Life stinks when you have 20 days vacation and you can't take them ... and then it double stinks when you can take some of them in 2-3 day increments.  And so, I take 3 days off ... work 2 days ... take 3 days off ... work 2 day ... and so goes the next couple of weeks ... and I will STILL carry into 2007 more than 10 days of unused vacation.

I can deal with the unused vacation but the pattern stinks.  First, one never really "rests" when parsing vacation .... a person needs a break from work, school, whatever .... a long weekend doesn't cut it nor achieve the true "refreshing" that a person requires.

Second, just as soon as I walk into the office, I'm hit with a firestorm of issues, problems, emergencies etc.  The days in the office are gruelling ... and everybody wants "a piece of me" before I leave again.  So, in essence ... I merely squeeze 5 days of work and stress into 2 or 3.

While I admit that taking vacation this way is "better than nothing" ... its not a whole lot better (well, actually it is) ....

Today, Decy is taking Chris and Paul around to do some stuff they've never done before. I won't spoil the surprise (as they might read this blog when they wake up) .... but they or I will blog about it tomorrow.

*** Oh before I forget, got home last night and found Paul doing karaoke Christmas caroles.  He did some other songs too .... he CLAIMS to have achieve a 96 on one song before I got home ... but all I saw was 70s and low 80s.  BTW, I did one song (sorry that's all last night) ... got a 92.  Paul - eat your heart out. Chris - go back to sleep (actually he slept thru the karaoke, mumbled something about being "tired").

Well, time to get back to work ... its already 500am.

ciao ciao 

ok well haveing a gaming party here
yeah lots of funiess
so yeah
two more exams
then off for winter break
so much fun blah blah blah
might get some new earing holes above the ones that i already have
and yeah
i think it would be awesome
there is ten people here right now so yeah
any everyone is doing something
hehehehehehe
justins gift should be coming here soon but dont know when though
geeeee i am tried and i have study for biology and geomarty
i need to look at my biology review sooo yeah
well i am out

meg

i have an honors class!!!! muh ha ha ha and lol at the same time. I will be in a Senior Seminar.................. wow.... should be interesting!   

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this was not hard. the people were very helpful. the end.

it's that day again where i turn yet another year older. i'm the 2-0.thats right, it's my BIRTHDAY. i dont feel old. but i feel.......worn out. who knows.

hope ya'll have a great day. i'll update more later on.

piece

What happens when the mall is open ridiculously late?

1.  Business dies.  Because no one really expects the mall to be open till 10 pm on a Sunday, not even eight days before Christmas.

2.  Employees get bored.  VERY bored.

3.  Employees start acting kind of weird, scaring off what few straggling customers there are at 8 PM and later.

4.  Since they have nothing better to do, Dip'n'Dots and the Cookie Store negotiate an exchange - three small ice creams for eight cookies and a drink.

5.  The Cookie Store + Our Daily Bread + matches + light bulbs + compact discs + cell phones + microwave ovens = hours of entertainment

I'm realizing more and more how good it is to be home. It was so nice being back in church this morning. And tonight was great. I was supposed to have plans tomorrow, but sadly it looks like I don't. I'm free all week except Wednesday night. If someone wants to hang out let me know. I definetely don't have anything to do.

So. I just finished watching the ENTIRE Sailormoon Series.

All 200 episodes. Gah! I love that show.

Danny

Christmas Break is already here.  It amazes me how quickly my first semester at college went by.  Things seem to be going really good.  The transition up here from Florida was pretty painless.  I have made a lot of friends, found my place in the church, and have a wonderful boyfriend (who I miss dearly right now).

Things with my brother seem to be calming down.  Yesterday was pretty bad though.  We never stops purposely annoying me.  Err.  He's pretty sick today though, so I feel bad for him, but I can't help but to wonder, could this be Karma?  As bad as that sounds, I really do want him to get better, I hate it when he's sick.

Overall things are good.  I finally fell as if I'm finding my place in life.

Life goes on.  Went to Aunt Dink's funeral today.  Turns out I was wrong - she was 92, the same age her sister (my great-grandmother) was when she died.  What are the odds?  That means I'm stuck with my evil aunt for another 50 years; I'll probably die first.

Anyway, I'm in Memphis (as I said already), and I wish I was in Cookeville or, even better, Sparta, TN.  I miss my friends and this one particular girl; my family I can do with or without...maybe I could bring Jason back with me and he can drop out of school and work and we can just hang out and stuff...

Yeah, right.

Hooper and I took our sisters to dinner and a movie today. It was a lot of fun. I took them in the '65 Mustang

This whole weekend has been tough, weird, and frustrating ... even though I took off Wed-Fri everything seems so out of whack.

While leaving Jakata on Friday and going through emmigration, I forgot to complete the departure card ... had to leave the line and do it.  Then I got completely discombloberated and was thinking "Singapore" not "Jakarta" and filled out the card as an "arrival card" not a "departure card" ... all info backwards.  I finally corrected that.

Plane leaving Jakarta was an hour late .... which means that I would have a tough time being on time to meet my friends at 730pm at the hotel.

Arrived in Singapore only to find out my handphone didn't work there.   ARRGGGHHHH.  After checking into the hotel, made a couple of quick phone calls ... to let Decy know what was going on ... and James, as he hadn't heard from me.  James picked me a few minutes later (after a good hot shower) and we were off for parts unknown.  Made it back to the hotel at 4am ... still not sure where he took me.

Saturday, get on the internet to figure out where the boys are ....after several emails from Jeana and checking the flights on the internet, it appeared all was fine ... glad I DID NOT see Jeana's 1st email ... and then wait for the 2nd.  I would have been panicked.

Did some shopping, ran around, had lunch in Little India ... rehecked the email to see the flight time from Japan to Singapore .... looks like the boys are arriving early.  So, I clean up and take a rest waiting for James and Nathan to call me .... room is hot hot hot ... a/c not working well.  ARGH !!!

Found out my PDA works in free hotspots and I can check emails from my hotel room.  Yeah !!!!

James calls me ... tells me to take a cab to Singapore Indian Association.  So, I try to do that and wait an hour in the sweltering heat for a taxi ... Scott's Road on Saturday night and xmas time is a mess .... by then its time for the airport, so I go straight there ... never made it to SIA.

