pretty much sucked.

actually, it wasn't the whole day, just first, fourth, and everything after that. and now i get to go to my cousin's ninth(?) birthday party. fun.

Here is the BABC Basketball Preview Article i wrote for the Proxy 521 phusebox.

Well
next thursday the guys of the Proxy 521 ministies will kick off their
05-06 basketball season.  This year come with a variety of challenges
with loses of Robert Lewis, Jacob Craig, Patrick Pope, and Parker Shipp due to
graduation. Returning this season is Ben Moser, Haden Campbell, Alex
Lewis, Garrett Haynes, Ben Yeargen, and Stephen Hamby. They will also
be accompanied by new players that will consist of Tyler Tipton, Riley
Clark, Matt Goodman, Chas and Michael Petrone, John King, Christian
Taylor, Wil Sloan, and Tyler Minor. This team has a lot of potential
and talent. One other returnee is the coach of the BABC guys John
McCain. So come on out and support your 2005-2006 Belle Aire Boys
Basetball Team. The schedule has not been announced but will be on here
asap!

pretty sure i need some "remarks"

i mean, i havent even had it a month and yall are makin me want to quit

hm whatever.....

life is goin ok... ups and downs......

first and foremost - i'm going to wisconsin in about 30 minutes for YoungLife fall weekend!!  this is a kinda big deal for me - and definitely big for all these kids!  so prayers would be AWESOME!

"the whitis" (you can imagine the emphasis) came and observed me teach at school today - nerve wracking!!  i think i'm just now calming down from it all - but overall it went pretty well - its a tough class, but they really got into my lesson which WAY excites me!  so what if they were a little rowdy?  at least they spoke!!

AND i just found out that kankakee is getting a walmart SUPERCENTER!!  woah!!  no more being a trader and going to k-mart for me!  party with aubree!  :)

so have a good weekend... i'll be back sunday afternoon... just in time to start another insane week!

(((it's gonna be cold in wisconsin... with all my winter clothes in tennessee...))) 

Well next thursday the guys of the Proxy 521 ministies will kick off their 05-06 basketball season.  This year come with a variety of challenges with loses of Robert Lewis, Jacob Craig, and Parker Shipp due to graduation. Returning this season is Ben Moser, Haden Campbell, Alex Lewis, Garrett Haynes, Ben Yeargen, and Stephen Hamby. They will also be accompanied by new players that will consist of Tyler Tipton, Riley Clark, Matt Goodman, Chas and Michael Petrone, John King, Christian Taylor, Wil Sloan, and Tyler Minor. This team has a lot of potential and talent. One other returnee is the coach of the BABC guys John McCain. So come on out and support your 2005-2006 Belle Aire Boys Basetball Team. The schedule has not been announced but will be on here asap!

well. Cingular made a big boo boo. In my favor

I ordered my new phone on Oct 31. well It said online that it was backordered. I wasn't happy. So i called on like the 1st and asked about it. and the lady I talked to called someone else and gave them my order number. Well these KIND people found me a phone, and mailed it. i was happy. my phone should've arrived today. . .

turns out they mailed it to the good ole house in murfreesboro. ugh.

must wait on my mother. . .

wel i was looking @ my order. . .and it seemed I'd be getting 2 phones

I recieved a Delivery confirmation for the other phone today

Cingular mailed 2 phones to  my murfreesboro house. . .

and I only can believe this to be true because one was sent via FedEX and the other UPS

but I still don't have one here in Orlando. . .that's being worked on. . .

ALSO!!! everyone join my group "my heart lies in murfreesboro"

fallin' asleep to the sound of stars shootin' round the moon
but i can't watch them fly tonight, baby
i'm too busy watching you
i guess your smile is the sun's way of lighting up what's dark, yeah
so shine, shine, shine, for me baby
it only takes a spark
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the day sighs
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the sunrise, yeah...oh the day sighs
and there's nothin' under these bright stars
that could bring this night to ruin
so hold on tightly to me, baby
cuz tonight's gonna end too soon
and your touch is potent medicine, oh
knocks me out with just one shot, yeah
i've never seen such strong elixir, baby
it fixes all that i'm not
you fix all that im not, yeah
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the day sighs
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the sunrise
yeah, i'm holdin' on so tightly baby
i won't let you go
i won't let you go...
sweetness in starlight

Decided to go back just minute ago and listen to some stuff I hadn't listened to in a while. Matt Wertz was the artist of choice.

Man, i had forgotten how cool this song is! It should be the theme of every high school prom in the country or something!

Now comes another familiar tune and he is telling me everything's right... man, this guy is cool!

Today is a rather boring day. We didn't do anything in first period, so I sat on the computer. In 2nd, again...nothing. I went to practice. In 2rd we had a vocabulary test...I did "ok." In 4th period, Tech's trombone choir came and played for us. They're really good. I got to see Fred, Steven Polk, Perfect-Pitch Pete, and some others. We played a little bit, but not long. Lunch is really boring. 5th period, I didn't play much. I copied some music, worked on mid-state/Strauss a little bit. (High Bb's are dangerous!) 6th period, I'm pretty sure I feel asleep in Dukey's lap. Right now I'm just sitting here eating leftover Chinese food.

Tomorrow is brass festival. I'm excited, but I just hope there will be people there I know...but I'm sure there will. After that I'm going to see Nashville Symphony play the LOTR Symphony. I'm majorly excited about that. I have rehearsal on Sunday....

I just got an e-mail from some lady that is going to start a horn club in Memphis and she wants me to be in it next year. Having a simi-reputation is good.

so i'm listening to this remix of Madonna's Nothing Really Matters... and i'm sitting here and i'm like -this is an interesting remix- and then i say to myself -it's like, the sex remix, or someting-

:giggle:

i'm so glad the weekend is here. i really hope it doesn't fly by, and i actually get to enjoy it....

i was gonna go to the movies tonight, but i don't have much of a way to pay for it.

ah well. the play last night was good. "Cross Stage Right: Die" it took place in like 1942 i think and the whole play was in black and white.  very cool. but i'm not exactly sure what happened...

ah well.

love you guys.

...a photography student asked me if she could take my picture today. 

For two years Alpha Omega College Ministry has made it to the playoffs. AO continues the trend for the third straight year. AO (4-1) will pay the Bayside Tigers Monday night November 7th at 7pm at the MTSU intamural field in the 1st round of the 2005 Men's "A" League Flag Football Championships. Nothing is known about Bayside excpet that AO anticipates Zach Morris, Kelly Capowski, Lisa Turtle, A.C. Slater, and Skreetch to start. Not really. Just playin'.

If AO wins against Bayside AO will play at 9pm. Semi-finals and the championship game will be played Wednesday night. AO has been here before. Could their third time in the playoffs finally see them win the coveted 100% cotton champion's t-shirt? AO hopes so.

Please continue to pray for AO as they reach MTSU students for Christ at the MTSU intramural field.

1 Corinthians 10:31

"Wait for the man who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of man who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better woman. Wait for the man who will be your best friend, the one who will drop everything to be with you. Wait for the man who makes you smile like no other guy makes you smile. Wait for the man who respects and loves you for who you are, not who everyone else wants you to be. Wait for the man who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and no makeup, but loves it when you get all dolled up for him. Wait for the man who praises God for you, and encourages you daily in your walk, and most importantly, wait for the man who is more in love with God than you."

It has now became a "HE!" And he will be called Paul Aslan Nadeau. Aslan is taken from C.S. Lewis's, "The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe."

Funny story: So when the nurse was searching to see what part Rachel and I's baby had to determine the sex she blurts out loud when she see's she's his "litttle man," "It's got outdoor plumbing! It's a boy!

Please pray for Aslan as God continues to form him. The doctor said that he is forming well and there are no problems. Praise God! Rachel and I ask that you pray that God would call Him to new life in Jesus and that Aslan would be a willing vessel for God to use to bring glory to His Kingdom.

To see pictures of Aslan go to photobox.

