I thought it might be time to update!! I can't believe it almost time to go back to classes!! I am actually kind of ready, crazy I know!!! I am looking for a new job. I really need one fast, so if anyone has any suggestions...then as long as it is not fast food I'm all for it!! I'm ready for 2006 and what it might bring..I'm hoping it was better than 2005!! Anyways...I updated so you should leave me comments and tell me about jobs...Love you Guys!! 

So... Im here... I've been on 4 planes today and 5 different flights, in the air for 14 hours, in 5 different airports and now im finally resting on a couch in the BCM that's about 2 feet too short...

At the moment i can barely concentrate to type these words, so if they are a little nonsensical, nevermind... but i wanted to write and say that i got here.

All is well at the moment. Les and I are both a little overwhelmed by everything. After all, it has been an emotionally traumatic day! But, God is faithful!

It's times like this when I find awesome peace in the fact that this life is not about me. I took a short glance at the sunrise as Tracie was taking me to the airport this morning and He settled my heart with that thought.

I love you guys and i covet your prayers!
All In...

thought life was going great

but then i realized it throws stuff at you that youd never expect

you lose friends... you gain them.. but the difference is i still love them with every beat of my heart.. every friend ive lost.. i still love.. and the 2 that are drifting away are pretty much my life.. and i will be lost without them.. so yeah

what do you do in a situation like this?

when you dont realize what your doing wrong.. you dont see it.. and you stand your ground because you think your right? but the cost of standing your ground is losing 2 of the greatest friends you have ever had? what would you do?

so now i sit here wondering.. what if i did lose them? what woudl become of me? i would actually probably be nothing..

but now one of my main goals is to strive to prove them wrong.. i will succeed in writing and singing music.. im more mindset on that now that they said i couldnt.. i all the sudden feel over my stagefright.. and im gonna make it.. you watch and see...

i love you 2 with every thing in me.. but i really dont think i deserved it at all. I would give my life for both of you.. and you dont even realize it

love you forever

jessica

thought life was going great

but then i realized it throws stuff at you that youd never expect

you lose friends... you gain them.. but the difference is i still love them with every beat of my heart.. every friend ive lost.. i still love.. and the 2 that are drifting away are pretty much my life.. and i will be lost without them.. so yeah

what do you do in a situation like this?

when you dont realize what your doing wrong.. you dont see it.. and you stand your ground because you think your right? but the cost of standing your ground is losing 2 of the greatest friends you have ever had? what would you do?

so now i sit here wondering.. what if i did lose them? what woudl become of me? i would actually probably be nothing..

but now one of my main goals is to strive to prove them wrong.. i will succeed in writing and singing music.. im more mindset on that now that they said i couldnt.. i all the sudden feel over my stagefright.. and im gonna make it.. you watch and see...

i love you 2 with every thing in me.. but i really dont think i deserved it at all. I would give my life for both of you.. and you dont even realize it

love you forever

jessica

I love my mom but I hate how she tries to pressure me all the time.  Then she wonders why I'm leaving for college???  Geez!  It's like I can't make my own decisions.  I am 18!!! Sheesh!

 GOD IS THE MAN!!!!!!!!

pretty sure iv been praying for this for four long years

my best friend gave her life to Christ tonight!!!!!!

life is good. ETERNAL LIFE IS BETTER!!!!!!

-milly

So I haven't posted in a while, I thought I would.

Sunday I went to church and played, normal. We played this pretty song for the choir special. I came home and took a nap for like...3 hours then ate lunch. I pretty much stayed on the computer the rest of the day, I was like...tired but not sleepy, you know? Oh well.

Today was a pretty normal Monday. Test in English, worksheets in Theory...we're learning about triads in 1st and 2nd inverstions, fun stuff, huh? We good notes in Government. I like Mrs. Dorris, she's a fun teacher. We played Mr. Medford's music in band today, I'm not really too passionate about his music.

In 5th period I spent a lot of time in my practice room, because I have auditions comming up and the 3rd movement isn't the greatest...but it was really good today, I'm happy with the progress I made today. Mr Rhody brought me a package and it was the Nocturno from Midsummer's Night Dream! I was exctied. I hope that he does it with concert band so I can play the amazing horn solo...otherwise it would be Ruth and Jordan...boo, lol. Nah, I'm just upset that they parts aren't in E...because none of the horns at my school know how to tranpose and it kills me that I have to do it all the time. Oh well, sucks for them when they have to do it at sight for the first time. E is an easy key to transpose, so it's not that bad.

I went and ate at Camino Real with AJ and his friends again today, it was fun. I think next time I'm going to conform to the group and get a plate of rice. Lol, it's fun. Afterward we (AJ and I) drove to Smyrna to drop off movies at Hollywood Video, then came back. Since then I've watched CSI, Family Guy, Ellen, and now Tyra Banks. Lol, I have no life...

