Chris broke up with me. Why does it hurt so bad?

Wish I could fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

What more could your love do for me?

When will love be through with me?

Why live life from dream to dream,

And dread the day when dreaming ends

Wish I could fly away

Fly, fly away.

I'm definitely in a good mood today. Maybe it's because I'm finally learning the word "no." And it feels so good. Less stress = happier me. I'm so happy I could dance. *smiles*

Come Away With Me

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows
knee kigh
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

im glad to be home! i have some funny stories. ask me and i will tell them to you. it was my BCN and cryetine? levels [kidney] that were extremely high. this meant extreme dehydration. they put five of those bags (5000 mL) of saliene/sugar water/ electrolytes.. all that good stuff.. in me. but dr. jerry told me if i could eat dinner and not get sick, then i could come home. so i did. it was good to be in my own bed =) God showed me patience through everything. i am glad to be well again! its a gorgeous day outside. i think i shall take a bike ride, maybe. ha.

Psalm 150:6
let everything that has breath and every breath of life praise the LORD!

hello phusebox-ers
I seriously havent made a real entry
in here for quite awhile.
I actually kind of miss it.
I've had a pretty rough week,
like, I feel like God is putting
me through all this hard stuff
and as much as it's making me upset,
I see a good outcome.
uhm, my church's saturday night live
type of show is starting up next week
[UNDERGROUND]
and I am pretty pumped up for it.
we have DDR, Xbox, a cappicino machine :]
and on top of all that, an awesome show
so you should definately come out
and check it out because it's great.
it's third baptist church
[behind fat moe's and wendy's on memorial]
school has been pretty good too.
loving all my classes and teachers
and I have lunch with all my friends
I feel a good year coming on.
the new principal is going to work a miracle
for oakland and I'm proud.
we'll be back on top in no time,
even IF we have to tuck our shirts in.
it's actually not as bad as I thought.
the boys look cuter :]
uhm, me and chad are still going out
it's been a great eight months.
I love him more everyday.
the year and a half I've known him,
he's been nothing but this sweet boy to me.

well what's going on with you?
I'd like to know.
I've lost all touch with you.
if I get no comments, it's cool
I understand, since I havent been on
in so dang long.
you're probably like, "who's jamie?" lol

Well, you know how it's going to end.  Riverdale won of coarse but we still made one touchdown!!!!!  The final score was 38 to 7 I think.  I had to go but I still had fun because I was in the band with all my friends!  I guess I'll update later!  Love you all!

im sick... i didnt get to stay for the entire game

i wasnt happy

neither was my 103 fever

so yeah we won.... i was ecstatic

STARS CANT SHINE IN THE O-ZONE!!!!

much love

- milly

For some reason the time thing is not right on here (MOM).  I am not updating this that early in the morning.  Can't figure it out!  When I go into my blog manager it gives the right time then as soon as I publish the blog, it adds hours to my post time.  So the times here are not correct.  Aggravating me.

alli have to say is HECK YES!!!!

the show was pretty good and the game OOOOOOOH YEA!!!!

see ya tuesday!

leah got a car...its a gray for nustang and it is amazinng and ii love it!

oka im done

Leah

SO...I've had better nights!  I stayed in my room till about 9...all by myself, and then went with Mandy to Fazolis and to see a movie.  Then she took me back to the B and I ran over to Trent's to see him for about an hour.  Good times.  Then I drove back, all the while my brake light is on. Why?  I don't know.  That remains to be figured out.  Also, on the way up to my room, I get stuck in the elevator.  The doors won't open.  So I promised Trent that I would call him to let him know that I got in safe, and instead had to call 911.  By the time I pushed the little red button in the elevator, the doors opened.  Might be the last time in a while that I ride that elevator.  Or not.  It was kinda a fun adventure.  Anyway, tomorrow is a funfilled day in Lexington so I must sleep for tomorrow shall be a long day.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! I can't believe we actually won! 'twas amaaaaaaaaaaaazing! i do believe i am beginning to feel the winds of change! it was supah fly, and plus i got william to come, so that was fun. but certain other people barely spoke to me, which is weird. i hope he doesn't have some sort of problem with me. whatev. nayways, it was fun, and i got to see a whole lot of people i know, and like, everyone @ my church goes to Siegel, so i can't truly hate them.

question: why do some people try to get me to curse now that i've stopped doing that?

nayways, yeah. it's been a good week. i am quite in love with school, which i know sounds crazy, but i really do love OHS. well, i'm going to go do some APUSH and then go to bed. much love to you all! ---Cari

Oakland won tonight... we beat siegel... enough said.

WE WOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!!!!!!!!

oh yes. we won the game against Siegel and I'm so happpyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

=]

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

we lost a pep rally to some freshmen. then we lost to oakland in our own house. staley was the only guy out there that actually came to play.