I hate when friends make stupid decisions

^^i love all of those girls soooo much...im gonna miss them next year.

things right now are amazing....

my bonfire is tonight!!!! yess...im soooo excitited....i think a lot of people are gonna be there...even some of my teachers know about this...sooo it should be quite fun. *cross your fingers*

so dance is amazing...at school and at FACES. my friends are great...and i'm gettin along with my parents....so....me and alex are over..but i really dont care. its more fun being single....mhm.soo more about the bonfire.... ashley, kelley and amy are coming home with me today after school to get ready for this....its gonna be fun...so what more could you want???

i hope you have a wonderful day...

With all my love....-kelsey

So tomorrow is the Cross Country State Meet. I am a tad bit nervous, but more excited than anything. I dreamt that Siegel Nation was going to be there cheering us on,and I still thought they were until I was sitting in early day thinking about how cool it will be to have them there, then I remmeber dreaming it instead, bummer. Oh well, Jeff is going to go, so that is Siegel Nation +1 to me! I cannot wait till tomorrow night when I can eat anything and everything! I am thinking Demos' for dinner, then Marble Slab for dessert, and LaMar's for a midngiht snack. Too bad The Boro doesn't have and Candy Shops :( I want some gummy penguins and some other gummies, like sour worms, mmm I miss sour worms, some of my favorite candy.

so yeah-
no one likes to comment on cameron's box o' phuses
oh well

i feel a big post coming up soon
not sure when it'll come, though
or what it'll be about

i guess time will tell

[Close the world, txen eht nepO]

I just saw the pictures on the PAAC site for Rocky Horrow.


ANDY:
Next year you will not be so lucky as
to sit in the balcony with the crew.
I am getting front row seats
for the wild and crazy midnight show,
and you will wear less clothing than I.


haha. oh yeah.
Bobby is teh h077.
WITH ALL THE LEGAL DRUG YOU'VE BEEN READING,
IM SURE YOU THINK SO TOO.

psheah

my father's a jerk.

we got into a fight this morning...

about me putting my feet on the dashboard.

me: "y'know?? i could be skipping school to do drugs like most people. but the worst thing i ever do is put my feet on the dashboard!?"

dad: grumble "i-love-you, goodbye"

me: slams door

yeah.. pretty sure i'm probably going to be KILLED when i get home
but it was worth it.

i think he grounded me from coffee :laugh:
((i love this girl))                                                                  me

this weekend's going to be fun.

i get to go shopping sunday with my mommy.

and tonight i think i'm going to go to a movie with some friends.

sheesh.
i'm tre tired.

i need to do my french homo-work during lunch.
tee gee eye eff

((abby))

I'm watching 'Une Femme de ménage'... without subtitles. I recognize almost all of the words they are saying, but don't understand any of it. How familiar...

Due to this lack of translational ability I haven't been paying much attention to the action in the film, however a few things struck a note that I wasn't prepared for.

The sounds of the streets of Paris at night echoing in the main character's open window, the hissing of the train pulling up in the metro... i didn't realize how elevated my state of awareness must have been when I was there - that these sounds seem more familiar to me than the sounds outside my own apartment.

Très étrange.

Note: Many people who know me know that I have a negative view on relationships (sometimes with good reason) but this is just something I have noticed....Names omitted to protect whoever is involved.

So, I realized that there is always that one person who you continually tell yourself that you would never date, it would never work out, that you are just better off friends.  Yet, people on the outside keep telling you that you should go for it.  Well, it seems that this person is the one that you always turn back around to everything something goes wrong.  You quit talking to them, but they are there to take you out when you have been screwed by someone else, and the same works in reverse.  No matter how many bad relationships you have, it seems like you always know when to call this person, or they just call you because things don't seem right.  You can never be mad at this person for a long time, but at the same time, you never want to read too much in to the things that go on between you, because chances are that you have over analyzed it and you are just driving down that road where you think things are great, so, clinging to a false hope, you end up breaking your own heart and then blaming that person, yet you will eventually go back to them again and again and you don't know why...for once this is not the negative going back but it is positive.  You look at yourself and say maybe this is the person, but you have been hurt too many times and the things that were said to you by that person and what you said were influenced by an outside source and you just don't want to ruin what you got, you are simply complacent with what you have, maybe you don't want to move forward, you are afraid of what will happen.  Yet, life is all about taking chances, many times you will get hurt, but there is that one time where it works out and you can scream to the world that you have finally found the person you didn't know you were looking for.  That is my view, and chances are, I am wrong....

can i just be honest with you guys for a minute?

good.

pretty sure last night i was looking at some wedding dresses online. i found this designer (maggie sottero) that i LOVE and i saw a lot of beautiful dresses (25 to be exact-- 8 of which i loooooooooved)... and my dorky self even teared up... *shakes head*


i can't even imagine what i will do when i actually try them on...*sighs and shakes head some more*

Dinner for the honors college last night...check out the pictures! I really wanted to go to the basketball game afterwards, but I had homework. I've decided that I'm going to have to be responsible and do it in advance before game days. I really <3 the basketball and am DETERMINED to make it to many games this season! I mean...so many rockin people were going, too. Rupert, Ryan Towle, Matt, Patrick Pope!!! It would've been a fantastic time...silly homework...silly responsibilities! LoL

My mom flies out for a work-related trip on Sunday. Especially odd since she hates to fly. My family is kind of like that...likes to stay with their feet firmly on the ground...well...okay...it might just be my mom. Both of her parents had their pilot's lisecense. My grandpa used to have a piper cub...Don't know if you know what that is. It's a small, two passenger plane. I got to ride around in it all the time when I was little SOOOO FUN. We'd fly over my house and wave the wings at my mom, who would usually be out in the yard doing something fairly productive. It really broke my heart when my grandfather died. Selling the plane was really letting him go. I thought it particularly hardcore that my grandma has her liscence too...but then maybe you'd have to know my grandma! Btw...both of these people were high school teachers in Murfreesboro for around thirty years. Your parents probably had them if they took Chemistry or Physics at Riverdale or Math at Oakland. Tangent....but pray for my mom, her trip, and her safety in "far away" places.

I got a call from Adam, one of my good friends from home, on Wednesday after Church. It was really weird because I'd just been thinking I needed to call him. We sang one of his favorite songs at service that night. He sent me a fantastic e mail which I felt like sharing a bit of...

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty,
bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised
and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak..."I was walking through
town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird
cage.On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with 
cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there, son?"
"Just some old birds," came the reply. "What are you gonna do with them?"   I asked. "Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered. "I'm gonna tease
'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real
good time" "But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will
you do?"  "Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em
to them." The pastor was silent for a moment. "How much do you want for those
birds, son?"  "Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain
old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!" "How much?" the pastor asked 
again. The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and  said, "$10?"  The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone. The pastor picked up  the cage and gently carried it to the end of the 
alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he
opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out,
setting them free. Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the 
pastor began to tell this story. One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting.           "Yes, sir, I  just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used
bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all! "What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked. Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun!  I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate  and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them  how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"   "And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked. "Oh,
I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly. "How much do you want for them?" Jesus
asked  "Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take 
them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you.
You don't want those people!!" "How much?" He asked again. Satan looked  at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life." Jesus said, "DONE!"  Then He paid the price. The pastor picked up the cage he opened the  door and he walked from the pulpit.

I was reading something last night that I just thought about, really thought about...and well...it made sense all over again...

"And that servant who knew his master's will but did not get ready or act according to his will, will receive a severe beating. But the one who did not know and did what deserved a beating will receive a light beating. everyone to whom much is give, of him much will be required, and from him to whom they entrusted much, they will demand the more." Luke 12:47-48

It makes me wonder how often we ask ourselves what we're doing with our faith. Our faith should be who we are not something we do. I feel like I fail God in so much. It's really hard to know what to say to some of the people I care about the most who are still trying to find Christ and have no idea of his purpose in their lives. I pray for them and for myself that I will be the influence and have the words to encourage. I pray so much to be a good example, the salt, and the light. It's so difficult sometimes. Pray for me, I'll be praying for all of you....especially those of you who I know are going through some rough spots... I talked to you about it so you know who you are...but I'm here if you need me. (That goes for the rest of you too)

" A friend loveth at all times and a brother is born for adversity." Proverbs 17:17 - definitely one of my FAVORITE verses

keep on keepin' on... fight the fights that need fighting...

all my love,

Shannon

Well this weekend is going to awsome tonight I'm going to the Riverdale game with Beth and it's going to be great, and tomorrow then tomorrow night I'm taking her out to dinner to Applebee's.. our real first date and yeah fun fun...Well I'm out.. PeaCe

-Josh-

The American Horn Quartet makes me happy. :-) It is funny though, they call themselves the "American" horn quartet...even though all four of them live in Europe and play professionally there. Lol. Yeah...Kyle's a little horn-obsessive...

