"i want a guy to fight for me!!!!"

sums it up! i hope my night gets better!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

Sometimes I really just don't know what God's doing with my life.  It seems friends come and friends go.  After my dad's death, things just don't shine like they used to shine.  I'm kind of in a rush, but I needed to vent that simple thought out.  I will one day look back and realize why things worked out the way they did, but until then I'm in the dark.  I get jealous over the dumbest things lately.  Mainly people who seem genuinely happy.  I've got joy, yes.  Everyday I wake up and find joy in the Lord, but I'm hardly happy.  I get so lonely sometimes and I think it's God's way of keeping me too attached to this world.  Why, though?  Others don't experience the same pain and they're Christians.  I'm so self-centered sometimes.  I hate it.  I should be happy for the things God's given me.  I am, and I need to focus on that.

aye me.

Oh so Electrikk ♥

we walk on ceilings.

Sunglasses=Hawt♥

well! basketball season kicks off tomorrow night come on out and support your 2005-2006 B.A.Y. Basketball Team at 8:30 pm at St. Rose. hope to see you all there! Good Luck Basketball!

Basketball season kicks off tomorrow night can't wait!

I have a job. I'm gonna start working in a business office on campus later this month. Goodbye free time, but hello money...

I stole this from Jenna's Facebook photo album... everyone's catching on to the wave now:

Sergio was so well loved here in the E320 suite.

He was loved by Juanita, Elizabeth, Julie, Jessi, and Katie.

It is so unfortunate for his early passing. 

I shall miss him terribly!

We had a lovely funeral...complete with a funeral precession and music...Total Eclipse of the Heart Remix of course.

RIP Sergio RIP!

eliz

fall retreat was pretty amazing

school is alright.

homelife is interesting

this weekend was fall retreat. it was so amazinggg.. God really moved there. =) love yall!

Im sorry to say this, but xanga kills phusebox..... im done here.

Alex

well look at this..two seconds to write!

soo monday i had a kelsey day or as my algebra teacher put it..a mental health day..i made spaghetti watched a movie and sat around in a hammock..it was lovely..

the fall retreat was pretty fun..i hung out with sarah, brian, brittany, and nemanja  most of the time...we had fun.. i love going there to new frotiers because its so pretty, and at night you can see ablout a bazillion more stars than you can at my house..what did you think of the t-shirts?..ha.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine -Aqualung

Hey Kid... Your time has come to change
Though I need you more than I've needed anyone in any way tonight
Hey Kid... I know it won't be long
The Captain's calling...come to see you back where we belong

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Hey Kid...Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign...give me anything I won't tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this my love

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you... he's in love with me... - Firve for Fighting
(thats for you lauren..:-))

life  is good..ill write more when i can..-kels

Its been a few weeks, but im totally better. I feel so free from the finger incarcerations that were my casts(goodbye cobra!).It made me so happy when all you guys posted for me, and all the people that supported were so awesome. Thanks guys!!!!!!!

If you had to lose a limb, what would it be?(arm, leg, head,eye)
later

High Points of Today

• did my homework


• made an 87 in english


• made an 85 in history


• taked in history


• hung out w/ kay after school

So far I have an A in all of my classes (English, Spanish, Algebra 2, and Chemistry) I'm almost positive I have an A in Tech. Marketing, but watch my one B be in Band b/c I didn't pass everything off...which would be my luck b/c I always get an A in there, but we just have to wait and see!!!

Sitting in the computer lab on campus doing just about nothing. I decided I didn't want to stay in my Human AnP lecture so here I be....talking on the phone with about fifty other people typing away around me.

Life is boring.

Hey there!  I am currently in Captain Robb's class, doing something that nobody understands.  Xanga won't work, but this will!

So yeah, Drew got busted today.  A week of O.S.S., counseling, and no telling what else.  I'm so sorry Drew, I'm praying for you.

Hmm....not much else today.  I've got an essay to BS tonight.  Gonna burn the midnight oil!

Hello....
Is anyone in there.
CAN YOU HERE ME!
I've become not-so loud and clear.
Fallen from grace,
resorted to a apitite of cigarettes and beer.
Hidden in the shadows.
in the back of the pack.
scraping the bottom of the mug
the coffee's dried up and my mug is cracked.
So here I am...
Empty and free....
Good to a home that would be good to me.

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"Abba (our Father) just wants us to show up.  We don't have to tarry at the tavern until purity of heart arrives.  We don't have to be shredded with sorrow or crushed with contrition.  We don't have to be perfect or even very good before God will accept us.  We don't have to wallow in guilt, shame, remorse, and self-condemnation...Even if we come back because we couldn't make it on our own, God will welcome us.  He will seek no explanations about our sudden appearence.  He is glad we are there and wants to give us all we desire."

Just made me think...

I arrived at work 30 minutes late on tuesday because the bus drove off as I was got to it. I was there MAYBE 30 minutes and the registers went down. and it wasn't just the registers that we had on my side of the market. . .it was also the registers on the merchandise side of the market. . .so that's 3. . .and then the registers inside the huge merchandise store across from  the market are also down. . .add 8 to 3 and you have 11 registers down. . .

ELEVEN!

talk about unhappy guests.

My package should be arriving  today. . . :: crosses fingers ::  oh i hope it's soon!

Facebook does photos now! It's soooo fun to find pictures other people have posted of me! and of others!

that is all

is terrible. i missed class today because i felt like crap. but art was canceled and we only watched a movie with dsg. Am fending off a fever and wondering how I'll get through my seminar tomorrow...AAARRRRRRGH!!! It's cool though. It's my last seminar class of my collegiate career, so that thought will get me through. We'll holla, i gotta eat and study and rest. and go get some powerade.

love heefus

Hey Guys!! I just want to thank those who put me in their prayers.. Things have gotten to much better since last night!! I had to let something go but I am going to be alright..As long and I have my God and my friends, and my family by my side I will be fine!! Thanks for everything!! I should be home around 12:00 Friday if anyone wants to do something..I know I am eating with my dad and my sister...Then spending sometime with Rach!! But after that I am free!! I will only be home friday!! I leave Saturday to go to the UT vs. Memphis game!! I hope I can see some of my buddies from up there!! I miss them!!! But yeah!! well i am gonna go and read some!! I will write more later!!! thanks again for all the prayers!!!

i finished my paper on keith urban!!!!  ---at 2 in the morning on tuesday
1166 words
yay!!!!

John Witten helped me wash my car yesterday!!! yay!! so now its clean and shiny!!
                 
o so pretty!! hehe....anyway..it feels like summer outside and its november!! kinda weird but whatever
the onion ring blog is coming!! as soon as a get lots of time-or am really bored!!