I WISH I WAS IN BIRMINGHAM....

Blackman lost against riverdale 41-7 or somthing like that.  but at least our freshmen killed riverdale last night 41-0. ( :

and have i mentioned how happy i am that its a 3 day weekend?

So
tonight was my first night at CiCi's, and my first, well, not "real
job" I most certainly had a real job in Knoxville, much more demanding
than this one, but I guess the first job you kind of think as... I
don't know, but anyway.

So it was pretty non stop.  Refilling
the salad bar, putting new pizzas out, putting old trays in the wash,
washing the salad bar, going back and forth to the kitchen.
But man, God is good.  I loved it and I'm looking forward to tomorrow, and the rest of my days working there.

So yeah, tonight was 5-9, tomorrow's 11-5.  Yippee skippee.. i guess.

hahaha moo

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dont ask

heheh later

have you heard of him. he is a famous christian speaker. and we are having him speak at our revival. he is from knoxville and agreed to come be our speaker. so if you have read any of his books or know who he is, you should come. cause he is a really good speaker :]]

how fucked up is it that me and clayton have been dating for nearly four months and every weekend he asks me baby are u gonna come see me this weekend? and he's only come up to see me three times? well this weekend i was like i can't, i don't have the cash for gas. so i said why don't u come see me? (keep in mind since i live in clarksville now i'm like 45 min away from him) know what he said, oh i'm just way too busy this weekend. and i don't have the cash. i promise as soon as i get my car back i'll come see you. know how long his car has been in the shop? THREE MONTHS! and he keeps telling me next weekend. it will be ready next weekend. ::glare:: sry guys, just needed to vent.

Lipscomb is rocking my socks off! I am really looking foward to this year. I got good vibes. God is gonna do some really cool things this year! I can already see him in so many ways and it has only been two weeks! So rock on or aas bono would say walk on!

InHim,
Jonathan

Wednesday Night Live,

          It was awsome "We Played" DODGE-BALL!!!

Me, Ali, Alex, Steven,and Mr. Randy were on a team together. Then we ate pizza. After that we played some more dodge-ball,and some more dodge-ball, and some more, and some more ,exc. Then Pastor Gus told a story and we left, it was so cool !!!!!!!!!!

                                        Bye                                                             

Im sorry phusebox.

i have neglected you,

nothing has really happend, so no hard feelings

So, if you've been one of these people riding the fence, saying maybe maybe maybe, but never making a commitment, today is that day my friend. Today, you must commit, stand up and say "YES, I WILL GO to Boenhoffer's tonight and have a wonderful time with my awesome friend Amy!"

Please? I don't want to be lonely. :) And it'll be awesome.

In other news...

I dropped Southern Literature and stuck with Tennessee History. And this means I will be finished with my gen. eds this semester! Yay! That will be a good feeling.

I've also decided I'm going to give MTTV a whirl, and am praying about a couple of opprotunities I have. I also plan to buy a MacBookPro in the very near future.

And I am officially dating an old man... ha ha... that sounds sooo wrong! Ok, he just turned twenty, and I'll be there myself pretty soon (on the 27th, don't you forget it!) It just sounds so old to me! I mean, where has my life gone? Wow... Anyhow, wish Garrett a happy belated birthday if you never wished him a happy birthday yesterday.

"Walk through the doorway of the great unknown
This is the moment..." - part of Sanctus Real's "Possibilities"

I have become way too cynical.

But justifiably so.

really freakin hard

TENNESSEE BETTING LINES FOR THE Cal GAME
(from scout.com)

-Odds the Pride of the Southland Marching Band plays the best rendition ever of Cal’s fight song

5:1

Odds the Pride’s drum major gets into fisticuffs with the officiating crew

50:1

Odds Coach Fulmer responds to any bad Vol play with a bout of clapping

No line

    Odds some group will attempt to start the wave

    50:1

    Odds they’ll attempt the wave while the Vols are on offense

    Even money

    Odds Jim Bob Cooter plays in the game

    1:10,000

    Odds Jim Bob Cooter is shown on television and his name discussed by announcers

    2:1

    Odds that Erik Ainge will throw the first Vol pass

    No line

    Odds that Jonathan Crompton will attempt a pass

    2:1   

 Odds that Britton Colquitt will throw a pass

    1: 1,000,000

    Over/Under on number of Volunteer tailbacks who play

    3

    Over/under on rushing yards for Arian Foster

    115

    Over/under on rushing yards for Erik Ainge

    -8

    Over/under on number of times Rocky Top is played

    73

    Over/under on attendance

    105,400

    Over/under on TD catches by a Vol TE

    (just pick under)

    Over/under on number of “scores of interest” that are actually of interest

    2

My life is filled with things and events that, by all rights, reasonings, and rationale, I shouldn't be experiencing.