If you don't know, I am a youth pastor at Rock Springs Church in Smyrna, TN and we meet at LaVergne High School.  This past wed. night we were going to having a huge event.  We had the band Clemency come out and we were giving away a video iPod and tons of other things.

Well, we arrive at the school to start to set up.  Clemency comes with their huge truck and trailer.  And we goto the front door to be met by two cops, custodial staff and the administration to tell us that we can no longer meet there on Wednesday nights.  So after a huge tuffle and intense fellowship (arguing) we couldn't meet there. 

We ended up turning away around 100 students, which looks bad on our church, and had to send Celemency back to Brentwood and call little Caesers and tell them we would not be picking up the 100 pizzas we order.

God has things happen for a reason.  I just wish he would hav told me that was going to happen before putting three month of planning and promotions into it.

So I was picking up my brother from Big Apple Bagel this morning and I hit the curb >.< turning in the parking lot. When my brother got in, he was like "i hear a hissing noise" and i was like "Crap!" to make a long story short, by the time we get to school, Margery's front right tire is as flat as a pancake!!! my brother thinks itz hilarious but i feel sorry for Margery... She looks so helpless and retarded.... I just kept saying "God, whatever your will is w/ all this, i'm rollin' w/ the puches..." but my dad is gonna come by while I'm in school and fix it. I'm lucky to have such an awesome Daddy! ^^

"The gap between idealism and reality
Is so very cutting
And as we cannot cut them off, they are opening up.

In this place, will we give up?
Or will we persevere and do our very best?"

-Ayu

all of them are the same girl= Ayu!

I went job hunting Yesturday. I put in an application at the Music Stop and at the Music and Arts. The guys at the Music and Arts seemed impressed with my resume, which is a good sign. They said they'd call me when they want to interview me, which won't be long. I think tomorrow I'll go apply at Hastings and some food places...even though I don't really want to work at food places...

I went to go pick my mom up from her shop later and take her to her car...which is getting fixed. After that, I went to MYO! Fun (not really). I didn't get to leave till like 9:30 because I'll be doing chamber music until then, but it's ok...I get paid $10 to do it, which will go toward my hand-rest. Yay.

Next Wednesday Ruth and I are taking the horn section to the horn ensemble recital at Tech. I'm excited, it will show them what kinda stuff we'll be doing. We're going to eat Chinese food before we leave, I'm more excited about that...

so yesterday was pretty kickass. went to the cheer compatition, and got first. I was pretty syched about that.

 First of all if u think just because im a cheerleader that im some snobby stuck up bitch, then think again. Im acutally one of the nicest ppl you probably have ever met. I don't judge you, and would like u not to jusdge me. Im not a bitch who likes things her way. I like to get to know people and have a decent convo with them.

Well i have skool so im outt leave me commets or remarks or w/e it is u leave on here aha*hearts;

My RoOm is oh so clean! yay! ASHLEYS COMING TONIGHT!!!

<3LaUrEn*

My tomato was born in Mexico.
(The sticker says).

It is now at the uppermost coast of the United States.

This tomato has travelled farther than many of the people who live in my city ever will.

To what end?

Digestion.

girls are ridiculous, yes.......

boys are retarded, of course

-Jeff

The adventures of living with an extremely ignorant conservative have gotten me thinking a lot about my sociopolitical ideology. Personally, I'm extremely liberal, but I tend to accept opinions. The one thing I've noticed about most of the conservatives I've dealt with (or "South Park Republicans," as they enjoy proclaiming themselves) is that they tend to argue that facts are "opinions," often saying that "well, they haven't really proven anything," even about the most blatant of factual information. On the flipside of this same coin, they regard their own opinions as absolute, unalterable fact.

Ah, ignorance. Isn't it lovely?

Not to say that all conservatives are ignorant; in fact, I've met several who actually do have funcitonal opinions and relatively open minds. It's just that there's a very large population of idiots who take the ideas and run with them. The same can be said for either end of the political spectrum.

OK, rant done. Go home!

rachel: i just saw a shooting star
nate: thats awesome. make a wish. Make it a good one!
nate: what'd you wish?
rachel: im not telling you then it wouldnt come true!
nate: Lol! i wont tell anyone Oh well!

jamie: you can put your feet up now
rachel: yes...o wait those guys are over there MAN!

GOD IS AMAZING!!!! he never ceases to amaze me! even when im not having a good day!

i love having a friend that is going through tha same things as me!!!!

i want to go back!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

So, God is just doing some major things in my life.  First, it was last night's humbling lesson at church (read the previous entry).  Now it's the fact that I'm running too far ahead of God.  I'm jumping the gun, and what I'm planning may or may not be a part of God's plan for me, but I know for sure I shouldn't be planning it myself. 

That's about all for now...

ahhhhhh hecticness.

i feel so crappy lately.

i miss oakland. you guys rocked my face off.

i am too tired to write anything important. so sorry if you think i suck.

i need to talk to laura...i miss her badly.

im gonna go. mucho love

alexanna

I was thinking about dance today...movement...that, while I've seen it beautifully woven together as solo expression, awes me when done by a couple.  Not neccessarily a "couple", either.  Just two people who understand the concept of lead & follow.  They could be complete strangers dancing to a song that they have never heard before, but, if they know their roles...a physical symphony is compossed between them.  However, if one of the members fails in their role, ruin results. 

 If the man, as the traditional formal dance leader, fails to signal or move his partner effectively, she doesn't know how to move or where to go, and will most likely trip or move away from him wrecking the piece altogether.  Everyone knows that once you've been led poorly, you hesistate to fully trust & follow that leader again.  She will expect to be poorly handled from that point on, & chemistry will be lost.  Likewise, if she attempts the ever forbidden "back-lead", similar chaos ensues.  For those of you who aren't familiar with the lingo, back-leading is when the lady anticipates her partners moves, or tries to move him where she wants to go & thereby forfeits her role & runs the rythm right into the ground.  All in all, not a good thing. 

Isn't it funny that these roles are profoundly active in our relationship with our Savior & Lord?!  He is our leader, & we are to follow...period.  However, he never gives wrong signals, leads us in a wrong direction, or steps on our feet.  He knows the steps, ordained them, & moves us when we fully submit to His leadership.  When we trust that He can see the entire floor & everything else moving on it, even though we may not be able to see as we move, there is smooth progression.  However, when we try to move where we wish, don't trust His lead, or try to make His will to move mesh with ours...not good.  We fumble things up.  We break stride.  We forfeit what could have been beautiful...

But, wait.  He is a gracious leader, & even when we seemingly wreck the dance, He can recover us & make it gorgeous once more...& all the glory goes to Him.  As it should.  We may not trust ourselves & be self-conscious in the post-fall recovery time...but once we focus on Him again & rest in His arms...it happens once more....the movement.  Now if only I could keep my frame taunt, relax, think on nothing, & move with Him.  Lord, wont you move me?

Well...SO I got a package today from DENA!! It was awesome!! made me laugh a bunch!! it was great!!! Got to laugh at myself a bunch!!! But yeah...... Had my bio test today! I hope I did good on that!! We will see!!! Went to 7:14 tonight..it was great!! i really enjoyed it!! Think I might start going every week....

This weekend is gonna be fun!! I have our ADPi Mallard Ball social!! It is gonna be fun... But I don't have anything else to do this weekend..Everyone is going home.. But yeah..WE will see!! That is about it!!!

english class got cancled today, so that was pretty dang cool. but it doesnt stop there, spanish is cancled for tommorow, and anthropology is cancled for next tuesday. how cool is that. i got a spanish quiz for tommorow though. oh well.

we went to the basketball game tonight. it was cool. we won, but i dont think their going to be too awfully great this year. i'm pretty tired, i might go to bed early, but i dont know for sure.

piece

HEy yall!!! well my life right now is very well CRAP!!!! I am having some Duffy moments as my english teacher- Mrs.Huges- calls my stress panics. Everyday i stress out and going into a breakdown. It suxs. School is very stressful on me and so is dance.

