苏老太爷钓鱼
    苏老太爷今年七十八，自从退休到现在已有十八个年头。人们都说苏老太爷退休后人变了很多。讲话少了，不象以前那样大嗓门了；待人和蔼又亲切，不象以前那样急性子了；人们常见苏老太爷一个人带着钓具，骑着自行车去郊外的一条小溪钓鱼，说苏老太爷变老实了，不象以前那样东奔西跑了。人们看了都说是钓鱼熏陶了老太爷的情操。可是苏老太太却时常对他念叨，每次他钓鱼回来不免要说他两句。因为苏老太太总见他每次带着鱼杆出去，却从来不见他钓着鱼回来。一开始，她是念叨他钓鱼的技术太差，还学人家老来学潇洒。苏老太爷点了点头笑了笑，只是不答。后来，苏老太太开始觉得奇怪，说“我看你不像是去钓鱼……”苏老太爷依然笑着，心里像是藏着秘密：“你看我提着些个家伙工具，不是去钓鱼是干啥？”。再后来，苏老太太象年轻姑娘吃起了醋说：“你八成是放着鱼杆不注意，一门心思地想钓着美人鱼！”苏老太爷笑着回她说：“是啊，美人鱼，别的鱼我都看不上。”苏老太太说他变得不老实了。苏老太太没辄，只好任由他去。
    所以，苏老太爷依然经常一个人去垂钓。要去那条小溪要穿过一片小树林，林间有条小路，两旁是青翠的苍松。稍有微风，便沙沙做响。一个人从那走过时，却常常要毛骨悚然。因为时常会有些小毛虫咬着自己的虫丝，从松枝上倒挂下来，闪现在你的眼前。再加上那沙沙的风吹松树声，会让人不由自主地想到，这条路的两旁除了这可恶的毛虫外，也许还有野兽、蟒蛇……。但这段林荫小路也不长，约摸骑上两三分钟的自行车，在快到尽头的时候，便有一条小溪。小溪阶梯式的分为三层，溪水从这层流下另一层，常常产生些烟雾，使她更生了些神秘的色彩。苏老太爷第一次于偶然间发现这个地方后，便感慨叹道：“也许蓬莱仙境也不过如此！”自此，他便爱上了这里，爱上了在水中摇曳的水藻，爱上了在莲叶下戏耍的小鱼，爱上了在清风和日时的垂钓观鱼，爱上了细雨轻雾下的沉思……。
    有时他看着水里悠游的鱼，便想到了老伴。老伴是个佛教徒，常于各位佛主生日或是去朝拜时，到市场去买两条鱼去庙里放生池里放生。他常常因此暗自叹笑，因为他觉得把鱼放生到放生池中，无非是花了几个银子把本该死刑的囚犯改判为终生监禁，而囚犯的日子则由死变为无期的等死。生是生了，可是自由仍然无处着落。他觉得这只不过是演给佛主看的一出戏，一个人如果本性不善，即使放生再多也是徒劳，在最后的审判面前，仍需面对最残酷的惩罚。他把这个想法对老伴讲过，苏老太太则反驳他说，既然不信佛，哪懂得这个中的道理。有时他陪老伴去上香，当他看到放生池中拥挤的龟鱼，不免心生伤感。人不也是上帝放生到这个世界的生物吗？上帝用他的神力，把我们这些前世有罪的人改判为终生监禁。上帝是让我们来赎罪吗？还是让我们来积德？想着自己的大半辈子，都为着生活到处奔波，终日忙碌。今到了落日将西沉的年岁了，终究自己给自己留下了什么？不免心生遗憾。然而，这一切不也有着命运的不得已吗？回想当年为着生活，顺从命运背弃理想，这难道是自己的错？那些年被生活压迫得喘不过气，终日为着生计忙碌，虽然有个很爱自己的妻子，也有个很懂事的女儿，可是他却无暇去感觉自己的存在，无暇去呼吸一口自由的空气。等到现在放下了所有的担子，儿孙们也都事业有成，敬老孝顺，可自己却已成了个等待生命丧钟的老者。也唯有在溪边静钓，呼吸到大自然的气息时，他才会想想自己，想想人生，才发现原来以前的日子是一片空白。他羡慕溪中鱼儿在这片自然里自由的呼吸，自由的悠游。所以苏老太爷时常自己一个人来这里钓鱼。
    后来，有人发现到苏老太爷钓鱼不放鱼饵，学着姜太公钓鱼。这条消息不胫而走，人们都说，苏老太爷可能得了老年痴呆。
    有一天，苏老太爷提着一条挺好看的红鲤鱼回家，笑着对老伴说：“美人鱼钓回来了。”苏老太太高兴得不得了。他还告诉她说他今日看到了溪中的莲花都开了，有粉红、桃红、浅黄、紫金等各色各样，还有一朵出水的并蒂莲。
    那夜，苏老太爷紧紧握着苏老太太的手，安然入睡了。他梦见自己化做了小溪里的一条红鲤鱼，在盛开的并蒂莲下戏游……。
    第二天，苏老太太发现苏老太爷浑身已经僵硬了，脸上挂着幸福的笑容。
                           
                                            2006年5月9日23时于厦门中山路和凤街45号住所

                      南方姑娘
    北方地广，多为平原。所以，北方人心性多为开阔，说话也多是一根肠子通到底。北方的汉子喜欢耿直的坦诚。
    南方多山，山水蜿蜒。所以，山水里长大的南方人心里自然要多了几道弯，说话喜欢拐来绕去。南方姑娘喜欢委婉的温柔。
  一天，北方汉子遇上了南方姑娘。南方姑娘生得美丽，汪汪的双眼中透露着无限的伤感，如同南方雨后的小清泉，流趟着清澈与无限的温柔。
  北方汉子心里喜欢，却又不敢说，毕竟他们的相见也才二十分钟，相识算来也不过一个星期多，但那二十分钟不死的时光，却时时萦绕在北方汉子的心间。在朋友们的劝说下，北方汉子终于鼓起了勇气。在一个天很高、星星很多的夜晚决定要对南方姑娘表白……
  "我想跟你好。"在与南方姑娘良久无语，心里七上八下了一阵之后，北方汉子终于说了出来。
   "啪！"一个巴掌落在北方汉子的脸上。
   "色狼！"