All good things, which is rather nice. [The alternative isn't much fun.]

Like Audrey Hepburn, though I in no way claim any resemblence to her in circumstances or ability, or anything else.

Don't try reading twelve pages of John Smith's diaries. You'll end up very bitter and remorseful about the discovery of America, in the 'if they had't gone and found this stupid place, I wouldn't have to read this' way.

I have fallen quite in love with wireless internet. Yaaaaaaay AirPort! Emailing people during psychology is fun.

I had three cups of French roast this morning [strongest thing in the cafeteria; I want to try Starbucks' Sumatran blend]. No cream, no sugar. I'm wiiiiiiiiiiired. Sleep-deprived, but really, really hopped up. Wooooo!

'Judge a man by his questions rather than by his answers.' -- Voltaire. Voltaire is my homeboy. Him 'n' Tchaikovsky, oh yes.

Ok so these two may seem like they have absolutely nothing in common.But all good time it will at least attempt to make sense. Last night was the first mock trial class/meeting of the year. Now Mock Trial is one of my favorite things ever since the people are great and the work is usually fun. I repeat, usually. So I get on campus about ten after five because I want to park close to Peck Hall, and there is already no parking anywhere close. I wind up driving around campus for fourty-five minutes before breaking down and parking in the gravel lots out by Rutherford. So I was about five or ten minutes late and Dr. Vile thought I got lost. Anyway there were a lot of new faces this year, only ten of us were returning Mockers. Which is sort of scary in a way. I hope that we crazy returners haven't scared any of the newbies off.

The returning mockers had to stay so that out of us ten they could choose captains. We hung out for a while laughing about last year and talking about the case for this year until Brandi and Dr. Vile returned to inform us who would be captianing the so far four MTSU Mock Trial teams. Well there is almost always an after party on thursday nights, and last night it was to be at Jason's. However there were only us returning mockers to decide that sort of thing. So El Presidente, Jason Walker, who is now the ex president of mock trial decides that we shall all returning mockers go to La Siesta for dinner at almost ten before heading to his place. We pretty much laughed about past rounds and the really dumb things that happen. It has been decided however that MTSU Mock Trial will kick some serious butt this year. I didn't go to Jason's because I was too tired, but I still didn't manage to make it home until eleven thirty.

So that's Mock Trial

Fervent Ministries is a ministry that I feel led of the spirit to create. It is a ministry that I will soon be leading, (when the time is right). It will not only be for the college students, but for high school students as well. I am currently looking for individuals who would like to be involved in this ministry in any way possible...

my teacher reopened the two assignments on pipeline i missed by 10 minutes.

so i just sent them in.

such a good mood.

and here's a fun picture....[i hopefully will get my disposable cameras developed when i head home this weekend for ze looooong weekend...]

good times,man.

<3

jen

I know their are many views on how people feel about abortion. So please tell me how you feel on this subject.

Thursday Night. Club Tonic. AAAwwwwesommme. Friday Night. Opening Night Eve. Partttyyy. Saturday.  GAME DAY! ORANGE NATION! MY FIRST GAME EVERRRRRR...WOOHOO! GO VOLS!








can you tell im EXCITED??


::b

College started Monday and man, what a HUGE difference from highschool. I like it better. Totally different schedule, I get to go home, come back a couple hours later, eat great food at the KUC, it's just great. It has been stressing me out though. Other than all that good stuff this has pretty much been my college days: wake up at 6, leave at 7, desparately search for a parking spot from 7:20-7:40, figure out what direction, what building, and what room my class is in, take notes in lecture, another lecture, maybe go home for a couple hours (great time to catch up on sleep, studies, and food), go back, find another parking spot, another lecture, library research, whooo! Tomorrow will be good cause school ends at 11 for me. Yay! then I have to do all my homework for the weekend because we're going whitewater rafting again this weekend! That's always fun, but this time it won't be with a bunch of crazy armenians. It'll be with a family on my mom's side, some of their friends, and maybe even Adam R if he decides to join us. It'll be fun. I'll definately tell you guys the crazy stories.

you better all kick some major bootwah on that field tomorrow night

PRIDE, PROMISE, POWER!!!

cant wait till tomorrow

its gonna be a blast

much love

-milly

So this week hasn't been the best week. Come to think of it, the last 2 weeks haven't been all that great. Alot of crap has happened and all my friends are getting mad at each other and i can cut tention with a knife....i'm a little confused. The things i thought were solid...i'm not so sure about anymore. People you get close to, as a close friend of mine would say, start to "wither away". It's hard sometimes. I know who my real friends are, but i still wonder how and why all this change has to take place. I don't like change sometimes...but i've learned to become good frieds with it. It makes me think of people in the past that i was close with, and now its not so much as a glance in the hall and thoughts running through my mind of..."what in the hell happened to him...". Now i know what you're probably thinking...Garrett just cussed in his entry?!?!? OMG HE'S SO GOIN TO HELL!!!! Well get over it....that is just the honest thought running through my mind. I'm a pretty honest person if u haven't figured it out by now. But still....i wonder. Why does God put people in your life that are seasonal. Do we just learn from them, and then move on? Or....maybe he does it to protect us. 

well today for the first time in forever i got my buddy's eggrolls.
everyone must know this because they are the best little eggrolls i have ever had in my life.!!!!!

