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Hey Y'all! I'm at school bored in 2nd so I decided to write cause I have nothing better to do! I didn't work yesterday but I did go shopping so that was fun! Well, we got report cards today! I made 4 A's and 1 B and 1 C. So thats 400 dollars for me! I'll eventually get it! Seeing my dad says I spend to much money! Well, I have to go do my work now!

                                                                                          Elizabeth

LOL well this weekend was off the hook and yeah well by the way this is Josh updating for Beth because apparently she doesnt want to do it and yeah asked me too... well I'm at school right now just hangin with friends and not doing my work lol.. but yeah me and Beth had a great time this weekend just chilling with each other I went over to her house and she come over to mine and no we didnt do anything but watch movies and eat lol.. but yeah.. well Im out.. LOve you Beth and I'll call you tonight baby..PeaCe

-Josh updating for Bethy POO!!!

True love aint that hard to find, not that either of us will ever know....

Life goal number 12:  I'm going go to New York and live for one year, take in all that I can.

Hey guys, well this weekend was good I'm bored like sitting here in 2nd period not doing anything but chilling and about to do my work arent yall proud and stuff.. oh yeah.. well yeah I'm going to go before i get caught so I'm out.. PEaCe LOVe you Beth

-Josh-

What do these pieces say to you???

"But I escaped from the reality
Escaped from all the pain
I said to myself
"I'll be my ideal self some day
Though I'm far from that now"

-Ayu (Walking Proud)

"It's so fearful to believe
What is invisible and formless
But if you can do so
Don't you feel it's wonderful?"

-Ayu (About you)

im sitting in french class.. not doing french.. and um. its quite exciting actually. brian is writting me mean messages so that is breaking my heart a wee bit. =/

anyway.. i went to Trans Siberrian Orchestra last night, and it was amazing. really. =)

mmk well im off.. i think it might be chris jensens b-day... so if it is.. happy birthday!

yes I do....

Take Care and Keep Smiling...

Danny

Pretty sure that my English class yesturday was too funny. Does it bother anyone else when people don't want to do Angel Tree? It does me. I don't know...I just think it's kinda selfish that they don't want to give $2 or $3 to buy toys for a little kid but they don't mind spending it on a piece of candy. It really bothered me when we were doing to can food drive for the hurricane victimes and they didn't donate anything (and yes, it's the same people who don't want to do Angel Tree). I mean, yeah, maybe they don't have the money, but still- we have till like December, they can save a pocket change until then and buy a doll or something at the Good Will. I mean, I know that I'm going to go out and buy a few toys. I thought it'd be fun to take my lil cousin Jacob with me to help pick stuff out, because he falls in the age range of the little boy we're going to ask for, so he'd know what they might like, and at the same time teach him something about sharing. Gosh...I'm such a Sunday School teacher!

I have my job interview schedualed for Thursday at 4:00. I'm so excited!

so, i'm having trouble figuring out this boy. he tells me he still loves me but his words are emtpy now... maybe single IS better.

A few things...
Firstly, WOW, I can't say enough how much God is in control. His sovereignty is undeniable.


"A saint is never consciously a saint; a saint is consciously
dependent on God."

Secondly, Through tumult and confusion, He is a light. There's no need to be afraid. It doesn't matter how bad things are, He hasn't given us a spirit of fear. (II Timothy 1:7)

"Deranged"

let's freeze the frame,
and let me lose my mind,
this is a grand situation,
we're doing, one more time..
and everyone knows,
that my mind never changed
that i'm a little bit of mindless,
and a bit of deranged...
cause i won't let go of you,
no never, no
you're the best girl of my time...
you're a friend that's true,
yes only you..
to lose you'd be such a crime...
so i'm at it again,
all the games that i play,
let me clue you in,
that they won't go away...
cause everyone knows,
life is boring to start,
and it makes it even worse,
when you don't have a heart.
no i won't let go of you
no never, no
you're the best girl of my time...
you're a friend that's true,
yes only you..
to lose you'd be such a crime...

Ok you guys. You all know what I'm talking about. I write a line of a story and someone rights the next line, then someone rights the line after that and so on. Keep the story going as long as possible, and it can be as random as need be. So here goes the first line of the story:

As I was making my way through the house the other day, I stumbled upon an abandoned fork.

well i guess i lied cause i decided its not worth the effort to post my pics. that stunk, sorry to dissapoint. you could still leave me a nice little message though. see ya.
Ben

Would you like sprinkles on that?

and that's been my week so far.

I ER'd after 1.8 hours on sunday, then managed to spend $28.75 on $114 of disney merch @ property control. YES!!(pics on facebook, b/c i don't want my sis to see, b/c her gift was part of what I got)

I posted some new pics in my photo's of when our neighbor got terminated and we acquired her food, we also acquired food the same day b/c Sammi's Parents were here. so check those pics out, our apartment was a disaster.

Tomorrow night is the Christmas Parade Preview. . .so pics of that will definetly be posted(I'm SO glad I work @ MK!)

work is boring. . .everyone has to work a 6 day week next week(and CP's don't get holiday pay!) but i got jipped b/c my scheduler gave me silly 6 hour shifts. . .those are just a plain waste of a day. . .I could go play in the parks but A. it's not fun alone, and B. every other CM is working 6 days. . .yea. . .refer to A.

that was quite the rant of a post. . .

If you have not read Hodg-e's "Oh to the older Sibling".... you are missing out on one of the best posts phusebox has ever seen.

-Jeff

This was taken from my best friend's xanga (i know, i know)

I am in awe of Jesus' patience with me. He is so totally other from me, so much bigger, and better. Better isn't even the right word because it implies a scale on which we can move up. I can never work up to his level. He's just so different from us in the best way possible. I can't believe His patience. And yet, I know what it is to be caught up and "fallen" for someone. That it doesn't matter what they may do, it just doesn't matter. You think you're angry and have your right to be frustrated. But one subtle smile and your heart melts and it's just all worth it.

To know that Jesus wants my heart, is pursuing and is drawn to me. It's just astounding. I can only continually say, "Rescue me into You and overcome me. You wash over me and flood my defenses. Make me more and more into a lover and knower of You."


