gotta work tonight, pray that i stay awake, i have to work a 12 hour shift. i'm testing the un-known waters of of working for my body.

piece

Well, I'm in Tennessee, having SO MUCH FUN!!! I have missed Jane to an insane degree, it's not even funny.
She's walking around and singing...it's great. We get to sit around and talk about the silly things we did years ago...and still do.
OK, she's going to check her mail now. Much love!

the bosses are out of town.

this means i have free time.

what to do, what to do . . .

*edit*

also, i can't get aim to work. so if you plan anything, don't count on getting ahold of me that way.

SO YEA WE ARE ON THE CRUISE AND HAVE NOT RAN INTO ANY BAD WEATHER. CRUSIES ARE OK BUT I THINK I WOULD HAVE RATHER WENT TO ST. LOUIS WITH THE CHURCH. SO YEA I GET BACK ON SATURDAY AND THEN I WILL BE BACK AT THE CHURCH ON SUNDAY! HOPE YOU ALL ARE HAVING A GREAT WEEK- STEPHEN

I saw a couple of movies this weekend. We hadn't been to the movies in a while and we had some free time, so we went.

Friday night we saw War of the Worlds. It was one of the most intense movies I've ever seen in my life.The closest movie experience I can think of to compare this to is when I saw Apollo 13 in the theatre. I sat literally at the edge of my seat the entire time in that movie. WotW wasn't quite like that, but it did have all my insides tightened up. The special effects were pretty amazing, too. I do have two complaints about the movie. First, I must be getting old and crotchety or something, but the language bothers me. To me it would be just as good a story without all the dirty words. Second, the ending was horrible. If you haven't seen it yet, you might not want to read the rest of this paragraph. Ok, so everythings intense. Things keep going from bad to worse. He kills some guy. Aliens are spraying blood all over the place. None of our weapons are working against them. We're basically about to be exterminated, and there's nothing we can do. Then abruptly five or ten minutes before the end of the movie, the micro-organisms come to our rescue. Hey look, the birds are landing on the tripods which means that the amoebas have done what our tanks, fighter jets, and rocket launchers couldn't, and have miraculously destroyed their shields! The end. I haven't read or heard the original story before, but I'm assuming that they had to end it that way because that's pretty much how the original ends. Ok, then why didn't someone finish reading the script and say, "Wow, that ending is dumb. We probably shouldn't make this into a movie." Or what's so bad about changing the ending to make a better movie. It's not like Hollywood has any problems doing that on other movies. I know I sound a little harsh. As a whole I liked the movie, but the ending just left a bad taste in my mouth.

Movie number two...Mr. and Mrs. Smith. I have to say that I liked this movie. It was especially good at matinee price (yet another clue that I'm getting old...early bird specials). Sure it was unbelievable that they could've lived through the last shootout scene, but that's one of the qualities of a good action movie. There was a little language, but not near as much as WotW. I'm also going to go on record and say that I liked the "on-screen chemistry" of Brad and Angelina. It's definitely not one of my favorite movies, but I was entertained. That's all I ask. Feel free to tell me what bad taste I have in movies, or make fun of me for actually using the phrase "on-screen chemistry".

-out

discovery you starts today
I've always like the bible stuides.
it helps me know myself more
all my wants && needs in life

I love meeting new people.
ones that make you smile from the start
I've met two people like that this week
one is Josh
two is Donald
sweeeet people.

update when I get back.
I love you.
Jamie

photo from blue_lips

yay for cousins :)


i've been hit recently with this uncontrollable urge to do mission work. and now that i think about it, i REALLY want to go to Mexico, but alas the time is way past due, why couldn't this have hit me sooner?

i slept 3 1/2 hours again today. i should've caught up by now...

we went to see the Fantastic Four in Franklin in this really nifty cinema. it had tables and really comfy swivel chairs :)

i need something to do. i need to take more pictures...

::edit::
well i've thought of where i can take tons of pictures! you are all invited to come with me on friday night to eat, see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and if you so desire come with me to Books A Million at midnight to purchase Harry Potter 6. i have a limited amount of space in our van, but if those who can drive would like to help out that'd be wonderful! :D

please comment or call me or something so i can know!! danke!

So, my grandmother gave me a lap top computer for graduation. So, it is a Dell Inspiron 2600. So, its got a Pentium III m processor and windows XP. And it's good and all, but not really what i want, and it is kinda slow. So, if you have a certain amount of knowledge about these particular things dealing with computers and such, please leave me a remark about what kind of lap top i should get.
In other news i have to go to Orlando FL this weekend with people from my old high school, that will pretty much suck. The only redeeming points will be that i get to go to some amusement park or something like that.
Peace.

Saturday... i went out to Eagleville because they had a raider competition against hickman county.. when i got there, 1SG was like..."where's your tennis shoes? you're gonna compete" and i was like---"no i'm not"
I decided not to compete w/ my former school because i felt like i didn't belong even if it was just for fun. sure it was extremely weird because i haven't been around them but it was nice seeing them again..
i ended up grading the OC and CCR.. it was so much fun! but goodness gracious! i am soo sore..and all i did was climb one of the ropes and the ladder..and ran around all day... oh well... i can't wait til raiders starts back up next year!!!!

This is a fairly long post, so just thought I'd warn you.

It's been an awesome week for me. God has really come through on a number of things I've been dealing with, just like He said He would.

Monday was Fourth of July. I went to MTSU to meet up with Kathryn-Claire, and saw Graham, Amy, Aimee, Anna, and Garrett there.

Tuesday, I hung out with Grace, Mady and Jane. Consequently, I almost died in Jane's car while she was trying to race a friend to Grace's house. Jane and I decided that when we were old and almost on our death beds, we would break into Stampede with shotguns in hand, tear the place apart, then help ourselves to a couple of drinks

Wednesday was church, and I really needed that. I had been kind of spiritually beat up and lonely, and I needed to be in the presence of my brothers and sisters in Christ. I just needed some time to pour my heart out in worship to my Heavenly Father.

I've established a daily quiet time with God each day. I was really excited that I was able to commit to that finally, as I have tried in the past and just kinda quit doing it after a while. Another thing I'm excited about is that I'm finally able to dive into scripture. I've always had a great deal of trouble just sitting down and reading God's Word, but I feel like God has removed that block in my life now. It feels so good. It took me a while to figure out why I was feeling so crappy there for a while. My spirit was starving for God's Word.

