Living in step with the Holy Spirit.... That is what this life journey is about... The Holy Spirit has been given to each Christian and it is up to us to allow him to transform us to be more like Jesus.... We can not transform ourselves.... We obviously can't or we would of never felt the need to accept Jesus Christ as our Lord. Why did we do that? If we were to be honest our first ambitions were very selfish. But as we grow in this relationship we gradually turn our focus from an inward desire to "feel good" outward to giving God the glory he truly deseserves.... But we so often end up forgetting about the Holy Spirit along the way. The Holy Spirit who is the part of the trinity that does this transforming work we so desperatly desire. You see, my life and I am sure many other Christians lives are marked with distractions and we are so distracted that we begin to loose our ability to hear God's guidence and to feel his presence around us... But my answer to this is it is simply a lack of tuning into the Holy Spirit....I do not doubt our desire to be transformed.....But we can't be transformed except through the HolySpirit! I wish i had a way to diagram.... Ok here is my best try - - - so no relationship with God and we do not have the Holy Spirit dwelling in us. We flail around trying to do things in this life utill we finally get fed up and decide to take a step of faith and ask God to enter us and have a relationship with us...... At this moment we receive the Holy Spirit, whho begins transformation. We feel his presence and transformational power and it excites us. But the next thing we know it feels like God is distant... Why? He isnt distant.... He is never changing.... It is us! We do not spend the time tuning into God's voice! When we dicipline ourselves to give God the time of day and to truly seek him our hearts begin to tune into Gods presence around us (Holy Spirit) We hear his voice and guidence..... But here is the big kicker - We must take the time to do this. It takes dicipline and perseverence. God wants more than us to transform us! We are the problem when it comes to feeling like our spiritual state is stagnant. God is near! May we spend time tuning into his voice! May we open our hearts to the transformational power of the Holy Spirit! May we continue to allow God to do his work in us. May we dicipline ourselves to seek God!!!!! God is calling. God is beckoning us to listen! He is so so so so very close! Closer than we can ever imagine! He is dwelling in each of us! In our eternal soul! Nothing is closer than that! He wants to transform us and use us. God is whispering to each of his children every day andevery second.... It is up to us to learn how to listen....... I love each of you. May God bless each of you! Keep fighting the good fight of faith for our Lord Jesus Christ!

Your brother in Christ,
Jonathan
Gal. 2:20

....Today I've had an opifany. Or, however you spell it. I've realized my life is impure and spinning out of control. Today i'm regaining control. I'm dedicating myself to a higher, better power. I am in the Lords hands now. You all can call me....Eric Potterbaum. And I hope someday they forgive me.

it's been awhile...

goodness gracious. today, my car was searched for drugs and/or weapons by 2 SRO's. what the heck? they scared the living crap out of me. they told me that they had brought the drug dogs around the parking lot, and one stopped at my car and detected narcotics, which i'm pretty sure is a lie. if this tells you anything, Kelsey Shearron, Chris Hardman, and David Bunting all got searched (i.e., some of the best kids in our school...like, i'm talkin squeaky clean like me...) so yeah, they made me cry uncontrollably, and i really thought that someone had left drugs in my car or something...gahlee...it was horrible. but now i'm just mad.

in other news, today i actually told the guy that i liked whom i shouldn't like that i liked him, but now i don't like him anymore, so i can go back to liking the sweet, good guy. well...now that i've sufficiently bored ya'll to death i'll finish working on my project---much love---Cari

What's up guys? I'm so bored that it's not even funny. I could be driving all around town and kickin' it with my friends tonight , but NO. The TDOT closes at 4 and i needed to get my tags. I got there at 4:04 and they wouldn't let me in. AHHH!!! Oh well, there's always tommorow. I get to be late for school just to get my tags and insurance tommorow. HEHE. 

so i applied for a position at the Daily Beacon which is out school newspaper, and they said i could either be a reporter or an opinion columnist. i cant decide. lol.

i've always thought that the opinion column would be pretty dang cool. but when i sat back and thought about it, i dont really know if it's what i wanna do.

what do ya'll think?

piece

These poor Hollywood celebrities... we're always picking on them! Tom Cruise jumps on a couch (not to mention invites his best man to his honeymoon) and we laugh at him. Russell Crowe throws a telephone at someone and we're apalled. Madonna (who of course would make a wonderful mom) wants to adopt a child from a foreign country and we are unsupportive. Jessica Simpson can't read or write and we call her dumb. I mean, gosh, how insensitive are we? What are we thinking?

Ok, of course I'm being facetious here, but you catch my drift. Celebrities do stupid things and we embellish on them, which I would daresay they deserve to some degree.

Well, today's celebrity news is about Lindsey Lohan, (that darn party girl!) who went from the sweet and innocent Parent Trap star to the Mean Girls terror! Lindsey has decided that she wants to clean up her image, and she's turning to a very unlikely source to help her... the one and only Al Gore, inventor of the Internet and Chicken Little of global warming exrtraordinaire. Apparently she typed out a rambling, typo-infested, barely readable e-mail to her pals assuring them that Al Gore, whom she is great friends with though they have only spoken with once (briefly), will help her get her act straight.

Did I mention she's going to AA?

"Hi, my name is Lindsey Lohan and yes, I was quite drunk when I typed out that e-mail."

Ok, now that I've picked poor Lindsey to death, I have to say that I do feel quite sorry for these celebrities. I mean think about, they may have fame and riches, but it can't be a cakewalk. Can you imagine being unable to walk down a street without people flocking you and photographing you? That's a lot of added pressure for someone who is searching for something to satisfy them, as every human being is.

They can't find it in money.

In fame.

In fashion.

In marriage.

In partying.

In alcohol.

In drugs.

And neither can we.

A few days ago I read an interesting interview in USA Today with Will Smith. He talked a lot about his family, including his surprisingly lasting marriage, and to me it was so cool how much he was doing right (with his family and marriage) that other celebrities weren't doing. And then the topic shifted to religion, and this is what he said:

I was raised in a resurrection Baptist church in Philadelphia, and my grandmother was a devout member of the church. The things that I belive are 90% morally what I learned growing up. But the additions that Jada and I have made - we've traveled around the world... we are students of world religions." The paper also says that Smith refers to himself as "a connoisseur of all faiths" and that he believes in the "power of the individual, of the human spirit to overcome."

When I read that I was kind of like... wow... Will Smith, how arrogant for you to pick and choose what you want to believe from all the religions and think that it is good enough for heaven.

But then I realized...

We all do it... even within the Christian faith.

And everyone who isn't a Christian does it, even if they don't realize it. They are retrieving different standards from several places, copying it and pasting it to their own book of right and wrong.

And we're all searching for that one thing that will satisfy us.

Tom, Russell, Madonna, Jessica, Lindsey, and Will have something in common with all of us...

They desperately want satisfaction. They need it. We all need it because God created us to not be satisfied with earthly things, and only by eternal things.

So I don't mean for this to turn into a long sermon... ha ha... I had every intention of it just being goofy and then it got all serious, but the condition of your soul is important. It is the difference between life and death. And the question is... what are you turning to to satisfy your soul?

"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God. We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoptions as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we are saved." -Romans 8:18-24a

Not !!!  But I am "officially" taking Wed-Fri off from work. Of course,I worked Sunday at home ... and Monday night until 930pm (after I got home from work) .... and I will work at home on Wed & Thurs .... doesn't feel much like a vacation.  PLUS - have some questions coming from Angola ... sounds like they messed something up and need some guidance (bad timing).

Speakers arrived !!! Yeah !! Hot - cool - neat - fantastic !!

The paintings from Angola that Decy had framed also arrived.  They are fantastic and the prices on the frames are unbelievable .... about $80 each ... but probably worth $300-400 in the US.  Wonder what else will arrive this week (besides Chris and Paul) ????

TONIGHT - TONIGHT. Tonight is the rescheduling of Kelly Rowland from Destiny's Child.  She will be at Club CJs tonight ... and so will we !!! ... a good reason not to go to work tomorrow AM .... given that we probably won't get home until 4-430am.

