It has been a while since I posted anything so I decided I should give people a look into the deep thoughts I have driving back and forth from Nashville...You hear a song on the radio and you realize that is how your life seems to be.  We live in a fast paced world where nobody has time for anyone else (yep...I'm guilty of that).  Yet, as I drive down the interstate I look around me and there are hundreds of cars stuck in the same traffic I am in, yet I am all alone.  I have secluded myself from the world by rolling up the windows and allowing myself to drown in a sea of music.  I have decided that my life can best be summerized as being a stranger among friends.  This is evident in two ways.  The first is when you go back home and all your high school friends are talking about people and events that you have no clue about.  The second is that you come to realize that you no longer have the connection you once felt with your friends.  It seems that no matter how often you spend with your friends you feel like an outsider and completely out of place.  So as I walk on campus today, I will look and see the groups of people deep (or shallowly) in conversation I will will walk on...traveling alone...moving to the next venture in my life.

Well I'm at school and yeah bored again today and yeah idk what im doing this weekend.. pobably goin gto spend time with Beth and yeah well..... i think im going to go before i get caught on the computer... and yeah on phusebox...PeaCe

-Josh-

I sit here, mildy amused by the things of this world.

Nathan Moore is so cool.

And I have realized (on a somewhat non - related subject) that I actually have people in my life that I can trust.  I mean, people who I can tell my silly little girly secrets, and they won't tell anyone or make me feel stupid for my feelings.  Not only that, but people who consistently speak truth into my life when I most need to hear it.  I can be vulnerable before them and that's okay.  In fact, it's encouraged.

Everyone needs friends like Moses had:

"But Moses's hands were heavy.  Then they took a stone and put it under him, and he sat upon it; and Aaron and Hur supported his hands, one on one side and one on the other.  Thus his hands were steady until the sun set."
-Exodus 17:12
 

I just love days in the music theory class when there is nothing to do so we sit on the computers in the back of the room and goof off. He.

Please pray for my sister tonight and tomorrow morning. She is having exploratory surgery on her pancreas to see what's wrong. Her surgery is 6 a.m. Friday morning at Vanderbilt Hospital. God is going to move in mighty ways, and we believe that he will heal Jennifer. Thank you guys for keeping my family in your prayers...

holy crap..... i've been away from you so long phusebox. you've changed.... you've changed a lot, I don't even know you anymore!!! well. yeah fun times in the comp lab at school. guess i'll start posting again.

Looks like Paul did some work on his lip...
His post was titled, "Got PhuseBox?"
These are really entertaining me...


photo from Recklessmortal



We also have an airplane banner from Lauren...


photo from aTouch_Overrated



very nice.

Ok, so my bird was like, acting crazy last night. It all started when something in the music I was listening too (the bass drum hit, pro'lly) scared her and she just started flying around like crazy. But it was fun, I caught her in the air and she was all "AH!" Hehe. Next part, I turned off the TV so I could go to sleep (I was watching Ellen) and she got mad at me. How does a bird get mad at you for turning off the TV? She wouldn't shut up until I turned it back on. I wasn't happy...

Well, happy nothing today.

so the predators lost again last night in san jose. 3-2. it was in overtime none-the-less. and "if you have to lose it, lose it in overtime." or so says julius. lol but its an incredibly long season and were no where near to be done with it. 8-2-2. with 18 points. eat it. saturday. L.A. 3:00 p.m.

how have you guys been? ive been pretty good lately, played on monday and totally screwed my hands over, along with pretty much the rest of my body. but im almost back to full strength so im looking to playing sometime soon, maybe today. i posted like yesterday or the day before but it didnt go through. dont worry nathan the reason was probably cause my computer is out to ruin my life. but in a little less than 2 months ill be using this bad boy:








lol well hopfully.

well like i said things have been pretty great lately. things have been going my way, when i know they shouldnt. L.A Story. with steve martin, puts me in a such a good wierd mood. i love it. and i love that movie. everyone should watch it with each other. but i dont know. school is well alright, wished i was doing better, but its my fault. so you know what can you do. i started editing the drama film and its alot of fun. a lot. but ill catch you guys later.

yesterday's after school program was a bit odd.  previously i had not sent anyone home, but yesterday i sent 9 ladies home.  9...in one day!  it was because they were all late.  so i had them call their parents and tell them that they were leaving graffiti and coming home-and then i escorted them out of the building.  i ended up with 2 ladies in the program at the end of the day.  think about it...i would've had 11 there yesterday with absolutely no help.  sometimes God looks out for us in unexpected ways.  i mean, i hate to send them home-i want them at the program.  but i honestly wouldn't have been able to handle all 11 ladies yesterday with no help.  blessings in disguise :)

i started out the week staying overnight out in jersey (thanks susan).  it was exciting to be in a car again and going to IHOP-rooty tooty fresh 'n fruity :)  and we finally had our first meeting at BMCC with a definite direction of where the conversation was going.  it was a great time, and we're meeting earlier next week so that their friends can join us.  did i mention, i'm not a morning person?  again, blessings in disguise :)

and the official countdown...14 days

I work all the time. What a waste of potential.



...



I am playing with my cell cam:



Look at how incredibly happy I am.

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01h:58m remaining.
Thank you for coming.

Je suis au travail.
Je suis affamé.

There is nothing spare bad vending machine food.
...