I went to Jenna's party Thursday. Anna and I discovered that our new pastime would be to wrap ourselves in tinfoil and play out in the lightning. I had an awesome conversation with a friend while we got lost on the way to the bowling alley.

I also found out that I had friends in more people than I previously knew. Little by little, Jesus Christ is lifting that heavy veil of doubts surrounding my friendships.

Friday, after talking with one of my best friends, I finally, finally, came to the realization that my two best friends were, in fact, my two best friends, despite all the lies and doubts Satan has been throwing at me concerning my relationship with them.

Saturday was movie night at Amy's, and it was amazing. We watched the Pacifier, drank Coke floats, and gorged ourselves on brownies and popcorn while her parents sought refuge from us in their bedroom.

I now have a favorite drink at Starbucks, so I no longer have no excuse not to go.

And...I have a possible date.

So, sorry for the long post. I just had a lot to talk about, I guess.

The one thing I learned from all this? God is absolutely faithful. Always.

HARRY POTTER COMES OUT IN 5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! who's excited!?

Well, darned if things arent weird. Do not be at all surprised if you never/rarely see me on AIM from now on.

Other than that little bit, everything seems somewhat calm for now. We shall see.

EDIT: Calmer but different. I'm really confused, hmmm.

5 days until Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince!!!!!!!!

I made a Harry Potter group. Join if you want : )


My air conditioning is broken upstairs. It is sooooo freakin hot up here. I think I'm going to suffocate.

K so i'm like super bored! But i've got dance tomorrow...I guess i'm a little bit excited. Ya for a while I totally forgot I even had this phusebox thing..lol. That's crazy. But ya that's about it. I'm done here for now. *Mallory*

Life's been.. simple lately.

Quite a few people I know have left/ are leaving. Mission trips, tennis, beach, blah de blah.

Hm.. for some reason I can't quite write on here very well.

Hmm.

Your Summer Anthem is Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson

Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Your summer will be marked by heartache - but mostly happiness.
What's Your 2005 Summer Anthem?

haha so true

pray for the people who had to stay on the coast for the huricane....if anyone hears from steven hamby please tell me....i know he drived to mobile yesterday for his vacation...yeah so if you hear from him before i do...tell me....thanks

drama=no more...haha setled

Currently Watching: some fox family movie my sister left on..heh
Currently playing(Music): Miles Davis
Currently Washing Hair with:
Aussie..something?
Currently Hoping: That itll cool down while i go mow in a minute
Currently Working at: The Southgate Studious..(modeling for art classes)
Currently Dating: Single
Currently Hating:uhh...brokeness?

i havent been up to much lately..just been hanging out with em...weve begun to workout...heh...and im sore but yah know..

so anyway i hope that you have a wonderful blessed day!
-kels

Yay so today is better. I am packing, I watched Aladdin again. Now I am watching a movie with Chris Farley and David Spade in it, not sure what its called. So yes, again, Happy Birthday to ME!!!!

Hey yal its my b day on thursday and i was gonna ask if any wants to hang out just let me know what ya wanna do and ill see if i can do it well bye guys and gals

why does this bother me? it never has before. maybe i just never really realized it before? or maybe i just never really thought about it before...i dont know. but it really shouldnt bother me, should it? at least not this much? i dont know. someone please help...but that's kind of it...maybe i should just stop...

photo from givemorehugs

ok so i love this girl.

Satan did a pyschological number on me this morning. I hate Satan.

I think I may be ready for some change. Not a huge, drastic change, just a little change... well... if you can call college a little change... ha ha... but I'm ready to go.

It's weird though, because I'm still not comfortable in the AO Sunday school class, and I'm actually wary of AO itself. And it's not even like I want to stay in youth forever... I don't know what it is.

It doesn't usually take me this long to adjust to change. Maybe I just don't like the fact that I'm a freshman again. Maybe it just makes me feel small, young... maybe even insignificant. Maybe I feel like the older college kids are way wiser than me, that I won't be able to connect with them, that they won't like me...

But that's a bunch of crap from Satan! I mean really, I already have a few older college kid friends, and they aren't like that at all. I need to stop being so negative and stop believing Satan's lies.

By the way Brian, I planned out your college path for you. After you left my house last night, I randomly flipped through my college catalog and placed my finger to your future. Just so you know, you're supposed to major in marketing and minor in leadership studies... LOL... ok, probably not, but Amy, Graham, and Garrett and I all had fun with the idea anyways!

i really want some pop rocks.

i love watching the Discovery channel and watching documantaries on manatees.

i enjoy phusebox alot.

i have no idea why i'm doing this.

i love living on impulse.. even though it can get you into trouble at times...

i like to drive, now (finally).

i'm counting the days 'till it's Weezer time. -11-

sometimes i like to lie on my back in my bed and put my leds strait up and look at my toes. ^_~

i have one mood rig on each hand and they're never the same colour at once..

i like Woodburry -no matter what anyone else thinks about it.

my nose is sun-burnt..

i hate hypocrites.
& most people might think that i am one myself.
which is probably most the time true.
but i try not to be.

anyway
went to chattanooga with my sister & dad for my sisters softball tournament this weekend..
it was fun..
tournament kinda sucked
but hanging out & stuff was fun.

i'm actually reading my summer reading books.
they're really good surprisingly..

thats all
thanks for the remarks

GOING TO FLORIDA SATURDAY!!!!