Hey everybody well yeah I'm updating cause I have nothing better to do well I just did my speech that I've been working on for like a week and yeha I got a 93 on it.. Well yeah I sorda sucked it up.. but its an A but I wish I had gotten a better grade... Well yup I hope my parents let me go to the game on Friday with Beth and on Saturday let me go over there to her house... YUP... and us have some fun.. but idk what there going to say... my mom's still pissed at me.. but yeah.Well I'm out.. LOVE YOU BETH..

-Josh-

SCREAM. I don't understand why dance has to be so difficult. I just wish my dance director could understand why I go home so upset every night, and how much I want to quit.

But I only have 8 more months and I will be done with the studio forever. I will never have to deal with another one of her fits ever again. I have been dancing at that stuido since I was three,  so I will stick it out, for myself...Plus I really want to do my senior solo even if it kills me

If God tells you to be an apple, be an apple.  Don't act like an orange and try to convince yourself and everyone around you that you're still an apple.  We're not fooled and neither is God.

And God is your authority.  Submit to that.

I could write a whole book on the insecurities of females and how they allow themselves to get sucked back into unhealthy relationships time and time again...WHY? 

My life is this giant cycle.  And this time, God will prevail.

The end.

This weekend i'mmmm ;;
Dying my hair back to copper.
Getting Green contacts.
Hanging out with Germani.
Doing nothing on Saturday?

Here is a picture of Martin on the Playing the Angel tour. :) Best songwriter ever, best band ever, best hat ever. ;)

well im confused on a lot of things right now...please pray for me!!!
thanks!!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

Can't Stop Loving You
By Phil Collins

So you leavin' in
the mornin'
on the early train.

Well I could say
everything's all right
and I could pretend
and say goodbye

Got your ticket
got your suitcase
got your leaving smile

Oh I could say that's the way it goes
and I could pretend you won't know
That I was lying...

Chorus:
Cuz I can't stop loving you
No I can't stop loving you
No I won't stop loving you
Why should I?

We Took a taxi
to the station
not a word was said
and I saw you walk across the road
for maybe the last time, I don't know

Feeling humble
heard a rumble on the railway track
and when I hear the whistle blow
I'll walk away and you won't know
that I'll be crying...

[Chorus]

Even try,
I'll always be here by your side.
Why, why, why?
I never wanted to say goodbye,
Why even try?
I'm always here, if you change,
change your mind.

So you're leavin'
in the mornin'
on the early train

Well, I could say everything's alright
and I could pretend and say goodbye
But that would be lying...

Chorus 2x

Why should I?
Why should I?
Why should I, even try?

Chorus
Why should I?
Why should I?
Dunno why
Why should I?
Why should I, even try?

They've played this song on the radio a lot, and it really applies to my situation. Because when he left I tried to pretend it wasn't killing me, but in the end I couldn't. And I can't seem to just forget him or move on. I don't think I really want to anyway, but even if I did I couldn't. Because I can't stop loving him, and as horrible as it sounds, I tried. I was hurting and was trying anything to make the hurt go away. It was so strange and part of me didn't believe it was happening. I kept thinking someone was going to pop out and say gotcha, but they didn't.

Now days more and more girls are concerned with their body image.. even I am most of the time.

The girls think that if their prettier, or skinner, that they can get that one guy they've always wanted. And in most cases thats true. You don't see the most populare gay going out with a not so skinny girl.

But what the girls don't realize is that, if they starve themselves, they don't know how much damage they are putting on their body in the long run.

Being worried about your weight is not a bad thing, but there's a good way and a bad way to solve the problem.

Be happy with yourself, and sooner or later, you'll find the one guy that will be happy with you for your personality not ur looks<3

So what's up with the 80 degree weather? LOL! Oh well God has been gracious enough to remind us of summer! Hey guys, Jennifer still needs prayer! Do you know how I said she had pancreatitis, well they think she has something else along with that now. (I will let you know when we definitely know what it is) Thank you for your continued prayers! I know I can feel God speaking words of peace to my family, and unifying us! So...yestereday I was in my car, and God gave me an awesome illustration. I was in the desert walking. I had sweat pouring down my face. I was on the narrow road that Jesus talks about. Satan was yelling in my ears, but Jesus was leading me farther and farther into the desert, telling me to stay focused on his eyes. When I got to a certain point, I saw a cross ahead. I said, "God, why is there a cross, I thought Jesus sacrificed enough already." God said to me, "Of course He did, but you have to die to yourself before you can take up the mission I have for you." I realize that in a disciple's walk, God will lead that person on a narrow road that leads straight into brokenness. This brokenness leads to the strengthening of our hearts, and the actual reality of who we are. We get so tired, but Jesus continues to inspire us with his words. Satan is there trying to get us to turn around and pursue a life of self righteousness. But if we overcome the sweat and the tears, if we overcome the trials of life, we find a call of the cross in our own lives. We die to ourselves, so that Christ becomes the ultimate hand throughout our lives. He desires to carry out part of his mission through you. Will you die to yourself?

This is what the Lord God says:
he who created the heavens and stretched them out
who spread out the earth and that comes out of it,
who gives breath to its people and life to those who walk on it, I the Lord have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your right hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles, to open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison, and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.                               -Isaiah 42:5-7

hey nerds! im finally updatin!!!lol soo yeah life is pretty much going good!!!lol got an amzing boyfriend! and my team is in playoffs and i dont have 5th or 6th prd today cause of a play!!lol but yeah gotta go get pretty!!i love you baby!

              ~Beth~

First before I blog, I would like to say that this will be my first Blog ever!!!

So I was just sitting here at my computer thinking "wow", I could use something to drink.....so I looked down to find some Orange Juice sitting beside my bed. Only to remember that I had left it out over night and all day. You now see my problem.....To drink or not to drink....what should I do?

Well.  It's been a while since I've updated last so I thought that I would let you guys know what's going on.  I have been doing well recently.  I am getting good grades in college mostly B's but I am grabbing some A's too (don't know if that sounded right).  I think that I am gonna audition for the music program at Lee for this next semester, and hopefully, I'll get in.  I don't know what they are expecting but I think that I'll do fine (I've heard some of the other people that they've accepted......I'll do fine).  But now I need to select my work load for next semester and I'll take a while to think this one through.  Please pray for me cuz that's a pretty big deal.  That's about it!  Leave me some remarks!

It has been like forever since I last updated.
Well just to fill you in:
1) I dont know what I want to do when I "grow up". (I thought I did, but thats a different story, call me sometime)
2) I am going to Trinadad for Spring Break with a mission group from Calvary. It is totally cool.
3) I need Amy Bonin's address....please madam
4) I love you guys
5) I have not talk to yall in a while.
6) Why am I writing in a list.......hmmmm

Well anyways, I am getting baptized on the 20th of Nov. and I am so happy that some of my peeps are coming up to see me.

