As some of you know, I had to leave the hair salon because my brother took my job while I was away at school. Upon returning here for the summer, I got a job with Cracker Barrel as a hostess. Feeling like I was here just passing time, I was asking God to bring me somthing new...and He said YES. Enter the boy: Nate Dobbs, a fellow employee of the restuarant. Our first real conversation was about the prophetic and tounges. Our second conversation was about what each of us wanted from God. The third coversation brought out the realization that we had the same heart...that is the same desire for God to use us, specifically in prophecy and healing. Any time we are together, the Spirit is thick. He always has an encouragement or scripture for me, exactly what I needed at that moment, and he can tell you that it's the same for him. Other rather quirky similarities have also shown up. We both love the rain, the smell of lavender, the beach first thing in the morning, having our hair played with, and sharing what God is doing in us. We have fallen in love with the Jesus we see in each other. We don't know where God is taking us, so any prayer for guidence in His will would make a world of difference. I have to go back to school in August, and we need God to tell us what the plan is, or at least the immediate plan.
-Megs

Hi everyone. Nice to meet all of you. A bit about me before I go pouring my heart out. :) I am a sophomore at Coastal Carolina with a double major in Marine Science and Biology. I love everything in, around, near, or otherwise associated with, the ocean. When away from the water, I can be found line dancing...as they say, you can take the girl out of the honkey-tonk, but you can't take the honkey-tonk out of the girl. It's it's too early for dancing, I might be riding a harley with my buddies or out hiking in some remote state park that no one has ever heard of. I am a writer too, with works soon to be published, pending editing. My lifestyle is a conservative one, with my relationship with God being my first priority. That's about it in a nutshell.
-Megs

i think sometimes that i forget that i have POWER in Christ. and when i am getting attacked by satan, with the power through Jesus, i can overcome that. i can't wait until the day when i can boldy say this is me...this is where i came from, this is my life...this is what God did in it. i can't wait until i can find my security in God. i want to stand firm, nothing moving me... i want to realize that God alone can meet and go beyond any expectations that i do so foolishly make... he will NEVER disappoint me... i want to really, really, for sure, realize that God loves ME. that i am truly treasured by someone... i hate being an emotional mess, so i guess in cari terms i am having an "emo day"... and i hate how those days can flow over into your relationships with people...and make everything all blah. so sorry to anyone that i may of made upset due to my emo-ness. and i am tired...full of thoughts and emotions... a tad sad, a tad lonely, and most of all just plain confused. oh well, that is life. and God is faithful and loving enough, that despite who i am , he will rise me up. so that should give me great hope, eh? sorry that i am all sad and down and crap...and crying, which you can't exactly see...but shhhhhh, so sorry for the "emo" post...and i am gonna stop now because the tears are totally making it so i can't see the stupid keyboard...haha that made me laugh. i hope everyone has a super great day! please remember that God loves you!!!

i just dont know what to say anymore......

Carrie woke on her sixth birthday to the sound of singing. She knew instantly that it was her birthday, her very own day. She opened her eyes to discover that balloons had been tied all around her bed - a canopy. The celebration had begun. Her mom was standing by her bedside, holding a coffee cake with a lit candle in it, and her dad was there, too, and both of them were singing, "Haaappy Biiirthdaaay tooo youuuu!" Oh, unhindered joy! Squeals of delight, kisses, hugs, and "hoorays!" welcomed her into this day - just as she had been welcomed into the world six years earlier. Her father whispered to his "Little Princess" that he loved her. Her mother reminded her again of how happy she was to have such a wonderful daughter.
There was no doubt about it - this little girl was delighted in.
Life for Carrie was closer to life as God meant it to be for every little girl. She KNEW that her father cherished her. She was his princess. He was her knight in shining armor. He wanted to spend time with her. Carrie KNEW her mother loved her and wanted her. Hers was a world where her father protected her, her mother nurtured her, and she was enjoyed. This is the soil a girl's soul was meant to grow in; this was the garden her young heart was meant to flourish within. Every little girl should be so loved, so welcomed - seen, known, treasured. From this place she can become a strong and beautiful and confident woman.
If only that was how it was for all of us.
---John & Stasi Eldredge, Captivating

Wow, I have to say when I read this....this brought tears to my eyes!!! Even more so when I read, "She knew that her father cherished her. She was his princess." When I read that, I thought....wow....God....King of Kings....CHERISHES......me! Let that sink in!!!! He cherishes you! Say this aloud and fill in your name....I, ____, am CHERISHED by the Almighty! WOW!!! (and that's not just for girls...guys goes for you too! lol...I dont' wanna leave ya'll out!!) But for girls...this story is the kinda love we look for! We are so big on being accepted, loved, wanted, CHERISHED, and DELIGHTED in!!! I think that's why so many girls are so longing for love is because the don't know or understand that someone does love them that way! If they only knew, or if we could only always remember that!!! Girls....there is a love for us beyond words...an EVERLASTING love!!!! An AMAZING, adventures......LOVE!!!! I'm so blessed and excited that God has called me out to find out about it! But He's not only called me, He's called all of us.....even you! Who's willing to take an adventure with me!?

YAY! Im leaving for youth camp with my youth group on Monday...I CANT WAIT! We always have the best time there!! Pray that God will prepare our hearts and change our lives....Have a great week!!

Here is a pic of the youth group after the shaving cream fight last year....



photo from GodsGirl615

Me and my sisters after a paint obstacle course thing...



photo from GodsGirl615

"Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, for he shall be like a tree planted by the waters....and will not be anxious in the year of drought, nor will cease from yielding fruit."- Jeremiah 17:7-8

If you were to go through the day as a squirel...how do you think your day would be?

I'm feeling a lot better now, thanks for asking.

I did something people might consider a "bad move", but I don't think so, and I don't think my opinion will change in the coming days, weeks, possibly months. It needed to be said, and I'm the one that said it.

The job hunt goes, thanks for asking.

