was not fixed I worked around for the moment it was most crucial.

Ah, technology...

P.S. I may also have one of Dell's exploding batteries of doom... I've got to check for sure... and guess who made these defective batteries? SONY! Figures!

Floor Leader Retreat

August 17 2006
So the past two days I've spent with the team of chaplains, those over the entire dorm for the on campus ministry, and floor leaders, those leading the small groups on their floors.  It's been a lot of fun.  Man, there are some awsome people on our team!  We spent a lot of time discussing what it means to be a leader, humble, and various things, and I was continually blown away by the heart and wisdom of my fellow "hype mates" ( hype is the name of the ministry 'heighten your personal experience')

So it's been pretty cool, I think I've learned a lot, I'm definitely pumped about ministering to the guys on my floor during the course of the next year.
So tomorrow's check in, Paul's coming, and I get to meet all the guys who'll be on my floor!
Woot Woot!

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August 17 2006
It would be cool if ya'll could pray for me, cause I need it.

Out of Place

August 17 2006
Sometimes I feel like I'm meant to be aloneForever lost deep inside my thoughtsAnd I feel there is no place for me to call homeThat's when I realize I'm not LOST I'm just misplacedI'm just mistakenI'm a little turned around and a little shakenBut I just don't fitI just don't blend inBut if I'm meant to stick out I guess I have to take itBut I don't have to like it

Why Kelly Doesn't Visit Doctors.

August 17 2006

It's because that despite decades of school and selling their souls to The Infinite Evil, they really know nothing.


Case in point:: Yesterday's vaccine for meningitis.  Simple, really.  I could do this.  Jab, squirt, yank.  Bandaid.  *Applause*  Downright elementary.  And it's true, the procedure itself went without incident.  [Even if the nurse implied that since I was female, I was bound to get lost on the vast college campus.  Almost poked her in the beady eye with a tongue depressor for that.]


It was the waiting room that has me going.


[After 20 minutes of waiting in an office devoid of patients.]
"Are you Kelly Sullivan?"
"Yes."
[Internal monologue: Well, nobody else is here.  Watson, what would you deduce?]
"Um... We can't find your chart."  [Accusingly]  "You haven't been here in two years, you know."
[Internal monologue: With good reason.  And it was one year.]
"Er, so what should I do?"
"Well, we do have our archives...  They might be in there... Oh well.  We can just give it to you anyway.  Come on back."
[Internal monologue: Please, Tom Cruise, save me with your witchcraft before they can get close.]


So I received under-the-table medical attention.  In a doctor's office that can't keep its damned simple paperwork straight.  And these people are licensed to inject us with things?!  To treat and cure?!  To hold our lives in their oh-so incompetent hands?!  I had only been gone a year!  Last time, it was for paperwork certifying various other vaccinations, so I could attend Governor's School.  Yeah, they lost that, too.  Inbred, half-witted excuse of a medical malpractise... Makes me wonder whether I was supposed to have been back within the year.  They're probably doping me up with ebola.  Job security, and all.


And to top it all off, I ran almost literally into a small child with chicken pox, two years after my innoculation for said nastiness expired.  *Cues Psycho theme*  Aiiiiii!  Cute kid, but lethal.


So I've converted to Christian Science, because honestly, I'll have better luck praying for my cancer to go into remission than trusting it to their scurvy likes.


An Amusing Exchange Betwixt Siblings
"Kelly?  Are you here?"
"Yes.  My car's here.  That generally means --"
"Well I didn't see it!"
"...You had to walk right past it to get inside."
"I was watching the dog!"
"So you missed the 3,000-pound vehicle parked in front of the door?"


Good times, good times.


"The last time I navigated, we wound up in Kentucky."
"Well... Find printed instructions?"
"They were."

Summer Fun 2006

August 17 2006

"Summer Fun 2006" - A video-collage of some of the fun things that I've done this summer. Enjoy!

yesterday's quote of the day

August 17 2006

"i don't feel so short around you."


-rachel swift (to me)


and i know that today has a quote of the day, too, i just don't remember it right now.

new sn.

August 17 2006

new screen name.


add it to your buddy list.


and IM me if i am still online.