Finally get the boys to the hotel about 130am ... then we go walking to stretch the legs.  Then talk in the hot hot hot room.  Finally, I think around 430am we try to go to sleep ... I'm on a chair, boys on a jumbo king bed.  I can't sleep in the chair, so i sleep on the floor using a towel for a pillow.  After several lame attempts to sleep, we get up at 8am ... shower, go for a walk, try shopping.  Finally we get some successes (which I cannot talk about right now, due to the readership of this blog).

We finally head to the airport to take of some stuff there, could have been on an earlier flight (but we stay with our current schedule as I can't call Decy to send the car earlier).  MISTAKE .... due to a series of weather issues, mechanical issues, and just plain dumbness our flight is 3 hours late.  Boys are collapsing on me and I'm not doing much better.

>>> sweltering heat waiting to make it through immigration in Jakarta .... that was a fun 45 minute exercise.

Finally make it to the house at about 1030pm (no traffic at that hour) .... we show the boys the house ... eat some Izzy Pizza and surprise C&P with Dr. Pepper !!!!  All head to bed about 1130pm.

I'm up at 345am, shower, shave, stagger to this crazy computer.  And now, Chris has woken up and is beside me .... so, I will close for now.

Ciao ciao

"Boredom is a great motivator."
- Uma Thurman -

i won't say who this one reminded
me of....
*smirks*

So, Friday I had a lot of time to myself as my sisters and mom went shopping (they took Sam, too). I did my laundry, read a book, watched shows on Discovery Health about babies and cooked dinner (and made rice crispy treat shapes--giant C-mas tree and a wreath). Then yesterday I watched Sam for a long time and made egg rolls. Yes, that is MADE: I cooked the stuff to go inside and rolled them, thanks. I also taught him four or five of his colours in Spanish. We were both excited about that one.

What is happening to me? As soon as Chris leaves, I turn all domestic. I was taking baby steps before, but now I just jumped for it. Oy vey... I want to go back to being an irresponsible college student. That was fun.

There is now sufficient evidence that Santa Claus is the government's code for Big Brother. It's coming. You just wait. More on that later.

Some people like to dress up just for the sake of getting all dressed up.  Not me.  Black jeans is about as dressed up as I'm getting these days.


Chris and Hooper even dress up to play DDR.  It's addictive you know.  DDR! Not dressing up! so silly...

Well I've just got home after spending the night at a indoor rock climbing are...and it just a great place. And yep that's about it for today...nap time! I'm worn out!

A little green man once said
"Do or do not, there is no try."



Here is to you Yoda.

So yeah...my post.  I've really had time to post lately, but well see how this goes.

So finals were a couple of days ago.  I was lucky and got finished on Thursday and didn't have to go to school on Friday, which allowed me to hang out with some of my really good friends at the December 4-H Honor Club meeting. 

This also allowed me to realize some things about myself that I really didn't want to realize. But its all good now and I am at peace with some things that have been in the back of my mind lately. 

So yeah Christmas break is going good so far, and its just going to get better...i hope.  I mean I'm going to get my license and my hair cut and me and becca are going to go shopping for my dress for the semi-formal at school.  So I can't wait.

But life is really good right now and I'm really excited about starting the new year with some new ideas and feelings about things.  I know that it will take some work, but I am totally ready to have a change of heart about some things and deal with others. 

So yeah, this is a really long post.  I'll put more up later.

EIGHT DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah, I've been listening to Three Days Grace. I also went to see the new James Bond movie.

Robert's home, the stupid. You can't help but love him though.

We went to Bo Bo's for dinner, yum. I haven't been there in a while, I forget how dang good it is. I usually get Won Ton soup with something else, but I felt spontaneous.

Geez, it's one in the morning and I'm rambling about chinese food, I need help.

Bored...that's one thing I forgot about Murfreesboro. It's boring. At least without friends or somethin going on. So I'm sitting here, been reading a book forever b/c I can't sleep. Church in the morning....

God is getting my attention about something in a manner I don't understand, and quite frankly, it's confusing.
Out
of all the times I've heard people say "I don't understand what God's
doing," or something to that degree, I am experiencing that, probably
to the greatest extent I have in my walk with Him.
It's awesome, sort of, but then again, it's just weird.

God is cool though, because, yeah, He's so big and knows so much more than me!
So even if I'm not hearing Him to well, I still know He knows what He's talking about.

tell me what you think

im open to suggestions. ( :

i take a break
step back from life
wonder if i accomplished anything
i look inside myself
try to read whats on my heart
the doors are closed
ill check my head
my head doesnt tell me what i need to know


its not done yet. i got a little stuck, but there we go.

I don't know why or how or if it's possible... but its like I feel a million things at once.

NMH.... sometimes the things of the world, you know, bills,gossip,sunday drivers, need i say more can reallly take a major toll on an individual. day by day passes and we are always encountering new circumstances day after day; questioning ourselves how am i going to handle this! we get caught up in our daily routine and forget about whats really important, but what is? See, i am writing to myself mainly; as each day passes i get caught up in the world and sometimes without even realizing whats going on i forget what i am supposed to be doing, but wait, bills are important because you do have tp pay them or suffer the consequences of not, your job, family etc. what i am trying to explain here is that prioritizing is key. i tried to live my own life, ever since i moved out on my own i have encounterd a whole lot of troubling,almost unbearable circumstacnes... i wanted to give up numerous times, but somoething deep dowm inside said, "your not a failure".... that someone is God. No matter the circumstance i know God is going to take care of every need i lay down at his feet. i have the security and faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. My advice to you whoever reads this blog... Don't give up! God loves you and is always there even though you can't see him, he's there; he'll stick closer than a brother... all you have to do is believe and have faith in him.

UK WON!!!!!!!

                                  

weirdest thing, my body never experienced saturday yesterday.  check out the post on thechrismorgan.com.  i feel WEIRD!  you should read the post.  it's promising!

im exhausted

bellringing for salvation army at sam's was today

1-4

now im gonna take a nap.

it was fun though. ( :

hmmm. strange how a new twist on a relationship can bring up old memories...

being a girl is interesting. so many facets of all kinds of neuroses. i wish someone would tell me how to make it uncomplicated.

but on a less emo note...

life's good!! school is so almost done...i do still have the exam from Hades coming up (APUSH)...but that's ok. i guess i can wing it.

so here's a song that is totally what i'm feeling....

