i'm at school. no fun.

oh well
i saw 5 shooting stars last night.
within 30 minutes
it was pretty darn cool.

So, as I was driving to work yesterday I had a deep thought...Have you ever noticed that you never have to think about your turn signal, if you have to push the lever up or down...i mean, i know that up means right and down means left, but I never consciously think about it when I'm driving...it's like breathing, it just happens.  So, because of this observation, I had to spend the next 5 minutes trying to figure out why this was...and then it hit me. If you are driving with your hands in the proper position (2 and 10, or 3 and 9, whatever they are saying today) your left hand goes down for a left hand turn, thus it makes since that the turn signal lever goes down and vise-versa for going right...am i a genius or what.  Oh yeah, i guess i could tell the world that it's my birthday, but that is overrated anyways....

- Daniel

last night sucked. alot.

I MISS CALIFORNIA<3

So i've been thinking alot about moving back to cali. I miss everyone there including my dad. I mean I kno that I have alot going on for me here, but the stress right now, its just to much to handle.

I lack somthing. And that would have to be, self-confidence. I mean people tell me that im pretty and such, but I don't believe them.

I still don't have a date to the winterball, and its in less than a MONTH. Im getting my dress this weekend [yay]

<3me

one of my good friends, katie, was hurt last week.  she got kicked in the face by a horse.  and well, it was pretty bad. but God watched over her and she's alive-thank goodness!!

she's going through a tough time because her nose and left cheek bone are crushed, and she told me that she's not the prettiest thing to see right now.  so if you could just pray for her and her family that'd be wonderful. 

thanks and have a great day

I love the mountains in the fall.

my grandpa used to take me up to this mountain to hike.

The youth retreat was great. It was a lot of fun being able to hang out with the kids and get to know more of their names, because I really haven't been able to so far. I am so excited about being able to devote more time to just being around the youth. More to come...

No school tomorrow because of a local election day. That is awesome. yet, of course the one day school is out for a while... i have to work. That is just no good for me, so if anyone wants a job at Panera Bread Company, just let me know. Other than that....I got nothing...

Random Thought- There should be more music on this thing.

Yeah........ so when I was driving home to Franklin last night from Murfreesboro, I took 840 so it was pitch black except for my head lights and I saw 3 shooting stars =) It was SOOO nice to see them...... I needed that

So this weekend was insanely crazy had its awesome amazing points but had its huge down points also. Got to talk to a guy I dated my freshman year for the first time in a while which was fun and then hung out with Cordell a friend from highschool, I love that boy! But anyways the whole reason for this post is to tell ya bout my phone. The inside screen got busted up will bad, so I cant see any texts so dont send them I wont be able to read them and also if you try and call and I dont pick up and you really want to talk to me you gotta leave a message bc I cant see who I miss a call from either and it is goin to cost $110 to fix it and I wont have that kindof money for a lil while so until I tell yall otherwise this will how it will be until I get some money to buy a new phone!

 Well this is what the screen looks like:


Also I dont know anyones phone numbers right now so Im sorry if I stop calling! Well thats bout all I hope everyone has a great week and I hope mine gets better!

if xanga rocks so much, why are you posting on Phusebox? 

hey well this weekend was fun but i got no sleep at all!! See Thursday I was babysittin untill 12 so I only got like 6 hours of sleep.  Then this weekend was DNow and I didn't get any sleep cause we stayed up and hung out.  But it was fun and since I am off school tomorrow I get to sleep in.  Oh did I say that I got to meet Nathen Moore this weekend?  Yea he is staying at my house tonight!

hey ya'll...i'm sorry i have not updated...i really dont like this thing...xanga is so much better.  so u can come check it out.  www.xanga.com/whosoever4christ

~love in Christ~

             ~danielle

thats my sister and me.  i love you desiree!

