yeah, pretty sure r kellys trapped in the closet is the stupidest thing ever.

i think i need my own show on tv

i mean, if andy milanokis (sp?) and r kelly can make money with that junk, i could be golden.

yup, wait for that

Yep, thats right... this is my first ever entry on something like this. I've never been into the whole facebook, xanga thing, but when Nathan told me about his little creation I caved into the madness. Your'e welcome Nathan. :)
Sooo... I had a great fourth of July. I had to work during the day, but when I got off I drove to Cookeville to hang out with my friends there and we had a really good time. We got to watch the fireworks and I got to have some good, much needed fellowship with a few of my friends. I miss them so much and they encourage me daily with thier lives and thier hearts to pursue God passionately and obediently. I left this morning and came back to the 'boro and had the WHOLE day off. I was SSSOOO excited!!!!!!!! So many plans for the day!!!! I washed some clothes, drew some pictures of some paintings I want to do, took some pictures of hay bails, and went to Books A Million and spent a couple of hours with God. It was GREAT!
I enjoyed my time at BAM just getting in the Word. So many things God has been teaching me this summer about Grace and HIS UNCONDITIONAL, EVERLASTING LOVE. I am daily grasping the Truth that God loves me unconditonally which means based on no conditions, no laws, no rules, or quota that I have to meet. God just loves me because that is who He is. His love never changes because He doesn't change (Malachi 3:6, "I the Lord, do not change...") and also with that, God is love (1Jn 4:8) meaning that love just isn't an attribute of God, but it is who He is. Just like my name is Monica, I'm not sometimes Monica when I feel like it or it benefits me, but I am Monica-hopefully, maybe that will make sense...- God is love all the time, just the same as He is Holy, Faithful and many, gazillon other things.
Anyway, so God loves me w/o condition and always, therefore there is grace which means getting something I don't deserve- eternal life, peace, purpose, joy, etc. through Christ, His Son. I think the main verse that has helped me understand that is Romans 5:8, "God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for the ungodly." When have done nothing to gain or deserve God's love, He gave us His Son anyway... Love and grace incomprehensiable. Also Romans 5:1-2 has helped me see the grace that I STAND in because of my faith in Christ. I read this one day when I was struggling to believe that God loved me inspite of my struggles and God showed me that I was standing in Grace because of Christ therefore I needed to walk in Grace and claim the Truth about God's love, forgiveness, and grace in my life and move on. Another verse that helped make that evident was 1 Jn 3:1, which talks about how we have been lavished with the love of God and that we are children of God. A friend of mine once talked about this verse and described what it meant to be lavished in somthing. We are lavished with God's love which means that we are COVERED BEYOND capacity with His love and NOTHING we can do or not do will make it go away. Once we have excepted Christ as Lord and Savior of our life we are FREE to accept his love and grace and everything else He is in our lives. This is long, I know, but maybe it could be encouraging.

I dont have much to talk about...

I really like the Mac store in Green Hills which is really hard to get to, they are going to fix the Mac Mini in about 3-5 days.

Other than that I went to Bellicino's with the gang, and ate then went to Lifeway, where I got the perfect bible to carry on trips i.e. the NYC trip.

I am about to add songs to my iPod, play a little guitar, then hit the sack, so y'all have a great night.

P.S. We are going to see Toby Mac tomarrow at the People's Church in Franklin, call me early in the morning if you want to go...

Peace


Unreached Peoples Fact
Western Europe has 388 groups in the Formative or Nominal Church category, while having 95 in the Growing Church category.


Missions Scripture
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedlingly abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen"
Eph 3:20-21

drama stucks

4th=awesome time with julia, stu, taytay, & jasper

and again
DRAMA SUCKS & I HATE IT

Well i got screamed at today and then did some of my own. then we got a Nissan Pathfinder and traded our wimpy van I guess that makes up for the screaming.

Yeah so its july 5th right.... that doesn't stop the isabells I went over there tonight and it was the craziest firework shooting ever like if your not careful they will shoot it at you and its so much fun hey well I gotta go getting up early to go see toby mac... WOOP WOOP... oh yeah garrett hope you are having a great time in florida and to everyone else be blessed I love you all GOd bless
john

So.... I might not be coming home until freakin' Sunday.

Explanation:
My great-great-aunt or great-aunt or.... Okay, a relative on my grandfather's side of the family died several months back. Her estate auction is [I'm guessing] this weekend. My grandmother really wants to go. Grandfather not so much. Mum can't drive her because Caroline has a horse show in Lexington, Kentucky, that weekend as well [because things always work out that way]. She lived in northern Virginia. I have no problem doing this at all because exponentially-great-auntie was a packrat and has diaries, saddlebags, etc. from the Civil War. In fact, my great-grandfather watched as the Shenendoah Valley was torched at the age of three. But.... I don't know. I'm upset, but I'm not really sure why. I think it's because I'm going straight from BFE to a pilgrimage into Virginia [Oooooh, Brian will be so jealous, lol....] without a break to, I don't know, sleep in my own bed, do some laundry, experience traffic, visit home. We should be able to make the drive in one day. We will if I'm driving, at any rate. Just praying Granny doesn't watch the spedometre, as siblings are so fond of doing. ;)

It's an adventure.
I guess I'm doing laundry before leaving. I just want to know how/why we're going to hold all my dorm crap aside from luggage. These new Hondas are big, but honey, they're not THAT big.
This is confusing. I need details beyond the fact that the auction begins at 8:30 AM. That means nothing to me. It could be 8:30 AM next week for all I know.
That's it. Telephone call ensuing.

I've never driven farther from home than Hendersonville.
My grandmother is more directionally challenged than I am.
Maybe since I'm computer-literate her navigation system will take pity on us.