 Hello Lord, it's me your child
I have a few things on my mind
Right now I'm faced with big decisions
And I'm wondering if you have a minute, 'cause
Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

I don't doubt your sovereignty
I doubt my own ability to
Hear what you're saying
And to do the right thing
And I desperately want to do the right thing
But right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

And somewhere in the back of my mind
I think you are telling me to wait
And though patience has never been mine
Lord, I will wait to hear from you
Oh Lord, I'm waiting on you

Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I think you're whispering

hmmm...sara and God...they always seem to know just what's in my heart...---Cari

is it weird that this school years already 1/2 way done.

AND its like basically 2007.

So I hate being emo, but I really hate everything right now. I hate some friends and family and I don't understand anything. All I really know is I hate Christmas and I want out of da' Boro as soon as I can.

so i got up at 5:45 AM to come shark other people's purged classes..... good news and bad news.

i got into the 1PM Con Law class i wanted!!!!! and don't have to take that 8AM one! (I wil sacrifice one very early morning to avoid other ones!!)

so... that bad news. one of my classes didn't make. it was an honors one.... the only honors one i had..... so not only could i get kicked out of my dorm if i dont find another one, but i'll be behind in the honors program as far as graduation requirements and have to double up somewhere..... and that whould.... well,....... SUCK!!!

so now i'm looking for an honors class....... i want to go back to bed. and i soooooo can't find any that i can take w/ my schedule. i even tried honors theatre appreciation and we all know how much i'd love that...........(for those of you who misssed the sarcasm.....i'd hate the class with the passion of a 1,000,000,000,000 fires)

my "login" keeps somehow becoming "expired"

gar. that's about all i can say. gar.

at least i know honors classes aren't that hot of a comodity. well is in now 6:30. i have found ONE honors class that fits my schedule that i could take (aka not Honors Gentics or French II) but it requires a junior standing and special permission from the dept. there is one spot left. maybe i can get it monday bbefore the perso who was purged from it gets back in...........maybe. anyway. i have 12 hours. i'm going to bed.

Its 7pm here in Singapore ... boys should arrive about 1140pm ... local time ... approx noon Saturday, Nashville or Florida time (more or less).  I'm excited ....

Been trying to do some shopping today and not doing a very good job of finding what I want ... urrgghhh !!!!

Gotta go meet some friends for dinner ..... ciao ciao ...

If all goes right I should get a decent nights sleep tonight! I can't wait.

Chris and Paul are probably flying over dangerous countries at the moment. I never get time changes right, so I have no idea if they are in the air or in a foreign country. Either way, they are far too close to commies for my comfort. I will miss Chris more than I care to think about, so I won't. So there!

I went to have coffee with my sis tonight after a lovely Wal-Mart trip. We talked for about an hour. I go to school with the girl and I never see her... How messed up is that one?

I am about to make a decision that will stay with me for the rest of my life (literally, the REST of my life), so pray that I make the right one, Oh Reader Of My Post. It is not exactly life-changing, but it is important. I'll probably let you (whoever you are) know how it turns out if you ask. Oh dear... Good times.

I love you, Oh Reader Of My Post. So much. You don't even know. Yeah, that means you.

I just realized that I have two "Number 8" posts, so this one will have to skip. Numbers hate me, and the feeling is mutual.

after the second one my brain was pretty much non existant. id say oatmeal.

the first one was physics: 40 multiple choice. of course you still have to know how to do the problems....i just started taking numbers and dividing or multiplying til i got an answer choice.

and second was english.oooooooooooh man this one almost killed me. 10 identifications, 10 vocab words(you had to give the definition), and 2 essays.

and this weekend i have to finish my senior research essay and chaucer essay as well as study for pre cal and spanish III, what fun

plus bell ringing for salvation army which will hopefully be fun. at least it wont be freezing.

Wow, it's been a while. Not much has happened. I'm out of school on Christmas break; yesterday was my last day. My birthday was last Friday and it was all good. I got a lot of presents, and I'm still getting them. It's exciting!! :-) I worked for Chris yesterday after school and again today. No me gusta. I mostly worked with mulch (sp?) and no my hands are practically stained black. I wonder if bleach would work...anyway. I'm really sad that it's not cold yet. I mean really, it's already the 15th of December and it's still warm enough to work in a T-shirt. It's so sad. :-(  ummm...like i said, not much is happening. I lead a pretty boring life.::shrugs:: God is good. He has blessed me in so many ways; continually showing me new things. He is amazing.


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I forgot to say...I got my permit!!! I've only driven a manual, and...i'm not so good at the whole starting, stopping, and downshifting, but other than that...i'm pretty good! ;-)

He's home!! That stupid brother of mine is finally home!!!!!

first, if you have 'on demand' you should do some karaoke. seriously. i just sang some christmas songs and danced around to others. fun times.

secondly, i feel God awakening my heart. and it is pretty awesome. i guess for a while i have felt rather distant from God... and lacking in passion. and this week God has put an amazing woman in my path that has helped to be an encouragement to me. and i feel His desires for me and my life stirring in my soul... and i am starting to see clearly a glimpse of my future... and it feels good to know that God will always be taking care of me. i feel i have been overly cautious with my faith lately... and feel the need to just leap, and walk in faith again. goodness. i have been waiting for a long time for this. i guess my sleepy soul finally decided to wake.

welp! i hope everyone has a wonderful night!

if u need some good clean secular music to listen to, try "shine on" by needtobreathe and "open your eyes" by snow patrol. You will like it if you're a fan of alternative type stuff.