   

     hey everyone!! well pretty sure life is okay for right now!! ive just been stressin over a bunch of things and i just need to get away from everything!! im thinkin about goin up to knoxville to see a friend of mine!! i left this entry on my xanga and she really made me realize alot of things!! oh and i am also changing! i just want to be the old katie everyone knows me as!! not the one that would smoke pot and go to parties and get messed up!! im changing everything about myself and i hope everyone will accept me for it!! and for all those guys out there who only talked to me b/c i would do all those bad things, f*** yall!! im happy with myself right now and no one can bring me down!! and im wanting to find another group of friends who would deff. keep me away from all that crap and just have fun in each others presence!! but just remember that im cleaning myself up and i want to do the right things not wrong. and i am really tired of hanging out with the wrong guys. for some odd reason its always the bad guys that go for me, never the good!! thats all i ask for is a really good guy to come into my life and not expect the things most guys would!! im really tired of that!! well i hope everyone has a swell week!! i love yall!!

                          ~*katie*~

Sorry I never update this thingy! Well, I will try to do better.  Drama is in full swing now for A Charlie Brown Christmas.  Cross Country is offically over, which is sad, but we still have banquet and formal so thats good.  School is pretty good, I just HATE Espanol!!!!!  And as for my life... right now it is pretty confusing!!!! Ahhhh (some of you know what I am talking about) Well thats about all!

I love you all!!

~Anna

hey yall whats up well today was pretty cool iwent to  "don Paublos" with Hayley G and Emilee then we went and pick up austin who is pretty coll then went to cool springs and stayed there forever but tiwas great then we went bk to hayleys and watched Grind man i love that movie and sum intersting stuff happened lol mk ill talk to yall later leave me sum comment bye

suppose a update in order..

the boys placed 16th in the state meet.
i'm really proud. even if they are all retarded.
at least they move their legs fast.

The N (the first one) is my cousin, john. The D (left of the blondie) is my brother. At a MSU football game. They made the paper.. pretty funny/..cool lol

life is good.. 

this saturday i don't get to do road rally w/ my youth group.. im doing concessions at a MTSU football game.. for my good ole sorority.. pretty i have a thousand test i need to make up for that.. but im gonna have to miss another meeting this sunday..

i should have a car in one week!!! i'm so happy about that!! so so happy! so yep i'll be 17 in one week and a day. thats crazy. i'm not really ready to be 17.. b/c when i turn 17 then i have to turn 18 and goodness.. i should not be an adult! i wanna stay a kid..

and i have about $200 dollars for my ipod! over half way there!

i start editing the silent film on final cut pro.. besides the fact that me and apple computers dont get along.. i'm pretty sure i love that thing.. media production class is the greatest thing ever.. its so awesome!!.. except i discovered its gonna take a long time to get it all edited..  there's no way all the groups will get done. probably just me, deanna, noah and jade will.. oh well. works for us!

well sorry maybe next time i'll have a more interesting update..
until then.. have a good week!!

My away message- There once was a turtle...he pooped...THE END! 