I WANT SUMMER TO COME BACK!!!

Summer lovin', had me a blast
Summer lovin', happened so fast
Met a girl crazy for me
Met a boy cute as can be
Summer days drifting away
To, uh oh, those summer nights

It turned colder; that's where it ends
So I told her we'd still be friends
Then we made our true love vow
Wonder what she's doin' now
Summer dreams ripped at the seams
But, oh, those summer nights

no more summer.... : (

!!!!!!!!!

Im listening to it on like repeat!!!!!!

so for those of u interested. got a small update. me and jackie are STILL stuck in the hotel. and it looks like it's going to be another week at the earliest. i've heard (unofficially) from some R.A.'s that it's going to be two weeks at the earliest. but no one is saying the same thing. i do know that they are having to replace the ceilings in harvill hall and i heard something about them replacing the walls in blount (my dorm). so yeah it's going to be awhile. but it's not too bad. it just sux being so disconnected from everyone else on campus and having to drive across town. but i mean other than that it rox b/c i have someone cleaning my room everyday, i've got a hot tub, a pool and free breakfast lol. but ne ways, just wanted to say hey and update a little bit. i'm gonna be home for a day or two this weekend so u guys should definately hit me up. oh and i got a new cell # 931-338-8897 ciao.

so for those of u interested. got a small update. me and jackie are STILL stuck in the hotel. and it looks like it's going to be another week at the earliest. i've heard (unofficially) from some R.A.'s that it's going to be two weeks at the earliest. but no one is saying the same thing. i do know that they are having to replace the ceilings in harvill hall and i heard something about them replacing the walls in blount (my dorm). so yeah it's going to be awhile. but it's not too bad. it just sux being so disconnected from everyone else on campus and having to drive across town. but i mean other than that it rox b/c i have someone cleaning my room everyday, i've got a hot tub, a pool and free breakfast lol. but ne ways, just wanted to say hey and update a little bit. i'm gonna be home for a day or two this weekend so u guys should definately hit me up. oh and i got a new cell # 931-338-8897 ciao.

it's 12:49. i'm working my scholarhship hours in the cope until like 2:30. everyone has left the room. there are crickets chirping. where did the crickets come from? i have no clue. i popped some popcorn. i wonder if they'd like any...i have to go to lab at 3:30...so that means a whole hour of nothing to do. oh lord...i just flipped back in my chair...

man...i figure the majority of the people who see my posts are in AO and i hope the majority of those people went last night. the word was awesome. sometimes, i just get so excited about God and what He's doing and ironically, i get excited about the fact that i have no idea what is about to happen 99% of the time...sometimes i just can't hold it in you know? i get giggly about it. you know that feeling when you start to like someone and every little thing they do is just awesome and you go around smiling and thinking of something they said to you? i've been that way lately about God. these last few nights, it's felt so good outside. i drive home way out in the country and the further i get from civilization, the better i can see the stars. sometimes it's just so overwhelming that i have to turn my music down and drive way under the speed limit so that i can take it in. and every time, i just get this picture of God smiling kind of smuggly and saying "okay girl...now tell me what boy can give you this? what accomplishment can make you feel like this?" and i smile and shake my head because there is no one and nothing else that can. He wants to have intimacy with ME. and half the time i'm so apathetic to it. but honestly, people go their entire lives searching to be loved...even just a little. shannon baron told me one time that she gets this picture of God spinning around in a swivel chair just thinking about us and going nuts...i mean like waving his arms and jumping up and down and just yelling "I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU!" everyday, He finds ways to show that to me. and it's in ways that He knows mean the most to me. it's not just a generalized whatever- it's very personal. jerill said something last night about God giving us our own name that's just between you and Him. how cool is that? how awesome is it that He knows our hearts so well and He finds ways to love on us and knows exactly what we go weak in the knees for?

the brian will be in town this weekend.
you should make plans with him.
that is all.

Day 3, nearly complete. Wow, what a couple of days ... so much to do ... so little time to do it.  Muddled through on Tuesday ... time with Decy and the girls was great.