I WANT CHINESE FOOD!

photo from oosnake45
Black and white,
A place all my own...
One spot pale, the other
My place, my home...

Oh if you could see my lonely sanctuary,
Would you ever want to visit?
What lonliness lies in my wilderness,
Maybe Only I will ever know...

All I know,
The visions never cease...

I cant believe I will be 21

Tons of Songs at WebCodez.com!
Tons of Songs at WebCodez.com!

I found out that my dad is having open heart surgery on Monday morning. A quadruple bypass. I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared to death. If you are the praying type, please pray for him. If I lose him, I've lost everything. For those of you that don't know, my mom died 2 1/2 years ago. So this is uber frightening. I'd be very grateful for your prayers. That's all I can ask, and all I can say.
-me

i would really appreciate if all of you would pray for my family. my grandfather has alzheimers and he caught pneumonia last week. he isn't expected to last through the night but it is in the Lords hands when He wants him to come home. but just pray for unity for our family. thanks so much.

UPDATE:thanks everyone who is praying for my family. my grandfather "Pa" passed away last night peacefully. he is finally getting to go home and i couldn't be more excited for him. but at the same time the earthly side of me is upset that he can't be here with us in person.

Ok so life...yea right now it isn't going so well, I'm slaking on my school work, I'm not concentrating on anything, and basically I feel like the Megan Zombie, walking around doing her normal thing, but not really comprehending any of it. Tonight was good, we sang a song and it just hit my heart, literally:

Break My Heart

My heart is hard
My soul so weak
The ways of evil
Cut so deep
I need you Lord
To come inside
And gently break my heart.

I get so frustrated sometimes when people argue every freaking thing that comes out of your mouth.

I'll be home this weekend..

again.

Later.

hey all well im really bored and well i havent een my little 3 year brother in like 3 months and i rly miss him so thats wats on my mind leave me sum comments

Join with the Angels
Singing Holy Holy
Our hearts rejoice
Singing Glory Glory

I wanna take lauren nicdao's advice and break up with my high school. It's just not working out. I wanna go out with college.

Yeah, well I got one of these to kind of branch out from all the regulars, I suppose. I mean everything has fallen into this same routine and it's so dull. Deadly dull. I just can't stand it anymore. And so I was like hey, change time. But I'm rolling my eyes at myself because this really isn't a big deal.

Anyways, the username is from this really cool Coldplay song. And it was the first thing that I saw laying around my computer. So, boom, it's a title. Heh..

School blows. I want to par-tay!

Fall is the bestest season ever. I mean it's like perfect weather, sometimes it's a bit nippy, but it's amazing for sports. :-)

I suppose that's all. Yeah, real exciting..

Have you ever had one of those moments when something really random happens, and you're just like, "Okay, God, WHAT the heck?!"

And you say that only because there is no other way it could have happened?

Yeah, it's kind of like that.

Yeah so tonight was church and it was awesome!! the worship was great. BJ and them do a great job.. My day went well it was boring though like always but thats school.. I am so ready to graduate its not even funny I can't wait and  yes I know all you people who have graduated will say have fun in highschool when you can but I am ready regardless of how much fun I will have I am still ready to go off to college and get away from highschool and that will be great because who knows who I will meet when I get to college (maybe somone from bama lol). but anyways I am really thankful though for the friends I have in highschool now and I can't wait till we are seniors because its gonna be tight! lol I can't wait.... so I hope everyone has a great night and a great day tomarrow and I hope you feel blessed ... also if you will pray for my youth groups retreat coming up this weekend God is gonna move when were are there and I can't wait to see what he does in all of our lives... ok time for me to go have a wonderful day

                                              IN CHRIST john

im not trying to make this entry all sad and stuff, but i am just thinking aobut death. its ganna happen to all of us. no matter how lucky or good u are. u will be hit by it.  and then what? life will go on. for a few people there will be grief.  and u will always be remembered. but for what? what are u ganna be remembered for.  what is one thing that God will be pleased u did while on this earth.  u dont need tomorrow.  u have enough problems in one day.  try to perfect the day that u are on right now, and once u get it perfected, give all glory to God. then go to sleep, and wake up, and start all over again.  Make everyday count.  if not, that could have been a life changing day for someone u know, but that day might never come again.  so whats my point? i dont know, u figure that one out .  Peace!

This has quickly become one of the worst weeks I have ever had. Ah, I'm just so utterly pissed off and lost and comletely out of touch with reality and my priorities aren't straight at all and I dont know what I want and I feel like everything is crashing down and I feel like everything I'm around is a comlpete charade and I'm just so stressed and depressed.

Three zeros in AP U.S. History.

Two zeros and a 67 in Espanol Tres

I used to be such a good student. And now look what I've become. There so much stress and crap going on in my life that the only time I have to myself I spend indulging myself, finding some way to maintain happiness for a brief moment in time. 