Everytime I read his journal, it's just like the breath of God is whispering his love into my ear...if you want to read more of his stuff... Here is Anthony's Journal

Ok so life lately has been very stressful.  The reason is very surprising.  The thing that is supposed to relieve my stress is just causing me more!  No, it's not boys...it's band!  I'm doing Winterguard this year and, don't get me wrong, I love it, but it's stressing me out.  I want to be a natural at it but I'm not.  I feel as if I'm retarded or something because I can't do a simple toss on rifle or flag.  I want to be on rifle so bad since I am a senior and everything but it's not looking promising at this point.  I know I've only been doing it for 3 days but I don't know what else to do.  Practicing last night was kind of helpful but I feel as if I don't have time to practice.  I'm already missing Thursday's practice because of MYO and then I'm missing try-outs on Saturday because of the UT game.  Why do I want to do this?  I'm questioning all my motives.  Ok so then I am stressing about not having time to practice flute as much as I should be.  Mrs. Hahn gave me 22 short things to sight read for Wednesday's lesson and I just looked at them today and now I'm freaking out!  Mid-State is also in about 2 weeks!  I'm so unprepared it's not even funny!  Then we have the issue of orchestra.  Mrs. Mullen wants me and Heather to play at this memorial thing the same day as the Christmas Parade, which counts as our band mid-term.  Also, Mrs. Petrone wants me to play What Child Is This with the choir this year.  Our band concert is also on December 1 and I'm not ready for that either.  Oh yea, then I found out that none of my friends are going on the New York trip this spring.  That irriatates me slightly.  They're the reason I signed up and they haven't even pain and don't plan on it.  Granted, Ben is going, but he and I obviously can't room together and as Christi said, what if something happens between now and April???  So do I pull out of that trip and lose $50 or what? UGH!  How is it that something so stress-relieving can be the main cause of all my emotional and physical breakdowns lately?  To anyone who can give me answers, you are my hero.  I guess I just really need to sit down and ponder everything for a few hours.

AHHHHH i need to vent!!!

i so need a break from school. Im sick of my suite mates i love my roomate but ahhhh

okay im okay lol. just a few more days till fall break then s couple of weeks and it is christmas break i cant wait :) :) :) :) :)

so anyways this weekend was alot of fun, i got to attend the first service at lighthouse and that was great :) im really exited about what all God is doing in our church!

Also today mtcs choir was at Lipscomb so it was great getting to see them. I miss HIGH SCHOOL SOOSOSSOSOSOSOSOSOSOOOSO MUCH !!!!!!!!

Well i have to go do homework. Have a great week

Loveya bunches Jess

i'm swearing off guys.... at least for a while... please someone hold me to that...

mmmmm

I hate being stuck in the middle of my friends... especially when neither of them has ever lied to me. Now I have to try and decide who is telling me the truth and if that weren't enough one of my best friends heart lies on the decision...

today has had it's ups and downs. right now i'm down cause i feel like i'm about to pass out, not good at all

piece

Yeah, I know.  I should be writing those three papers due tomorrow (two of which are in a completely different language).

There was a mouse in my CPU at like 4:30 this morning.  No, it was not attached by a cord.  Little bugger woke me up.  Blah.  Death to all rodents.  I briefly considered turning the computer on and electrocuting it, but multiple unwarranted bursts of reason prevented this.
1.) I'd have small pangs of remorse that would gradually grow as I drank coffee and thus became human.
2.) It'd ruin my computer.
3.) If it didn't ruin my computer, I'd still be scraping fried mouse out of the myriad of gears that make the machine work.  Not exactly the way I'd planned to spend my spare week.
4.) Two words: karmic smackdown.

So instead I reflected on the benefits of cyanide.
Charming.

Okay.  Now I'm going to go write those papers.

Oh yeah, I turned in my two-week notice at Shoney's today.
And Mum says I can attend bartending school so long as Daddy doesn't disown me.  Score!
And my right hand is curiously swollen from two college applications that I randomly decided to fill out last night.  I always knew higher education would come to no good!

....Paper??

Well...where to start...This weekend was good. I went to the UT vs. Memphis game which UT won!! I got to see some family that i hardly get to see and they are some of my favorites!! Got to eat some very good food this weekend and most of all!! I got my new phone!! I am soo excited!! so if you are my friend i need a pic of you so that when i call you or you call me it will show up!! So get ready!!!!! Another good thing is that My bestest friend is coming to see me on Tuesday!!! not as in tomorrow but on the 22...I can't wait!!! We are gonna have fun!!! Then I get to ride back with Dena and then go eat some good food for Turkey Break!!!

For the bad news...It is freaking hot in our room...I mean like almost 80 degrees hot!! So if ya have any extra ice or fans we would greatly appreciate it!! LOL!!! but seriously..it is very hott!!

But I have some letters to write and some sleep to get!! So I will write more later!!

$100 bill illustration

Movie Clip

 

Why are we in college right now? Why is there a sense of
need to go to college to attain a job description with a bigger pay check? Why
is money so important to us? Why do we do what we do for money? We live in a
world that revolves around money - that is why. Without money this world would
supposedly fall apart. This world says that money is the most important thing
in life. This world says that money is what brings us happiness. The world says
without money we will starve and not live in comfort. The world says we should
gain money so we can eat, drink, and be marry. The world revolves around money.
Why do people buy into these lies? We as Christians are called to a higher
calling. We are no longer the world’s, we are God’s people. You see, we have
been tricked into thinking being blessed = God is happy with what we are doing.
There is story after story of godly people suffering and not being “blessed” in
our eyes. God cares more about what we do for him while we are here than what
we can accomplish while here. Take care, protect yourself against the least bit
of greed. Life is not defined by what you have, even when you have a lot. The
man in this story was letting greed for money get in the way of his
relationship with his brother. This man was missing the whole point of life. He
was tricked by the devil into not realizing the real meaning in life. Many ask
“what is the meaning of life?” I say it is to love God and to love others. Or
in short – relationships. We so often sacrifice both of these by giving our
time and energy trying to attain comfort in this world. We go to work every day
using the time God has blessed us with to gain more money. Why? When we die
what good will it do? Fool! Tonight you die. And your barn full of goods – who
gets it? Why then do we so easily loose sight of what really matters for the
sake of gaining wealth and comfort? You see the devil packages this idea of God
wanting only the best for his children in such an appealing package. We are
tricked into thinking what is “best” is what God wants. But what defines
“best?” You see that is where the devil has tricked us. We so often are tricked
into thinking what we think is best must be at least close to what God wants.
But that view is so tainted by the world and its standards that we can be so
farm from what God wants and not even realize it. You see God KNOWS what will
ultimately make us happy. He sees the whole eternal picture. He knows that the
only thing that will matter when we die is the relationships we had. Love God,
love others. So then it is important to shake off the devils schemes and wake
up to what God has shown us. It is not wrong to have money. In fact, money can
be used to further God’s will. But we should be extremely careful because the
devil uses this to twist our views and make us miss God’s will completely thinking
we have it figured out. Ultimately all of this comes down to personal searching
with God. There is no straight answer to how we should attain and use money.
This is a song describing a man that has missed that point in life and has
continued to chase down that American dream and missed what life was. I hope
and truly pray that I will not fall into the same trap the devil has set for
me. I pray that God will keep me focused enough on him and his words that I
will not be deceived by the devil. When I play this song listen to the words
and re-examine what your views are about money.

Well guys.  It has once again been a while.   I think that it is a funny concept in the movie What Women Want.  If you haven't seen it, it is where a guy inherits the ability to hear women's thoughts as if they were talking to him.  A lot of the time I think that this tool would come in handy an awful lot.  Most of the time I just wish I knew what someone was thinking or whether or not what I say is being taken the way I want it to.  I guess that will never happen though.  Just a thought.  What do you guys think about that?  I mean reading people's thoughts would be beneficial, but I guess not when everyone could.  Then there would be no reason for talking.  

You think our school could just fix the freaking fire alarm...