I wanna talk to Aimee! I have not talked to her in like forever......that was random.

I am burning up because the AC is not on, the heat is and it is like hhhhhhhoooooooottttt!!!!! outside in NOVEMBER!!!!!

Love in Him,
Jason


Unreached People Facts
8,618 people groups (counting by country) have the Jesus Film in their primary language, totaling 5,601,519,150 individuals.

Motivation
"Ascribe to the Lord, O families of the peoples, ascribe to the Lord glory and strength. Ascribe to the Lord the glory due His name."
I Chron 16:28-29

okay soo

last entry... yeah, i was pretty mad.

i'm better though.

School= yuck.
i'm just counting down the days until i graduate.

and i still don't know where i'm going to college... most likely i'll end up at MTSU. but yeah.

random entry.

i had an awesome day today everyone. I'll have to tell it to you later sometime...

-seth

OHHHHH ok.......... SOOOOOO freaking out right now..... you know that peacock mosaic that I helped with on that guitar? (look on my photos page) IT'S ON THE BOOK COVER of the book that's featuring all the "guitar town" guitars =) still freaking out..... but in a good way =D....... I put up an image of what the book looks like. ttyl!
YAY!!!!!!!!

Oh..... and I thought I might add this just for fun =)

You are a
Social Liberal
(61% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(25% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Democrat



Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid
Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

There is no chasm as deep as two who are one, yet are worlds apart. There is no pain so great as seeing the one you love hurt like the earth hurts when it does not rain. There are no tears so big as the ones that fall onto the pillow before a lonely night's sleep.

There is no love as great as that of sacrifice when it is selfless and unassuming. There is no love as strong as the love that endures beyond death. There is no love so pure as the love that is patient and kind.

There is no emotion so geniun as that of laughter when it is seen in a person's eye. There is no sensation so revealing as that of a touch, especially when one finds the person that touches their soul. There is no feeling so overwhelming as that of love when it is expressed for the very first time.

There is no war as powerful as the war fought inside oneself. There is no batter as scarring as the emotional conflict. There is no victory as joyous as that of one who has overcome themself.

don't think theres going to be much more phusebox for me. no one reads it, so theres really no point. however, i will probably update anyway, just because i contradict myself like that.

I feel like a complete jerk guys. I was supposed to pay Seth $10.15 on monday for water bill. He had a sign up for like a week and a half on the kitchen table and I didn't even bother to pay him. I have completely failed at my job of being an honest, hardworking friend. I have a photo of me juming in the air that looks like this:

Except right now, it's strange, I don't feel like jumping in a field of flowers. I feel much rather like this photo here:

This is a picture taken of me when I was sad, like right now. I am so sad that I have not given Seth the money that he deserves. He's so good looking too. It's too bad I don't hook him up with all of my girlfriends. You all should go to his page here and give him the sypathy that i do not feel yet.

Oh well.... At least I can talk about it here on phusebox, openly without too many convictions. I know Christ forgives me, but I hope that Seth can too forgive me.

i'm crying little raindrops.
-john

p.s.
i like emo music a alot.

for some reason im in love with this song right now
&& idk why.



Staring At The Blank Page Before You,
Open Up The Dirty Window
Let The Sun Illuminate The Words That You Could Not Find
Reaching For Something In The Distance
So Close You Can Almost Taste It
Release Your Inhibitions


Feel The Rain On Your Skin
No One Else Can Feel It For You
Only You Can Let It In
No One Else, No One Else
Can Speak The Words On Your Lips
Drench Yourself In Words Unspoken
Live Your Life With Arms Wide Open
Today Is Where Your Book Begins
The Rest Is Still U n w r i t t e n.
--Natasha Bedingfield--

i put some new pics up so be sure & leave some remarks.

well i love you all.
have a gorgeous week.
& be safe.
<3

1)What time is it right now? 11:10

2)Name: Josh

3)Age: 16

4)Birthday: 3/15

5)Birthplace: 29palms, CA

6)Pet? yes

7)If so what and what is its name? Cyrus the dog and Rickenbacker the cat

8)Are you in a relationship? no

9)If so with who? n/a

10)If not why? because i am waiting

11)Had a 1st kiss? nope

12)If so with who? n/a

13)Where? ^^

14)Do you want to get married? yes

15)To whom? a girl

16)Do you want an inside or outside wedding? outside would be kl

17)Do you want any kids? yeah

18)How many? not as many as i once did lol...three? four?

19)What do you want to name them? whatever my wife wants O:-) i personally like the names Hailey, Victoria, Lacey and Rachel for girls, and Gabriel, Josiah, Michael and Calvin for boys.

20)Would you have your kids in public, private or home school them? homeschool

21)Why would do pick that one? because i think its really the only GOOD option

22)What is your favorite color? blue, and green

23)What is you favorite animal? ferret<3

24)Is that the same kind of animal as your pet? i just got rid of my ferret

25)Do you like mountains or the beach? mountains

26)Do you like art? mmhmm

27)What is you favorite art media? music

28)Are you an artistry person? more than some

29)Do you like black and white or color photos better? they're both good

30)Why? n/a

31)Do you drink more soda or more water? water

32)What is you favorite soda? code red

33)Do you drink tap water? mmhmm

34)What school do you go to? i'm sorta-graduated

35)What grade are you in? ^^

36)What do you want to be when you "grow up?" a youth minister, and a music producer

37)Do you like aim? yeah

38)Why or why not? cause it comes built into AOL

39)Do you like yahoo instant messenger? yeah

40)Why or why not? cause you can play games on it

41)Do you like MSN messenger? yeah

42)Why or why not? cause you can change your name and your display picture

43)Which one of the 3 messengers do you like best? i'd have to say MSN

44)Why? 'cause its useful

45)Do you like to email people? most of the time

46)Do you like talking on the phone? to some people

47)Would you meet someone that you met on the internet? lol kind of a moot question...but yeah

48)If so who would you like to met? if i had to pick one person, it would be Christy

49)Have you meet someone you met on the internet in person? mmhmm

50)Where they how you expected them to be? in some ways; in other ways they were even cooler

51)Do you play an intstrurment? ya

52)If so what one? guitar, keyboards, bass, chanter, mandolin, tinwhistle

53)If not what one would you like to learn? n/a

54)Do you like to learn? some things

55)What is you favorite subject? history

56)What subject do you hate the most? math

57)Do you believe in God? yes

58)Do you believe that God works in his own time? yes

59)What is your favorite bible verse? Romans 12:1-2

60)Favorite book in the Bible? Hosea, at the moment

61)Do you believe in prayer? yes

62)Do you need prayer right now? doesn't everybody?