On them plus side i have shared my faith with two people!!! last week i shared bout the rapture. and one was intresed and one turned away. But the one that turned away ended up getting saved that night...im working on the other still!

MY prayer for myself is to be less stressed out and give it over to God. but i think i do and still im stressed out and have my Duffy moments! Please pray for me for that. and i have another stressful situation that i dont want the world to kno so just pray on that too! well i hope yall have a great day at school tommrrow and a great weekand! Fall Retreat '05!!!!!

this is an add on i got from carlas page:

A to Z

A - Age of your first kiss: 14
B - Band you are listening to right now: raschal Flatts

C - Crush: Everyone knows who..Ben
D - Drink you drank last: water
E - Easiest person to talk to: Ami.or rachel or carla or Mere
F - Favorite ice cream: mmm....birthday cake :)
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: Duh the worms!!
H - Height: 5'1" and 3/4
I - Imaginary friend as a kid: i don't think i had one...
J - Junk food: anything? i live for junkfood!
K- Kindergarten teacher's name: Mrs.Weaver!
L - Longest car/bus ride: either NYC

M - Mom's name: KAthryn
N- Nickname:BIG O!!!!! O*Liv and olive
O - One wish:  to dance pro!
P - Phobia: stinging insects!
Q - Quote: If you think your perfect try walking on water

R - Reason to smile: God is in my life
S - Some Random Fact:  You cant lick your elbow!
T - Talk about: Everything
U- Unknown fact about me: do i have one?

V - Vegetable: POTATOES!

W - Worst Habit:thanks to carla i have a satin obession! 

X - X-rays you've had: all bout he ankle

Y- Years you have been in church: foreva

Z - Zodiac sign: Aries

Much love

~* BIg O *~

WHAT I LIKE:

1. ordering banana pancakes without nuts dedicated to jack johnson

2. boy band music

3. playing air guitar to "can't stop" by red hot chili peppers

4. fishing with my grandpa when i was little

5. the colors of fall

6. coldplay lyrics

7. intimate moments with God

8. laughing so hard you can't breath

9. crystal lite peach tea

10. laughing at my own jokes even though they aren't very funny

p.s. haha just kidding about the old lady thing

So my life...what has happened....hmmm well I was trained in box at work for 2 days...and then I moved back to floor and became SUPERVISOR....WOOT WOOT....Umm well school is school...La Siesta makes me happy!! Work has been alot of fun lately....I know!! WEIRD!! Well I'm still "talking" to that guy and he mom passed away on Tuesday so keep him and his family in your prayers. His dad is going through a really hard time. So yeah I saw Saw2....the ending....OH MY JESUS!! W-T-F!? I was so pissed!! I wanted to jump into the movie and kick that....******.....but!! It was good...I saw it again tonight with mi amigo...I thought she was going to cry....GAME OVER!! Haha...sorry... Dance is going good as always. Its a great way for me to release my stress...I love it! Umm what else has happened....Oh yeah I also saw Prime with Rhanda and....HAHAHA!! I say go see it because it is uber funny!! "His penis was so beautiful...I wanted to knit it a hat." GOOD TIMES!! Well hope everyone is having a SUPER week!! PEACE

**EDIT**

Man you know I'm bored when I'm doing this...

A - Age of your first kiss: Um I believe sometime when I was really little....and thats it....*tear*
B - Band you are listening to right now: Oh too many...Hawthorne Heights, Chevelle, 30 Seconds To Mars...I could go on
C - Crush: Kevin....and Andy
D - Drink you drank last: water
E - Easiest person to talk to: Oh gosh...Rhanda,29,Ellen,Jessi
F - Favorite ice cream: I don't eat icecream...but if I do I'll eat chocolate or moose tracks
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: worms
H - Height: 5'5?
I - Imaginary friend as a kid: I would talk to my fingers?                                                    J - Junk food: I don't eat alot of junkfood. When I do its anything sour!! I LOVE SOUR CANDY!! DIE CHOCOLATE!!
K- Kindergarten teacher's name: Mrs.Shmidt(sp?)
L - Longest car/bus ride: 14 hours to Salsbury, Maryland
M - Mom's name: Lisa
N- Nickname: Sally, Eureka, Boo boo, Stone Cold Steve Uterus Face
O - One wish: To become a famous actress
P - Phobia: Being alone
Q - Quote: "His penis was so beautiful. I wanted to knit it a hat." Prime
R - Reason to smile: Waking up every morning seeing my friends and everyone thats loves me, and knowing God is by my side no matter what.
S - Some Random Fact:  I was a cheerleader in the 7th and 8th grade....RANDOM
T - Talk about: I'll talk about anything and it always ends up being retarded!! JUST LIKE ME!!
U- Unknown fact about me: I had green hair in the 6th grade
V - Vegetable: Okra
W - Worst Habit: Letting people walk all over me, being worried what others think... 
X - X-rays you've had: None! I'm a healthy child! Well I mean other than dentist x-rays thingys...
Y- Years you have been in church: My whole life
Z - Zodiac sign: Pieces

soooooooooooooo..........

I FOUND MY RECITAL DRESS!


it didn't take very long - we actually found it at the first store we
looked at! and for me, that's a huge deal! if you're special, you may
get to see it before the big day. if you're not special, then you'll
just have to wait 'til Nov. 20!! hehe

Damn, I just can't stop posting...

So today, after announcements this weird tribal movie just appeared on the TV. It was called "The Gods Must Have Gone Crazy" It was soooo werid. Like it just came on for no apparent reason. Our class watched the beginning and Ms. Salty's class watched the whole thing. It was about some african tribe that is united and then they find a coke bottle that was dropped form an airplane and it destroys their tribal unity. Strange. Mrs. Knox was friggin obsessed with it.

So yea, I wonder how much money Kanye West and that movie "Jarhead" have made. It seems like everywhere I go I see a preview for Jarhead accompanied by the song "Jesus Walks" Bleh, Kinda makes me sick that I cant do anything without seeing that commercial.

Parents are going to Mississippii. Leaving tomorrow morning, coming back late Sunday night. I'll try not to get into too much trouble. Although, today I found out that more people than I thought already knew that....weird.

So yea, not sure who watched "The Apprentice" tonight. But it was jacked up. The part I saw had Trump in the boardroom talking about sex.  Talking about homosexuality and how thats why restuarants have menus so people can choose what they like. Yea, really intelluctual there Mr. Trump. And he was being semi-mean to this Jewish guy about how he hasn't had sex and that he hopes he has a lot of sex when he's older because "its great" and that trump himself has had a lot of sex and it got him into trouble. And he was calling people anti-semetic. What the hell is wrong with this guy??!!?

this girl i know, well mostly my moms friend, but i know her daughter well anyway this is her little story.

about 5-6 months ago her dad killed himself out of no where. totally unexpected. about a month or so after she came out as a lesbian, and then got the crap beat out of her. she started cutting, and huffing. and a few days ago she killed herself.

now, imagine being her mom. she loses her husband, out of nowhere. she had to watch her daughter slowly kill herself, and now has lost her whole world.

so yeah, your life doesn't suck. so stop saying that, because it's not. stupid.

Well here I sit...I finally finished that godforsaken history paper.  I never want to hear the names Peter Abelard or Anselm of Bec again...Thankfully I don't have to write another history paper til the final, so now here I sit watching Ten Things I Hate About You.  Too bad I can't watch it with my honey...I really miss Linds right now.