[&hearts;]


--old s/n
kellismile05
iloveeeyouuu06
kellyskyeee

band camp

August 17 2006

Band camp is much easier than high school. We take a lot longer to do things, thus more breaks. I miss high school band already.


Tyler got mad at me last night, so I didn't sleep well. It's showing, I'm quite tired. I'm mad at myself too, I don't treat him like I should. Grr myself. We made up this morning though before he went to school, so I feel slighty better.


Nap time.


<3TT

Drugs - What's Your Story?

August 17 2006

Man, last night's service was so good. Kenny is doing a series called "Sex, Drugs, and Rock and Roll" so last night was drugs. The verse he read talked about if you think you're standing strong as a Christian BE CAREFUL because even the strongest Christians can fall. That's exactly what happened to his best friend Jason. Kenny didn't really have a sermon, it was more like a story about Jason and how he was this awesome Christian and everybody loved him, but then drugs completely ruined his life in just a short period of time. Hannah and I did a human video called "Walking Dead" which I'm really glad went well. Even though I thought it was kind of a fun human video, I know God used us to touch the hearts of those middle school students with it. I'm so thankful for that. The altar call was amazing. Pretty much everyone in the room was crying before they left. I can't wait to see what God and Kenny have in store for next week!

The VPs Are Leaving !!

August 16 2006

Double yeah-yeah.  All 8 visitors (incl 5 VPs) leave today. That means its time to shutdown, pack, and leave for Indonesia ... hurrah ... finally ... after months of uncertainty and planning (since early April).  Although hard to say good-bye to friends here in Angola ... half my family is already in Jakarta waiting for me (the other half are in Tennessee) ... so it is time to go.


Meeting with VPs went well; doesn't look like I have to stay in Angola longer; although I expect some phone calls after I leave.


Now ... hmm, much to do.


Thurs - Hash Mis-Management Committee meeting at the hash's favorite restaurant.


Fri - Packers deliver some packing material in the morning.  Dinner with my best friend Tom Rapson


Sat - Hash and Pakistani curry dinner afterwards


Sun - finalize organizing the house


Mon - Packers arrive


Tues - Dinner with Sharifah and Pauline (hati-hati)


Wed - ?


Thurs - ?


Friday (25th) ... last night in Angola - Dinner with a bunch of friends, primarily Angolans.


Sat (26th) ... Time to fly ..


Oh yeah ... in there somewhere is a little bit of work to wrap-up.


Decy is moving forward on the DaVinci house - it passed the security review. Hopefully we get some good feedback today on finalization of negotiations.


ciao ciao

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August 16 2006
Why is it people see things right in front of them but still remain blind?

does your chain hang low, does it wobble to the flow?

August 16 2006

If you ever have the opportunity to go to the airport with a bunch of friends to pick up another friend, especially if it involves crazy windblown hair and loud rap music... Do it.


Heck, if you just have the opportunity to do anything with your friends... DO IT.  You'll be glad you did.


Because you never know when they won't be there to do things with anymore.


On that note...


Does your chain hang low?
Do it wobble to the flow?
Does it shine in the light?
Is it platinum, Is it gold?
Could you throw it over ya shoulda
If ya hot, to make ya cold?
Do your chain hang low?

please pray

August 16 2006

dont you hate how when you care for someone so much and you see them making mistakes in their lives, and when you try to reason with them they listen and talk about it but already have their mind made up. so really all their is to do is pray. and i do that. i've done it, i do it, and i will continue to pray and talk to the person that i care for so much. i just hope something happens before they make some mistakes that they will regret later. i know it's happened in my life, and i just dont want the same for them.


please pray.


piece

stuck in a rut

August 16 2006
hmmm lunch with band kids for a non band kid is not very entertaining
anyone got a solution

the funeral

August 16 2006
After allowing a respectful time for the view and recieving of friends (my family began to notice a smell), Hermie Westerman was laid to rest at sea (in the big lake behing my house) yesterday with my mother and i in attendance. After a moment of silence we gave Hermie a 21 splash salute and said farewell!

Untitled

August 16 2006

blah blah blah


i am tried....
yep that all


blah


now back to listening to my ipod

new schedule!!