63)If so would you share? sure...

64)If yes what do you need prayer for? ...that we get a house in Chicago soon.

65)Do you like to go shopping? more than i used to to lol

66)If so where? guitar center, cornerstone, and fun malls

67)Do you like to go on walks? yeah

68)What are you wearing right now? jeans, a The Listening shirt

69)What is your favorite outfit? my ratty patch-jeans, RRWC Star shirt, blue chucks, blue shades...::thumbs up::

70)Do you like to wear shoes? when its cold, yes

71)Do you like socks? ^^

72)Do you like to wear no shoes? when its warm lol

73)What is your favorite TV show? none...dont like TV

74)Movie? My Fair Lady

75)CD? A Beautiful Life - Mumsdollar (at the moment) 

76)What kind of music do you listen to? Christian

77)What kind of music that you hate listening to? rap, metal

78)Do you like to read? mmmmhmmm

79)If so what is your favorite book? Lord Of The Rings

80)What book are you currently reading? Jane Eyre

81)Would you recommend that book to someone? aye...VERY good book.

82)Where do you wish you were right now? hanging with my friends

83)Are you there? no

84)Do you wish upon stars? nah...why wish upon the creation when you can talk to its Creator, to quote travis

85)If so has a wish came true? n/a

86)Do you throw coins in to ponds and make wishes? nein

87)If so do they come true? n/a

88)What is one thing you wished you had but don't have? assurance about what i should do in the future

89)Is it something you can get? :: shrug :: if GOD gives it to me

90)Do you miss someone right now? yes

91)Who? erica and the reichards

92)Do you think they miss you? prolly not lol

93)Do you wish they were there right now? i wouldn't wish *here* on anybody...i wish i were there lol

94)Do you like the rain? mmhmm

95)Do you like thunder and lightning? eh

96)Would you dance in the rain? i would

97)Would you kiss someone in the rain? if she were the girl GOD had let me marry, yes

98)Do you like hugs? unless they're totally unexpected...then they throw me off lol

99)Who would you want a hug from right now? no specific person.

100)What time is it right now? 11:28


Now tag 5 people to take this quiz...
1.Stacey
2.Laura
3.Nathan
4. i dont know
5.two more people on phusebox

...then pray for them and you will truly be a blessing in someone's life!

UNION
so, pretty sure my heart is set on union...if you dont know what union is or where it is, it is a christian college in jackson, tn.  im really really excited cause i've met a few students who are really nice; i have a roomate, maybe two, depending on if she graduates early; everything is just seeming to fall into place...i just have to find the means to pay for it...eek!
megan lacy, kyle mann, brittany, and i are all going on friday for a preview day.  starla went back in february, so yeah,  thats the clan.  excited cause megan and i are driving up there together and staying in the same hotel!  yay yay! i love that girl, she's such an awesome christian influence and it's really refreshing to walk into first period every morning and get to talk to her! 

_rebekah

For all you math buffs, this
is fun. Get out your calculators.
Here is a math trick so unbelievable that
it will stump you.

1. Grab a calculator. (you won't be able to do this
one in your head)
2. Key in the first three digits of your phone number (NOT
the area
code)
3. Multiply by 80
4. Add 1
5. Multiply by 250
6.
Add the last 4 digits of your phone number
7. Add the last 4 digits of your
phone number again.
8. Subtract 250
9. Divide number by 2

Do you
recognize the answer???

Go back...
Before the Internet or the AIM
Before playstation2 or X-bOX
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night...
Before you were mistrusted

Way back...
I'm talkin' bout hide and go seek at dusk.
Red light, Green light.
Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Mother May I?
Red Rover
Four square
Hula Hoops
Running through the sprinkler
Happy Meals
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car

Remember...
Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons..Like Hey Arnold and Doug
Or what about legends of the hidden temple, global guts, double dare, salute your shorts, and who, ARE YOU AFFRAID OF THE DARK!
Who could forget Snick
Or the teenage mutant ninja turtles,and Power Rangers,

Christmas morning...oh how i miss the excitement of looking out for santa christmas eve then waking up to presents...so much joy
Your first day of school
Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses
Climbing trees
Getting an ice cream off the ice cream truck
A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers
Jumpin' down the steps
Jumpin' on the bed
Pillow fights

Runnin' till you were out of breath
Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt and you almost peed your pants
Being tired from playin' all day
Your first crush...
Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads up 7-Up" in the classroom...remember that???

I'm not finished yet...
Kool-Aid was the drink of the summer
Giving your friends a ride on your handlebars or spokes
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school
Class Field Trips
When nearly everyone's mom was at home when the kids got there.
When getting high was swinging on the swingset
When $5 seemed like a million, and another dollar a Miracle.
When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool.
When Toys r Us overuled the "mall"

I want to go back to the time when...
Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-moe"
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"
"Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly"
Catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening
It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.
Being old, referred to anyone over 20.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.
Nobody was prettier than Mom
Nobody was cooler than Dad

Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better
It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at the amusement park.
Getting an inch of snow was a dream come true.
Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare"
Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles

remember...............

yeah you heard right, we beat the edmonton oilers, 3-2. for our first victory in 6 games. erat, timonen, and hartnell all scored in the third to help the predators win tonight.

heres a quick run down of the third period.

oilers are leading 1-0 going into the third, and about four minutes in, erat scores over the shoulder wrister, so its tied then a couple minutes later theres a big scramble in front of the net and timonen finally puts it home! so were 2-1 with 1:42 left, but like ten seconds later smythe scores, im like son of a beast, its 2-2.....all the signs are pointing to an ovtertime, but scott hartnell says im tired of losing and scores to make it 3-2.... 22 secs left .... and thats the game! his third game winner of the year and the predators are now 9-2-3. and play the stars on thursday which im going to attend of course.

well the last 24 hours have held a lot of different emotions.
but things have gotten increasingly better. and they keep getting that way as each minute passes.

what a couple of clowns. dont worry fans, we're on our way. you wont have to put up with them much longer. lol