Had a hard time waking up on Wednesday (jetlag) ... but managed to arise about 630am ... and made it to the office about 845am ... which is what I was targetting for day-1.  Security met me at the door, took me to have my picture taken, then took me to my office on floor 29.  Door was open and I was handed a key.  The primary people I need to meet with are not there ... due to illness and vacation ... but I start meeting people anyway ... and even found a way to log on through the company system.

Leave work at 5pm ... tired, jetlagged, hungry, only to rush to JIS for a parent-teacher open house ... lasts until 9am ... back at the hotel, eat dinnner, try to manage with Decy the many decisions we have to take ... in bed by 11pm ....

Wake up at 230am (darn that jetlag !!) alarm goes off at 445am (vs 345am in Angola).  I rush to the bathroom as it is virtually impossible for me to work my way into the queue with 2 bathrooms and 3 females .... its not like I can go in and brush my teeth while one showers ... so, I jump ahead of them.

In the office at 715 am, as per plan.  Already finding important things to work on.

Aside from work which is generally boring compared to "life", Decy continues to make progress on the stuff.   Still trying to get the lease signed on the DaVinci house ... its an owner and "taxation" issue.  Hopefully things will work out in the next day or two so that renovations/upgrades can begin .... probably still 3 weeks from a move in date.

No wonder Decy, Che, and Tasi are frustrated .... Hotel Kristal is ok ... BUT, it is small, cannot really cook, and it is not "our home".

Furniture continues to be "queued up" for the house .... and carpets were delivered today and stored at the hotel concierge's.

Jumped in and closed the deal on a Toyota Fortuner .... Decy closed the deal tonight .... JUST a modest $40k ... typical for Indonesia.  Still need to close on the CR-V.  In the meantime, we took out a 1 month lease for a car and driver ... as we must have 2 cars ... now that I am here.  Also, we have decided (I think) to hire Mustafa (our current contract driver) and his cousin as our permanent drivers.  Decy says she's going to "put the fear of God in them" as part of their offer .... man, I would hate to work for Decy ....

Tomorrow is Friday ... don't yet know what we are doing that evening ... BUT, Saturday AM is massages ... PM is lunch of Nasi Padang (Yahoo) ... and Sunday we take Che and Tasi to the Regent hotel for Sunday brunch to celebrate Che's BD .... what a feast awaits us ... then we will probably lay by the pool like stuff pigs.

Guess that's all for now ... sorry our life is not too exciting ... maybe Che and Tasi will blog some time .... as for Decy ... MIA in blog-o-sphere ....

Yeah this position of mine
It hasn't changed... seems hours..
But I'm doing just fine..
Though my thoughts are on their 21st round
I think I'm alright...
the view of watching you leave has not changed...

what went wrong?
What went wrong?
just tell me's all i ask...
i feel if i loved you so much
it's a right i have to know...

and i sit for a few moments
of my everyday..
just to think of your smile
and wish you were here today..
though i haven't heard a word nor seen a sight
I pray one day all will be alright again..

what went wrong?
what went wrong?
should i have known it all along..
that the world had turned..
and left me here dying...

i wish it be known i don't need you
i want you, cause you seem to make life right
i want you to know that i did nothing wrong
and i'll stand by that... and i'm still loving you strong
just come back please, oh God, I beg you please
bring her back.. bring her back... bring her back......

i don't need you, but i want you here...
you make me smile from ear to ear
make me feel the way i want to feel
oh where did that go....
oh where did that go....

So we have internet at work now.  It's pretty interesting now.  It pretty much pays for itself.  I love my job.  It's amazing that I am getting paid to do the things I did at home for free.  My co-workers are awesome and my boss is like the father I never had.  A lot has happened since I had the chance to update last.  Too much to list tonight.  I just know that I am finally happy and moved away from my dark, depressing past.  No more suicidal thoughts, no more trying to hurt myself, no more blaming my problems on others, no more caring if I'm single.  I feel free.  I feel like I can fly and never be tethered again.  My wings unbound.......

Anybody else ready for the weekend????????

quote of the day:

"this guy increases by 1000 dollars...we'll call him quartile 1.
this guy increases by 1000 dollars...we'll call him quartile 2.
and this guy also increases by 1000 dollars...we'll call him jack."

yeah not funny to you im sure but hey it was a winner at the time.
_kt

Check out my crazy family!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48x7gstmUaw 

he said yes.
♥

"People hold their cards so tight to their chest. Life is short. Tell people you love them. What's the worst that could happen?"

-Drew Barrymore

The ridiculous Choir rehearsal
I just went through,
made me wanna strangle a teacher&& a coreographer.
in the least violent way possible...

aye me.

sdf;lkjsad;fljks;dlkfj

aaaaaaaaaaah. I need sleep right now. like mega sleep. school was bleh.

life is bleh, except for one little thing. Actually two, but one that everyone knows. =]

guess?