I can't wait for thanksgiving break..then I get FIVE count 'em FIVE uninterrupted days with the love of my life.  Hopefully my mom won't mess it up like she does most holidays.  She's already been calling and making plans and trying to plan something every day that we're there.  She just doesn't get that sometimes I don't want to do ANYTHING...I just wanna sit at home and relax a little.  I don't know...Things haven't exactly been wonderful between us, and I don't want to be one of those horrible sons that never goes to see his mother but God knows she hasn't made it easy.  I've been here for a year and a half and she hasn't come to visit me once...then she complains about me not coming to see her...knowing that I don't have a car.  She knows where I am and if she wanted to see me bad enough she could come over here...and it's not like I haven't made an effort....a while back she decided she was pissed at me about something and the TWO times I did try to come see her she didn't even speak to me..she just sat there and stared and acted like I wasn't there.  God only knows what horrible things she told the rest of the family about me...I really don't care what that side thinks though.  It would be a lot easier if we could actually have a conversation without her yelling at me for no reason. I mean you can only kick a dog so many times before the dog won't come around anymore.  She just says that that's how she expresses herself.  Well this is how I express myself.  I'm not in any big hurry to come and visit...however the only good memory I have since they have moved is that I was over there the first time I talked to Lindsay.  I hate to be an ass but I've tried to make an effort to fix things and talk them out with her but if she doesn't yell at me the whole time and not let me speak at all she starts to cry and lay a guilt trip on me and make me feel like shit..and it usually works.  I don't know anymore....maybe it will all work out one day but I'm not holding my breath.

i'm sleepy.

Im telling you guys, Jesus is amazing! :o)

W0W

Strange day to say the least.

Started out fine, except for a bit of gunk in my throat.

By the end of 2nd period, I had a full blown flu.

• Fever


• Cough


• Headache


• Chills


• Achey bones


• swollen head insides

It sucked

Didn't leave school ( I HATE makeup work)

Fever got up to like 102 by fifth period

Rested and recovered after school

homework

dinner

picked up sister at her school b-ball game

Ready to sleep for a long time

...ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ...

- J4(()8

Series One: Basics

Name: Heath Everette Capps
Birthdate: 08/16/83
Current location: oxford, ms
Height: 5' 7.75" (it's true five seven and three quarters inches)
Eye color: dookie brown
Hair color: brown (almost black i'm told)
Righty or Lefty: righty...shoot pool and sweep lefty though. And used to switch hit. That's right, I'm a baller. Or was. Nah, still am.
Innie or outie: in

Series Two: Describe...

your heritage: scot, irish, pirates from the isle of mann, maybe some french, maybe some native american(everybody says that though)
your faith: Christian, in a weird hippie-world-view kind of way
your politics: politics are for morons
your hair: haha. long and skanky right now...am getting a haircut soon, i swear

your fears: no straight up fears i guess. maybe the 'real world' is a worry...graduation looming on the horizon makes me feel old. I pretty much have a lot of stuff I worry about, but it's not me. I'M NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING

Series Three: What Is....

your most over-used phrase: depends. maybe 'bout it' or 'booya'
your best physical feature: some girlies like the hair, some the eyes, some the beard. I think it's all the hair.
your bedtime: this week, been around 2:30am. Normally averages an hour before that.

your greatest accomplishment: of the semester--making it through this week, assuming i get through DSG's test tomorrow

your fondest memory: they're simple, but fulfilling. I love christmas and new year's back home in SC with the family and friends. Good people, good food.
your favorite article of clothing: holy jeans and t-shirt

Series Four: Do you prefer...

Coke or Pepsi? neither, water.
McDonald's or Burger King? Subway
single or group dates? single dates in the beginning, group is cool after you know the person. Still prefer single though.
Lipton or Nestea? i dunno, whatever scott makes

Chocolate or Vanilla? neither, but chocolate if i am forced to decide.
cappuccino or coffee? coffee
glasses or contacts? contacts pretty much until they mess up, then i bring out the glasses (and transform into a manly harry potter, no lie)

Series Five: Do you...

smoke? nope
curse? unfortunately
sing? a singing/whistling man has nothing on his mind...yea i do
shower daily? if by daily you mean every other day or every three days, yes.
like school? yeah, but i'm ready for life
want to get married? yeah, sooner rather than later. There's that bit about finding the female though. that's always gets in the way. Maybe I'll just try the mail-order thing.

type with your fingers on the right keys? absolutely
think you are attractive? been told a few times. Okay okAY, I think i'm attractive. But not until i get a haircut. Right now I just look skanky.

Series Six: Have you ever...

been in love? yep, once
had your heart broken? haven't we all
eaten sushi? nope
been on stage? yes, i got roped into doing FAME as a senior at Amory...luckily, I only had a few lines.
been roller-skating? i was born with four wheels on each foot
made homemade cookies? no, but i have eaten my grandmother's and they ROCK
gone skinny-dipping? nope, i think i'm a prude
dyed your hair? yea, back in the skata stage, i had blond streaks one summer
played a game that required removal of clothing? not that I can remember. if i did, obviously it wasn't memorable.
shoplifted? no
acted like someone you are not to fit in? no, not to fit in

Series Seven: Ever...

been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
gotten beaten up: no...only was in a few middle school fights, and those never got too hairy. Pretty much after you bodyslam one dude (BOOYA), or run a dude into those wooden bleachers that jut out from the wall, people leave you alone. I'm a likable guy anyway. i would get into fights trying to break them up.

Series Eight: The Future

Age you hope to be married: hmm...so personal...maybe 25. Mainly I'd like to be sure about the person, and sure about the finances first.
Number and names of children: hmm..at least one. Have to have a son, so if i have a girl first, or twin girls first, we're looking at two or three. I like Tristan for a guy...Cora for a girl...or Aubrey. I'm sure the woman will have input on this topic though....hehe
Describe your dream wedding: don't really dream about that. eloping would be cool. Or, it would be cool to marry a girl that was cool with eloping, even if we didn't. Was that confusing?
How do you want to die: happy

Series Nine: on the opposite sex...

Best eye color: brown
Best hair color: hmmm...dirty blond or brown. this is all completely superficial
Best height: 5'6" i guess...fits my average height about perfect.
Best weight: i don't think i'm allowed to answer this one.
Best articles of clothing: winter clothes...coats, scarves, all bundled up. Makes me just want to hug and protect girls when they dress like that.
Best first date: something quiet and low-key...coffee shop, dinner, take a walk? I don't know. I've been out of the loop for too long. Definitely has to be quiet though. Movies are generally a bad idea though; you don't get to look at each other or talk.
Best first kiss location: duh, where do you think. No, honestly, this depends upon the girl, and I usually figure that out at the door.
Tip for all women: don't be a psycho

Series Ten: Number of...

drugs taken illegally: nada
CDs I own: two cases full....shade over a 100?
times my name has appeared in the newspaper: fair bit between school grades, soccer, tennis, envirothon, blah blah. This is the Amory Advertiser we're talking about though, not the New York Times.

scars: on my left arm; the first time i ever outran my dad, he got mad he was going to lose so he tripped me from behind...i slid on the pavement in the road, it wasn't pretty. Also, I got stabbed by a pencil just above my belly button when i was in the seventh grade...had to have surgery to get the piece out that broke off, it was kind of bad.

Series Eleven: Right Now...

Wearing: holy jeans, white tee
Eating: just finished some ice cream
Watching: Louisville versus Pitt (college football)
Thinking: DSG's test is going to whoop my tomorrow. Probably just bomb it, carry a B into the final, and focus only on my camping trip tomorrow, which is going to rock!!!

hollaaaaaaaa

Eh, that was more of a "I just need to get this out of my brain" post. i may write something a little more put together later. who knows.

Spring 2006 schedules are in the making right now. I know what classes I want to take. . . the problem is going to be getting the times that'll fit best with my schedule. I really want to try to take aerobic dance, lol. Oh my, can you imagine?

Ayer era el dia de los muertos. No se porque estoy escribieno en el espanol. Quiero tomar mas clases en el espanol, pero no puedo porque no tengo el tiempo.

What did James do with his day today?

     a. work on a comic scene

     b. eat awesome food at Bellbuckle Cafe

     c. stay awake in Accounting AND Statistics (w/o caffine)

     d. transcribe test questions from an insurance text book

     e. all of the above

#2 pencil only

Why doesn't anything at MTSU make sense? I think they are conspiring against me on many levels...

It's been a loooong day.

Is anyone going to the PJ party tomorrow night?

