friday was.... our first game

ill put it that way

it was fun though 

iv heard that they audience liked the fight song thing we did

were working on putting the rest of the show now

candle should go pretty fast

so get ready to throw down some drill

dont forget fridays practice!!!

3:30 - whenever they want to release us (no later than 6 though) 

PRIDE, PROMISE, POWER!!!

Life's Kinda Crazy Right Now, School Is Kinda Fun.
I Got I New Science Teacher She's A Pain In The Buttox.
I Guess It Was Ment For A Reason Who Knows.
My Buisness Class Is Boring Jrotc Is Kinda Cool When The
Seniors Get To Teach The Class. I Missed Church Because
I Over Sleept When I Was Taking A Nap... O Well-
Enen The Day Destroys The Night The Night Divides The Day-?

Chris comes home tomorrow! w00t w00t!!

I was $10 short in my register today. Not good. I don't wanna go in to work tomorrow. This is very not good.

I'm looking more into beauty school now. I might be a cosmetologist or an esthetictain (sp?). I don't wanna go into work tomorrow.

What We Do For Ourselfs Dies With Us,What We Do For The World And Others

Stays Forever-?

i have a thing for him.

he has a thing for me.

i gave him my number.

he gave me his.

im really very happy :]

It's a shame when you realize that Halloween is a year round holiday in some people's minds.

I just found out that a guy that I have grown up with got killed in Iraq. His name is J. D. Hirlston. I have known him forever. We went to church together for years...

I feel so sad and so upset. This is so hard.

Please pray for his family.

well... since its wednesday.... and wednesday starts with a w.... i think i am going to write all the words that are in my head right now that start with a w.... ok... here goes...

washing machine

wash

word

wig

whatever

we

water

willow tree

will

ummmm....

whale!

washington!

weather

white

winter

who

what

when

where

why

writer...

ok... i am bored with w's.....

love you guys...

Little Moments~Brad Paisley

Well I'll never forget the first time that I heard
That pretty mouth say that dirty word
And I can't even remember now what she backed my truck into
But she covered her mouth and her face got red
And she just looked so darn cute
That I couldn't even act like I was mad
Yeah I live for little moments like that

Well that's just like last year on my birthday
She lost all track of time and burnt the cake
And every smoke detector in the house was goin' off
And she was just about the cry until I took her in my arms
And I tried not to let her see me laugh
Yeah I live for little moments like that

I know she's not perfect but she tries so hard for me
And I thank God that she isn't 'cause how boring would that be
It's the little imperfections it's the sudden change in plans
When she misreads the directions and we're lost but holdin' hands
Yeah I live for little moments like that

When she's layin' on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark
And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it 'cause it's tinglin' and it's numb
But she looks so much like an angel that I don't wanna wake her up
Yeah I live for little moments
When she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that

well guys today is my last day to live in the boro. and i'm excited. i'm gonna go to bath junkie with stacee later (jenna bought me a going away present from there), i'm gonna get to hang out with danny today which i am so excited about b/c i can't tell u the last time i saw him and janelle is gonna come hang out tonight. busy busy. it never ends. and yeah pretty sure i'm STILL packing. i didn't realize how much junk i've got. even tho i'm not taking a whole lot with me i'm boxing stuff up and putting it in my closet so it will be easier when i actually move out. but ne ways, i'm outtie. call me if u want to do something tonight. love ya.

Booyah!!

Hello...

    Go check out my crazy family on vacation :-)

So college is pretty flippin great so far! I actually really like it here. I'm glad I jumped out of my little comfort zone of Murfreesboro! I'm taking 17 hours this semester, and I'm looking foward to just about every class except math. I have a special education class I'm super excited about. English seems like it'll be pretty good too. I find out how the rest of my classes are gonna be tomorrow. I've met a ton of really cool people. My roommate and suitmates are awesome! The only thing I haven't enjoyed is being told my every teacher here how I'm going to meet the love of my life in every place you can think of, the registration line, a service project, bible class, etc. But so far college is turning out to be the best decision I've ever made. I'll write some more about it later. Right now I'm headed out with my roommate to go meet some really random people.

We're back. We flew 3 different times yesterday. Took a flight to Philadelphia, then changed planes and flew to Raleight, NC and stayed on that plane and flew to Nashville. Our first flight was at 12. We didn't get to Nashville until 5. I had 7 packets of peanuts the whole day. hehe. 2 on each flight, and then Joshua gave me one of his on the way to Nashville. I was really hungry.
We went tubing Monday. I am really sore from that. It was a lot of fun. Zay and I were on the tube together and at times we were trying to push each other off, but for the most part we were just trying to stay on. It was really bumpy, and oh so fun.
I took a lot of pictures of the trip. It was a lot of fun. I got a nice tan, but now I'm peeling in places. :-( I'm excited about church tonight. Happy to see my friends, and even happier to be in church. That's the main thing I don't like about vacations...no church. I mean, sure, I can have my own little church, but it's different. I'm glad to be back.

how long do you give me before i'm found robbed, drunk, and knocked up in a gutter somewhere off beale street?

accepting bets as of now.

If anyone can find an additional Mr. Floppy and wouldn't mind getting it for us, we would pay you back and be eternally grateful.

UPDATE:  Mr. Floppy is made by Prestige Toy Co for Carter's, style number 7300.  He was an easter special toy made is the spring of 2004 or 2005.  Carter's tells me they don't keep him in warehouses, as he was made so long ago, but he's likely to be found in a Burlington Coat Factory store, in Big Lots, or on Ebay.

The doctor says that Daniel has an upper respiratory infection.  He seems to be feeling a bit better, but his nose is still extremely runny and he still has a nasty cough.  The doctor also says that he's not contagious, so he could start daycare this week, thank goodness.  (I didn't want to shove him in next week for so long without easing him in first.) 

I found a few more problems with the carpet over the last few days.  The seam between the living room and the master isn't finished, you can see the raw edge of the carpet at the seam between the living room and the study, and where the carpet meets the wood floor, there's a piece of trim that is supposed to cover the edge of the carpet, but they cut off the carpet at the edge of the trim, so you can see the raw edge there too.  I have to say that I am completely fed up.  If you ever need anything installed, go somewhere other than Lowes.  It's just not worth the hassle and the headaches.  I suppose I'm asking too much of professional installers to actually install a carpet correctly.

today i was browsing the galaxy-ness of the web. and came across some xanga sites or blogs or something and these girls are literally starving themselves and making a weight journal. and every single one i read they were already fricking 120lbs. or less!!! trying to loose weight so they weigh like 95!!!

omg! that just pisses me the hell off. they write down everything they eat and how many calories or some crap and they don't eat anything!!! by the way!! and that just pisses me off!!!

how are you going to starve yourself when you only weigh 112 lbs!!! argh!

im frickin 5'11" and i weight over 200 even if  you don't believe me. i do. and that makes me depressed. because it kills me. but when youre fucking 112 and starving to be 95, you are sick in the head and you need some damn help. if you don't think you have a eating disorder you are bat-shit-crazy.