So today I woke up with a swollen eye. It hurt quite a bit, and it wasn't just puffy, it was swollen. I looked like a retarded caveman. So I wen to school with a droopy eye. And I'm still not sure why it was swollen, maybe I hit myself in my sleep. And its still slightly puffy, oh well. Then I was drinking my diet peach snapple, and I dropped it, in the hallway, during break. Glass and Snapple went everywhere, and I felt really bad. Its kinda funny now, but at the time it was just another thing going wrong. And to add to that, and the fact that I blew my tire Saturday and I've been sick, I have tons of homework, and assignments due later in the week, and tests and quizzes. I'm gonna die. But the good part...6 school days left til Thanksgiving Break. And Harry Potter 4 comes out Friday. I'm going Friday night, around 7:15 I think, (heather?) If you wanna go with me, get your ticket, or let me know, heh.

I laughed a lot today, which was good. "Git chur book!!!!" HAH! Yea. But then I got really pissed off at the end of day. I'm just so annoyed with immature and rediculous people. Yea, I'm just being bitchy here lately. Well, its not even that. I just feel like I listen to people a lot, and I never really get to rant about anything thats bothering me without getting interrupted about something that the person I'm talking to did. I guess I'm just tired of being ignored by some friends.  (I mean really, I already apologized, I already felt horrible, you aren't in any trouble, what more can I do, just let it go, please, or do you just like making things awkward and making me feel even worse?)

Drama practice is fun, but you can only be around some of those people for so long, ya know? Then they really start to bug you. I'm just tired of a few people in there who are attention-whores and don't know how to relax or take a joke.

But I'm ignoring that, because today was very good for the most part.

Sometimes I wonder why I decided to take Spanish 3....

oh man.....!!!! so beautiful.

i need to be more spontaneous!

photo from G-MUNY


Well I know when people see entries this long they freak out and tell themselves "yeah right I wouldn't read that if I had all the time in the world." But this is what's been on my mind and i'd like to share it with you, if the 2 people that read this actually care.
    As I sat in bible study with the guys tonight, I began to reflect on the week. I thought about a typical day in the life of Garrett Daniel Haynes, and what that's like. Then I thought about how dry i've been lately. Dry in school, dry in a few of my relationships, but most importantly, dry in the relationship the matters the most. My relationship with my Savior. Then I got to thinking....how is it that I got like this? How are christians that are so hydrated get so dry in the mouth? Then a word popped into my head. Motives. What are motives? For me, a motive is what makes me tick. I evolve myself around it. It keeps me going, fighting the good fight of faith, and gives me something to look forward to. Motive is the extra step that helps to push me over the line.
    I then realized that it wasn't that my motives were wrong, it's that I had no motives at all. Thanks to awesome spriritual leadership by those whos eyes have been cleared by God the father, Clint was able to help me see that God was actually testing me. He seems to be saying "what will you do, when there seems to be nothing but your salvation to keep you going." Let me ask you this question.

What will you do when you're in the trenches, when it all seems so hopeless....and there is nothing within the sight of a thousand miles to bring you hope? Will you keep fighting, or will you give in to the battle that seems so hopeless. Whether you would admit it or not, its a battle that we often do not want to fight. As a good friend of mine said...it is very, very difficult to fight a battle that we do not want care about and do not want to win. If we are apathetic (meaning that we just don't care), then we have already been defeated.

Well that's what God's been laying on my heart. I wish you all a wonderful rest of the week. God bless.

In Christ,
       Garrett

-Mary Lauren

So much has happened since we last met- Went to the mall with Megan,  played Worst Case Scenario (the board game) with Andrea, Matt, Alex, and Jeff on saturday, and went to church with Lisa TWICE yesterday (count em 1,2!). I love Believers' Chapel and I want to go back soon! I have also discovered that dancing to car alarms is fun. I think Alex and Matt also discovered how to have a little too much fun at Marble Slab sunday night- Exhibit A...

Boys acting stupid...ahh the priceless moments...

Edit- All-State + auditioning at 8:33 on Saturday morning = SHEESH!.. and guess what musical we're doing...DUN DUN DA DUN- WEST SIDE STORY!!!

i always wanted to hold your hand

i always wanted to tell you everything is alright

i always wanted to  be your number one

i always wanted to do something right

i always wanted your acceptance

i always wanted you to look at me in that light

i always wanted today to be the day i tell you

that i always wanted to make you love me

-wil sloan

alright so long time no update. sorry guys. i know i entertain yall and life cant go on without reading another one of my blogs. heh, yea right. anywayz right now im probably gonna talk weird cuz im soo out of it right now. cold medicine is very strong by the way. so yea, it sucks, im really sick. thanks a lot anthony!! hehe. ok fine, its not his fault. but we are both sick and its rather funny. and we've been sick for the past week or so..and neither of us have gotten better lol. but at least we're suffering together altho i have it a lot worse than he does at the moment.

ugh, so lets see..my house is already christmas decorated. its scary, and it feels like im walking thru santa clause's house or something. cuz its just...completely decorated. nothing is the same at all. my mom goes all out during christmas but as long as she keeps it all out of my room im fine with it. and as long as i can still find all the food in the kitchen.

im so ready for thanksgiving break. its unbelievable how badly i need that break. senior year is really cool but sucks at the same time, its insane how stressful it is. no wonder senioritis exists. if it didnt then we'd die of the stress. and my dads family is really pissing me off. and since im going to be with them this thanksgiving break my brother decided he wants to show up just to start fights considering theyre all bitching at me bout college crap. trying to tell me im making all the wrong choices and stuff. so my brothers coming so he can back me up and start a whole bunch of fights cuz neither of us give a shit anymore heh. shall be fun:-) i love my brother.

and my birthday is next month. everybody get me a present!! ok im just kidding..but seriously, its my 18th birthday and i have NO idea what im gonna do...:-/ any ideas? oh well, whatever i do, everyones invited! heh.

this past weekend was pretty cool. it felt like the first time in forever that i got to stay at my moms house even tho it wasnt really that long. friday me and my stepdad went out to eat, went to compusa only to find out they lied to me about my stupid video game. they said they ordered it but never did. so i was like "gamestop will have it" and walked out. then we went to blockbuster and rented movies and stayed up watching them. then saturday i slept in and then me and anthony went to the mall and i bought lots of cute stuff. no, anthony was not the bag carrier:-P heh. there was some cool demo game he played in gamestop for a bit and it had awesome graphics but the system alone was like $400 so no thanks. i was also gonna get my ear pierced saturday but anthony said when he got the money he was gonna get either his eyebrow pierced or his lip pierced (i hope eyebrow..that would look cool) and so i decided we'd just go together. i wanna get the cartlidge pierced and i heard it hurts like hell so yea. plus im a wimp when it comes to needles. im extreme needlephobic, i dont even know why i wanna get that done. i want a tattoo as well but im too much of a wimp for that too. i'll make sure i get it one day tho.

so then after the mall we went back to anthonys house and i wasnt feeling well at all. it turned out i had a fever. so i laid on anthonys bed basically the whole time i was there and anthony babied me. i think i fell asleep once or twice even. and we hung out and he made me feel better. then i went home like 1130ish. and once i got home i went to bed.

then sunday i was lazy, i worked about 8 hours tho which is pretty good money. and then watched another movie and did homework and hung out around the house. it was nice just sitting around doing nothing. now im wondering how next weekend will work out. yay thanksgiving break. prestos coming! and i talked to cayden on sunday which was extremely cool cuz i hadnt talked to him in a while. he sent me all sorts of emails and then told me he'd send me one with actual words when hell freezes over, heh. which brings me to this next thing...cayden sent me an email thing and it was really funny so i'll paste it here.