 It seems like everytime things start looking up again, you look up, and it falls right on your face. My family has been getting along great lately. With the exception that My dad and I haven't talked for four and a half weeks. Doug has been so nice and my mom has been....are you ready.....happy. And in turn, doug has been happy. And you know what that made me...happy. And then all of this school stuff came crashing down and I have reports and projects and tests and essay and zeros and my family doesn't stress grades with me. SO its just myself putting pressure on myself. You are your own worst enemy they say. And then tonight. It all goes to hell. I actually started doing the work I had zeros for, And I was going to study. Then Doug (my moms boyfriend/fiance of 12  years who is pretty much my "stepdad") drives me over to the lot where we are building our new house. On the drive home, he starts bitching at me. He said I was self-centered, he said I never did anything to help around the house, he said I was spoiled, he said I was selfish, he said I was a burden to my mom, he said that no matter what happens to me in my life that I should be happy just because my mom gives me things. I was furious. But in my family, only the adults can show emotion. I have to sit back and take it, take everything, everything they always throw at me, everything I get that they store up against other people. So yea, We get home, my mom comes home, I'm upstairs, and I hear screaming. Screaming between mom and doug. I wont go into details, because its personal. But bad things, profanities, And it happens a lot, so i'm used to it. Doug is always the instigator. I try to ignore it like I always do, I'm distracted from homework so I was a few minutes of tv. The next thing I hear is. "Nick!!! Get your butt down here now!!! NOW!!!! Get you butt down here right now!!!!" and I'm like, shit what do I have to go through now. And then He says "We have a crisis" and I go into soccer mom mode. I was frantic and wondering what the "crisis" was. So the closer I get downstairs, the louder this weird spewing noise gets. Our water heater had...not exploded....but broken and began to burst and spew from some wierd hole thing. Water is everwhere in our garage. The next hour is full of my mom and doug yelling, me getting yelled at, water going everywhere, mom crying, everyone bitching, me cleaning up everything while doug sat and pouted, Me losing it and flinging my broom around like a psycho out of pure rage and making my mom think I've gone insane. So it wouldn't stop leaking. At all. So we had to turn off the water that ran to out house.

So now...we have to running water. No brushing teeth, no showering, no flushing the toilet, it royally sucks ass.

I mean really, could my week get any worse

My mom and doug were planning on going out of town to Tunica this weekend. Thats in Mississippi. From early Friday morning until late Sunday night. I was going to have some....fun.....times. I have no clue if they will make up and still go. I sure hope so. Because I need a break. The house to myself is like my own quiet, peaceful, refuge.

My grades are going to plumit. And so is my happiness and well-being. I'm going to have to wake up at five in the morning to find someplace to shower and do all of my morning routine things. Most likely my grandparents' house.

And like always, I'm as lonely as humanly possible....

Bleh....I just want it all to go away.

no kitties for mady. :-p

i love you.

I guess the war is on...
who is next?!


photo from davidangel

I love football,it's greatest!

well guys...i just bought my ticket for the EMERY, As Cities Burn, He Is Legend, and Gym Class Heroes show. it's gonna be awesome...can't wait for friday!!!

-KYLE

I need a hug...

Good heavens, I feel like I've been popping spastic mood swing pills all day.  My emotions are going to kill me yet.  If I randomly cry or punch you tomorrow, I'm sorry.  I'll try to make up for it.  I'm just going through another confused stage; I go through these about twice a week now.  I guess it's a symptom of living life right on the edge of busy and too busy.  A symptom of having 7 classes.  A symptom of having a bizarre "social" life this year (I say social in a most sarcastic manner).  A symptom of over-procrastination, self-doubt, and a lack of self-control.  Junior year is supposed to be stressful - in my case it's making me a little insane.  It's been a fun year - more freedom, more options, more privileges - but it's also been extremely tiring, especially compared to the breezy bliss of last year.  I think I'm just a little....off-color.  off-kilter.  off my rocker?  maybe.

But you know what?

Yeah, me neither.

Ok, so I had a humbling experience tonight at church.  Eric (the guy giving the message) was preaching on Revelation 2:18-29.  It's one of the letters to the seven churches in Asia Minor - more specifically the letter to the church in Thyatira.  Well, in the passage, it talks about Jezebel (which was cool in and of itself because we just discussed her story in Old Testament today... but anyway...).  In case you don't know, Jezebel was an evil woman married to King Ahab, the king of Israel (1 Kings 16).  Ok, there were a lot of bad kings that reigned over Israel, but King Ahab was one of the worst.  He and Jezebel were responsible for some of the corruption in Israel because of their Baal worship.  Well, because of all this corruption, hardly anyone in Israel was following God.  And so, the same way that this was happening in Israel during the time of Ahab and Jezebel (which is why she is mentioned), the same sort of practices were occuring in this little city of Thyatira.  In order for a person to be successful in Thyatira, they had to be a member of a trade guild, but the catch to these trade guilds was that once a month the members had to make sacrifices to idols.  Therefore, if you wanted to be obedient to God, you basically wouldn't be successful.  So, my thought was, "If the people knew what God could do to protect them from death and occupation by other cultures (both in the time of Jezebel and the time John wrote Revelation), why didn't they just trust Him to do what they already knew he could do?"  Then comes my humbling moment... I thought, "Well darn...if I know what God can do, and how he'll provide for me, why can't I just trust him to keep me from the enemy?"  Wow, talk about humbling.  Here I am chastising the Israelites for not trusting God, and I fail time and again at that very thing. 

Anyway... that's all for now..

"well, as far as I'm concerned the internet is just another way of being rejected by a woman..."

gotta love it...

Okay guys help me out here. So me and Andrew had our "date" thing last friday night and his last entry on xanga was, "This is gonna be one of my last few posts...oh yeah, friday night was my birthday. Thanks for nothin' guys.
Fuck ya'll." that was it. and i asked him what was wrong and he never said anything. but yeah i'm wonderin' if i pissed him off. and yeah pretty sure i went to see who had updated today and he's shut down his xanga. so i have no clue what to think now. u guys REALLY need to help me out now!! =(

why are there so many people from TN on phusebox?