But if we don't get where we're supposed to be, we'll at least have another story in our pockets. :)
Now I'm excited. How much more schizophrenic can this post get?

Hot and sweaty from tangoing. Shut up. It takes a lot out of ya.
I'm going to wash my nasty self.
Ciao.

Revelation: Maybe if we're close enough to Washington, D.C. we could drive there and pass a day in the city!! And visit the National Gallery with the portrait of Ginevra di Benci!!!
*DROOOOOOOOOOOOOL*
I am geniusness.

So I have been working like crazy this week...and it sucks!! I wish I could have a relaxing summer...um doesn't look like thats going to happen for awhile!! Is it just me or when you go on a break from school you can't function? Like you can't spell to save your life? Like this summer I have had to ask my mom for like the easiest words EVER!! I feel so retarded during the summer...my brain is just turned off...I question everything I spell now...w/e!! Well I just found out my dance teacher will be touring with The Backstreet Boys!! Well thats exciting but just a sucky group to dance to!! Make us proud Jordan!! More work this week and ALL next week I'm helping with VBS which should be fun...then leave right for work!! So yeahhhh hope everyone is having an awesome summer!! Stay safe and make good decisions!!

Wow this weekend was a BLAST I aboslutly loved it! I went to Sewanee with Willis and the boys then Chase came night up a Sunday night and hung with us that night and monday and monday night Ahh I cant even descirbe how beautful and peaceful it was up there I could soo live there hmm... the view was magnificent the pics in my pic box is what I got to look at every day or really every tine I was at Willis's house up there But anyways Im extremely beat so Im headed to bed!

P.S. On the way home we stopped and ate at Manchester then went to the Candy Factory there and Willis got me the biggest bag of Jelly Beans mmm! The pic is over there I dropped the bag in Andrew's car so some fell out and Ive ate some but the bag was full to the prim lol!

People in my neighborhood are still shooting fireworks! Good grief! Well, not much going on here which is probably a good thing but anyways...I was just thinking...trusting someone is a big and somewhat scary thing. I mean think about it. You are trusting someone to not hurt you or dissappoint you but at some point that person will probably dissappoint you and sometimes I think having someone dissappointed in you is worse than being yelled or angry.(ok I kinda switched topics on you,sorry)Well,that's about it.

So I am eating a huge bowlfull of ice cream. It is very tasty...mhmmmm....

I stand amazed in the presence
Of Jesus the Nazarene
And I wonder how
He could love me,
A sinner condemned, unclean.

How marvelous, how wonderful
And my song shall ever be.
How marvelous, how wonderful
Is my Savior's love for me.

He took my sins and my sorrows,
He made them His very own;
He bore the burden to Calv'ry,
And suffered and died alone.

Wow! What amzing words. that should be our prayer that we would be amazed how He could love someone like me a sinner like me. God keeps on amazing me on the everyday bases. When I don't even deserve God pours down his blessings on me. What an Awesome God we Serve!! So many times i wonder why God has put me working at the church during the summer, but God has grown me so much getting able to get to know Clint and Chris better. Just the other day me and clint got to talk about some stuff that i needed to hear (clint you know) on friday and i thank God for such a man of God that He is put in my path. I think all of you who know Clint could defintly agree. When I started working at the church i was totally self centered but when i sit back and reflect i know exactly why God put there. so many times i take my friends for granted. Guys i consider you all friends. There are also some people who have really blessed my life and i thank you for that. so many of them are there when i just need someone to chat. thanks for being there when i need you all. you guys are a big blessing from God. The following words to a familar hymn are so true. HOW GREAT THOU ART!!

O Lord my God, when I, in awesome wonder Consider all the worlds
Thy hand hath made
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder
Thy pow'r throughout the universe displayed
Then sings my soul, my Savior God, to Thee
How great Thou art!
How great Thou art!

God has put you on this earth for a purpose and it is up to us in order to fulfill it. When you stand before God on judgement day what is He going to say to you or to me. Will it be Well done good and faithful servant? I know that was out of the blue but you know when you know God is speaking you just can't stop typing! Hope you have enjoyed this.

I leave you with what I said earlier:
God has put you on this earth for a purpose and it is up to us in order to fulfill it.

a idea just popped into my head leave your name in the remark and i will message you back and let you know what i think of you. kinda aqward (i don't think i spelled that right) but lets see how it turns out!!

whats up ppl? well idk what im doin but i got one of these things..so ya

Martha Stewart's nickname in the slammer was M. Diddy. I just happened to think that was quite hillarious.

I sometimes wonder how some people are so popular and always get to hang out with their friends and have fun.

Then I look at myself and I feel so completely and utterly stupid.

The fireworks show at Riverfront Park was awesome, however the people were a little on the rude side and traffic was, heh, a little on the heavy side.

Lyndi and I have been together 3 months today :-) I love you!

So Jason and I almost died today trying to find the Mac store in Green Hills. Fun trip I must say.

The 4th put me in the mood to have a BIG cookout and I'd like to have one at my house or possibly down at the pool sometime before the end of the month.

I have a ceiling fan in my room now which absolutely rocks. The a/c in the upstairs of my house decides to randomly shut off whenever it feels the need to and leaves mine and my brother's room at about 78 degrees..which is no bueno. This should help ALOT, heh.