9-3-2.
we
simply
rule

1)What time is it right now? 9:40

2)Name: Dori

3)Age: 19

4)Birthday: 1/18

5)Birthplace: colorado

6)Pet? yes

7)If so what and what is its name? cat-sapphire

8)Are you in a relationship? no

9)If so with who? N/A

10)If not why? i am too ugly or something

11)Had a 1st kiss? yes

12)If so with who? wouldnt you like to know

13)Where? in his driveway

14)Do you want to get married? yes

15)To whom? whoever God wants me to

16)Do you want an inside or outside wedding? idk

17)Do you want any kids? YES

18)How many? how many God give me

19)What do you want to name them? not sure yet

20)Would you have your kids in public, privet or home school them? homeschools

21)Why would do pick that one? more + than the other ones

22)What is your favorite color? PINK

23)What is you favorite animal? cat

24)Is that the same kind of animal as your pet? mmmhmmm

25)Do you like mountains or the beach? mountains

26)Do you like art? YES

27)What is you favorite art media (what it is made out of)? photo or clay

28)Are you an artistry person? i try to be

29)Do you like black and white or color photos better? black and white

30)Why? it much more beautiful

31)Do you drink more soda or more water? soda

32)What is you favorite soda? dp

33)Do you drink tap water? can you say ewwwwww

34)What school do you go to? good ol cy-fair communty college

35)What grade are you in? 2nd year of college

36)What do you want to be when you "grow up?" I dont know

37)Do you like aim? not really

38)Why or why not? not sure

39)Do you like yahoo instant messenger? YES

40)Why or why not? awesome faces

41)Do you like MSN messenger? meh

42)Why or why not? meh

43)Which one of the 3 messengers do you like best? yahoo

44)Why? cuz

45)Do you like to email people? no

46)Do you like talking on the phone? not really

47)Would you meet someone that you met on the internet? yes, but it depends on who it is

48)If so who would you like to met? wouldnt you like to know

49)Have you meet someone you met on the internet in person? no

50)Where they how you expected them to be? N/A

51)Do you play an interment? kinda

52)If so what one? guitar

53)If not what one would you like to learn? guitar O:-)

54)Do you like to learn? depends on what i am learning

55)What is you favorite subject? art ones

56)What subject do you hate the most? academic ones

57)Do you believe in God? YES

58)Do you believe that God works in his own time? YES

59)What is your favorite bible verse? john 13:35 galations 2:20 phlippians 4:6-7

60)Favorite book in the Bible? i dont know

61)Do you believe in prayer? YES

62)Do you need prayer right now? YES

63)If so would you share? ask me

64)If yes what do you need prayer for? see above

65)Do you like to go shopping? oh yeah too much

66)If so where? kohls and walmart

67)Do you like to go on walks? if it is a romantic one

68)What are you wearing right now? black pants with clay all over them an american shirt that has a flag on it abd they names of the states are the stripes my fuzzy lime and pink socks and clay in my hair

69)What is your favorite outfit? my blue lacy tank and jeans

70)Do you like to wear shoes? NO!!!

71)Do you like socks? NO!!!!

72)Do you like to wear no shoes? YES!!!!!

73)What is your favorite TV show? general hosptial, comander and cheif, greaise anatomy, CSI, without a trase

74)Movie? too many to list

75)CD? too many to lisr

76)What kind of music do you listen to? christian and 90s rock music

77)What kind of music that you hate listening to? secular rap and country

78)Do you like to read? no but yes

79)If so what is your favorite book? harry potter ones and the left behind ones

80)What book are you currently reading? just finshed soul harvest

81)Would you recommend that book to someone? yes i would recomend that whole left behind series

82)Where do you wish you were right now? not here......

83)Are you there? no

84)Do you wish upon stars? used to

85)If so has a wish came true? never

86)Do you throw coins in to ponds and make wishes? did

87)If so do they come true? no

88)What is one thing you wished you had but don't have? someone who loves me and wants to marry me

89)Is it something you can get? i hope so

90)Do you miss someone right now? yes

91)Who? my friends who have move away from me

92)Do you think they miss you? i dont know

93)Do you wish they were there right now? a least one of them

94)Do you like the rain? kinda

95)Do you like thunder and lightning? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

96)Would you dance in the rain? mabeys

97)Would you kiss someone in the rain? yeah if it was my true love

98)Do you like hugs? <33333333

99)Who would you want a hug from right now? yes

100)What time is it right now? 958:


Now tag 5 people to take this quiz...
1.Josh
2.Mariah
3.Kayla
4.Dan
5.Erica

...then pray for them and you will truly be a blessing in someone's

life!

Tonight, I started thinking about love. I know I don't have it, at
least not in a romantic sense. I know I don't need it in a romantic
sense, but I still want it, romantically. Why? What's so great about
it? Is it just horomones? Does it really matter? Why does my heart hurt
when I think so much about it? I think about the one and only time in
my life that I was truly in love with a girl. There was no lust, I
remember that much. I could just think about her smile, and I would be
happy. Just remembering that I was the one that she smiles about filled
my heart with an unspeakable amount of joy. It was just us and God.
Nobody and nothing else mattered. Then I remember when our love was
broken. I couldn't bring myself to eat for a week, and even after that,
I had to force myself to eat because food had become tasteless and dull
without her love. This kind of love is what I seek, not physical
pleasure, but spiritual closeness. This is the kind of love that I
cannot find. A few days ago, I helped a friend plan a date for her
boyfriend. From what I heard, her boyfriend loved it. Why is it that I
can help someone plan one of the most romantic dates they've ever been
on, while I'm stuck sitting at home watching TV? I guess it's the same
with lighting, I can light up a great show and give the audience one of
the most spectacular shows they've ever seen, but I'm not the one on
stage. Nobody knows that I spent days, even weeks, staying up late at
night running between the lift and console, focusing and refocusing,
until every light and every shadow is exactly where it needs to be.
When the show opens, all the work that I've poured my heart and soul
into is hardly noticed, and all the glory goes to the actors or
musicians on stage. This is how it should be. The same can be said for
my friend. The same can even be said for my walk with Christ. I must
let my light shine before men, but my light is only a poor reflection
of the true Light of the World. I myself, am doing my job. The less
acknowledgement I get, the more I know that I'm doing my job well. So,
I suppose that I should take heart, and not be concerned with other
people and their love interests, but should do what I know in my heart
that I need to do. What I need to do, now, is to reflect the light and
love of God to all men. Still, it would be nice to not feel so lonely
sometimes.

So work was freaking crazy busy tonight. And to clarify that, crazy busy, is much more busy than just regular busy. Anyways, looks like i'll be pulling an all nighter-the name of the game is now make up-work, from all the school that I missed last week. If anyone is familiar with the play, The Crucible, and would like to give me a brief summary of it, i would probably drive to wherever you are and give you a hug.Oh well, school is school, and you cant let it get you down. on a happier not, i made All State Choir again this year. I am looking forward to it, and i hope its as fun as last year. anyways, ive got to get to work.