Jazz band tomorrow...horn choir Wednesday...set up/rehearse for mid-state (blah, second band) Thursday...more rehearsal/sushi with Lindsey on Friday...concert and movie (?) on Saturday...

Tootles!

Ahhhh crazy.....just playing....life if awesome!

Some questions.....what do you guys think about me? just wondering?

what do you guys think about God or Christianity in the class room?

so random thoughts......sorry!

..Me...the one the only....Leah

Ok, well today is Monday. Mondays are usually really boring but today wasn't. So, I was like about to pass out in the middle of english class. Why? because we are reading this book called "The Devil and Daniel Webster" and the narrator has like this monatone (sp) voice. AH. Then, I went to Chemistry figuring that we are going to do some chemistry work BUT.......WE GOT TO WATCH CSI!!!! Ya baby! The best show ever! Then comes Algebra 2 with Coach Reavis and that is good except that we always do work on Monday. So, I had to take notes and do an assignment which was really easy but it makes it harder to do it and stay awake. So, 6th period rolls around and of course it is Spanish 2. I have nothing against speaking spanish cuz i like it but just the fact of learning it sucks. But she gave us no hw. SO I HAD NO HW TONIGHT!!! Praise God!!! So, We had a co-ed bible study with Clint and Rachel. It was amazing! It kicked all of us in the butt and told us what we needed to hear. So.... My plan afterwards was to ask Garrett Haynes to the DBS formal with me. Olivia and I went to Wally World last night and got the things that were necessary for the job. We cyran wrapped his car and put diffrent colored streamers on his car and used silly string, shaving cream, and car paint writing markers to write on his widows. IT WAS AMAZING!!! I wrote Formal? - on the back of his car. Then, the rain came......it smeared the markers on the window but the back window stayed so that was good. Ben said his face was priceless when he saw his car!! I wish i could have been there but i couldn't stay. So, he called me and was like oh my gosh......he believed Ben in what he said about the Blackman vs. Siegel game and he totally believed him!!! It was great. Special Thanks to Olivia and Ben also to everyone who knew that was going on after bible study and what i was going to do. Anyways, He said YES so we shall go to DBS Formal in our nice dresses and tuxes (sp). SO, to the conclusion TODAY WAS A GREAT MONDAY!

Shout out to: OLIVIA: ~ Bake the cake, put the icing!!! La Siesta!!!! lol!

MEREDITH <><

Hey Encounter is back  tuesday at 7:07  for all college and career age 18-30 come and bring your friends!

 So we had bible study tonight with clint and it was great.... It was good to finally get back to meeting on Mondays because we haven't done it for so long but it was great to finally meet with strong believers in this world when everything seems to be so so dry.. But through christ I will always be filled up and thats all that matters. My bible study leader went to passion this past week in Nashville and said it was nothing short of incredible. I wish I could have gone but God has a reason for everything and even though me and my friends didn't get to go I know God is still gonna bless us in amazing ways and I can't wait to see what it is but anyways I hope everyone is doing great and I hope you guys have a wonderful rest of the week.

                                                 IN CHRIST john

" I can do all things through christ who gives me strength" Phillipeans 4:13

so i made a really long post about how OAKLAND OWNED SIEGEL!!!... and it had some about me and jessica hangin out... but i clicked the "publish entry" button and my internet clicked out... so it erased the whole thing... but yeh...

ill keep it shorter... cuz everyone and there mom has talked about siegel being dominated...

i hung out with jessica saturday... it was much needed "jess~n~chris" time... shes like... for real the best thing in my life... EVER!!!... look at her... shes like... the best best friend ever...

now theres a best friend i would give my life for... and trust my life with... shes the best...

sunday night... i emailed jessica gaines tellin her exactly what she needed to hear... shes concieted... she only thinks of herself... she treats jessica hunter (my best friend) like shit... and she needs to get over herself... and oddly enough... she got mad about it... haha... well seriously... me and her are close... but she doesnt need to treat my best friend like shit... but yeh... anywhoo...

im gonna go... so just think of your favorite song (prefferably from a guy) and this is me singin it to you...

ok new game... the 75th comment gets my guitar... well... one of them

I ate my first school lunch today! Isn't that exciting?! i've never really had the courage to go get a school lunch because i've never done it and i've always just brought a lunch from home. So, as a senior, i finally did because i wanted mashed potatoes. how exciting... i took a picture...