Well - gotta get to work and figure out what Angola has messed up ... and besides ... it is ALREADY 432am ....

ciao ciao

How has this school year been so far?

so after two years i finally have a "most commented" blog. prett sweet.

have you ever sat and just thought about the people in your life that have made a big difference. i'm not talking about the obvious, like your parents or grandparents or church leader. but like a friend that just seemed like a friend until you thought about it. alot of my friends back home know that they've made a huge difference in my life. but like today...

i walked into the library and i saw Bailey, she was the coach of the rowing team last year. kinda wierd cause she's the same age as i am. when i was walking out of the library i saw her again and noticed she had her team sweatshirt on. she wasnt the coach this year but she still helped out alot. i got to thinking about it. i love rowing and it's made such a big difference in my life since i've been in college. if it wasnt for bailey teaching all of us to row and her putting so much time and effort into the team, i may not be where i am right now. i definately wouldnt be happy. i was depressed last year till i started to enjoy rowing. heck, i probably wouldnt be at UT if it wasnt for the rowing.

so sum it up. it's those people in your life that you may never think about because they dont seem that significant. because maybe they aren't any older than you are or dont have a status of authority. and yet, they make a huge difference in your life.

hope ya'll have great day

piece

well, i finally got my tattoo like i've been talking about forever, what do y'all think?

This is one of those that I am the
most satisfied with after having finished... I really feel like I got
across what I was trying to say.  And it's pretty cool, because it came
totally from what a friend of mine is going through.  I don't know, God
is good

Proverbs 19:21

My brokenness is
cracked and bleeding,
My preconceived
plan is fleeting,
All that I knew
before today,
Seems repeatedly
crushed with everything You say.

My open heart is
reeling,
As you're
continually revealing,
A way I won't
foresee until you take my eyes away,
And let them see
that way.

My fragile
thoughts are shattered,
My thoughts ring
with the clatter
Of words against
all that I knew,
Rung with this
plan I only vaguely understand, through You.

My cracked heart
is baking,
In the penetrating
heat of your Son,
I'm done trying to
comprehend your purpose,
For which I've
wrung myself out,
Now I'm undone.
Take my withered
decaying will,
And make it Thine
Own.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

::sigh:: I feel better

I have no idea what that was, but it was nice.

My room is a mess.

I am not worried about my exams.

I am bothered by my papers -- a 4-6 page (REL140) that I haven't started and a 8-10 page (ENG201) that is worth 20% of my grade.

Händel's Messiah is good listenin'.

Meanwhile, I saw this really, really beautiful girl at the library. Amazing. She works at National City, a bank I frequent. She was studying, perhaps with a tutor -- thus I didn't bother her. But I was so tempted to.

I have a coupon that needs to be used by 12/31/06 for Coldstone. Girls normally like ice cream. I am not going to eat alone, and I don't think I want to eat ice cream with a guy. So it would naturally make sense to ask a girl.

Here is an example of how I started to bother to make an attempt. Scene: A lit hallway outside of the enterance to the library. A girl sits on the bench, quite nice lookin'. I am sitting on the other bench. She looks at her notes, my thoughts include, "She is probably waiting for someone. But if she isn't then I can still try."

"What are you waiting for?" I ask.
She points, "Him."

As he started to pass me, I was almost immediately convinced he was a loser. From what I could tell, he seemed like he was an extroverted feeler. Out of sympathy (but more coutesy and trying to hide my attempt to rock), I smiled and went back to my paper that I was critiquing. Thinking, "eh...I knew it."

Denied.

i have never really been broken over lost people. but tonight, something hit my heart really hard. i was at my church's christmas production. the skit was mostly about a family. the mother and kids were excited about getting to go caroling and going to their church's christmas eve service. the father was not as excited. he had put off writing a song that he had to complete for his job. his mother was preaching to him to try to get him to realize that the christmas song he had to write had to come from his heart. he finally realized and actually understood what his mother was saying. when his family had realized what amazing change had happened in his life, they were overjoyed. i realized that i have so many people around me every single day that are exactly like that. they don't know what they are missing out on. they hear what they need to do from some people, but they don't process it and understand it. God is calling me to witness to everyone around me. i have become so broken over the lost. a few certain people have been laid on my heart. it really hurts me to think about that, if they died tonight, they would not be in heaven. i am so thankful for the amazing gift God has given me, eternal life in paradise. i want everyone to be able to have that and receive that gift. i pray that He will give me the strength and the words to say to help them have the joy in their life that i do.

in Christ, Kate

at starbucks!it was fun



we had our computers... and talked to sarah online... and to each to each other! ha!

look how cool we are! 
 
it was fun! and much needed! i so miss hanging out with all my friends! a lot! dear friends: i hope you don't think i am boring now that i am married! i am not. we can stil hang out. love, rachael
 
anyway... so i start work tomorrow. this will be the first job i have had that i do not know anyone at all. that makes me a little nervous. but everyone seems nice... so hopefully everything will go well. and hopefully i will like it. i have a problem with that one it seems... oh well. i know the time will come when i am able to do exactly what i want. but right now this is what i have to do. so might as well try to enjoy it, right?
 
well, i hope that everyone is having a great sunday! adios!

Hey everyone i cant talk long because we are going to church but i thought i would say hi 

Sincerely Emily

"Only a genius can play a fool." -- Michael Rapaport

Sunday afternoon we put up the Christmas tree ... Decy, Chely, Thasya, and I.  Then I strung some lights along the stairwell and over the door.  Decy needs to pick up some more lights, so I can finish.  It looks really nice ... simple, but beautiful.  It was an emotional challenge for me - - the first time in probably 8-10 years since I had decorated a tree.  I miss my sons .... took some pics which I will post in due course.

So, now it is Monday morning. Much to do this week ... although I only have 2 days at work.  Worked much of Sunday from home ... and will work much of Wed & Thurs from home too ... until I leave for Singapore to collect Chris & Paul. Doesn't sound like much of a vacation, does it?

Let's hope the furniture arrives ok this week, would like to get that out of the way and focus on final travel and holiday planning.  Sounds like we are going to have our "Christmas dinner" on Wednesday the 20th before we leave town.  Decy wants to invite much of the family over .... should be interesting to see how everybody interacts ... Chris, Paul, the little kids .... and Decy's bro's/sis's ....

ciao ciao

so. i am officially 17! but with that age, a lot of weirdness has suddenly come upon me...

why can't i like the good, sweet, Christian guy who may actually like me back for once in my life? why does it always end up being the other guy that i end up liking? the guy who i know likes someone else? will someone please tell me why, when i have liked someone very much for a long time, and they begin to seem to show any interest in me, i immediately stop liking them and like someone else? why do i like someone whom i've known a long time and never been attracted to, but suddenly am now? do i simply want what i can't have? am i a glutton for punishment? i'm pretty sure that God would not want me to be with this person. and i wish i could just make myself stop liking him. and i wish i could go back to liking the other person...but i just can't right now.  

dag. no bueno. but i'll just have to pray about it. being a teenager is quite confusing. anyways. i've kinda been in a funk lately. i think it's because i haven't been to church in a while...plus i have really been slackin' with the quiet times. it's not that don't want to, it just seems like i never have time. but i should make time. anyways, i gotta go study! much love to you all --Cari

i know it's been a while..
but things aren't going so great for me right now.

i just need a lot of prayer and such.
hugs are good..i like them. they make me feel loved.
i'm having a hard time feeling that right now.

yeah.
if you wanna know what's going on, message me or something.
i just don't feel like posting it for the whole world to see and to make it seem like i'm just throwing a pity party, because i'm not.


yeahhh...
[becca]

I'm pretty sure that I've been working out all week and I've got to show for it is a lot of aches and pains. This just is not fun any more. I think I'll just get on steriods. NOT!!! Anyways, We had our football banquet last night and the jacket I got is TIGHT!!! I wore that jacket to church proudly today. Well I guess I'll talk to ya'll later.  

a straight week of finals here i come. my favorite time of year. it's such a rush. but at the same time. it's so scary. haha. ya'll know what i'm talking about.

i got some new running shoes. :)

piece

im going to Seattle in 10 days to stay with mmy brother for Christmas which is really kool caus i never see him and were going to be skiing, snow shoeing, and a lot of kool stuff so I am really exited

Things To Do At Wal-Mart While You Wait For Your Family To Shop 1. Get boxes of condoms & put them in peoples' carts when they aren't looking. 2. Make a trail of orange juice on the floor to the restrooms. 3. Walk up to an employee and announce in an official tone, "I think we have a code 3 in housewares," and see what happens. 4. Put some M&M's on lay away. 5. Set up a tent in the camping department, tell others you'll only invite them in if they bring pillows from the bedding department. 6. Look right into the security camera and use it as a mirror while you pick your nose. 7. Dart around suspiciously while humming the theme from 'Mission Impossible.' 8. While handling guns in the hunting department ask the clerk if he knows where the anti-depressants are. 9. In the auto department practice your Madonna look using different size funnels. 10. Hide in the clothing rack and when people browse through whisper 'PICK ME! PICK ME!'

-these arnt my ideas, but i wish they were, funny stuff

finishing my last project, studying for my last final, and packing! I come home tomorrow!!!!