I've come to the concluson that I've got just about everything I need/want right now and life couldn't be better. You guys are awesome. You make my life worthwhile. :-)

cantrell.out

*says lots of words i will not put on here*
i just typed out a really long deep entry and its GONE!

well i will try to remember what i said


Take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out

Chorus:
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out

I lit my pain on fire
and I watched it all burn down
and now I'm dancing in the ashes
and there's no one else around
Because I wanna be a part of something
This is just a story of a broken soul

Hook:
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by

Chorus x2

I'm burning in the heavens
and I'm drowning in the hell
My soul is in a coma
and none of my friends can tell
That I'm reaching out and getting nothing
This is just a story of a broken soul

Hook
Chorus x2

Don't shut me out

Does anyone around me feel the same
Just put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain

Hook
Chorus x2
Hook

Take me
Don't break me


that is my anthem, it totally describes my life, no one can understand what i feel and call me a poser but they just dont get me

so these were some of the questions i was thinking about earlier:
how do we know God is real?
how do we know anything is real?
what is time other than a measure of eternity, wich would make it a measurement of the unmeasureable

Question for the however long:
What is your anthem?

Well my fourth was fun, i hope you guys like my new profile photo. That Subway commercial guy talks funny

hey evry1!nothin realy 2 say just though i would write on here lifes goin pretty good umm nothin realy exiting goin on 4th of july was good the 3rd was fun cause we had that thing at r chruch and it was alot of fun!only like 11 days till jacks comes!haha im leavin sunday 4 northcarolina and get back like 2 days b4 camp!im so freackin exited bout camp!!its gonna be awsome!!well i think im gonna go leave some remarks haha byebye
pat

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh........

Hey guys! Man today was long! I went to court this morning and i went the vanderbilt hospital and then threw rush hour traffic!

being deep really hurts

Yea...so I got a phusebox. I went to the mall with Mallory today! It was a lot of fun. This thing is confusing, I will figure it out. I love you all!

Long before "love" there was solitude. Solitude begat need. Need begat anguish, and anguish brought me to "love"....

Hey!

I hope everyone had a great 4th of July!
Well, we are gearing up for Missionfuge this Saturday and we are real excited about what God is going to do!
We want to really encourage all the people going to Missionfuge to be in attendance tomorrow night in Diversion. We are going to have a special prayer time and send off for you.
Also, after we finish Diversion, we will be headed out to Woodbury to go eat at Chilango's! Transportation will be provided. Cost is $6 for chips, a drink, and several choices of entree items (burritos, tacos, enchiladas, etc.). Chilango's is owned by one of our really awesome youth Sunday School teachers, Connie Rodriguez, so we hope you will support her as well as have a great time of fellowship.
Sorry we were not able to do our service project to paint the United States mural map at Mitchell Neilson School. The weather has just not cooperated. However, we are going to take another crack at it the week of July 18-22.
Keep your eyes focused on Jesus and we'll see you tomorrow night!

Chris

people get on my nerves..


thanks for the "remarks"

Leaving Friday night for this...



photo from ben


photo from ben


photo from ben


photo from ben


photo from ben


photo from ben


photo from ben

It should be fun. Hope I dont miss you guys again too much. Remember I am leaving Friday, if you want to see me, we gotsta do something before then.

I love you

::ben

It makes me sad when my friends fight. I know I'm not directly involved, but I feel like it's kinda my responsibility to help. I'm kinda at the point where I don't know what to do or say anymore, beacuse nothing helps anymore.

When my friends are hurting, it hurts me. I get frustrated because they're too upset to actually listen to me.

Oh well. I still love them.

Well me and Rachel went to the mall today! SO MUCH FUN!! I saw Rebekah and Sarah there and said hey..lol! Umm ya well I just got this thing...its kinda confusing at first but I figured it out..lol! Well I guess that's it for now! I hope yall are having a great summer! I luv you guys!! *Mal*

i wil be seeing dave matthews in concert in 15 days...i am quite excited about this little adventure...

This morning before I had to go to work, I had a couple of hours to go to the beach. It was so beautiful, and I couldn't help but think about the fact that God created the Earth just for us. He created it all because he loved us. I truly came face to face with God this morning. All I could hear him saying to me was "I hope you know that I love you truly..." This story we live called life isn't about us. Yes, we are small in comparison to our Father, but he chose to unconditionally love us. We are all chosen through God's grace, and he is preparing a home for us. Isn't that exciting to you? Oh how exciting it will be to arrive and come face to face with my Daddy....

I'm working out here with so many awesome people, and I know God has put me here to serve as a leader. I've had a great time growing more and more intimate with God through time alone, and through fellowship with people from ALL OVER THE WORLD!! I just want you guys to know that I love you, and that God loves you guys so much. He has so much planned for you if you will just release your plans to Him. I'm having the time of my life because God has placed my little heart into his!

Work went well.

I bought an iPod yesterday.

so i've been swamped with activities for the past week and a half. work is a constant thing and so is dancing. i was cast in a number the first day of classes and we began rehearsing that night. we finished the piece on friday and had a "cleaning rehearsal" saturday before the choreographer left to go back to manhattan. I was totally beat, but kept chugging along cause I had to go pick up my brother last wednesday from D.C. and we got to hang out until saturday. He lives in germany for those of you who don't know, so it was sweet that i got to see him and he could see pittsburgh and where i live and what i do and my school and some of the city. while he was here we ate out a couple times, saw a movie, and went to a pool hall. he got to do some other stuff by himself while i was in rehearsals and explored the city on his own. I got out of work on saturday so i could be at that cleaning rehearsal and because i was going to lose money from not going to work the choreographer gave me 75 bucks... pretty sweet. we figured thats about how much i would be making if i had gone to work, so i definately got payed for dancing and doing what i really enjoy. TOTAL BONUS! i worked on the fourth on july and helped my teacher move into his new house... so no celebration of independence for Mikey, but i think i made some good money for work last night. Tonight i have another rehearsal; we are starting a new piece and it has to be finished by saturday night... i'm gonna need to call off work again, oh boy am i going to be poor! btw BILLS SUCK, besides that everything is going well. love you all, later

My mom is ruining the fun and excitment of a party. No wonder I never have one. Now I am regreting my whole "great" idea of a party. Goodness this is irritating.

i juse LOVE how no one leaves remarks anymore...
=/

thanks alot, guys!