August 16 2006

1) print media-davis
2) us history-riche (it was the only way i could work my classes out)
3) english III honors-farley
4) spanish II honors-tomlinson
5) chem honors-daniel
6) algebra II honors-simmons
& 2nd lunch!! yay!!


yay so i love my schedule now...& all the cool kids are in 2nd lunch! yay!

Yipee

August 16 2006
    Today I had a blast out on the beach! I laid out, went walking, doodled Isaiah, played badminton with Jonathan and just had fun. I did find, however, that because I have been mostly inside all summer, that I am whiter than any of my family! Hopefully I will take in some sun the next few days but as for now I get to hear jokes about how I'm blinding people with my shocking legs (thanks Chris)... Anyway, still having fun. talk to you all later.

Beach

August 16 2006
Ok so we just got back from the beach, it was really cold but I had a great time anyway. I have been here one day and I already am tan, I am going to be really dark by the end of this week. I will probably not be posting any more this week on phusebox, but I will try to update periodically, we'll see.
Amazinzay

New screen Name ideas

August 16 2006
Hello friends I have a new Laptop and I need ideas for a new aol s/n that is original and funny. Let me know if you have any suggestions. I would like my name to be in it somewhere. That would be Drew.

Whew.....

August 16 2006

I think today has been one of the most stressful days at work I've ever had.



I have my sweet tea and my christian music playing to get me through today.



I'm finally free.







Verse 1:
Lord you have my heart
And I will search for yours
Jesus take my life
and lead me on


Verse 2:
Lord you have my heart
And I will search for yours
Let me be to You
a sacrifice


Chorus:
And I will praise You Lord
And I will sing of love come down
And as You show Your face
We'll see Your glory here

VERSE 1

VERSE 2

And I will praise You Lord (i will praise you lord)
And I will sing of love come down (i will sing of love come down)
And as You show Your face (show your face)
We'll see Your glory here
We'll see Your glory here
We'll see Your glory here



Lord, I love you. Thank you Dad.



The longest week and 2 days ever

August 16 2006


Oh, how I miss him! Only two more weeks?

Worried? Me? NEVER!

August 16 2006

College life is GREAT!  The only bad thing is that my computer isn't working in my room yet so I'm in the library but hopefully that will be up and running soon!  Something weird happened.  I miss home but not as much as I thought I would.  Right now I'm keeping so busy with band that I really don't have time to think about it all.  I'm not sure if this is good or bad.  Don't get me wrong, I love you all and miss you but just not as much as I thought I would.  I can't wait to post pictures of my beautiful dorm room!  Thanks to my family and Leah for decorating it so nicely while I was in band rehearsal.  This may be my last post until my computer gets up and running but we'll see how long it takes.  Hopefully soon I can get on AIM and stuff again.  I miss chatting with people.  Oh yea, I'm definitely getting my exercise walking around campus.  That's all for now.  Next band rehearsal from 1-4 then I'm off for the night!  Yes!



*edit-  I got my computer to work!  I am very excited about this!  My roommates are great! 


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August 16 2006

 James tell us to consider it joy when we face trials. Why should we be joyful when we're right in the middle of a messy breakup? Why would we want to have joy when we learn of a lie that's been going on for six months? Who wants to express joy when we're breaking down in a mess of confusion and frustration?


Everytime we run to God with our pain and struggles, we strengthen our relationship with Him. Our perseverence through the struggles allows us to mature and be complete so that we lack nothing. That is why we should have joy.


God is preparing us for so many awesome things, and if we want it to be a perfect God written story, we HAVE to suffer. We HAVE to hurt. James doesn't say "IF you face trials", he says "WHENEVER you face trials".


When we are ready, God allows us to move to another chapter in our lives. There, once again, struggles will come up, tears will be shed, and doubts will arise. But we will have God. He is there to guide us through our story.


And then the words stop coming to mind. I guess that's all I was supposed to share. I'm sorry if it doesn't make senese. . . I was just sitting at my computer and suddenly God was like "Yeah, Anna. . . think back for a second. Yeah, you know the frustration you've felt? You know how you felt like your heart had been rippd out? That's all for a reason. You ran to Me though, you see? You ran to Me, and because of that you're being filled with more of Me. Remember James? '. . . mature and not lacking anything.' You're on that route. Keep on."