On Friday, I drove to Memphis with Brittany (my woman) and James (my friend).  We got to my house and talked to my parents for a while (it went surprisingly well...a pleasant surprise), then we watched a movie and talked and ate leftovers until 3 in the morning when, since Brittany and I kept dozing off, James went to bed, then Brittany went to bed, the I cured cancer and went to bed.  Unfortunately, since my handwriting degrades as I get more tired, I couldn't read the formula for the cure the next morning and cancer is still uncured.
So on Saturday, we went to Brad's BBQ (my favorite barbecue restaurant in the world), then I got a haircut from Little Joe (who is slower than his dad, Joe).  As I drove downtown, I made an error and we were in Memphis calling for directions.  The play started at 2.  Had it not been for that burning Methodist church a few months back closing the roads, we would have been there earlier.  However, because we ended up detouring all over downtown Memphis, we got there at 2:02, missing the prelude.  No biggie.  The play was good (at least, I enjoyed it); afterward, we went walking in Memphis *insert drumroll sound* and I showed them the Pyramid, the River, the New Bridge, the Old Bridge, the Peabody, and, from the roof of the Peabody, just about everything else in downtown Memphis.  We went to church (it started at 5:30, we got there at 6) and they met Brian, my former boss, and a few other friends of mine.  After that we went home, packed up, and left.
From the house, I took them to 6 Flags over Jesus (a.k.a. Bellevue Baptist Church), Central Baptist School (where I attended from K5-12th grade), and the house in which I grew up, which we sort of sped by, U-turned, and re-sped by because I don't like that part of town.  At all.  We also almost stopped at Kari's house and introduced Brittany as my fiance' because I hate her, but I remembered that Kari works with my cousin and I would get in trouble eventually if I did that.  So I imagined doing it for half an hour and laughed an evil laugh.  Drove back, got Brittany home at about 2:30, crashed on her couch until 6:30, then drove back to Tech where I crashed again and am now studying for my exams.

Now, for my exams...
In Social Psych, I need to make an 87/135 in order to make a B and a 123/135 (91%) in order to make an A.  I don't have the book for that class yet, so I'm iffy about the A.
In Developmental, I need to make an 87/135 in order to make a B and a 132/135 (98%) in order to make an A.  I shall try for an A; I do have the book for this class.
In French, I need to make an 82/100 in order to make a B; I can't make an A in there.
In Biology, I need to make somewhere around an 85/100 in order to make an A.  I can pull that off fairly easily.

A few quick notes, now...I missed about 50% of my Developmental classes, and can still get an A if I'm lucky.  I missed two tests in French, and can still get a B.  I don't have the book in Social and can still get an A if I'm lucky.  I'm not going to talk about Biology; I was there every day and had the book and did all of the work.

I feel encouraged by this.

maybe i should actually update on this thing.

i donno if anyone actually still reads it, but oh well.

hmm so right now im listenin to thousand foot krutch. yay

i want time to speed up. the only problem with that is that means midterms gets here faster, but that also means break gets here faster.

1st day of midterms is this friday.

physics and AP english. my brain is gonna be mush. prolly by the end of physics...

sat-bell ringing at sam's for salvation army. im gonna freeeeeze

mon- pre cal and spanish III

tues- economics and art IV

and then....BREAK

wed-helpin with wrapping at the mall.

thurs- hangin out with bronywon and elizabeth AND THEN goin to a preds game. haha im excited.

and that concludes my pointless entry

thank you and good night

I need to start budgeting my money now that I'm paying both my monthly car insurance and cell phone bill.

One day I'll be able to live without the financial aid of my parents.

It is my goal to be out of the house by the time I am student teaching.

Christmas is coming up and for the first time in several years I'm actually asking for something specific ((and sort of big)). Mom has this way of making me think that I'm not going to get it ((she's always done this)), but I always do. . . but everytime I want something big, I never think I'll get it because she's good at making me think I won't.

Now that you've wasted 45 seconds of your life reading this. . .

I registered for a swimming class next semester. No, I won't freeze because we'll be using an inside pool. And to answer your next question, it's called a swimming cap.

Don't laugh.

I'm getting a haircut. Not a trim. A cut. Okay, it's a cut for me. And I'm terrified. Not really. Anxious is the better word I suppose.

Yesterday (Sat) just did the normal 2 hr massage, nasi padang lunch, and then went to Carrefour to find a small stereo for Decy's and my bedroom.  Afterwards, we just rested .... and then watched a movie with the girls.  It was the first time we had run a DVD through the stereo into the TV ... NICE !!!! and the sound was great.

Did a walk through on the house ... recognizing that some furniture is still coming (quite a bit is due next week) and some pictures are being framed.  I'm not yet ready to declare "victory" on the house ... but it looks awfully close ... and Decy has done an exceptional job taking what we had in Angola ... blending it with what I had in storage ... and then supplementing with new purchases.  So far the cost has been about $38k, including the items that haven't been delivered yet.  We will probably top out at about $45-50k ... which I am entirely comfortable with .... as much furniture as we have bought ... in the US it would have been $100-150k.

Today, Sunday, I have to unfortunately work (most of the day) from home.  I'm up bright and early, so is Decy.  Decy is going to church today .....  this afternoon, I think she is going to decorate the Christmas tree ... because we realized that Chris and Paul don't arrive at home here until about 830pm on Sunday ... which will be much too late to start decorating.

ciao ciao

Hey yall! whats up?!? im bored there is NOTHING to do and there is like no one on! well im gunna go! ttyl


love<3love
Candace!

Time to get a truck!

this week has it's ups and it's down...
i found out my bestfriend has a good chance that she is going to austila(sp) for a boarding school... that sucks... i was tried all week...
today my grandparent are heading to ohio again...
my brother is taking his acts again.
this semster is almost over which mean my sophmore is is almost over.
exam are starting on friday><
so yeah
now i am bored i think tomorrow we are going shoping.... so yeah later

megan

4 full days of school

3 half days of school

1 christmas concert where ill listen to some pretty cool guy play sax

1 christmas party with cool kids

3 presents bought

1 christmas parade

1 plane ride out of here

7 exams

1 missed christmas eve service (hope we go somewhere in tx)

.......

all of this in the next 19 days

♥i love life♥

Besides anything musical, what is something else you could see me doing with the rest of my life?  For instance, could you see me being a lawyer, an accountant, etc.....and why?

Seriously, Battle of Mice is one of the best bands I've ever heard.  Ya'll gotta check out their album "A Day of Nights".

I love you still.

well tonight is one of those nights;

where I'm home with nothing to do, but roll thoughts over in my head; and I've tried as hard as humanly possible to straighten things up..I'm afraid to let my guard down, and let some girl, actually be worth my time. And i feel like i have nothing to prove. These kind of people, are just so rare..

and now I'm dancing U2; funny how things change.

 by the way, OSU will win.

so yea i guess i should say i didn't write that but  i got it on facebook and i was like hey its pretty edgy and pretty good thats throw it out there!!! so yea act is coming tomorrow which STICKS!!!! i guess i might as well get it over with! well have an awesome weekend- stephen

Its time for the National Championship in college football.  That means, it of course is time to see bandwagons pop out.  Who is ganna jump on Ohio State, who is ganna join Florida?  Stay loyal to your team, and MAN LAW, you can only have one team.  AND THAT IS FOR LIFE!!!  lets pick one.  i love you all.  thank you. 

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    Praise the Lord
    Praise the Lord
    Let the people rejoice"

wow.....how things change in your life!!! God has a way of showing what is in important in life and not to worry He is in control as long as we trust Him through everything and follow His will!!! everyday gets closer as i get ready spiritually and emotionally for Jericho....im going  to my earthly home...where God has called me  to in the future...and i cant tell you how excited i am  for God to give me the  chance to go back so soon!!!! its amazing

Love Through Christ!
Rachel Ann

*Phew.* An 86 on my astrononomy final will give me a B in the class. Since it is all questions from the past tests and I have those answers now, I should be fine. Thank goodness.

On a more serious note...

I'm getting tired of all this Bush-bashing, and I can't believe it's going to continue for two more years. Even if you don't like President Bush or agree with him, I think you should at least respect him as the President of our country, who is doing the best he can. You have a right to believe that he's failing at his task, but let's not been so rude about it that we are putting up Bush out of office countdown calanders on our walls. Basically, I just wish people would show a little more class, that's all.

So why is it that all of friends are getting coupled up and forgetting all about me???

I mean I just dont get it...are friends not important anymore??

LAST CHRISTMAS...THIS CHRISTMAS

Last Christmas we were thinking about all the things we didn't have.
This Christmas we are thinking about all the things we do have.

Last Christmas we were placing wreaths on the doors of our homes. This
Christmas we are placing wreaths on the graves of our heroes.