I'm going to a hiring fair for RadioShack Monday. There will be the first of three interviews that could lead to me getting hired there. That's a good thing, because I'm low on money and have not heard from the other places I've applied.

Life down here is fine, thanks for asking.

I'm considering getting a season pass to Club La Vela next February; I figure I'd end up going enough to make up the price, but that opinion could change by then. I don't know.

I'm going to be attending Gulf Coast Community College and majoring in Radio/TV Production; the same thing I was already majoring in at MTSU, but cheaper.

I have Half Blood Prince, I haven't finished it. Thanks for asking.

Good so far, though.

I had a really good conversation with a friend tonight. He and I seem to have a lot in common when it comes to certain things. I feel a lot better now that I've talked about some things. I'm very glad to have him for a friend.

photo from SouTHeRN_BeLLe

Do you not just love this picture? I think this is definitely one of the best pictures from NY. It's just so pretty and I just love the angle of the picture! Oh and it's St. Patrick's Cathedral if you didn't know.

Is it weird that I usually only eat once a day??

Remember to always take time to thank God for all you blessings! Even if it's only for a few minutes it's so important to always give thanks for the wonderful things he blesses us with. It always makes my day to think of the things I have been blessed with during the day whether it be spending time with a friend or getting something that I really needed or just recieving a compliment from someone. I think I finally learned to take compliments and feel good about myself no matter what! No matter if I think I'm pretty or fat or whatever! And I think I pretty much have my friends to thank for that! They are always so nice and supportive no matter what I look like. And all of my friends are beautiful and it makes me feel so good about myself they think the same about me! I have always known that God made me beautiful and made me a certain way for a reason but finally being able to accept myself (almost...everyone has a little self- doubt)completely for what I am nothing more and nothing less.Well, I guess that's it so I'm gonna go! God bless and goodnight!

eliz

i decided that my hair was was looking a little to red for my taste, so I dyed it dark brown.

now I'll fit in more at church :)

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]


I can honestly say that I know what that song really means.....

so ummm the charlie and the choclate factory is like soooo freakin awsome!!! and so are emily chelsey brittney amanda and so many other people!!! i had sooo much fun!!! maybe next week it will be nice enough to go to the lake!!!

So i think that i could definitly find a much better picture for my profile but to lazy to actually do any of that.. I'm sooo tired and I got church tomorrow, of course so do millions of others. I feel really bad for our summer interns though, they have to be there at 7:45 and I don't even get up til like 8 - 8:15ish then i dont leave til 8:45. My poor friend Chris is an intern and he lives about 35 minutes from the church. :-)> hahaha! Ok, only 1 more week of baby sitting to go and $196 more dollars to earn! *yeah baby* I miss my AWANA and choir kids, I can't wait to see them all again. If only we could start that up again but skip school! It's 10:14p.m. and i'm tired.. that doesn't make sense?!?!?! I'm gonna aply for a job at the YMCA, i hope i get it! I need the money. Alrightly then, good night!
p.s. I'm gonna put up my non-good pictures of Lifehouse!

I have been working on the new PhuseBox version for most of the day (along with some random freelance work)... I have FINALLY been able to nail down a design for the home pages that I like.

It looks much more professional, yet still keeps its "sleek" feel. Also, there is more color, so it is not just boring white anymore. It looks much different, so when you log on soon to find a site that looks much different, that's how you will know that the new version is here.

I have also worked a little on better usability with photos (viewing, sharing, etc.)

-just an update!

[nt]

aw man... i got burned today at work. (my mom's work, carly and i were helping with a wedding party) i was steaming table cloths and decided to steam my shirt... not smart. at all. burned my chest and it hurts like hell. >_< rar.

but yeah... the rest of the day was okay. made 60 bucks. and i went to starbucks with abby and carly and then took carly to subway, then we went to work. we sort of flirted with this valet guy. i'm kinda mean to them, in a playful way. it's really fun. he asked if we had a bathroom and i was like "yeah, do you want it?" and he was like yeah... so i told him where it was.

heh...

:feels dumb:

hahaha okay well i went to the movies tonight with some blackman ppl..pretty fun. Cept they cept laughin at me?!?! lol well umm some of the guys dared me to yell out this one word (not saying) lol and well i yelled it so loud lol and they were like I GIVE YOU PROPZ! lol and they were scared to yell it so i got them beat...ummm i dunno what else to say...ready for highschool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Soccer conditioning is getting harder...my caves are sore but o well...leave me some remarks dorks!

sometimes it's worth getting hurt.
I dont know what to think now though.

-sighs-

goodnight lovelys.
I love you all.

"&& I cant make it on my own
cause my heart is in oh-high-oh
so cut my wrists and black my eyes
so I can fell asleep or die...
because you kill me
you know you do, you kill me well"
--ohio is for lovers

photo from Ed_The_Angry_Jew



photo from Ed_The_Angry_Jew



photo from Ed_The_Angry_Jew

i want one!

in other news, either next friday or the tuesday after next, my hair shall be annihilated. hope i don't look stoopid.

hm, what to say.....i'm good. i'm bad, all the same, yeah, so Randi is back and so i'm happy. i got the Harry Potter book which makes me happy so um yeah, very happy, went through a lot of trouble to get it too. well gotta go, love to all!!

An elderly couple go to their doctor for a checkup. The man goes in first. "How're you doing?" asks the doctor. "Pretty good," answers the old man. "I'm eating well, and I'm still in control of my bowels and bladder. In fact, when I get up at night to pee, the good Lord turns the light on for me."

The doctor decides not to comment on that last statement, and goes into the next room to check on the man's wife. "How're you feeling?" he asks. "I'm doing well," answers the old woman. "I still have lots of energy and I'm not feeling any pain." The doctor says, "That's nice. It sounds like you and your husband are both doing well.

One thing though - your husband said that when he gets up to pee at night, the good Lord turns the light on for him. Do you have any idea what he means?" "Oh No," says the woman, "He's peeing in the refrigerator again."