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August 16 2006

weeeeell... I started siegel monday! Its really not bad. Everyone has been really nice and friendly. Plus alot of people from church are there. God was amazing and gave me lunch with Hannah and Meghan, so we are doing a bible study during our lunch. Our verse this week is Acts 4:12. I still dont have my permanent schedule yet which is frustrating but ok. It means im getting to meet alot of people!


encounter was last night.. and it was great. Dan spoke on being moldable and the service was really cool. God has really been working on me about being distracted too easily. And Im really struggling with it but Im excited about where im going!


Last night was Paul, Chris, and Stacy last encounter and tonight is their last Relentless before they go to Lee. Im really sad...  especially that Stacy is leaving.. she was the very first friend i had here. Im going to miss her like crazy!! Plus im gonna miss Paul... Im not extremely close with him but he's a cool friend and he was my buddy at OHS! ugh.... not to mention Cherry and Travis left for college too!!! AAAH! too many changes!


im not ready to grow up.....


i love you guys.....


meag





Goodnight, not Goodbye

August 16 2006

Well, I have said my goodbyes, and in about seven hours I will leave Murfreesboro.  I am incredibly excited to begin this new part of my life, and at the same time I'm horribly sad to leave my friends and family.  But they will come visit, and they will write letters, and I will write letters, and I will be back for Thanksgiving and maybe even earlier.  In some ways, this big change will be very challenging for all of us, but I know we will make it through.  And so I will go confidently in the direction of my future, trusting in the Lord to guide me in the proper direction.  I encourage all of you to do the same, and I pray that He continues to lead us on paths that share many intersections and some stretches along the road together. 


Someone said to me recently that this is not goodbye, only goodnight.  You are right.  Goodbye implies an end; this is only just the beginning!  Goodnight.


mice!

August 15 2006

On the way home from the music building, Abby and I cought a mouse. It was someone's pet, I think, because it was colored all pretty and didn't run away from us. We put it somewhere that it would be able to not die by cars.



KH<3TT

8 songs and a shot in the arm

August 15 2006
I have 8 completed songs; granted, two of these are meant to go together as a two-part song...kind of like "We Will Rock You" and "We Are the Champions" but not as good and not about the same thing.  This makes me happy, as I am nearing my goal of 15 by next June; these 8 have been written since late last July, so I'm close to some sort of schedule.

Today, all of the official paperwork went through, and I am now the owner of a 3.56 GPA.  I believe that the term I am looking for here is "Boo-yah."  So there.  Boo-yah.

Nothing depressed or contemplative or complaining tonight.  Yet.

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August 15 2006

first after school rehersal went pretty well


cat wait to learn the way we come onto the field... its gonna rock your socks!!


friday is our first public performance and its gonna be here before you know it!!!


im so excited and you should be too!


remember friday.... band shirt and kahakis!!

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August 15 2006

i want to see snakes on a plane already.


and i can't go with the boys thursday nite. *sniff*



this interview with sam jackson on the daily show just got me way fired up over it.


have a nice day.


maybe i'll get my starbucks i've been craving soon.


-jen-

Nuthin

August 15 2006
Do you ever have those times when you realize you should be doing something else but you are doing something semi-pointless instead.  Here I am two days before I leave for school and I am in front of the tv talking to Trent online.  This truly has become the highlight of my day because everything else is work and this is pure joy.  No matter how hard or tiring or frustrating the work is, Trent can make it all better.  It's just a comforting thought to know that there is this wonderful boy out there who cares about me no matter what.  How am I so blessed?

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August 15 2006

don't you love it, when three good things come your way


i'll wish later on, they'd been spread out.


The Oscar Wilde Entry

August 15 2006


So, having finished The Picture of Dorian Gray, I find myself surprised at the number of amazing quotes I found in the book, mostly spoken by the character Lord Henry, whom I found quite interesting.  I don't usually write much in books, but I underlined a lot of really good quotes in Dorian Gray.   Here are my favorites.

"Now, the value of an idea has nothing whatsoever to do with the sincerity of the man who expresses it.  Indeed, the probabilities are that the more insincere the man is, the more purely intellectual will the idea be, as in that case it will not be coloured by his wants, his desires, or his prejudices."

"Nowadays most people die of a sort of creeping common sense."