Last Christmas we were counting our money.
This Christmas we are counting our blessings.

Last Christmas we thought a man who could rush down a football field
was a hero.
This Christmas we know a man who rushes into a burning
building is the real one.

Last Christmas we paid lip service to the real meaning of the holidays.
This Christmas we are paying homage to it.

Last Christmas we were lighting candles to decorate.
This Christmas we are lighting candles to commemorate.

Last Christmas we were trying not to let annoying relatives get the
best of us.
This Christmas we are trying to give the best of ourselves to
them.

Last Christmas we thought it was enough to celebrate the holidays.
This Christmas we know we must also find ways to consecrate them.

Last Christmas we were thinking about the madness of the holidays.
This Christmas we are thinking about the meaning of them.

Last Christmas we were getting on each other's nerves.
This Christmas we are getting on our knees.

Last Christmas we were giving thanks for gifts from stores.
This Christmas we are giving thanks for gifts from God.

Last Christmas we were wondering how to give our children all the
things that money can buy - the hottest toys, the latest fashions, the
newest gadgets.
This Christmas we are wondering how to give them all the
things it can't - a sense of security, safety, peace.

Last Christmas we were thinking about all the pressure we are under at
the office.
This Christmas we are thinking about all the people who no
longer have an office to go to.

Last Christmas we were singing carols.
This Christmas we are singing anthems.

Last Christmas we were thinking how good it would feel to be affluent.
This Christmas we are thinking how good it feels to be alive.

Last Christmas we thought angels were in heaven.
This Christmas we know some are right here on earth.

Last Christmas we believed in the power of the pocketbook.
This Christmas we believe in the power of prayer.

Last Christmas we were sharing/spreading/listening to gossip.
This Christmas we are sharing/spreading/listening to the Gospel.

Last Christmas we valued things that were costly.
This Christmas we value things that are holy.

Last Christmas the people we idolized wore football, basketball and
baseball uniforms.
This Christmas the people we idolize wear police,
firefighters and military uniforms.

Last Christmas "peace on earth" is something we prayed for on Sunday
mornings.
Now it is something we pray for every day.

Happy Birthday Shari_Sherbet!

QUESTION 14:
What other websites or services do you belong to?

for example: myspace, facebook, xanga, flickr, digg, del.icio.us, yahoo, etc.

* Please do not use this entry to link to all your other pages. I am just curious which services you use. Thanks!

first day of finals. here goes nothing. haha. i think i've got this.

piece

So far beyond what I can fathom is the life I'm living now.
Every moment exceeds all paramaters placed around this finite living house In which I'm caved in for now, though with intermittent escape,
Found deep within the eyes of my loving Savior's face.
He gives me insight into a realm not of my own,
And though I can't take full grasp of it now I will  yet take hold
Of the small bits that He offers me today.
Outside of myself, exceeding my restrictions, is His power, in which I find
Remission for all sins, both past and present too, and peace beyond all measure, a truth that's wholly true,
And without such time with Him I know I could not endure,
All the times I spend surrounded by this morally concocted sewer,
And in such place I know that all answers will be found,
As long as You are always my assister, my strengthed fallen crown.
Conquered by none by submitted to o so many,
You are my servant deliverer, my escape for whom I'm ready
To be with forever and ever, abiding by you, I will find my peace,
Beyond what I could fathom.

As I'm sitting here eating "Death by Chocolate(YUMMM)" and trying to find some kind of inspiration for a paper I've procrastinated on I realize something.

God just isn't with us always wherever we go but He is also completely and totally inside of other people that love Him......I truly believe that He shows us His love by putting the wonderful people in our lives that He does. He shows His love through His children that show their love and kindness to others. Am I making any sense? It might just be the chocolate talking.....

hello

1. It seems that most every year there is a "team of destiny" just like we were in 1996. It appears to me that all the stars have aligned for us to win it all. I fully expect us to beat OSU in one of our typical close gut-wrenching games.

2. It is our 100th year of football,

3. The 10 year anniversary of our only NC,

4. It is Meyer's second year (which is always magical),

5. We have a ton of senior leadership,

6. We have a large number of playmakers.

7. OSU has already been annointed as a great team and we will be painted as the sacrificial lamb.

8. Smith will win the Heisman; see other Heisman winners and their outcome of the National title game they have played in... most recent Reggie Bush/Vince Young (another distraction for them)

9. They have been idle for 2 weeks while we have been preparing for and playing in tough meaningful games.

10. Meyer will play on the lack of respect that we will get from all the "talking heads" and OSU should come into the game full of themselves.

11. Meyer has the largest set of "stones" in College football as evidenced by the fake punt call last night. I am surprised he can walk with those stones between his legs.

12. It has been the "Year of the Gator" as evidenced by the BB winning the NC, Emmitt winning "Dancing with thw Stars" and Epstein winning the World Series MVP.

13. Meyer is undefeated when he has more than 2 weeks to prepare.

14. OSU has not faced a defense as good as ours while we have faced 5 top 25 defenses.

Ouch

It was my guitar juries. This is where a panel of judges watches me
play guitar and critiques/grades my performance.  I’ve never played
those pieces worse…. I was REALLY bad.

:-/ wow I was bad.

Hey yall! whats up im like super de dooper hyper! yay


write to me love yas


love<3love
Candace YAY

Pied Beauty

Glory be to God for dappled things-
    For skies of couple-colour as a brinded cow;
        For rose-moles all in stipple upon trout that swim;
Fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls; finches wings;
    Landscape plotted and pieced--fold, fallow, and plough,
        And all trades, their gear and tackle and trim.
All things counter, original, spare, strange;
    Whatever is fickle, freckled (who knows how?)
        With swift, slow; sweet, sour; adazzle, dim;
He fathers-forth whose beauty is past change:
                                      Praise him.

-Gerald Manley Hopkins

Ok, so last Sunday we had our little sing-fest of karaoke.  Thasya tried her luck at Christmas caroles. Not bad ... but it did have a funny feel to it.  Wonder how Chris and Paul will do with "White Christmas" ??????

Last night Decy again brought up the subject of a Christmas tree and showed me a catalogue of new style artificial trees. DECISION MADE - We are going to TREE this year .... yep, tree, some basic ornaments, and tree lights ... and then lights for the stairs.  Don't have any decorations (its been probably 8 years since I had a tree) .... so Decy will have to buy some.  Tree goes up on Sunday the 16th when Chris and Paul arrive.

As for Ms. Stacy's comments about taking care of her boys ... I AM NOT PETER PAN ... while I might keep them up and out for most of the hours of the night, I would never keep them out all hours of the night (I'm getting too old for that) ... and I certainly won't be treating them to lots of sweets ... I'm too cheap for that.

There is a furniture exhibition in the city this week.  Decy was there and found a few more items that we need and were on our list.  This wave of stuff is supposed to be delivered next week .... step by step ... I think we are now about 70-80% complete on the house ... excluding contingency. Still waiting on the speakers to be delivered ... and still haven't heard anything about my claim on the shipment damages.

Trip to Jatiluhur yesterday was neat.  Its about 90 kilometers outside of Jakarta ... very interesting place. I'll blog about it sometime.

For those of you who haven't noticed TGIF !!! and the best part of this Friday ... is knowing this is the last 5 day week I will work until the week of Jan 8-12 ... YEAH !!!!!

ciao ciao  

The last thing I needed to hear the week of finals was that my grandfather is dying of cancer.

Fuck it;

I give up.

I am far more chipper today.

Not sure why.  Just feel better, I guess.

I'm huuuungry.  Stupid-not-having-any-food-or-cash.  Never fear!  I shall get food after school!  Hooray!

Heehee. You can tell I'm starting to lose patience with Cookie Store customers.  The other day, a woman walked up to the glass, pointed at the frosting sandwich cookies and said, "What's in that?"

What Sarah wanted to say:

Baby intestines.  Cyanide.  Rat poison.  Boric acid.  Essence of e-coli.

What Sarah really said:

Frosting.

So you know.  Haven't lost patience yet.

More fun at work!

Megan: You can pop that if you want.  I only sucked on it a little.

Sarah:  *blank stare*  Ohhh that is soooo going on the internet when I get home.

Megan:  *freaks*

I'll leave that to your imagination.

Tell me whats on your mind and what you are looking foward to.

The other day I had a girl in my class say that "You can't hold that God is
omnipresent and then say that hell would be without the presence of
God."
I guess that kind of makes sense... ish, but I'm pretty sure she's wrong.
What
do you guys think?  I don't agree, and I could argue why I don't, but
I'm interested in what others think on this.  It is quite an
interesting question.  Yes, or no?

My make-up is all smudgy and emo looking! It's quite funny.