I made a 100 on my geometry exam today. My spanish exam was fairly easy too. I'll keep ya'll posted on my grades and new job.

so i'm writing this from circut city as i wait for my parents. apparently a Christmas present for ME is being bought at the moment. this comes after i helped my amazing, loving, totally wonderful parents wade through my siblings' technologically filled Christmas lists and explained fun terms. anyway we went to check out and my mom goes "let's go look at big screens!" and i'm like, "why? do you want one?" "no, but lets go look at them." lol so the best part was that she wanted to llok at plasma screens but didn't know what to call them so just lumped them in with big screen tvs..............mmmmmmk

well today i took my keyboarding and latin
keyboarding i am pretty sure i did pretty well on it
man that test took me all period to do><
it wasnt hard it was just long as hell
latin was hard....i didnt fail it
i was the one who made the highest
sadly it was only a c....lol
it was an 81>< but mr.ogles is adding 9 to 14 points
so either i made a 90 or 95
either is good so yeah
i study my ass for that test....
and some how made the best grade out of regual latin two people
if you didnt know there are three different groupes of latin two
the real smart people
the people who are going to latin 3
and the people who are in latin 2
but hell i sould be proud that i made the highest on that test...
monday i have to take english two honors and visal art 1
so yeah i am bored
and today went to marble salpe...yeah later

meg

YAY!!! i am babysitting and i get to play dress up! wow thats like awesome isnt it?!? GO CANDACE i rock now! lol well i have to go watch these little things lol! ttyl write to me


<3
Candace

I just deleted my entire buddy list!

mid terms are going ok i guess..

i'm not so sure what i got on the geometry but i know it wont be an A..and i can pretty much say the same about my 3rd 6 weeks grade in there. and i know i got and 82 on my geography mid term and i know i have an A in there...

well i have more monday and tuesday and then no school for a week and 6 days!!!

YAY ME!!!!

Darlin Christmas is coming
salvation army bells are ringing
Darlin Chrismas is coming
do you believe in angels singing
darlin snow is falling
falling like forgiveness

Went and saw OVEr the Rhine last night with Beks, Holly, hannah, Kristen, and david last night... Absolutely amazing. Enthralling. We splurged on the christmas CD.
They sung a whole bunch of new songs... So good. cant wait for them to come out on CD. :) :P).

Then off to the big Cafe Coco for about forever. Did some skipping, wrestling and ballroom dancing. got home around late and were asleep at about 3:30-4:00 after a lovely bottle of Muscato. MMM.
Despite any examinations the following morning. They're a joke anyways.

I am a happy camper.

happy happy happy.

I've got a 3.3 cumulative GPA.  Not good, but not bad.  I'll have it up to 3.5 next semester and keep slowly pressing it higher over time.  I'm checked out of my dorm, have everything loaded up in the car, and am finishing up a few last Christmas cards.  So now I'm wasting time in the Office because I'm just too nice to take my free time for myself.  What can I say?  I would feel too guilty.  I'll have fun tonight.

hello i am new on this site , and am excited to meet new people ! if you dont know me , i am a nice , good , smart , athletic gurl who just likes to have fun !

so, i dont know if everyone else figured this out before me and just forget to mention it, but, college is hard...and well, i dont really like it all that much. but anyway, i'm trying to get all of these gen ed. classes OVER WITH so i can start doing things i actually enjoy! sooo, today i finished my scheduale (special thanks to those who didnt confirm their classes and i got to pick another!!!)

_spring 2007_
mwf: elementary german 1 (scary!!!!)
mwf: psychology of social behavior (very excited about this one)
mwf: math for general studies (eeek!)

tr: survey of us history 1 (excited about this. i hear the prof is really good)
tr: geology (geology again, i currently have a d+ in the class...)
tr: research and argumenative writing (yay!)

So, I think I should reflect on this past semester.

So, I came
here in August worried about fitting in, if I would make lots of new
friends, if I would make it in my classes, you know, the general
freshman worries. I'm glad to say that I've done fine. I feel like this
place was made for me, I feel so at home in Memphis, even though I
don't know my way around yet. I have a 3.4 GPA as of today, with three
more classes to post grades, that makes me amazingly happy. I've made many friends...and by friends I mean people who call me after school and on weekends to go out to eat and stuff, yay.

The
friends that I've made are amazing. I feel like I have people that can
help me with everything. Like yeah, everyone is great. I have an
amazing roommate, it's so fun to have someone to watch my cartoons with
and laugh. The teachers that I had were fabulous. Like, yeah...Dan and
Dr. V are the shiz.

Hm...dating in Memphis, I think I should
talk about that because I get asked often. So after Tyler I went on
dates with a few people, they were all fun, but yeah...didn't last
long. I'm currently seeing a guy named Steven, he's a sophomore at
Baptist College of Health Sciences, and he's one of the sweetest people
ever. Yeah, I'm so glad that I get to see him everyday and spend time
with him. He works at starbucks (woot!) and is a dj at various clubs,
so he teaches me about all the music that he does, it's fun. I'm going
to experience him work on Wednesday, I'm excited. His mom and step-dad
dude are the coolest also. And yeah, his dogs, 5 HUGE dog,
haha...they're fun. The interesting thing is, he smokes...and for
people who knew me in high school, I wasn't really attracted to
smokers, but I guess I got used to it. Kissing isn't that big deal
either, like, I can't really tell and I've kissed him in the middle of
his smoke break, so I'm enjoying it. God only knows how wonderful I
feel when I'm around him and after all the mess earlier in the
semester. He's a keeper...and he likes onions and mayonaise, yay.

I
think my horn playing has improved a lot. There are still aspects that
hold me back, but that's normal. I'm proud of how I'm playing and I'm
looking forward to my improvement next semester. This time next year
I'll hopefully be getting gigs playing more often, which excites me. My
favorite ensemble this year would be, hands down, my wind quintet.
Yeah...if you only knew how much fun I've had with the four of them,
they're great.

Living on campus has been wonderful, but I
wouldn't mind getting an apartment close enough where I could ride my
bike. One of my favorite new people, Chris, and I have talked about
getting one over the summer. [He's the theatre guy I go to Perkins with
late at night, if I've talked about that before.]

But yeah, that's about all...I'm loving college so far, and next semester should be even better.

The semester is over.

Thank goodness.

I haven't checked my grades in a while. I know my astronomy grade is up... but yeah... I just haven't gotten around to looking at it... maybe tomorrow. I should be getting all A's minus a B in astronomy. My first college B. But oh well. I worked hard for it. It was a tough class for me. Therefore, I'm proud of it.

Pretty sure that Jolene and I got a 149/150 on our video project. That kicks butt. Now I really have to show it to everyone!

And no more general education classes. That feels almost as awesome as being finished with science forever!

I got to hang out with Ashley Orman tonight! That was nice. I like random hanging outs. And we don't hang out enough. And I exposed her to Pride and Prejudice, aka, the most amazing love story ever! We decided we wanted to be propsed to at a cool building in England in the rain... yeah... probably won't happen... but oh well!

I better get off now... it's 11:06 and I need to work tomorrow. And sell back my books! Yay! No more books!