Well this may come as a shock to everyone, but im not goin to go to bible college any more, idk its hard to explain like i just dont feel the passion for it anymore, like i dont have the drive to be a youth minister, it's like God changed my path. I have felt this way for prolly a lil over 2 months, i jsut havent said anything about it, like the way i feel right now is i want to become a police officer. To some of you that may sound wierd or strange. My father was a police officer, and ever since i was little i wanted to become a police officer. All of the police movies i've seen, "To protect and Serve" i would prolly go to draughns Jr. college in the fall of 06 to get educated in their police portion at the school. also thinking on something else u can go tomy xanga for that... well thats all 4 now L8R

Well, things have been interesting over the past few weeks. I'm finding out more and more how much I don't like my friends. I used to like them all very much, but somewhere along the line, they changed. Or maybe I did. Either way, they don't hold the same appeal to me, anymore. I miss the times when we weren't worrying about what guys thought of us. That's alter's so many people's personalities. I made a friend at the start of the year, we'll call her Caity because that's her name, who was smart, very smart, and funny. She was quick witty and intune with who she was. She didn't do anything to please anyone, yet everyone was happy with her. She dressed modestly so at first, you didn't realize how pretty she was. I met her almost a year ago. If you were to look at her now the only thing you would notice is her beauty. She's lost her spark. I think she started acting stupid and ditzy for attention from guys, and now it's become a part of her. She can't turn it on and off anymore. The switch is stuck, ya know? Her sense of humor is lacking. She doesn't make jokes, but she does laugh at them. She always seems so blank. Her modesty is dress has disappeared completely. We went to the movies the other day and she had on a black belly shirt. I'm not talking an inch of skin between your shirt and pants, this was above her navel. From the other end, you got cleavage. She looked like a whore. I hate saying that, but it ws the first think I thought when I saw her.
The people I like best are the ones that know themselves. The ones who think. The observers.

Alright, done with that.
What a great first entry, right?

photo from ValPal8605

I love roses.... almost as much as something else... :-)

So this borthday so far is sucking ass. My mom keeps yelling at me about stupid physical forms that my friends and I think I should give to someone to give to Salty this way he doesn't get pissed in giving him them on the way to camp. I even made copies. It is very much irritating me. So yah I hope this day gets better.

It's my SWEEEEEEEEEET 16!

Ah man..yesterday was amazing.

Guess who has a boyfrienddd!Kayla does!And it just happens to be Kai!

I am still amazed.

ok so i'm here.. now what do i do? anybody know? ok then it's like xanga all over again... oh goodie! that's ok i did it once i can do it again...

Everything is wonderful.

hey yall well today i go up at 7:00 to go to my nanys house and help her move and while we were there sum of my frinds from church came and helped us move (shawn david and jason) well while we were on out way to my grandmas new house me and shwan were throwin fireforks out the car door onto the rode lol it was so fun and right now shawn Aaron and Brian are over my house and Brian is passed in the middle of the floor and me and AAron are going to go jump in the pool lol well i guess im going to go ttyl bye
JR!!

we just got back one more week till im back in the boro ill post more later

I am leaving in 4 hours to go on a mission trip to East Tennessee. We are having backyard bible clubs for children in a trailer park and an apartment complex. It should be fun. I am excited about what God is going to do. So, I will be away from a computer and phusebox for a week :( I don't know what I will do! J/K-I have survived without a computer and phusebox for many years, so I am sure I can do it now. Anyways, hope everyone has a great week!
B

I'm home and I had a blast!!!! Anyone miss me!? lol!! jk! ;) love ya'll lots!! Also... I know this will be long, but I'd like to share with ya'll something I read outta the book Captivating:
God's Heart For Relationship
The vast desire and capacity a woman has for intimate relationships tells us of God's vast desire and capacity for intimate relationships. In fact, this may be the most important thing we ever learn about God- that he yearns for relationship with us. "Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God" (John 17:3). The whole story of the Bible is a love story between God and his people. He yearns for us. He cares. He has a tender heart. (Verses) Isa. 49:14-15,18; Jer. 24:7; Matt. 23:37.
What a comfort to know that this universe we live in is relational at its core, that our God is a tenderhearted God who yearns for relationship with us. If you have any doubt about that, simply look at the message he sent us in Woman. Amazing. Not only does God long for us, but he longs to be loved by us. Oh, how we've missed this. How many of you see God as longing to be loved by you? We see him as strong and powerful, but not as needing us, vulnerable to us, yearning to be desired. But as I wrote in Wild at Heart, "After years of hearing the heart-cry of women, I am convinced beyond a doubt of this: God wants to be loved. He wants to be a priority to someone. How oculd we have missed this? From cover to cover, from beginning to end, the cry of God's heart is, "Why won't you choose me?" It is amazing to me how humble, how vulnerable God is on this point. "You will find me," says the Lord,"when you seek me with all your heart" (Jer. 29:13) In other words, "Look for me, pursue me- I want you to pursue me." Amazing. As Tozer says," God waits to be wanted."
Can there be any doubt that God wants to be sought after? The first and greatest of all commands is to love him (Mark 12:29-30, Matt. 22:36-38) He wants us to love him. To seek him with all our hears. A woman longs to be sought after, too, with the whole heart of her pursuer. God longs to be desired. Just as a woman longs to be desired. This is not some weakness or insecurity of the part of a woman, that deep yearing to be desired. "Take me for longing," Alison Krauss sings,"or leave me behind." God feels the same way. Remember the story of Martha and Mary? Mary chose God, and Jesus said that that is what he wanted. "Mary has chosen what is better" (Luke 10:42) She chose me.
Life changes dramatically when romance comes into our lives. Christianity changes dramatically when we discover that it, too, is a great romance. That God yearns to share a life of beauty, intimacy, and adventure with us. "I have loved you with an EVERLASTING love" (Jer. 31:3). This whole world was made for romance- the rivers and the glens, the meadows and beaches. Flowers, music, a kiss. But we have a way of forgetting all that, losing ouselves in work and worry. Eve- God's message to the world in feminine form- invites us to romance. Through her, God makes romance a priority of the universe. So God endows Woman with certain qualities that are essential to relationship, qualities that speak of God. She is inviting. She is vulnerable. She is tender. She embodies mercy. She is also fierce and fiercely devoted. As the old saying goes, " Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." That's just how God acts when he isn't chosen. "I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God who will not share your affection with any other god!" (Ex. 20:5 NLT). A woman's righteous jealousy speaks of the jealousy of God for us. Tender and inviting, intimate and alluring, fiercely devoted. Oh yes, our God has a passionate, romantic heart. Just look at Eve.
*Ya'll...............all I can say is WOW!!!! I'm amazed to see how God is constinlty teaching me things and having me gain a deeper understanding!! PRAISE GOD!!! God.....I want to be fiercely devoted to you!!! And you alone!! God you're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat and have me stop breathing all at the same time!! So many times have I stood in awe of you...and to me that's the best place in the world!! In front of you....amazed at all You are!!! Many my heart only belong to you!! May I choose you!! And forever hang on to that!! I love you!! Thank you!!.......Ya'll who will you choose?! A God who is always trying to woe you!? A God that is hopelessly romantic and knows the deepest desires of your heart...who holds on and PROTECTS (doesn't destory) your dreams!? Or something that will not last...to only leave you brokenhearted?! That's another awesome thing about God....even if you choose the other...He still waits for you to choose Him! And He's there placing your brokenheart back together!! Wow....HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD!!!