(heheh.. kidding...)






(sortof...)






(not really..)





uhh.... life's good... driving tomorrow [prayer] beware of the road between the hours of 11 and 3.......................... no seriously...


abby_the_gangster

Guess who is typing this entry on their NEW LAPTOP!! If you guessed me you are totally correct! I'm soo happy! Well I'm gonna go because my mom and me are gonna go do some dorm room shopping! Love you guys!

eliz

So just a thought...last night at the fireworks, Meredith and I so called a member of the Fab7 and we never got a response. We are way upset. All of us miss ya'll and are looking forward to ya'll coming back soon.

John as the spokesperson needs to let us know how we can get in touch with the rest of the crew. Or they should join phusebox. I think that would be a wise idea.

"UnFalling Love"
by Chris Tomlin

You have my heart
And I am yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power

And everything
You hold in your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand

Praise You God of earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing Love
You never change, God, You remain
The holy One and my unfailing love
Unfailing love

You are my rock
The One i hold on to
You are my song
And I sing for You

this is song is awesome!!!! i love it!!! i was listening to it on tha way to work!!! WHAT A WAY TO START A DAY!!!!

brad pittman and the party pants. my poor grandma, *shakes head*





btw, thats what she thought sister hood of the traveling pants, and brad pitt were called

hey everybody!

The 4th of July was awesome. i went to jamie's house,and there was a guy named stanley. he was really cool. he's a senior at oakland. he gave me a hug. lol

well this weekend i went to alabama for an engagement party for my uncle. and there was a guy there and his name was michael.
he is a senior also, at this school down there. he was like the SWEETEST guy ever!!! lol... but he lives in alabama and i'll never see him again. :-[ . but yeah....

then this next weekend i am going to ohio w/ jamie and our church. there is this guy tyler that is coming w/ and i'm really excited about that. he's a senior at siegal.

wat's up w/ all the seniors?? lol

meanwhile i have an asshole boyfriend who doesn't even call to tell me he's leaving to go on vacation somewhere.. i don't even know!
-sigh- owell.. i mean it'll prolly won't work out but i'll try to stay as faithful to him as long i can be. so long as he does the same.

and no i'm not a whore..lol... so don't be thinkin that..lol

My grandmother is at home shes sick she can barely talk if u will please pray for her i would really appreciate it

today i had a fantastic day!!

i went to wendys for lunch

HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT HOLIDAY!

Ill type more later

Jannie

This is a deer going through the front of a durango



photo from Kapooki91

wow...i haven't updated in awhile! well, my friend nick (actually my counselor from governor's school) came into town this weekend and visited me...we had a blast! we just hung out and yesterday we went to nashville to see the fireworks and met up with la and dusty and some of his friends. the fireworks were A-MAZING! i swear, i look like a little kid when i watch fireworks...i clasp my hands in front of my chest and clap when i see something pretty :) anyways! then today i went to lunch with good 'ole nathan and la and nick...that was fun! took some pictures which i can go and pick up in a few minutes...i'll be sure to post them on here! anyways, i must now go back to reality and get ready for work...love you all!

so this is phusebox, huh? i don't really think i need another distraction... what with olivet being on facebook now and all... but i'm doing this in support of nathan. even though i have no friends on here. but i will recruit, right? right. so this is my first post. exciting! how bout an intro to my life:
i'm cassie. hello. i'm studying to be an english teacher, so let's do this vocab-style... sort of word-association as well... here are a few important words in my life:
COUNTRY MUSIC. - what i'm listening to right now, and almost always, and what i miss about...
TENNESSEE. - my home. i love it, convinced it's the best place to call home. i moved there when i was 9, went to northfield, central, oakland, frcs, back to oakland, and even began my college career at...
MTSU. - where i attended for 2 years, majoring in my fair share of departments, loving every minute of it, until i moved on to...
CHICAGO. - which is my favorite place in the world. i love it here, you should come visit me. i live less than an hour outside the city where i go to...
ONU. - olivet nazarene university, that is. where i study english, or at least kinda try to. life is crazy here. kinda like...
YOUNG LIFE. - a great organization. i'm not the best leader, but i'm working on it. and i believe in their mission - high school kids are great! however, my interest lies more in jr high, but anyhow. this is also where i got to know...
DARIN. - my boyfriend. lots of you don't know him, which is a shame. but someday you'll meet him :) he's here for the summer too, delivering ice in his big truck. we have lots of fun together. much like i do with...
LAURA. - my "be fri." this year she went off to OKC, but i forgive her. i left too, right? anyway, she's awesome. the most fantastic girl you will ever meet. and i have the privilege of calling her my best friend. that rocks. she's even mailing me a skirt to borrow. now who does that? she's cool... kinda like...
KELLY. - who is sitting behind me. her name is here to represent all of the awesome girls that i have meet this summer working at the...
SCHOOL OF GRADUATE AND CONTINUING STUDIES. - where i pretty much scan documents for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. it's completely different from any job i've ever had, especially the one at the...
SALVATION ARMY. - where i work in the thrift store. during the school year i work with the shelter kids after school, but for the summer i'm working in the store - which provides an extreme amount of entertainment for 8 hours on saturdays. this town is nuts. i'm sure more stories are to come from this one... this week was semi-tame though. i even got to read...
AN UNQUIET MIND - which is my current book (thanks heather!) i can't wait until i get to
THE END - ok, dumb way to end this little game, but i've run out of connections. and i think i've pretty much summed up my life right now.
woah - except i left out GOD - which is before all of that junk anyway!! whew. that was close. God is top priority in my life. wait, maybe i left him out of the list because he's actually interlaced throughout every one of those things. yep - that's it! :) back to scanning!