COLD

Sometimes i feel cold

In the middle of the night

When i'm sittin at home

Or if i'm ridin the freight

Almost every night

I wake up, the light on

Sometimes i see stuff

But their not enough

Only God can be my heat tonight

You are the day to my night

You are my heat every night

You are the happiness in my pain

You are the one that keeps me sain

There are shoes no one can fill

The honorable might without the kill

There is a place no one can go

Until the Son of the Father says so

I can feel you at the window sill

I love you so, and i hate you nill

  Sry most of the new pics are of ML, i dont take many pics of myself!!! TTYL

Wow, I completely suck at this thing. Anyways, not much has been happening. I learned to crochet, which of course most of you know because as of late, I'm ususally crocheting. Ummm, school's good, West Side Story is coming right along....and that's about it. Hope everyone has a good week!

Hey guys, definitely just finished working and I am exhausted.  Worked 10 hours today on my feet ringing up people who really have no business being in college (nevermind).  I did have a really embaressing (and hilarious) moment moment in the bookstore today.  A guy asked me out.  My face started turning bright red and it was embaressing.  Sylvia was trying so hard not to laugh (she reminds me of my grandmother but that's another story) and it was so hard for her not to do, she had to turn around.  As soon as he left we burst out laughing, poor guy.  Takes a lot of guts to randomly ask a girl out but it's so embaressing for me.  And not only that but he got rejected which was worse.  Once again...poor guy.  I feel bad for him, he tried so hard.  Ummmm, that was about the only exciting thing that has happened to me in a while.  I did eat a lot today and have Taco Bell.  It was delicious.  I am about to go to bed.  That's how exhausted I am.  So, nighty night!

these are great, actual quotes from the courtroom. I couldn't stop laughing.

• Lawyer: "Was that the same nose you broke as a child?"
  


• Witness: "I only have one, you know."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Now, Mrs. Johnson, how was your first marriage
  terminated?"
  


• Witness: "By death."
  


• Lawyer: "And by whose death was it terminated?"
  

---

• Accused, Defending His Own Case: "Did you get a good look at my
  face when I took your purse?"
  

The defendant was found guilty and sentenced to ten years in jail.

---

• Lawyer: "What is your date of birth?"
  


• Witness: "July 15th."
  


• Lawyer: "What year?"
  


• Witness: "Every year."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Can you tell us what was stolen from your house?"
  


• Witness: "There was a rifle that belonged to my father that was
  stolen from the hall closet."
  


• Lawyer: "Can you identify the rifle?"
  


• Witness: "Yes. There was something written on the side of it."
  


• Lawyer: "And what did the writing say?"
  


• Witness: "'Winchester'!"
  

---

• Lawyer: "What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?"
  


• Witness: "Gucci sweats and Reeboks."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Can you describe what the person who attacked you
  looked like?"
  


• Witness: "No. He was wearing a mask."
  


• Lawyer: "What was he wearing under the mask?"
  


• Witness: "Er...his face."
  

---

• Lawyer: "This myasthenia gravis -- does it affect your memory at
  all?"
  


• Witness: "Yes."
  


• Lawyer: "And in what ways does it affect your memory?"
  


• Witness: "I forget."
  


• Lawyer: "You forget. Can you give us an example of something
  that you've forgotten?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "How old is your son, the one living with you?"
  


• Witness: "Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can't remember which."
  


• Lawyer: "How long has he lived with you?"
  


• Witness: "Forty-five years."
  

---

• Lawyer: "What was the first thing your husband said to you
  when he woke that morning?"
  


• Witness: "He said, 'Where am I, Cathy?'"
  


• Lawyer: "And why did that upset you?"
  


• Witness: "My name is Susan."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Sir, what is your IQ?"
  


• Witness: "Well, I can see pretty well, I think."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Did you blow your horn or anything?"
  


• Witness: "After the accident?"
  


• Lawyer: "Before the accident."
  


• Witness: "Sure, I played for ten years. I even went to school
  for it."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Trooper, when you stopped the defendant, were your
  red and blue lights flashing?"
  


• Witness: "Yes."
  


• Lawyer: "Did the defendant say anything when she got out of her
  car?"
  


• Witness: "Yes, sir."
  


• Lawyer: "What did she say?"
  


• Witness: "'What disco am I at?'"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you
  check for a pulse?"
  


• Witness: "No."
  


• Lawyer: "Did you check for blood pressure?"
  


• Witness: "No."
  


• Lawyer: "Did you check for breathing?"
  


• Witness: "No."
  


• Lawyer: "So, then it is possible that the patient was
  alive when you began the autopsy?"
  


• Witness: "No."
  


• Lawyer: "How can you be so sure, Doctor?"
  


• Witness: "Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar."
  


• Lawyer: "But could the patient have still been alive nevertheless?"
  


• Witness: "Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and
  practicing law somewhere."
  

---

• Lawyer: "How far apart were the vehicles at the time of the
  collision?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "And you check your radar unit frequently?"
  


• Officer: "Yes, I do."
  


• Lawyer: "And was your radar unit functioning correctly at the time
  you had the plaintiff on radar?"
  