Ok. I finally saw a good movie. I went with Josh, Ashley, Anna, and Kelsey to see "Fantastic 4" That was a awesome movie. It was a good comdey/action movie. It was great. Well Thats bout it

Peace

No one ever said it would be this hard

*sigh*

I had a great night tonight.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Delectable.

Oh, man, I had sooo much fun. I met her mom, wich was kinda weird, but, she is a mom so its all good. So, she brought me home and stuff, and, we had our first kiss.

Yeah, I can't stop smiling!!!!

Good night yall!!!

Hello all, how are you guys doing? This summers not too shabby. I'm flying again but i have to take a week off to counsel at HHCC next week. After that i think I'm going to Florida?? Well, if there's any left after the huricanes. We'll see. Later everyone...

-Will

Well, I finally did it. Well not so much me as Rachael. (Thanks girl!) Now I won't feel out of the loop when yall are going on and on about somone's post on here. I'm in!

God gave me such an amazing day today. A group of us went to Ellis Island because, well... we've never gone and we should have. I knew it was something important in my head, but not necessarily in my heart.
Until I got there.
At first the pictures blown up on the walls of the museum looked like the pictures I had seen all my life. But within ten minutes, there were so many emotions rolling around in me. Their faces changed. They didn't seemed hard and distant. As I stared at a picture of one couple, they seemed familiar, soft, like people I would like to know. After that, the museum came to life. It wasn't about me learning about this building, but about them. Polish laborer. German immigrants. Russian baker. Armenian girl. Such blank titles under face after face after face. My interest was peaking higher than my mind anticipated. I wanted to know more. What did they feel? What did they think? Was it scary like anyone would expect it to be, or were there other emotions that took them by surprise? What did the voices sound like echoing through the Registry Room or changing area or living quarters for those detained? Babies crying. Guards and inspectors shouting. Could they close their eyes and still hear it years later? What relationships were made in those rooms? Business partners. Neighbors. Best friends until the end.
Room after room God led me through the three floors of exhibits. He would direct me. "Go back and read that one paragraph." "Look over here." "Close your eyes and listen." "Stop and pray." "Look a little closer at that picture." "You're seeing it, Ashley. What I brought you here to see."
America is not about one country, it's about all the countries. As I walked from room to room, something that I always knew but never understood finally clicked inside me. There is no such thing as an American. America is a melting pot, which means we are all mutts. Mixed breeds. There is no true line. No pure heritage. We all originate from family from another country. And those ancestors are from family from another country. And another country. And another country. And another country. Until we all are standing in one place: the Garden. And in my mind's eye, as we stand there looking at one another, different colors, different shapes, different languages, different cultures, we realize something that we have painfully forgotten in our hearts.
We are all the same.

tonight i went to uncle dave macon days with my mom. and it was really fun, i bought myself 3 pairs of earrings and mom bought me a purse,

i also found this amazing woman who makes amazing jewelry and she is going to make my jewelry for prom! though, thats now why i love her so...i loved her so much because she loves the Lord and you can so tell by her presence. we were talking w/ her about kids and school and she said that she homeschooled her oldest daughter because God wanted her to. God wants her to homeschool her children until she has taught them the foundation of Jesus Christ and what he stands for and what they stand for. to have them grounded in science and theology so that when they go to school they can have an opinion and not be influenced by the world. she says that she will be willing to homeschool until God releases her of it. she was amazing. thats why i love her...

i also met an amazing man...he was amazing because he loves hsi wife. she actually died 4 weeks ago and he has to keep busy in order to maintain his sanity. he was so sad, you see, he loved his wife so much and she was taken from him so suddenly...mom and i felt bad about talking to him about it, but we could tell he needed to tell someone about her, so we let him tell us. at one point, he started crying, he loved his wife so much and he was st a crafts fair selling whatever, just so that he wouldnt go crazy thinking about her. he said her met her on a friday, proposed on a saturday, she accepted on sunday and they were married! i told him he was crazy, he told me he was in love. so he was amazing to me as well....

_r.

testing

so florida was fun. great weather. great waves, too.

but i've missed you. so call me, now, and let's do something
you'll get to see me sporting my new and improved skin [it's red]

um...guess that's it

[the great one]
-cameron

ohio=amazing
rode every ride.
made new friends

Oh my gosh i rode every single roller coaster in that ppark except for the little kid ones! It was sooo awesome! Kings Island is the best amusement park in the world!! I got to see alot of people again and me and jamie talked alot in the line for the "Flight of Fear" which took and hour and i enjoyed getting to actually talk with her again. I can say that it really made me think about the person i am becoming as i'm going through all my high school changes and really showed me how God can use you in another persons life. Well i had fun and now i am beat so i will tty guys later!

[chels]

P.S. DARK WATER SUCKED!!

Texas was fun but hot really hot!!! I got 2 see the spurs team when they were going down the riverwalk! I had fun with Brooke and Whitney check out there site 2 http://bnwtwinkies.piczo.com/


Then i left there to go to mission trip it was great. My first mission trip with the youth group. I had fun even though i was with the group for 3 days!