We finally did the play tonight! It was AMAZING!! I'm battle scarred now. Josh threw me down and opened up an almot healed sore on my arm, and I noticed it only 45 minutes later! Yes I'm that slow.

I'm dead tired but I just thought ya'll would like to know we're moving. Nooo we're not leaving town or FWC (you're stuck with us for a while), we're just getting a bigger house. It has trees for Jaime to climb and unleash her inner squirrel in. And one of the trees is like 300 years old or something, it's MASSIVE!!!

My room has the veiw of the house across the street that has it's Christmas lights cued to "Wizards of Winter". Go me!

I'm like dead tired and I need to go wash this mess off my face. Night All!

When you look into someone's eyes

What do you see?

Do you see their eye color?

Their glasses or contacts?

Or do you look deeper?

Do you see them?

Not just their outer being

Do you see them?

Do you see their desires, wants, needs, and most importantly their hurts

Or do you walk by, make that awkward glance and quietly resume your normal routine?

Do you walk past them as if they don't matter

Or do you take the oppurtunity to look deeper

To recognize what an amazing creation they are, something that the GOD OF THE UNIVERSE cherishes

When you look into someone's eyes do you see what their creator sees?

Or do you see another face

When you look into someone's eyes

What do you see?

Poetry is porn for the intelligent.

Wednesday was an interesting day at work.  Although I was quite tired from the night before.  But, I had so much fun and was so relaxed, I think I was actually more productive.

Today I take a day trip to a place called Jatiluhur to check out if its facilities and evaluate if it would be a good emergency backup site for the company.

The house is really coming together now that things are pretty much on the walls.  Decy is working on framing a few more pictures and repairing some of the damaged goods.  We will deal with the speaker repair at a later time.  New speakers should be here in a day or two (I hope !)

Dinette is supposed to arrive sometime next week ....this is our most expensive piece of furniture, so I'm pretty excited about that.  Dinette seats 12 - and is green marble.  We've ordered the entryway furniture, but it won't be ready until early January.  Decy has designed a couple of curio cabinets and is waiting on a price quote before taking a decision on that.  NEXT STEPS - stereo cabinet and table with chairs for the pool table area ... then (in January ?) we will work on the patio furniture some more.  I will take some pics during my days off and holidays and will post them.

BTW - Kelly Rowland from Destiny's Child has agreed to come in ... she will be here on Tuesday at Club CJs ... Decy and I have tickets ... and then I am taking the rest of the week off to rest and travel to Singapore to collect Chris/Paul.

That's all for now ... ciao ciao   

so here's a recap of my week so far...

Monday: apply at a church in brentwood for teaching position

Tuesday: they call me for interview

Wednesday:
10:30-interview, went well, said they would call back in a day or so for second interview
2:45- lady calls for the second interview
3:00- lady calls offering me the job

pretty awesome. and fast.

so no more lazy days for me. friday i have to go in to fill out paper work and such... and start on monday. as much as i was hesitant about another child care job, this seems like a nice place. the director was very nice and funny (and she likes grey's!!!), and seemed to know how to take care of her workers. and it is a church. being in a christian environment and doing childcare makes all the difference. so i hope that i like it.

and what makes this super great is that i don't have to cook tonight because nathan is going to take me out!!! yay! haha!

My head hurts.  I don't like it.

This afternoon promises to be interesting.

Gonna pick up some cheap sushi on the way home.  [Didn't eat lunch.]

Taking Katie Christmas shopping for her folks.

Hanging out with Rachel.

The things I SHOULD be doing this afternoon:

Laundry.

Cleaning.

Economics.

Research paper.

JROTC paper.

Taking photos.

Selling ads.

Studying calculus.

...Hah.  Yeah, it sounded funny to me too.

Things are really starting to get better. I've only got 2 exams left. One of which I'm not worried about at all. By Friday after my math exam I'll be stress free. Found out my schedule's gonna work so I can go home on Monday instead of Tuesday or Wednesday like I'd expected. Stayed up until 4 this morning writing a paper and discussing the Little Mermaid very indepth w/Jackie. Amazing the things that'll come out of someone's mouth when they're sleep deprived. No classes tomorrow. I have some observation work to do, but that's actually really enjoyable. Then about 3 hours of Apples to Apples. I got sleep today!! More than 3 hours!! That's pretty great considering that's all I'd had in 3 days.  Spent some good time w/some girls in my hall. Due to all the decorating last week I'm starting to build some new friendships with some of them which is pretty cool. Just got back from Midnight Breakfast with them. Pretty sure our RA took our hall toilet from decorations to breakfast w/us. Good, good times.

Call me pessimistic or misanthropic all you want, but I do hate vegans.  By vegans, I don't mean the Hindu family down the way who believes that that cow really could be their uncle, or the person who quietly believes that not eating meat will reduce their body fat.  No, I'm talking about the morons who never fail to remind us that eating animals is torture equivalent to concentration camps.  Prime example: I love Between the Buried and Me; hell, they're one of my favorite bands.  But this ad they have for peta2 about vegans "shredding harder" makes me puke, but not as much as the Napalm Death peta2 ad about "#99", the chimp at the butt of scientific research.

Let me be clearer: I'm all for stances and such and such, but not overtly hypocritical ones.  Vegans value the life of animals over humans as long as it conveniences them.  They support the destruction of other's property (tossing blood on clothes).  They have no interest in aiding truly admirable causes like the hungry in third-world countries.  Plus, very few use absolutely no animal products whatsoever (Bam! As long as it conveniences them!).

Also, in the spirit of Maddox, those who don't eat meat don't take into consideration the enormous amount of damage done on the environment by farming.  Yeah, pretty sure there's a dead spot on the floor of the gulf of Mexico caused by those chemicals used in farming.  That brings me to question: if vegans really believed what they said, wouldn't they all have their own little farms like the Amish, without using chemicals?  You would think, but no...

The problem with making any lofty claims about the damage done to animals by humans if you're human is that you're human and are inherently damaging to them anyway.  We've destroyed environments that created vegans' homes, malls, doctor's offices.  Vegans use all of these at the expense of good ole' Peter Cottontail, Bambi, and Yogi, but are not saddened by it one bit.

Truth is, vegans are in it for some sense of communal guilt.  If everyone became vegan, I'm sure half of them would fall out simply for the fact that it wasn't controversial anymore.  Oh, and about metal, metal is macabre: you can't have metal without talking about death or blood or something like that.  Not eating meat doesn't make you legitimately "metal".

THAT'S RIGHT! I SHOT THE F*CKING SHERIFF! WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT IT, BOY!?! HUH?! WHO IN THE HELL CARES IF I DIDN'T SHOOT THAT B!TCH OF A DEPUTY!?

hey everyone- hope you all are having a great week! well yea i am pumped there is only about 2 weeks left of school for 2006 and i can't wait for some time off from my busy life! but yea today i was doing my quiet time and God laid this on my heart and i was convicted by it let it really speak to you like it spoke to me.

"When I get up in the morning what do I do first? Do I thank God for giving me another day to breathe and live for Him."

I know for myself that really convicted me because when i get up i really just think hey another day of school and the mundane of life, but we should be excited that God gave us the honor to live another day becuase we are do unworthy!! just a thought-stephen

BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!

so pretty sure i haven't updated in forever and i really don't know what to say all except for the fact that i am completely bored out of my mind and have absolutely nothing to do!!!!!!!! oh how i wish i was still sick so that i could just stay home from school and never go back!!!!!!!

"Don't
be afraid; just believe."

 

-Jesus-

Had a date with my lovely wife last night. Except for the agreement to meet after work ... the night was impromptu .... finally made it home around 1am .... and then up at 4am.

Soooooo .... now you know why this is short .....

ciao ciao ....

When you write a script, co-direct a film, and then co-edit it, it is so rewarding as you sit amongst an audience and hear them enjoy your work. It makes me look forward to TV Production next semester.

I also felt pretty good to have one of the few videos shown in class today without bad language and killing.

So now that my self-esteem has been lifted, I shall study hours upon hours for my astronomy test tomorrow and see my self-esteem get crushed to the ground as Test of Doom #4 destroys me.

I'm still taking orders for Christmas!

I'm eatin deer jerky while I type this with just one hnd, it's pretty darn good. Dad made it yesterday, yummm!

I finished Drivers Ed today, oh hallelujah. I hate driving. I have a strange but intense fear of on coming traffic. Odd.

I finally broke down and downloaded aim. I had been using the express version. But anyway if I know you feel free to drop me an im at ladymidori05.

So glad to see you have overcome them.