"In a Washington University, a bonus question was given on a chemistry mid-term. Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. It was supposedly an actual question given on a test. and this is what one student wrote as his answer:

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different Religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one relition, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added. This gives 2 possibilities: 1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose. 2. If Hel is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over. So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you" and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct....leaving only Heaven thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."

I met this guy..

   like just now.. this tonite. yea..

at a basketball game or two..

  and he is like woah.

no name tho.. (secret).

  but i got his number.. and a few pictures. on my

phone

eeeeep.

 well cya .. "cause im outtie.. tell these guys somethin they dont kno bout me" -b rabbit from 8mile.. :)

   <3333

edit..

 idk how its gonna work with this one..

hei is bi.. grr.

mmmmm. so like

i was walking the other day

actually i wasn't i lied.

i was just trying to hook you

because i have to have a hooker to get you WHORES to read.

and this is only my second post

phusebox is pretty neat-ohhh gang.

uhhh i got ten kisses today

YEAH GANG~ TEN KISSSES

teeeeeeeeeeeheheeeeeeehehehehe.


i think we should have a laguna beach

except called

"The Boro"

for sizzle ho's.

so uh. yuhhhh. OMGFUCKME

peace.

i have really been praying about something the past week! and God has finally answered it!!!! :)

pretty sure im listening to Christmas Music!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

EDIT~~~i hate reading things that ruin my day! i know it shouldnt get to me!!! and im not! he may get a mouth full this weekend!!!!

The seaweed is always greener
in somebody else's lake.
You dream about going up there.
But that is a big mistake.
Just look at the world around you
right here on the ocean floor.
Such wonderful things surround you.
What more is you looking for?

I keep changing it around; please feel free to give me your advice. I need six more hours of lower-division honors classes... at first I thought I would knock it out with psych and astronomy, and now I'm thinking Intro to EMC and astronomy. Anyhow, here's another schedule I cooked up:

MWF:
Astronomy Honors
Computer Science Orientation

MW
Intro to Electronic Media Communication Honors

F
Astronomy Honors Lab

TR
Dance Appreciation
General Psychology

It's not that I dislike RFC; I have enjoyed myself whenever I've been to the devos, and I had fun on the retreat. The people are really nice. . . so why do I feel so out of place when I'm there? Maybe it's not a good reason, but I think I'd be adapting much more quickly if I had a friend there with me. Savannah and I were talking about it the other day, and she said it was annoying to go to a place to worship and get to know other people, then all of a sudden have guys hit on you. It's true. I love my guy friends. I love meeting new guys. But it's uncomfortable for me to have guys I hardly know suddenly ask for my number and constantly hang around me. I don't know. It's hard. It took me awhile to adapt to the youth group, so I'm hoping that I'll soon get over whatever it is and just enjoy myself at RFC.

photo from Raisin
 West Side Story!

weekend= uh-mazin... yeh... just astounding...

friday... went to my dads... that was rather boring...

saturday... got a message from my ex of like 98437529083745 years and she wanted to know if i wanted to go see a movie with her and amber... and yeh i wanted to cuz like... shes lindsay... and i havent seen her in forever... so i went... and we were gonna see Saw2 but like it said it was sold out right as we got to the front of the line... but we went and saw the funniest movie iv seen in a long time... everyone go see it... zathara... yeh thats right... freakin movie of amazingness... it was freakin hilarious... then me, lindsay freakin duncan, amber arnold, ambers mom/boyfriend/boyfriends sister all went to Chilis afterwards.... so thats freakin cool... then i went home... hehe

sizzunday...went and played bass first service at church... then went to get coffee... then i called Elaine and she met me and the zachmeister and we hung out for like 15 minutes... then i went to church... sunday school... then bass 2nd service... so yeh... sunday night i wanted to have some people up... i had a definate of 45 people that were gonna come over... but lauren wasnt gonna be able to come... but u know me... being the good (official boyfriend) i am... i cancelled my party to go see her.... then i found out that i wasnt gonna be able to make it... but i didnt wanna call everyone again to tell them to come over still... so i just called elaine...and she came over for a few hours... so thats cool

today...i went to school... 1st was boring... Mr T wouldnt let me make announcements yet again... oh well... 2nd period... i got my phone taken up.... again... brand new phone too... just got it friday... ugh... well the freakin teacher didnt take it to the front office like he should so when my mom came to pick me up after auditions for the musical... and she wasnt able to get the  phone when she came and picked me up... so that sucked.... so im goin a couple of days without a cell phone... and that bites.... had auditions for the musical today... i went with drew, sam, and lakeisha... it was cool... but i screwed up the song i had to sing and i thought i was too dramatic for the cold reading... thats y i like monolouges better... but if i make the play then i wont quit choir... but i really really want to... i make take it next year... who knows... but yeh...

tonight... YoungLife...its gonna be the shizz... its at the bowling alley... i like bowling... tehe... lol... but yeh... ill update maybe when i get home... u guys all rock... even you Lizbit... <--random phusebox friend name>

i should probable stop making long posts... you people never read them

sooooo hmmmmmmm? princess just a little, maybe? i couldn't be ANY happier with EVERYTHING right now! i love you all so so much!.....love you!

 

 lol the kid.

My heterosexual life mate that none of you ohs kids know C-town <3

We All Know Who This Is 4

Hey everyone stop complaining . I actually got one of these things I will use. I am in LOVE, and very much. They are almost as good as my oxygen.

...Why do I wish to fire myself?  Well, quite honestly, I did the completely wrong open lab assignment for my assembly language class, turned it in, got a 40 out of a 100 (I don't know how that happens), and can e-mail the correct assignment to my teacher tomorrow for a hit in points.  So, what is someone like me to do?

...Procrastinate.  And make a random post.  Tee hee.  Like there was any other option.

Yeah, I've decided that there plain isn't enough time in the day to spend time with all of my friends in a day's worth of time.  It was good to be with some old Riverdale friends today, but, y'know, I also desired to hang out with Graham/Amy/Anna and peeps today, too, not to mention my long-time friend who's currently out of college due to lack of funding and caring, and Clint.  Can't forget Clint.

I was gonna go to the Rec Center today and run on the treadmill a good bit, as well as have a relaxing swim afterwards, but, y'know, it's nigh-impossible to program while running.  Reading is do-able, but it's difficult to keep logical thought and plan out these programs I have to do while running and maintaining speed and wiping sweat from my face...  Not to mention that it's plain impossible to combine swimming and programming.  Computers and chlorinated water...  Yeah, they get along 'bout as well as a Nazi and a Jew during World War II.