*roars like a lion or tiger* whatever. that just pisses me off. ive been fat all of my life. i hate girls like that. it just kills me for them to complain of being fat!! why don't you try being my size for a day. grr.

good news...

im starting to get peoples numbers back... and i sat up and played cards all night with my grandma. :D

Tootles.

Ok, so I haven't posted in awhile, but there's really not much to say.  School is starting back next week.... that stinks.   Ugh,  that's about it really.  Hope nobody reads my blog to cheer up.  Talk to you later.

I haven't done a "real" update on here in a couple of weeks, so I feel like I should say what life has been like since...July 23. 

I guess school has started.  It's not really what I expected senior year to be like.  It's fun, and I like my classes, but high school just feels way passé.  I think the problem is that after Governor's School, which was basically college, going back to high school seems so recessive.  I feel, mentally, like I've already moved on.  Which isn't to say that I won't enjoy and make the most of my senior year, but I am now completely sure that I'm ready for college.

On the topic of college, I think I've changed my mind about what I want to study.  Well, it's not so much a change of mind as an addendum.  I was going to just major in English, and then get a Master's in education so I could teach.  Now, though, I think I've slowly been discovering that my true passion is not so much English (although I still love it) but linguistics.  It's kind of a scary thing for me to admit, because when thinking about college plans I'm ultra-practical, and linguists aren't exactly in high demand these days.  But if I double major in that and English and still do the education thing, I can always teach if nothing else.  Who knows, maybe I'll be a break-neck language dissecter in remote parts of Bolivia or something.  But I can teach Shakespeare and Dickens to sulky 10th graders somewhere if that doesn't work out.

Emotionally, I'm pretty weird right now. 

I feel the need for change.

However, I'm not going to push for it.  I think I'll put off on redoing my life until after high school.  Right now I want to have fun as a senior in high school.  I think it will be easy.  I'm not "coasting," per se, but I'll just say that my workload this year is not going to be overwhelming.  And now, with my newfound confidence and forward-thinkingness inspired by GSH, I feel much more free to be myself and have a good time this year.

I love you guys, and for now, I'm pretty happy.

Christina

Which 24 character are you?

Your Results:
Jack Bauer
You are Jack Bauer!!! You always save the day, you have
a sexy voice, and have the longest days too often. Almost all of your
love interest's die or just get sick of your need to save the world.
Your not afriad of sticking it to the man, and if people would listen
to you things would get done a lot faster.

well today at lunch i got some of the cafeteria food and after packing my own lunch for like 2 and a half weeks i ate school french fries.
well bad idea... turns out french fries realy effects your body when you stick all the toxins of french fries into it and im now on a strike against french fries.

my solution is oranges they made me feel better

Last night was the Goo Goo Dolls Concert!!! It was amazing!!! I'm glad that I got to go considering that it was a school night! Life is going good soccer is keeping me busy!

i love him.

he just called me a "stinker". . . agree?

...and told me that i "aint aloud to court nobudy till youre 22" (the age he was when he was married)

he also informed me that there isnt a boy out there that half deserves me...ha.

ooh. grandparents. great stuff. -kels

so i found this on my myspace wall from a guy i know...

Dani the girl is singing songs to me beneath the marquee of her soul, by the way i tried to say i'd be there waiting for.......

yeah... so what do you think?

Well, rules completely stink.  I hate them!!!  I don't see why I have to go through with this.  I just wanted to be left the way I was and I guess I couldn't have that.  I just wanted to talk and yet can't even do that.  I just wanted to say I love you...what's up with that???

so yea i guess it is time to clear up a rumor i am quitting chamber choir. i really hate to use the word quit but hey thats probably the easiest way to put it. I have really felt like God is saying i need to step back and spend more time with him. because last spring i was NEVER at church. but yea i am going to take music theory instead. so i am still sticking with music but a different way. so yea! later- stephen

Meg.&MarybethAlly and JamieHere are some of my wonderful friends!!!Amanda

And no one gives me messages or any thhing and it makes me sad.........

Hey, guess you aren't remarking me so I geuss I wont stay on any more.....

                      

                 sad

                             

Facebook has now added a nifty little "notes" section, with which I am able to import my Phusebox blog. In fact, when I did this, it imported my last ten entries. Wowzeers! The wonders of technology! Here are quotes from last Thursday that I totally meant to put on here but never did...

"If I was liberal, I would fuss..." - guy in the business office

Anna: "What is the legal drinking age in Montenegro?"
Nemanja: "Well, you must be born, and you must say beer, and they will give you one!"

ok so purty much school kinda SUCKED today and I have to frig*n do homework...and me and Candace matched today and we were SO cute!!well G2G love always

Megan Zickefoose

I swear if i cried any more you could call me Old Faithfull!

          I didnt know i had so much water inside me!!!

                         GAH!! Here i go again... ::Cries::

 (that was a GREAT few nights)

Isn't it amazing how a simple icon can say SO much....

Well, I am now an official student of LEE and a member of the school of music. No longer without responsibility I think that makes me cool, but I'm not sure. I am taking 15 hours and Ihave 2 classes that  I don't get credit hours for (it's a music major thing). Plus on top of that I'm suposed to practice 5 hours a day on each instrument of my focus. That includes Piano, Vocals, and Guitar. I have a busy semester, but I think I'm up for it. It will definately be a growing experiance.

I love music. While I was getting my schedule strait with my advisor
I heard a girl auditioning for the school of music. She had a vocal
emphasis. All she was doing was singing Amazing Grace to a simple
piano, but it was so amazing. I just sat there trying to keep my mouth
shut because it's was so awesome. I love music. The purity and emotion
of it.

I'm going to like LEE.

Baby sick again.  Mommy and Daddy exhausted again.  

Yep...I am back at school at good 'ole Morehead State University!  Yesterday was my first day of school and I only had one class.  I then had to figure out what my fellowship is really all about.  I spent most of my day reading a dissertation and then went to meet some new freshman at the BSU for Freshman Fiesta!  Today is a different story.  I have four classes and I'm dreading all of them.  I finish at 4:15 but start at 9:10.  That's no good.  However, tonight is the first night of TNL at the BSU and I get to do some stage make-up.  That is always fun.  Anyway, I have class in like 10 minutes so I guess I should head out!  I'm off to Sociology.

*** read it for yourself ****

Note 1 from Singapore:   " Bill,  this is the final arrangement.  Apologies for the confusion. Cheryl "

Note 2 from Illinois:   " I have 4 LDN from Angola to Houston, TX, then a 40' container from Houston to Jakarta.  The shipment from Angola to Jakarta via air has already been picked up (10 gross cuft per family member).  Thanks. Gloria"

***

Do you think the saga is over or not?  Cast your votes please !!!!

When I see pictures of me taken one year ago, I am always amazed at how young I look. Other people have commented simmilarily, and I have observed the same in others.

When I look back over my previous posts here on PhuseBox, I thought the same exact thing, "Wow! Who is this kid that bothers himself with things that don't matter, is tossed in every direction by waves of emotion and passing life, and lacks a maturity of which he thought he had more?"

My, how things have changed over the past year. Facets of life that seemed so important were not. Challenges jousted as worthy adversaries in the valient journey of the living turned out to be trivial in magnitude.