Completely silent now

With heaven's help

You cast your demons out

And not to pull your halo down

Around your neck and tug you off your cloud

But I'm more than just a little curious

How you're planning to go about

Making your amends to the dead

To the dead


Recall the deeds as if

They're all someone else's

Atrocious stories

Now you stand reborn before us all

So glad to see you well


And not to pull your halo down

Around your neck and tug you to the ground

But I'm more than just a little curious

How you're planning to go about

Making your amends to the dead

To the dead


With your halo slipping down

Your halo slipping

Your halo slipping down

Your halo slipping down

Your halo slipping down [repeated]


Your halo slipping down to choke you now

Again, thanks to everyone that has been giving their input to the questions I have posted.

QUESTION 13
How did you first find out about PhuseBox? Did you see a link on a friend's site? Did you come across it on the internet? Did a friend tell you about it? etc.

Thanks!

I found a new love tonight- cranberry sauce. It's quite good.

<3

"I heard Tom Wolfe is giving a speech at Lincoln Center... Well, of course we're going to throw poo at him!"

"If you have any poo, fling it now."

"Cute n' Cuddly, boys. Cute n' Cuddly."

"Physically fit, physically fit. Physically, physically, physically fit..."

Those are a few lines from the movie "Madagascar." They need to correct accents and such, but you get the idea. The movie is a whole lot funnier late at night when you've had lots of sugar... Yeah.

Until now...

How active are my friends?  I sure haven't been, but this semester has been by far the busiest semester thus far in school/life.

Updates?

I'v got a great girlfriend, Chelsea...

The teg is down, and awaiting a JDM front, Killer alarm + numerous layers of security.  There is also a strong possibility that it will no longer remain at my house, but in a garage safe and sound.  Motor plans don't exist right now, but I don't have the money anyway.

Expo 7 is a go!

School sucks, but if it wasn't hard it wouldn't be worth doing.  I can't wait to get out.  Hang in there!

Blessings,

ry

I've been working on this crazy big project for my Children w/Exceptionalities class for about 2 months now. It was one of those kind of projects where you thought it was almost done, and then you'd discover something else you still had to add to it. I spent about 16 hours on it Saturday and then started on it again about 1 yesterday. Finally at 7 this morning, after lots of coffee and stress and working on it in the lounge with Jackie so I didn't fall asleep, I finally finished it! It was such a good feeling to turn that silly thing in this morning and not have to worry about it anymore. Tonight I've got a paper to do and an exam to study for but after today it's pretty easy from here on out. I'm looking foward to next week when I finally get to come home and know there's nothing left to stress over for a while!

today is the first day of the rest of your life love like theres no tomorrow

Printers are the devil. Who agrees?

Anyhow, I read this last night and I thought it went along quite well with my previous entry...

"As long as we do not admit that the deep things of our hearts are there - the rejection and hurt, the shame and sorrow, the anger and rage - these rooms of our heart will become darkened and the Enemy sets up shop there to accuse us.

"I am not just speaking metaphorically or poetically when I refer to the Enemy accusing us. Each of us, Christians included, is oppressed directly and specifically by the Enemy in the way I am describing. This attack happens in the spiritual realm, using the sentences and the voices we are familiar with from the past. We feel as if we are simply speaking to ourselves in our heads. And this is the Enemy's first deception: 'I am not here. It's just you struggling with all these things.' Many of us live our whole lives being defeated by this accusation. And indeed, deep in our hearts, the anxiety, shame, and self-contempt we often feel are like the attack of a roaring lion NO MATTER WHAT CALMNESS OR OTHER PERSONALITY DEVICE WE LEARN TO COVER IT UP WITH ON THE OUTSIDE. WE HIDE THE LION'S ROAR BECAUSE HE HAS CONVINCED US THAT IT IS JUST US AND WE WOULD BE ROUNDLY SCORNED IF WE WERE TO ADMIT THESE THINGS TO OTHERS.

-John Eldredge, The Sacred Romance, emphasis added

Amen, John.

sad depressing day for me. found out that one of my friends committed suicide. *cry* goodbye nathan, i'll miss you.

What do you do if words just don't seem to be enough?

I JUST BOUGHT A CAR AND IT IS THIS COLOR!!!!!!!

Ok ok ... so some of you do read my blogs ... I've never known my family to be short on words ... but guess they are in the response area.

Now that we have our shipment unpacked, Decy has started hanging things on the walls ... well, she's brought in a worker to start hanging things on the wall .... so, step by step the house is looking more like a home.  It won't be finished by the time Chris and Paul arrive, but it won't be too bad.

Went to an electronics store last Saturday. Found some awsome 300 Watt JBL tower speakers.  It was an "older style" which were 20% off so that they could start selling the "newer style".  I really didn't like the newer style and the sound was not as good.  So, I bought them ... as is typical in Indonesia most things that are on "display" are not in stock.  I am HOPEFUL that Decy can go get the speakers later this week.  Total cost US$900.

I talked to my company about the damage to my Cerwin Vega speakers. They advised to make a claim and see what the insurance will do (repair vs replace).  I'm hopeful they just give me the $800 replacement costs ... and I'll go see if I can repair them .... although they will never be restored to original condition.

>>>> TO TREE ... or NOT TO TREE.  Decy and I are in discussions regarding whether or not to decorate for Christmas. There is so much other stuff to do ... and we won't even be here on Christmas day.  Besides, we have no decorations and would have to go buy them.  Given all the other expenses this year ....I'm leaning towards not decorating.

ciao ciao

Soooo much wooooork.

Stupid mall.

Stupid extended holiday hours.

Stupid final research paper draft.

Stupid econ makeup work.

Stupid procrastination.

Yuck.

I could use a nap.  Wonder if the art lab keyboards are comfy?

i post!  leave me 15 comments before friday midnight and i'll post again!

i have built another site (with zay, and photos by paul).  check it out: here   

I had the craziest, busiest day of my life this past Friday. I woke up at 6:15, left for school at 7:15, got to anatomy and physiology by 8, then english by 9:10, and left school to go to work at 10. I got to work (The Rocking Horse) by 10:15 and worked til close which was 6:20. When I left there I went straight to Kohl's to work til close, and I didn't get out of there til it was almost 1 in the morning! I finally went to bed at 1:30 but couldn't sleep in again because I worked open-close at the Rocking Horse on the next day. When I got off, I went to the Breaux's house and I'll have to go into those crazy stories later, but I spent the night there and had a full day the next day (church, cleaned the house for open house, quick dinner/Judgment DVD break, church). When I got home from church I layed on my bed to work on an essay for english and fell asleep on my books. I woke up and realized I was sleeping on my books at around 1 or 1:30, put the books on my dresser and turned off my light, and went back to sleep. I don't think I even heard my TWO alarms go off this morning, and I must have shut the second one off in my sleep because when I woke up, it was 9:15. I missed anatomy, and by the time i would have gotten to english it would have been over, too. I can't believe I did that, but hey, I feel good and refreshed from that nice long sleep. :)

Ok, now for the funny incidents at the Breaux's house...Mrs. Tammy and Mr. Toby went to dinner at the Taglio's house, so it was just Hannah, Meghan, and me. Mrs. Tammy and Mr. Toby wanted us to move the loveseat out of the living room so we could put up the Christmas tree. We were like, "Ok, that won't be a problem." We started working on that at around 7:30 (after we watched some of Suite Life and tried to do the dances in Corbon Bleu's (sp?) music video on Disney Channel). So here's three teenage girls trying to get a couch through a doorway. We tried every angle possible and even had to move the piano as much as we could (a foot) so we could get the couch through, but nothing worked. Then we tried turning the couch on its side. Didn't work. Meghan gave up on us. Then Hannah and I stood the couch up vertically, and that DID work! We slowly maneuvered it through the kitchen, but then there was the doorway to the sunroom to get through. Eventually, we made it. After a little victory dance, we had to get the Christmas tree out from the shed. So we walked out there and Hannah scanned the shed and was like, "Now, where could it be?" Then I said, "Hmmmm...is that it?" pointing to the giant box that no one could miss laying on top of a bunch of stuff in the corner. We had to climb ontop of I don't know what to get this thing down. I was on an old excercise machine and I don't know what Hannah stood on. she moved the box a little, and saw a spider. She imitated Brad in the Contageous skit and screamed "Spider! Spider!" I hate spiders, so that freaked me out and I started screaming, "Spider!" Then on the side of the box, there were 3 more, and we screamed even louder, "Ahhhhh! Spider! Spider!" Hannah jumped down and got an empty cookie dough container, threw it to me, and I smashed the spiders yelling, "Die! Die! Die!" When they were dead and we were safe, we both sighed a sigh of relief before cracking up. Hannah climbed back up, and we tried once again to get the Christmas tree out. When we kind of had a good grip on it, we threw it down and drug it in the house. Then we had to find the stand, and we were all too lazy to go find it. I was like, "Fine, I'll get it." I walked into the shed and Hannah followed. When I got in there, she said, "Do you like being alone?" and shut off the lights and locked me in! I banged on the door and screamed "No! No! Let me out! AAHHHH! They're eating me alive! Help me! Please help me!" I didn't know that Hannah was sitting out there watching my feet jump up and down through the bottom of the door. Then I said, "Hey, I bet I could slide out from under the door." and Hannah saw me drop to the ground and poke my head out. While I tried to slide out, she was practically on the ground laughing and saying, "That was the funniest thing I've ever seen!" So it took us forever to find the stand for the Christmas tree. When Meghan figured out that the pieces laying in the living room the whole time WAS the stand, she put it together, and we went to the shed AGAIN to get the decorations and ornaments. When everything was finally in the living room and sunroom (around 9:30), all three of us put up the Christmas tree and listened to Christmas music. When we were done with that, it was time for our dinner break. We went to Wendy's, took it home, and ate it while watching Hannah Montana and singing "The Best of Both Worlds". Mr. Toby and Mrs. Tammy were home when we got back, and they were impressed that we actually got it done. We told them everything, well, almost everything, that had happened while they were gone and they thought it was funny. Shortly after finishing our dinner, we were tired and ready for bed, but when Hannah and I layed down to go to sleep we got our second wind and stayed up talking for a while. Then we decided we should go to sleep since we had to get up for church in the morning.