                                 2006年5月6日于从榕回厦高速路车内17时许

                     色
  想来已久的那一个字那一天又在耳根旁响起了。在一个书店里，一个和尚正在张爱玲的书柜前流连，身旁一个女子再三投向好奇的目光，带着不屑的眼神，吐出一个"色"字，在和尚的耳旁。我站的位置离和尚较远，那女子离和尚较近，我且听得如此明白清楚，想必那和尚的耳根定会似受了个晴天的霹雳，该会羞赧得直想挖个地洞砖下。然而他既不念"阿弥"，也不做"罪过"，仍然平静地翻阅张爱玲的小说。
  佛说"色即是空，空即是色。"我看这个"色"字不能单解为好色的"色"，而当解为众生之无穷欲。有欲即有色于心。然而所有欲望到头来终是空，故佛说"色即是空"。众生奉此为真理，尝试过的累了的人便试图达到"空"的境界。似乎不被名利缠身便可脱离"色"之苦海，达到"无色"的彼岸。可谁想过，想做到"无色"其实也是一种欲望，一种"色"。故而佛说"空即是色"，色色空空，空空色色，如此，如此。
  和尚尚泰然自若，心如明镜，"色"字不惑。你我岂如哉？而他身旁的我那时却已动"色"心，因我当时确想知道和尚听到女子鄙夷的"色"字后，作何反应。
  我想，要是我能做到和尚那样"无色无空"，那该多好。
  看，我又动了"色"心了！

                     2006.4.14晚于厦门中山路和凤街住所

case


motherboard

ram


processor


video card (on The wait list :)

myspace.. or facebook..

Why does everything have to be so complicated and so confusing at the same time?

stuff is pretty crazy right now

i got accepted into mississippi state university

and....i got a scholarship from there. yay!

so thats exciting.

and then theres senior year which is like a roller coaster.

craaazy. haha

It's really a funny quirk of human nature that we allow little, insignificant events to control our emotions and completely make or break our day.


Make it, in my case.

: ]

i want to scream and break something.

and possibly throw in a long string of obscenities.

or just jump from my window.

if i had a roommate, i would totally kill him for the free 4.0 right about now . . .

i think you should give me a hug.

That's all.  Nobody seems to read this anyway.

Smyrna won the state championship.

And the Titans beat the Colts by kicking a 60 yard field goal.

I love the stuff.

Okay, so what does everybody want for Christmas?

I saw the Lion King on stage at TPAC last night.  I knew I was in for a great show when I teared up during the opening number - the sheer beauty of the set, the costumes, the music, the harmony of the voices...it all got to me.  Anyway, the cast just kept delivering on every song, every line; it was so fabulous, I want to go back and see it again tonight.  But I can't.

Anyway, I enjoyed myself, and I want to say that, if you ever get a chance to see it, SEE IT!  Seriously...I've never recommended  stage performance as strongly as this one.

well last night went to nashville. ate at eddie george's bar and grille. then went to the honkey game...it wa a lot of fun^^ it was cool i love watching honkey game...the preds lost by one point..they had to go to overtime...thats when they lost>< lol well i am bored soo i am out

very proud of my OHS kids at midstate today

i didnt make it

o well

much love

well if you have talked to me in a while you know i dont wanna work at one of my dads restraunts. well... i ended up doing just that. im now the chips cheesedip and salsa guy. so just show up when im workin and you can probably get some free cheesedip. 

So yeah.

I PLACED FIRST CHAIR FIRST BAND on TWO INSTRUMENTS today at Mid-state.

I'm so EXCITED!

For the rest of the results, check out www.mtsboa.org and look for Oakland people.

Danny

I am contemplating whether to write just another blog entry or to bare out my soul to you tonight.

I guess I'll shoot for a happy medium.

I've noticed lately how we never want to tell people how we're really doing. How many days does this happen to you?
Friend: Hey! How are you?
You: I'm good! How about you?
Friend: I'm doing well! Well, I'll see you later!
You: See ya!
You think for a moment as you walk away, and then realize... "Who am I kidding? I'm not ok."

But really, how else are we supposed to approach these greetings in passing? I mean, honestly, what would you do if you walked by someone at school or church or work and, when you asked how they were doing, they turn said, "Pretty lousy"? We're not very honest with our feelings.

I don't think we're neccessarily supposed to share everything on our hearts and minds though. But we should at least not be afraid of what people would think if they knew we weren't really feeling all that ok. It's not like everyone else hasn't been not ok from time to time. We all have our low moments. But it seems to me that we all put on this front that we have it all together... that we're not just ok but that life is great and wonderful.

Anyhow, I say all that to tell you that my life is not all happy and rosey right now, but it's also not so horrible either. On Wednesday night I encountered God in a way that was long overdue and it was healing. I have a lot going on at school now which is never fun, but I'm trusting God to get me through it all. Last night I had these great plans that didn't go exactly as well as I hoped, but there was no real great loss in the scheme of things. As it has been for the past few years lately, I'm learning a lot these days.

Anyhow, in other news, I went and saw an opthomologist about my eye. He asked me questions and looked at from various angles but to no avail, he sees no problem. So, I guess that's good news, but I would still like to have the secret formula to make my slightly swollen eyelid go away. Whatever. I'm wearing contacts again and that makes me happy.

is over. but they won't post the people who made it for horn. and i'm getting frusterated.

so wow. long time no post...

lot's has happened since November 18th. i made 3rd chair All-State in 2nd Alto (wooooot!), and all the glory goes to God for that one (along with everything else i've ever been able to do that is good), because He's the one who enabled me to do it, and i thank Him so much!!!! DBS Initiation was Monday night, and was great, although it took way too long. congrats to all you new members!!!

i started going to my small groups, and de-ang, it's amazing...i love my small group like a fat kid love cake. i also looooooove my Sunday School class...ms. rhonda and ms. wendy are just possibly the coolest women in the world ( after my mom and Ms. Donna...)

formal is coming up soon, and hopefully the person i asked will be able to go with me...cause it would be extra sad if he didn't...

school is most definitely kicking my bum...but God has been very merciful in helping my teachers to chill out and helping me to understand most of my work...except chemistry...thank goodness i don't want to be a doctor anymore...gahlee...

i went on a college visit to University of Memphis and Rhodes College on Thursday. U of M was okay...but Rhodes was a-mazing. i wish i could post the pix i took....omgosh...i would love to go there...problem is, it costs $36,000 a year...so no Rhodes for Cari....oh well. i'll be content with wherever God sticks me.

so what have i been learning lately? God has really be teaching me about having freedom in Him...how we are no longer slaves to sin, but slaves to righteousness...and that's not to say that we should try to be perfect or focus on works, because being perfect is impossible and works don't save....but just realizing that we can say no to Satan, and resist temptation. and yes, i fail on a regular basis. especially where my mouth is concerned. but it's so cool to see how God can change my heart when i am willing and i ask Him to. also, i started reading the book Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge, and it is awesome. i just feel so much more confident, but not in that, i don't need a man to complete me because i'm a modern amazon-woman (hear me roar)...i just mean that, i feel like i can wait for exactly the right person to come along, and in the mean time, i don't have to worry about it. i can totally focus my energies on God because that's where He wants them to be. cool beans.

everybody needs to come to my mom's concert tomorrow night, Sunday, December 3rd, 2006 @ 6:00 PM @ Belle Aire Baptist's sanctuary. i'll be singing in it as well! woot!

also....DECEMBER 7TH IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! and i'm not even doing anything...bah-humbug....hah...kidding. i'm just layin low this year...like every year. ha. well, i gotta go ya'll. much love---Cari

Well, I got one friend back, so that's good.  And my roommate is living down the hall because he's "allergic to the mold" in my room.  There's no mold.  It's that he hasn't done his laundry from soccer in two months, and when he moved it onto his bed during the flood, he caught a whiff of it and it funked up his system.  How do I know this?  When talking to a friend the other night, I sat on his bed, and in less than 30 seconds, I was sneezing, my eyes were watering, and my head hurt.  I don't think it's mold, but what do I know?