Random Thought- Incubus, thats a great band.

and right now = VERY BAD time to get sick.

but since everyone in my family, besides me, has this bug... yeah. pray hard please.

i love you

'ello there. Err...I'm Henri, properly pronounced EHN-ree (it's French), but I don't expect you to call me that. Everyone else addresses me by the English pronunciation anyhow.

feel free to add me. i'll kindly accept.

yay! for those of u who don't kno, i'm gonna finally get to go visit the college in savannah that i really, REALLY want to go to. and me and mama are going friday, we're gonna drive down friday mornin'. AND mom's old friend who she hasn't talked to in forever lives down there and he has a house and an apartment, and he's stayin in his apartment b/c he's renovating it so....we get to stay in his BEACH HOUSE!! what?! that makes me happy.

Again... I really dont have anything to say... but im sure i will at some point... so i will post again then...

like i said on xanga...

i miss lavergne...

i love oakland...

i have the two best fiances EVER

Adam and Tim....

yeh they rock.....gah!!!!

more laterz... life rocks lately...

life seems more and more like a roller coaster lately... ugh...

take the good days as they come i guess....

laterz...

meag

aka squirt or sunshine or msteve

Wow, I haven't written in here for a while.





Nothing much is happening.

.. Wow, whatta life I have.

I have a job interview tomorrow!!! Pray for me... I hope it goes well, because it should be a good job for me with school.. low key, good hours, hopefully good pay!! I hope yall have a great night!! love ya~

-crystal

All that is sweet and delightful in this world, in the serenity of the air, the fineness of seasons, the joy of light, the beauty of colors, is nothing else but Heaven breaking through the veil of this world, manifesting itself in such a degree and darting forth in such variety so much of it's own nature. -William Law

I took this standing on my front porch.

"At first you may not see clearly what God's will is--the serverance of a friendship, the breaking off of a business relationship, or something esle you feel is distinctly God's will for you to do. But never act on the impuse of that feeling. If you do, you will cause difficult situations to arise which will take years to untangle. Wait for God's timing and He will do it without any heartache or disappointment. When it is a question of the providential will of God, wait for God to move."
~Oswald Chambers

*Does a retarded dance* I have a new job!! YAYAYAYAY!! I will now be working at Express!! Good times and great looking guys....mmmm I'm going to get into some trouble!!

so VUMUN was a lot of fun. one of the best i've had so far. i will miss the freshman, the druggies and the hot usn guys. until next time.

school's been great. except for that horrible ap english class. so much work and not enough time.

yeah, that's pretty cool.

just remember 10 days until thanksgiving break. woot. 

i love you guys. 

Did you ever notice that fall is one of the few times when we think that death and decay are beautiful?

I LOVE PLAYING IN THE LEAVES....WHY DO THEY KEEP PILING THEM UP AND THROWING THEM AWAY ON CAMPUS?!?!?!?!?!?

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone. It's not warm when she's away. Ain't no sunshine when she's gone and she's always gone too long, anytime she goes away....good song

...the picture....well, why not?

Best Ben Wicks quote ever:

"I don't break things. I just put my mojo on them and then they don't work no more"

Man I feel slow! So today I got on Facebook and I was like... whoa picture uploads! So I spend like hours uploading pics and everything... and then I realize that I have friends who created albums a couple of weeks ago and I suddenly realized... this has been around... and I totally missed the boat! So anyhow, now I have lots of photos on my Facebook, but of course, Phusebox is still the best in the West! Or anywhere for that matter!

yeah...pretty sure i miss these guys...

[becca]

So my band played the best show ever on Saturday night!!!!!!

 I wish I had a girl to share it with though. I guess I shouldn't complain though, it's my fault I'm so picky. I have tons of girls who I'm great pals with, but I miss having a girlfriend.

Hey! GUESS WHAT?!

I'M GETTING A NEW GUITAR!!!!!!!!

A fender strat baby! I'm gonna get a black one pimp it out, I'm not going to say how though because I don't want anybody to copy it.

K people reading this...I'm out!

I finally got back from Harding yesterday.It was so boring! But it could have been much worse.I'm so tired. Ok i really am not trying to complain. So...anyways...i just finished my homework and i'm kinda bored...hmmm...i'm trying to think of something slightly intresting....um...i lost my shoes...ok this isn't going too well. Last night i was thinking and i realized how much i take for granted the time i get to spend with the people i love and care about. It bothers me that i do that. Life is way too short to take the time we do have for granted. I'm sorry if this all seems so random but i guess what i'm trying to say is that i don't really realize how much that time and the people i spend that time with means to me till i don't have it.I've kinda realized this over the past few weeks and it was really on my mind this weekend at Harding. The good thing about going to Harding was that i got to spend more time with some people in my class and i got to know some people better that i hadn't really talked to very much before. And at the same time i really missed people here too. I know it was only for a few days. Ok...sorry about all that...just kinda bored.

my brother and i were talking about how being a Christian and being a Vegetarian are alot alike. see if you get it....

i'm in quite the somber mood right now b/c i'm listening to Ragtime. Brady gave me a copy so i can listen to it and become a believer lol i like it so far... but we could never do it... i really like the song Crime of a Century lol

anyho, tomorrow is Wednesday. another day.

but i'm planning the Chamber Choir Girls' Sleepover w/ Mary Lauren and that is very exciting to me! ^^

"It's always so simple I could cry, but I want to smile."

-Ayu (Poker Face)

someone in my Ayu forum had this on their thingy and i think- no i don't think- i know itz cool! lol

Maybe we're not too young to be in love, maybe we're just too young to make love work.


                                                                     <3

why does it take guys sooo freckin long to ask out a girl........

Gentle Reminder

Desperately, helplesly, longingly, I cried:
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait."

"Wait? You say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith, I have asked, and am claiming Your Word.

My future and all to which I can relate
hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me to WAIT?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

And Lord, You promised that if we believe
we need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
and grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed, then, to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.

All you seek, I could give, and pleased would you be.
You would have what you want -- But you would not know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;

You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
when darkness and silence were all you could see.

You'd never experience that fullness of love
as the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save (for a start)
but you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that "My grace is sufficient for thee."
Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,
but, oh, the loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!

So, be silent, My child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT."

Not Yet

Sometimes I ask the question, "My Lord is this Your will?"
It's then I hear You answer me, "My Precious Child...be still."

Sometimes I feel frustrated, cause I think I know what's best.
It's then I hear You say to me, "My Busy Child...just rest."

Sometimes I feel so lonely and I think I'd like a mate.
Your still small voice gets oh so clear and says "My Child...please wait."

"I know the plans I have for you, the wondrous things you'll see.
If you can just be patient, Child, and put your trust in Me.