This is also funny so check it out. It's called ebonics airways by shirley q. liquor.

http://garrettismyhero.tripod.com/ebonics.mp3

im back!i had alot of fun!if u wanna read bout it go 2 my xanga so yah leave some remarks please!

photo from nathan

nathan is the best...this will hopefully be my home one day!!!

*edit* so i just looked at the Met's season...if i lived in NYC, i don't think i would ever leave that place! the season is going to be fabulous! they are doing Wozzek which is an amazing opera but i've never heard of anybody doing it and Renee Fleming is singing in a couple of them. Wow. just leaves me speechless...

I went to see Charlie and The Chocolate Factory last night and it was awesome! It was so funny. I think you should go see it. Well...not much is going on around here. Just got back from Hastings a few minutes ago. I love going there because I love the atmosphere it's kinda quiet and relaxing. It's nice to get out of the house for awhile.

Ok, so I said I'd now be writing exclusively on my Phusebox.... changed my mind... That's just the main place I write. Yes I know, I'm a traitor lol. I Updated my xanga... and now I'm gonna start Myspace. *SMILES*

*Sigh* Band camp here I come...

I'm SO ready for school believe it or not. Exciting things, my first year in chamber, tryin' to figure essentially a completely fresh new drumline, my freshman friends (weird I'm a sohpomore.... time is too short), new teachers, new chances, hmmm.... I'm excited.

So I'm curious, what do you wanna be when you grow up?

*edit* I'm getting a haircut Friday! DUN DUN DUN!

*second edit* Have you ever been in a situation where you're not as close with some friends that you have very fond memories of and it's becuz of someone else? It's quite silly I must say... (btw, if you think I'm talkin' about you I'm not... there's only one personwho might know what I'm talkin' about and they aren't gonna see this...)

Gloria Patri
the artist still known as... Nathan

List 5 things you do alone that relax you compeletly. Then tag five people and they have to fill it out and tag 5 more.

So i have been taged by Chris Sparks so i will complete this so that i may fulfill my destiny>>>>>>
1. Staring at the Stars on a clear night
2. Taking a long shower and then going to bed
3. Listening to music
4. Driving down random backroads on a beautiful day with the windows rolled down, blasting music
5. Ironically.....cleaning

SO i am going to pass this on to Sharonthemezzo, blur8ders, countrygirl007, and lastly bouclee.....so you all have fun with this...

(i'm going to make a pass list for phusebox too...L-A, nathan, monica, rachael, and lastly maria :)

*yawns* i just got thorough sleepin through holy grail lol i made dad rent it cause erin had never seen it and then i slep through it lol o well were watching planes trains and automobiles now hopfully ill see the whole thing lol tomorrow you guys! im so excited my flights at 600 and ill get there at 610 ya how cool is that but lets see........ dad got back from las vegas yesterday and he got squad commander so hell be moving again he is applying at bases in florida (the base where we lived for a while when the rents were still together) texas north dakota and idaho so ya im prayin for florida cause it the closest so ya well see *muah* i love you guys and ill see you soon

ok, well they took off the ten inches and then she ended up taking another two in order to even out my layers. a foot of hair is gone! omg...seriously i was just sitting in the chair with my mouth open! so, i'm not used to it yet, but i know that the little girl who gets my hair will be happy!

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Whoooo....I'm soooo tired. I've been going to sleep too late. Well, it would be better if I got to sleep longer, but I really do want to spend as much time with everyone here as possible, so it's OK.
"Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" was GREAT!! It wasn't AS great as I give it credit for, but it was still wonderous.
"Good morning star shine. The Earth says 'hello'!" Hahahaha...come to find out, that's a line from a popular hippie play. But when Johnny Depp says it, you're left wondering what the Hell that has to do with the price of rice in China.

I'm off at camp for a whole week!! I know everyone is going to miss me sooo much!!! sunday-saturday! yah!!

hEy EvErYoNe!?! omg i had tons of fun in Cali!! it was like the bEstEst trip ive ever been on..well i use to live there n i member lOts of stuff..bUt its ChangeD sOOo much!! Soo mUch mOre crowded!! gah!! :) well i still had an awesome time and my summer is like soo GrEaT!! Well Im not gonna write a bundle of details cuz i dont feel like doin that junk..lOl well i hope you guys leave me sum remarks!! i lOve you and i missed you all!! ToOtLeS
*MyA*

HeY!! sry for not updating i never had time or was updating on xanga and if u have gone u my xanga lately u kno that my internet on my sp does not work so that is an excuse...lol! we got back from atlanta todaY we went there on the way back from FL cuz my cousin lives there and we stayed 2 nites and then kylie came the 2nd nite and it was really really fun!! they told us that we couldnt finish my movie cuz it was too late and we were sleepin on the pull out sofa in the living room there so we got her portable dvd player and watched a different one under the covers...lol and whenever we heard any kind of noise we paused it and it was hillarious and we started talkin bout some ppl in her neighborhood!! well this is really long ill update later and hopefully put some pics from disney on here!!

Fourteen months with Garrett today... but I don't get to see him. I'm still is MS... but I come home tomorrow. Saw Charlie and The Chocolate Factory... and it was pretty good. I wore my brand new white capris... and they got muddy. Oh well. It was still a good day!

Seems like just yesterday..
I was sitting at Central's gym waiting for them to call my name to see who my homeroom teacher was..
And now I am going to be a Senior at Riverdale High School..
We've all grown up..
Were all moving on..
No matter what, I love you all tons.
Senior Year Begins: August 11th, 2005..
Well, Ive been working at Ritters for 1 year and 2 months.
Everyone, keep in touch, call if you EVER need someone to talk to or to hang out

Texas is... well... hot. My phone roams. My hair's gone crazy. I'm tired. I just got back from a 5 hour road trip and I'm ready to get to my dad's. But other than that everything's great and I can't wait for the next day or the next one or the next one. I miss the 'boro, and I just realized on the way back to SanAntonio that Murfreesboro is one of the very few towns with almost NO tourists. That's what I love about home. Dang beach-goers... who needs 'em anyhow. We got off the island just in time for the hurricane.... *phew*. And this is gonna be the first bit of rain to hit this town in a long time. Bring it on. Hit me up.