"And Beauty is a form of Genius - is higher, indeed, than genius, as it needs no explanation.  It is of the great facts of the world, like sunlight, or spring-time, or the reflection in dark waters of that silver shadow we call the moon.  It cannot be questioned.  It has its divine right of sovereignty.  It makes princes of those who have it.  You smile?  Ah!  when you have lost it you won't smile...People say sometimes that Beauty is only superficial.  That may be so.  But at least it is not so superficial as Thought is.  To me, Beauty is the wonder of wonders.  It is only shallow people who do not judge by appearances.  The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible."

"I admit that I think it is better to be beautiful than to be good.  But on the other hand no one is more ready than I am to acknowledge that it is better to be good than to be ugly."

"The only artists I have ever known, who are personally delightful, are bad artists.  Good artists exist simply in what they make, and consequently are perfectly uninteresting in what they are.  A great poet, a really great poet, is the most unpoetical of all creatures.  But inferior poets are absolutely facinating.  The worse their rhymes are, the more picturesque they look.  The mere fact of having published a book of second-rate sonnets makes a man quite irresistable.  He lives in the poetry he cannot write.  The others write the poetry they dare not realize."

"Civilization is not by any means an easy thing to attain to.  There are only two ways by which man can reach it.  One is by being cultured; the other is by being corrupt."

Lady Narborough hit him with her fan.  "Lord Henry, I am not at all surprised that the world says that you are extremely wicked."
"But what world says that?" asked Lord Henry, elevating his eyeborws.  "It can only be that next world.  This world and I are on excellent terms."
"Everybody I know says you are very wicked," cried the onld lady, shaking her head.
Lord Henry looked serious for some moments.  "It is perfectly monstrous," he said, at last, "the way people go about nowadays saying things against one behind one's back that are absolutely and entirely true."

"Men marry because they are tired; women, because they are curious; both are disappointed."

"Youth!  There is nothing like it.  It's absurd to talk of the ignorance of youth.  The only people to whose opinions I listen now are people much younger than myself.  They seem in front of me.  Life has revealed to them her latest wonder.  As for the aged, I always contradict the aged.  If you ask them their opinion on something that happened yesterday, they solemnly give you the opinions current in 1820, when people wore high socks, believed in everything, and knew absolutely nothing."

"The books that the world calls immoral are books that show the world its own shame."

"It often happens that the real tragedies of life occur in such an inartistic manner that they hurt us by their crude violence, their absolute incoherence, their absurd want of meaning, their entire lack of style.  They affect us just as vulgarity affects us.  They give us an impression of sheer brute force, and we revolt against that.  Sometimes, however, a tragedy that possesses artistic elements of beauty crosses our lives.  If these elements of beauty are real, the whole thing simply appeals to our sense of dramatic effect.  Suddenly we find that we are no longer the actors, but the spectators of the play.  Or rather we are both.  We watch ourselves, and the mere wonder of the spectacle enthralls us."



And, of course, the entire preface to the book, which is practically a piece of literature unto itself.

I like aetheticism.  I don't agree with all of it, but I kind of like the idea.  "Art for art's sake" is a belief I've always sort of held.

Awesome

August 15 2006
       Just came back in from a stroll around the block... God is amazing creation is beautiful and I feel well :-)

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August 15 2006

We arrived in New Hampshire this afternoon. We flew to Maryland and then took another flight to NH. The flight to Maryland was absolutely amazing. It was a cloudy morning, and we flew above the clouds. It made me think of that song off of Aladdin. Oh, come on, you know you know it...you know, the one that goes:

(Aladdin)
I can show you the world,
Shining, shimmering, splendid,
Tell me princess now when did you last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes,
Take you wonder by wonder,
Over sideways and under on a magic carpet ride

A whole new world,
A new fantastic point of view.
No one to tell us no,
Or where to go,
Or say we're only dreaming.