I've plans to draw you closer. I've plans to help you grow.
There's much I do which you cannot see and much you do not know.

But know this, Child...I LOVE YOU. You are precious unto Me.
Before I formed you in the womb, I planned your destiny.

I've something very special I hope for you to learn.
The gifts I wish to give you are gifts you cannot earn.

They come without a price tag but not without a cost;
At Calvary, I gave My Son, so you would not be lost.

Rest Child, and do not weary of doing what is good.
I promise I'll come back for you just like I said I would.

Your name is written on My palm, I never could forget;
Therefore, do not be discouraged when my answer is ... "Not Yet."

What I said yesterday still stands, but -

today was amazingly fun. 

UT Latin Day. 

Latin kids are crazy. 

I feel like I know my first period class better than I'd ever want to...

and we're pretty cool. 

Rident stolidi verba latina.

Christina

my driveway's kindof creepy

wow... it's tuesday.
i miss carly.
my report card should turn out pretty darn well.
this weekend = shopping for new clothes
hurrah!!!

So anyone know when Siegel gets our yearbooks?

It is said that the woman's place is in the kitchen slaving away as they cook for those they love...and sometimes don't love...in other words family. I hate that saying and its meaning...yet here I stand, in the kitchen, typing away at my lap top while it sits next to the stove. And what else?!? Making dinner for my brother and sister but for Cameron across the city(ish) because his mother is out of town and--don't tell him-- he can't cook. Awe well.

Hey yall!

Today i realize that college is way too much money! It is so STRESSFUL! I have to send in this application to be recieve eligibility so that i can participate in College sports. That right there is 50 dollars. I just paid 54.00 dollars for my ACT! The applications! It is absolutely ridiculous! I have been just so stressed!

I am going to chill a Kayla's house and we are going to look at colleges!

I got my acceptance letter to the nursing classes at MTMC! I am so STOKED about it!

If anyone knows about any job opputunities! Please let me know! I am desperate for anything!

umm. homophobia is gay.

gets me everytime.

YAY!

my afternoon was SUPER.

first - my Urban Outfitters order came in... my mom told me not to open it, but i HAD to, but i only got my blazer out. hehe. i showed it to my dad, and he says "it looks expensive" and i was like "oh, it was"

then... Thomas called, cause i told him to, and i told him i still like him... and he said he likes me too... and it's just super!

hehe.

and i just heard something about a model aledgedly snorting cocain... hahaha. those crazy models.

love love.

A&E is replaying episodes of 24 in their proper sequence (funny any other network would play them at random).  So Jeremy and I have been taping them for the past few weeks.  We're trying to get caught up on seasons 2 and 3. 

Amazing Race is tonight. 

Also, I really want to finish the Magician's Nephew (Book #1 of Chronicles of Narnia).

I had a good lesson last night. Good lessons make me happy. Omg, I really want to keep studying with Radu...only not at MTSU. If I knew that he would like stay there forever then I might just go to MTSU, cuz, ya know, he's amazing.

I made onion rings last night (homemade) and they were SO GOOD!!

Ok, so for you horn people who haven't braught Ruth or me your permission slips for our field trip tomorrow (Mady, Kaelen, Virginia, Lauren, and Jordan) if we don't get them TOMORROW you WILL NOT be going. But, we're going to meet at the Subway beside the school at 4 and eat there, then leave for Tech, so you can always bring the permission slips there. Ruth wants us to get there early so our babies can talk to Mr. LaBar about horn stuff.

Yay! I might have a job soon!

so my life has been good lol yeah.......i dont have a boyfriend.... but i think im about to go out with the most amaizing guy ever! so yeah..... well sunday was awesome cause i got to hang out  with my two best friends! ADDIE AND BEN! it was great but yeah well yeah! hmmmmm somebody burn me a cd i have no money to buy a nwe one so yeah....

BEN STEPHONSON....... I LOVE YOU!

its my phusebox punks.
yeah thats right.
well hope yall enjoy.

hmmmm i am so tired of school, i am ready to sleep in, and hang out with my friends whenever i want. UUUUGGGGGG it is so difficult to be a social college student........

Hey guys-

I'm just sitting here bored...with an hour and forty minutes before my next class.  I just got my history paper back...solid B+ without corrections...so that made me feel a little better cuz I didn't have much to fix.  I still have math to work on tonight...plus work...which I'm sure will be a blast.

  I got sick last night and had to leave work early.  Lindsay came and got me and brought me some medicine and a coke and took me back to her house.  She cooked me totally awesome french toast and we worked on homework while her mom watched The Notebook on my laptop. I mean just something that small really hit me hard...because outside of my family I've never had anybody that would do anything like that for me...and I just don't know what to say...I love here more than life itself...She completes me.  I didn't really get much work done but the way I was feeling I didn't care.  It was like the only thing that made me feel better at all was being with her...holding her. It was like I was just aching for her touch...just to hold my hand...anything at all.  I don't think I could live without her..she's like air..like oxygen...I don't just like her...I love her...I don't just want to be with her..I NEED to be with her.

I NEED to be with her for the rest of my life and I don't care who knows it. I just...I dunno..I miss her a lot right now. I should probably be working on math problems but I just can't concentrate.  One more day til I get to see her. 

I picked up an apartment guide out of sheer boredom yesterday. I don't really know why. It's not like I can afford a place right now anyway. I really wish I had a car because I found some really good deals on places in Fountain City, but I'll cross that birdge when I come to it. I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.  I'd rather have a little house to share with my baby than a tiny apartment and live by myself.  Anyway...I'm just gonna get off here and curl up and take a nap before class.  Later.

-Jason

So things have been horrible these last 2 days!! I thought things were good..but apparently not!! I just need some prayers right now!! thank everyone who has been helping me through this..It has been mainly dena but still.... Thank to everyone...

A storm is coming. I can only speculate it's magnitude, but I can comfortably say it is going to flood. I can see the lightning in the distance. I can hear the roll of thunder. It's getting closer and gaining speed. A tidal wave of change is swiftly approaching.

Father, I'm ready to ride.

The other day I started thinking about what I am and what I'm not. It was strange because it just sort of hit me all of a sudden.

I am...
smart.
country.
chicken.
strange.
a girl.
a young adult.
hurt.
sad, sometimes.
missing you more than I should probably.
in love with you even if you don't know it.
German, Cherokee, and Irish.
goofy.
But most of all I am human. (Something I sometimes fail to remember that.)

I am not...
mindless.
fluff. (by this I mean I'm not all giggles)
beautiful.
stupid.
all about appearances.
superficial.
a goody-goody.
perfect.
an angel.
But most of all I'm not a Wonderwoman. (I try to do too much when I know I should just chill out.)