• Officer: "Yes, it was malfunctioning correctly."
  

---

• Lawyer: "What happened then?"
  


• Witness: "He told me, he says, 'I have to kill you because you
  can identify me.'"
  


• Lawyer: "Did he kill you?"
  


• Witness: "No."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Now sir, I'm sure you are an intelligent and honest
  man--"
  


• Witness: "Thank you. If I weren't under oath, I'd return
  the compliment."
  

---

• Lawyer: "You were there until the time you left, is that true?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "So you were gone until you returned?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "The youngest son, the 20 year old, how old is he?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Were you alone or by yourself?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "How long have you been a French Canadian?"
  

---

• Witness: "He was about medium height and had a beard."
  


• Lawyer: "Was this a male or a female?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Mr. Slatery, you went on a rather elaborate honeymoon,
  didn't you?"
  


• Witness: "I went to Europe, sir."
  


• Lawyer: "And you took your new wife?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "I show you Exhibit 3 and ask you if you recognize
  that picture."
  


• Witness: "That's me."
  


• Lawyer: "Were you present when that picture was taken?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Were you present in court this morning when you were
  sworn in?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Do you know how far pregnant you are now?"
  


• Witness: "I'll be three months on November 8."
  


• Lawyer: "Apparently, then, the date of conception was August 8?"
  


• Witness: "Yes."
  


• Lawyer: "What were you doing at that time?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "How many times have you committed suicide?"
  


• Witness: "Four times."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Do you have any children or anything of that kind?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "She had three children, right?"
  


• Witness: "Yes."
  


• Lawyer: "How many were boys?"
  


• Witness: "None."
  


• Lawyer: "Were there girls?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "You don't know what it was, and you didn't know what
  it looked like, but can you describe it?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "You say that the stairs went down to the basement?"
  


• Witness: "Yes."
  


• Lawyer: "And these stairs, did they go up also?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Have you lived in this town all your life?"
  


• Witness: "Not yet."
  

---

• Lawyer: (realizing he was on the verge of asking a stupid
  question) "Your Honor, I'd like to strike the next question."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Do you recall approximately the time that you examined
  the body of Mr. Eddington at the Rose Chapel?"
  


• Witness: "It was in the evening. The autopsy started about
  8:30pm."
  


• Lawyer: "And Mr. Eddington was dead at the time, is that correct?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "What is your brother-in-law's name?"
  


• Witness: "Borofkin."
  


• Lawyer: "What's his first name?"
  


• Witness: "I can't remember."
  


• Lawyer: "He's been your brother-in-law for years, and you can't
  remember his first name?"
  


• Witness: "No. I tell you, I'm too excited." (rising and
  pointing to his brother-in-law) "Nathan, for heaven's sake,
  tell them your first name!"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Did you ever stay all night with this man in New York?"
  


• Witness: "I refuse to answer that question.
  


• Lawyer: "Did you ever stay all night with this man in Chicago?"
  


• Witness: "I refuse to answer that question.
  


• Lawyer: "Did you ever stay all night with this man in Miami?"
  


• Witness: "No."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Doctor, did you say he was shot in the woods?"
  


• Witness: "No, I said he was shot in the lumbar region."
  

---

• Lawyer: "What is your marital status?"
  


• Witness: "Fair."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Are you married?"
  


• Witness: "No, I'm divorced."
  


• Lawyer: "And what did your husband do before you divorced him?"
  


• Witness: "A lot of things I didn't know about."
  

---

• Lawyer: "And who is this person you are speaking of?"
  


• Witness: "My ex-widow said it.
  

---

• Lawyer: "How did you happen to go to Dr. Cherney?"
  


• Witness: "Well, a gal down the road had had several of her
  children by Dr. Cherney and said he was really good."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead
  people?"
  


• Witness: "All my autopsies have been performed on dead people."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Were you acquainted with the deceased?"
  


• Witness: "Yes sir."
  


• Lawyer: "Before or after he died?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Mrs. Jones, is your appearance this morning pursuant to
  a deposition notice which I sent to your attorney?"
  


• Witness: "No. This is how I dress when I go to work."
  

---

• The Court: "Now, as we begin, I must ask you to banish all
  present information and prejudice from your minds, if you have any."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Did he pick the dog up by the ears?"
  


• Witness: "No."
  


• Lawyer: "What was he doing with the dog's ears?"
  


• Witness: "Picking them up in the air."
  


• Lawyer: "Where was the dog at this time?"
  


• Witness: "Attached to the ears."
  

---

• Lawyer: "When he went, had you gone and had she, if she wanted
  to and were able, for the time being excluding all the
  restraints on her not to go, gone also, would he have
  brought you, meaning you and she, with him to the station?"
  


• Other Lawyer: "Objection. That question should be taken out
  and shot."
  