well i still cant read other peoples post or anything like that. i cant subscribe to other peoples site unless they subscribe to mine, so that stinks.
last night was cool, me and rachel went to the lake to see the fireworks. my uncle was driving the house boat, cause it's his, but he got us lost a few times. i told him we were goin the wrong way.
i'm super board right now, i want somethin to do. i guess i could go mow, but i dont want to.
i was seriously about to let lauren nicdao cut my hair sunday night. but she didnt. oh well. i need a hair cut. bad.
piece

DOM_HLL: ok, let me get this straight.. so girls want a guy who is sensitve, caring, and is not afraid to show emotions and can do all this around other guys.... so in other words u want ur boyfriend to act like a girl but u DON'T want them to gay... lol take care and keep smiling

So today Melissa in the office let me watch her baby Joshua while she ran to the bank. He is the most precious little boy. Cutest dimples and smile. Eyes the color of gray-blue marbles. As soon as she left, I began to feel myself panic. I took Joshua upstairs and played with him for a few minutes and then put him to sleep. She told me to beware if he makes faces like he is going to the bathroom, I can catch it in time, but if I hear it then it is too late, it will be all over the place. I think that is when I truly began to have the panic attack. I am certainly not ready for motherhood yet.

Life is good!! Yea.... I work & stuff....and Im not sure i like it too much. but it gets my mind off everything and i make money.

Sometimes its really hard to trust that God is taking care of you....especially when you think He's letting bad things happen. But, I know He is.....its just hard to 100% trust.

I decided im going to MTSU. It didn't go over well with some people.....or, actually... Just one person. I feel really bad about it, but I dont regret making that decision. (at least i dont yet)

its lunch time....so thats my update....
*wish me luck*

Hey! Yeah, last night I watched the fireworks from the comfortable Dairy Queen as I made ice cream. It was ok I guess. Life is a strang one that probably involves some fireworks and sing-a-longs down the road. But I'm enjoying it still.

"We imagine that a little anxiety and worry are an indication of how really wise we are; it is much more an indication of how really wicked we are."

I love Oswald Chambers. But not more than God.

I also love getting organized and feeling productive.

Why is it that when I am at my worst, at the end of my rope, anxiety - ridden, almost (keyword ALMOST) hopeless that a little sleep helps? I know that God "does not slumber nor sleep," so to me that suggests that He's working in my heart when I am sleeping. In other words, He doesn't really need my help.

Timt to do more homework. 3 assignments down, one to go!

NYC tomorrow!

My night was definitely different from what I expected it to be like. However, I must be completely honest...there was a part of me that expected to be let down. I hate to admit that because I am really not a pessimist...I genuinely do expect the best from situations. I don't feel like talking now that I began this...I wish that I would have lived by the exhortations of Paul and not have been anxious for anything...oh, I hate learning the hard way. I just have one question for you today... WILL THERE EVER BE ANYONE THAT TRULY WANTS TO KNOW ME? I mean really know me...someone who adores spending time with me...someone who understands me, and makes me feel beautiful. Because I am ready for him if he is out there! I want to be loved.

...has been stuck in my head for three days now.


"Are you insane??"

"Have I ever claimed otherwise??"


10 days, 10 hours, 20 minutes and 7 seconds until Harry Potter comes out. Meanwhile, I am doing everything in my power to avoid studying economics.

Mostly writing my story. It's about 34 pages long now.

Gee wiz.

I have a boring life.

Christina

yesterday was probably the best Fourth of July in my life so far :)



photo from blue_lips

Emily, Kayla, Annie



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me, emily, kayla, annie



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yay fireworks!



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me and my sister



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LOL

Garrett has a way of surprising me. He bought an iPod online yesterday... a regular iPod on sale for $250... only $50 more than my mini... and it holds five times more songs than mine does...

Speaking of my iPod mini, I now have 245 songs. I've been pretty slow about uploading songs from my CDs... and I haven't bought any from the iTunes store yet. I think I might soon though. I would encourage everyone with an iPod to check out the songs from the Live 8 concerts and buy a few. Some of the proceeds go toward the cause for Africa, and that's awesome! There are a few I decided to buy soon. However...

I noticed that all of the songs are by mainstream artists. The only Christian artist I know of even involved with Live 8 was Jars of Clay (unless you count U2, but Bono confuses me so much I don't bother to label them or him anything).

Am I the only one who sees the problem with this? I mean... as Christians we should be setting the example. There are many non-Christian artists involved with this that are soooo far away from God. As you scroll through the songs, note that some are labeled "explict". They don't know God! Why should they love the Africans enough to care for them? NOT TO SAY THEY CAN'T... BUT they don't even know about God's love like we do. We should be the leaders in caring for others. Sometimes, however, we fail at that role, and that's quite unfortunate... and quite sad.

Once again, nothing to do at work. Leave me some love. I miss people.

I feel blah, because things are blah.

Well, some things.

Like relationship things.
And eating things.
But otherwise, I'll live.

what up kids

fireworks show was kewl, hung out with katie, kim,kyle and kelly(((it was a good day for people with names that began with the letter K)))....it was groovy
but i gashed my leg on a metal spike at MTSU, and i dont really need my leg, so does anyone know a good doctor to amputate?

cookie to anyone who can tell me what song the line that titles this post is from......

ummmmmm

hmmmmm

dookie
later

yesterday...actually mostly last night was fun. i love fireworks. and all the people i saw them with.

now im bored. someone call me.

i love you all.

Reality can be amazingly beautiful or depressingly discouraging. Sometimes, I set things up in my mind the way I want them to happen, and when everything turns out differently, I get down and don't know how to react to what's really going on. Right now, I'm trying to take everything for what it really is and actually use what I'm given for the better.