Anyways...  Yeah...  Procrastination...  I think I'm done with it for now.  Unfortunately, programs don't make themselves...

...I need a new major.  One that doesn't suck.

song of the day: purple snowflakes by Marvin Gaye
i'm in the Christmas spirit.

went home early from skew, today.
i was all.. sickly.
so i layed on a heating pad just for kicks
put on some polar flece pants with monkeys on them
and watched a buttload of TV

t'was nice

TOMORROW'S MY
B I R T H D A Y <3

Most toilets flush in E flat.



Approximately 75% of human poop is made of water.

Three years of a person's life is spent on the toilet.

well i am sure the hell sick now... it hit me all at once.. i started to get one last week but i got a lot of it today... i think it was b/c of my mother and my almost sister(best friend kaylah)  but still i am sleep... ache... and what else...shity.....well i am out

                    meg

my cousin chris playing w/roxy his rout* rilier*!!

chris and i horsing around in the pool!!

 . . . but he actually THANKED the Doctor!  Maybe he's a bit delirious. (?)
Harrison has an ear infection.  It's been at least a year since the last one and I'm thanking the Lord for that!  Jeremy and his 2 brothers had tubes by their 2nd birthdays, so we knew from conception H. would be prone to otitis media. Once we pump the meds into him, he should be much better. 

weekend was uhMAZING.





but not gonna write about it cuz i know you wont read it.
haha
but life is good.
&& im happy.





[the video stopped working, sorry this entry is now pointless]

pretty sure my mom's taking me to get my permit tomorrow...
that is, if i finish studying that stupid book...
went online to take the practice tests, and only missed like 4 or 5...so i need to work on that stuff...

hope everyone's having a good day...
mine was awful, but we won't get into that...

mucho love!
[becca]

so, i'm at school right now and i just finished my essay.
the general topic was "relationships". but i decided to
write about "for love or money".

i'm curious. what would you choose?

Do you ever have people come into your life that immedialtely push all of your buttons. Being around them is just excruciating more because you are just two different/opposite people.  Well in the last year i have had those people in my life... and it has amazed me how now looking back I see those people in a totally different light.  They are the people that have humbled me and taught me the most.  They have so much to offer and I was to quick to judge them.  I admire them beyond measure.  THe things that pushed my buttons are now what makes them endearing. I love how God used those people to teach and grow me... HE's much bigger then me!!!

So I Thought:

All your twisted thoughts free flow to
Everlasting memories show soul
Kiss the stars with me and dread the wait
for stupid calls returning us to life
We say to those who are in love, it can't be true cause we're too young
I know that's true because so long I was so in love with you, so I thought

A year goes by and I can't talk about it

On my knees in a dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
I'm not faithless, just paranoid, of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods you learn too much to hold
Believe and not, and fight the tears with pretty smiles and lies about the times

A year goes by and I can't talk about it
The times weren't right and I couldn't talk about it

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you remember me

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you remember me

And I'm praying that we might see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between

^^^ my song of the moment ^^^
Only sung by the BEST band EVER!!! Flyleaf!!!

Even if one doesn't want to come to terms with things that are uncontrolable, it is life to do just that. To the one who touched my heart....maybe it was at the wrong time.

I NEED YOUR HELP....Aright so here is the deal.  I have a sermon that i have to do tomorrow in class and I need some ideas. I need any ideas yall have or insights you have about the scripture. Please do not feel like your comment wont help I can use anything. THANKS!!!!

So here is the text :    Luke 12:13-21

13 Someone in the crowd said to him, "Teacher, tell my brother to divide the inheritance with me."

14 Jesus replied, "Man, who appointed me a judge or an arbiter between you?" 15 Then he said to them, "Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions."

16 And he told them this parable: "The ground of a certain rich man produced a good crop. 17 He thought to himself, 'What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.'

18 "Then he said, 'This is what I'll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods. 19 And I'll say to myself, "You have plenty of good things laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry." ' 

20 "But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?'

21 "This is how it will be with anyone who stores up things for himself but is not rich toward God."
(from New International Version)

Thanks again. Anything you can think of that would make this text into an interesting sermon. Thanks

²⁴However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

Agreed

official countdown: 3 days!

that's right, i'm gonna be back in alabama in 3 days.  kinda hard to believe, it's been over 6 months since i left. 

the rumor is that the kids only have half a day tomorrow at school, that would mean no after school program tomorrow...right? 

So, all weekend, I've been showing the British International Debate Team around Nashville in anticipation of today. Today, we debate each other. Yikes.... I'm gonna go now and start praying that we don't get destroyed too bad.............

-Jeff

i haven't been on a computer in so long i'm starting to lose my typing skills...

great aunt died last friday, causing much family drama, people calling each other greedy, people being complete idiots...is it any wonder i tend to distance myself from them?

moved into my new apartment a week ago yesterday. it's great; people have been so generous, just giving me things they were going to throw away - i got a bed, couch, two chairs, two tables, a set of dishes, a microwave, and a co-worker is letting me borrow her 37" TV and 6-piece surround sound system indefinitely. thanks everybody!!

so i was getting a little overwhelmed with all this stuff, because i was just going to have it haphazardly sitting around, but mary lane decided to be her wonderful self and decorate for me. so now i have a nicely arranged and cleaned apartment. thanks babe :)

mary lane also took pictures of it, so i'm goig to get her to send them to me and i'll post them here for all to see her work. i swear to god it looks like the paper street soap company, but more nicely decorated.

i have been on the computer in phillips bookstore for entirely tooo long now. bye everyone.

--mike

Hey everybody well I'm so freakin bored here at school and yeha have nothing to do if you knwo what i mean... and yeah... well i had a good weekend spent the whole time with my girlfriend.. and yeah i went over to her house on Saturday and then she come over Sunday and NO we didnt do the diry lil deed.. lol were not going to either.. well yeah but i had fun spending time with her... and yeah.. WEll love you Beth

-Josh-

Well, I think the title pretty much sums it all up! I'm here at school bored in 2nd. I'm suppost to be working on teacher web pages but oh well! None of my teacher have sent me stuff I need! So I can do anything! Anyways! Saturdays needs to come faster! I can't wait to go back to Chattanooga! Its going to be so much fun! I also get to drive there! Well, at least half way! So that should be fun! I'm so glad I finally get to see my best friend again after 2 years! Well, I really don't have much else to say except that I'm still mad about the Vandy game! Well, I'm out for now! I'll updat again after work maybe!

                                                                                            Elizabeth

as soon as you're born you start dying,

so you might as well have a good time.

                               -cake

Hey

So i just joined this place like two seconds ago.. Pretty cool ...So i am going to have to tell all my friends to get one of these things! So my weekend was awesome but, then it was bad too. I skated like all weekend and now i hurt all over!!

heres my fav band!

Wow i love these guys!! Yall have all got to go get their greatest hits cd!!!!

hey hey...im at school...bored to death by mrs. daniels in chemistry...why school?..im mean seriously...why am i here?.

anyone know  what a alpha particle is...me either....