---

• Lawyer: "And lastly, Gary, all your responses must be oral.
  Ok? What school do you go to?"
  


• Witness: "Oral."
  


• Lawyer: "How old are you?"
  


• Witness: "Oral."
  

---

• Lawyer: "What is your relationship with the plaintiff?"
  


• Witness: "She is my daughter."
  


• Lawyer: "Was she your daughter on February 13, 1979?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Now, you have investigated other murders, have you not,
  where there was a victim?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Now, doctor, isn't it true that when a person
  dies in his sleep, in most cases he just passes quietly away and
  doesn't know anything about it until the next morning?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "And what did he do then?"
  


• Witness: "He came home, and next morning he was dead."
  


• Lawyer: "So when he woke up the next morning he was dead?"
  

---

• Lawyer: "Did you tell your lawyer that your husband had offered
  you indignities?"
  


• Witness: "He didn't offer me nothing. He just said I could have
  the furniture."
  

---

• Lawyer: "So, after the anesthesia, when you came out of it, what
  did you observe with respect to your scalp?"
  


• Witness: "I didn't see my scalp the whole time I was in the
  hospital."
  


• Lawyer: "It was covered?"
  


• Witness: "Yes, bandaged."
  


• Lawyer: "Then, later on...what did you see?"
  


• Witness: "I had a skin graft. My whole buttocks and leg were
  removed and put on top of my head."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Could you see him from where you were standing?"
  


• Witness: "I could see his head."
  


• Lawyer: "And where was his head?"
  


• Witness: "Just above his shoulders."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Do you drink when you're on duty?"
  


• Witness: "I don't drink when I'm on duty, unless I come on duty
  drunk."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Any suggestions as to what prevented this from being
  a murder trial instead of an attempted murder trial?"
  


• Witness: "The victim lived."
  

---

• Lawyer: "The truth of the matter is that you were not an
  unbiased, objective witness, isn't it? You too were shot in
  the fracas."
  


• Witness: "No, sir. I was shot midway between the fracas
  and the naval."
  

---

• Lawyer: "Officer, what led you to believe the defendant was
  under the influence?"
  


• Witness: "Because he was argumentary, and he couldn't
  pronunciate his words."
  

wow.. it's been quite a while, guys.
i don't know... i've just not been into phusebox or anything that much, lately. crazy, i know.

so i think i'm going to visit Belle Aire again this wed.
eric(weezer) called me about an hour ago and asked
me if i wanted to go. I think i'll catch a ride with Cari<3

fun times.

so i was going through my pics today and some memories were tickled..

i look sooooo gross. camping. i look like a greasy sherrif. anyways.. Bre and Erica are some of the coolest people i know.

of course jesus goes to finding steve cunningham shows. i miss going to the cherry tree every weekend..

wow.. this was at 8th grade graduation.. i miss mr leach.

AHHH look how freshman i am!! i look like a baby! and ste's hair's blonde and ashee's hair is sooo loooongg! this is probably my favorite picture ever.

so the faint shirt i made...[cause i'm supagangsta.]
i smelled like bleach all day.
i guess that makes me hardcore.
or bleachcore. rar! i just started a stupid new scene.
i felt like being rediculous today,
so i took a stereotypical myspace picture.
haha.
lame.
[i am so bored]
someone, let's do something.
please? i <3 you.

we had to describe ourselves in a word or phrase in english today.
i came up with "eccentrically eclectic"
because i am crazy & all over the place.

i win.
the end.

ok!!! well we lost friday and everybody has acted like a bunch a spoiled little babbies both @ oakland and siegel. There are certain things that need to be taken up, but fighting at the end of the game thats stupid. i really don't give a crap whether oakland started or not, but we just need to put it behind us and look foward to the next game. Its just a silly rivelary. you might say you just go to siegel, but people come on EVERYBODY was acting like buttholes at the end of the game and this really did not need to happen. Like this thing with rebekah thats something that needs to be taken care of with administration. THERE WAS NO REASON TO GET MAD OVER SOME RIVELARY! i am a big siegel nation person but i have came to my senses and cam up with that. Let's see who else can come to their senses and see that this is just a game!!!

i feel as though i am losing friends. I'm not sure if it's something i've done or we just don't have anything to talk about anymore. So many things have changed since summer and some have been good and others not so good. It just makes me really sad.

Slim Fast doesn't taste half-bad.  Now lets just hope I don't get sick of it.

Physics is bad for your health.  I don't care if you don't believe me.  I know it's true.

And APUSH is possibly the most miserable experience of my high school career.  I hate hate hate hate hate HATE it.  Damn you Siegel kids who made it seem all appealling-like.

*curses mightily*

I have to call all my platoon leadership tonight and remind them to get their counseling done.  Craaaaaaaaaaaap.  I don't wanna.