Ok, so I have been single for quite some time now, I jsut never get on this to change my status or blog.

XC season was amazing this year. The girls rocked and we are just amazing. Senior year has made me realize many things. I am incredible (self confidence is growing I think), the less I care the happier I am, and that I just go to school to sit down. Well that is about it.

BTW, I have been accepted at MTSU and UTC. Hopefully my mom will let me go and allow me to attend UTC.

Well, I never post anything on here so I decided to put something random on here, but I don't have anything random to post, lol.

I can't wait till Christmas!

God Bless!

~D'Rae~

A few minutes ago, I learned that my Uncle Dave passed away.  He was approximately 100 years old ... and the oldest in our family.  He will be missed by many.  He was loved by many.  He touched many.

Uncle Dave had many unique stories ... but the most amazing is his "nationality".  That side of my family immigrated from an area that was sometimes "Russia" and sometimes "Poland" depending on wars and the border movements.  Yeah, that's right, I'm either part Russian or part Polish.

Anyway, when the family immigrated there was great grandpa, great grandma, great aunts, great uncles, and a (I think) 6 kids from GGP/ GGM .... but something funny happened along the way and in New York Harbor Uncle Dave was born.  Because he was in "American waters" he was deemed "an American" .... a gazillion immigrates coming off the boat ... and one American new born baby.

I have visited Ellis Island where the immigrates were processed.  If you ever have a chance to go there ... do it.

..... I love you Uncle Dave ... may you rest in peace .... may you be with God, Jesus, and Aunt Carrie.

Finally, Friday ... in less than 2 hours I head to the airport to fly to Singapore to meet Chris and Paul.  They leave Nashville about 11 hours from now.  The achilles heel for this trip is their Washington DC connection .... very tight.  All going well, I WON'T hear from them tonight ... meaning they made their connection ... if something goes wrong ... we will adapt the plan.

While waiting for Chris/Paul, I will visit my friends and do some shopping.

Went out with Decy last night .... we went up to the Sabang area ... which you can't find on a map (I tried).  I looked around at the street cafes ... and signs were saying "Bang Roby" ... so I asked Decy what/who was "Bang Roby" ... apparently "Bang" is slang for brother ... and "Roby" is a guys name.  So, I finally figured it out ... the street cafes were owned by Bang Roby.  Decy pointed him out to me and I introduced myself.  Told him how much I enjoyed his good food ... which probably was a shock for him (coming from a bule) ... but I really do.  I will take Chris and Paul there ....  

As for those that are confused about time change ... just consider this ... for this part of the world ... we are approximately 12 hours ahead of you... so your Friday morning is my Friday night .... your Friday night is my Saturday morning.

ciao ciao

I don't have a mid-term tomorrow!! Yay!!!

I do have to go to Jamestown, my dad's uncle passed away. I'll be up there all day, more than likely in a skirt. Thats's not a yay.

I can't think of much else to say.

So my great-aunt Dink died today.  It wasn't too much of a blow or too unexpected because she was approaching 200 years old...seriously, though, she was in her 80's, so we were expecting it soon.  Anyway, I'm off to a party, so I'm happy!

Well I had my first wreck.

GOOD....... I LIKE A GUY FOR MORE THAN HIS LOOKS

BAD....... I DID NOT HAVE A A-OKAY DAY BECAUSE 1. A MEANIE FACE CALLED ME ANERXIC IN FRONT OF LIKE 20 PPL( I AM NOT ANERXIC OR HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT)2. A FRIEND ISNT BEING VERY NICE....3) I JUST FEEL BAD AND I DONT KNOW WHY

THE OKAY......I HAVE BLUETOOTH ON MY PHONE WHICH IS KINDA LIKE TEXT...ONLY FREE

Okay, so I've gotten all of my finals finished.  My grades so far: French (C), Social Psych (B), and Developmental Psych (B).  I'll get my Biology grade sometime soon, but I'm expecting A or B.  Probably a B.

I was going to say something else, but it's not that important.  Now I've got three days and four parties.  Hoorah.

Yes they do and we all know it.....I got a virus on my computer about 2 weeks ago and it has blocked out alot of my daily routine.....I couldn't even do school work at home cause I couldn't get to some where to do it or if I was writing a paper some site to send it.....but yea I am sitting on campus right now just finished all of my finals and just wating to relax a little bit today and then start my full time work schedual.....but yea computer is still messed up so you can leave a comment but I might not get it for a couple of days.....peace out bye

10 MINUTES TIL THE LAST FINAL OF THE YEAR!!!

TOUGH GUYS WEAR PINK

You.

Can.

Only.

Type.

One.

Word.


Not as easy as you might think...


1. Where is your cell phone?:

purse

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?:

studying


3. Your hair?:

up

4. Your mother?:
hugs


5. Your father?:

Daddy-O


6. Your favorite item?:
pillow


7. Your dream last night?:

bad


8. Your favorite drink?:

gatorade



9. Your dream car?:
Charger!

10. The room you are in?:

dorm


11. Your ex?:

learning


12. Your fear?:

failure


13. What do you want to be in 10 years?:

loved


14. Who did you hang out with last night?:

Brently!!!


15. What you're not?:

ugly


16. Muffins?:

chicolate


17: One of your wish list items?:

sparklies


18: Time?:

lunch


19. The last thing you did?:
eat


20. What are you wearing?:

halo


22. Your favorite book?:

old


23. The last thing you ate?:

Muffin


24. Your life?:

wonderful


25. Your mood?:

stressed


26. Your friends:

hilarious


27. What are you thinking about right now?:

exam


28. your car?

tank


29. What are you doing at the moment?:

SURVEY


30. Your summer?:

blast


31. Your relationship status?:

taken


32. What is on your tv?:

off


33. When is the last time you laughed?:

morning


34. Last time you cried?:

yesterday


35. School?:
finals

i preached last night!  it rocked!  you guys can download the file at
http://www.thechrismorgan.com/sermon.html.  Gotta say, it was pretty awesome!

blehhh.

i dont like phusebox.

i forgot i even had one!

 I'm so glad to be back. I didn't realize how much I'd missed it. And so far things have been really really good. It's so great to realize I get to be here for another 3 or so weeks. I'm just afraid I won't want to go back.