"Life is like that. You try and try for something and then, the moment you give up, there it is." -The Slightly True Story of Cedar B. Hartley

. . . story of my life

Sometimes, we hurt those we love the most because we trust them the most. We trust that they'll continue to love and be there for us no matter what. . . ((paraphrased from The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants))

I don't understand how something that feels so right can be so wrong.

photo from nathan

Yeah. I just thought this photo was funny.

photo from oosnake45
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I stand alone on a mountaintop,

It stands overlooking the sea..

As I peer downward, upon the rocks..

I know You are watching me..



Although I wonder why...

There is no doubt in this feeling,

I sense Your presence with me..

And I stood there, simply waiting..



You were there..

Like always..

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Guys I just want to say that God is with you always.. Never doubt it, for only then can Satan really hurt you. Doubts only open the way for you to not believe anymore.. and once there.. It's harder to get back the further you get away. We all stuggle with life.. Unfortunately, that is just how Life is.. But through your struggles He is always there. He's the only thing perfect out there, so why not trust Him?

Hey everyone! I'm back from my trip. I'll post some more about the trip later. Hope you all had a wonderful Fourth of July!

-Kaylei

**EDIT** I have some pictures from my trip on my myspace page... www.myspace.com/smiliekay
since I can't put pictures on here for some odd reason I guess that's where I'll have to post them.

I am soo sick of these childish rumors. My older friends were right. It doesnt stop at high school because some people cant grow up...

I need you here right now to hold me, and to tell me everythings going to be alright...

18 more days....

Andrea wanted me to get one so here i am! be sure to look at all my pictures and tell me what you think about my photography skills! nothing really to say except have a wonderful fantabulous awesome exceptional day . Let God rock it.


+Mary Lauren+

So yesterday I went with Meredith to see the fireworks. We went to the East side, which just so everyone knows...I am definitely a West side girl. There were so many people...as far as your eye could see, people and water. It was cool though. We stood on a street that had been blocked off for the explosions of light. I must say that NYC fireworks put Clinton's to shame. Even though fireworks don't beat being with the family by the pool enjoying food on the grill and the laughter of familar voices. I think this was the first time I haven't spent the holiday with my family, but I am coming to the conclusion there are a tons of firsts in my future.

I took some pictures from last night to share with everyone. There were four guys using a tree for their seat. It was very cute! And let me tell you this weren't little boys, but grown men climbed up in a tree. I will put them up later when I have a chance.

I know people in the Boro are happy to have Nathan back, but I miss him in the office. It is very quiet today. Everyone has gone to the Bronx to check out our accomodations for Paint the Town and people are painting the stairs so I am getting high off of the fumes from the paint. Oh yeah, the steps are going to be RED!

Well...need to get back to work.

And Laura, here's my blog. Hope it makes you feel better!

I'm resting on the counter by my office today and my boss walks up and mentions the time I need off to go to NY. . . without me ever mentioning it to her. . . then she proceeds to inform me that it will be no big deal for me to take that week off!

I had never mentioned it to her because i was worried and nervous about asking b/c i've already had a lot of time off, but she mentioned it to me...

walking away, all i could say was "Thankyou Jesus". . .

My life's done a complete turnabout. Not only thanks to a few people I really care about, but thanks to my boyfriend, and now-because of him... I'm stuck here until Friday when I fly out to Padre Island! I'm over it. Whatever happens now is a result of the events of the past week. I woke up to some awesome people Monday morning, and was forced to leave them to come back to an empty home- but I've still got a full heart. I may have missed the holiday, but it was worth the time spent. The sooner I leave, the longer I'll be gone. See you all on the 27th.

Protector


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OK...so today I'm deciding if I'm going to stay in Florda, or move up to Illinois with my Dad and step-mom...it's such a hard decision...
But in a few minutes I'm going to call the local schools, find out some info, and then later talk to CJ...and we're going to make a decision...because if I move up here, he's going to too.
It's just hard to leave so much behind on my last year of high school...

Hey well i am really bored There is nbthing to do I guess I wall go and clean the house bye

HEY EVERYONE IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN W/ THE FAM!!! WENT SHOPPING TESTERDAY I GOT BERMUDA SHORTS(KACKI) AND A BLE PINSTRIPED JACKET(BOTH AMERICAN EAGLE) AND A BOOK(CHECKLIST FOR TEENS) AND A MAGNET FOR MY CAR(JESUS FISH W/ CROSS)BOTH FROM A BIBLE STORE!!! AMAZING THING HAPPENED OK ON MY NEIGHBORS TREE IS SOME FLOWERS AND THEY LOOK LIKE THEY SAY GOD ITS REALLY WEIRD!!!
JACQUE!!!

man oh man last night was pretty gggreat.
not one of the best fourth of july's I've had
but still pretty good.
I couldnt go to claire's because
my dad decided "hey, let's have a cookout over here"
so I was left alone until tiffany came over
which was about uhhhh 7?
the food was allll amazing && the fireworks were just beautiful.

butbutbut I have to tell you. I met someone.
not someone I am considering dating.
but a very sweet someone & kinda cute at that
he could do some things to look waaaaay better
but I liked his personality
his name is stanley, yes like that show haha
but he came over &&
first asked us if we wanted to go watch MTSU fireworks with them
but I couldnt, because of how my dad is
but he came back later & talked to us
we sat on his truck for awhile but
went back to my house & sat on the blankets
to talk && watch fireworks.
awe but he gave my sister & her friend handshakes
but tiffany && I hugs lol
my sister's friend said it was
because me && tiff had boobs
hahaha hilarious right?
very sweet guy though. sr in highschool, family lives across the street haha.
lucky me?
nonono I'm not looking right now.
I'm focusing my life more to God right now.

hope yall had a wonderful fourth of juuuuuly.
have a great day :]

I love you.
Jamie

p.s;; 2 more daaaaaayssssss til O-H-I-O

today is my bday! I'm very happy!!

'Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you.'

'I'm begging you, i'm begging you, to be my escape'

i am going to be different from a lot of the others on here and post on something other than the 4th of july.

God loves us. He is in control. even if things seem horrible, even in our darkest moments...like your heart being broken into 50 billion pieces, a loved one passing away, family problems, friend problems, depression, and any other trial where you feel helpless, hopeless, abandoned, hurt, betrayed, confused, insecure, broken, shameful, alone, lost... God is holding you in his hands. and you may feel like everything around you is crashing down all around you.... you feel your heart breaking into 50 billion pieces, know, please know, that you are alive and well in His hands. He is taking care of you. HE IS FAITHFUL even when we are faithless (2 tim. 2:13), HE IS GOD, that says a lot guys. hello! come on. HE IS GOD. who else can say that and really mean it??? *for louie giglio lovers (who can say that there name is I AM???)* He is the One who wrote this story, the Creator, the Healer, your Savior, your Father, basically, He is everything. He is in control of everything, He will not let you fall out of His hands. He has a hold of you. He loves you!!! and no matter what may come your way remember Him. remember Him even when the waves feel like they are crashing over you. because if you look beyond all that stuff you will see His hand holding yours.

[i am trying not to look at those waves, i am pressing on through the storm. i am alive in His hands. and i am confident that everything will be okay. unwavering faith is what i must have now.]

i hope that everyone had a great 4th (okay so i mentioned it) and a great day today!

2 Cor. 4:8-12

Tonight was totally awesome...first Justin, Rachel, Kayla, Amy, and me went to Riverfront park for the fireworks show which was totally freaking awesome...they even had fireworks that exploded like hearts, cowboy hats, and smiley faces...anyways, the seats were great because of Kyle and Lyndi getting there so early... Thanks to them for the seats...but we had to sit in the parking lot for 35 min because of the traffic, oh well we had fun anyways...

After that we all went to Steak-N-Shake and ate a little, then we all went our repective ways. I just got done playing on the guitar and I think that I finnally got I Can Only Imagine by Mercy Me and Sweetness in Starlight by Matt Wertz down pretty good....if I could only get the drop d tuning right... Justin wanna help me out, Bro ???

Well I am off to bed to sleep because I have a full day tommarow, with the early morning run and the repairing of the new Mac Mini in downtown Nashville at MacAuthority or the Mac store.

Peace


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Of Iran's 100 people groups, all but 10 are least-reached, and eight of the 10 are expatriate groups.


Missions Scripture
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedlingly abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen"
Eph 3:20-21




photo from Tack

Isn't God just awesome???

yay for fireworks! i have a few new pictures! what's your favorite color?

ahh the smell of gun powder. i was bored intil about 1030 when i discovered that a few of my friends were going to go blast each other with explosives. so, of course that sounded fun. so where do we go? thats right, blackman high school parking lot. after that, i went to pauls and chilled for a little while. saw some people i havent seen in a while. well, its late so, whatever.

Sometimes I wish I could go to a college in a small town in Connecticutt or Vermont (those are nice peaceful places you know, with babbling brooks and such) ~ somewhere far away where NOBODY knows me. Somewhere where I can just begin totally new and fresh and where I don't have to worry that I've hurt any of the people around me. Somewhere where things are not complicated. Where I can figure out just who exactly the heck I am without anybody who loves me getting hurt, so I can come back home and make things right. Somewhere where I can be a better person.


someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me// where troubles melt like lemondrops // away above the chimney tops - thats where you'll find me

I got soul but im not a soldier

i've had my computer being worked on for a while.. so i havent been able to update.. but things are great now! i've been reading this amazing book called "seeing yourself as God sees you" its amazing. i would definitely recommend it! anyways, i hope you had a great fourth of july! be blessed!
lisa marie

ok. i'm new at this so work with me here. hi. how are you. ha ha.
:+:ashlie:+:

i have a lot of questions right now. one of these days, maybe i will know the answers...

Sting
"Dead Man's Rope"

A million footsteps, this left foot drags behind my right
But I keep walking, from daybreak 'til the falling night
And as days turn into weeks and years
And years into lifetimes
I just keep walking, like I've been walking for a thousand years

Walk away in emptiness, walk away in sorrow,
Walk away from yesterday, walk away tomorrow

If you're walking to escape, to escape from your affliction
You'd be walking in a great circle, a circle of addiction
Did you ever wonder what you'd been carrying since the world was black?
You see yourself in the looking glass with a tombstone on your back.

Walk away in emptiness, walk away in sorrow,
Walk away from yesterday, walk away tomorrow
Walk away in anger, walk away in pain
Walk away from life itself, walk into the rain.

All this wandering has led me to this place
Inside the well of my memory, sweet rain of forgiveness
I'm just hanging here in space

Now I'm suspended between my darkest fears and dearest hope
Yes I've been walking, now I'm hanging from a dead man's rope
With Hell below me, and Heaven in the sky above
I've been walking, I've been walking away from Jesus' love.

Walk away in emptiness, walk away in sorrow,
Walk away from yesterday, walk away tomorrow
Walk away in anger, walk away in pain
Walk away from life itself, walk into the rain.

All this wandering has led me to this place
Inside the well of my memory, sweet rain of forgiveness
I'm just hanging here in space

The shadows fall
Around my bed
When the hand of an angel,
The hand of an angel is reaching down above my head

All this wandering has led me to this place
Inside the well of my memory, sweet rain of forgiveness
Now I'm walking in his grace
I'm walking in his footsteps
Walking in his footsteps
Walking in his footsteps

All the days of my life I will walk with you
All the days of my life I will talk with you
All the days of my life I will share with you
All the days of my life I will bear with you

Walk away from emptiness, walk away from sorrow
Walk away from yesterday, walk away tomorrow
Walk away from anger, walk away from pain
Walk away from anguish, walk into the rain.