-kels

well, we're in the home stretch of this whole first semester thing, and i have to say the college is a lot better than high school.  i mean, sometimes i miss the warm nutruing environment of a high school where teachers actually care if you pass and people want to help you succeed, but it is all part of growing up.

on a lighter note, going to nashville with justin vance on Saturday night and dancing with attractive Belmont girls beats the heck out of watching Saving Private Ryan, which is what i would have done if he hadn't called, so thanks.  oh yeah, and for all of you country music lovers out there, keep an eye and ear open for a cool cat named Cannan Smith who quite possibly could be one of my favorite country voices, and i've only heard him play a handful of times, he rocks

ral

Sing like you think no one's listening.

So it's over! Here is the recap of what happened after my post on Tuesday. Wed. night Duncan started a fever that lasted until Saturday mornign around 3 am. The high point of the fever was Thursday night/ Friday morning when he was up for two hours just wailing, and there is nothing that I could do for him. Even though the fever was gone he was still pretty miserable for the rest of the weekend. Sunday he woke up around 5:30 but fell back to sleep around 7 which I would have loved to do also but his sister was then up and I had to hang out with her. Yesterday directly after church we got home and the parents had returned. Everyone was happy. I went home and took a 3 hour nap. I am now sick from those kids and I feel like crap! 

All state audition at 8:09 am Saturday! thatz exactly 2 hrs after i turn 18! o well...

Oh yeah, phusebox is cool.  I can update from Mrs. Daniel's class!

Huzzah for physics.

Ooh!  Class rings during lunch today.  Score.

Report cards tomorrow.  *cries bitterly*

    NO CLASS THIS MORNING!! Ok I am a bit excited. I convinced my teacher that since she had a meeting and class was going to be shortened anyway and because we needed more time to work on homework, she should give us today off. That is my morning class, and I am going to do my service hours later, so I don't have to be in till 12:40. So that means I have more time to do my homework and can actually do a fitting job.

    So why is it that we can see so plainly what our friends are doing that is stupid... we see what they should do... Do we do things that, in others eyes, are as plainly wrong, or harmful? (extremely exasperated sigh)... sometimes I wish I could make others decisions for them. Not all the time of course, but only in the case that I know that they are seemingly unfit to make a proper one, and that they are going to hurt themselves.

Dell DJ or Ipod

my mom can get a discount on the Ipod, and my sister's boyfriend can get me a discount on the Dell DJ, so they are the same price. They hold the same amount of music...Basically they are the same. What do you think?

Here are a couple of really random quotes that got my attention this week!

Obey God in the thing he shows you, and instantly the next thing is opened up. God will never reveal more truth about himself until you have obeyed what you know already...This chapter brings out the delight of real friendship with God.
-Oswald Chambers

Michael: So, Amber, what's going on at YWAM?
Amber: God is doing amazing things, but let me tell you! Someone stole my pop tart!

LOL! It was so random, but I thought it was pretty funny when she said it. Anyways how is everybody? I hope that your obedience to God will bring you a few steps closer to Him this week! I love you guys!

Michael

so i'm baaaaaaaaaaaack. though i didn't wanna come back lol. we stayed in Bryan's beach condo an it was AMAZING!! it was three stories (it was narrow so it wasn't totally huge) but it had a deck on the roof! like the bottom floor was a garage and a hallway, then u go up the stairs and it's three bedrooms and two bathrooms, then u go up some MORE stairs and it's his kitchen and living room. but over in the corner above the stairs is a little loft. and it has this metal ladder going up and then u get to the loft and there is another ladder with like four or five steps and you open up this hatch and voila u are on the roof. and he's the only one in his condo complex thingy that has a deck on the roof. and he's totally across the street from the beach so it was amazing to go up there early in the morning. and did i mention it was on an island? oh yeah, complete with a lighthouse and everything. it was great. but yeah, if i gush ne more now u guys are gonna shoot me tomorrow. so i'm gonna go watch grey's anatomy.

yeah... simply amazing.

But yeah, if you didn't go to it, well, you should have

it was at the exit in for $12 = 4 bands:

Lenny, some weird band, The Spill Canvas, and Gratitude....

pretty sure that I got 3 videos of TSC and a picture with the lead singer... yay.

but yeah, i'll update later with some pictures to share with.

let me clear my throat.
this is D in for L...i dont do this much.

i capitalized L and D because theyre the only letters that matter.

i tend to talk too much which is why i dont do this but im going to share something with you...what we think of as "reality" basically consists of a chain of moments
that we experience. these moments are infinitely small and pass by us
instantaneously so they all kind of blur into one. once a moment is
experienced, it disappeares forever. however, if something is
infinitely small timewise, it is basically nonexistent. so, individual
moments are essentially nonexistent, but added together they form what
we consider reality. so if reality is the culmination of basically
nonexistent instantaneous moments, does that mean that it is also
basically nonexistent? our states of being and thought disappear just
as quickly as they emerge, even if there are a large number of them to
make it seem like it takes a long time. my point is...dont waste time reading this...if you die now the last thing you did was read this...and that just sucks...

DL out.

Happy 19th Birthday Christopher!

photo from kim

"We should battle through our moods, feelings, and emotions into absolute devotion to the Lord Jesus. We must break out of our own little world of experience into abandoned devotion to Him. Think who the New Testament says Jesus Christ is, and then think of the despicable meagerness of the miserable faith we exhibit by saying, "I haven't had this experience or that experience"! Think what faith in Jesus Christ claims and provides— He can present us faultless before the throne of God, inexpressibly pure, absolutely righteous, and profoundly justified. Stand in absolute adoring faith "in Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God— and righteousness and sanctification and redemption . . ." ( 1 Corinthians 1:30 ). How dare we talk of making a sacrifice for the Son of God! We are saved from hell and total destruction, and then we talk about making sacrifices!

We must continually focus and firmly place our faith in Jesus Christ— not a "prayer meeting" Jesus Christ, or a "book" Jesus Christ, but the New Testament Jesus Christ, who is God Incarnate, and who ought to strike us dead at His feet. Our faith must be in the One from whom our salvation springs. Jesus Christ wants our absolute, unrestrained devotion to Himself. We can never experience Jesus Christ, or selfishly bind Him in the confines of our own hearts. Our faith must be built on strong determined confidence in Him.

It is because of our trusting in experience that we see the steadfast impatience of the Holy Spirit against unbelief. All of our fears are sinful, and we create our own fears by refusing to nourish ourselves in our faith. How can anyone who is identified with Jesus Christ suffer from doubt or fear! Our lives should be an absolute hymn of praise resulting from perfect, irrepressible, triumphant belief." -oswald chambers, my utmost for his highest (november 13)

wow. i read that and just had to post the enitire thing. that hit me really hard. i have to hand it all over to Him. and why should i even get wrapped up in it all in the first place. oh, what a silly daughter i have been. let your hearts be at rest

"Lift my hands and spin around,
See the light that i have found.
Oh the marvelous light
Marvelous light
Lift my hands and spin
See the light within..."