 On another note, I made an A in my Special Education class. All that work finally feels worth it

So let it be known that I hate moving!  I can't get motivated to pack and I have to wait until Trent gets here to actually move anything to my car because it is too heavy for me!  It's frustrating because it seems like I have a lot of stuff here, but I don't and it's confusing me!

Oh the fun!

Comcast recently overhauled their website with a very easy-to-use interface... very web 2.0ish.

I thought, "Awesome... here is a company that finally gets that you do not need to try to push every product you offer all on one page... simple, and easy to use. Very nice." Comcast was looking great to me.

Well, if only Comcast's internal accounts system was overhuled in the same process. It seems to me that all energy was spent rebuilding the site and not enough was put into connecting the site to the account management system.

Instead of making manual payments every month, I decided to register for the automatic bank draft on my Comcast account. Easy enough, right? The no-thinking-automatic-withdraw thing was appealing to me. The thing is that I never got any sort of confirmation. Slightly confused, I just accepted that the payment was going to go through, and probably at the end of the month. So I waited.

Bad decision.

The payment did not go through that month. And I did not make a manual payment. So, even though I registered for the automatic online payment, now I was stuck with my next month's bill being twice as much and, in addition, a nice late fee.

I tend to be understanding in situations like these, so I just thought... ok, fair enough. And the next month, in order to escape from the same thing happening, I decided to make a manual online payment in the amount of almost $300 for two months of service, assuming that this payment would overide the automatic payment. Good, I thought. Next month I will not have to deal with this.

Wrong.

It turns out that Comcat's account system does not automatically flag your account as PAID. I found a nice second payment AUTOMATICALLY drafted at the end of the month.

Total taken by Comcast in one month: $600. ((month 1 + month 2)*2)

Luckily I was able to get Comcast to reverse the automatic payment, but not before it did some damage to my bank account.

Moral of the story: 1. don't trust automatic online payment systems and 2. don't use Comcast

I say number 2 but in reality, they have a monopoly in my area, but that is a whole other blog post. Thus, I will continue to use Comcast, but I will be making manual payments from now on after completely shuting off the automatic draft.

Unfortunately, Comcast does not look too good to me anymore.

Frustrating. 

ever look at past journal entries and realize exactly one year ago you were going through the same damn thing? Well, it happened to me and I am so fucking sick of this damn cycle, *sigh*, ah well.

…Perhaps, paradise is not so much a physical state, but a dream created by the mind as a last resort to sustain the sanity of a person that is about to fall completely into a dark mass known as depression; it is not reality but a lie to prevent destruction....

…Think about it. Whenever things seem to be getting increasingly worse and completely spinning out of control, something happens that restores your high, but is it something that happens that restores you?

Confusing? What if this 'thing' isn't what created this joy? For
example, you look at a tree during fall, dead and cold, and realize
that in a couple of months it will be full of life with lush greens and
critters running all over it. Suddenly, you feel better and you realize
things will get better in your life, but why? You always knew that this
is the cycle of life, so why does it seem so important now? Is it some
deity speaking, or is your mind kicking in to sustain your happiness?
Perhaps, it is both? Maybe you are only happy because some part of you wants you to be in order to survive. The fact that the seasons are
following the natural order of things is not the actual reason for your
happiness, but the mind needing you to not become depressed in order to perform its functions… Interesting conundrum…

Yet, it does not speak for the moment of bliss when someone comforts
you. Your mind cannot create that. Perhaps that is the deity? Who
knows?

Aye, well that is enough for today, I think. Now onto Physics and Latin… Joy…

i was gonna do some corrections on my big english essay tonite. but i just didnt feel like it. at least i looked over it right?

its due on friday. ill do it tomorrow night. its not much...

id say half an hour

plus at least an hour for studying for midterms. haha.

ive gotta stop this procrastination thing.

I have my final in math tomorrow afternoon. Eeeeek! and AHHHHH!!!!!!

Today is Thursday, another day off from the office ... but I have about 3-4 hours work I need to do today.  Plus, need to go to the bank and take care of some things.

More furniture arrived today ... a pair of chairs and foot stools.  Still waiting to see if the dinette arrives in the next few days ... that's the last of the major pieces for December ... some other stuff is queued up for January ... but we are clearly nearing the end (YEAH !!!).  And, yes, I know, I need to take and post some pics .... I'll do that after the dinette is here.

Tomorrow (Friday) I head for Singapore ... already James and Nathan have organized to collect me at 730pm at the Grand Hyatt hotel. Saturday I will do some shopping (hope to find Xmas present for Decy) ... and will wait for Chris and Paul to arrive Saturday night at midnight (approx noon Saturday USA time).  On Sunday we will come into Jakarta.

Ok ... time to get some work done.

ciao ciao

Agh, so I'm back. Well today was an amazing day...we have a permacloud above us so the weather was fine and dandy. It was in the upper 40's, which is almost a myth around here...ESPECIALLY in December. But, all and all it was a great day. How so you might ask....

Well today I was in my ceramics class which is awesome because I do want to be a master potter. Well i've taken ceramics for over four years and had the same teacher. So as you imagine we learn alot about each other in the class. Today though, today we talked about something that I haven't really ever talked about.                                                                                                                  

We ended up talking about God and religion. He was joking around with me and said "It's okay its not like you've commited the golden sin". I laughed then asked "What is the golden sin?"                                     

He then told me that the golden sin is simply not accepting christ into your heart. That is the golden sin, without it you can never gain entrance into heaven.                                                                           

When we die Jesus stands before the book of lambs and sees that you've been accepted and on what day. He accepts your sin and dies for it so you may go into heaven. That is the only golden sin. Some religions think it maybe homosexuality or suicides, but I have this to say to that. So if I don't commit suicide or become homosexual then i'll automatically gain entrance into heaven. Of course the answer is NO!

So I guess I should tell you why this was such an epiphany. I almost commited suicide, I thought for that one choice that i was destined for hell. Mr. Bieber, my teacher has opened my eyes and given me a new outlook on life. God has accepted me and I am a lamb to him. When Jesus stands before the Lord with me by his side, he will see I've accepted him, and he then will accept me into heaven. I am saved,

Thank You Lord! I needed this day!