These are my boys Nevertheless. They're based out of Chattanooga and you can check out their sound at www.purevolume.com/neverthelesstn. These guys are AMAZING.

  

Hey guys! Ive had such a good week! On Sunday night I went to a bon fire with my youth group...we had such a fun time! I found out that out of 126 people who came through Judgement House that werent saved, 91 came to know Jesus. Also there was 121 reassurances! Yay for Jesus!!!! Im telling you, thats the greatest gift anyone could ever recieve- the gift of salvation. *Sigh*....what a great God we serve.

On Monday night I went to Believer's Chapel with Mary Lauren to hang out with Lisa at their fall festival. I worked a booth with the cool man Tyler! Oh yeah! Oooooh my goodnesss! ahhh I got to play with little kids all night while spending time with my best friends!! Oh man what a wonderful night that was! Ahhhhh!!! I love love love love kids! Yay! I found this verse about children that I love...makes me love them even more!

"At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?" He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."- Matthew 18:1-4

You know when you are talking to a little kid they will believe everything you tell them? They have so much faith in you and no doubt that you wont tell them the truth. Thats what Jesus means here...we need to have complete faith in Him with no doubt....faith like a child. Children are definately a great reminder of that...they are true blessings from God.

Well anyways Ive had a great week I wasnt planning on writing much just putting pictures on here but you get both. haha Have a great week! Make Jesus your passion!!

Andrea

At the Fall Festival...

And now for the cutest most awesome kid on the planet....SAM!!!

My little flower girl hahaha

Booth buddies!

Two of the greatest girls ever!

And now for the bon fire....

Aww me and one of my most favorite girls in the world! Maddie!

And now a picture I thought was hilarious...hahahaha

I love my friends!

Things are great right now. I am in such a good mood. It seems things are really looking up for me right now. Lets hope it stays this way.




"I really want to see you,
I really want to be with you,
I really want to see you, lord
But it takes so long, my lord"
-George Harrison

Fire drills stink alot...and they really should have a more annoying alarm so you know what's going on and don't just sit in your room untill the RA comes...but maybe that's just me!

This is for all the imitators, players, and haters. REPRESENT!!!



photo from davidangel

That's it, that's all I got. Ball's in your court.

OMG. It was so good. I mean highlight of my week good. Who would have thought the combination of chipotle mayo (yes I ate mayo :), chicken, tomatoes, and guacamole it all it's toasted glory would send me to sandwichtopia and back. I highly reccomend the Cabo Chicken sandwich the next time you come across a Quiznos. Though the week is still young, this honestly might have been the pick-me-up I've needed for 3 days now. Random happy moments rock! 

-James

There are 10 types of people in this world:

Those who understand binary, and those who don't.

Felize dia de los muertos.

I love this girl :] she's great

UGH life has been boring

nothing is happening at school

nothing is happening at home

but this weekend should be an excitment

im hanging out with Brittany D && going to GreenHills mall b/c they juss opened a tiffanys && a Louis Vuitton in there so me && my mom R gonna go shopping lol.

Well yeah i really dont even know y i have this thing or y i update cuz i dont even kno neone on here lol

so im gonna go

Friends make me smile when I come to school crying.
They make me laugh and hug me real big.
They tell me they love me.

Funny how something so bad can ruin your day,
until you relize how many people care about you.
That happened today.
I was REALLY upset.
That's where my friends stepped in.
they love me.
I love them.
It's almost as good as Barney.
well. I don't have much to say, so i'm gonna go.

--Sarah<3

i've gotta stop this now. stop stealing guys away from girls, not only in my thoughts but in real life too. i've gotta be like the worst friend in the history of friends.

i pray he doesnt come with me, i pray that he likes her instead. i pray that i find someone else that's not currently attached in anyway. because even though i think he's soooo cute and really nice, she had a stake on him way before i did. and though i don't like him because of her, it feels like that's what it is.

i'm very excited that all this church stuff fell on this week. i need God and people who know Him to help me through the complete disaster i have become.

i dont remember it being this bad last year. i was still involved with everything alright during marching, and this year it just seemed like it took over. but i still had the same amount of time as i had last year. church wasn't a priority, and that makes me really sad thinking back on the surplus amounts of churchage i skipped...

this has to be my favorite 6th grade teacher. i LOVED him. his beloved Sox finally won :)

my lovely Kim and the Cup. i was afraid we wouldn't see it for a while, but it's back!!!

Jason was right- Final Cut Pro Express only works on Mac.

And I feel out of the loop.

And trying to come up with my schedule for next semester is not fun.

 

a woman is not a potted plant                                   
by Alice Walker

A WOMAN IS NOT
A POTTED PLANT

her roots bound
to the confines
of her house

a woman is not
a potted plant
her leaves trimmed
to the contours
of her sex

a woman is not
a potted plant
her branches
espaliered
against the fences
of her race
her country
her mother
her man

her trained blossom
turning
this way
& that
to follow
the sun
of whoever feeds
and waters
her

a woman
is wilderness
unbounded
holding the future
between each breath
walking the earth
only because
she is free
and not creepervine
or tree.

Nor even honeysuckle
or bee.