duckxhead09 [7:47 PM]:  i said is his name Edward?
XlBeautifulMessX [7:47 PM]:  nope...its Edward
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  aww
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  i wanted it to be Edward
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  :'(
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  gosh jack
XlBeautifulMessX [7:48 PM]:  so but Edward is so much cooler
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  no its not gosh
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  Edward is lame
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  now Edward is the coolest
XlBeautifulMessX [7:49 PM]:  psh...who are you to be talkin...your name is Gary Allen
duckxhead09 [7:49 PM]:  hahaha
duckxhead09 [7:50 PM]:  well my name was going to be katylan Eliabithe
XlBeautifulMessX [7:50 PM]:  woa...
XlBeautifulMessX [7:50 PM]:  i like Edward better than that
duckxhead09 [7:50 PM]:  well i like jack beter so name it jack
XlBeautifulMessX [7:50 PM]:  ahh...Jack it is
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  ok
XlBeautifulMessX [7:51 PM]:  so its settled
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  now we are going to make a story about jack ok lol
XlBeautifulMessX [7:51 PM]:  the almighty Jack pooped
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  i write one line then u write the next
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  ok
XlBeautifulMessX [7:51 PM]:  alrighty
duckxhead09 [7:52 PM]:  unce upon a time there was a turtle named jack
XlBeautifulMessX [7:52 PM]:  he was a fuzzy lil creature
duckxhead09 [7:53 PM]:  with a hard shell and red eyes
XlBeautifulMessX [7:53 PM]:  he was such a lil angle
duckxhead09 [7:53 PM]:  well one part of him was
XlBeautifulMessX [7:53 PM]:  the other side of him was a giant cyclops named...Edward
duckxhead09 [7:54 PM]:  well one day jacward (jack + edward = jacward) went into the pond for a swim
XlBeautifulMessX [7:55 PM]:  cept he didnt know that what he thought was the pond was a giant pile of shat
duckxhead09 [7:55 PM]:  wtf?? neways so he smelled it and ran backward and jumped into the REAL pond
XlBeautifulMessX [7:56 PM]:  and got swallowed by a microscopic beaver
duckxhead09 [7:56 PM]:  yes and lucky for him he just went straight out the bevers behind and survived
XlBeautifulMessX [7:57 PM]:  unfortunalty he suffered from minor injures for the beavers dam (hahaha get it like a beaver dam ..not damn) tail
duckxhead09 [7:59 PM]:  so now jacward is mentally retarded and every 10 ft he walks he gets domber
XlBeautifulMessX [8:00 PM]:  wow thats said you cant spell "dumber" maybe your the one that got hit in the head witha microscopice beaver tail.....anyways! Jacward is now a permant residant of the Loony Benn house
duckxhead09 [8:01 PM]:  and on sudays he is alowed to have 10 mins to go swim in the pond
XlBeautifulMessX [8:02 PM]:  but this past sunday...poor Jacward...drowned..how a turtle can do that...we do not know
duckxhead09 [8:04 PM]:  but see jacward was soo unluck because right before he died this wierd lil mexicon girl named jacqulyn pick him up and made turtal meat fro dinner because them mexicans are poor
XlBeautifulMessX [8:05 PM]:  but dont be haten on the mexicans...this crazy ass guy named Gary Allen Warren JR. (tehehe...Jr) bit jacwards wittle head off before the mexican could grab him
duckxhead09 [8:06 PM]:  haha lol
duckxhead09 [8:07 PM]:  cept u always end up with the lowe part of his body u know sice he is a boy. i mean i gues mexicans like turtal  parts
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  mMmMm..best part...makes a spicy flavor
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  omgoshlol
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  ok thats the end of the stupids story ever!
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  ...THE END!
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  thats a rap
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  haha
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  CUT!!
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  tehehe ....thats phusebox worthy
duckxhead09 [8:09 PM]:  haha ya it is
XlBeautifulMessX [8:09 PM]:  copy and paste...ahhh

This weekend was pretty darn good!! Friday I worked and then went and had dinner with my parents. Ended up goin to Marble Slab with Rach and Nate so that was fun. Saturday I slept in and got up and chilled and then went to tha MTSU game, which they won, I was amazed...lol. Then I went and hung out with some friends, played scattergories, I don't remember who won, but we had fun!!! LOL!!! Then today I went to church and then out to lunch with some AO peeps at Chilis and that was...interesting. Went to see Saw 2 tonight...it was a good movie, it's jus really gory and I don't like that kinda stuff!!! LOL!!! Spent part of the movie buried in my friends shoulder..oh well!! Intercession tonight!! I'm excited that I actually get to go, I haven't been able to the past couple weeks but I'm goin tonight so it's gonna be awesome!!! Well I hope everyone has a great  night!!! ByE!!!

~We're singin Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed but alive in Your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by Your love
In the presence of Your majesty!!!

~Be blessed
Be loved
Be lifted high
Be treasured here
Be glorified
I owe my life to You my Lord

poop, yeah. that's right! FREAKEN POOP! you got a problem with that?!?!

well, that's all i have to say.. poop.

what's your favorite word? mine is regergatate (sp). and fancy word for barfing. =P.