We will be having a free pancake buffet Wednesday, December 6th from 11 a.m. to 1 p.m.  That's this Wednesday!!  We will be serving the entire time, so come when you can and stay as long as you like!  This is one way we celebrate the end of another semester, so we hope you can come and join us!

"Always forgive your enemies,
but never forget their names."
- R. Kennedy -

Well, I took my first final today....

I would be surprised if I made under a 95%.

I owned it..... pretty hardcore. It was music theory. I had to know:

• 
  terminology-things like "alla breve" and "ana crusis" and
  stuff like that... there's a lot of it.


• 
  Scale formulas- For Major, Minor, Melodic Minor, Harmonic Minor, Pentatonic
  (both forms), Chromatic, and Whole Tone scales.


• 
  I had to know note names in solefedge (Do, Re, Me) and know them as
  "tonic, supertonic, subdominant, mediant" and stuff like that.


• 
  Intervals-I had to be able to listen to notes and tell what interval was being
  played. Some were played at the same time and some at separate times. The
  intervals are like "Minor 3rd, Augmented 4th" and stuff like that.
  There are 13 intervals that I have to know by ear.


• 
  Chords- I have to know how to construct chords, and identify them by hearing
  them. The chords are stuff like "Augmented, Diminished, Major, and
  Minor".


• 
  Dictation-My teacher played a song and I had to write what notes were in it,
  along with the rhythm that was played just by hearing it twice.

I win! Now I have a paper to finish, Guitar juries, and take one more final. Then my semester is over.

You think it can't happen to you or your friends. You think that never in a million years could something like this happen.

So did I. I still can't believe it and don't understand. The phone rang at about 11 o'clock at night saturday and my mom woke me up to tell me that there was something wrong, that someone I knew had died. I jumped out of the bed and ran to answer the phone and it's Carolyn, who tells me that Dash needed to talk to me. That's when the most unbelieveable and frightening news comes. He tells me that Nathan Wallis died friday. I'm not going into the specifics or anything just that he died friday. Our phone had been messed up all day and I wasn't home, and they had been trying to get a hold of me all day to let me know. So tommorow I'm going to a funeral for a friend.

I instinctively called several people to let them know and emailed Kenny{lack of cellphone}. And then tried to get some sleep, which I failed to do. So last night, out of fear that Kenny would not check his email in time, I sat down and began to track a number down to call him . After an hour or so I managed to find one and get a hold of him. He's going to try to come down, but he's not sure he can get off work or rearrange his schedule.

So please pray for the Wallis family and Nathan's friends at this time. I don't normally do this sort of thing, but I think that they'll need it.

So yesterday I had to go to the ER. We thought that I had a concucion. Well 1 hour later and 4 staples in my head we know that I don' t have one. We also know that my head is extremly hard (judging from the dent in the wall and metal peice) I don't know if I am strong or just really really dumb.

Sorry no Pics at this time  

   i think i have post too many chinese Characters here. well,some other time whenever i write some english poems or novels ,i will post it on here right away.

Date:04-12-07 20:40:26
 季节不再来 
花雨都来的季节里, 
她在日记里偷偷地写上 
那一句话. 
那时的竹影,那时的窗纱. 
那时的美妙,那时的傻. 
何时还能再象那时, 
偷偷地写上: 
那时的那一句话? 
2004.11.28晨 于福州大学图书馆2楼