Who's going to Passion? I seriously want to know what's going on with all this because according to Amy Bonin I need to get a ticket before December 1.

I may have a job on campus this January. I'll miss my free time, but it'll be a good thing.

it seems like nothing matters anymore...
everything i try to do right, ends up hurting me...

life at the moment is confusing, and i hide it with my ability to smile on command...

[becca]


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i love too deep.
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Hey everyone...i get to go to Harding this weekend for chorus. (im not really looking forward to it at all but maybe it won't be too bad.) It's been an ok week so far. I've kinda been feeling a little sad lately but its too complicated to explain and way to much to type. I think i'll be ok i just have to quit thinking about it or i'll go crazy...no wait a minute...i've already gone crazy. Well that's about all i have to say at the moment. I'm kinda bored. Well goodnight everyone and i hope ya'll have a wonderful Friday.

ya know what sux...? what makes my heart hurt? We couldn't get tickets to Wicked... *tear*

but o well...

Thank God tomorrow is Friday!! ^^ 16 days til my birthday! w00t! ^^

"Even in my age now, I'm the same as before
As timid as before
I only learn how to pretend to be strong"

-Ayu (No Way to Say)

this song has been hitting me alot lately... http://ayumi.primenova.com/lyrics/nowaytosay.htm

and here is my pathetic atempt at a Phusebox picture thingy like other ppl... don't make fun of me...

So there's this boy..that knows exactly how to make me smile.

^Roisin Murphy^

That's such a cool song!

Halloween was reallly fun. We went to Alex's house. We had some very good times. Including walking around in the richest neighborhood ever where there was a party and walking around in our costume by all the cool kids. hee. And making a Kroger run for some Starbuck's ice cream [me and Jennifer would die without that] and some pigs in a blanket.Me and Jennifer were big sluts [well, she was a Catholic school girl and I was a movie star.] Adam was Bruce Li. Kelly was some Harry Potter person. Pancake went as Grant [she stole all his clothes], Jordan was a pimp, Grant was himself [or someone who just got off work at Pizza Hut] , Alex was his disco man. And Tyler was:

a mexican ghost. lol. He chased some cars around in that. One almost hit him. It was hilarious. The night was great. We were loud and obnoxious and looked like a bunch of retards and almost died a few times but I loved it =) .

On Sunday me and Adam carved pumpkins. His was the evil monkey from Family Guy. This was mine:

This week has been kinda stressful with school. Damn those practice AP english essay test thingys!But tomorrow is movie night at Pancake's. We're watching Saw and I'm scared already. Im such a pansy.

Granty is 18. Weird. Going over his on Saturday.

So this weekend should be fun. And Ben Folds is coming up!But I'm really jealous of all those kids who got to see Death Cab last weekend. Hopefully I'll see them when they come back.

So tell me how you are. <3

School sucks, it's so stupid . What's the point of doing all that work . Why can't they just teach us a little bit a day, then at the end of the week we have a test, why work?                                    

                                                                                                         

                                                                                                         

                          If you find that out tell me please!                        

^quote from ocean's eleven.
my thoughts exactly, brad pitt.

i have to be at andy michael's house at 6:45 in the morning tomorrow.
stupid drama film project. i'm gonna die.

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EDIT (i forgot some things..)

1. i think i have shin splints.. it sucks. and hurts.
but it doesn't make sense.. i really don't run hard enough to get them.
2. so i have this great new idea for people that stress out and go crazy.
whenever they start to annoy me.. i'm gonna stick them w/ a tranquilizer syringe.
then they'll become all giddy, then mellow, then just pass out on the floor.
it really helps just to think about doing it to those people. makes me happy.
and i've run this idea by several ppl.. and they all seem to like it.
tranquilizers anyone?

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right now only two things seem to matter:
1. i'm getting a car for my birthday [less than two weeks]!!
i'm hoping for another altima. i loved that car.
2. i'm saving my money for a ipod.
none of this nano business. full size of course.

dear my predators,

pull it together guys! ya'll got this! i know it! ya'll have so much to gain. lets do this!

love always,
your [i like to think] biggest fan,
Emily

The ways of this world are grabbing a hold
Won't let me go, won't let me fly by
It takes it's toll down on my soul
'Cause I know what I need in my life
Don't let me lose my sight of You
Don't let me lose my sight
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me on down
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me to the ground
thanks shaun mcdonald.

next d-groups, kelly is outta town.
so i'm stepping up and leading our group
on a bible study about Rachel.
gotta do alotta research.. mm we'll see how this goes..

Woo-ee-oo, I look just like Buddy Holly.
Oh-Oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore.
I don't care what they say about us anyway.
I don't care 'bout that.
whatta song!

peaceandlove.

so on monday night i went out with ashley, mary, amy, elizabeth,  and abigail! we went to mr. marlatt's house to trick-or-treat as well at many other places. we had bunches of fun. abigail dressed up as a pirate, amy as the baby from The Incredibles, elizabeth as some baseball girl, and me, ashley, and mary as Alvin and the Chipmunks! On saturday i went to the DBS rebel rouser and dressed up as a cat. I also carved a pumpkin for the first time ever this year! yay for me! brittany, nemanja, brian, kelly, ben, and I all went to rebekah's and i dressed up as a cat for that too. here's some pictures!

So yea, the events over what happened last night over-shadowed my amazing weekend.

Friday night, I went to the Deathcab for Cutie show.

Stars opened for them. They were really good. I enjoyed it a lot.

Mhm. The girl reminds me of Karen O. of the yeah yeah yeahs.  But we all know that Karen O.  wins.

I bought their CD.

Then it was time for Deathcab for Cutie.

Wow. They were so amazing. All of you who said they aren't that good live are bastards. It was such a signifcant moment for me, being there and seeing them live.

I wish I would have talked to the people around me more. But I had plenty of fun with Maegan.

I only wish that they would have played "Gwenevere" (sp). My favorite Deathcab song. *sighs*. But every song they did play was just about perfect. I was like one of the only people singing and getting into it. But it was a pretty mellow concert. Maegan wore a nifty hat...

I love and adore this picture.

They said they're coming back soon....

Then Saturday was my Halloween partay!!! I had sooo much fun. Everything went really well and it was all worth it. I loved having my friends there. The group that came really seemed to fit well together, well for the most part, heh. I had most of my closest friends there. And I liked it that way.

Maegan was a raver...and this is one of my all time favorite pictures.

Anna has amazing eyes...Well...amazing colored contacts.

Heather was dressed all sexy.

And Anna was dressed as an....asian.

mmm...sassy.

So yeah. Party consisted of Eating, playing an intense screaming game of Pit, then some good ole fashioned Apples to Apples. Then....EXTREME FOUR_SQUARE. Yeah I know. A real sophisticated party. But I enjoyed it. Claire was by far the best player, haha.

So yeah. Then some days went by. Now for randomness

Check out those earmuffs. They're technically called "180's", but whatever. I am obsessed with them. I wore them during school.

I have no clue why I look completely stoned in that picture. And I'm not being sarcastic.

So yeah, Monday was halloween. I think. Anyways, My family come over to my house and I took my nephews trick-or-treating.

SDJFHAS;YRO;SDS;HDT!!! Thats the cutests little baby in the whole entire world!!!! Gah, it kills me.

So I didn't dress up. But I could have been a soccer mom, I had a track jacket, a short "trendy soccer mom" hair cut, hah. And I flashlight. I also caught myself saying things like "What out for that car" when its 10 miles away.  and "Be careful, its dark" hah. I'm a dork.  While trick-or-treating, I met up with Claire and her brother Jay, not Jake, Jay is his name. It was nice.

So I leave you with the most adorable thing you will ever see.

My little baby nephew James dressed as a tiny giraffe.

this chick is AmAzInG!!! we had so much fun a warrior walk!!

2 of my favorite asians!! we are like glowing in this picture i thikn its cool! lol

i thought this was a funny picture my ex boyfriend is in the back lol akward(sp?) lol

this boy is amazing i love him so much!!

and last but SOO not least is me and my LJ we are soo gangster!! shes so amazing

so yeah just figured out how to do like pictures so yeah haha go me!!