Someone send me a message
and prove that having one of
these is worth it. K, thanks. :]

Good days make great memories.

I think people are giving me a bad rap just because I have long hair. I dunno.. It's really bothering me. Can I get some input on this? Anyones opinions on guys with long hair?

wow was it busy

friday: went and hopefuly got my car fixed the went to the bank and then got gas for 2:23....:-) then i got lunch ar buger king then i went to school and went to tourting and hopefuly passed my test.....then after my 2 classes i came home and stared working on rearanging my room.....then saturday i worked on my room and kinda my computer then i went to the CEF banquet and that was fun i got to see some people who i havent seen in a while but didnt get to talk to them cuz we had to leave early......then i came home and did my bible lesson and went to bed then today i got up went to church and taught we made chocolate pudding and i helped in childrens church.....then i went to life group and had an awesome lunch and watched the last part of the 40 days of communtiy dvd and cactus was falling alseep it was funny cuz he was snoring..and my feet dont touch the ground in the chair i was sitting in it was interesting..lol... and then  we prayed for everyone in our group that was awesome....then i came home and almost got my room dom i just need to put the little stuff away now i need to write the rough draft of my paper......eeeekkkk...well i better go do that laters peeps...

<3 dori

photo from Jade

Well,...*sigh* I have returned...I am of course very happy to be back in the states, but I have some very intense jet lag to get over before I will feel normal again, it is a way strange feeling this jet lag, and not one that I am very fond of. I don't know what time it is and it feels like time to eat at all the wrong times...whew, it is an odd feeling...but anyway, got to see some of my buddies at church this morning and it was sooo great to see you guys!!! I will post pictures soon of my last backpacking trip that BTW ROCKED!!!  I can't wait to hear from everyone how they are and what is up and please don't forget about me, I would really like to be involved with everyone again, I missed you all, and I will post again soon when I am not so funny feeling!!!

I organized a car bash for homecoming week...Marie enjoyed it...

I love my peppermint patty...

Maegan looks like Lenny Kravitz...

*sigh* good picture. i love neon.

Finally, a picture of Marie, I like this one, it shows a naivity and vulnerability...

So yea, today was short, and weird. I find myself thinking. Where did the day go?

So I watched the movie "A Lot Like Love". Yea I know, A cheesy movie with Ashton Kutcher thats very stereotypical and over-done. But I'm a sucker for a romantic comedy. Anyways, it got me thinking...about plans. I'm currently in the middle of a struggle of trying to plan out my life. I get sick to my stomach because I dont have a plan for myself. I dont know what I want to do, or what to major in, I dont know what college I want to go to. I mean the only reason I want to go to Chicago is because I love the city. I dont know where I want to live when I graduate college, I dont know if I'm even going to leave this town. I just dont know anything about what is to come. But the point is that the movie made me realize something about focusing on plans. You can't plan out your life. At all. Sure you can "decide" on what you want, but you have no clue what will happen in the future that could disrupt your plan. Some people might even throw good things away and ignore oppurtunies and miss out on love and life because their sucked into some plan. Well you know what? Fuck plans. I'm switching my priority from planning out every detail of my life, to enjoying life while I'm living. I blew my tire the other day, who's to say that a car might run into me tomorrow and kill me. I'm not stressing out about whats to come, i'm going to enjoy the now.  I'm so happy when I relax and think about how much I love who I am and who I surround myself with and what I'm involved in. I'm happy. So screw everything else. I'm just going to go with what life throws at me. I'm going to do good in school, but not if its going to make me miserable, because there's more to life than that.

*sighs* yeah.

This weekend I did a lot of thinking. And I'm excited to see how I'm living in the next few weeks.

Now that i'm not planning what is to come, I'm more anxious for whats going to happen in my life. Ah...excitement.

I fooled around with my space again, and its just too confusing for me.

I want my own house, so I can decorate it, and live it it, and make it my own. I just want to be on my own. I know I'm not that restricted on anything, but I feel restricted. Mostly just because I have to rely on so many people. I just want to be fully independent. And out of high school!!! I'm so over it. Over high school. I'm done, lol. I just want it to be over!!! Why didn't I graduate early?!?! lol. Life is so much more than high school, oh so much more.

I get lonely easily...I want to find someone.... Its just difficult...

This is for all my friends who have been heart broken or who are going through the hurt. This is to each one who knows the fear and doubt.....

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

On a much happier note life is wonderful no matter the hardships I go through. I have come to terms with the fact that life is life...we never know what things will be put in our paths and the best way to over come these things is to trust God and go head first into things...love you all!

~Stephanie

Well, the word intimate used to present the idea of sex in my mind, this is no longer the case.  Today Judge Don Ash gave the sermon at church.  He talked about how he had an intimate relationship with wife, just like he had one with God.  It got my mind turning, and it's good.  I realized I had a relationship with God, but not the right kind.  I don't go to God with everything, I need to change that.

hey guys,

this boy at my school, Michael Baxter, had a wreck tonight. all i know is that he was life-flighted...so PLEASE pray for his healing! thanks!!! -R 

HOW CAN A WOMAN NOT LOVE THE LORD?

*He is a gentleman
 
*He is confident

*He is a provider and
protector

*He is rich and powerful

*He owns everything

*There is nothing He wouldn't do for me

*He perfects all things concerning me

*He anticipates my wants and needs

*Every day He tells me and shows me how much He loves me

*I don't have to perform in order to earn His love

*He keeps all of his promises

*No one can influence His opinion of me

*He is the ultimate intimate partner

*He can't "disown" me because I am a part of Him
 
*He prepares a table before me

*He covers me and doesn't expose me

*He wrote His loving words down so
that I'll never forget how He feels about me!

now THAT is a REAL MAN

So everything is getting better. :-)

Except for school. Urgh, so much fucking pressure that I'm going to blow my face off.

I went to go see Rocky Horror Picture Show with Mark, mabye we're just stupid, but we understood like nothing. Maybe the movie is better? That's what the guy in front of us said. But it was pretty interesting and hilarous too see all the people bring props and act out the plot in the audience. This old man got up and started dancing. It was seriously the funniest thing I have seen in a long time.

Anyways. Thanksgiving soon! I love Turkey day! I get to go to Nashville and see all my crazy musically inclined family. So basically I spend the day listening to them all 'jam'. It cracks me up.

Yeah, so that's it.  

I had a rather eventful day. So I woke up and went to church like normal when I'm told that he (Mr. Kinney) needs the parts that I've been working on for a week that night. So I came home and pooped out a different part every 30 minutes. (I wrote each part off the score because I go much faster when I handwrite rather than use the computer.) So I got all the woodwind parts done and I still have to do the brass/percussion. But I can do that tomorrow at school. I went to the Cannon County Arts Center around 1:30 to see Annie and it was really really cute. I went back to church when I got back to give Mr. K the parts I pooped out and did some rehearsing for the Christmas production. Came home, watched The Object of my Affection and here I am now. It was a confusing movie...kinda. Lol.

Tomorrow? I have no idea...