Hey y'all GAH I am so bored I havnt been to church in a LONG time and I miss it O soo much!!its SAD!!well leave messages and comments!!I went to see Christmas lights with Kyle last night I had SOO much fun!!

<3 ya

Man I have been so sick. When I left school I went to bed at 1 and woke up at 5 then I ate and went back to bed at 7 now here I am still caughing and wishing that I was not sick.

Friday did not go as planned.  At about 10am a panicked Indonesian employee came into my office.  We had an intruder in the building, in the office area.  The guy (an American) was freaking out and needed to talk to another American.  I was the selected one.  A thousand thoughts raced through my mind .... safety, security, life, death.  No amount of training really prepares you for these kinds of events.

Due to the sensitivity of the situation, I can't go into a lot of details.  Let me just say that "Bob" (not his real name) was in a stake of panic / schizophrenia. Bob was convinced somebody was trying to kill him and had gone absolutely ballistic.  After hours of talking to him, I learned quite a bit about Bob.  Eventually we were able to calm him down enough to get him into a car and delivered to a counsellor at the US Embassy.

There were many false starts with Bob ... and it took about 5 attempts to get him to the car where we had three security officers (our company's) escorted him.  I did not go to the US Embassy but I understand that he tried grabbing the wheel of the car and almost caused a wreck.  Thankfully, thanks to God, we were able to get him safely delivered and nobody in our office got hurt.  Bob left our premises at 2pm.

At one point Bob asked me if I could guarantee his safety for the trip to the Embassy.  I told him I could not.  I told him that I was only a man ... but God could protect him.

Bob's story is a sad story.  A story about a young teenage boy that made bad decisions in his life - cleaned up his life for 9 years - then started making bad decisions again.  He is probably in his early 30s now.  His life is ruined.  He cannot stay in Indonesia ... and chances are he will face some jail time if the Embassy helps him back to the US.

I do not know what Bob is doing today.  I don't know if he is ok ... dead ... alive ... in Indonesia ... or on his way back to the US.  I gave him my business card with an email addy on it.  Maybe someday I will learn.

For those of you reading this ... pray for "Bob".  And, when you do ... also ask God to give you strength to make good decisions every day ... and don't forget to thank God for the things He has done for you.  And one last thing, ask God to help me ... I'm still pretty shaken up about the situation.  I don't know if Bob had a weapon on him or not ... but if he did ... I would have been the closest person.  Thank God nobody was hurt in our office.

...

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    说来也巧，有一年的圣瓦伦丁节正巧碰上周末，同往年一样，餐厅里，江滨上,公园里,寺庙中……处处可见情侣双双对对，情意绵绵。

    那儿有个青年，单身。他有个奶奶，年已过花甲。他周末时常陪她去散步，绿荫小道或是池塘边。这一天，正是一年难得好天气，如同往常，他又陪着他奶奶去散步，从江滨到公园。他们走得很慢，手牵着手。那道旁榆树下一对情侣正缠绵，忽然女的抬头说："瞧那边那一对……，那老太太一定是个有钱的主！"她身旁的男子应声道："喏。"他们依然走着，谈着，笑着。老奶奶向他讲述了许多在岁月中沉淀了的往事和许多做人的道理,青年则静静地听，静静地想。

他们就这样从江滨走到公园，再从公园走到寺庙。老太太是个虔诚的佛门弟子，是在家持五戒的优婆夷。他不知道今天是纪念圣瓦伦丁的日子，也没注意到身旁多少年轻男女在为自己的幸福祈祷。她跪于佛前，为这个已到婚嫁年龄的小伙子祷告。

    佛说种善因者得善果。不久后她奶奶离世了，习惯于散步沉思的他仍不时地出来江滨走走，亲近自然的各种恩舍，静觅老人昔日留下的脚印。后来也在一个圣瓦伦丁节时，他独自漫步在绿荫小道时，遇上了一个愿与他相守一生的女子。

    从此，晨曦榆树下，他不再是孤独的一人，她与他手牵着手。他向他讲述了故去的奶奶，讲述她的故事，她的道理。情人节时，他会送上一枝不加修饰的红玫瑰，那是他奶奶生前种的品种，奶奶叫他以后遇上喜欢的人，便摘下来送去，送去她留下的祝福。

    后来，他们便心连着心，一起走过了人生的许多风风雨雨，可是她没能陪他一起走到生命的尽头，她先他而去了。他们有个女儿，女儿又有了个女儿，他此时已是年过花甲了，他还是喜欢散步、沉思与怀念。

    又一个圣瓦伦丁的日子里，牵着他的手的人是他的外孙女。他们走着、笑着、谈着。他给她讲述了许多沉淀在岁月里的往事和做人的道理。她则默默地听，听到不懂时，才露出疑惑的眼神路边榆树下一对情侣正缠绵，忽然女的抬头说："瞧那边那一对……，那老头一定是个有钱的主!"

However, I don't know who that person is. We all went out to Chattanooga tonight and while we were gone someone hit the side of my car. They left a dent and took some of the paint off. Of course they drove away leaving no information or anything of that nature. So now I get to deal with that...

first pep band thinggy.

hung out with ms wick and we had a wonderful time talking about loads of things

tomorrow is MID-STATE!!!!!!

im pumped and oh so ready


here to all you band kids who have auditions tomorrow

♥ my best goes out to you ♥

Iono lately I have been feeling like I need something to take care of. To have something to depend on me. And no don’t think about me getting a pet. This feeling is bigger than taking care of a cat (that’s what I have). For a while I have thinking about a baby. I know I’m crazy for wanting on so young. But I’m thinking about me in the long run. I’m pretty close to ugly. I just don’t consider myself attractive due to the experiences I have with men/ boys.