Some of you may know who the person mentioned is. If you do congratulations.

Church on Sunday was awesome.
Wanna know why? Go to my xanga, it's all there.

Question for all:
When was the last time you felt closest to God?

okay, i'm at school.
I'm sitting here with Chris.
Argueing with him who's computer has better color.
my internet still doesn't work.
gahhhh.
okay...i'm really bored.

So like a lot of girls I can't wait to be married and to have kids, well this week I have been getting a taste of what it's like. My roommate and two of our friends volunteered to watch these two kids while there parents are on vacation. Olivia is 2 1/2 and Duncan is 1 1/2. Let me just say that I have not even been doing this a week and I am worn out and dang tired! This morning Duncan decided to get up an hour earlier than usuall, so instead of 6:30 he got up at 5:40 in the morning! He is also starting to throw temper tantrums with anything that I do. Like change is diaper, put him in his car seat etc. Oh and did I mention they are sick. They keep passing a cold back and forth to one another, and now I am getting sick.Olivia has started to become very independant, she has to try and do everything herself, today she wanted to change her on diaper, which would have been fine but we were running late and I did not feel like cleaning up the mess that would create. Oh and her first responce to every thing that I ask her to do is NO! I don't know why but I feel like the 3 other girls have kind of abonded me on this adventure in babysitting and I can not wait for their parents to get back on Sunday. At church on Sunday everyone kept asking if I was ready to be a mom after this weekend, and I was like heck no! But now that I think about it when I do have kids I will  be married so there will be some one to help out with things, and I won't have a job on top of taking care of the kids, and I will love them a whole lot more than I love these two because they will be my own.
So tomorrow morning when I leave them at Daycare I don't go on duty again until Friday morning! I get to sleep in my own bed tomorrow night! Pray for me over the weekend, the weekends are hard with these two! Oh and more joyus news another one of my friends is getting married! My boss got engaged this weekend to his girlfriend Ana. I am excited for them, but my friend Obi and I spent the weekend kind living that Friends episode when Monica get's engaged  Pheobie and Rachel are like " I'm like 50% happy for them and 50% sad that it's not me.
So that's my life right now, probally won't hear from me until next Monday when I go back to my normal life!

my english class just got cancled again, for the second time in a row. i'm pretty sure that entitles me to a refund.

so the fan i bought donw on the strip for like 3 dollars i think has seen it's better days. i might have to invest in a new on, it's so hot in the dorms.

i went down to cookville last night to eat dinner with young, it was some good fun.

i got a quiz in a couple of hours, a test on thursday and friday.

we have a game on saturday, will we win, who knows. i think we're going to loose to vandy.

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FYI - "the whitis" is the head of the english dept here at olivet.  i love her, but she is a very strong, powerful woman.  we all think she deserves a "the" for that.  kinda intimidating...
i am now officially done with my practicum!!  today i don't have class until 1230 - that is unbelievable!!  i didn't even set my alarm!  this is gonna be great...
fall weekend was amazing!  i am SO glad that i finally went!  i don't know why i ever feel llike i can't do things.  God is just really showing me that He can literally be my strength - in so many situations lately. 

Don't panic. I'm with you. 
There's no need to fear for I'm your God. 
I'll give you strength. I'll help you. 
I'll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.
Isaiah 41:10

ps - i'm going home this weekend.  i can't believe i haven't been this semester!  it'll be a real quick trip... but i cannot wait!!!! 

11 DAYS TIL ARUBA!!!!

Yup well, my teacher called my dad yesterday to tell him that I had looked off of my friends paper for an answer and yup my teacher saw me and it freaked me out cuz I'm scared as hell of my mom, and my dad he was pretty cool about it... but idk if I'm really grounded or what I dont think so though.. and yeah. I might even be able to go to the Riverdale game on Friday.. and get to hang out with my baby Beth!! OH YEAH!! lol.. Well I'm out.. PeaCe.. Love You Beth

-Josh-

So I saw today where "Cry Out To Jesus" by Third Day hit the number one most download song on iTunes in the genre of inspirational over, hold on, grab your pants, this may blind-sid eyou..."I Can Only Imagine".  What?  Is this song finally climbing down the ladder of, "The most overplayed song in the world and people still download it" list? 

If you haven't already heard, Jeremy Camp put out an acoustic unplugged album today.  If you are a Camp fan this is a must have for your collection.  This album combines his extrodinary lyrics with his heart-felt passion, overtop of the melodic notes that send you into a deeper passion to understand the creator. The purity of his voice and lyrics is allowed to shine, like light piercing through darkness.  Possibly his best work yet.

Go and get it!!  If you download it from iTunes you get the digital booklet.  $9.99 for 11 great songs and the artwork.  Must have!

So the honeymoon is over and we've started back to working and all the things that happen with "life".  Its kind of a sad thing when you realize that one chapter of your life is over. We had so much fun with our engangement and all the wedding festivities - now is on to married life. Which, has turned out to be quite an adventure as well. We're still learning to live with each other and learning more about each other every day. Its a great thing! Josh's teaching has slowed down a bit, especially when he realized it was almost Thanksgiving and then after Thanksgiving, it wasnt much longer til Christmas break. He's done with Cross Country, which means that he can get home earlier in the afternoon now and we can spend a little more time together. My job is still going well though at times I hate it and I want a normal job, with normal hours. The whole working nights thing is still rough hon my body - I really never know what day or time it is. There's no routine in my life.
 We have been able to start going to a small group at the church we go tto here. It was really nice last week, we got to hang out with people our age and feel like we actually have some friends our here. God has definately been teaching me alot about leaning on Him for companionship and for His friendship. Most of the time its just me and Josh and that is much different for us than when we lived in Murfreesboro and seems we always had something to do or someone to hang out with. So this has been a big adjustment for us. And then there's Christmas - oh, I wont say too much cuase I might start crying - at the thought that I wont be home for Christmas this year witth my family. I'm workign five straight nights from christmas eve on. Josh will be here alone and that makes me sad. And it makes me sad that  I wont get to see my family this year. Okay, I'm done. Well, I just wanted to post a little update on how the Carrolls are - so we're great and would love to hear from you! Keep in touch.

Stephanie and Josh

man i never update this junk.  its not cuz im busy either.  i jus forget.  and oh yeah im reeeal lazy.  cya

Hayrides, hoedowns, and free pumpkins

The phrase "I'm jazzed"

Driving in the wilderness to get to the world's worst family restaurant

Giant ears of corn

Gene Simmons impressions

state magnets

Amanda Hoge

Ellie Lancaster

Nathan Moore

Matt Beck

3 1/2 hours of sleep...totally worth it.