O look its Lin-Z Hackney...mhm...yeah...i dontknow what to say!

it is really amazing how gods works. thanks everyone for the prayers. well i am back from N.C. and eveything with the youth group went very well. i have sopme amazing news. my best friend from 5th grade moved to new jersey the day after 5th grade was over and now he is in town and i get to see him.!.! how cool is that? well i am gonna go but i will talk to yall later

-brett

Well, turns out i didn't get to go to the midnight release party......b/c my dad didn't want me and my sis to stay out that late....Well my older sis (manda) just snuck out and went... I told her to go bc she might not be there for next year's book release... but in my mind, i REALLY wanted to go.....so my sis left me @ home with my younger siblings...and yeah, i cried to my mom about it, she told me that she could take me, but i didn't feel like going anymore....

Sometimes it sux being second or getting the leftovers in the family...but i guess you get use to it after awhile, i mean, i just let it brush off my shoulder. but it still bothers me that my older sis gets to do more than i do sometimes. Man, i need a social life. Believe me, i don't want to stuck @ home all of my life, i want to go out and expect to not come home to an angry mom or dad.

Oh, well.... :sigh:

So I jsut returned from my what is suppose to be 6 and a half hour trip from West Virginia (with my stepdad driving it took us 8). So I had a lot of fun with my family (cousins especially). So much happened I won't be able to remember it all! So my cousins and I played two rounds of dirty word scrabble (of course we hid it from the aunts and uncles). We made words like masturbate (which I misspelled it saying masterbate, my younger cousin corrected me on that!) and then my all time favorite...tittyclub. We white water rafted and my guide was especially hot! And somehow we set the alarm off in my uncle's volvo suv...I love that car!!! We shot off a potato gun a lot. And last night was nice. My cousins, Mickey (13) and Chirs (14) and I (16!!!) Walked around the camp site for an hour or two talking about many different things. I shaved art of my leg with my cousin, Nick (16 in a week) electric razor and then tucked him in and gave him a good night kiss on the cheeks (hehe...he hated that). We also pissed of my cousin Sammy (I say she's 9 but she swears she is 11) which is always fun. So yah, those are some of the highlights I can think of. It was so much fun and I miss my cousins a lot! Now I leave for cross country camp at 5 in the morning!!!

btw, my profile pic has the really hot guide in it. His name is Dan and he is 21. It is also in my photo box if you are me and need to see it in a bigger size!

Harry is good so far. crazy though, its not as dark as early as i expected it to be.

Charlie was so good. i'm trying to talk to parents into going to see it on Imax tomorrow night. hopefully it'll be even more splendiforous.

"I like grapes"

"You smell like nuts." "You smell like old people and soap. I like it."

"Everything in this room is eatable, i'm even eatable. but that my children is called cannabalism and in fact is frowned upon in many societies." :P

good ole' johnny depp. so humorous. i DO love him now more than ever though. :)

Well, I've finished it. It was good, but left me feeling a little...dissatisfied. And a little disapointed. To be fair, there were a lot of good moments, but the entire romance chunk of the book was utter blarmy.

Anyway!

Jesse and I conducted "Operation Relive Childhood" last night, going to watch CatCF (see what being a Harry Potter fan has done to my willingness to write out titles??) and I must say, the film was magnificant. Johnny Depp was perfect. My favorite characters, hands down, were Violet and her mother. The movie was hilarious, and about equal with the original in my book, though different.

THEN we proceeded to Starbucks (which incidently did not feature prominantly in my childhood, but whatever) to load up on caffeine before heading to Books-A-Million. To sum up, the store was in a state of organized chaos, sans the organization. But I got the book within two minutes of midnight, so I'm not complaining.

I was up til five reading it. Then I slept until ten and finished it this afternoon. Lauren's birthday party is tonight, so I will see many of you there.

Much love,
hypedupsleepdeprivedchildhoodrelived Christina

Hmmmm... Yesterday was very interesting. Yesterday, I went over to Amandas' dads' house for a couple of hours. We mostly just tried to lay down and take a nap togeather. That didn't work too well though. Her little brother and sister were very very nosey. Lol... It's all good.

And of coarse her dad didn't know. He doesen't want to even meet me, so, it was while he was at work.

And then, last night was the rleasing of the 6th Harry Potter book so, you know where I was... lol! At first, Amanda couldn't come... and then later, she still wasen't allowed, but she snuck out anyway. I'm such a bad influence. So, I got to see her there. She was more interested in Cater Hays though... lol, jk!!!! (love ya Amanda!!! Don't hate me for that!!!!)

So, today I cut the grass, cut down a tree, and tonight, I'm going to go to a Boy Scout thing.

I guess thats all, so, later.
Brett

I'm in town kinda now.... I'll be at my grandparents.... but it's still....

ugh, band camp......

GLORIA PATRI!