I attract users. Maybe I am too trusting. Then I think I should have never left Super F. At first he made me feel like I was one of the skinny girls. I guess at things got comfortable he started to change. Then I decided it was time to leave (which my mother said was a bad decision and I semi agree). Then I met Osita (ß not the real name . I gave him that cuz he acts like a pussy sometimes). I think I took to him because I had Super F for so long and I don’t like sleeping alone L . Osita in a way was giving me all the things that I was getting from Super F. Osita is how Super F was in the beginning x2. Then the pussy was getting to me so I had to cut off Osita. I met Kricket (this boy looks like he‘s about 12 but he’s 21 and ripped as hell -drools- ). I don’t think I should even count him cuz we just fucked around.

_____________________***will ***finish***later***_______________________

Peace and heart

<3 Keele

Keele

Date: 11-28-06   Time: 1:51 pm

I have another troubling** complex.. Men.. (which are really boys in grownup bodies). I always wonder why they like toying with you. Emotionally. Physically (that sometimes can be fun hehehe 9:) ). Mentally.

I just don’t understand why people like to mess with you on that level. Especially when they know that you are a trusting person and they just fuck with you until you want to quit. Until you cant take it anymore and want to bust the fuck out (in a relationship I have never been to that extreme but with people sometimes I wish crime was legal for 5 minutes).

Sometimes I also consider that it is my fault as well. Because I like to mess back and I also provoke some shit that happened like 3 months ago just to see the other mad. I don’t know why I like to make people annoyed…. Ohhh yeh I do it started with “The Man” a.k.a. “Super F”. He would get so cute when he was mad/ annoyed. It made me purr. He was sexy when he was mad…. Oooh and when we’d fight… then came the make up sex =^__^= MEEEOWW!!

Okok I think now we have found the root of the problem: ME. Now I don’t even know why I started this rant..

Peace and heart.

<3

Keele

*_^ *_^ *_^ *_^ *_^ *_^ *_^ *_^ *_^ *_^

Men are still little boys!!!

Date: 11-26-06   Time: 8:06 pm

I just don’t understand why people have to be non-listening? Why is it? Do they figure that they know everything that there is to know about certain things? Shit I don’t think so. See I have a friend that has been a great friend to me ever since we have been amigas (which has been a while but that’s a different story). All I’m trying to do is be a good friend and she isn’t letting me. Ok I think it would be better if I explain the situation just a little bit…. Ok long story short…

She got pregnant by a nameless man (we will dub him “Sperm Donor”). They decided with the council of her mother (I think I‘m not to sure about that part) to get married for the sake of the unborn babe. Then they are together for 2 year with the ups and downs of a married couple. Duuur-dur-duur! All is happy go lucky… whoopee whoopee. I know this chick for about (guesstamation here) 7 months and she starts talk about how Sperm Donor is starting to change… not acting the way that he used to-- all sweet then just to blah (like I mentioned before my then boyfriend was acting the same way). Don’t you hate it when people change for the bad? Anywho she was feeling distant from him… I think that brings us up to date.

Lol! That was a “long story short”. I got a little carried away. q---^__^---p Hug to make up for it?

Well they were arguing a lot about money… well mostly how she was spending “his” money. à Iono what that’s got to do with anything.

Well she left him cuz she told him her true feelings. I thought he was going to flip out but she said he didn’t (I heart her like a sister and if he ever EVER raises a hand to her I will WILL cut his dick off and feed it to him between 2 slices of rye bread). She said that he started beating himself then started talking crazy to her (i.e. “when I first knew that you were pregnant I was going to leave you”). I was like: >:O!! Then I was like: >=| grrrrrrr!! But what can you do? She was doing bueno for herself… got another job and was talking to another man. Life was going good… until people started to get in her head. Once again long story short…

She’s with a man she don’t love to make the “right” decision for the son. But I tried to tell her that it isn’t in the long run. Plus Sperm Donor thinks he has control over her because she can back to him. And I can sense something is going to happen my feels are usually (96%) not wrong especially when it comes to something bad. I DONT want anything to happen to her or the boy. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life in a 10 x 5 cell counting days till evaluation day. But if I have to I will. That motherfucker won’t see another day. Oh shit my blood pressure is up. I need to calm down.

Shit people need to listen to advice… Yes yes yes I know that there is a lot of bad advice but most of its good. But what’s the point of making a relationship work when you aren’t happy and there only a one sided love?

Shit people need to listen to advice… Yes yes yes I know that there is a lot of bad advice but most of its good. But what’s the point of making a relationship work when you aren’t happy and there only a one sided love?

Well enough of this… I will just sit back and watch this unfold. And when what I have predicted happens I will stand by as “the good friend”.

Peace up A-town down (even though I‘m not from there or been there. I like to say that).

<3 Keele

Keele

Date: 11-26-06   Time: 1:14 am

if it seems like i'm posting a lot of entries this is why: 

i dont have the net at my apt so i write my thoughts in word. then when i get time i go to moms and post them. so i will write the actual date and time i finished them. 

ok ciao.

<3 keele

2 weeks... aka... 14 days until my 18th birthday 

ALL GUYS:

1. why would you call your girlfriend and then not talk to her?
2. why would you not call your girlfriend to tell her you are/aren't going to see her today? instead you just leave her to wonder and hope that you're coming over.

GAH DAMNIT. I get pissed at him too easily.

JANUARY



1. Who kissed you on new years?
ginger?  ok so maybe she bit me....



2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?


Nope.



3. Does it snow where you live?

yep..and it fun!



4. Do you like hot chocolate?


luke warm chocolate.....yes.



5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?


no but i went with chorus!!  in may



FEBRUARY



1. Who was your Valentine?

me!



2. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?
yep

3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?


not really



MARCH



1. Are you Irish?

a little bit



2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?

generally no....



3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2006?


uh?  class?



4. Did you get drunk?


no



5. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?


uh.......sure



APRIL



1. Do you like the rain?

yep



2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?

dont remember



3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?
probably...well...not tons....cuz the easter bunny knows i dont eat a lot of candy



4. Do you celebrate 4/20?
uh.............no
 
5. Do you love the month of April?
  why not?



MAY



1. What is your favorite flower?

raindrops on roses......and now i wanna sing....



2. Do you like the spring?

other than the sinus infection.....yes



3. Finish the phrase "April showers":


brings may flowers!!!!



4. What is the first color you think of when you think of Spring?
pink



JUNE



1. What year did/will you graduate from highschool?


2005



2. Did you do anything fun during this month?

um.......probably



JULY



1. What did you do on the Fourth of July?

3 days til disney world!!!!


2. Did you go on any vacations during this month?

DISNEY WORLD!!!!!!!!