:+:ashlie:+:

so my car died last night!
tha battery went "blah"
thanks to my best bud jamie she came and got me this morning!!! i owe you big!
i learned how to change a battery and put tha new one in!!! i was happy!!! :)

WOW...thats all i can really say as much as God has been working in my life! since i decided to stay single until God says "its time"...believe me when im ready ill be excited!!! lol!!! :)

Lay Down my Pride
My Desries My Demise
I'm Ready to see it Your way
I'm Done I'm through ignoring You now its true
I'm Kneeling at the Cross of your Grace
Lay Down my Pride

---

EDIT~~~ wow God is amazing!!!!  im soo happy i went to intercession! i didnt stay long bc God really worked on my heart!!!! im excited to see what happens next in my life!
"its his time...not mine!"


well im out!
Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

. . . uh, what? I didn't say anything.

So I workd out for the first time in my life today with Amy P. I totally didn't have a clue what I was doing, but I somehow managed to bike three miles, lol. We also lifted weights, ran around the track, did ball crunches, and played raquetball. . . oh yes, it was quite exciting. Lol, I got Graham to drive me back to my car when I was halfway there. . . yeah, I'm a bum, haha.

OOOOOOOH, look at that muscle!

. . . uh, or lack thereof.

Ooh, we're so strong.

Not.

And this is the wonderful present Garrett made for me at lunch:

It bothers me,

but I'm not even sure what it is.

All I know is…

things keep changing.

And for every thing that changes for the good,

something else changes questionably.

And sometimes for the not so good.

I know I can't go back –

I really don't know if I'd want to –

But is it wrong to say I'm a little scared about where I'm going?

Am I allowed a little doubt?

People have changed;

Heaven knows I wake up every morning a new person.

I'm restless.

I'm uncertain.

I take God for granted sometimes…

and He's not the only one.

I sort of wish for last year.

I was comfortable; I didn't grow much, but I was comfortable.

But not this year.

This year, I'm growing.

And I have growing pains out the wazoo.

Excluding today...

• If you're at that high school place, you've got 11 days left of school until Thanksgiving break.


• If you're at that big people school place, you've got 12 school days left.

And there are 50 shopping days left until Christmas.

Also, this semester is almost over. : )

Um, coffee is good.  I like coffee.  I'm getting ready to have my second one at the coffee shop on campus.  Yay for me.

I don't really know.. so... lol... I'm just trying to find something OTHER than Myspace cause that shit sucks and is slow as C R A P!! 

I never knew so many things could go wrong with a soda fountain. . .until today

I tried to be helpful and open another location after I *thought* I was ready to open this morning and still had time. . .well so i didn't check the bags in the boxes of soda syrup. . .or check the CO2. . .

then I opened. . .I quickly realized 5 bags in the box needed to be replaced and the CO2 was out when guests started returning and complaining. . .

I handed out quite a few free drinks today. . .

My new phone comes tomorrow. . .granted, I'll be at work, and my fabulous roomies will be going to the beach. . .

I need to go to sleep. . .but i also need to stay awake for at least 45 more minutes. . .

the last 3 days have been crazy

I'm hungry...

my life lately has been... whats the word... estatic ... yeh thats it... lets see... i got into a wreck... but it god rid of the car we didnt want... i go through wierd times with girls and now im about to go out with the girl of my freaking dreams... My grades start to slip but suddenly all of my teachers want to give me extra credit... my old springy bed was killin me... i couldnt sleep... i would wake up in pain... yeh... i come home sunday and my mom had surprised me with a bed 3 times the size and by far the most comfortable bed ever... me and my brother are becoming really good friends... wierd cuz we used to like... totally despise eachother... i start running low on money and my mom tells me today that because of mine and my brothers injuries in the wreck were getting a $1000 check by the end of the week... ok... i just wanna put these in a list

1: The ugly car is gone and were getting a cool one

2: Lauren Johnson is absolutely everything iv been looking for

3: Me and my bro will have $1000 dollars in a few days

4: my mom informed me 2 days ago that she got me 2 new cell phones... one of them being the one i have ALWAYS wanted