From there we moved to Florida Kelly and Chelsea road with us if was fun. Florida went by so fast but it was great. Steven and Jordan went with the Cottons so it was all there first time. Pray for everyone in Panama City Beach Florida cause of the hurricane! Last time it took out my fav. place ever! So i really hope it doesn't take out anything i like! We left early this morning because the hurricane is about to hit there. It looked like a gost town because all the places were borded up and not alot of people were around. Its a good thing we all got out of there safe!


later

nat

so i'm waiting for my frozen pizza to cook, and what better to do when waiting for food than blog? well rehearsal was uber cool today cause we learned a section that is all guys. there are four of us and we do some sweet turns and choreography and stuff. The choreographer's friends came in to watch rehearsal and help clean the piece up. One of the friends is the head of the dance department at my school (no pressure) and the other one is her husband Dave, who is also one of my friends. So needless to say i wanted to do well for them and i think i accomplished that. Overall things are spectacular. My friend Reinhart is leaving tomorrow for Seatle where he will be dancing at Pacific Northwest Ballet, and i am jealous and sadened by his leaving. But i am also happy that he is getting this opportunity. I think i might have to go check my pizza and let it cool while i hop in the shower. ttyl bye bye

I'm home from vacation

So! first entry....and nothing to say.... isn't that fun!!

So yesterday was my birthday party. Only a few people came for the water gun fight, but it was still a ton of fun. We got soaked. Bean was the only guy, so I suppose we made him quite awkard in some conversations...teeheehee. Thank you everyone for everything, coming, presents, bringing the fun! So this is my last entry while being 15, hehe, I've been doing that for the past 2 days. Oh yah! I bought a James Taylor CD today and the soundtrack to how to loose a guy in 10 days! I am so excited to listen to them on the trip to West Virginia! YAY!

Countdowns:
1 day till my birthday.
2 days till West Virginia.
5 days till white water rafting.
8 days till we (as in the cross country team) leaves for running camp!

I am so excited. I feel as if my summer is starting!

so im back. it was great. that was the first time i had heard the ocean in at least 3 years.

so i got stung by a sting ray on the 4th and missed the fireworks cuz i was in the hospital.

well i think im gona skip most of the story {if you want more of the story you can talk to me fair enough?}

but after i gut stung i was thinkin, why did this happen, everything happens for a reason....then i thought hmm you never want to miss a second...when your given a chance take it for everything its worth, cuz maybe later the chance wont be there. {yea i didnt get to get in the water for the rest of the trip, but i took in enough of it.}

hmm yea it was a small thing...but you can learn things from the smallest occurence.

hello! ok so this is actually rachael...but you know i gotta help a friend out...kaila and nathan!!! ;) anyway, we are about to eat hot dogs and perhaps go swimming! yay for fun! ok bye now!

RYM got cancelled.... blah.... Well now I'm prolly goin' to my cuz's house... which normally would be awesome, and I kinda wanna go... but it's my last week at home b4 school starts (thanks to bandcamp...)

*sigh*

Me and ML never got to jam either.... dern....

*edit* MAN! Dave Matthews Band ROCKS, I'm really diggin' "American Baby", mmmm good!

Gloria Patri
the OTHER nathan

Random song lyrics: "You rose from the ashes/ like a phoenix with a heartache/ and you're takin' me away with you tonight

and I know that I can't fly/ but when I'm in your arms/ I'm holdin' up the sky!" -Phoenix With a Heartache by Kids in the Way

random fact: NYC was thought to be the place that consumed the most hotdogs, but turns out.... it's O'hare Airport in Chicago.... go figure....

some ppl just wear a mask to hide what they are feeling... you can't do that b/c then you will end up breaking down... i know from experience you have to try your hardest to get help if you aren't feeling right... hiding doesn't help... it just worsens... you can only blow up a balloon so far until it pops...

well i just got back from a wedding ...it was pretty fun....weddings aren't really my wedding....i was told that it was a casual wedding and so i wore my khaki capris and a camp shurt w/ flops......ya pretty sure the wedding was NOT casual....everyone was in suits and dresses and all that good jazz.....ummm lets see......i'm additcted to diet rite.....the drink.....it's yummylicious....well i'm soo excited cause my friend jessie is comin up from alabama tomorrow....she's gunna come to camp with me!! yay!! she went last year but her church isn't goin this year....so she's comin with my church......i can't wait till mundy cause that's when we leave to go to camp!!! i'm super duper pumped.....lol i'm watchin cops right now and it's helarious!! there's this pot head who's like bein an idiot......its kinda sad though.....but ya.....so i think that's all for today......so byebye.......i love you!!
Becca

does anyone have a copy of the client by john grisham they would let me borrow? because if you have it and would let me borrow it, i would love you forever. :-)

*edit*
i suck at life

Check it! I've got a new username!

And it's not what you thought it was going to be! I decided against "butch_lebeau" at the last minute. I was like, "That's lame. I need to be more creative. I know! I'll just use my last name!"

Hmm... I could have used the full last name, I guess... but that would have been 19 characters. Well, that would still be shorter than the 26 character name I had before...

But I settled for 10 characters.

OMG! TARA!

well i decided that i needed to clear my head, and one of the best ways for me to do this is go somewhere random and take pictures. well, i drove and drove... and drove some more. i saw this one road, but passed it...so turned on this one road to turn around. well, as i was driving, i noticed that this was a pretty cool little road. and then as i approached a stop signed i looked to my right at this great little town. i felt like i was on a movie set. i was most definitely in picture heaven...



photo from rachael



photo from rachael



photo from rachael

so there's a few pictures... i wanted to take more, but there were two men looking at me strangely... perhaps they don't see many "city" girls come and take pictures...who knows...but i gotta go on another drive...to woodbury! have a great day!

so I thought I'd share a week in the life of me. . .

starting out we have the lovely Ad-staff. it's the first day of session 4 camp and it's "red, white, and blue" week.


photo from lauraebeth

then flutter must go over the Full Value Contract.


photo from lauraebeth

then it's time for the running bear skit. it's cute, but i don't get why we do this week after week


photo from lauraebeth

then, b/c I have nothing better to do while wasting time with my kids, we go out into the yard between Pine Hill 1 and 2 and have a dance party(aka: badge work, keeps the parents happy)


photo from lauraebeth

the next day, I decide that we love badge work so much that we'll complete the dance badge, and so I teach the kids to ballroom dance. . .


photo from lauraebeth

then it storms. and so all the campers are taught the electric slide in an all-camp dance party


photo from lauraebeth

Hightower keeps Laine entertained at the dance party


photo from lauraebeth

I go on my Time-Off in Jam Hall, and entertainment is provided by Darcy, as she "poll dances" on Lola


photo from lauraebeth

TO is over and I head down to the canoe docks. I walked around the creek as the girls were canoing. . .they were having a "tree party" in this picture


photo from lauraebeth

this is how flutter improperly kyacks


photo from lauraebeth

Later that afternoon we went "tree climbing"


photo from lauraebeth

where I acted silly. . .


photo from lauraebeth

then off to drama, where they got to dress up


photo from lauraebeth

Campfire night is last. . .(I skipped over the wagon ride, teaching the girls to build a fire, and cooking over an open fire with ducky b/c I was kinda busy making sure 18 other people were fed.) Every unit performs a skit. These are PH1 counselors(their kids had already left)


photo from lauraebeth

the ad-staff during this strange story about a pickle. . .


photo from lauraebeth

my girls, imitating counselors


photo from lauraebeth

sack races during all-camp


photo from lauraebeth

Ship and Island right before checkout


photo from lauraebeth

my cabin!!


photo from lauraebeth

that is all. . .i hope you enjoyed!