3. Do you blast the A/C all day?

uh..........i dont know



AUGUST



1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer?

um......ice cream?



2. What was your favorite summer memory of '06?

DISNEY WORLD!!!!!



3. Did you have a sunburn?


Nope.



4. Do you go to the beach a lot?

nope

SEPTEMBER



1. Did you attend school/college in '06?


Yep



2. Who is your favorite teacher?

Mrs. Cox!!!!!!!



3. Do you like fall better then summer?
no....fall involves a sinus infection



OCTOBER



1. What was your favorite Halloween costume?
 
the singer!!



2. What is your favorite candy?
reeses



3.What did you dress up as this year?

minnie mouse



NOVEMBER



1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?

mine



2. Do you love stuffing?


not really


3. What are you thankful for?
friends, family, music, and a bunch of other stuff



DECEMBER



1. Do you celebrate Christmas?

YEAH!!!



2. What is December 1st, 2006?


today



3. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?


nope



4. Get anything special last year?


VCR to tape 24!



5. What do you want this year?

tower of terror!



6. Do you like cold weather?
yup...cuz you go skating!!!

So why is it when you really want to do something really bad you end up getting sick??

Yeah I was all excited about going camping and backpacking this weekend and I woke up sick this morning...UGH.

finally, i've come to realize, actually, i've realized this a while back. but i've realized just how cool, (but sometimes uncool) the editorial staff for the school newspaper can be. today the editorial collumn talked about how much fergi sucks, and how the student goverment doesnt have any common sense. earlier this week they talked about how ipods are and have been and will be the pit fall of humanity. they have actually written many articles on this. and some of my friends know that i've actually been preaching that for a while my self. haha.

anyways, i've gotta go study for my spanish oral interview. should be interesting. but i have about...4 to 5 hours to study for it. oh ya, and my roommate has the flu. we think. so that sucks. i hope i dont get sick.

piece

Who is the maker of empty promises,
And whose love is that of fair condition?
I'm betting your premonition's correct,

For I will fail you in apathetic terms
With regards from hell to your pompous
Piety to think you could help me.
I can barely help myself.

yesterday during drill practice for jrotc i was going up to right sholder arms and The bolt on my M1 rifle hit me in the eye the eye blead* for a while then this morning i woke up with a black eye

My play went SO well tonight! Oh, I was so excited. The crowd was awesome. It was the best we'd ever done it. I was so glad when it was over. I'll miss Lucy, but she will always be a part of me now. All the characters I have played are a part of me still. I love them dearly, even if I don't like some of them.
My director, Jocelyn, came backstage when it was over and jumped up and down almost squealing, she was so happy. She kept encouraging us beforehand, but I think part of it was her being nervous. It is over, but it was a great experience. ::sigh:: So happy...

And so much less sick!

As I was changing out of my costume (we still had to strike and set for the other three plays that night), I was praising God like mad. Beforehand, I was praying for strength in a British accent. I am not sure if I prayed as a Brit after or not. Oh well...

Good times!

JANUARY


1. Who kissed you on new years?
I'll never tell


2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?

Nope.


3. Does it snow where you live?

Mostly it just rains here... a few flurries... and hail... it likes to hail


4. Do you like hot chocolate?

yes.


5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?

- nope


FEBRUARY


1. Who was your Valentine?

Didn't really have one


2. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?
 heck yeah

3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?

YES!


MARCH


1. Are you Irish?

a little... kiss me anyway?


2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?

Yep ;)


3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2006?

Class?


4. Did you get drunk?

Nah


5. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?

yep!


APRIL


1. Do you like the rain?

Only when I can play in it.


2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?

yeh... good times!


3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?

YES! The Easter Bunny still visits my house! haha


4. Do you celebrate 4/20?
no
 
5. Do you love the month of April?
   SURE! haha


MAY


1. What is your favorite flower?

Gerber daisies


2. Do you like the spring?

Pretty flowerrs blooming, of COURSE!


3. Finish the phrase "April showers":

brings may flowers!!!!


4. What is the first color you think of when you think of Spring?
green


JUNE


1. What year did/will you graduate from highschool?

2005


2. Did you do anything fun during this month?

the beach!


JULY


1. What did you do on the Fourth of July?

er.... worked....eventually visited brent to see the fireworks extravaganza


2. Did you go on any vacations during this month?

maybe?


3. Do you blast the A/C all day?

In my house only my father touches the temperature controls


AUGUST


1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer?

er....no...well slt retreat?


2. What was your favorite summer memory of '06?

down at the farm playing in the creek w/ my boy


3. Did you have a sunburn?

Nope.


4. Do you go to the beach a lot?

No time this summer...

SEPTEMBER


1. Did you attend school/college in '06?

Yes


2. Who is your favorite teacher?

Franklin!


3. Do you like fall better then summer?

Depends on my mood


OCTOBER


1. What was your favorite Halloween costume?
 
me as a pirate!!!(hahaha)


2. What is your favorite candy?
  the candy pumpkins.


3.What did you dress up as this year?

Didn't... I had class that night. :(


NOVEMBER


1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving?

somewhere in east tn


2. Do you love stuffing?

kinda

3. What are you thankful for?

Family, Friends, LIFE


DECEMBER


1. Do you celebrate Christmas?

SURE DO!


2. What is December 1st, 2006?

Tomorrow


3. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?

nope


4. Get anything special last year?

diamonds!


5. What do you want this year?

my family


6. Do you like cold weather?
sometimes

Teams set up, roles assigned. I'm unhappy, but I'll survive.

Anyway I worked really hard all semester, relearning rules and writing stuff out, and I get taken off the attorney table and put as a witness. Not that there is anything wrong with being a witness just that I hate it. And I pretty much suck as a witness. I'm now the owner of the bar.

Dani, you are on my team, with DeSab, Kortney, Ryan, Sarah, Logan, and Natalie. They have given you Tony Smith as the witness you shall play.

And tommorrow night, I'm gonna go see Nick fight at the Rec center. A bunch of the mockers are going.Yay Nick!!!!

so this whole phusebox thing is starting to get old...

There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It's caused by the absence of you."
~Author Unknown

on dit qu'au delà des mers,

là-bas sous le ciel clair,

il existe une cité

au séjour enchanté

et sous les grands arbres noirs,

chaque soir,

vers elle s'en va tout mon espoir.

j'ai deux amours

mon pays et paris . . .

I got my ACT scores back.

31.

First try.

34 Englsih.  29 Math.  33 Reading.  26 Science.

This had been worrying me for quite some time.

I cried a little when I read it.