So,
I have always thought that the idea of a blog was strange. Were I to
write my intermost thoughts, or that which I was truly feeling, I would
not post it on the internet for the world to see. My thoughts may at
times be such that I am willing to share, but that is not always the
case. Those thoughts which I would feel necessary to keep I would not
write in a public place. Unless, of course, in
a moment of weakness, I desired to release built up emotion through
writing. Even that, however, I could do through my journaling. Yet,
here I am. I have entered my e-mail address onto a screen and thus
initiated a site wherein people expect that that which they read will
give them insight into my thoughts. We shall soon see. 

i love you all..........

Some people amaze me and the things they do, and the way they go about doing them and the way they tell you about things...

It gets you lots of comments.  ^_^  I got more comments on my last entry than the six entries before it combined.

I love you guys.

So anyways.  Another mental health day for Sarah today.  I tend to panic when I wake up late.  Because if I wake up late, I've almost definately woken up most of the way through my first class.

My dad let me stay home because he's worried about my stress level.  So Sarah got to stay home and study and relax.

So yeah.  Now that I've missed a test in... every class except pre-cal, finishing up my six weeks will be tons of fun.  Weehooo.

I've got some work to do.  Later, homies whom I love very much!

alright. so i won't quit. but i need to get more of my friends on here.

[[so today anand was sick.
he left during 1st. i was sad.

i was going to my car, with him on the phone. he decided to call me at exactly 3:10.


he left me a note on my car! it was so sweet.
yes, he makes me smile. and laugh. you know what, he makes me happy. <3]]

you know what i absolutely love doing?

catching fireflies.

pure beauty.
mucholove. <3

wow, I complain a lot....I'm sorry to everyone about that last post. I hate venting my problems all of the time to everyone....I just feel so awful when I do because I'm sure I'm annoying when I do.

Well anyways, that situation will get better...I know it will because God loves me and doesn't want me to feel so awful about such silly things anyways.

I hope you all have had a lovely day today!

-Kaylei

Library's smell like old people o_O
yep.
ew.
:makes funny faces:
alright..teh internet still doesn't work.
dun dun dunn.
yeh.
i think i'm going to die.
oh godddd.

michael is amazing and that's all i'm gonna say. he really made me think this morning, and his mom came. i LOVE his mom. she's one of the sweetest ladies i know.

tonight's gonna be fun too :]

my iPod's playing my most favoritest songs on shuffle, today was such a gorgeous day, my neighbor's tree makes me smile,

that thing...

i dunno it was an all around good day... even if i didn't act like it.

have a superb rest of the day!:]

    oops...i just realized that i didn't finish my entry from tuesday...lol...so anyways...I'm so excited about basketball season... cuz we're gonna get to dance at a lot more games...and even do some pep rallys....AWSOME!  I'm really excited y'all....

bla bla bla

mmk...i really like this guy at school and he prolly doesn't even know i'm alive....i know what i mean?

someone please kill me now...

i really need some prayer guys, im beggiin u!

i love you all

Tomorrow morning, I will be leaving New York City for a few days. I will be in Louisville, KY for a mission conference through Tuesday. Ergo, if you send me any messages and I do not respond immediately, it is not because I hate you, it is because your mom told me not to talk to you.... errr... I mean it is because I am out of town.

Erg... 4 AM in the morning is just WAY too early for me. I am not a farmer.

Thanks for making PhuseBox rock...

[nt]

Ok, so I really laughed out loud at these... It turns out that PhuseBox is supported by the Republican and Democratic parties... woo hoo. Although, I have not seen Dub on here for a while...


photo from aTouch_Overrated



photo from aTouch_Overrated

So, I almost overlooked these, done by Caleb...
These keep making me laugh...


photo from xMrFrosteex


photo from xMrFrosteex

does anyone read my posts...im thinkin thats a no. well if you do i dont get no love. where is the love? well for real hows your life. well it would be cool if you would let me know..thats all. peace out cub scout.

                  stacy

read this one, guys

i'm really disapointed lately, because everything i like that i thought made me origional is becoming mainstream. i.e. Harijuku and Asian fashion. in Teen People, there was a page of people in Shanghi and their styles, and on another page, there was a hoodie from L.A.M.B. and it said "for Harijuku lovers" next to it. at first, i admired Gwen for being J-Pop, but this is all her fault, so i think i'm mad at her. AND there was a thing in Teen People about taking anime styles (they used SSX charcaters) and turning them into actual outfits.

not. cool.

mainstream is turning into me. which means one day, i will be mainstream. which sucks.

i guess i could look at the positive side, and think that i might be considered a trendsetter, and someone who contributed to this J-Pop movment... but still. it's not cool.

things come and go i guess. and this won't stay forever. ~it doesn't match enough for scardy-cat Americans~

i think i'll just quit reading popular magazines. they always depress me.

confusion makes me angry.
I loathe alot of stuff.
Life's been kinda crazy.
I'm sick of stress and
not "getting it"
and i'm sick of the fact that I got to the most highly
equipt highschool in the county, possibly the state, and
we have teachers who don't know what they're teaching.
I pity the fool who hired them.
[pardon my pun on words]
So this weekend [minus tomorrow]
I have nothing to do.
But I do have free minutes for you
to call me and tell me we are hanging out.
yep. haha. I feel like singing in front of alot of people,
or putting on a performance,
I wanna go to walmart or the mall and just
make people look at me like "WTF"
I want to get in a verbal argumentation with someone,
and win. haha. random yes, but me none the less.
I have a tendency to notice peoples shoes.
and then there's the fact I can make someone smile,
REALLLLLLLLLLL BIG! It's cute.
Well, i'm gonna go buy a ringtone [woow]
oh and i'm gonna eat wicked awesome pizza.
I know your jealous.

-Sarah<3
10 Firsts:

First Best Friend: Berger Bear

First Screen Name: Babyblues409

First Pet: shawna

First Piercing: ears

First Crush: Kolby in 2nd grade

First Music: Metallica

First Car: n/a

First School: MNP

First House Location: murfreesboro, tn


9 Lasts:

Last time you smoked: 2months ago

Last thing you ate: pizza

Last Car Ride: from school

Last Movie: Fox and the hound

Last Phone Call: Lareisa when i got out of school

Last CD Played: Nat King Cole's greatest hits

Last bubble bath: like 5months ago




8 Have You Evers:

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends:yes

Have You Ever Been Arrested: Nope

Have You Ever Skinny Dipped:yah

Have You Ever Been on TV: yah

Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Then Regretted it: yep

Have you Ever cheated:on homework

Have You Ever been on a blind date: kind of

Have You Ever been out of the country:nope


7 Things You're Wearing:

1. ex-boyfriend shirt

2. jogging pants

3. bra

4. earing

5. earring

6. earring

7. earring

6 Things You've Done Today:

1. eat

2. talk

3. myspace

4. school

5.sing

6. do homework... oh wait i haven't done that yet


5 favorite things In No Particular Order:

1.eyes

2. music

3.hugs

4.gum

5. my new candle


4 People You Can Tell Anything to:

1. berger

2. kayla

3. amber

4. bobby


3 Choices

1. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

2. hugs or kisses:depends

3. pens or pencils: pencils.


2 Things You Want to Do Before you die:

1. Have a family

2. Sing infront of alot of people


1 person you wanna see: ...

Is it me or do my eyes look white.

high point of today

• galen eating a leaf


• kay getting sick and going home


•  tooo quiet at the tree....


• passed my math test


• staying after school untill 3:43


• hit justin


• had fun

                                        the end

I just found out about 5 mins ago that Nevertheless will be in Nashville tomorrow night (11/4/05) at 12th and Porter at 8pm. This will be an incredible show. If anyone wants to go up there with me, give me a holla. If you haven't been to purevolume to check out their sound, see my Nevertheless blog and check 'em out. They put on an amazing show as is evident by my pictures on here, and you will not be disapointed.

-Jeff

Apparently, Walt Disney and Mickey Mouse now support PhuseBox... woo hoo!
(it looks like W.D. is balancing the PhuseBox logo on his finger... perhaps he has basketball-spinning skills too...)


photo from lauraebeth

And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive. With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone. And I cannot hold it in and I cannot remain composed. Love’s taken over me and so I propose the letting myself go. I am letting myself go. You are my joy. You are my joy. You are my joy. You are my joy. I need to catch my breath, I need to. I need to catch my breath, give me a moment, now. I’m laughing so hard…



You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my JOY!