I have been sick since like Halloween and it toally really sucks.I have a
sore throat that burns and Im burning up like extra hott.I just feel like Im
gonna throw up but I cant.

Erin is complaining about freshman band while listening to a CD with a guy playing some hand-horn music. She's like "What?! No valves! I guess hand position really does matter..." I'm going to get one of those when I'm in college and play it in my recitals, pro'lly Mozart or something. In symphonic band today, Mr. Rhody just kinda complained with the percussionists the whole time. Pretty sure we didn't even get to measure 20 in a 3 movement piece. Yeah...I was bored. And then in 5th period band, we worked on the music we're playing at some ceremony next Thursday at one of the elem. school. Patriotic, my favorite (yeah right). In 6th period band, Emma helped me with some tosses for my guard audition for college next year...if I decide to do it. Then we played the toss game.

I have to work on my memory passage for tomorrow morning in English. And omg, I hate when I go into the bathroom and the people that use the toilet before me don't flush! It's so annoying.

MYO tomorrow night...blah. I hope we get new, more interesting music. Watered down March Slave is not gunna cut it...maybe I'll go to pep-band instead...but then I won't get home till like 12 tomorrow night.

So Nathan got  to blog this one before I got to it...I had three tests to study for.  I  took Nathan's suggestion from his blog.  Anyway, since they didn't have any BBQ sauce, we used mustard and ketchup!!  The above photo was the final product of our creation--special thanks to Erin Danielle Westerman!! 

We wanted some green ketchup so it would be greenboxiness!! 

I thought that looked kind of cool!!  This was before the swirliness!!
And....get ready for it....

SWIRLINESS!!!

After that we wiped the mustard and ketchup off so we didn't get yelled at for playing with our food, which if you've looked at any of my pictures, you know we do that very often...haha!!

So...in case you haven't been informed...if you start a PhuseBox group on facebook, it will be deleted and you will possibly be kicked off like Matthew Beck...lol.  My group was deleted and then I got a lovely little warning e-mail...so did Baker. 

High points of today::

• went to school


• got hit -tear-


• talked to kay about something


• failed a history test


• had a math test

                            the end

So I guess Kim took the suggestion from my last post and went with it:


photo from kim


AWESOME.

hey kids its been a while but o wel still no comp at home no news really besides im like super missing the net a whole freaking lot but ya hopefully the computer will be better soon love you guys

Well its been a while but everything is going ok.  I have been working a lot lately so i've missed out on a lot of stuff, which stinks.  However other than that everything is alright.  I wish that I had more time to spend time with my friends and time on school work.  but hey what can i say.  Saturday is the fall retreat and that is going to be awesome im so excited!!!  i'm gona play paintball and light everybody up!  espscially big o, you have it coming.  no im just kidding.  but i night update in like another month or so.  so in the mean time fight the good fight and keep it real!!! 

Im in math class and i really have nothing to say.. but i figured i would post simply for Katie Kimbell

so yeh...to add to my other three new friends at oakland i shall add Katie Kimbell...

i love katie kimbell to death.. and we are friends on phusebox AND at oakland so HA!... lol sorry Katie.. but i do love you... hehe

also

i would like to post this...

I MISS JONATHAN WYLER HATTER!!!!

i cant wait to see him this summer.. heis the most amazing person ever.. and i miss him dearly... GAH! so yeh.. .cant wait to see you jon... love you!!! LOOK WHAT YOU DUN DID NOW!!

meag

i finally got a picture on here.. so hopefully i can make time to upload some more later for u kids!! i've had my digital camera for over a year, but i didnt have the USB chord and i just now got one.. i've been wanting one for the longest time when i finally had things to upload pictures to.. so now thats like all i do! haha..

well today was pretty good.. we had a dicussion in my university seminar class on a bunch of diverse issues in our country.. some people have some ridiculous thoughts on life, but thats not for me to judge..

well i'm about go to babysit~ i hope yall have a great day!

cp-

Halloween was a lot of fun!!

Jessica has most of the photos on her webpage...I can't seem to get my computer to work so..yeah

Heyy baby!

15 days until my
b i r t h d a y

nOveMbeR tHe 17th!

well HALLOWEEN was tooo much fun!
hung out with all of my friends, who I <3 so much!

Danielle Julie & me getting ready for HALLOWEEN!=)

Me Jared & Julie!

I duno i have more pictures on here!
but yeahh i <3 you guys!
check out my xanga..
www.xanga.com/sw3etp3a_mb

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Life is fun when you decide to live.

had a pretty good night i guess.
went and saw Drowning Pool.  They're doing a tour for the military I guess cuz they had a concert here at Camp Buehring tonight. 
now I'm pumped and can't go to sleep.