I would be lying if I said I looked back and saw a rock. It kinda makes me wonder what I will be saying about myself one year from now. Will I sit and chuckle as I do now and think, "Did I know this kid, lacking maturity, ill-prepared for the grown-up life?"

Who knows? I suppose it's all a necessary part of the expedition set before us. Would I go back and repeat the last year if given the opportunity? Not a chance. Despite what appears to be a precarious and awkward kid, I would not be who I am today without what I've passed through and hopefully learned valuable lessons from.

"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

this song is totally amazing.....and its for someone....

Leah

       I'm home and I feel great :-)

th game was a BLAST! on firday

my first public DM thing was awesome...the feeling of being on that podium in foront of close to a thousand people was simply amazing

encore was pretty cool too but will improve with some tweaking

spent the nigth with jenn, amy, glenda, D, kait, and erin and it was awesome. then they (me and erin werent allowed to see it) went to see snakes on a plane and to the mall  then we met them at fazoli's and then went to amy and glendas house.

defiantely a good friday & saturday with my friends

sunday was 2 years.... wow. its hard to stomach the fact that Bruce has been gone that long. it was odd to pass the day and not cry, im not sure why but the tears just never came.i saw mrs gilley at lunch sunday though. it made my day. i love her so much... she is my hero.

its late i need to sleep

nite and much love

-emily

I just said bye to my dad ... it was very depressing, and im still upset.. I wish I could live in the same state as him , I dont get to see him  and my gma jackie till christmas... heck if I could of been ok for not seeing him for 9 months... and the years before a "whole year" ... then I can wait a couple more months to see my dad and my grandma  again. It just hurts ........a TON.  And now im all crying like a stupid baby. I am ok to say that im proud of my dad now =), yes I said it, my friends prob think im crazy for sayin it, but i am . Im seriously like a replica of his personality, except his past bad habits.  But all thats in the past... Amen, Hallelujah.. Praise mary of joseph  .  

im just really sad though right now dangit... I hate this ... blah ... but there is nothing I can do about it... but go to God. It just hurts really bad, ha I just started bawling when my dad said goodbye and gave me a hug... and then he cried so it made me cry more ... gah. hah its like when someone yawns u yawn too. I dont like goodbyes one bit. They suck . ha. Ok well I hope everyones week goes well . Oh yeh and I played all my music for my dad, and I had also recently just wrote 3 more songs, and my dad helped me add some chords, and now it sounds aweeesomee... and he fixed my amp for my electric guitar !!!! Yay so now I can actually put that thing to use... woot. Anyway I love my dad, all of u should love ur dad ... even if he did the smallest thing ... cause my dad had not been in my childhood basically and now he is trying to come back into my life, and I forgave him .... Forgiveness is a hard thing, but everyone give it a try once in awhile.. cause it makes everything a lot better. For yourself, for other ppl... everything.

* By the way tonight made my year... I played the song " Helplessly Hoping " on my guitar... by Crosby Still Nash and Young, and that was my mom and dads song they would always sing together.. but there is 3 part harmony, and my mom and my dad and I all sang it together.. my dad sang tenor, my mom alto , and me soprano... was the coolest thing ever. Gah my family is so  music oriented... its awesome... but yeh sry just had to add that in about how cool that was =p

in  him

sarah

so today my new cute date person was suppose to call me today. but my phone was acting strange. i forgot to put it on the charger last night so the battery died. which i've done any number of times!! but this morning i hooked it up and it said charging for a minute or so and then it just left a green light on and so i thought.. maybe its charging.. so like 5 hours later, i go in my room and try to get it to turn on and it wont so i think maybe its really really dead and needs more time. so i leave it on. i come back at like 5 and i still can't get it on.

so i decide to go to walmart to see if Grey's Anatomy Season 2 was out yet and it wasn't.. :| so i needed to get Drano too.

a strange thing happened though. when i was at walmart. i was asking the saleslady if she had GA2 there was 2 black girls standing at the phones with some skinny, flava flav looking guy and i asked my question and one of the girls looks at me and says "are you Brigette?" and i looked at her strange and nodded. and i was about to be like "who's asking?! you think you know me?! what?!" but i didn't want to break another nail and on top of it get kicked out of wolly world. yes, i know. there are two wolly worlds here in the boro. --about to be three!! anyways. i just nodded and walked away. but i am curious and it was strange. you have to admit. it was.

so.... i strayed way off the subject of my phone.... whre was i... oh yes so after walmart i was going to stop into the verizon store. let me tell you. go early cause at night they are slam-packed. i stood in line for like 15 minutes until i got up to the counter and then they got my info and told me to look around until they could figure out was wrong with my phone. so that was another 15 minutes until the chick came and got me. and she basically told me they couldn't get it on even with a brand new battery (that hasn't been reused) and it still wouldn't turn on.

so i got a new phone... which is cool and all but the bad news is. Since they couldn't turn the old one on... they couldn't transfer any of the numbers in my phone book. and i just bought a shit load of ringtones and of course i had all of my awesome pictures in my phone.. -.- and now i probably will never get those back. ever. which sucks cause i spent like $30 and i had unlimited gaming on Who Wants To Be A Millionaire... -.-;

this so sucks. half of the people in my phone book i possibly wont ever see anymore and therefore cannot ge there numbers. -.-;;; so depressing really.

so everyone that i know that is reading this!! Leave your number(s)!!! cell phone numbers and house numbers work numbers... i want it all.. just to stalk you and learn all of your secrets... *evil laugh (muwahaha)*

i love you guys. (:

you know what sucks most of all!!! i don't have my new dates number anymore!!! ah! ): and hes really sweet. we went bowling and then he took me out to dinner to a Japanese restaurant where they cook infront of you on a hibachi grill. which is awesome cause they play with the food and do fancy stuff. it was really sweet. (: i enjoyed it alot. then when i got home he called me and we talked to each other all night. (: about things we shouldn't be talking about because we aren't dating and we haven't made out yet.. so that talk was way .... well it was a good talk don't get me wrong, but hey. :D

maybe if i see him again this week maybe on wednesday or thursday... well we wont get into that. (:

goodnight!!

don't forget to leave me your number!

i have finally got around to posting this past week was been the most hectice week i have had in a long time it got so bad that i started getting stress head aches this week i found out that school is getting alot easier yah there is a hole lot more home work and it takes forever to do it but as of know i am at the top of my class in grades for the first time in my life i am not failling any of my classes and that is amazing considering that we already had 3 tests in the first week

this is actually a answer to prayer that i would not struggle this year and so far i have not struggled one bit and it fells great not being grounded becuase you are failing becuase your best is not good enough

i will sort of confuse some people when i say that this has been the best and worst week i have ever had

....that i really have been dwelling on people moving off to college and i haven't been looking on the bright side.i realized that i still have amazing friends here in murfreesboro.so to all my friends still here i love you all!

megan i really do love you!

Leah

hey yall I am SOoOo bored I am sittin @ home and I made a phusebox cause David told me to!!so like yea!!BORED

Love always and 4EVR

Megs

I was think my bed, friday, 6:30pm, memorial sonic, unless there's something else going on.