><

ok here is the deal
went christmas shopping last weekend...
and i am just starting to go insane lol
i am already tried of wrapping this...i just got my cousin, justin jr., a toy for christmas
and i am starting exams on friday
so friday i have keyboarding and latin II honors
monday i have english II honors and visual art I
tuesday i have biologay I and gemoatry....so yeah
and i thought i failed my gemoarty test that we took yesterday
i passed with an 80...geee that the best i did the first time and i get about ten points add to my grade to i might get a 90 on it which will bring my grade up to like a b...maybe...i have to do good on my test on tuesday in there.
so yeah
what a life lol
well i go to go  later

megan

A guy handed his girlfriend 14 roses. 13 real. 1 fake. He said i'll love you until the last one dies.. She gladly accepted them. But when she grabbed them. She said "one of these is fake.." He said "exactly. that's because i will love you forever."

but duct tape has fixed almost everything but the windshield...and i kind of avoided talking about it with my dad by bringing up my A in geometry... will i be allowed to drive ever again? i dont know... i guess it depends on what kind of mood my dad is in later...

*hums Outkast*

Here we are again... wasting time in photography.  It's kind of sad, really.  I did work yesterday.  I went out to my car in the middle of the downpour and sifted through the papers in my backseat to find the prints I made last six weeks.  I stuck them inside my hoodie for safekeeping, trudged back to the photo room, picked the two I liked best, and mounted them on pretty black boards.

That was the first real work I'd done in photo pretty much in... six weeks.  Sad, no?

Anyways.  Today. What could I entertain you with today?

Nothing new or interesting, really.  Sorry.

You'll just have to wait till my life gets less boring.

To your enemies--forgiveness

To an opponent--tolerance

To a friend--your heart

To a customer--service

To all--charity

To every child--a good example

And to yourself--respect

hey guys and gals

I've been neglecting to post because of finals this week, but as soon as they are over I will post a post worth reading...promise

so the worst part is knowing what grade you have to make and feeling like it's impossible cause you know in the back of your mind that you are not prepared enough. but if you had studied enough you could probably make that grade. oh well. it's my own fault right.

so i pretty much got the job with the news paper. at least thats what the girl said in the email. she has the same last name as me. it's kinda cool.

well i gotta study some more. well. alot more cause i have two exams tomorow

piece

Went to Club CJs last night ... had a great time ... Saw Kelly Rowland (from Destiny's Child).  She's good ... really good ... but you probably already knew that.  We were about 5 feet from her ... front row.  CJs management is always very good to Decy and I and we always have the best table in the club.

I think we are going to spend New Year's Eve at CJs ....

Some more furniture arrived today ... table & chairs for upstairs pool room ... and a really really neat hand carved teak "cabinet" for storing beverages ... glasses and that similar stuff.  I think a few chairs are supposed to arrive tomorrow (delayed vs due today)

Gotta go help Decy ....

ciao ciao

I will not take my love away
When praises cease and seasons change
while the whole world turns the other way
I will not take my love away
I will not leave you all alone
When striving leads you far from home
And there's no yield for what you've sown
I will not leave you all aone
I will give you what you need
In plenty or in poverty
Forever, always, look to me
And I will give you what you need

Okay, I know that is one of Matt Wertz's new songs but when I heard this I thought of God and how gracious His love is with us. He will never leave us alone even though we just try our hardest to get away. He is the creater of the universe and we think that we can hide from Him? I bet He laughs at that. We just have to be willing. Everyday I am thankful for the blessing that He has given me by wanting a relationship with me. How AWESOME is that? He's beautiful!

If work was fun then there would be no need to call it work, but does it have to be so dang hard?

If anyone ever thinks about attempting it... grouting walls for six hours when you haven't done a lot of grout in the near past really kills your hands, a lot

Anyway... three more days and then I get a paycheck and more important, I get to sleep

Last saturday I got to drive this gorgeous car

It is a 1965 Mustang. I drove it all day saturday, mainly to give a bunch little kids a ride in it. Lots of fun 

so the one night that i decide to try to get to sleep, do you know what happens?

the idiot in the room above me decides he needs to start hammering mercilessly.

God only knows what you could have to hammer at 10:30 at night . . . but then again, this is memphis, so maybe i don't want to know.

and as if that wasn't enough . . .

i was startled from my comfortable bed by the fire alarm.

that thing is loud enough to wake the dead . . .

the dead in siberia.

so i spent 30 minutes in the frigid cold trying to keep warm in a huddle with a few of my friends. and why was i forced to undergo such torment?

because some idiot in the kitchen downstairs burned eggs. or bacon. there were two stories circulating.

i personally started the rumor that he was cooking waffles.

so the moral of the story is don't try to go to sleep early when you are really tired and fighting off a cold.

and remember, kids:

smokie says don't cook breakfast foods late at night.

Today was a very good day!

I have papers to do. Crap.

One more paper, why am I procrastinating???

I decided to go do some minor parkour'ing and stuph outside. Bad idea. It is wet out. Result: sliding off a steel bench causing a bruise on my hand (I need to type) and landing in a very wet flowerbed (I would like to be dry).

Central Michigan University must love me.

so nathan's company had a christmas party at amerigo's tonight. and we had to get christmas gifts to play dirty santa. we got mr. and mrs. potato heads. perfect gift! anyway... so has anyone ever seen the christmas party episode on 'the office'? you know how michael gets an ipod... this girl totally opened up a shuffle. b/c of nathan's boss. it was funny and shocking.... later we found out that it was for an even bigger scheme. so long story short, nathan's boss got them all ipod shuffles. dang. i wish i had a boss like that....

anyway... it was pretty fun. i have a christmas party with my class tomorrow... i will be getting food. for free. that is pretty cool too, right?

well, i hope everyone had a great night!

Pretty sure that I got a job at Zaxby's now ya'll. Heck Yeah!!! Now I have money to take my gf out to dinner.

Ah, I'm so happy! Three A's this semester will REALLY boost my GPA back to where it needs to be :)

And then we have that C in Astronomy. But I don't care. I worked my tail off for it, and that's the last of my sciences!!! Thank God!

After my Spanish final, I went to get my credit for 1010, 1020, and 2010 processed. Yay, free credit!

I ordered 501 Spanish Verbs ((it's a book)) and Hide This Spanish Book! from Amazon when I got home and now eagerly await their arrival.