So at work, they gave me a key.. very exciting! I can now close the store by myself, maybe not completly by myself... but soon. Church tonight should be good, actually it should be really good and heart breaking, emotions shall break and fly. Alrightlly then, not much else. bye

HEy playas what up just sittin in the computer lab with the great ALDINI were havin fun printing 5000 blank sheets of paper and mr benny pearce is getting angry he keeps going WHAT IS THIS and I GIVE UP its very funny well later players

LOve,

Zach

Well guys im at school right now being bored and yeah theres nothing to do and im in my 2nd period class and yeah its in mrs. myers class but you know she doesnt know that im on phusebox because were suppose to do a report and yeah haha im good if youknow what i mean oh oh dang.... well im out.. love you Beth

-Josh-

i need to go home

ok so...this is gonna be random. i just emailed chris and he always puts me in one of those enlightening moods but i didnt wanna go and complain to him bout my own problems.

like...i have a problem with lies. everyone is lying to someone. mainly...anthony. he lies to me, he lies to jill. ok i know its not so much lying, more like..leaving us in the dark bout certain things. i cant even be totally sure if he does that with jill all the time cuz im not around. but i was with him at his house after school today and i wonder why when she called and he actually was looking at me telling her that he was doing homework and had to work. first of all, whats wrong with telling her he's with me? is he worried about saying that? and why did he say he was doing homework? we were about to leave to go to sonic so of course that was BS. and why say he was gonna work? he wasnt even sure about that. as far as he knew he didnt have to work that day until rafiq called him at 5pm. ok yea, this will piss people off, sorry anthony.

and then theres the lying to me factor. well more like, keeping me in the dark. no matter how much i get mad at him for it he still feels compelled to wait hours, even days sometimes to tell me certain things. like going with jill to phobia. i actually called while he was there and he didnt say anything. he didnt even say he went there talking on the phone to him that evening. he didnt even tell me who was there. or conversations he leaves blanks in as if im not gonna know "duh, theres something in there you're not telling me" then he profusely apologizes about it as if he wont do it again. why hide things from me? how can i trust him? i mean..its as if everything he says now i always have that feeling like "is there more to it that hes not teling me? were other people there with him?" for like an hour i was aware that only adam was with him at phobia. then all of a sudden he goes "i know you're upset but you couldnt have gone cuz..." and then you could tell he totally did not mean to let that one slip and now theres no turning back and find out he never intended to tell me. why hide that from me? why hide anything from me? i tell him everything even if he wont like it, i do it anyway. i guess it began to bug me more today cuz i found he was doing it to both sides. just for his sake? i suppose so.

I should be in bed right now, but I'm not. I don't know why, but for some reason I've really wanted to blog about something for the last few days. However, I am confronted with a large and glaring foe when it comes to expressing my ideas. Writers Block!!!! (dun dun dun) I don't know what to write about. And what I do have an idea about, I don't know how to put into words... (go figure) Anyway, gotta go to bed so that I can get up and take a shower in the morning b4 class (I guess I should take my once a month shower tomorrow, I'm kinda stinky... jk, i don't smell that bad) Well then, I'm out like a light in Baghdad.

-Jeff

Bleh..... bad night, but it was all made better by talking with my lovely friend Katerina. I  LOVE living in Elam Hall now as compared to Fanning Hall....it's much more uhm nice and plus my two really good friends that I've made are in this dorm so I am loving Elam.

But yeah, my bad night is just me and my silly worries and obsessing about what guys think of me and all....it's just that I wanted so much to be able to meet some nice guys that I could become good friends with as well. I mean I have never really had a close guy friend ever.  And well of course, things are the same as highschool in that part of my life and it's getting me down. It's making me think there's something wrong with me...which of course there has to be. I mean I obviously am doing something wrong to turn guys away from being friends with me.
I mean I understand I'm more shy, but seriously I have plenty of friends and that is no obstacle for them and they have made guy friends and have had great boyfriends easily, no problem. And well me, it's just there are no guy friends, no guys that like me like that that I am interested in and it gets me all depressed. I know I shouldn't worry or focus on this but still, it's a constant struggle.

THAT and I have to do well on my psychology test tomorrow or else I don't know what I'll do...I am doing poorly (and by poorly I mean very poorly) in that class as it is right now, so I DON'T need another bad grade at all. aaaah, all of the stresses and worries college....it stinks!!!

oh well, this too shall pass.....I have to remember that.

-Kaylei

So tests are yuck...i have two tommorrow...ok today...
and I havent started studying yet; its not looking like im going to anytime soon.  I think we should beat tests over the head with palm tree branches!! haha!!
                              
That's Erin when we had our palm tree fight!  It was right after a tropical storm/hurricane-ish thing came through Ft. Meyers and we found two of them on the ground, so, of course, we had to fight!!

Well, the show friday went very well except for the fact that my guitar pedal went out on me and I didn't have any sound when I should have on a couple of occasions. But never fear, I ordered a new pedal tonight so that shouldn't be a problem for a very long time.

We have another show on saturday night in Shelbyville TN so that should be pretty cool and I think that we might be playing with another band. We're playing a 10-song set so it'll be longer than the one friday which was only 8, and it lasted 35 minutes. And if another band is playing then we'll be good to go!

Well kids that's all I have....God bless

-Marshall

okay everyone. mark your calanders because on Dec. 1st we are going to have a big blow out fiesta for amy and RACHELbonin. so in case you were wondering...that is what we will be doing. so don't make any plans.

Another website has come into my life that is supposed to tell the world "all about me." I have no problem with the world getting to know me, but it seems like the more websites I join the more I feel like I am forcing myself upon people. Do not get me wrong, facebook has gotten me back in touch with many many people I knew from "back in the day..." and it is fun to "poke" people and leave messges on myspace, but isn't this just 15min more out of my day? I already have trouble with time managemant on this computer, maybe one day I will get off my butt and be more ambitious. Get out into the real world and actually meet people. Ah, one day. peace.

i loved taking this picture...that night was great...i miss FL

happy birthday Danny Walters...

getting paid is awesome..i like it....

i don't like english all that much

work

-KYLE

of all the things goin on now... all my stress... all my work... everything... all i can seem to think about is the friend i feel as though im losing...