Hey everyone... i am sorry i havent bloged in a while i wahve been kind of busy with school and everything.

Last Saturday i went to the wilson county fair and there was one ride it looked completely harmless but it wasnt

I almost got sick on it and then i got stuck at the very top of the giant ferris wheel.....

Okay well please remark me or send me a message or both

Love ya bunches.... Emily O.

hey everyone

man-o-man
school was another thing
didnt feel like going
but anywho
//1st//it was ok got an sitting chart.... its kinda funny cuz bri was bothing michal to death... i felt srry for him tho....
//2nd// had a quiz>< i miss one on it tho.... but anyways
//3rd// we got to watch saturday night live
//4th// worked on myself porait(sp)
//lauch//hung out with justin
//5th//had def. to work on>< grrrrrrr!!!!!
//6th//math test!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ok that's all i have to say lol

        meg

well, i'm home. i am mentally and emotionally exausted. Alzheimer's is a horrible horrible disease that steals those that we love away from us while they are still here. i pray that none of you have to go through what my family went through today and will continue to go through.

It's 4:31am and I'm honestly a bit perturbed to be awake. I throw on a shirt, keep my shorts and grab my hat on the way out the door. It's a silent ride to the airport this morning which encourages my thought to drift, something I haven't allowed much lately. I'm on my way to see Aaron Shew and Tyler Haynes off. The long awaited time has come and they are currently in the air on their way to Thailand for NINE months. Their step of faith is inspiring.  

We turned off the airport exit from I24 and I immediately got that sick feeling in my stomach. It's that nervous, anxiousness one gets when they know something big is coming. It's because I've been there myself… about 9 months ago. As I lay in the back seat staring at the ceiling my thoughts started to turn.

I remember leaving everything with no idea of what to expect. I remember leaving my family standing in the darkened driveway; I didn't let them come to the airport because I thought I would be easier just saying goodbye at home. Then came the long drive to the airport with my friend Tracie while the sun rose. I remember praying "Ok God, here I am…" as I watched the sun rise trying to comfort myself and understand that He was completely in control.

I remember how my heart felt when those closest too me got up early to come see me off. I remember how it felt to pray and walk away from them. I remember turning for a last glance and some of them not being "so strong" any more.

That's where the "sick feeling" comes from every time I walk into that terminal. This morning it was dark and early not promoting much conversation which allowed me to think. I've held my thoughts on that season of life tightly captive since it ended, so today has been a new thing for me.

To put what God had for me in one word would be impossible, but the best I can come up with is "desert" The dictionary here in my lovely Microsoft Word defines it as: "a place or situation that is devoid of some desirable thing, or overwhelmed by an undesirable thing." That particular definition may be a bit strong for my situation, but it expresses the idea.

Every single one of us will hit times in life we would consider to be a desert. It's more than just a "dry spell", it's a freaking life-changing, "God where are you?" season where it's all we can do to keep our heads above water. The situation will often be painful and rarely desirable. And hear this… at this very moment we are all at one of three places in life: Headed into the desert, presently in the desert, or coming out of the desert. If you've never experienced the "desert" in life, it is coming.

But why?

That's the non-productive, but human thing to do. We question absolutely everything… so why?  

Check out Hosea 2:14 – 16. In my Bible this passage is labeled "the desert."

14 "Therefore I am now going to allure her;
       I will lead her into the desert
       and speak tenderly to her.

 15 There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt.

 16 "In that day," declares the LORD,
       "you will call me 'my husband';
       you will no longer call me 'my master.

Now, a few points to help us understand this "desert" concept.

Notice how the word "allure" is used. Most of the time when we find ourselves in the undesirable places of life we think God has banished us here in some sort of punishment. But that isn't even close to what the word "allure" means. "Allure" means "take my hand… I'm going to lead you somewhere. I'm going WITH you!"

Verse 15 refers to the PURPOSE of the desert. There He is going to give something "back" to her and when it's over she will "sing as in the days of her youth"

Verse 16 is where we can get a peace-giving perspective though. It's in this "desert" that our Father "allures" us to where we learn to love him. Here we learn to call him "husband" (as we are the "bride" of Christ). It's where we learn the meaning of true relationship. In this time of undesirable situations is where we learn what it really means to love Him. It's where we grow close to our maker.

Honestly, in the back of my mind, I think I had idea of what Hawaii was going to hold. It's kind of that larger perspective on life we get from time to time where we can view things in a different light. I knew, though I wouldn't have admitted it because that would have scared me, that Hawaii for me was going to be a season of growth and change. I knew things in life would be different when I came back.

I wrote in my journal almost every day I was there. I wrote an entry entitled "I sure hope hindsight is prettier" because what was currently in front of me wasn't exactly a "walk in the park."

What I'm trying to get at is the fact that hindsight IS beautiful. God is intentional and that's where we stand when we find ourselves in the harder situations of life.

Romans 8:28

Jeremiah 29:11

Romans 8:38-39

1 Kings 8:57

Isaiah 40:11  

I walked back into life and nothing was the same. I am not the same. I have experience behind me, a relationship with me, and a peace about the future I didn't know before. Hindsight is beautiful.

May we embrace, in faith, the things that make us stronger.

January 9th, 2006 - airport

January 11th, 2006 - standing on lava

you cant write the same song over again
its in the same key over again...ya
because were doing so good makin up
for miles just a little while like you would
under estimating you know you think were doin
so good im glad to be a part of the glass that you
placed upon her with your heart in case and left for danger
in a race to the rode on the way to apathy
its lifes little let down spontaneity

[[not a great month. let's just say that..]]

Coffee as a Health Drink? Studies Find Some Benefits.

Long story short, 4-6 cups reduces the risk of diabetes and other generic nasties, but if you go over six cups, the benefits start to diminish.  Woohoo!  I'm buyin' me some Starbucks stock.

And yes, that brief synopsis is a cop-out.

You love me, don't deny it.

ok ok ... I have family all over the world ... EVERYBODY is my brother, my sister, my mother, my father, my son, my daughter, my aunt, my uncle, my niece, my nephew, my cousin, and my wife, (did I forget anybody?)  ....

Hello...

do you ever feel like you just don't fit anymore?? yea it sucks

I went on the pipeline account at www.MTSU.edu and noticed that my schedule was pulged...I have been here ALL day trying to get a new schedule, which is hard to do when there are hardly no classes available. I ended up getting a really good schedule...for some wierd reason. I even have a "WHOLE LOT" of money left over from all of my scholarships. My Chemistry teacher is the same teacher I had at Oakland high school. The only thing I don't like about my new schedule is that I have a class on Tuesday and Thursday...

Regarding the relocation to Indonesia, I deliberately decided to not mix the "shipping issue" with the general relocation commentary.

Decy has been stuck in a "5-day holiday" this past weekend ... on Tuesday we will finally get moving again on the house hunting.  Hopefully everything will be wrapped up Tuesday or Wednesday so the renovations can begin and we can have a move-in date targetted ... my guess is will be around the 23rd of September.

Once we know we have the house for sure, Decy will begin a full court press on selecting furniture and starting to queue it up for delivery ... and then there is the domestic and security help we will need to hire .... probably 6-7 people.