5: my grades are getting better by the second

6: my friends are simply amazing

7: I proved paul wrong... hehe...but im totally happy for him

8: (of all things) i was looking for a certain type of mirror to put in my room... found them for 1500 dollars and the day after... the place i was working was gonna throw a set of mirrors IDENTICAL to the 1500 dollar ones away and they gave them to me

9: iv completely redone my room and now it looks sheerly amazing

10: My mom is by far my bestest friend in the whole world... and that makes me happy to say that

11: my dad is being less of a jerk

12: my sister-in-laws baby is due in less than a month... Kevin Scott Slate

13: A really cool person (storey freakin akers) got moved back into my 6th person... shes awesome

14: i was offered a job... but i wanna keep it on the DL until i know if im gonna take it... but trust me... its one of those jobs that a lot of people would envy

15: Me and Karla (the girl in the picture 2 posts ago) hung out sunday... and yeh... shes the epitomy of amazing

16: after the band im in gets going... iv already got us 2 labels... we just have to go record

ok so if you cant tell... nothing seems to be able to bring me down lately... the wreck even made me laugh... no matter what anyone seems to say to me lately i just dont care... today some guy was cussin me out and crap and i seriously didnt care... All the people i once thought was mad at me... ALL came up and talked to me in the halls today... my teachers (espicially my 1st period) all seem to be taking more of a role then just the person that gets paid to talk... they all seem to be role models... and by far... i think one guy that has really helped me thtough this year is the main guy i bash all the time... and i plan to thank him for bein there, tomorrow.... and that is Mr Tomlinson... hes actually a great guy... just he can be a jerk at times... but a few things hes done lately has made me gain a LOT of respect for him...

one thing i cant get over.... in that wreck... i was thinkin about it... we were goin about 60... and where we hit was right on my side... i know that it is insane that i only got a minor bit of whiplash that lasted for 3 days... 2 great people were killed in a car wreck 5-25-05... Hope Brownlowe and Lori Golliher... and i know that they had their hand on me and my brother in that wreck... Hopey and lubby... thank you... i miss you guys... *RIP Hope and Lori*... i could have been the next to go VERY easily... and you can be too... i know u probably here this a million times but take this from someone who could have easily been looking death in the face... You only live once... live it to the fullest... ur not promised tomorrow... and the only thing that can promise you happiness is God... He can help you with absolutely anything... and he garauntees you eternal happiness after death... The one promise that someone literally died for... he died for me... he died for you... and he did it all so willingly... trust him... the world truly is in his hands... God Bless

You guys have no idea how much you mean to me... even the people i randomly message on Phusebox... you guys are all amazing... without you i wouldnt be here... i would have died years ago... thank you... all of you...

so... Mama G had a talk with us about Cats and the other musicals she is thinkin about choosing... lol it was... very interesting... some ppl (like Jesse) are totally set on NO CATS. while others (like Marie) are gung-ho for Cats. But myself, I'm on the fence about the whole thing! I mean, i don't really really want to do cats but if we do, i'll give it my best and have a blast doing it! but if we don't and we do something else (like West Side Story or *prays for* Jekyll and Hyde) then I'll give it my all and have fun w/ it too! anyho... what i'm saying is it'll be alright and fun and awesome no matter what we do! ^^

Well my weekend was interesting...... Saturday we had a play day at siegel for basketball and it lasted till about 5 and then my mom took me to my church's fall retreat which was Saturday and Sunday so I got there a  little late but anyways so I stayed there that night then that morning we had a worship service that was awesome and then some of the senior people played paintball and it was so pimp it was so much fun and then that night we had another worship service and I admit I almost fell asleep because I was so tired but it was still awesome because I was aware the whole time. Then we went home and I pretty much went to bed as soon as  I got home because I was so tired but that was my weekend...So I hope everyone had a great weekend and I hope you have a great week so I will talk to you guys later