Karla Lozano... I love you

some things people say really cut deep!
on the lines of this:
"so Amy your birthday is in a month, we should throw you a party"
with me sitting right next to her!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

photo from oosnake45
Staring out at the black
And Lonely sky...
A single tear forms
Here in my eye...
What's so wrong with me?
Why do I always feel
Just like this....

I claim it, that I just
Can't give up...
I feel it's just never
Quite enough...
This pain, it makes me
Feel I'm lost and life's
Just so real..

I think I'm going
Out of my mind...
I guess I'll sit here
Trying to find...

Myself, amongst the stars I see...
Maybe, soon life'll make sense to me...
I just want to be alright,
Here on my own....

I got two fillings today (one on each side)
one side is fine, the other is swolen, I've taken 4 advil (they havn't helped) and it feels like 1000 fire ants with rabies are filling my cheek with radioactive urine. IT HURTS!!!!!

          there are 6,470,818,671 people living
some are running scared, some are coming home
some get through the day by lying, others are just
now facing the truth, some are evil warring the good,
and some are good struggling with the evil.
six billion people in the world, six billion souls,
and   sometimes   all   youu   need   is   0NE.
- 0NE TREE HiLL –




so uhm.



...theres this boy...

& everytime i say his name...

...i can't help but smile =)

well finally i have got a little break. and it feels great. there isnt much going on.  no big problems, nothing great though.  so its all good.  well november is here, so now i cant wait till thanksgiving.  im already conditioning for it.  mmmmmmmmm TASTY!!!!!!

"He wondered, as he had many times wondered before, whether he himslef was a lunatic. Perhaps a lunatic was simply a minority of one. At one time it had been a sign of madness to believe that the earth goes round the sun; today, to believe that the past is unalterable. He might be alone in holding that belief, and if alone, then a lunatic. But the thought of being a lunatic did not greatly trouble him; the horror was that he might also be wrong."

Ok so I came accross this quote while reading 1984 for my english class (yes I know...I am a total nerd), and I think it perfectly pertains to my faith- Believing in God doesn't really scare me...its more believing in something that everyone else thinks is extrememly difficult to digest- therefore, seeming to some, a lie. Being outnumbered makes you wonder if you really are right. I guess what I'm trying to say is that believing in a God that can't even be seen sometimes makes you a crazy lunatic, BUT does that necessarily make you wrong?

I don't think so.

 That's how God's Word vaults across the skies -from sunrise to sunset, Melting ice, scorching deserts, warming hearts to faith.  - Psalm 19:6

                                                                          +ML+

   

today sucks...

leave me remarks to make me happy...

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so i dont really feel like i have time to write on this right now. i need to start studying more. i know i've been saying this, but this time it's going to happen.the chem test today was crazy. some other stuff is crazy too, but then again thats life.

i got my book in the mail today,i ordered ir off amazon. its "lies my teacher told me: everything my american history book got wrong" i hear from past history teachers that it's a good book.

theres some other stuff going on right now, its pretty much driving me crazy. and also, i was wondering, would anyone think less of me if i changed schools, or just dropped out? and if people did, does it really matter. i dont think i'll drop out, thats just not a good choice.

piece

I'm almost postive that between my frequent yet brief trips to dreamland in accouting my Statistics professor was saying actual words that might be useful on our quiz Thursday. As I struggle to decipher each strange utterance of "probability, distribution, standard deviation, and x-bar" and the day began to look more gray through the sizeable window to my left, my mind bounced from one stressful school related thought to another. 7.5 hours later my mind is still reeling and longs for release. Exhaustion, confusion, and digestion all mixed with a little caffine and a lot of reading make for one tedious Tuesday. Though I am now able to recline, breathe and phuse, the specter of my incomplete "To Do 11/1/05" list continues to haunt and remind me that I must read Blood Done Sign My Name and study for my Mass Media test. The plight of the perfectionist: priorities, priorities, priorities.

-James

14 days until my
b i r t h d a y

woah-yeah!

westerns are silly.
grrg...

shootin' people with handle bar mustaches
is not exactly my idea of a super-fun time...

but then again...

whatev'

(abby)

so the above picture is  how crazy my life has been recently   

i feel like i'm going every direction at once with God, the parentals, school, papers, exams, speeches, commitments, old friends, new friends, change, guys, confusion, a huge lack of sleep, lots of candy, and retarded heat in the dorms

and that's about how i feel about it ~ i really need some sleep plus a long ride in the middle of nowhere followed by a reeeeeeaaaaally long bubble bath - or at least that's the series of events that worked when i got stressed in high school - but college is NOTHING like high school! i love it, but at times i miss the sweet ignorant bliss that is "on a hill in Dickson County, reared against the sky"

so i bs'ed my way through my comm speech Monday morning, by the grace of God and only by the grace of God. yeah, it's times like that when i actually thank Him for the 4 yrs serving General Sullivan.

 te he he.

i'll be turing in an english paper late tomorrow - if i ever stop procrastinating and do it - maybe that's the problem... ok one of many

good news though - i more than survived the Foundations of government test - I GOT AN A!!! o my that test was rape of the brain. so once again.... THANK GOD! (because it was sooooooo not me)

aight- well i guess i'll get off and go to work - wonderful fun - at the ever exciting library

this post is dedicated to matthew beck and chris nowak.

ramblings coming soon.