Well, I got a 4 on AP Gov't and a 1 on AP chem.

so yea i am back home from the cruise and am getting ready to repack my bags for Paint the Town (July 25th- August 1st) so yea school starts in a couple weeks and i have one trip left to nyc before i begin my sophomore year. i remember when i started i thought i have two trips (i didn't know if I was going to paint the town or whitewater w/ the jr. high yet) and work i will be so tired by the end of the summer. well @ this time i am pretty good on sleep. God has defintly brought me through the summer months and has shown me so much stuff over the sumer so far. So yea as i am was saying i am heading to nyc the 25th for a mission trip called paint the town. this is a thing where we join forces with many churches around this great nation to paint a school in the bronx. so yea i will have more details about it later. i am pretty stressed right now because i was supposed to have my medical release in thursday and i still have it. so yea this next week will be VERY busy. i have to do a m-fuge video for wednesday (these are a lot of fun to do! SERIOUSLY!) so yea pray that i can get the stuff i need to get done done before i head to the big city. later- stephen

I HAVE ADDED A FEW MORE PICTURES AND ALBUMS CHECK THEM OUT!

anyone want to do something? if you do, give me a call. :-)

I had a car wash today. Ran into Corey. Not good.

okay...Moulin Rouge is so right. The greatest gift you'll ever learn REALLY IS just to love and be loved in return. I mean REALLY! I guess I knew what it was like to love...before but.. okay....yea....can i just say that it is just about the most amazing feeling in the whole world??((not to mention extremely SCARY))

So life is good...and sometimes bad. God is definitely in control. It's just hard to see that sometimes.

I've always really sucked at goodbyes.
And I didn't do any better this time.

ap history results came in today. who made a 5? the brian made a 5. woopt!

i can't stop listening to the lifehouse cd. i think i'm addicted. it's beautiful.

i'm making a pizza for lunch. i remembered to take the cardboard off this time. i'm famous for forgetting to do that.

i feel like i should have something important to say, but i can't think of it.

ever felt alone?

*last night at work was crazy insane anyways... but as i was opening the back door to get rid of a box i heard a crash behind me. when i turned around to see what happened my General Manager ,Jeff, was laying on the floor right outside the freezer. he had been getting fry boxes out and he had on the wrong shoes so he slipped and fell and hit his head on something. he was bleeding. so me and Kevin (who was incharge) got him some ice. Jeff was walking around the kitchen saying that he felt light headed... one of the girls told him to sit down. Kevin and I found the phone and i called 911 while Cassie put pressure on his head. it wasn't his wond that i was worried about... i was worried about him going into shock... we would have had a hard time if he passed out on us. the paramedics arrived and took him. i think he's okay. we had prayer after he left. that was nice. yeah... last night ended well i'd say... the hard thing was that after a day of stress everyone was just drained... hehe... but i know i slept well :) it just really made me appreciate the people who do emergency stuff and all... and it made me grateful for the fact that i've never had to call 911 before... and i'm glad that it wasn't worse b/c it could have been.

Have you ever had a week that made you want to say, "Hey, my life kicks butt!"?

I had a busy nite last nite. I was goin to study with a girl in my neighborhood named Jessica for the permit test, when blake called to invite me to go to the movies. I went at 7:45 and then went to the harry potter party from 9:45 to 12:15. Then today I have been reading great expectations for school. I am goin to starbucks soon to read and have coffee. I know I sound like a nerd rite now. Oh well. talk to yall soon. - J @ ( 0 B

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I just got a call to babysit for someone who used to go to our church tonite at 7. So, I mite call some of yall once the baby is asleep if they dont leave their other daughter. ok. later - J @ ( 0 B

p.s. - should I keep signin my name or is that stupid? Tell me in a comment.

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I babysat from about 6:45 to 10:15 and got 25 dollars. Easy job and good money. I was only gonna sk for 10 cuz I didnt know. She gave us vegetables too. Cool nite...Ya. - J @ ( 0 B

CHILI'S=MMMMMMM GOOD!!!
CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY= AMAZING(I ALREADY WANT TO SEE IT AGAIN!!!)
MARBLE SLAB=!!!!!! CANT EVEN DESCRIBE HOW GOOD MY CHEESECAKE AND OREO ICE CREAM WAS!!!
OUR DESCUSIONS @ MO'S(SP?)=SO FUNNY REMEMBERING OUR OLD BAND STORIES!!!
THE CREEPY PLACE NEXT TO JASONS DELI=SCARY!!!
AND THE HARRY POTTER RELEASE PARTY= FUN SEEING OLD FRIENDS THAT WE HAVENT SEEN SENCE THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! AND OUR HATS ON EMILY EXPERIENCE AND RUNNING AWAY FROM CREEPY PEOPLE THAT WE KNOW!!!

ALL IN ALL THE NIGHT/MORNING WAS AMAZING!!!

OUT,
JACQUE!!!

well I cant go to Claire's house.
for reasons unknown
I just dont like it when parents say
"because I said so"
ohwell.

anyways, I got some new shoes
very cute :]]
my mom felt bad so she took me out
&& I got the anna nalick c.d
it's pretty good. not the best
but definately my money's worth

uggh my dad..
I just can not stand him
I want to go somewhere.
to get a break or something
I doubt he'll let me go anywhere
it's like he always wants me around.
I havent given him a reason not to trust me
so I dont get it.
blah I cant believe I am venting.
I'll stop

I'm going to go to my room for awhile.
I love you guys.
Jamie

http://www.wtv-zone.com/Mary/THISWILLMAKEYOUPROUD.HTML

I am so extremely and completely tired right now. BUT i am a TROOPER and am awake and at the store...(my mom's store) running it today...after work, im going home and going to SLEEEEEEP. so, im glad all yall are leaving "remarks"- i feel loved. haha....

Well, im gonna go. update later possibly.

I really wish the clouds would go away. I have to get rid of my tanlines before Thursday so they won't show up in my senior pictures!!!! I don't think I'm doing much today. I guess it will be a good day to start my summer reading or go to the music stop and look at flute books. If anyone has any exciting plans call me!

man ths drive in was soooo good last night charlie and the chocolate actory wasnt as good as i thought it would be.... the acid trip scene wasnt even crazy... o well it was still really good and then war of the worlds was amazing its was so cool cause it was heat lightning the whole time lol they were the aliens being sent into the ground RUN AWAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is 4:36 in the morning and I am done with HP6..what have you been doing?

I've been awake for a good 35+ hours now.. I think im getting a little hysterical.. oh well.. Call me, I'm still alive yah know. 848-4557

I think Emo kids would just feel alot better if you gave them a BIG hug. Maybe that would make them less whiney.Heh.