                                             IN CHRIST john

Well, right now I'm kinda bored.  So, I decided to Blog in on the coolest Blog/Website thing ever.  Nothin much is goin on right now.... Except that the Indianapolis Colts are about to beat the crap out of the New England Patriots on Monday Night Football.  If you haven't noticed already by the description I have laid out for you, I think that the Colts will win.  If they don't... well I'll probably delete this entry so there will be no rude comments.

last night was fun...
espcially since me and travis pretty much sang "shake that laffy taffy" after service...it was hilarious...travis is awesome...
praise team went well, i knew 2 out of the 3 songs we did...which is pretty good since last time, i didn't know any of them...
and hayley made faces at me from the crowd...
it was great..

i love being on stage and singing...i don't get nervous anymore..it's so cool...

anyways, yeah,
if you love me, you'll remark...
[becca]

*edit*

hmmm so i guess ill try this thing again......

school....really good

boys....really reallly good

life....really really really good

so ya there is the update.....

Hello people.  Welcome to my Phusebox.
I have an amazingly talented cousin and he has urged me for what seems like DECADES to start one of these.  I'm an avid (cough) xanga (i know it's a dirty word around here) user.  We'll see how this goes. 

Love you, Becks!!!  You rule L-ville. 

Hey! THis is my first phusebox blog! yeah natalie got me on to this site n its pretty cool. its a whole lot better and faster than myspace cept we just need to get everyone on this site. it allows u to do a whole lot more. well today n computer i got done early n i was bored so i decided 2 try n get on myspace..but jcps blocked it....so then i was maybe they dint block phusebox...n they didnt so now we can all chat n blog during class!!! yeah well we need 2 all spread the word about phusebox cuz its the greatest!!!

Never have to look you in the eye its easier to lie its easier to lie

 So my new found obsessions are

  - Aqualung

 = Panjabi Mc

 *  Matisyuha

  Yes and they are wonderful. And those lyrics up there are Aqualung.

    Yeah so today Mrs. Z said that she hoped that I was going to continue in art because I was very talented and that means alot to me coming from Mrs Z who is completely blunt about everything and doesnt sugar coat it. So that made me happy.

 

the fall retreat was a blast. i'll leave it at that. i played paintball and amy roeger shot me in the buttocks, so now i can barely sit down. but it's all good. now i'm off to go read about 100 pages of a time to kill. good book + short attention span = me procrastinating. but at least its a great book. I hope u guys will pray for jennifer dillion and all of the dillon family b/c they are goin through some stuff right now. i'll be praying hardcore for them and i hope u guys will too.

So, yeah, I haven't been writing lately because my sweet loving sister disabled my firewall and 250 lovely viruses came pouring into my hard drive. Sounds like fun, huh? NOT! So, while that is getting fixed, I am forced to use my mothers computer.  So, now you know why I have only written once in the past month.

New video game... well, it's really an expansion pack. Rome: Total War - The Barbarian Invasion. It's alot of fun, if your into that kinda stuff.

Amanda and I have been great, nothing to complain about there.

Hold on, thinking...

...

...

I think that's it...

I'll write when I can.

LATER HOMIES!

i missed school today. but i'm finally starting to feel better.

i want orange juice. but we don't have any. :-(

i love you.

Here is the schedule for the Belle Aire Guys Basketball Team

November
10th- v. Providence @ 8:30 pm
17th- v. St. Rose @ 6:30 pm
December
1st- v. FUMC @ 8:30 pm
8th- v. St. Marks @ 6:30 pm
15th- v. World Outreach @ 7:30 pm
January
5th- Providence @ 8:30 pm
12th- St. Rose @ 7:30 pm
19st- v. FUMC @ 7:30 pm

26th- v. St. Marks @ 6:30 pm
February
2nd- v. World Outreach @ 7:30 pm

Everyone says that they want to be a pirate, wel I think that pirates are LAME! I want to be a Viking because Vikings are about the coolest people ever!

Back in the day, they'd burn down rainforests, and attack small peaceful villages and boat around Europe. That's hard, Pirates don't got nothing on that!