--brand new--

"so wear me like a locket around your throat, i'll way you down, i'll watch you choke. you look so good in blue, you look so good in blue."

today was good. and i can totally be completely happy with good. especially considering i usually get less than good. i am doing everything in my power to keep any sadness. if i work at it, i can surely get there.

i checked out a fun book today. or i think it is fun. most people would be like "umm....ok?" but i'm like "WHOOPIEEE!!!" (yes, whoopie. shut up). i almost checked out this other book, but, alas i did not. however, the library isnt going anywhere anytime soon. so i can always go and check it out some other time. like tommorow.

anywho, i am feeling kind of left out. im not, not by any means, but i feel that way. anyway, i think i should depart.

leave me a remark? please?

me

So...as some of you might have noticed...I haven't written in a while. Guess why? I forgot my password! So I emailed Nathan, who was able to help me out! Things are going pretty well around here. I was thinking today that I am so blessed. While this is true in general, I was thinking it especially in regards to Matt. I know that a lot of people think/have thought that we shouldn't be together. I know a lot of people think that I will get my heart broken. But it's soooo worth the risk.Matt's such a great guy, and I feel that people really don't appreciate this enough about him. In addition to all his more overt qualities there are also so many little things to who he is that truly make him an amazing person. I was taking  a nap today after an eight o'clock class, some laundry, and some light cleaning. I was DEFINITELY feeling pretty rough. Matt calls me up to see if I want to go to lunch. I am of course sleeping but tell him to meet me at my room when he gets back and we'll go. I fall back asleep. I'm so tired I barely even heard him come into my room. He put his arm around me and we just took a nap... me, matt, and my roommate krysten all sleeping soundly in the gross heat of my room (the heater is broken so that it kicks on about every five minutes regardless of temperature). I woke up because I needed to go get some laundry. I remember just looking at him and thinking, "Wow... I wish this moment could last all day..."

     I feel like it doesn't really matter what we're doing, just spending time with him gives me a sort of joy that's hard to explain. It's kind of like those times when you're down for no reason, someone you love can give you a hug and you just feel so much better. Sure, we've had our ups and downs, our fights, our good times and our bad....what relationship hasn't? I truly feel that he is one of the greatest blessings in my life, always challenging me to see the my faith, my world, and myself from an entirely different perspective. He constantly pushes me to open my heart and my mind so that I can grow....OH and how about this for a turn around?..... he told ME not to skip class the other day! Talk about having matured a bit since high school!!!!!! I'm so proud of him for so many reasons!

 

So...

yeah...

This is how it is suppose to be.

long hours of crying, wishing to be somewhere else, and all that good stuff....

yep...Junior year rocks...no matter what they say.

ok im feeling better.. you guys rock.. amazingly alot.... from oakland i have three friends and they are the coolest ever... tim, sean, and nemanjayea so they rock.. and so do all my old friends.. thanks for being there.. and most of alldavid your amazing... one of the most amazing people in my life right now... youve been amazing and i love you DEARLY!tty guys laters,,, your all amazingnessmeagps chris slate rocks my socks offAnd they called it puppy love
Oh i guess they'll never know
how a young heart really feels
and just why i love her so
and they called it puppy love
just because we're in our teens
tell them all
please tell them it isn't fair
to take away my only dream
i cry each night
my tears for you
my tears are all in vain
i hope and i pray
that maybe someday
you'll be back (you'll be back) in my arms(in my arms)
once again
someone help me
help me
help me please
is the answer up above?
how can i
oh how can i tell them
this is not a puppy love
someone help me
help me
help me please
is the answer up above?
how can i
oh how can i tell them
this is not a puppy love
(this is not a puppy love)
(this is not a puppy love)
not a puppy love
(this is not a puppy love)this song is sooo sweetYour eyes are brown shining like stars at night
Oh when she smiles I melt her lips are rosy red
When she looks at me I am hypnotized
Staring at those brown colored eyes but she's far I miss her

Oh my sixteen I love you, oh my sixteen I do, I do love you
Girl when you're upset please don't cry coz I'm hurt
I'm always here for you, you gave my life a reason for living
A heart to believe in, a love for us to share

chorus:
Oh my sixteen I love you, oh my sixteen I care
Say my sixteen will you love me too
Oh my sixteen I do, I do love you

bridge:
If you need a friend to turn to I will be there, oh I'll be there
All you have to do is take my hand and I'll be there
(repeat bridge twice then chorus)

like, 20! people today was asking if i went to the NIN concert. =(. i wish i could have so bad...
well, i think today was the most i've ever eaten at lunch. lol.

GRR, lol, i can't stand my mother. it's like.. everyday she find something else she hates about me. like my sexuality for example. almost everyone on the planet knows i'm bi and she's known that for -lets see...- 8 years now! and she's just now saying... i don't like it one bit. and stuff like that. ugg, whatever. lol.

i'm going to go. who likes hippos? you know, cause that's my favorie animal =P.

               xoxoxo :+:ashlie:+:

well didn't get to hang with friends on halloween

it's been cold

but atleast i have fall retreat this week

=]

So I have a class that is devoted to stage make-up and I love it.  I thought I would share with you guys my favorite design thus far!