Dress shopping tomorrow.  Cross your fingers that they have the right colors in the right sizes.

So I found out that just because you are a graceful dancer, doesn't mean you are a graceful ice skater.

Take a guess at how many times I fell.

It is amazing how in one day things become as wonderful as they were. In 6th period Jeff and I were in Salty's room alone, and we talked a little bit. So, everything is good in that department. Then at track practice today, which team was also on the field? BASEBALL! Who is on the baseball team that I might happen to like, again? Well, if you don't know that, well, you can ask me later. And also since it was the first day of track, that means my favorite high in the world...RUNNER'S HIGH!!!

1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.
4. POST A PICTURE OF SOMETHING:

photo from lizbit

Well today was Pajamma day at school. Its Spirit week. Guess who won king of Pj day? Yea I did believe it or not. I wore my cool guy footed pajammas. It was amaing. Everyone loved it. Thanks Benny for suggesting I wear them.

The Braves 40 man roster :

Coaches :

  

84 days till opening day against the Los Angeles Dodgers on April 3, 2006

 

I don't like contacts. They are evil. They fold over, end up on my eyelashes, and do all sorts of other crazy things other than end up in my eye where they belong.

So where do y'all go to buy sunglasses? I need some (that aren't perscription) now that I am supposedly wearing contacts.

Today at work I discovered that there's a guy at MTSU named Michael W. Smith. How ironic...

And today is the Phantom's special day...

Hello Loves*

Soo....how's everyone been?Good I hope...I have been good execept the fact that I feel like I am talking to myself when I leave an entry thing...b/c no one I know has one!Well anyways here's whats been going on in my life:School*We get Report Cards tomorrrow ((I am gonna fail like ALL my classes))lol.Friends*have been good I have recently learned that I have became friends with people I thought that I would never be friends with && I have lost friends that I thought that I would never lose (( well I guess that life for ya!!))Boys:well no new boys in my life except I seenthis REALLY HOTT guy the other day but he probably doesnt even notice me....but this guy named Travis asked me && I turned him down...he seems **playerish*but what guy isn't right!!!Family*good as could be accepted!Church*I wouldnt know b/c I dont go anymore!!But I miss is sooo much I just dont have the time anymore: ( ...well I guess I will go leave me whatever you call um..&& leave me a comment on my xanga.....  www.xanga.com/HeLovesMeHeLovesYouNot09       well I luv ya'll

                      <3 Ashleigh**

Hey kids.
How are you all?
Pretty alright here.
nothing big going on.
I wanna start dancing again,
I really really miss it.
I watched Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights,
and it was flippin awesome.
I mean i need to flippin learn dangit.
Well loves,
leave some loving.



I know your intentions,
and i'm probably that kinda girl.

Last year there was this guy that went to my school. He was uber cute, and everybody secretly thought he was gay. And then he told his best friend he was gay. And then he got kicked out 'cause he lived a parish over. (county for all you non-louisiana freaks. :] ) And so he left. And then this year I found out he really /was/ gay. And so I told all my friends (that are friends with him) to try and hook me up with him. Which hasn't happened, of course, but still. I called him on new years (I don't really remember it. I remember calling him and Ste but thats it.) and I think I freaked him out or something. And hopefully I'll get to actually meet him soon. I  have no clue why I just told everybody that...

Lets hope I meet him soon. I'm tired of all my exes coming back for more.

OXOX
James

AND OMfG My dad got the Sims 2 to work HURRAH!!!!!!!!

I don't like politics.

I hate what people become when political matters come up.

I especially despise political parties, or at least, the extremists therein.

I'm a moderate....pretty equally balanced conservative and liberal.

All things in moderation, right?  Politics, too.

I don't particularly like Bush, but I don't think Kerry could have done much better.

My vote goes to Henry Clay.  Good man, Henry Clay.  "The Great Compromiser".   It's a shame he's been dead 150 years.  He deserves the presidency.

Anyway, that's the first and last time I will touch on that subject here. 

^^
this is my buddy!!!

Pony Club meeting tonight.  Someone come save me.  If not, it's an evening of locking myself upstairs and hugging the computer monitor.  Do not condemn me to this fate -slash- go gently into that good night!  (Old age should burn and rave at close of day.  Rage, rage against the dying of the light.  Or the machine.  They're really not too picky.)

QUICK!  ART STUDENTS/THOSE WITH A REALLY GOOD EYE FOR COLOUR!!!!  What goes with pale yellow that doesn't make the combination too sugary??

So my essays for GWU are complete.  Not finished mind you, but complete.  I just have to trim the first one down and flatter them insanely, and inflate the diction on the second.  Again, still having a passionate love-hate relationship with the thesaurus.  Gracious, I want to attend GWU so badly.  I *heart* D.C.

Whenever I come close to finding It, I run away.