If the above isn't enough ... I learned today that our 42-day expense paid auto rental (with driver) began when Decy arrived ... so that deal turns into a pumpkin about the 12th of September ... so, we will need to either start paying rental (with driver) or go out and buy two cars (and find drivers) ASAP.

I think we are going to buy a Honda CR-V and a Toyota Fortuner (Decy's choices).  Given the absence of attractive financing that means I have to queue up about $55,000 so we can pay cash for the cars  .... and don't forget the furniture costs either .... so, as you can see September is going to be a very hectic and expensive month (Paul & Chris, see why I sent you the college money early ???).

ciao ciao

Regarding the relocation to Indonesia, I deliberately decided to not mix the "shipping issue" with the general relocation commentary.

Decy has been stuck in a "5-day holiday" this past weekend ... on Tuesday we will finally get moving again on the house hunting.  Hopefully everything will be wrapped up Tuesday or Wednesday so the renovations can begin and we can have a move-in date targetted ... my guess is will be around the 23rd of September.

Once we know we have the house for sure, Decy will begin a full court press on selecting furniture and starting to queue it up for delivery ... and then there is the domestic and security help we will need to hire .... probably 6-7 people.

If the above isn't enough ... I learned today that our 42-day expense paid auto rental (with driver) began when Decy arrived ... so that deal turns into a pumpkin about the 12th of September ... so, we will need to either start paying rental (with driver) or go out and buy two cars (and find drivers) ASAP.

I think we are going to buy a Honda CR-V and a Toyota Fortuner (Decy's choices).  Given the absence of attractive financing that means I have to queue up about $55,000 so we can pay cash for the cars  .... and don't forget the furniture costs either .... so, as you can see September is going to be a very hectic and expensive month (Paul & Chris, see why I sent you the college money early ???).

ciao ciao

Ok, so today the packers were to come to box up all our stuff and haul it away for shipment to the US and onforwarding to Indonesia, ETA - 8am.  Phone rings at 630am - Singapore Expat Center ... we start chatting.

Seems there AGAIN is confusion on my shipment.  Recall that going INTO Indonesia I am entitled to a 40 ft container (big mamma).  But, leaving Angola I am entitled to only 4 little LDN crates (380 cu ft total) ... plus I'm entitled to take things from my storage in Houston ... as long as it fits in the 40 ft container (although I'm not allowed to go to Houston to get my stuff.  And, if I have a container shipment ... I am entitled to air freight into Indonesia totalling 13 boxes.

So ... what was last agreed was .... 13 boxes by air to Indonesia ... 4 LDNs by air to the US to meet up with my storage ... to be shipped by 40 ft container from US to Indonesia.

Time out ... all bets are off ... my 13 boxes which were collected 6 weeks ago are sitting at the airport here in Angola ... ready to leave ... BUT ... I can't have "two air shipments" only one .... ARGGHHH ... so how do I get my boxes?  And how do I get my other stuff out of Angola?

My mind was in a bit of a fog ... but I think the decision was ... 13 boxes by air to Indonesia ... arriving 29-Aug, customs clearance time 3-6 weeks.  Then my 4 LDNs from here ... but might not be 4 LDNs by air from here but 4 LDNs by sea inside a 20 ft container to Indonesia (I think) ... then because I will have already consumed 1/2 of a 40 ft container ... I will get a second 20 ft container from Houston ...

... or was that one 20 foot container from Angola to the US ... to be added to a second 20 foot container in the US ... all going to Indonesia ... or was that 4 LDNs by air to Indonesia .. and one 20 foot container by sea from the US ... or was that ????

Anyway, the packers came ... they saw ... they boxed ... and hauled my stuff away .... a measly 62 boxes.  The shipping folks and Expat Center now have custody of all of our stuff ... I'm outta here on Saturday ... THEY can figure out what they want to do with it.

ciao ciao.

Well, I got back to Cookeville yesterday afternoon, and now I'm finishing up with my preparations for the retreat.  Whoopee!

i leave friday afternoon.

so if you want to see me before i head off to memphis . . .

call me sometime this week.

and i think that if you really love me you should drive down to memphis and help me move in.

you know you want to.

So..... my life right now in an updated entry....

-roommies got kicked out so now I have a 3 bedroom apt. all to myself at the moment. I'm gonna wait a while and actually find someone worth living with vs. being paired up with someone I have nothing in common with by my school....

-Ireland was absolutely amazing and I want to go back as soon as possible. I spent 3 weeks over there and I fell in love with it. I'd have pictures up, but I don't have any because my digital camera broke the second day I was there and disposable cameras were way too expensive... meaning about $17 US dollars. Heh.... Oh well. A lot of my friends took pictures so I should get some soon.

-Family is wonderful right now. I haven't hung out with my parents for a while just because life is what it is right now, but my parents and I went out to eat the other day and my mom was driving. Before she got in, my dad opened the door for her and closed it for her once she was situated. They've been married for 33 years as of Aug. 17th and they still do little stuff like that.

-Friends are wonderful..... in December, my bf and I are driving to St. Louis to go to my best friend's wedding in which I am the maid of honor. Then after the wedding, we're going to spend a few days visiting my family that I haven't seen in a few years. And they get to meet Jared which I'm pretty excited about.

-Jared (bf) is wondrful. 6 months for us on Aug 22 and not to be corny, but I love him very much and he feels the same. For once, I feel like an adult in a relationship and it's great. We can be goofy at the same time too though, I just don't feel like I'm baby-sitting half the time with him. Yep, I'm in love

-College...... started my second year of college last Thursday, tomorrow (Monday) is the first full day. I have 4 classes on Mondays so I'm at O'More from 9 a.m. to 5:40 p.m....... bleh..... oh well. And I have one class on Tuesdays/Thursdays. Wednesday I have the same 3 classes, but one from Monday is only a Monday classes..... so..... 3 hour break on Wednesdays. No Fridays class....... YAY =) I'm on Student Government again this year. I love it. I love college. I stay busy, but I love what I'm doing and how many people can say that, right?

-Ok..... so that wasn't a short entry, but I figured I need to to catch up on things since it's been a while. I'm going to go to sleep though since I have to wake up in like 3 hours for class.... woo hoo.... lol

Henry is a stuffed animal that stands at about 2 1/2 inches and is about 6 inches long.  He is a skunk with a bushy tail, and a nose you would die for.  He stands in a room I've never seen or been in, as protection from a cat who once tried to tear him apart.  I bought this for you the weekend of our first week because I thought you were amazing.. I saw him in the gift shop of the Henry Horton hotel and just had to buy him.  After being chased by an actual skunk while talking to you.. it was the only choice.

For a month and twelve days, you were my rock.  With my life moving so quickly, I knew I could call you for just a moment to relax.  And now you're gone.. I know not entirely what went wrong.  I'm hurt and confused and constantly going back and forth on what i should do next..

You say it's not my fault and that everything was going fine..  You said we'd be together for a while and that you couldn't imagine breaking up with me.. Nor I you..  So now I sit and ask,"What Happened?"

I'm still crazy about you.. and I still hope for the best... But as I sit here at this early morning hour.. I ask myself,"Will I ever get to hold her hand again?"....