So i totally cut my hair today, and i love it, it is a lot shorter and a lot thinner.... man i feel better....... i helped out the preschool today by babysitting from 2:15- 4:15 it was a wonderful experience, i had fun with the kids, and got to watch veggie tales.... thats another one of those simple things in life, it was an over all great day, except for this one thing kept crossing my mind through out the day....mmmmmmm idk how to get rid of it, i have been praying about it..... idk.

so this weekend has been crazy... to start with friday i went to starbucks for the first time...and i saw andrea and nick there...that was fun....

then saturday i had to go to this weddin that is like 2 hours away... so i got all dressed up and went to the middle of no where...and i get to this wedding and the groom (my cousin ) comes up to me in blue jeans and flips flops and a shirt... i was like well maybe hes not dressed yet... but he was like "do u like me outfit this is wat im gettin married in...." hrmmmm..... yeah..... and then we get seated and this lady goes up to the front and begins to yell directions to us ... and then sits down and yeah... the music comes on... usually the play... that song.... like here comes the bride right...? yeah well they played STAR WARS... as they walked down the isle....yes they played star wars....

the weddin itself last 13 mins... and then the receptions they served like beany weanys and chips and dip and sweet tea... it was weird... and instead of decoratin the tables with flowers they used goldfish... which later someone stood up and said that he would pay ne one 5 dollars to eat a fish and the groom and the best man(both were my cousins) and some other guys ate the fish... thats when i decided to leave...

i left the weddin juss to come home and somehow get talked into goin to see a play called "the last of the red hott lovers" i guess the name says enough... yeah it was 3 hours long and it was about this man that tries really hard to cheat on his wife with 3 ladys two of whom wer obesse and the last one looked like a man...i dont kno why i went... but after the show me and nicky sat in jimmys car and read a book the he wrote in 1st grade about how to make a homemade clown wig.... heheh it was really funny...

1st period makes my day every single day now... cuz right now im in charge of makin a snow man outta styrofoam ... and i get to shape it with a blow torch... mmmmhhhhhmmmmm and a styrofoam melter.... ahhh its soooo exciting!!!!!

tuesday is the xc banquet... i have to dress up once again... but it should be alot of fun... un fortunatly im prolly goin to cry... crin gives me a headache... but it should sitll be fun...

well hope everyone had a great weekend !!!!

Hey hey! What's up ya'll!? Not much here! Just thought I'd update, while I actually 1) have time and 2) feel like it! :D So how's everyone back in M'boro?! I miss ya'll tons! And would love to hear from you anytime you would want to talk! Sure, I might be busy...but I can call back! ;) Anyways! It's been a pretty crazy and busy week! We talked about Injustice this week, and it's crazy about some of the things that actually go on in other countries...and kinda sadly, how Americans are apart of this injustice! For example...the sex trade industry! At least in Thailand and Camobida(sp?) the girls who are sold for sex are anywhere from the age of 5 and up to the teenage years! And they say most of there "customers" are Americans! Which is fueling them to do this even more....because that get lots of there money this way! It's a sad thing, really! I guess it really opens my eyes to think about all the times complain, go to sleep at night, have my mom take care of me when I'm sick, etc.! There's someone out there that doesn't have that! A 5 year old girl that is being sold for sex! Blah! I hate to think about that! And I'm not saying...feel guilty for having the things God has blessed you with! Cuz He wants you to enjoy those things and praise Him for it! But I'm just sayin is all!

Anyways, this next week should be good, we're going to have a lady talking about our destiny! And finding out what that is! So, I'm excited for that! It should be good! But anyways...I'm going to write some of the songs on here, that've really stuck out to me lately! Awesome songs!! But anyways, I love ya'll tons....and I'll talk to ya'll later! Take care and stay strong!

"Thank you for hearing me, Thank you for loving me, Thank you for finding me, Thank you for saving me, Thank you for hearing me!"

"I love you Lord, And I lift my voice. To worship you, Oh my soul, Rejoice! Take joy my King. In what you hear! May it be a sweet, sweet sound, In your ear!"

"You are the way, the truth, and the life. We live by faith, and not by sight. For You, we're livin' all for You. One Way.....JESUS! You are the only one that I could live for!"

ok so yay!!! i got a call back from AE but i was the youngest one there so who know's if i'll get the job!? i am to the point of not caring anymore! i figure if i get the job great!! but if i don't then i can go to the VA and volenteer or i can go tryout for a play! who knows i just take it all by the moment!!

<><Liz

            God brings people in and out of our lives all the time. Some we hate some we love, some we will remember forever and other we can't even remember there names. So I'm talking about a group of people that some of us love with all of our heart and yet we take for granted too often. I'm talking about the bossy know it all older siblings. Who would pick on us time and time again. The brothers and sisters we couldn't even stand being seen with, and yet, the ones we love.

             The impact an older sibling has on the younger is truly indescribable. They understand they're supposed to take care of the younger and watch after them, but there is so much more then that to being a older brother or sister. They show us things in life we'll have to go through before we get there. Even if you're nothing like your older brother or sister, you're still going to go through some of the same things they went through. We get to see them succeed and fall. Go through good times and bad, love and heart break. Weather its learning how to get around your parents or life lessons of what to and not to do, they show us more then they know.  They never asked for this challenge, it was just given to them. You see God knew that we, as the younger siblings, couldn't have made it with out someone to look up to and guide us. God knew they could help us in ways that no one else ever could.

So I just felt like taking a minute and thanking the older sibling of the world for leading. The help that ya'll give to us is more than ya'll could ever understand.  But even more than that, I want to thank God for giving me an older brother. A brother to love and to hate, to laugh and cry with, to fight and make up with, to play with and to run from, to grow up with and to leave.

So it's decided.  Before I die, I'm going to Ghana and taking the canopy hike (the longest canopy trail in the world), visiting elephants, going to a cocoa farm, and escaping near-inevitable snacking by crocodiles.  Because everybody makes random resolutions to visit Africa for no apparent reason.  Oh yes, and we're stopping by Africa's diamond mines, too.  A weekend jaunt in Morocco, couple days in Egypt....  Oh yes.  It's going to be awesome.

I'm also going to start watching the Travel Channel more often (the infamous spawn site of this hairbrained adventure).  *Grins*  "Look!  Killer elephants at dawn!"  Exciting.

Okay, really random, but why, dear God above us, WHY do ballroom dancers wear such horrid, tacky, most of all downright trashy costumes??!  They live on this planet (or so I thought), they know that eight strips of fuschia jersey do not a dress make.  How do they keep from blinding small children?  Do they employ rubber cement to make certain every tawdry strip stays in just the right crucial place??  But -- but -- Whyyyyyyyy?  *Weeps, tears hair*  ....*Gnashes teeth*

Exhibit A (Or, more appropriately, XXX) -- Even Paris Hilton would blush.

It's like a loincloth with too much fabric someone tied to a swimsuit top.

It's times like these which convince me that yes, God really has forsaken us all.

Okay.  I'm done.  Apologies.  I'm off to drown my sorrows and horror in decently-cut attire.