Yeah, so I'm seriously contemplating extensions.  Not a waist-length platinum carpet, mind you, but something that touches the collarbone, or a little longer.  They would be ideal because I lack the patience to grow my hair out.  The intervening stages are too painful; I know because I've been trying for years, but then promptly get fed up after about 4 months and rush back to the scissors, crying, "Save me!"  But no, a weave would be so much easier.  And fun.  Yay!

I talk about the most infernally *bleeping* superficial things on this site.
I'm ashamed.  College and hair extensions.  What a mess I am.

But I'm not much for airing my emotional laundry because it places undue burden on others in the form of Unwanted Drivel-ly Gripings Nobody Wants to Hear.  Because really, the world has enough of its own problems, and who I am to exacerbate the situation?  Children are dying from AIDS and malnutrition simultaneously, and here I am angsty because I'm perpetually single.  Such a paradox.  I could be a Mexican girl sold into sexual slavery instead of agonising over applications.  I could be the man standing by the freeway holding a sign begging for money -- one who actually needs it.  I could be undergoing the last wave of chemotherapy as doctors and nurses whisper increasingly short life expectancies.  I could have been Sohane, a French Muslim burned to death by her boyfriend's enemy, because of something irritating her boyfriend had done.  I could be a member of the lowest Hindu caste -- the Untouchables -- doomed to a life of squalor in every incarnation after this miserable one by the riverside.  I could be the veteran rotting in a nursing home as Alzheimer's wipes away final memories of the family who left him there fifteen years ago.  Who's to say it won't be me the next go-round?  Who's to say it won't be you?

Its funny how you can spend an entire day working your arse off and still not get through one thing on your list.  HOw does that work?  Man... But i do lvoe my job and i am not complaining... just trying to figure out where the last 8 hours went...

No...I don't go to one...but somedays I feel all preppy-private school-ish...

i haven't updated in a loooong time...

basically, school starts in a week..

my schedule actually turned out awesome..

but..

i don't have much to do during the day..

so i watch...

the Discovery channel.

i recommend it.

well i must say i was a little disapointed with the respinse last time anyways its all good. really i guess it may have sounded like i was kinda weird but really i just like to meet new people so thats what i wanted just somebody that maybe also likes to meet new people or w/e anyways gotta get back to learning cause i am at school.

Ben
PS if you know how to add video on here let me know i got a great video i want to show but i cant get it to work.

so i just eareased my entry lol. so here it goes again.

I am so blessed to have such a wonderful and caring church family. I love them to death and would do anything for them!!! I really miss the youth group a whole lot. Yesterday at church we had a testiomny night and it was great it lasted an  hour and 30 min. it is just so amazing what all God has done in our church family. I love evereyone there and i am just so blessed.

Well i am back up at Lipscomb. And so far so good. it is great to see everyone again. Classes are pretty good too. My math teacher is so old but it is all good lol. and i have lunch on monday wed and friday with almost everyone in suite so that is cool. lol.

Also on friday i get to go to Chicago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can not freaking wait i get to shop, see my uncle, and get to spend time with my brother!!!!!.

In everything you do look to God for guidence!

Well have a great day loveya Jesse 

School is dumb... I'm waisting my time

I auditioned at a major label on Friday.

I am trying not to expect much, as they have only country artists, but it would be such a neat thing to happen. Wouldn't it?

Waiting for the call....

So they still have not delivered my bag. It has been found and was supposed to be delivered today around 1pm, it is now 1:32pm and I don't have my bag. Yesterday I had to run out to CVS and buy all of the things that are in my bag that I really need like a tooth brush. I really want my bag and I really want to have a normal apartment. My apartment is a mess because I not only have one roommate moving in the old one is moving out and there is just utter mass confusion in my apartment. I want my bag and to clean my room so that I can feel settleled.

what do you wonder about?

Hey guys! My new cell is gonna be activated today and my old one will be gone by the end of the day tomorrow. so yeah. here is my new number.......

615-423-6562

okay so i have my new phone...if u want to text me feel free, i am BORED OUT OF MY MIND. lol.

So today is the first day of class...and I'm pretty sure that I don't have any desire to actually go. 
But I will, of course, because if I don't I will be stoned by an angry mob or something like that ( I think that's what it says in the Student Handbook).  It's kinda weird...normally I am excited about starting new classes, usually only because I've run out of things to do during break and I'm in need of something different in order to break up the monotony of sitting around at my house...or if not excited, I am at least ready for class. This semester, however, I am in a slump. I am not really looking forward to any class, and that makes me nervous because it will add to my already thriving temptation to skip them.  Oh well, maybe they won't be as bad as I am imagining them to be...I guess I should go find out...