(Jasmine)
A whole new world,
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here,
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
(Aladdin) Now I'm in a whole new world with you

(Jasmine)
Unbelievable sights,
Indescribable feelings.
Soaring, tumbling, free-wheeling through an endless diamond sky.
A whole new world...
(Aladdin) Don't you dare close your eyes

(Jasmine)
A hundred thousand things to see,
(Aladdin) Hold your breath it gets better

(Jasmine)
I'm like a shooting star,
I've come so far,
I can't go back to where I used to be
(Aladdin) A whole new world

(Jasmine) Every turn a surprise
(Aladdin) With new horizons to pursue
(Jasmine) Every moment red letter

(Both)
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

(Aladdin sings, Jasmine echoes)
A whole new world (A whole new world)
That's where we'll be (That's where we'll be)
A thrilling chase (A wondrous place
(Both) For you and me.

Oh man, it was beautiful. Clear blue sky above, smooth clouds below with the exception of those few times where there were the huge bumpy clouds that looked like mashed potatoes. Gosh it was gorgeous. I was awestruck by the awesome powers of God. He must have had a lot of fun creating this world. The hills, the oceans, the mountains, sunrises and sunsets, clouds, rainbows...God is awesome. I'm glad that he enjoys beautiful things. They make me happy. I don't understand how people can think that the world just randomly appeared, or happened by chance. That amazes me. Yeah, God is cool.



Tomorrow we're going to the beach. I'm hoping the water isn't too incredibly cold. I'm also hoping that I'm going to be able to go ice skating and tubing while I'm here. I love doing that sort of stuff. I'm also hoping for a tan. mmmm, I love tans.



See ya'll in a week! I'll try to keep updating.

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August 15 2006

yay!!! i got my schedule fixe today...it took half and hour but its all done now


first after school rehersal tonight... gotta love em!


audios


-emily

VPs Have Arrived !

August 15 2006

... all going well, during Wednesday's reviews no major issues will emerge that will delay my departure to Indonesia.


RE Indonesia, Decy continues to negotiate on the house we call "DaVinci" ... stay tuned.


ciao ciao

so yeah...

August 15 2006

I'm in a temporary room in the dorm building that I'll be living in. I move into my real room next week.


It's lonely.


<3'sTT

the late, great daughter of mother earth

August 15 2006

Me:  i think my mom is having "empty nest syndrome"


Someone else: dont you have a brother?


Me: yeah...

Back at FRIGGIN LEE :)

August 15 2006
So now I"m here at Lee.  Paul and I came down pretty early this
morning, got a bunch of his stuff in the room.  We even set up DDR and
went ahead and played some... gosh, my calves ALREADY hurt..  Maybe
it'll put me in shape :)

So I've already seen a handful of my
Lee friends, and it's pretty exciting to be back.  I'm about to go over
to Thorne's apartment, and tonight his parents are taking me, Jonathan,
and probably the turtle ( Tiffany ) out to eat.  Should be "large fun."
Haha... new saying started by an older guy in our church.

So if
you're from Lee, we need to hang out, and if you're in Murfreesboro,
and aren't Paul Chris or Stacy, I'm sad to be leaving you.
But man... OO MAN, Paul and I...
Haha, yeah, we're gonna have some fun ;)

fine arts trip

August 15 2006

The fine arts trip was great! All of the participants were excellent and glorified God with their ministries. The night services we went to were unforgettable. The praise and worship was one of my favorite things about our trip. 


We did lots of other stuff while we were there too, and I'd have to say the best was Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure. We got to pick where we wanted to go. I hung out with Jessica, Hannah, Meghan, Becca, and Kim. We decided to go to Islands of Adventure. They had some of the BEST rides there like the Hulk, the Dueling Dragons, and the 3-D Spiderman ride. 


We got to go to Clearwater Beach while we were in Florida. Even though there were no waves, we still had fun dunking eachother, jumping off of Pastor Gus's shoulders, finding sand dollars, taking pictures of the gorgeous orange sunset, and taking a walk by the water.


Something I DEFINATELY will never ever forget is the Slingshot ride. I always said I'd never ride it, but every time we'd be driving down the road and see some crazy people shooting up in the air and Pastor Kenny said, "C'mon, you and me, Alicia." kind of talked me into it a little more and a little more. Then our last night there we ate at Chili's. The Slingshot was right behind it, and that's when I finally told Kenny I'd ride it with him. So that night (after another awesome church service) the jr high van went over there. I thought I was going to throw up or pass out or something every time Kenny and I moved up in line. The worst feeling was actually sitting in the seat and getting buckled in because you know there's no turning back and you're about to get shot 365 feet up in the air and come free falling back down! AHHHHHHHH! So we did and it was so much fun. We were lucky and got to ride it again since our first dvd messed up. I think that was God blessing Kenny for paying for me. Thank you Kenny!