A prayer for the day…

so i don't know if i'm the last person to know this or not (and sorry ami if i am stealing your thunder) but i got an email today from becky haynes saying that at Rick's last CT scan they found no traces of cancer!!!!!!!!!!! PTL!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so happy! congrats to the driver family!!! i love you all dearly and are so happy for you!

it is very interesting when you realize that you're no longer a little kid anymore so you need to quit acting and thinking like one.  it is completely real that in life there are limitations.  sure, when kids are little you should tell them that they can be anything they want as long as they try real hard.  but the honest truth is that some people are not made to do the glamorous jobs in life.  as a high schooler you always hear that one day you are going to have to make it in the "real world" and you always think that you can handle it, but honestly the real world is tough. no longer are you surrounded by people who care about you.  it is a very strange feeling the first time you realize that your teachers could not care less about your grade in their class, they don't care that you graduated magna cum laude, or that you're on a presidential scholarship, they care that your butt is in the seat with tuition paid so they can get a pay check once a month.  of course not all professors will be this way, but it is strange.

it is also strange when you realize how selfish you were as a "child."  a couple of posts ago i asked people what i should do with my scholarship refund, a motorcycle or a lift kit for my jeep.  how incredible selfish and immature of me!  why should God bless me with anything if my concern is going to be how i can satisfy my own desires?  there are so many people whom i could help with that money, and all i was worried about was which toy to spend it on. 

interesting feeling to be disgusted with yourself...

ral

Girls are ridiculous.

-Jeff

I gave in...

phusebox strikes WDW

Hiddy ho everyone! Hope everybody is having a great day! I went to one club this morning and micheal really made me think about his message. How much time am i ready and willingly giving to God? There he is, loving me more than anything ,despite my mess ups and i can't find time to just sit down and have some one on one time with him. Even though he desparately wants it! I think i really need to work on my time management skills. If anyone has any good suggestions on how to better manage time, PLEASE let me know. Well i suppose that is all for now. Oh! everyone who knows kyle mann needs to tell him congrats for getting the reward for most congenial at Siegel! <3 Britt

Well....here I am....

For starters, my name's Jason, I'm a Sophomore at the University of Tennessee in Knoxville, I have the most absolutely amazing girlfriend in the whole entire world (I love you Lindsay!), I'm a Christian, I was saved last Thursday night, actually.  I love my church, I love our youth group...and I love music...I can't really think of much now so I'll update later.  I'm working on a history paper right now (anybody know anything about 11th century theology?)  Right now I'm just bored and missing Linds like crazy, trying to ignore the tv so I can maybe get some work done.  I get to see her tomorrow though, and I can't wait.  I just hope I can get this done so we can actually hang out and I won't have to work on anything.  Oh well..wish me luck.

-Jason

Let's see...my name is Lindsay. I live in Tennessee! I have the most fantabulous boyfriend in the whole wide world. I love you Jason!!! I have the greatest friends in the whole world...but I am not going to take the time to mention you all right now! I am majoring in elementary education. I want to teach 2nd grade. I love my church! I love my youth group!!! I am sitting in the computer lab at school bored out of my mind right now because my next class doesn't start for a few hours. I need to be doing homework right now, but as you can see I am procrastinating by making one of these things...thanks Shelby!! I have alot of homework to catch up on this weekend...big paper due in a week and a half! I am doing better in school this semester than last! Yay ME!! Well anyways...gotta jet...I will write more later! Luv ya!

Well, hidey ho.

This is officially my umpteenth new blog.  In fact, I'm pretty sure that I defined umpteenth simply by creating this many damn blogs.  I figured that since this community is fairly new and small, it'll be nice to have a sort of quasi-private, but still massively attention getting web space.

Plus, Kelly made me do it. :)

Perhaps I'll make something out of this blog, as opposed to all of the others that I've abandoned for one reason or another.  My Opera blog is sort of on hiatus until they FIX THE DAMN INTERFACE.  Grrrrr...it crashes...in Opera.  Oh, irony, why do you taunt me so?  This one doesn't seem to work in Opera either, but it's ok in Firefox, so I guess I can live with that temporarily.

And now, a list of random thoughts:

• There is a 19" LCD monitor sitting on the desk next to me with no computer attached.  How sad.




• Some guy is fixing a laptop behind me.  He's using one of those anti-static pads to prevent shocks.  Hah newb.




• I'm in a computer lab.  Go figure.




• I have an advisor meeting in exactly 14 minutes.




• I'm a Marketing major now.  I rule you.




• I can't wait until the next volume of Legal Drug comes out.  Does that make me gay?




• Is it really as easy as Dell?

Alright.  It's been a good, strong, first entry.  I can end it now with a feeling of satisfaction.  Bye.

so im in class right now but i have nothing to do and about everything at this lame school is blocked like were prisoners. and hey why is it that i have not found anybody from california on PhuseBox. dont get me wrong i love it i just dont love that im like the only person here from cali.(tear drop). so yeah why is everyone from like states way on the other side... hey how did i hear of phuse box...
man am i bored ...na,na, na, na, na,na....bored...bored...bored
well if im this bored i should log out.
later...

prone to wander, Lord, i feel it

prone to leave the God i love

here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it

seal it for thy courts above

thailand

Hey ya'll! just thought I'd let ya'll know!! I found out last night! I love ya'll and I'll update more later!

ps. sorry ya'll, i thought my flag of thailand showed up! at least it did on mine! kinda stinks...i thought the flag would be a sweeter touch! lol!

I will sing, I will sing.

I will sing, I will sing.

I will sing of Your Holy name!!

And I will join with the angels singing Holy Holy

Our hearts rejoice in singing Glory Glory!

You are the reason that I sing.

You are the breath of life to me.

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I will praise You in this storm....You are who You are, no matter where I am.  And every tear I've cried, You hold in Your hand....I will praise You in this storm.

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Some people think that I'm very snobby, I think.  In all honesty, I don't notice when you're talking to me.  Too many times have I responded to someone when they weren't talking.  I guess it's a 'rule' with me that if you are not facing me directly or have tapped me on the shoulder, then you aren't speaking to me.  Is that silly?  Probably!!  lol.  I'm not stuck up, and if I don't say hi, it's not that I don't care.  I love being talked to out on MTSU's crazy campus.  I just never know who is talking to me, so I don't know how to respond.  Just in case anyone wondered that....

This past weekend I helped out with a middle school outreach, the Haunted Farm. We took a bunch of middle school students out to this farm, make them walk through the woods and scare them till they wet themselves. My role was to be the crazy redneck farmer. The students had to cross a gravel road on the property. I was there waiting for them with my truck. As they neared, I cocked the shotgun. When they heard this, they would look around to see what it was. I screamed at them to get off of my property and fired a couple of warning shots. As they started to scream and run down the road, I hopped in my truck and took off after them. After a short chase I woud go back and start over with the next group. It's kind of ironic that I was the one doing this given that I'm not really into guns. I'm not going to lie though; I throughly enjoyed shooting at middle school kids. (We emptied all of the shells so I was firing blanks) Good

Straighten yourself and you will not stand steady;
Display yourself and you will not be clearly seen;
Justify yourself and you will not be respected;
Promote yourself and you will not be believed;
Pride yourself and you will not endure.

These behaviours are wasteful, indulgent,
And so they attract disfavour;
Harmony avoids them.

-Lao Tzu

I was at the gym for two hours this morning,
came home, practiced my yoga, and meditated for five minutes until kitty beat open a packing box full of peanuts.

Once Mori comes online I'll ask him where he hid my protein powder, and have a delicious fruit smoothie before I head off to bed.


...

"The master in the art of living makes little distinction between his
work and his play, his labor and his leisure, his mind and his body, his
information and his recreation, his love and his religion. He hardly knows
which is which. He simply pursues his vision of excellence at whatever he
does, leaving others to decide whether he is working or playing. To him
he's always doing both." - unsourced Buddhist quote.