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It's almost scary how well this song reflects my spritual life in the past, and even now. Maybe especially now.

4th of july was hot. and my puppy smells :(

i don't think you can love anyone or anything as much as i love my neice kayla. we played tball in the yard and she hit me with the ball about 50 times. my entire right side of my body should be bruised for a good three months.
i never want to leave that kid and NEVER want her to grow up. but i know everything changes and there are things i'll just have to deal with.

too bad you can't always get what you want....

I just made it home from the parking lot at MTSU for the fireworks! Man was it total chaos! There was so much traffic! The fireworks were actually really good this year!

What did everyone else do for the 4th of July?

Well guys i got a busy day tomorrow and im gonna try and sleep! Not likely since fireworks are everywhere!

Goodnight!
Alicia

So i am burnt on my nose from this weekend...It is crazy!!! But ohh well!!! This weekend was amazing!! We did our fireworks last night b/c none of us were gonna be at the lake tonight...Well there were some people at the other end of the lake that thought that they had better fire works than us..Well apparently they didn't realize that my dad is very good friends with people who own a stand and we got the best of the best this year!! it was amazing!! They kept shooting off the lil fire sparkle things while we were blowing up the sky..it was great!! We had people across from us cheering us own..AMAZING!!! It was soo funny!! We did all of our dances and melissa, whitney and i found a new way to ride the tube...TOGETHER!! It was great...cept i am in a whole lot of pain right now and i can barely move.... Not very smart...But ohh well..it was alot of fun...

Lots of thinking been happening lately... I am feeling alot of stuff and it is kinda making me sad..I really need to talk to some people but i just have to get the nerve up to do it...who knows if that will happen..but ohh well... I better be off to bed..gotta see if I can move tomorrow morning....

Watched a movie with Lisa, 55 newsletters, Bekki made me cry, 7 13 year olds ate hamburgers with me, Jessica came back for the night, JohnO burnt his arm, Dan showed off, watched fireworks with an English girl ironically, an outdoor market at the gas station, strapping Chucky the psycho clown to the top of the van, ice cream, cheesy 80's music, smell of fireworks, McDonald's, noisy muffler, Serendipity, read myself to sleep.

Happy 4th.

wow i was supposed to go to kristens today i think...but i think she was kidding if i wanted to go there or if i totally picked up the wrong message and basically invited myself..and if i did pick up the wrong message then the whole message on her voicemeail is kinda weird..lol...but anyways..yeah ms.duncan im funny..yay fourth of july woo hoo america! lol land of the free..

hey yall well im great now neways i went to the lake today and i swam with all my cousins and i scared my little brother cuz i said there was shrks in there lol it was so funny i didnt know he could screem like that lol well im going to nashvill shores tomorrow and its going to be so fun lol. i cant wait. umm o ya im at my dads house so i cant really get on aim but you can talk to me on yahoo it riverdale_worrior09 so talk to yall later bye

i hope it doesn't rain tonight!! i love seeing the fireworks shot from MTSU...

today's been busy!! i got up early and finished my homework..and then i went to my grandmothers house to see and visit w/ her and my cousins..and well. basically relatives!! it was TONS of fun

have fun tonite! don't do anything stupid..and be SAFE!

You know all the cliche sayings people have about a bridge ...

cry a river and build a bridge and get over it

if everyone else jumped off a bridge ... would you

it's water under the bridge

run to the bridge with it

hiding under the bridge

I've got one question ... Where in the world is the river this bridge crosses?

Cause I've come to the conclusion that that is where the answers to many of life's questions lie!

well hope everyone has a great day...i deffinately am!!! I love being with the family!!!! well c-ya lata aligata!!haha

Much Love,
Rachel

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY EVERYONE!!!! AND HEY ONLY 6 DAYS TILL MY B-DAY!!!!! YAY!!!!!

so today's the FOURTH (no summer school for the abby) =]

i get to spend a whole day hiding from my CrAzY family... just like EVERY other holiday..

hope your day is WONDERFUL, guys...

uhm.. i have nothing else to say, really....

{abb-o}

happy 4th of july!!! if your goin 2 the mtsu fireworks call me 848 4820 when you get there and we can meet up there!!! love you guys soooo very much!!!

^Sarah McLachlan^

Happy 4th of July!

Tonight = fireworks at MTSU with the family, Kelly, Tyler and Calvin. If you are there, definitely call my cell so we can go hang out and watch them together. Hey, Sara are you going?

My uncle and grandma are here now. Tis fun. Yesterday they all went to this concert in Nashville Sarah was playing at but I didnt want to go. So I actually had some time to hang out with a friend. I went over to Andrew's new house. And we watched Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind. Holy shit that movie was awesome. Ahh it was soo good! It was fun hanging out with him too.

Kelly is home now! Woot! Im missed her! You dont realize how much you love people until they leave you [even if its only for 2 weeks]. Im sure Valerie can relate, heh

I think I'm just going to go to the fireworks show with my Seigel buddies. (Did I spell that right? Your school's so retarted I never know how to spell the name. :-p)

Maybe that will make me feel better.

Now... gas, dad's medication, and recycling.

*rolls up sleeves*

wow! got back from camp on friday.

sat spent the day with family.

sunday went to church, went swimming

today cleaned the house

well im still tired so longer post later.

Goalichik

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!!!

anybody going to MTSU to watch the fireworks call my cell, 5841379, when you get there and maybe we can meet up!!

love you guys!

Happy 229th Birthday to the United States of America!