So we had a great trip. The only bad thing about it was that it went by too fast.  

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August 15 2006

After a lengthy stint with two vacuum cleaners, involving the cord getting tied around the couch, the hose wrapping around the wheels, the mouth trying to ingest its own said cord, cord almost decapitating me, vacuum either taking off randomly or trying to run me over -- backwards [no lie], and me like a smart one trying to vacuum things off of newspaper spread on the floor, it has been concluded that nobody will ever marry me for my domestic skills.  Current speculation suggests that I will need a fleet of maids, an accountant, and a chef in order to survive outside the home.

From the New York Times:

"Proposals after the Sept. 11 attacks to require visas for all foreign visitors were abandoned out of concerns that the demand would create an overwhelming bureaucratic workload, interfere with trade and tourism, and prompt Britain and other countries to impose the same requirement on Americans."

Lame, lame, lame.  What, like we're special??  "Impose?"  If the U.S. is going to make everyone else do it, whyyy can't they take the same medicine?

.....Disgruntlement.

Hmmmm

August 15 2006
Jesus could come back any time now.

Perhaps while you are reading this blog.

Are you ready to go? 

Would you be left behind?

Just something to thi

Vacation

August 14 2006
       Don't you love just the feeling of being on vacation! I think that is the greatest part... I can relax because there is Nothing that I can feel guilty about not doing. I can have fun and not stress about things that I SHOULD be doing instead of whatever it is that I am doing. anyway I'm having fun so far... the feelings great :-) I'll keep y'all posted

come what may

August 14 2006

in a few hours, it will all be different.


<I<3CTT>

my ending of the summmerrrr

August 14 2006

I was pretty sad about leaving the boro





but then I went to the beach and got cheered up by my best buds everrr




we stayed at the fab house




um got some sun



drank some pina coladas and cookies =p bahaaa



Tay and me took random pics







It pretty much made my ending of the summer awesome =) .. I love my friends, without them I would have no life, hahaha jp


I love the beach... I start school tomorrow, and Im actually kinda ready to go , but kinda not. Anyway I hope everyones summer was great, and that this coming year will be great as well.


in him













Tired Eyes

August 14 2006
Assuming that effort truly is the indicator of future success, would the probability of fulfilling a dream or achieving a destiny if you endured all hardships and challenged your difficulties with incredibly enthusiasm not be 100%?  If the aforementioned assumption is correct, then that statement would be true, but the assumption is not valid.  Otherwise, all struggling young actors would come into their own and achieve great success while Drew Barrymore would have never been in a movie.  Now, since this is not the case, we must accept that terrible fact that in any sort of competitive environment, it takes more than drive and ability in order to succeed; in fact, succeeding in a competitive endeavor relies on what could easily be compared to winning the lottery.  So, basically, we who are in college are devoting a portion of life which we will never have returned to us in order to specialize in a particular area, however focused that area may be, so that we can enter our names into a raffle for a prestigious job in order to perpetuate the cycle by sending our children through the educational pathways which we have just recently vacated.  In the grand scheme of things, it doesn't really matter whether or not we had the highest paying job as, at the end of things, we are still dead.  Forget about living on through your children and that sentimental garbage; the fact of the matter is that we all die and the world doesn't take notice unless we are mightily influential.

Now, let's look at those who were mightily influential.  A great percentage of them were influential, rich, important, and powerful because they had a goal and abandoned all to achieve it.  When that goal was achieved, they were able to enjoy the fruits of their labors. I've got to stop writing and start working.  I'll be back later.

It's always nice to pep yourself up.

Ahhh. SCARY.....

August 14 2006

Rob and I are going to watch a scary movie. Scary movies terrify me.....absolutely to the point where I shiver and get cold. I think we might watch the sequel to The Ring.


I'm scared already just thinking about it. The Ring was a really scary movie.


Does anyone know of any good scary movies?