"Please don't pick on me, I'm Norse..."

wow! life is sooooo crazy right now - i mean, i guess that is nothing new or out of the ordinary!  life isn't as fun when its not crazy, but right now I feel like a little kid watching a movie instead of me living my life. sometimes everything is slow motion and others it happens so fast. I wish i could find an instant replay button in order to figure out what the heck is going on at times........ well, now that i have rambled on for a while...... })i({

'all that i can do is hold onto You and follow where You lead, where you're leading me. all that i can do is hold onto You and let You bring me through, it's all that i can do.

there are days i think i don't need You, there are days when i can't see the truth.
i need You to save me from the lies because every thought that's in my head and even when i draw my next breath, You knew it all before there was time.

when the waves begin to rise and all my hope fails in confidence i'll close my eyes, trusting You'll be there'

so...to say things have been rough would be an understatement.
i'm good at hiding it...maybe not such a good thing, eh?
really, it's nothing too horrible, i'm just extremly stressed and worried...
college is up there close to number one. then school...
but number one is what's getting me most...

my relationship with Him.
the ultimate, healer, father, most worthy, our unchangeable God.

talk about a broken heart.
you know those songs where the lyrics are something like "break my heart, oh God."?
yeah, i didn't even ask him to and he did. not that kind of "oh my boyfriend of *inseret random # here* years, months, days broke up with me." or the "i'll never find true love" broken heart...the kind of broken heart when he makes you realize what you need in your life. the kind that makes you realize he's been trying to get your attention for a long time now. the kind of broken heart when you understand.

that doubt i was talking about in my post a few days ago..it was Him.
i've doubted Him for awhile now...is He real? does He really love me? is He worth my time? why should i care?

are you kidding me, how selfish do i sound? how ridiculously self centered i am.
of course He's real.
of course He loves me...only He would after i've acted like this. only He would hold on to me after the way i've treated Him.
of course He's worth my time...anyone who will forgive such actions as mine is worth my time.

i should care because He does.

wow.
talk about an overwhelming realization of something so...unfathomable...

i can't really say what made me realize this. i can't really say what made me have so much doubt. and i can't really say what will happen from here.
but that's what so amazing about Him.
he knows all, what made me realize it, why i had doubt...and he knows everyday of my life and what will happen after this day.

'You see all my pain, You cry over it for hours till i'm new again'

I just helped a dog give birth...

Such a depressing day....     but  you still have to....

Take Care and Keep Smiling

Danny

high points of today

• made and 87 in math^_^


• had a sub in latin


• made and 90 on my project


• took roman notes


• had fun

so, this is what our band played last year for concert festival/ spring concert. everytime you hear a violin, that was the part our clarinets played, and the clarinet parts too. now let me tell you, playing a VIOLIN part on a CLARINET is hard. really hard. so yes, listen to it, the end is the most amazing part. prepare to be owned. also, let me tell you we took the end quite a bit faster than the royal philharmonic orchestra, which is amazing.

okay.. this has to be like my 3rd myspace.. but i keep forgetting about the other ones.. so i guess im new again.. ? ill get better at it later.. BUT make sure you make me a friend :)..

  much love,

       holly

Oh yeah... Anna and I are hardcore...

We went to the Rec Center... and we didn't die...

We worked out on the treadmill, jogged a lap around the track, rode two different types of stationary bicycles, did "bouncy ball crunches", lifted 5-point weights, and played raquetball! I even managed to get the ball on the track level once! Oops...

And then we worked our abs on a nice green couch... at least that's what Alex Rader said we were doing... ha ha... working towards one big stomach muscle...

And we're soooo gonna do it all again...

In my confusion and frustration, I look to the ever stable and Lord of all, Father I was put here to serve. On him, I rely, for answers to, season of which to pass, and points at which to meet on this journey He has me on. All dependence on and clinging to, a false sense of security or a useless lifestyle spent fleeting “risk”, is only from the enemy. I will not be swayed by his influence. I will continue to search completely after the heart of God Almighty. This path doesn’t promise anything other than His glory and so, it is my life-blood and purpose. My focus is clear and my heart is set.