Do you like Eggs yes or no? If so whats your favorite kind ?

so, today was a pretty good day. i dont do anything at school!..its pretty great.
but anyways...i had a reeally big surprise today...i was walking through the hallway after first and all these people were like..hey kelsey..i voted for you...and i was like ..huh?...until stephen attacked me in the hall and informed me that im a homecoming nominee.. ive never thought of myself as someone that would get to do that. so im pretty shocked...but pretty happy about it too..even a little excited:-)

me and nemanja are going to starbucks after church around 7:30-8 ...soooo...come!

give me one reason to stay here
and ill turn right back around
give me one reason to stay here
and ill lturn right back around
i dont want to leave you lonely
you gunna make me change
my mind -tracy chapman

love you-kels

So everyday after school.  i get home and then go straight to the kitchen=.  Today's victem is Ramen noodles.

I attempted cleaning my room, but that just didn't happen.  I always go in there to clean and just end up sleeping or playing with the kitten.  I turn some music on and get only as far as making my bed before i lay down on it and waste away hours that could be spent on homework and such. 

My plan for this year was to get a job  and the other part was on days taht i didn';t work .  to go to the Ymca and get that hour of excercise those experts are always talking about.   But the thing is, driving across town costs approxematley $10 now days so that part of the plan sort of bombed.

So then after i waste a c ouple of hours.  I always hang out with San for  a couple of more,  i then proceed to shower and then go to sleep.

this never changing scedual is killing me.

My grandmother is doing well.  Today they're moving her out of the ICU and to a regular room.  My mother says that if she does well tonight, they'll move her to the nursing home tomorrow.  She's also been a bit nicer to the poor nurses yesterday and today.  Hopefully she'll be able to leave the nursing home eventually!

Some of you already know that when I'm worried, I feel much better if I cook.  My mother and I came up with a wonderful idea - Granddaddy has been spending most of his time at the hospital, so I cooked up a bunch of food yesterday to take to him this weekend.  Mom is paying for the groceries, but she doesn't have enough time to cook lots of extra food, so I'm happy to help!  Tomorrow, I'll work on a side dish or two, but I've already got about two weeks of main dishes in the freezer or fridge.  I need to get some more Ziploc containers!

Classes started Monday.  They're not nearly as bad as I thought they would be.  So far, I've actually learned stuff in the FOED class, which is a real shock.  This FOED is "Integrating Instructional Technology into the Classroom" and we're using Macintosh iLife.  I don't prefer Macs, but I do like Keynote, which is the Mac version of PowerPoint.  The next class is Materials and Methods for Teaching Foreign Languages, and the focus is on discussion, which is nice.  I always like it when classes, especially upper division classes, focus more on discussion than lecture.  I have a fair amount to read for that class, but both classes only meet on Mondays and Wednesdays.  I'm done with classes for the week!

This weekend, I'm going to my parents for Daniel's first birthday party.  I'm excited!  I know Daniel won't care too much, but it's a big deal to us.  Most of his grandparents and some great-grandparents will be there, along with his aunts and uncles.  It should be a lot of fun.  I can't wait to see if he'll eat his cake or use it for hair product.

well Im bored out of my mind!!church is tonight YAY Wednesday night LIVE LOL!!Ne ways I am bringin 2 of my friends so YAY!!NE ways comment mah!!

*MUAH*

Megs

Cry Out to Jesus*** I love my best friend *** 

 

Well yall , my life has just been up and down with pain , but in the end I have fallin , I have gotten off track with God. And humility is definately apart of it, so Im going to tell everyone ... I am not perfect, just like everyone else isnt. But im asking for you to pray for me? Because I am trying to get back on my feet with my walk with God... because he has given me so much , and its all in front of me , and I have taken advantage of everything. But I want that fire I had when I left the summer, my life felt maybe not so complete with everything, but complete with God... and I am going to try my very hardest to get that Fire I had inside back .... Gods amazing...we should all sit back and realize how wonderful he is... because we just sin and sin and sin everyday... and it takes awhile to realize how greatful we are to have him .. until we sin, and we feel bad about everything. Well thats why I am just writing this, bc I want people to know that we should try are hardest everyday to live life to the fullest... but to live life to the fullest for god....

~Sarah ~

So. I've been in college three days. Here are some brief stories....

First day. I left campus to go somewhere and had to park very very far away when I came back. Learned: Don't leave campus...ever for no reason.

Second day. I forgot where I parked because I was in a rush and just started walking towards my class. It took me 15 minutes of walking to find my car. Learned: Write down, look, or remember where I parked. And oh yeah....leave earlier from home.