I know God will take care of it... But for the time.. it doesn't take the pain away..

I can't go to sleep. I have something on my heart and on my mind.

God is always there. I know that saying that doesn't even cover the reality of it but it's the truth. He tells us to draw near to Him and he will draw near to us. Our struggles, what happens to us daily is and should be for the glory of God. He is and reigns above all things.

I want to be used to further His kingdom.

That is my prayer. And I want to be put through tests to make me stronger for Him. And as Pastor Dan would say....to be more moldable for Him.

He's everything to me. Everything that should matter.

Come on now, who do you -
Who do you, who do you, who do you think you are?
Ha ha ha!  Bless your soul.
You really think you're in control?

*sings along at an annoyingly high pitch*

Ahhhhhhh.  I love that song.

This weekend was pretty good.  Michael Cole and Rachel Hodorowicz on Friday.  Brian King and Megan McDonald on Saturday.  Megan McDonald and Carmeron West and Mady Robertson today.

I miss the summer.  I miss spontaneously deciding to stay out until un-god o' clock in the morning.  I miss not caring that it was 10 PM was way too late for caffine and deciding to get coffee anyways.  I miss seeing my friends all the time.

I've been kind of bipolar in my attitude about this school year.

My classes aren't that bad, but I don't have my classes with my very closest friends.  Because of band, JROTC, and work, I don't get to see my Siegel friends hardly at all.  About 90% of my college friends are leaving or have already left.

Once May rolls around, there'll just be a month or two left and then life as I know it really will be over.  My core group of friends will be completely torn apart.  It doesn't help that I'm determined to go to a school that has Latin.  (I recently found out that MTSU doesn't.)

Agh.  I sound really emo.  That makes me feel dirty all over.  And not in a pleasant way.  I think I'll go listen to some rap music or something until I feel back to normal.

Why do I do this? I treat him so badly. Why does he stay with me? I keep telling him "I call you more" and "I'll try harder" but I really don't. I am bushing him away. I am doing it. What has he done? Nothing, he's been the best boyfriend that anyone could ask for. What does he get in return?

Exactly.

I almost want to throw up. I love him so much, but what does that mean if he doesn't know it? I miss him saying I love you. That song that Josh Groban sings is basically how it makes me feel when he says it.

If I don't start being the boyfriend that he is for me, he'll leave me.

Come what may.

This weekend we went to the Meadow Creek Motocross races in Crossville. This was my first experience with motocross. On Saturday they practiced most of the day. The track announcer, known as Bubba got married Saturday evening on a hill in the middle of the track. She married Virgil. Her real name is Valerie and his is Joshua.

Sunday was all out racing action. It was a blast to watch. It looks like it would be a lot more fun to participate.




By the way, we were there with our fellow members of the Christian Motorcyclists Association. Sunday started out with a Church Service on the bleachers. There were about 30 people there for service. We also got to open the "Riders Meeting" with prayer. We helped with registration, wedding set up, etc. We also prayed with some of the people there. Mostly we were just there to help out wherever needed. It's amazing how God can use you if you just make yourself available. Our motto is "Here when you need us". It was awesome. I was blessed.

hey yall im bored so what up?

my wonderful husband just surprised me with tickets to the goo goo dolls and counting crows concert tomorrow night! i am so excited! don't i have the best husband ever?!!

That's where my big bro is moving. Tomorrow. For 9 months. I won't see him for 9 months. Please have Tyler and Aaron Shew in your prayers. They are best friends of mine and its just not gonna be the same without them here. I know they have been called to a greater purpose though. That's about all for now.
~Garrett

What confirms a friendship for you, personally? And, at the end of things, is your heart satisfied?

It's so scary to release all control, but yet so comforting at the same time...

This has been a good summer :)

I'd elaborate, but part of me wants to keep it to myself.

I've glanced back over the past four months and have seen how God has made Himself so evident in my life and the things He's doing with it. I do not know what His next move will be, but it won't be bad. How can it be?

. . . after this day two years ago, I never hear the word "cornmuffin" without thinking of precious Bruce.

Mommy and Daddy have been trying to teach me to play bass.  Daddy taught Mommy, and they think I'm old enough to try it.  Personally, I wish they had started when I was young.  I could be much better now.  As it is, I'm not sure if I'll ever catch up.


photo from JoshM



Daddy has more pictures on his site (see link above).  It's kinda lame, though, that his bass is broken.  The nut is messed up, so the G string actually rests on the first fret, so it's a Ab string now.  I'm not sure what any of that means, but it makes neat noise when Daddy hooks it up and I hit it hard.  Daddy said something about me being a natural at "Slap
Bass".  I think I'm also a natural at "Slap Kitty" and "Slap Mommy".

I've been kinda sick lately.  I know I need to sleep, but it just seems like a better idea to lie in bed and voice my opinions.  Maybe I'm just sick of walking everywhere!  Ever think about that, Mommy and Daddy?  I understand that it's the cutest thing you've ever seen, but my only chance of catching that elusive feline is by stalking, and stalking can only be done while crawling.  Besides, I've walked all the way across the room several times now, so I think you can trust that I'm "developing normally" (whatever that means).  For now, I'll walk when I feel like walking, but crawling is my general transportation of choice (after being carried upside-down, that is).

yeah just thought i would say something on here since i haven't said anything in awhile.well okay!

Leah

so. today's the day. 2 years. man. seems like forever, and yet yesterday, too. i've gotten to the point to where i can barely remember what that life was like, which scares me. i heard this song for the first time yesterday while driving to Wal-Mart, and had what i would pretty much consider a melt-down. here's the lyrics. i thought that they were quite applicable.

"Homesick" --MercyMe

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

much love ---Cari

I know that this looks a little long, but it's a fairly quick read. I hope you'll take the time to at least scan it. These are excerpts of journal entries I made three years ago when I first moved to Tennessee, just in time to begin my junior year of high school. I hope these will be an encouragement for those of you who are going off to college or expereincing some other sort of change.

It's really neat for me to look back three years and see how much God has brought me through in that time period. (For one thing, my writing has improved... ha ha...) I hope that through reading these entries and from knowing me now, you can see how far God has brought me in my life through change, and what He can do in yours. Enjoy...

8-14-03
"...today was miserably boring. Kinda lonely too... I'll just have to give it some time. It's hard right now, because at this point I am like so ready to just high-tail it back to Texas. I called Theresa [an old friend from TX] today and it was so nice to hear her sweet voice..."

8-15-03
"...Tonight... was one of the most awesome nights of my life. You see, Mom agreed to work the [Lifeway] table for this concert and karoke deal that was happening at a church [Northside Baptist] tonight... well I came back from watching some of the karoke and Mom was saying she talked some with the lead singer of Everman, Brad, about Texas... I got to meet the guy for myself... he is serioulsy like the nicest guy in the whole universe! ...he wrote a special note inside my CD cover that says: 'Marsha & Amy, Providence #3 is for you! Romans 8:28'. Mom said that once when I wasn't there with them that he prayed for us! And his wife and daughter are back in Texas [just like my dad]! Talk about so strange! And you know what? For the first time since I've been here, I was myself. Tonight was the first time that the real Amy had emerged in Murfreesboro. And the real Amy had such a fun time joking around and hanging out..."