 依奴
    依奴是孙家新买的一条狗，是爱斯基摩犬与野狼的后裔，兼有狗的特性和狼的凶狠。它毛色鲜艳，听嗅敏锐，是条上等的好狗。这是孙老爷花重金特地托朋友从俄罗斯买回来的送给他夫人的生日礼物，因为他曾听他夫人无意间说想要一条狗当宠物。而孙太太想养宠物狗的念头的出现，是有一天王太太戴着一顶白色圆帽，披着一条白色披肩，怀里抱着一条纯白色的哈巴狗，做在一辆人力车上，从她的眼前晃过。她眼前一触：“多么气质的一个人啊!雍容，华贵。”她站在那里，感叹了很久。
    依奴刚来的时候并不怎么吃饭，也不怎么活动，整日趴在院里的树下，巴望着大门。也许是背井离乡水土不服之故。鉴于此，孙夫人一日三餐悉心照料，但凡有肉或是骨头之类的，都会吩咐下人要给它准备一点。孙小姐见了，玩笑起来说它象她的半个儿子。日子久了，依奴也就慢慢习惯了异国他乡的一切，开始和孙太太亲近，要和孙小姐玩耍，孙老爷高兴得恨不能把它抱起来亲一口。时间再久一点，依奴渐渐体现了看家护主的优点，但凡有生人到家，便大声的吠叫，吓得客人轻易不敢进门。于是，孙太太又需要花般心思来调教它。它可有灵性了，孙太太教它几次之后，它便不再对客人们狂吠乱叫了。但也有例外的时候，比如乞丐临门，或是货郎挑着担子从门前经过，它却又要狂吠起来的。你看，这不是很好吗？乞丐小偷便轻易不敢近来了，而客人也吓着不到。依奴真是讨人喜欢！孙老爷是远近富得出名的商人，生意都做到国外去了，交往的自然也都是些达官贵人、社会名流。可能是因为如此，对于依奴来说，敌友便更好辨了。
    一开始，依奴并不叫“依奴”，孙小姐叫它“皮皮”，孙太太叫它“宝贝”，孙老爷偶尔叫它“皮皮”，偶尔叫它“宝贝”。有一次，孙老爷的一位日本朋友来访，依奴一见，便凑上去，在他的脚底下穿来穿去，摇头摆尾，把那位日本来的先生吓得直叫“依奴！依奴！” 孙老爷急忙出来，才帮他“解了围”。可孙老爷不解他所喊的“依奴”，于是便问他是何意？原来他这位日本朋友讲得一口好中文，只是那时情急，所以便用日语喊了来。孙老爷一开始以为是他在喊“救命”，没想到在日本语中，狗的发音却是“依奴”。孙老爷因为要同日本人谈生意，难免要用些日语，所以，但凡他平日遇到的，他都会用心地记下。因此，他便正式地给“皮皮”“宝贝”定名，自此，一家人都唤它做“依奴”。孙太太不喜欢它成为一条看门狗，因为它也是出身名门，算得上北方的贵族，不能辱没了它。所以，她经常带着“依奴”出去逛街、散步，但凡遇见友邻，便夸它如何的聪明伶俐，如何出身高贵。另外，她还会特地告诉他们，它拥有的是一个日本名！朋友邻居们也都会笑着回赞几句，露出羡慕的表情。
     时间一晃，依奴已在孙家生活上了一年多了。可是有一天，它突然被孙老爷用绳子栓了起来，它委屈地爬在地上吟呜了两天。后来它发现孙家多了个人，原来是孙少爷从国外留学回来了。孙老爷怕依奴吓着了儿子，才出此下策。过了几天它又重复自由了，但它全然不记孙少爷的仇，一个劲儿想跟他亲近。孙少爷虽说属狗，但天生怕狗。虽然依奴的友好让他不像对其他狗那么害怕，但孙少爷总还是心怀顾虑，对依奴不敢太亲近，不敢让他亲妮自己。可孙小姐却时常带着依奴去作弄她的哥哥，要它去添他。孙少爷最疼他妹妹，小时候孙小姐很调皮，经常被欺负，每次都时孙少爷为她出头，经常被人打得这青那肿的。于是孙太太便不让他们兄妹俩跟其他的孩子玩，说他们都是些没有教养的劣童。兄妹俩小时的玩伴也只有那些表兄妹了。在现在这种时候，有时也没有办法，在妹妹强烈要求下，偶尔也战战兢兢地伸出一只脚，悬着心，任由依奴去摆弄。孙小姐在一旁见哥哥的窘态了，笑得前俯后仰。孙少爷用手指推了一下她的额头，说：“你呀！一点儿都没变。”孙小姐吐了下舌头，拉着他的手臂，要他给她讲英国的风土人情。孙少爷不大会讲故事，但他的话语中却经常提到一个人－－他的一位同去留学的同学。孙小姐埋怨他讲得不好，便问他：“那英国的姑娘呢？”孙少爷用手指轻轻地弹了下她的鼻梁，说：“跟你一样调皮，喜欢作弄人。”孙小姐扬起头，撅起嘴，朝他“哼”了一声，带着依奴别处玩去了。
    次日，孙小姐正要出门，突然听到依奴在大门口大吠，她正奇怪依奴今日为何会叫这么久，如果是小贩的话，它吠一两声，小贩也就害怕地走开了。孙小姐就走出去看看，到了大门口，正看着一位整齐地穿着黑色中山装、形容清瘦的青年，一边看着拿在手上的地址，一边抬头与门牌号核对。他看到有人出来，赶忙要开口问，却惊讶了一下。
“怎么是你？”他与孙小姐异口同声地互问了对方。
“这是我家，你……?"
“我，我，请问孙庆堂可住府上？”小伙子有点回不过神来。
原来是来找哥哥的，她把依奴叫开，带着他进去找他哥哥。另他惊讶的是，他居然是哥哥常提及的那位同去留学的同学－－杨廷。孙少爷也没想到前些天救了他妹子的人竟是自己的同学好友。事情是这样的:孙小姐有个表姐是附近幼儿园的教员，前几天想带孩子们去乡下郊游，便请孙小姐同去，帮忙照看孩子。孙小姐素来很听孙太太的话，很少到一个人到野外去游玩。对农村的景象，也只能对着诗歌，凭着想象力在脑海里构想一番。看机会来了，她便央求母亲的应允。孙太太看有她表姐一起，也就答应了。此时正值春光大好的四月，到处绿意盎然。孩子们见惯了楼高车快的文明，从未如此亲近自然，显得格外地兴奋。孙小姐当然也同孩子们一样，怀着好奇的眼光，四处观望、赏玩。一路走来，过了许多个田埂，也都累了，所以就在靠近油菜花田的林子边停了下来休息。而孩子似乎永远玩不累，顽皮地在菜田梗上跑来跑去，还去看油菜花上的小蜜蜂。孙小姐想，要是能在这旁边置上一间小宅，就在这里住上了，那该多惬意啊。想着，想着，突然几个孩子大叫着朝她跑过来，原来它们拿了树枝捅破了蜂窝，一大群蜜蜂正朝他们进攻。孙小姐赶紧拉着几个孩子的手跑，可是没有办法，逃不掉。她只把孩子们聚过来，让他们脸都朝下，自己张开双臂，搂住他们，埋下脸，用身体来掩住他们，一边尖叫着。可是一会儿，她闻到了一股烟味，感觉蜜蜂不再叮咬自己了，便稍微抬头偷瞥了一眼，蜜蜂果然散去了。这时她才起了身，看见一个裤管卷地很高、脸上还有几处泥痕的小伙子，手里拿着一个头被烧坏，正冒着浓烟的稻草人 。他问她有没有事，她摇摇头，感谢了他的救命之恩。他宛尔一笑，说，不对不对，他只是想救那些无辜的蜜蜂。说完望着她点了头就走了。孙小姐觉得他是个有趣的人，望着他远去的背影，并不觉得今后还会有见面的机会。
    原来都是群有缘的人，孙小姐因此也就不出门了，陪着哥哥会友。杨廷真是个有趣的人，尤其他的故事讲得栩栩如生，不像她那笨哥哥，讲得会让人既急又气。他给她讲英国人会面时的礼节，通常是握手，有时也拥抱。他还讲到，他们的另一个同学，刚到英国不久，学校里有人来欢迎他们，其中有个英国女士很有礼貌地想和他拥抱，他之前也听说英国有这种礼节，为了不失礼，他走上前去，紧紧地抱住那位女士，害她喘不过气来，挣扎着想脱开他，大伙在一旁笑得不亦乐乎。孙小姐乐得合不拢嘴,依奴则爬在门边,似睡非睡,偶尔还偷望了几眼,似乎夹杂着点鄙夷的神色.杨廷不但很会讲故事，也很幽默。但凡孙少爷要去找杨廷，孙小姐总是要跟上的。日子久了，两人便生了感情。
     孙太太发现孙小姐最近有些不对劲，常常一个人傻笑，从他们的来往，她也看出了些端倪。可她希望女儿能嫁个门当户对的，杨廷虽留学海外，但毕竟出身农民，而且前途未卜。所以她便不让女儿与他来往，禁止她没事外出。孙小姐伤心又无奈，终日愁着个脸。孙少爷见了于心不忍，常常乘母亲不在的时候，约杨廷到家相聚。可是每次他来，依奴总是站到门口去吠，害他每次都不敢进门，只得等孙少爷来带他进来。孙小姐气依奴不解心思，成了母亲得帮手，于是便用绳子把它栓了起来。孙太太见了就责问女儿为何无故把依奴绑起来，然后把依奴解开了。孙小姐也没有回答，只是每次等母亲出门时便把依奴栓起来，估计母亲快回来的时候，再把它解开。正因如此,依奴每次看到孙太太就高兴得跳来跳去的，跟着孙太太进进出出的。
    日子就这样过了两月有余，一天孙少爷对孙小姐说，杨廷接到国家外交部的委任状，要他后天就启程去赴任。孙小姐怕以后再难相见了，于是第二天天没亮就跟孙少爷偷偷溜了出去，到乡下去找杨廷。天明后，孙太太发现女儿不见了，打算亲自去把女儿找回来。她叫洪嫂陪她一起去，毕竟洪嫂跟杨廷是同村的，路熟些。可是洪嫂自小离家，后来辗转到了孙家当了下人，听说她恨她的父亲把她卖给人家当童养媳，发誓这辈子再不回家。想来也有三十几年的样子。没怎想这三十几年，乡下的变化也不输给城里。小时候熟悉的乡间小道，如今已如隔天换月了。她带着孙太太这走走那串串，竟是找不到回家的路。这样走着走着，天也慢慢黑了下来。她心里有气，是对孙小姐。如今也只好先回家，心想着回家再收拾那丫头。没想她没走几步，刚巧到了下坡路，竟踩了个空，翻到旁边的臭水沟里去。洪嫂把她拉了起来，好不容扶着她走到了家。可是一到家门，依奴便冲了出来，见着她就咬，孙太太大叫起来。全家人赶快都跑了出来，孙少爷孙小姐赶快把孙太太送到医院，孙老爷吩咐管家李桂把依奴锁起来后也赶紧跟他们去了医院。孙太太身上多处被咬，衣服被扯得不成样子。过了两天，孙太太出院了，杨廷买了些补品来看还在床上修养的孙太太。孙太太看了杨廷一眼，再看了女儿一眼，也就没再说什么了。甚至令人颇觉奇怪地叫杨廷坐，别客气。孙小姐脸上露出开心的笑容，她不知道母亲为何转变得如此快!孙太太忽然想到依奴，便问孙老爷没把它怎么样吧。孙老爷叫她好好养伤，其他的事就不要操心了。
    杨廷为了去看望孙太太，行程耽搁了两天。到他要走的那一天，孙小姐去送他，他们俩沿着河走了很久，后来在码头边依依惜别了。杨廷坐上了客轮，孙小姐在码头上含着眼泪，望着船上的人渐去渐远了……
    这时从河的上游飘来一条狗的尸体，孙小姐认得它，不忍多看，径直回家了。
    过了两个月，孙小姐因思念杨廷，变得形容憔悴。孙少爷对父母说，不如让他带着妹子去找杨廷。孙老爷孙太太看着心爱的女儿如此的痴情，也就应允了。
     在他们沿河走向客运码头的途中,到达一座石拱桥的时候，水面游来了一群鸳鸯，双双对对的。拱桥上一个小孩子，激动地拉着母亲的手说：“妈妈，妈妈。快看！快看！水鸭！水鸭！”