Yah!!! i can run now! just not very hard or fast.... at least not for now..... i think it will be better by mid week! i still plan on going to camp so i hope it gets better!!!!! i have to keep my brace on which really sucks cause the brace is increadibly uncomfortable!!!! And if anyone wants to know how i sprained it.... I was running on a gravel road at the battlefield and i landed wrong. Well thats it for now! Call me if ya wanna hang out!! love ya ~Anna

WHOOHOO!!!!! i am so bored.

Although I did play chess with buddy for about an hour one an off. I need to find something to do with my time. I think I'll do some math...nevermind.

WHOOHOO!!!!! i am so bored.

Although I did play chess with buddy for about an hour one an off. I need to find something to do with my time. I think I'll do some math...nevermind.

Well my granparents just got here cuz of the Hurricane.....It looks like it's gonna hit P'cola right on........I'm glad they came but I'm scared for my Uncle.......He is a cop-gonna-be-Sheriff...........so he can't go anywhere......they are supposed to put all the cops in the strongest jail-house they have so I just hope he stays safe.......my other uncle's are going to Biloxi........thats as far as they can go.........Well I just hope everyone stays safe.........I hope all is well in your life!!!

I finally got to go to Starbucks today and it was awesome! I wish I'd had my summer reading book with me. I could have stayed there and read for hours.

So I get home from work and there's a new message on the machine. It's my youth minister, Brian, calling to say that RYM has been cancelled. I was actually looking forward to it. I keep asking myself if camp being cancelled was a good or bad thing and I can't decide. I mean, yea I wanna stay here and hang out with friends but then I look forward to going to Florida each year. I dunno why, but when I found out I started crying. Something is seriously wrong with me. I'm just not being myself. I wish I could figure out how to fix me... I guess I can now hang out with my friends more this week?
Edit: So I was talkin to a friend and this person said I should make a club called the "Becky is freakin hott" club. So if I made this club, who would join???

So, because I was sloppy when I first programmed PhuseBox, I am starting to see the need for me to rebuild it from the ground up.

This will be a huge undertaking, especially with everything else I have going on right now in my life, but I think it is vital to get this done so I can move PhuseBox to a greater audience.

All this being said, soon (though I do not know how soon), PhuseBox will be completely revamped with new features and maybe a new layout?

Some of the things that I am thinking about adding are the abililty to sync with your Xanga account and advance photo features (such as albums, event pages, etc)...

My vision for this site is to have a place for people to speak their mind, share ideas, share photos, find people similar to them, link between stories/photos, be able to define groups, etc.

When PhuseBox is ready to publically launch (we are still in beta), everything throughout the site will be completely integrated with everything else.

Let me know what you think of the site right now, what you would change, what you like, etc...

later.

[nt]

wow!!! yesterday i read 1 John and today i read Ephesians!!! God showed me so much threw those 2 books of the bible!!!

Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.
~1 John 2:15

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear because fear has to go with punishment. The one who fears is not made in perfect love.
~John 4:18

I keep asking that God of our Lord Jesus Christ the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation so that you may know him better!!
~Ephesians 1:17

There is one body and one Spirit-just as you were called to one hope when you were called-one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and all in all!
~Ephesians 4:4-6

Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devils schemes.
~Ephesians 6:11

those are some of the verses that really stuck out to me!! i have written down a lot more!! lol!! but yes..God does show you some amazing things through the Bible!

Unto You be glory, glory,
Unto You be honor,
Unto You be praises, Jesus,
Forever and ever.

Love through Christ!!
Rachel

^Jack Johnson^

mmmmm another great night. I could definitely get used to this. =)=)

Yesterday me and KC drove again. We went to Applebee's and listened to JackFM and Relient K and realized our teacher's a lesbian. Fun times

I drove by BHS last night on my from Dena's to Julie's...it was kind of weird and surreal. Just to know that I never have to and probably won't set foot in that building again...except the band room but we all know that's a whole seperate place anyways so it doesn't count! I can't believe I have graduated high school and in less than two months I'll be moving in to UTM...it's just so crazy, exciting, and scary all at the same time. But at least I know I'm gonna have the best roomie ever! Just driving by the school last night though brought back so many memories...especially of every single band camp because I know it's almost time for that! Gosh I can't even go into all those memories...but I always had different friends during band camp than I had during the actual school year...I dunno it was just such an easy time to get close to people...man the good ol' days!

I'm gonna miss hanging out with all my friends. I already miss hanging out with some of them that I haven't been able to see at all this summer! I wish I was still a kid without a care in the world! But at least I know I have God on my side and he will see my through all this!

eliz

Emily has one, so it MUST be cool.

Therefor, I have one too.

Hello Everyone. I am goin to the movies today with a bunch of people from McFadden. I'm addin pictures tonite after I get them off the disc. I'll post again soon. - j @ ( 0 B

this thing isnt messin up on me anymore. thats cool, but it cant seem to make up it's mind.
i'm workin on my thank you notes from graduation right now, it's not too bad, it gives me somethin to do.
these past few days have been alright. hung out with some friends last night, it was cool.

"sometimes the best thing ever can drive you crazy all at the same time."

i wanna go to the drive in sometime. it would be cool. i'd just have to go when i'm not workin. which i have to start doin again on sunday night.

piece

Well thanks to the hurricane we may not be goin' to RYM... hmmm.... I haven't been in town so I haven't heard much but apparently the hurricane could prevent the week from going as planned... Oh well.... *sigh*...