8-16-03
"Today was one of those days when I got up on the wrong side of the bed... I just felt really crummy most of the day. Not even listening to my very own song helped. And you know how you would figure after something awesome happened like last night that everything would suddenly seem brighter and more perfect? Well it didn't..."

8-17-03
"Well, we went to Belle Aire today and both Mom and I liked it. I met two girls who were really nice to me. Their names were Sarah and Amber... I met a few guys too, but we didn't talk much... Anyhow, I got the sweetest e-mail from Danielle [old Texan friend] today! ...she was saying how God was going to use me..."

8-18-03
"Well school was... school. Pretty boring and average. I haven't really made any new friends, but I was talking to this one guy in environmental science and after class he handed me a post-it and it had his phone number... ha ha..."

8-19-03
  "Well today was better... I can see the kids in my classes are starting to warm up, and we're starting to become more friendly towards one another. And yesterday, for no reason at all, I ended up with a schedule change that flip-flopped my last two classes. At first I thought I would hate the change, but now I'm seeing how they are for the better! (God just totally rocks!)
  "...in Spanish there's a guy from Belle Aire, and I saw another guy in a Christian t-shirt. And we had to work with partners... and mine were really nice. ...sixth period drama... we had to talk about ourselves. One girl was really brave and stated, 'Something that is interesting about me is I'm a Christian.' Wow! I couldn't help but admire her for saying that! ...that was all cool and it encouraged me...
  "Then this other guy named Zach comes up there. 'An interesting thing about me is that there is a lake named after me,' he tells us. Mr. Curry asked Zach about it and he explained there was this lake at this Funny Farm place where his mom would go to or whatever because she is a Christian comedian. ... so anyways, we talked a little at the end of class because our assigned seats are right next to each other, and he asked what church I went to... I told him that we had just moved here so we were still looking around... I really hope to become good friends with both Zach and Rebecca...
  "God, thank you for the "fluke" schedule change. I suppose maybe you were showing me that you still do care..."

8-20-03
"... we went to Belle Aire again tonight, and Sarah, Amber, and Amy were still just as sweet as ever to me... things are starting to feel more familiar. Maybe I'm starting to realize I'm not on vacation, but it's still hard and I still miss everyone..."

8-23-03
"...Right now I'm at the point where I suppose I don't really mind too much about being here, as long as my purpose of being here is reavealed soon... I know it's only been about three weeks, but feels so much longer. I'm ready to discover why I'm here..."

8-31-03
"We got our rainbow today. Every time we move, God always sends us a beautiful rainbow as a promise. Today it was big, bright, and vivid... it was God's promise for us that we so needed to be reminded of..."

9-4-03
"...So school is getting more and more comfortable... I'm feeling more comfortable with the people and such. If only we could figure out the church issue..."

9-8-03
"Well, today I realize how desperately my school needs Jesus. Seriously...  she [a girl from one of my classes] ... made a comment about how this is the Bible belt and she can't wait to move away from it because people cram stuff down your throat. I don't want to be that way. I want to shine brightly for the world, but I don't want to beat people ove the head with a Bible in order to do it. Earlier today I just sat down and prayed and asked God to reveal Himself to me... all I know to do now is pray for these people, and to keep on shining! I'm enjoying Riverdale, and I know God has a purpose for me to be here!"

9-10-03
  "Okay, tonight at church was awesome! The topic was peace, and after Chris (the youth minister), spoke, he handed it over to this college guy named Clint. So Clint gave us a testimony about having peace even when his mom died... He said a couple of things that I can see ring true in my life. One thing is that we all go through Job situations. We're either going through one, fixing to get in one, or just getting out of one... He also said that it's during those tough trials that we realize where our joy is. Is our joy... anchored in Christ? That's the only way to receive true joy and true peace...
  "And I just now realized how many people I already know! Seriously! Like all these kids in my classes, and then Swing Club kids, drama kids... Anyway... it's so neat to think about how comfortable I am in school... It's so cool just how many people I know and say hi to me and talk to me! ...And several of them aren't Christians, and maybe one day I'll get to tell them about Jesus!"

9-14-03
"Well Mom and I both know that Belle Aire is definitely the right place - no fighting it any longer..."

9-17-03
"Tonight I've just really reflected on how far I've come since we've moved here. It's pretty amazing! It's encouraging to think about, because now I can see God has a plan. And it's cool how many people I have gotten to meet and can recognize in the hallways. Today a girl from the play tryouts that I had never really talked with smiled and said hey to me. Ditto with a girl, Emily, that I met at See You at the Pole. It's just really neat and encouraging..."

And it's like "they" say... the rest is history... and how glad I am that God brought me here.

In case you haven't heard, I'm making an actual effort to come back. I've applied for two positions at Verizon's 1) store near the mall, and 2) call center in the Boro. This idea was inspired by the idea of Garrett, who said if I moved back, he, Graham, and I would get an apartment.

As to how this might pertain to my last post...it doesn't. Really, it doesn't. Because one of those possibilities isn't valid anymore. I don't feel the need or desire to go into that any further, but needless to say, my trip cleared it up.

Sorry if that bored you with its vagueness. To placate you, here's me with a polar bear.



Yep. That's a polar bear. More updates about the possible move as I get them.

OK, just for the record .. not ALL my family is in Tennessee and Jakarta ... I also have family in Florida (right mom?)

Wow, what a weekend. Sorry about the lapse.  Muddled thru Friday (at work).  Then, went to the BCI apartment (deja vu; after living there 2 years) to see Tom Rapson.  Tom and I had a great time talking, then went to dinner at Pintos (Decy's and my favorite restaurant).  Met about 40 co-workers at the restaurant celebrating a milestone.

On Saturday ... yahoo ... helped hare the hash ... and then.  Well, what goes around .. comes around.  I have been dishing out punishment and harassment for 4 years ... Saturday was my turn (I will try to get some pics to post) ... for now, close your eyes and imagine ... fake breast, red lace bra, black evening gown, blond wig, lipstick, mascara, eye liner, earrings, and high heals ... yep ... you try hashing in that !!!! ... I did get 14 offers for a date ... 5 men ... 8 women .. and I'm not sure about the other    ; )

Survived.  Boy do my calves hurt !!!!

Oh yeah, I had a carefully place "LH3" painted on my back ... with hair removing cream.

After the run and circle punishments (to others) ... we were treated to a very special Pakistani dinner (yeah baby).  When it became clear that the hair removing cream wasn't fully meeting expectations ... out came the razor .... a grocery sack full of hair lies in Salman's courtyard .... (can anyone say "itch itch" as the mass of hair grows out).

After a couple of hours of that ... I was grabbed and carted off to an evening (what was left of it) of karaoke.  I was allowed to change clothes ... but I don't know what was the status of my make up.  Of course, our country manager was at the karaoke place ... I wonder if he saw my make up ????

Listened to the music ... we, the hashers, sang "dancing queen" from Abba (hmmm, wonder if I was still wearing make up) ... and finally around 1-2 am (I think) we made it home safe and sound.