I play on the black keys
where i dont have to worry much
its already hard enough
to sing a song about this
some people try the white keys
but the thinkin' hurts my head
so i move back here instead
it comes easier

you know why
you're the one whos on the greivin' end
and just wave goodbye
and wonder if you'll ever breathe again
thats why

i play on the black keys
when it already takes my best
to pretend that this big mess
isn't happenin'
i play on the black keys
so i can close my eyes
try to picture you beside me
singin harmonies
and you know why
one day i will try and explain it all
and if you dont mind
id like some time to try and play it all

if i ever thought it would come to this
the needin' and the bleedin'
then i woulda tried to say it better better
if i ever thought i cherished you
and i mean it yeah i mean it
now i still think youre here
you're pullin in you're pullin in
but you wouldn't know why
because you're the one the one whos on the leavin' end
then you wave goodbye
when you saw me cry would you believe me then

thats why...i...i...i...
and i...i...i...
yeah...i...i...i...

i play on the black keys...yeah

Life has thrown me many curve balls these past 6 months.
and i thought i would share a lesson that i have learned.

Taking something for what it is, doesn't neccessarily make you a better person. You want more, and you know it, but you settle. Oh this one is ok... not as nice as the one i really want , but hey its much less expensive. Or it involves less risk. Well it isn't worth it. I've learned that i will never settle for anything ever again. I've never been able to lie to myself. But i am fully capable of lieing to another person, with absolutely close to zero remorse at all. I took life as it was. Took it with a "what the hell... what could i possibley lose from this?".. Well i lost a lot. I lost 6 whole months of my young life. Nothing too catastrophic i must admit, but still time is of the essence.
I dont regret it. I just know that if the situation was to arise again, i would not grab for it.

over time, i realized what i was missing. But the truth is that familiarity is comfortable and safe, and its a hard thing to abandon. However there comes a timme when reality wakes you up to the dull thud of what could be more. See if i sat in this steady flow of life i would never learn anything. I would never grow emotionally or intellectually. Familiarity is a curse and i damn it to hell.. It takes the best of who we are and pushes it back into a daily routine and life outlook. The adventure is out there but it will ppass us by if we are not ready in stance looking for it. It may take years to recognize. but it is there and i will find it.

I beg you all. Live for yourselves. because in the end that is all you will have left. There may come a time when everything else falls away, but you will still be there. You are alive and because you are you must honor that. Be selfish. be horribley selfish. So what if you hurt some one else's feelings. Their feelings are not worth sacrifices to your Self. of course i dont want you to purposely hurt some one else. But when it comes down to you or them you sure as hell better choose yourself.

I'd never die for anyone but me.
The last frontier is only
the stranger in the mirror that i see.

OMG ya'll!!! I freakin' made the best grades I've ever made in my life today. It was awesome!!!! Time to go celebrate. Talk to ya'll later. 

So I'm going backpacking again this weekend...it might be a little cold, but it will help me to get ready for winter freeze.  And you know what makes me really happy.....

ITS SUPPOSED TO SNOW!!!!!!!!

So I'm really excited but yeah other than that my life is kinda going no where and full of non-existent events...but thats okay....because I know GOD has a reason for everything and everything has a purpose.

Last night we went to Jakarta International School (JIS) to watch the high school celebration of UN Day.  Basically, it was a 1 hour production of music, song, and dance to (obviously) celebrate UN Day.

Various groups preformed pieces that were typical to their home countries ... and wore clothing accordingly.  I don't remember all the pieces ... but I recall pieces from:  India, Korea, China, Japan, Indonesia, Iceland, USA, France, and Singapore.  The HS choir did a song associated with "fences" and Chely was part of that.  She did very well once again.

Well, today is Friday ... TGIF !!!  I have a couple of meetings today and some very important disaster response documentation to continue working on ... so I certainly won't be bored.  But, I am really looking forward to this weekend ... especially having lunch at the Four Seasons ... hope they have an adequate quantity of boiled jumbo shrimp !!!

ciao ciao

I checked out a book in second period today (it's REALLY good, short but good) and I had it back by the beginning of fifth period. Oh yeah, go me!

I'm looking up my family coat of arms out of boredom and it looks really cool. If I can upload a picture of it, I'll put it in here.

I don't have alot to say today, but tomorrow is Friday so that's a plus!

1 Corinthians 15:26-28 (New International Version)

26 The last enemy to be destroyed is death.

27 For he "has put everything under his feet." Now when it says that "everything" has been put under him, it is clear that this does not include God himself, who put everything under Christ.

28 When he has done this, then the Son himself will be made subject to him who put everything under him, so that God may be all in all.

Is this saying that in the End Jesus will give up his place and become simply 100% man and allow God to be sole ruler?
This is just a weird Idea to me as I also think of Jesus as being part of the Trinity forever and nothing ever changing in the order and dominion of heaven.

So the picture has nothing to do with the post today, but it is still awesome. I'm using it as my wallpaper on my computer.

Anyway it's time for a quick update. Finals are coming {Not really a great thing}, Classes are coming to an end{ A better thing}, and Kenny is coming {The most amazing thing ever.} The year in review will come in January, which means prepare for a boring entry that will review a crazy year in my life. I promise a real update soon, maybe not tonigght, but probably tommorrow.

QUESTION 12:
Do you have a mobile phone? If so, would you use a feature that allowed you to upload pictures and video from your phone directly to your PhuseBox?

I think I often forget joy. It’s a simple concept, but one that’s rather important. Seemingly, this comes as quite the surprise in that it’s the very thing that is supposed to set me apart from those who have none. So, as absurd as it may seem, I tend to forget the very thing that identifies me. This is dangerous. When we forget our identity we begin to blend in with something we’re meant to stand out against.

We forget the raw, for-no-reason, unexplainable joy; the kind that produces a smile when no one else is around; the kind that allows one to stand when everything else in their world seems so frail? In all the routine, which is as much of the maturing process as the valley or the mountain, I shouldn’t forget that God is still as amazing and awesome as He was the day He saved me.

 

When I’m walking to class in the morning when it’s 10 degrees and I’m just wishing I was back in bed: He still captured my heart. (Rom 6)

When I’m sitting bored at work: He still holds the helpless

When I get frustrated in traffic: He still mends the broken, sometimes even me.

When I worry because I don’t know what life will look like 12 months from now: He still commands the lightning. (Job 38)

When I can’t understand my stats teacher because he isn’t from here: I’ll also be hearing that language around the Throne one day, only it won’t be talking about statistics. (Phil 2)

When I’m driving down the road wondering why it gets dark so early: He still painted the sunset.

When I get home so late I can barely make it to my bed: He still calls the stars by name. (Is 40)

When the things in life I can do nothing about still come up from the recesses of the past to hinder me: He has still already won the battle! (Rev 21)

 

May we not allow God’s kindness, love, and “incredible-ness” to be diminished in our routine.