So I'm on my way home today! YESSS!!!! Drumset here I come.... yay....

Gloria Patri
the OTHER nathan

I'm in canada right now, using a computer in a local Radioshack right now. so.........
Love you guys[some more than others.

this time i dont wanna go even more. we just went a few weeks ago. i dont want to. i dont want to be trapped in the car with hal and joey. i want to stay here. i dont want to go again. franklin...

this phuse box thing is kinda weird. i wonder how many different "profile websites" people can create within the same summer.

. . . like sleep, lol.

"The heart does things for reason that reason cannot understand." -The Princess Diaries 2:Royal Engagement.

love love love that quote.

Mmm, more Dave Macon today!

Go to Amy's tonight at 7.

Oh bother, I am annoying aren't? Another negative entry.

I must stop reading depressing, realistic books. They are affecting my sleep habits. I need a book filled with sunshine and rainbows. Comepletely unreal, but sometimes you need it.

Somebody cheer me up, please.

Brittney Spears is pregnant with twins.

Imagine if they're identical girls...

They might rival the Olsen twins.

so last night a group of us went to the drive-in. i have been trying to do this for a while now, but every time it just didn't work out...but!!! finally it did!



photo from rachael

it was a great experience! and tons of people were there... and we made the people behind us mad because the truck was bigger than theirs...but oh well...



photo from rachael

yeah, that was a lot of people to fit in one truck bed and watch two movies, but it worked out. yay for funnel cakes, drive-ins, and fun people. and also for great scenery. the drive-up there was great, i do believe i will have to go back up there with my camera one day. and the stars look amazing!!! and also yay for when they finally cut country music off and we listened to matt wertz! j/k guys, your country isn't too terrible...

i guess i am going to go have my lazy saturday! watching movies is my thing to do! and thank you sarah and amy for your comments on that previous post. i am sorry that i had to be so negative, but then again, that is just human to be hurt and show emotion. but thank you! i love you guys! i hope everyone has a great day!!!

~dashboard confessional

"busy" day today.

"when proving yourself right you make the biggest noise"

you know, my mom made a good point. i know over in africa they have more extreme poverty than we can imagine. but the fact remains that we have poverty in america. you never see us having some amazing fundraising event for the poverty in america, or england, or russia. we really must be selfless,because we are so bent on helping them, that we arent even fixing the problem here first.

but at the same time i disagree, because africa cant fix their problem alone, they need the help of the rest of the world, we could do it quite possibly alone, or at least with the help of another country.

the end



photo from Ed_The_Angry_Jew

i kind of look like boo from monsters inc huh? thats sad

First off, thanks for all the positive feedback on my bear post! That was the result of a terribly boring day... you're right Justin... I do need a job or something else to do... ha ha... Anyhow, I figure if I never get a job in media production or writing, I could always photograph stuffed bears for calendars...

Anyhow, I am declaring a movie night at my place tonight! I know, when does this happen? So I haven't decided on the movie yet, so you can feel free to bring one if you wish. Sorry Michael, we're not going to watch Hitch again! We should probably watch something we've all seen and can make fun of... those are always the best movie nights! Anyhow, the time is 7:00, and there will be snacks and drinks but no real food so please eat at least a light dinner before you come. I don't live in the condo anymore, so if you don't know where my new apartment is at you can call me and I'll let you know. I live significantly closer to most of y'all now than I used to! Anyhow, leave a remark if you plan to come!

so according to my mother, i should have the entire rest of my life planned out from this point forth.

somewhere she missed the fact that i am only 17. that i don't know exactly where i want to go to college. that i don't know what i want to do "when i grow up."

she thinks i haven't been thinking about it at all. that all i am concerned about is having fun with my friends in the here and now.

i don't remember the last time i just sat and hung out with my friends. i've been working all day most every day for the past few weeks.

i mean, that obviously shows that i am lazy and don't think about the future. what a horrible, no good teenager i am.

so, to all you kids who've already done this whole college application thing: when did you start working on it really hard?

in conjunction with the last post, i want to post this because it takes me back to happier, more simpler days. oh how i long for those days!
listen to the song here

here i am
humbled by your majesty
covered by your grace so free
here i am
knowing i'm a sinful man
covered by the blood of the lamb

now i've found
the greatest love of all
is mine
since you laid down your life
the greatest sacrifice

MAJESTY, MAJESTY!
your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in your hands

here i am
humbled by the love that you give
forgiven so that i can forgive
so here i stand
knowing that i'm your design
sanctified by glory and fire

and now i've found
the greatest love of all
is mine
since you laid down your life
the greatest sacrifice

MAJESTY, MAJESTY!!!
your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in your hands
MAJESTY, MAJESTY!
forever i am changed by your love
in the presence of your majesty, MAJESTY!

in the past couple of days i have found out information and have been treated like a big piece of poop. i do not like to feel like poop. no, seriously tho - the past 10 months (off and on) i have been caught up in a whirlwind of junk. it all came crashing down around me this week. and it hurts. it hurts bad. i thought that people only acted this scummy in movies...i never once thought a human being could be so harsh. i guess i tend to think the best of people, especially those i love. i always thought it was a good trait to have, but i guess i need to evaluate how far i take it. my utmost for his highest today asked the question: "Do you have even the slightest reliance on anything or anyone other than God?" Yes. i rely on people WAY too much. i rely on them to find my worth, and as i've been shown this past week, that can EASILY backfire on you. easily. i cannot believe i let my feelings blind me to the truth. i was determined not to regret this (pride maybe?) but i have to say i regret this entire year. thank you ben petty for making me feel like a worthless piece of shit. you are truely gifted at it.

Yea. Never close on the first day. Unless you have someone like A.J. Who is eternally grateful to him?!

That would be me!

Everything was fun except cleaning. Which is why I am OPENING today.

Ah, the excitement.
I was stocking the fridge last night and Ben made fun of my "skinny-ness".
He laughed at me trying to struggle to hold the door open and put drinks in at the same time. He was also infinitely impressed of my double-knotting of the trash bags.

My babies: Gracie, Mady, Stephy, and Rachie cam to see me at work? I bet I looked real official. You know, like I knew what I was doing.....