Today (Sunday) I was invited to a BBQ ... so after several more hours of packing of personal items (remember, the packers come tomorrow) I went to the BBQ ... met some nice folks ... and some were hashers ... even got a gift that was for Decy ... which I put in my suitcase.

I think my "date card" is now full.  Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday got filled in over the weekend ... which were the only open days ... as of Friday last week.

In closing ... family, friends, and God ... (not in that order of priority) is all we really have in this world.  Hold on to all of them. Love them with all your heart .... reach out ... touch somebody.

ciao ciao

Ignorance infuriates me.

Let it all out (get it all out)
Rip it out, remove it
Don't be alarmed when the wound begins to bleed
Cuz we're so scared to find out (what this life's all about)
So scared we're gonna lose it
And knowing all along that's exactly what we need

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow upon hearing what I did,
I'll stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me! ...crying out for consistency

And You said, "I know that this will hurt,
but if I don't break your heart, things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember...
The end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

And I'll let it be known (times I have shown)
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me, there is strength

And You'd promise me, that You believe
In time I will defeat this
'cuz somewhere in me there is strength

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
I'll try my best to just forget that that man isn't me

And You said, "I know that this will hurt,
but if I don't break your heart, things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember...
The end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

Reach out to me, make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for You...for You...

And you know, and you know
When You touched my heavy heart, you made it light.

So I was thinking of ways I could delay doing school stuff and I thought "I don't have a phusebox. What better time to make one?" And I got on and within 2 minutes had one. =] anyone wanna help me figure out my way 'round?

So I was thinking of ways I could delay doing school stuff and I thought "I don't have a phusebox. What better time to make one?" And I got on and within 2 minutes had one. =] anyone wanna help me figure out my way 'round?

Haven't updated in a few days. Since my last update... the rest of my family arrived. We have gone to the beach twice, Went shopping on the boardwalk. We went on a whale watch and saw a pod of thirty to forty dolphins that were jumping all over the place, and yesterday we went sailing on a fifty footer... I had the helm for most of the trip so that was very cool. Raining today, but there is no room to complain since this is the first bad weather that we have gotton since J&J got here three weeks ago. Got my flight for the trip back, I should be back in the boro somtime thursday night. Once I get home life gets busy again. I have to move into my new apartment, catch up on work, and then MTSU starts on the 28th. Life...

my sister is moving today to go back to college...so that means no more computer for me for about a few months...so this is the last day i will be on the computer for a long time *tear* so leave me some remarks and i will get back to you..eventually..bye for now but i'll be back later....................

It's miserable today. Rainy. Overcast. Windy. Nasty. That means no beach. :-(   I don't think we're going to do anything today. I'm hoping that we are going to go ice skating, but I don't think we're going to. Oh well. I get to hang out with my cool family. Have fun at church everyone!

GUESS WHAT?!?

my stomache is bothering me....grrrrrrrrrrrr

So these past couple of weeks have been absolutly horrible for me in the order of sleep.....of the last 2 weeks I haven't been to sleep before 4 and that was yesterday when that happened .........before that I had gotten to see the sunrise more times in a row then ever in my life.....in other words I didn't get to sleep till around 6 or 7........but yea I would have to say insomnia sucks.......I am actually tired enough now that I might actually go to sleep here soon......anyways peace out bye bye

school is back, isnt that a blast.

remembering things, growing up from the past.

this year will be tight, i guarantee

who is the flyest rapper of all?       me!!!

BOOBAH

'this just might hurt a little
love hurts sometime when you do it right
don't be afraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is on the other side
let your guard down just a little
I'll keep you safe in these arms tonight
hold onto me pretty baby
and you will see i can be all you need
won't you stay, stay'--john legend

I start school on Monday and I am so excited about starting, but at the same time so nervous. I love my suite and I can not wait to move in and have a great year with these girls. My suite consistes of, Me, Brittney Martin( my roomate), Rachael Bell, Brittany Barrett, Brittni Miller, Niki Guilden, and Pagie Hopkensburger( she is not from TN). I can not wait to see also what God has in store for my this year.

I hope that everyone has a Great year and Let God use you in whatever way he wants too.

  band is going swell.  
  school is going okay too.  
  but there is one thing i need to say to a certain someone.  
  i just dont know how he'd react.  
  or what he'd say.  
  but i dont want to spend a forever regretting not saying anything. 

  ...  

  today the trees called out your name. they wanted to know why you were so sad. i wanted to tell them but i didnt know either. you keep to yourself these days and no one knows why. his voice is still in my head and not leaving anytime soon so when the rain comes to your door come meet me outside and we can let the rain run her fingers through our hair and let the music steal our hearts. you dont need to understand how or why, just for onece let the music take control. one. two. three. one. two. three. let your feet do the talking. this runs through your veins. dont ever let the music die. 

so im like a goddess right now. i switch my shampoo type, not brand but type. cause i have a skin condition on my head (exima o something like that-- not dandruff) and so im tired of dry nasy hair..

so i switched. and now, i have the goddess hair of lust and desire.... like sexy hot kitchen sex with multiple orgasms...

what can i say..? i love my hair. (:

the color of my soul

Your soul is red. You like watching things suffer. You have a special affinity for fire

yule ball outfit

BF-Draco
Yule Ball Date-Draco
Yule Ball Dress-Black
Name-Becca Parson

*How U Met*

You were signing up for the Holiday list on who was leaving Hogwarts for Christmas. You where going on a trip to Jamaca with your family. Well being the nosiy person Draco is he found out where you were going and decided to follow u. So he put his name on the list, not telling his mother of course. So you went to Jamaca and he followed u. When you got there you checked into a muggle hotel and Draco did to. In fact he checked into the same one. So while the rest of your family went sightseeing you stayed at the hotel to watch t.v. When you hear a knock on the door. Wondering who it could be you get up to open the door. You see Draco Malfoy standing the door way. You are in shock so u drop the remote and kinda stand there with ur mouth open. When he sees the look on your face he smiles and asks you to be his girlfriend. You had had a crush on him ever since Harry turned you down. So u told him yes and asked him to come in. From that day on u guys have been closer than ever.

*lightsaber sound* you lucky jedi you! your ideal hottie is Anikin skywalker (yay Star Wars) padmae who?

You can come into college with your ideals, but what happens when they are put to the test?  The very foundations of personality are shaken. I envy that atmosphere with Christianity labeled all around.  A good friend told me how their orientation was so uplifitng and spiritual--well i'm stuck with the secular and vulgar. But then again, I was eager to leave the clausterphobic of that same atmosphere. BUT SCRATCH ALL WHAT I JUST SAID.

The truth is we are placed in environments exactly where  we need to be.  Oh you can say that such and such was too much of a bad environment, but doesn't the very Word itself tell us that nothing is too strong for us? 

Do not apologize for the things that you are not able AND willing to change, else you will have "apologized" so in vain.

So school is back in session....don't ya love it.  Well the only new thing that is going on around here is the new website that we finally lauched right on time!  The new website is up and running at http://www.diversionyouth.com.

If you have a testiomonial to put on the right-hand bottom corner of the homepage for the website, please send them to Brandon Ray.