May we open our eyes and see Him all over it.

May we welcome the day, whatever it holds.

May we stand out.

May we not forget our joy.

 

King Jesus is still King Jesus, even when I’m just me.

 

“And do this, understanding the present time. The hour has come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. The night is nearly over; the day is almost here.” Romans 13:11,12

 

 - JV

Why do the best days have the worst endings?

Staying awake in calculus.  Understanding calculus.

Learning to say such fun phrases as "It's my first time." in Russian.

Starting Hamlet in AP English.  I like Hamlet.

Reading a good book instead of doing my econ homework.

Getting work done in photography.

Working with my Megan for the second day in a row.

Free pizza from the boss.

Hour long power blackout in the entire mall!  Much fun with the Finish Line employees.

Witnessing a grab-and-run shop lifting from Sears.

All in all, a really cool day.

But the end... I'd say it's bad enough to at least balance the good parts.

That's a feeling that sucks.

So after hours and hours of work we finally pulled it all together to make the best Christmas Hall ever! We all had characters and made our hall interactive for the judging.  It was SO fun!! The end of the hall I live on was pretty traditional Christmas. We had all the doors wrapped in wrapped paper. Santa's toy shop. Some reindeer and snow. A sleigh. Penguins. A nativity and little kids being read the story of Jesus. And then you got to the lounge......

The home of Ricky Bobby (which I got voted into being) and his wife (Vanessa). We did a short, cleaner version of the scene of his prayer and argument with his wife about how he would pray to Baby Jesus if he wanted....

From there you entered the other half of the hall. Polk County TN Redneck Christmas. A toliet filled w/ice and rootbeer was the first thing you got to see. Jessica cleaned her gun as she told you all about everyone and then you got to walk thru an awful mess of Christmas. And the amazing Christmas tree was at the end.

It was SO fun, and despite all the stress and work I LOVED it. It was nice to take a break from all the work of the week and just really enjoy something.

If you have been suspended from the university, you should not come to a meeting with a professor 1.5 hours early, just to linger in the Honors Lounge.  In fact, according to the Dean of Students, if you do it again, you will be escorted away by the police. 

The malicious side of me is hoping it happens.  The nonmalicious side of me is lying dormant.

*evil-ler chuckle than usual*

mine is today.

and now i can drive, so i'm "free"

but thanks to all who helped me celebrate..

it's getting

better...

Okay so I finally am able to post my poem that was chosen.

But first, I will let you read the story I was gonna go with before I decided to do a poem.

The Reject:

"I love you. Is that an okay start? Discovery. What a topic. Will you allow me to speak of the Discovery of my love for you-the discovery of what love is and how love feels?

To a child, love in omniscient. My cousin goes to school every day (he's in preschool, you know) and spreads love everywhere-to his little friends, to his teachers, and even to his enemies (at that age, enemies only last a second, of course. Children know nothing about grudges).

To a person experienced with age, love may not be as artless but is just as pure. As my grandmother observes her children, and her children's children, and even the next generation after that, adoration covers every wrinkle.

But to a person my age, love like a child's or a senior's hides from most. Yet somehow, I found what most miss. When we met, my life revolutionized. Morning dew settling on fresh grass can not compare to how subtlely your presence invaded my heart.

Not even Walt Whitman could explain how true affection feels.

When I think of you, something....happens. Suddenly, I desire to be a better person (although no one complains about my persona). Every stroke of my lead against paper produces a masterpiece.

Okay. So I didn't like that, or at least, I though I could do better. So I began this poem.

The Chosen:

From The Chords

As your fingers curve ever slightly over the strings,

My heart blooms to catch the nectar from your melody

I discover what love feels like all over again

And my affections emerge to spread their fresh wings.

Recollection of this adoration's beginning escapes my mind

One day I just knew it true

Caught in a butterfly net of no encampment, my soul lays bared for your contentment.

I would have it no other way.

Softer and lighter than the descent of morning dew

Your presence invaded my heart.

Abolishing wards, vanquishing safeguards

Like a bluejay you nestled and there remained.

"I love you" dawns from between your lips occasionally,

The potency of the triplet is registered not within you.

In return, "I love you too" is voiced in which my entire spirit lies.

Your expression as pensive as The Thinker himself.

A different chord blends with my soul in the composed atmosphere

As my persona aims for extreme amiability

Aims to harmonize with your angelic lifestyle

Aims to prove my worth and value

The climax of your aria brings the heart essence tumbling from my eyes

I care not of the thoughts spoken on the outside.

All that subsists in the scope is you and me

The performance slows and ultimately concludes

Love- my discovery- renewed and revived

Catapults towards you, eager for your acceptance

Always eager for your acceptance,

Till the end of me

With the instrument-d'amour packed away, you resume your normal life

While the one who uncovered the secret of this limited existence tucks away his tears

Soothes his aching heart

Waiting for the perfect time to expose

How much he loves you."

In truth, I just realized it's not as heart-wrenching as I would want it to be. But I've read it 20 times or more.

What do you think?

I love you, and one day you will know.

Danny

Yesterday our company had an "employee forum".  There was about 300 folks in attendence.  The meeting was scheduled to last 3.5 hours (with food/soft beverages on both sides of the event) ... and about 8-10 different speakers.  What I really liked about the meeting (aside from it being informative) is that there was a big brass gong ... and if any speaker went over their time limit the gong was ... well ... GONGED !!  Only one speaker went over their limit.  It was a fun ... but obvious way to let the speaker and the audience know that the speaker had violated the "time contract".

Chely has some type of concert/event at school tonight ... so, I will be rushing from work to the school (1-1.5 hours away) to attend.

Decy continues working on the house ... out of 127 boxes we are probably down to 20 that are still not emptied.  However, being empty doesn't necessarily suggest being put away or hung on the walls ....

As for me, I'm doing ok. Very tired this week. Didn't sleep well last weekend with Decy being gone ... and lots of stress at work.  My back is still challenging me.  But, every day it seems to get a little better ... I'm still curious what I did to it.  Maybe it was all that acrobatic sex I did one night ... that I don't remember ... NOT !!!!

Glad tomorrow is Friday.  My plan for the weekend is to go out only on Friday night.  Spend Saturday running errands / shopping / massage ... then the evening at home playing pool with Decy (and the girls if they want to learn).  Sunday, I plan to take the family to the Four Seasons hotel for Sunday brunch.  We will probably also bring along Decy's mom as the 1st (Friday) is her birthday.  On Friday, Decy and some of the family will take Doortje (Decy's mom) to lunch at a Manadanese restaurant (one of my favorite).

Gotta go ... ciao ciao.