Phusebox seems cool.
Its kind of like Xanga.
I got an avenged sevenfold shirt at Hot Topic

i love you.

The past two days have been HILARIOUS!!!!!! I was SSOO happy to get to see Charlie and the Choclate Factory at the IMAX!!!!!!! I have never seen a real movie on IMAX before and believe me it was a life changing experience!!! As far as my movie life goes anyway. I LAUGHED AND LAUGHED AND LAUGHED!!!!!!!!! I can't wait till it comes out on dvd!!!!!!!!!!! I AM DEFINITELY GETTING IT! YAY FOR REALLY GREAT MOVIES AND REALLY GREAT PEOPLE TO WATCH THEM WITH!!!! I had a great time sharing this experience with Jonathan, Rachael, BJ, and Justin. This could be longer and maybe a little more in depth, but I have an over due date with my pillow. good night!

"Good morning starshine... the Earth says HELLO!!!!!!" -Willy Wonka
-HAS to be one of my favorite quotes of ALL time!!!! I have been repeating it to myself ALL day and it NEVER gets old.

I have a new last name now. WOO HOO! I am so happily married, and I am so blessed and so thankful! Charles and I are home from the honeymoon now, staying in Knoxville a few more days so I can drive my dad to his doctor's appointment, and then it's HOME to our apartment in Murf. :) I am so happy. The beach was great. I'll post pictures when I have them!
Kenobi grew while we were gone! Oh my gosh! And I haven't been to see Frodo yet, but I can't wait!
Everything is perfect. Thank God!

So...I was reading this Christian book that I read from a friend the other day...and the way it was talking, it sounded like Christians think it's ok to (and should?): go out and fuck everybody they see, dress like sluts, and be gay-and be proud of it and stick with it because that being you.(And no getting me wrong, I have some very good gay/lesbian friends.) So yeah, you may not be Christian or not, but um...WTF?!?!?! NONE of those things is part of Cristianity. o.o! It's an.....interesting book to say the least.... It's a real eye-opener anyway. (O)_(O)!

Oh yeah-and I'm only about 1/4 of the way through the book. It's like a question/answer kind of book.

edit: And I'm posting this here and in my MySpace journals instead of my xanga because I don't feel comfortable posting this where I know it will hurt people that are already hurting enough as it is. =\ But I felt I needed to post it....

good movie! very funny!

amor!

cz

ok guys...tomorrow i'm getting 10 inches of my hair cut off!! oh my gah...i'm like really freaking out here. i'm giving it to locks of love, though...so that motivates me to go ahead and do it. oh goodness.....it'll be ok....hopefully!! ahhhh!!

Well, earlier this week I started to program the first code for the new version of PhuseBox. I am still in the redesigning stages of the new version, but it is coming along. I think everyone will like it when I finally finish.

The design is going to be a lot nicer and more professional. The settings panel is going to be loaded with options. I am working on several new features as well especially dealing with photo management/albums/sharing/etc.

If you have any suggestions for the new site (other than colors and/or music), now if the time to let me know. I am really getting excited about revamping the website and finally start advertising on a larger scale.

Regardless of the fact that I am working on a new system, please continue to get people to sign up for PhuseBox. Copy and Paste your site address into your other sites and/or profiles and/or away messages.

By the way, do you know anyone who would like to advertise on PhuseBox to specific groups (such as a certain high school, city, etc)? PhuseBox is picking up traffic all over the place...

anyways, I hope you all are still enjoying the site. Let me know of any bugs that you run into. Thanks!

[nt]

im hungry, but not as much as your mom.

So, I get cast for this independent film. Seems real cool and all...well, when I auditioned there was some vulgar language, if you will...and I told them that I am not too convicted of using such words, but I must draw the line somewhere or it can get a bit out of hand. They were completely cool w/ that and a week later when they handed me the final script saying that I got the part, the lines were changed to suit my morals. But, I told them that I wouldn't accept the part until I read the whole script...good idea, I know. So...I did. And, its pretty vulgar...like American Pie vulgar. Not so much my character but the characters that are associated are a bit...um, on the wild side. Hint the title for the film "The Wild Side"...well, I'm not too sure if I want to be apart of the film. It would be great experience...and I know I'm not going to have scripts handed to me but, if I'm uneasy about something than that should be the end of the story, right?! Well...God has been good thus far...so, if I'm feeling the way I do about the film than maybe this is alittle nudge from God. Its a great script, don't get me wrong, but just some unnecessary lines and scenes. Um...decisions, decisions, decisions. This is out of my hands and in God's...forizzle.

... i just hope it doesn't rain.

that would be bad. really, really bad.

for my birthday i would like... the moon and a couple of stars and an expensive foreign car.

that would make my day.

so. life is filled with crappy emotions. i am such a girl. i am simultaneously attracted to 2 people. it's funny how some people just get to you. like, people can (and do) criticize me all the time, and it doesn't get to me, but this one person says a single thing to me, and it just kills me. gah. i can't stand this person, and yet somehow i am attracted to them. also, people that lead me on. gosh. can't stand it. but i still find myself attracted to them. i hate my brain. i swear, if i ever get married, it will be to an older guy, because guys my age suck. but god i miss Bruce. for so many reasons. and i am so gosh darn tired of being made to feel stupid or like i am crazy or like i am unhealthily dwelling on the death of my BEST FRIEND. so many people use that term lightly, but i mean it. he was my best friend. and it seems like most everyone else that wasn't close to him has just moved right along. i don't expect everyone to dwell on it. but i'm getting really sick of the fact that everytime i mention Bruce, people either roll their eyes and tell me "Cari, that was a year ago." or tell me that they think it's time i "let bruce go" or bluntly "get over it." i will not get over it, damnit! i loved him, and i think i'm entitled to mention him once in a while. it's only been a year. and not even that. it's been less than 11 months. god. but at least i have plently of people in my life that understand, are not condescending, and do not treat me like crap. i love you guys. well, i'll be ok by tomorrow, but what i said in this entry still stands. goodnight.---Cari

camp rocked
met some really cool people
i'll miss them

So, tonight my bro had all of his friends come over for his BIG 15th party. So....yea, from 4-6, Brittany is alone with all 6 15 yr old boys....man, I am glad I only have one brother....I am about to take ALL of them to Ritter's to get some ice cream.....Aren't I a GOOD SISTER!!!