Third day. My flip flop broke during my first class...beyond repair. I wobbled to the KUC and bought an expensive, ugly, and blister giving flip flops because I didn't want to leave campus and my perfect parking place. Learned: Always keep an extra pair of shoes in your car.

Yeah. College is definitely a learning experience....of basically how to survive it. I wonder what tomorrow will be like.

Im getting 6 different pairs


1. Amethyst

2. Sea Green

3. Caribbean Aqua

4. True Sapphire

5. Eden

6. More Pacific Blue One's

WHAT THE?

What is it to reconcile and submit to my aegis, my Ebed-Melech?

Soooo... pretty sure my grade is... not good.

I don't know the exact number.  I didn't stay to find out because I didn't want to punish myself right when I was already feeling down.

I suppose I'll just have to kick up my homework a notch and start studying with my dad as much as I can.  Because if I can do the homework, I should be able to do the test.  Right?

Well that's what I thought, anyways.

Ah well.  Tomorrow is another day.  And unfortunately that other day is less than an hour away.  Perhaps I should get some sleep.

i like stuff.

i dunno.

listening to andy's radio show with michael gum. or michael's show with andy. *shrug*

and i'm probably gonna sit up another and listen to it.

so yeah.

have a lovely day, folks.

FOCUS

its what band is about

i appreciate the second half of rehersal it went well after milly and josh called a silent rehersal

the show is looking really good

i know we didnt get A-Train on but i think that a good clean opener and ballad will be better than a full messy show

i hope you ahve your game face on for thursday thats gonna be a strict practice

we have to SHOW THEM what its about at the game friday though so you better kick it into high gear

PRIDE, PROMISE, POWER!!!

    Today I had my first day of classes and all went well (though my first teacher didn't even show). My social dance class seems like it is going to be an absolute blast! I do have to wear heels for that everytime, but oh well.... Everything went well.
 and...
I got a job!! Yay! God's awesome I'm excited. I had my first training night tonight... I won't be at church tomorrow night cause I'll be training... but yea... my day went well as such :-)

Tired but good.

I need to keep my sanity or at least what's left of it...

sad times.  i feel kinda outta the loop.

so here's a Cari Jennings life update:

-last week, we started choreography for the variety show. i'm such a bad dancer, but the new choreographer is soooooooooooo much better than Brooks. it will be really fun once we get it all down. i ended up paired with matt....again. ha. j/k, he's aight.

-finally got my schedule changed for the 3rd time. i am finally in Advanced Honors Chem instead of honors, and still in honors geometry. super great.

-i'm doing the Experiencing God Bible study, and it's really awesome, and i can't get over how much i'm learning. i really thought i had God figured out, but i was so wrong.

-one of my friends got saved last week, and i am so excited about that. it's funny how when i pray, i don't seem to expect God to actually do anything, and especially not so quickly! but i end up getting blown away pretty much everytime.

-i think i missed an opportunity on Sunday, and that makes me quite sad/angry.

-church is tomorrow night, and i'm excited. i believe that Clint is speaking on Romans 9? maybe. something in Romans, plus the youth room has been redecorated!

-i can't believe just how stupid i am sometimes. i don't think i can control what i think anymore. how do you tell the difference in a silly crush and someone God has placed in your heart for a reason? am i attracted simply to people whom i can't have/ shouldn't date? whatever. being a teenager is fun, but causes a good bit of stupidity.

-this is a great song and i love the lyrics.

"And Your Praise Goes On" ---Chris Rice

The moon is high and the sunset fades
The lullabies have all been sung
We’re tuckin’ in another day
And stars appear now one by one
But the stillness moves and the silence yields
And not a single beat is lost
You can hear the chorus in the fields

Taking up where we left off
And Your praise goes on, rising to Your throne
Where You guard us while we dream
Past the stars they fly, Your praises fill the sky
‘Til You wake us with the dawn
And Your praise goes on

Now bring your warmth, O morning sun
Chase the stars and the moon away
And wake us with your brightest song
And add our voice to your refrain
Now rise up everything that lives!
Flap your wings and leap for joy!
Oh forest lift your arms and sway!
Clap your hands you ocean waves!

And Your praise goes on, rising to Your throne
Where You bless our toil and play
Through the clouds they rise, Your praises fill the skies
‘Til the setting of the sun
And Your praise goes on
And when my final breath You lend
I’ll thank You for the life You gave
But that won’t mean the praises end
‘Cause I won’t be silenced by the grave!