I've already been called into the manager's office. I haven't even been there for a week! Agh! It was Ms. Gates, so I was going to be like, "Hey, I'm friends with Frank Cole, and you let into the movies for free that once!"
But no, she just jumps in with, "If that color isn't out of your hair by the 22nd, I'm taking you off the schedule until you dye it back."
I can see we're going to have a beautiful relationship, her and I.

The green Icee machine exploded on me.
:(
Then I accidentally gave a couple a medium coke instead of a large.
"I'm sorry", I pleaded, "It's my first day."
The lady was sweet and said, "If that's the biggest mistake you make, I think you'll be okay."

And Tara is coming!!!!! TODAY!!!!

photo from your_mom_is_a_highland_cow

((Toothpaste For Dinner))

You guys know who you are.

And you know why this is so funny.

^_^

Oddly I dont feel quite as down about everything as I expected. Then again, it is also quite true that two sources give different stories, and the one that I love and trust told one that rang truer.

Things are rocky, but I am not pessimistic right now.

Love conquers all. I hope that this holds true. But I'm sure it will. God is good.

EDIT: Well . . . jeez, now I'm getting confused. Certain things make more sense, others make less. Others feel better, some hurt worse. What the devil?

Amy, Justin, Kayla, Chris, Rachel, and I went to go see a movie at the drivein theater in Watertown. It was freaking amazing. I have never been to one before. It was an experience in the back of my truck, because all six of us were back there. Fun Times....

I am so greatful to God for giving me so many friends that I can hang out with and not be lead to do sinful things with. People that help me to keep my focus on God and not the materialistic, sinful ways of this world. On a side note, I think that my mom and me are going to move our church membership to Belle Aire this next sunday.

Have a Blessed Day

Peace


Unreached Peoples Fact
The United States, China, Nigeria and Brazil have greatest number of evangelicals according to Operation World. Uganda has the highest percent evangelicals at 46%.


Missions Scripture
"The kingdom of the world has become the kingdom of our Lord, and of His Christ; and He will reign forever and ever."
Rev 11:15

let me take like five seconds to be negative and honest; which i don't like to be, but for the sake of getting stuff out at like 2:41am when no one is up...and most likely will delete this in the morning anyhow... right now, i am not okay. i feel super insecure, hurt, and tons of other things that i do not like to feel. feelings that i should not have to feel quite honestly, especially because this situation is not even okay. not even. but i will continue to be a prayer warrior. and take rachel's great advice over the situation, and let it hurt for a little bit and then move on and give it to God, and try to remember his promises. he is faithful. even when i can't see it, he is. this really does not feel good at all.....

but!!! i went to a drive-in tonight and it was fun fun! i will post about that later...

hope everyone has a great night!

Here are some random pictures. I just got a new camera phone (SE s710), and feel that I have to justify the price by taking lots of pictures:



Random shot of driving. We do alot of that on our long commute to and from work.



This picture makes me sick to my stomach because of our long commute



I just thought this one was funny. "Safe Place" isn't the first thing that comes to mind when I see that picture.
-out

I have to thank Nowak, Beck, and Myers and their TA killer moblog, Mafia for helping me find PhuseBox. Nathan posted on the forum, the Godfather explained what he was working on, and I decided to check it out.

I also have to thank my wife, steffie.m, because I showed it to her, and said it looked like fun, but never created an account. Then one day, she just up and did it. I guess now she's not the oldest person on phusebox, cause I've got her beat by a year. You should definitely read her blog, because she's the funniest person I know, and I'm not just saying that because I know she'll read this later.

Ok, I guess that's enough for the little intro post. More about me to come. I really hope Steph isn't the only one to read this, cause she already knows all of it.

-out

*so i've really been struggling in this one area lately... i guess mostly because i just desire it so badly... and it's like i'm torn b/c i want to give it to God and yet i don't. it's like i take a step forward and begin to hold it out to Him... and then i step back and snatch it away before He can even grasp it. and tonight i was on my way to work listing to my radio... and all the sudden it's playing "I surrender all... my silent hopes and dreams... though the price to follow cost me everything... I surrender all... my human soul desires... if sacrifice requires that ALL my kingdoms fall!!!... I SURRENDER ALL!!!" and it just brought tears to my eyes... b/c if i trust God the way that i say i do... i've got to surrender my heart's desire. here i've been looking at it completely wrong i've seen it as something to fight against... insted of seeing it as something to be surrendered my Father's hands. i've got to be so willing to follow Him and go His way that i don't care if i lose everything that i hold so dear. i forget that this world has nothing for me. i forget that the people and friends that i love soo much don't belong to me... they're lent to my by God... it's all Him... and i try to make it all me.

okay, God. i've tried to fix my heart and all it's peices... but Lord, insted of putting it all back together again i shattered it into more peices. God... i'm ready to give it all to you. i surrender my heart and my desires into your will. it's yours... not mine... you paid for it w/ your precious blood. thank you for you love and mercy. i love you, Father. in your Name. amen

just got home from seeing that crazy movie. what a ridiculous ending.....the whole thing was pretty hokie. the suspense and build up were really pretty good, but the ending.......WHAT A LETDOWN! crazy, awesome effects. good job on that front mr. spielberg, but, man what happened to the ending. did i already mention that?? i definitely have to see a better movie soon, so i can get that bad movie experience stink out of my nose.

so pretty sure i'm sick of sitting at home, doing nothing. reading people's xangas that just make me more frustrated at them than i already am.

why must people demand on being someone else just to make everyone else think that they are cool? you're awesome just the way you are. :)

heehee Pepe the King Prawn from the muppets is on Greg Ferguson :D. "hokay?"

i hopefully got me a date ;)

it's good to be home...yes sir it is...i'm talking to my baby right now at it feels so great...we've been together every day since i've been back... and we've painted my deck and sort...it's been hard work...but it's okay... for the rest of the summer it's going to be volleyball and getting our family pics in books so they don't get ruined...and we're going to put every pic on a cd so we'll have them for the rest of our lives till they need to be transfered into something else..so for now it's goodbye...c ya

photo from Kapooki91

THIS IS STELLA MALTE AND ERINS NEW PUPPY THEY GOT AFTER CLOVER PASSED AWAY SHE IS 11 WEEKS OLD IN THIS PICTURE