Well, last night was eventful...went to see Fantastic 4 with my BESTEST friend....GREAT movie by the way, then we went to Davy Crocketts, lol. Brittany was getting mad cause the waiter was looking at me the whole time he was at our table...lol! Then...to top it off, he came up to give us our bills and he said, "Do you want it seperater or together?" and we said "Seperate", then he looked at me and said, "Too bad", and gave us ONE check. Then Brit took it and he only charged us for her meal....LOL!!! I was laughing so hard! Then he starting calling me sweetheart...and I was like "Whoa, ok...we're gonna leave now!....My first time at Davy Crocketts was an interesting one!

Well, I am gonna go and take the boys to Ritter's! Bye!!!

WOW! i had so much fun white water rafting down the Ocoee River with all of my friends. It was AWESOME. it just seemed to go by so fast. i just wish it had lasted longer. well lets see i was thrown out of the raft and hit my back and knees on a couple of rocks so ill be in pain tomorrow.

well thats all for now
longer later

love Goali

I was pretty much forced into this by 2 friends in the boro (shults and erin). so, here it is. I sit at home, alone, on a Friday night bc I was going to check out this cool church called the Grace Center and found out they have no friday service during the summer. So, I'll prob get some friends together and go see Cecil Adora in NashVegas.

put it simply GOD MOVED!!! ill tell more later

My uncle came home early today so i got to leave at 11! yeah!!! I needed a break... my stomach needed a break to! So i'm rich, not quite but i have money to finally put together my photo album from San Diego and my photo album from my 2 family reunions this summer which i will probley just get those pics develped and put them somewhere... And then i need to find a job before school starts again! I'll be broke if i don't and then i'll be in BIG trouble cuz i have bills to pay. Ugg being responsible sucks! ~lol~ Ok then, i just gotta remember God take care of it all.. I'll be fine.

hey im better sry i was just like ugh!thanx elizabeth and jamie it made me feel better haha but im back 2 having fun!bye

more quotes from willy wonka:

"i'm eatable, but that my children is called cannibalism and is in fact frown upon in most societies"

"and here is our puppet burn center...it's kind of a recent addition."

"i always thought a veruca was a wart you got on the bottom of your foot"

"don't touch that squirrel's nuts, it's makes him crazy"

"the best kind of prize is a SURprise!"

I have had such a good time hanging out with my friends lately, fun times.

      blink 182 is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Oooooh, guess what! Charlie and the Chocolate Factory comes out today!! Yay!!
Yeah....that's pretty much the hightlight of my week...no, my month!

If you are as crazy about pictures as I am, you have to check some photo contest winner entries at smithsonianmag.com. They're awesome! I wish everything in life was that beautiful... that's why I love photography... I love the way it captures the most beautiful and precious things in life...

And some things... if only you could capture them... memories, emotions, feelings...

Speaking of pictures, I will have a few MS pics to upload when I get home... whoo hoo...

Anyhow, I haven't done much today in MS. Mom and I shopped earlier and right now I'm up to nothing until Mom picks me up to go see Granddaddy again. I come home Sunday... and then I go to NY the week after next, which is totally surreal to me right now...

This morning my aunt showed my mom and me pictures from a cruise she and my uncle took a few years ago. Actually, most of the pictures were taken by the woman who took care of their cabin. Oh, and the pictures were of bears... with various props... LOL... I am NOT the only one!

I'm ready for college. I think. I hope.

"...we are living in this beautiful, broken world..." -Warren Barfield

I have nothing to write about but I needed to update....here's a great pic of me and LISA!!!! hehehehe.....



photo from GodsGirl615

leavin in 2 days to go to NC music camp, im gona get a lesson from the horn professor on my solo for NYS. I'v never done anything like this so it should be cool, i just hope im healed up in time for marching season.

so how is everyones summer been?

do anything new, different?

Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!

Harry Potter in 8 hours 35 minutes and 8 secounds. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHH!

Don't even think about calling me tomorrow. I'll be reading. :-D

woot. tonight's the night.

it'll be madly crazy, but totally fun and i can't wait. turns out more people are coming than i expected, more the merrier i suppose!!

so if you would want to meet up at 6:45 at the little theater to see Charlie swing on by!!

i can't wait for 12:01 tomorrow morning!!!

oh check my xanga for cute Charlie pics :D



photo from blue_lips



photo from blue_lips

well I'm back from Nashville and I now finally have my schedule for the semester.

Monday,Wednesday, and Friday I am taking Psychology, Chapel, The Story of Israel (Hebrew History- bible class), and Biology and I get done at 1:50pm with classes
Tuesday and Thursday I have University Bible, Fundamentals of Math, Lipscomb Seminar (English), and University Singers and I get done at 4pm....but I don't start untill 9:30am which is good :)

well, I guess that's all I have for now.
Hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week!