I will be posting individual chapers of my Testimony on myspace, mainly because each chapter is sort of long. Anyway, feel free to check them out. Also, if you have a facebook, I will be posting them on there soon as well.

I ended up decorating until about 4 AM. I had every thought of going to bed at 1:30 but then I got caught up in uprooting a bush, duct taping it back together, decorating it w/fishing lures and cheese scented fake worms and stringing pork rinds among other things. Even after hours of work we still have most of one hallway and the lounge left to do.  I got up around 8 and finished my english paper, went to class for 10 mins to turn it in and now I'm back at here. In a few minutes I get the lovely job of going to Hobby Lobby to argue w/someone about how they didn't give us a bag of stuff we paid for, and then I get to pick up final things we forgot from Big Lots. Once I get back here more decorating until Andrea gets out of class so we can head off to the junk yard. These are the fun things I get to do since I don't have classes....I really just wanna go back to bed!

This is the highlight of Dickson TN. I love it............................................

photo from austincaresnot

So I just got back from the Disturbed's Music as a Weapon Tour show at the GEC......it was freaking amazing......people remember how happy I was after Buzz Fest.....Its like 100 times that because I got to hear bands that are completely amazing.......the bands there were of course Disturbed, Stonesour, Flyleaf (whom I don't like personally) and Nonpoint......but yea it was an amazing concert and once again I am worn out from headbanging and screaming my lungs out.......but yea I am off to bed now cause that concert was so great I just want to go to sleep and dream about how great it will be next year since every band (except Flyleaf) said they wanted to come back next year......so yea I will catch you all later......if you made it leave a comment telling what you thought about it......if not then too bad for you......sorry you couldn't make it it was amazing.....peace out much love bye bye

i'm excited.

Today has been a super crazy day. I went to classes. Then went and got Jackie and  we went to Big Lots, Dollar Tree, Walmart, and Hobby Lobby. Pretty sure we bought everything from UGLY shiny plaid fabric to fishing lures to christmas lights to stuffed creature poinsetta things. And then we get back to the dorm to find that Andrea had gone and bought the one thing we wanted most, a toliet.  Then dinner and then the Christmas Hall decorating started. Our hall is doing one end Traditonal Christmas, our lounge as Ricky Bobby's house, and then after the curve in the hall Redneck Christmas. We did that from about 7:30 to 1:00 and then just as everyone was ready to go take a shower and go to bed...Surprise! The water stops working completely. So about 15 us walk across campus to Nora Chambers so we can brush our teeth and then walk back. We've now given up on decorating and I'm attempting to finish a poetry analysis paper. Tomorrow should be fun. Andrea and I are goin to the junkyard to find toliet seats and hood ornaments. And I have no classes. Ok, well now apparently I'm off to help steal campus property...I mean, what? we're simply going to get a bush and gravel and fake poinsettas and wreath from Jessica's car!

So, using the advice to check out this Skillet album, I downloaded it to preview.  You guys...why?  What about this album is so great?  It's like pro tools extravaganza to cover up banal songwriting....argh...I'm exasperated...

Where do I sleep?
Who do I talk to?
What do I do?

So far this semester, I'm down 5 friends from Tech, 8 or 9 from high school, I've got a room that smells like feces and has water seeping up around the tiles whenever there's any pressure applied, traitorous peoples abound, idiotic people harass, and I'm stuck here having myself a nice pity party because I have no clue where to find a place to sleep.  I would, you know, use my bed, but because of the current floor condition, I have to have things piled on the bed (my shelves and all surfaces are covered with my and my roommate's belongings, like books and such) and therefore can not sleep on said bed.

I'm tired and I'm whiney.

dont you love it when you smell your hands his you smell him even 2 hours after he took you home

a train and a christmas tree

who knew it could be that much fun?

Someone told me that I am being blind to something that is right in front of me that could make me happy.

How do I stop being blind when I don't know what I should be seeing?

hey there!

i havent posted in awhile.

so yeh.. life is boring.. basically.. school sucks... tae kwan do is amazing and thats the jist of my life these days.. lol

meag

I john 3:18

16This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life
for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 17If
anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has
no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? 18Dear
children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and
in truth.

Wow.
This seems like one of those verses I just.. missed somehow.  I've read it several times I'm sure.
But man...
Wow.
Let us not love with words, or with our tongue, but with actions, and in truth.

Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.

—Psalm 37:3-6

Trish:  Sarah!

Sarah:  Yeah?

Trish:  WE HAVE SEX ED THIS WEEK!

Sarah:  Seriously?

Trish: *nods*

Sarah:  YAY!  *jumps up and down with excitement*

My favorite about teaching a sophomore class in JROTC?  SEX ED!  This will be the... sixth year in a row that I have that abstinence-only program that Rutherford County runs.  It hath melted my brain.

Abstinence Lady:  So, if you found out today that you were pregnant, how would that change your plans?  You'd have three choices.  You could either raise it, put it up for adoption, or have an abortion...

Me:  I'd be a lot wealthier a year from now... I'd sell mine on the black market!

Ahhhh... This is my favorite week of the year.  I love to see the disappointed look on the AZITA people's faces when they realize that their preaching to a bunch of hyperactive sex addicts...

So I went to Oakland today and visited some people.  I was able to talk about Webb for an entire class period.  That was fun.  But I did have fun seeing people and talking to people I hadn't seen in a really long time.

It also made me realize how different things are at Webb than public school.  But I guess thats a good thing and a bad thing.  I miss a bunch of people and hope that everyone misses me. But at the same time..I am really glad that I'm at Webb.

But I have to go finish up some SPEECH homework. (UGH!!!!!!) So I'll post more later.

man, there are few things that i just truly dislike in this world. i wont list all of them, but i will say this. spanish class stinks. like, really stinks. i strongly dislike it. but really, i dont think it's the class. it's just the fact that i'm expected to know all this stuff, and i dont. so in a way it's my fault.

so in the end, what i dont like is not knowing and feeling confused.

i'll write more about this weekend later. but now, i gotta go to math.

hasto luego

piece

For those who care, don't expect a blog from me on my Tuesday morning ..... Decy is finally on her way from the airport ... and it is now 1045pm .. something about getting up at 345am (knowing it will be well past midnight when I go to sleep) just doesn't appeal to me.

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgving!

QUESTION 11:
If you could change one thing about the profiles on PhuseBox, what would it be?

This would include how your info is displayed, the way you can click on things in the profile, the way music, movies, etc are listed... and such.

Thanks!

I'm gunna be on WGNS tomorrow......I don't exactly know what it will air but I go in at 2:30 tomorrow......I'll be talking about somethings that have been going on in Murfreesboro lately......so yea I think you should check it out and tell me if I sounded like a complete idiot.....catch you later peace out bye bye