"and we couldn't bare to believe they could make it
we had to close our eyes."--never die young (james taylor)

listen to it, it's an amazing song!!!

talk about love..mhm

The age old story lines about teenagers like yourself include these words, "lost, immature, searching, lazy, unsure, naive, easily influenced, and daring. The list can go on and on. From my own experience as a teenager I can attest to the above adjectives and affirm their meanings because I have been and still battle with those at 28. Nine Inch Nails wrote a song that I'm going to talk about in this blog and I want to hear back from you if this song is "your life." Is this song speaking about where your at in life? This song USED to describe me.

Every Day Is Exactly the Same
by Nine Inch Nails

I believe I can see the future
As I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now i never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around again

Oh, no

[Chorus]
Everyday is exactly the same
Everyday is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Everyday is exactly the same

I can feel thier eyes are watching
In case I loose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end

[Chorus]

I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday you might find
I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind
I am still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could have been any other way
But I just don't know- I don't know what else I can do!

[Chorus]

I can look back in my life and see a lonely/searching young man/boy who desperately wanted someone to "show him the way." This song used to be me (emphasis on the past tense of the word "used.").

What part of YOU is in this song?

If you find yourself identifying to any part of these lines then let me be completely honest with you my friend, if I can. The identity you claim in this song can be traced back to some amount of pain and anguish and/or tragedy you have experienced. Do not let yourself be lied to that this is it; that it all stops here for you in these lyrics. That is where the lie is. It doesn't have to stop here. You have to choose whether or not you want to live in pain and anger your whole life or if you want Rescue. If you feel like there is, "no love here," I am here to awaken you to the fact that there is. This Love is waiting on you to reach out to Him and make Him the place where you run to and confide in. This Love is Jesus Christ.

Do you, "wish [there] could have been any other way,
But [you] just don't know- [you] don't know what else [you] can do!" If you feel your life is the epitomey of this song then change it. Your tears have you bitter and through with your life I'm sure. Depression has rendered you cynical, dry, and desolate. Wake up and be restored. Jesus said in John 4:14, "...whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."
Jesus Christ is the "other way" in the lyrics. When Trent Reznor "didn't know what to do" Jesus was an option the whole time. What will you choose? Stop pretending. Stop focusing on the "bledding." This is the time to truly "find yourself." Everyday doesn't have to be exactly the same. When you drink from the Living Waters which is Jesus Christ everything changes. You become a "new creation" (2 Cor. 5:17). You are no longer a slave to your pain you have endured because Jesus died and rose again to take it away from you.

Stop "repeating the same routine" away from Jesus Christ. Or this song will continue to be all you know. Your indentity will be these lyrics. And you'll continue to act out the pain you don't want to show.

If you want to know more, ticked off, totally disagree with me, or somewhere inbetween email me. I would love to talk about this with you. I once held tightly to alot of what this songs says. Jesus Christ bailed me out. I just want to show others that are trapped that there IS a Way out.

clint@belleaire.org

geee...this is going pretty fast...tomorrow is wednesday and then it be time for exams

i had gemoatry test to day
i failed it....
so yeah

Our journey with God has never been about getting closer to Him. When we accepted Christ we received the Holy Spirit, which is God. He is living in each Christians soul. Nothing can get closer than that. God is never changing and will never leave us. So he never moves. He is dwelling in each of us. Our walk with God is not about getting closer to Him, it is about learning how to stay in tune with God who is already and always so close. He is never changing. He began a transformational journey when we accepted him..... It is up to us each day to learn how to hear and sense him in our souls. I beleive to do this we must practice spiritual diciplines to allow ourselves to become open to the Holy Spirit's guidence..... To tune into the Holy Spirt and walk step and step with Him. In doing this we are transformed by the only one that can transform us.... The Holy Spirit who is God!!!!

Keep fighting the good fight of faith for our Lord Jesus Christ!

Your brother in Christ,
Jonathan

Aright i know my last post was long but I really want to know what you think of this...... Every area of our walk with God ultimatly comes down to how in tune we are with the Holy Spirit. - - - If you want to read a longer explination of this look at my last post.... What do you think about this thought and if not this.... then give me your thought on the role of the Holy Spirit in the Christians life. Thanks guys. I love each of you and hopw you all have a great end to your semesters! Keep fighting the good fight of faith!

Your brother in Christ,
Jonathan

I just finished my last exam.... I'm done for the year!

Hey yall! whats up?!? UGH  i have to go to school! Im tired and dont feel like going! i wish i was home schooled or school wasn't until Noon! well i got to go finish getting ready! ttyl! <3


Love<3Love
Miss. Candace Casey=)

Shoot for the moon if you miss you'll be among the stars.

Okay, so here's the deal.

I know this girl loves me. This causes me some awkwardness. We were friends and everything. I like being around her and stuph, but honestly... I don't know what she is going to do about it. I was really interested in her a while ago, but as we got closer I was hesitant and foolish simultaneously -- creating a feeling that I wanted her and that I didn't.

So after final exams she'll be going back home. I probably won't be confronted about it until she comes back to CMU. But seriously, I am so torn about this. Why? Because I want to be in control, but she won't give it. She consistently keeps it in her power for either of us to pursue the relationship.

Theoretically, I know how to take the power for myself. But every time I think about it extensively I find myself reconsidering on personal moral grounds. Stupid ethics. Stupid concept of morality which includes individual responsibility. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

It has even been keeping me from writing my papers. I hate this.

When I think of our next time we will see each other, in all likelihood, after new years, I get so torn -- do I approach with a hug or do I stand waiting for her to make the first move?

If I make the first move, it makes me wonder: Would I be essentially giving her the power and purpetuating the struggle? But if I do not, then she continues to decide when we move. Conversely, it could be the case that if I move first that it would give me the decision whether we move or not simply by emotional/social/psychological pressure alone.

Matt and I discussed this a lot, only not directly. He claimed that guys are required to make the move in all instances, because if he doesn't then he is submitting to her and giving her the authority.

While I can agree, I don't think it necessarily fits that I would be submitting. For example, perhaps she tries and I say "You are coming to me, but let me think about it." This would essentially feel like the power over decision is wholly rested on me.

Power aside, I do love her. Love aside, I do have a paper to write. Paper aside, I am very ready for a break from this routine.

And I need a car, desperately. Pray for me, please.

P.S.
I was convince the guy was a loser by his composure, dress, conversation style and vocabulary, plus how he and the girl interacted together. The idea that he is an EF just doesn't help his case, I guess.