Love in Christ, Kaylei

i hate it! i think its reeli stupid to get it, b/c u shud b happy w/ wat u look like already! if god wanted u to look how u want to look after the plastic surgery is dun, then he wud hav made u look tha way , but he didn't! y wud u want to change the way god made u? its stupid! so dont do it, and it costs a bunch of money! jus b happy w/ the way u r ~

***thas jus a lil theory from me***

after texas, we went to florida! and tha was so much fun, even tho every time we wud go out into the ocean, we wud b scared to death... b/c of the sharx! ahh! but luckily, God kept us safe, and ther wer no sharx. newho... um the place i stayed in w/ my family had a balcony tha was on the beach and was so beautiful (the beach). we went go karting twice and i've only driven a truck once in hodgenville... so driving a go kart was new but i got used to it very quickly. thank goodness i never crashed! we also went to shipwreck island and rode everything there is to ride! the free fall drop was reeli scary but duh, i lived... and its something i can def. see myself doin agin. wen we wer goin home me and my mom noticed a random scratch on our leg tha looked similar and we decided tha a sting ray had rubbed up against us b/c we had kno clue how we got them, thas sorta scary sometimes wen u dont kno how u got something, like a scratch.. makes u wonder!

i kno i kno another pointless story from me, o well... maybe if ur stupid enuf, u read it, but im sry i wasted a couple minutes of ur life!

this summer was so much fun spent in texas for a week! i wish it was longer tho. our mission trip was w/ mission arlington, they pretty much planned out wat we wud do every day, um we did a rainbow express to different apartments for 4 days. the kids wer great and we all wer so attached to them. we had to sleep on the floor of a church but tha jus added to the excitement of being ther to worship God and tell everyone of his greatness! my friend kevin did something to his ankle and it was sprained for a while and it seemed to get bigger every day. stinx for him. me and kevin played a trick on bennett... im gona tell u about it but u can jus skip over it if u want cuz its not tha interesting (its one of those u hada b there kinda things)... bennett wud always steal my sunglasses and they like making me mad, so kevin got the sunglasses from bennett and gave them to me, but bennett didn't kno, he thot tha corey still had them and got reeli nervous wen he couldn't find them ne mor, sooo.. me and kevin wer like "bennett! wer are they? find them now! if u lost them, ur in trouble." u kno, jus stuff to make him even mor scared. so he went on and asked jus about everyone where they wer and this went on for a long time, but i felt bad so we eventually told him tha i had known where they wer the whole time. bennett was a lil upset but he got over it. me and kevin had fun taunting him about them tho. ~~~ we went to six flags over texas which was reeli fun and it rained for a lil while so ther wern't tha many people ther, which was a huge plus wen ur like me and dont want to wait in huge long lines forever! at six flags i walked around w/ my best friends... john, brittany, amanda, kellie, and allison... during rainbow express we wud do puppets for the kids and they wud always love tha, and even tho we wern't always the best at puppets, the lil kids didn't care. kelly and mandy wer always great w/ getting the kids fired up for puppets, they knu how to make them laugh! over all we had a great time, and i absolutely love goin on mission trips!

took alot of pictures. I'll post them later.
what can I say?
my cousin has alot of hats. heh
made a bunch of movies too.
but those are to d-e-l-e-t-e-d
muahahah.
hyper to the extreme
I love you allll.

photo from SeeRockCity

well i had a great day yesterday...my car is outta the shop and hopefully all ready to go...i babysat this girl yesterday and made 50 bucks!..then i got to go to another art class in franklin and modeled for them to paint($45)..then me and my dad went out to eat and just talked about all kinds of stuff...i love him so much..i think maybe, just maybe..my dad is better than yours..hah...

then all night i could hear the thunder outside...thats got to be one of the greatest things ever, just the sound of a storm..my dog doesnt feel the same way tho, she slept under my bed all night..heh


i think im going to the Y today with Emily.and then my mom and sis will be home sometime tonight..so anyway have a great day!
-kels

not much going on this week i just basicly babysat and what not and hung out with my friends and that was cool and all. so this weekend i don't have plans if you wanna do something tell me and we will for sure do something.

question:
have you ever gotten so comfortable with your life that it just seems like it isn't good enough? i don't know it's really hard to explain but it's like i just want something new to happen you know.it's not with my friends or anything like that it's just like i want something new to happen right now.

well leave me your thoughts and what not.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
GOD BLESS!!!
Leah

So let's be praying that it will be sunny all weekend long. Ellie, Meredith, and I are going to Jersey Shore to the beach!!! It is going to be so much fun and nice vacation from work.

The other day we were shooting video for PTT and I fell going up the steps. I have a nice little bruise. I am being Nathan's assistant. I am the grip, which is a tough job. Holding a boom mic is wearing on a person. But I have loved being the little helper and learning more about shooting videos. I also take care of all the scheduling and phone calls. So if you want to speak to Nathan you need to go through me.

I finally went and got a checking account in the city. It feels more official now that I have a bank here that I can call my own.

Yesterday Tim Elmore spoke at our training. He showed clips from "The Last Castle". I don't know if anyone has seen this movie, but it is definitely on my list of movies to see. What I saw of it was really good. At one point, it made me cry!

All of my friends coming up for PTT. Hurry up and get here! And I don't think that any of the FAB7 have joined phusebox. Ughhh!

Keep praying for sunshine!

LIBRARY!!!

last night was fun.... went and saw SEETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND CROSSFADE!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP IT WAS AAMMMMAAZZINNGG.
then the activities in tha boro' after.... haha, bluesboro was fun. "crazynathan" was there.... all up on me... gah- laawhoosaaher. this guy FINALLY chugged a yagerbomb and THREW UP on himself and the floor.....haha. some people just cant take their liquor.....he was all like; "i like gin." hahahahha...

good times in the boro.

< so YEA, my parents are leaving for hotlanta here in a bit....so PARTY over here woop woop; party over there woop woop. >

much love,
give it a call,
mal

hey ppl i havent written in this thing for a while so how is everybody today has been my most boringist day ever so we are going out to dinner tonight as a family...at moe's....that will be fun

HARRY POTTER COMES OUT AT MIDNIGHT!!!!!!!

well, Harry Potter 5 comes out, officially, tonight at midnight. and I'll be there. visit the xanga for a deep post. they don't happen often. God Bless.

well, I leave for Mexico at 3:00 a.m. tommorrow morning...so you can bet I won't have any sleep tonite for fear that I won't wake up in time. Don't miss me too much.