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August 14 2006

no 4th period = all 3 lunchs. messed up schedules arent as bad as they seem. lol


being at school at 7 is odd. the parking lot is empty and the courtyard is empty.


i think i am going to be hanging out with an interesting group this year... just seems like due to all my classes my friends amy be different this year.


well i think its time for me to scoot outta here and go get some sleep


band tomorrow


much love


-emily

Random

August 14 2006
Well My 1st Full Day At Siegel High Was Fun But Very Odd        
- What we got here is... failure to communicate.-Cool Hand Luke

Better Now!

August 14 2006

okay im totally better now.i talked to my dad last night and he was surprisingly helpful.i love him very much!


2 weeks till school starts and im totally looking forward to it.i know im weird but college is going to be fun.


hey heres my schedule!:


MWF:


9:10-10:05~Eng. in PH


12:40-2:05~Chem.in AMG(MW)


3:00-3:55~Music in PH


TR:


8:00-9:25~Stats. in BAS


10:20-12:20~Chem. Lab in WPS(T)


2:40-4:05~Psy in LRC


yeah that is pretty much it, it's so awesome.


talk to you guys later!


Leah

mmmm.....dress code.

August 14 2006

ha. so. school's not out fo' summa. at least not for now.


so, to recap the week, i've done a lot of thinking since the angry skank entry. but i don't have time to write all of those thoughts down currently, so i'll discuss other things for now.


the leadership retreat was on saturday at New Frontiers. fun, fun. i climbed that mountain just to sit for 2 hours. i'm too much of a chicken for the giant swing o' doom. but i thought it was really constructive. and fun.


school started today, and i believe it's going to be a very good year. i've grown a whole lot in my walk this summer, and i think that that along with a whole lotta prayer is gonna make this year better than ever. i just felt so confident today.


i have officially decided to keep my messed up class schedule, meaning that i will not be taking APUSH. 'twas a hard decision, but i don't think it was truly and accident that i got placed where i did. so it's honors U.S. history for me, and regular Adv. Hon. Spanish III. i think that MTSU will still take me.


a few words of encouragement for all you folks in the coming school year:



"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world."           --- 1 John 4:4



"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." --- Romans 12:2a



"And we know tha in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose...What then shall we say to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?...In all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For i am convinced that neither death nor life, nor angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation  will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." ---Romans 8:28, 31, 37-39


much love to you all! ---Cari

38Catalyst

August 14 2006

Awaiting I, face toward the sky, clenched fists and jaw--ah yes, awaiting I--while these outward signs mean nothing, I mean everything enough to move out of this cell.  A concatenation of mixed feelings and sorrowful events won't change; but to grow strong, for that everything I do.  Tap, tap, tap...let me in, or I'm breaking the door of forgiveness.

school

August 14 2006

school was school
it wasnt slow at all for the frist full day
lunch was cool cuz i know people that have that lunch
but a lot of papers to get signed... i always hate getting those signed
it's boring
and i have home work that i need to finish real quick
math is going to be real funny
the people i am sitting next to real random people
so this year seem fun for the most part


and yeah well nothing else said


        megan

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August 14 2006

INSTRUCTIONS
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!



How do you feel today?
Days go by


What's your outlook on life?
Real Gone...from "Cars"

What does your family think of you?
The night before(life goes on)

What do your friends think of you?
Hanging on


What do strangers think of you?
Photograph

What do your exes think of you?
Maggie May

How has your love life been so far?
L.O.V.E

How will your love life be in the future?
Stay with me(brass bed)

Will you get married?
I Melt

Will you have kids?
Bless the Broken Road

Are you good in school?
Tonight I Wanna Cry

Will you be succesful in life?
Gravity

What song should they play on your birthday?
Move Along

What song should they play at your funeral?
For You I Will(Confidence)

The Soundtrack of Your Life:
I Write Sins, not tragedies

You and your bestfriend are:
Hakuana Matata

Happy times:
Nothin to Lose

Sad times:
Seasons of Love (Rent) 

Every day:
Highway 75

for tomorrow:
Life is a highway

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August 14 2006
laughter is the best medicine..
...definitely =)

Rest In Peace

August 14 2006

Hermie Westerman died today.


We will all miss him (especially since most of you never got to meet him).


He was a good hermit crab.