And Your praise goes on
I’ll be runnin’ to Your throne
With every nation, tribe and tongue
To Your arms I’ll fly
I’ll gaze into Your eyes
Then I’ll know as I am known
And Your praise goes on
And Your praise goes on
And Your praise goes on

well, i love you all and i gotta go to bed. much love -----Cari 

This is the most stressful week of my life! So far i have already had 2 tests this week and 5 quizs I am exasted.  Although there is so much going on I still am able to do things that i thought had no more energy to do.  The reason I believe I am only able to this by the strength of God when I thought that I was not able to do any more I could.  To me that is the greatest thing to think about that God cares enough even though He is the greatest thing in the world He still cares about me and helps me stay up until 2 or 3 studying and then help me have the energy for the next day.  Isn't God great!!!!!!!!!

haha i can writ a paragraph that is not 1 sentence 

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Just A Some Daily Ramblings

Hugh Laurie is hottt x10.

His character on House is a jerk, but in a hottt way.

I think I'm in love.

the girl who loves the thought of life, but is scared to truly live.
the girl who doesn't take hugs for granted.
the girl who wants someone to love her for her
the girl who hates to cry, but finds it very comforting.
the girl who's heart is already taken.
the girl who loves to joke, but being serious fits her best.
the girl who knows what she likes & what she wants & won't settle for less.
the girl who's a sucker for a sweet talker.
the girl that won't take no for an answer.
the girl who will give you excessive amounts of hugs if you smell good.
the girl who admits she cares entirely too much.
the girl who is compulsive in forgiving, but knows she won't forget.
the girl who gives everyone a chance, but too bad if they ruin it.
the girl who fears the words she knows are at the tip of your tongue.
the girl who wants a song of dedication, one that she knows came from the heart.
the girl who sometimes pretends to be happy, just cause she doesn't want to explain what's wrong, & she knows it won't get better.
the girl that is content with listening to the same song over & over again.
the girl who doesn't speak, because she doesn't know what to say.
the girl who only wants to be closer to him.
the girl who is in love with the night, the one that they danced in the darkness when everyone else seemed to fade away.
the girl who can never make up her mind, and is always five minutes late.
the girl that is willing to spend every second with you, even if others claim she will be missing out on all of the fun.
the girl who finds affection very heathly.
the girl who looks for the beauty in everything.
the girl who dreams of being perfect; not for herself, but for him. Even though he already thinks she is.
the girl with stars in her eyes, but at times tears on her cheeks.
the girl who yearns for those that put a smile on her face.
the girl that you have always dreamed of.


i am that girl.

I want to be the girl he's scared to lose
the one where he [can't] walk away
from knowing shes mad *at* him
the one who cant fall asleep without
her voice being the
last one he hears
..The one he cant..
[{L.I.V.E  W.I.T.H.O.U.T.}]

♥ ♥   ♥

yea.........
not mucho going on so

well you know what school is a pain in the ass!!!!

i had soo much homewrok!!!!!!
it sucks!!!

nothing esle said

Samera

=(

its hard to have someone always there for you && all of a sudden not there anymoreee.

Check out my crazy family!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48x7gstmUaw

petty sure i love my psychology class it is freaking amazing.awesome teacher but best of all Adrienne and Cameron are in that class and its freakin awesome!we had to much fun in there that is all i have to say.

well i love you guys talk to you later.

Leah

hey..school is good this year... it's going to be pretty easy i hope :) ...i am taking geometry hon.( ooo lala), biology hon., keyboarding :p yuck!, spanish 1, choir, and english 2 a.hon.

... funny story....
...in choir we are swing dancing for the variety show and i got put with M.Petrone haha...he is like 10 feet taller than me and during this one part called the pretzel lock?! haha what a cool name!! i have to like jump to reach over him and he has to duck down....we look extremely ridicules

Who's that girl with the perfect future? Her reflection says it all. Trying hard to pretend she's eagar, searching for some way to stall. So unsure of the road she's chosen, having feelings her heart should not allow... 

If I told you all the things I've yet to say, would it matter or would you simply turn and walk away?                                                                 If I hold you, would you say that I should go? Do I chance it or would it just be better not to know?

"http://www.youtube.com/v/SmLhyPjHVes"

im in photo that is yet again available at school

this definately makes me happy

do you kinow what would make me unhappy????

rain

we have to put the rest of the show on the field tonight!!! if we dont i will not be a happy kid

ok i have some more ccropping and such to do

love

- emily

So, here I am, in Boston!  At least for this week, anyway.  It's nice and I like it a lot, although there isn't really much to do because school hasn't started and almost everyone I know either isn't here yet or went home after NROTC Indoc.  And, of course, I miss all of you back home and want desperately to see you again!  So come and visit me!  Please! 

Saturday I leave for the hiking trip, which ought to be pretty awesome, and then once I come back from that I'll actually start college for real!  And then I'll have stuff to tell you all, like you are already saying, because you've started and I haven't.  But anyway, I'm kind of just rambling with this one, so, I think I'll press "Publish Entry" now....

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