Peace, Peace... Holla, Holla, Holla

(I don't really know what that means, but a friend of mine always says it and it sounds cool so...there you go)                            

"If you only look
You will never get it
If you only look
It will never be yours"
-Ayu (Catcher in the Light)
 

RTA is today.
Why yes, I did say RTA & not RTfreakingA. Why?
Because I figured out that there's more to life than hating my school.
I'm stuck with it for the rest of the year, so why not make the most of it?
I have some wonderful friends there, & get this, I actually like it.
For the first time in a while, I have true happiness.
It's that simple "wake up in the morning & you smile" kind of happiness.
It's amazing what a simple talk with God can do.
I love you, Have a wonderful day, It's BEAUTIFUL outside<3

:-D

Guess what guys...






IM EATING BREAKFAST!!  =D!

Headaches hurt...they spoil my fun and that of the people who count on me.  I've done so well not to have a migraine in weeks, and then out of nowhere...BAM!  Yesterday is a blur.  Today will have to be a day of rest, because I'm worn out from hurting and sleeping.  How weird does that sound? 

I want to cook better meals for my family.  What do other families eat?  I love to cook, but I get burned out on the same stuff.  Surely, there is something out there to inspire me....

Soo tonight i was eatin dinner with mom, my bro, aunt and cousin, and get a call from Zack.  I had emailed him earlier wondering if was up to anything that night.  He just said that he had finished all he needed to for RTA, and so i decided to go over to his house and hang out.  Got there and found that eric and sean we also over there.  devin was also decided to hang out with us...and later lance showed up.  soo yea...we were just hangin out...decided to go downstaris and raid that fridge...
soo yea..bunch of college freshman, and highschool seniors acting like 9th graders...goodtimes im tellin ya
 
anyway there seems to be some underground gamin place in the borrow, and hef and i decided that were gonna go down there and show people how Halo is suppsed to be played.  ^_^
better bring nametags to preclaim our geekyness to the whole world

but enough of that...ive got computers to work on over here....plus way too much homework to finish

later
Michael

i'm sorry - scratch the stalker title: replace it with well-wisher or secret admirer (or not so secret...) ;)

 This is my big/little sister in West Virginia the night before I am going to go snowboarding for the first time.....  YAY!!!!!

Hey guys! Wow it's 2006? That means all the fun times I had senior year are just gone? Craziness I tell ya! It seems like just a few weeks ago I was watching the ball drop thinking of what in the world I was going to do for prom! LOL! So...how has the new year been for everybody? I gotta tell you guys, Passion 06 was so awesome! God spoke to me in so many ways, and praise God for what he did there. I know he stirred so many hearts through so many wonderful leaders! God showed me that suffering is necessary as a Christian. Whether I experience it now or 20 years from now, it happens. As I was driving home from the movies, it dawned on me. We suffer in this life yet our eternal reward awaits us. It's like we are totally in the world, but our focus isn't on the temporary stuff! That helped me so much because God has helped me prepare for times of trial! For instance, a couple of nights ago I went to my buddy's apartment, and I parked in someone's parking spot by accident. They stuck a yellow boot on my wheel which kept my vehicle from moving, and they charged me 95 dollars! Guess what? I had to call my mom! AHH! LOL! It was midnight so you can imagine. God worked it out, but the whole thing was crazy. I didn't have to pay my mom back just vacuum the house! LOL! I know that's a small example, and I am fully aware of other circumstances. Jennifer has been diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis yet she continues to let God shine through her! God is working in amazing ways through her life, and it's so awesome to see God stirring other's hearts through her testimony! No matter what you are going through, know that suffering is temporary, and if you focus on the cross and the promise that was made, you will find a fulfilling satisfaction in your heart that will get you through anything! I love ya'll! Stay strong!

(THIS GIRL IS GETTING MARRIED IN 5 MONTHS! AHH! LOL! You know you like the look I got! HEYY)

Pictures from Passion 06

i want to go somewhere....exciting and fun...away from here!!

WHO IS WITH ME????

Welp..havent used this in a while...guess ill start back sis xanga has been rly boreing me...

Festivus was awesome!  The food was awesome, I got to meet lots of new people and see lots of friends i havent seen since summer. :-)  Plus the fire was freaking awesome.  It consisted of around 70 Christmas trees, 5 gallons of gas, and some fireworks.  It even had a couple fake Christmas trees with the lights still on it.  It turned the flame green and blue.

Sometimes I feel on top of the world

And sometimes I feel like a insignificant.

Sometimes I like to be alone

And sometimes I feel lonely/isolated

Sometimes I feel pretty

And days when I just don't

Sometimes I wish I was the "happy-go-lucky" girl

And sometimes I'm glad for my many moods

but always, I'm just me.

**once again, me and my brother were mistaken for a couple. gross! no, siree! he may be handsome... but NO!

**on a lighter note... i have an announcement to make.....  I HEART CHOCOLATE COVERED ESPRESSO BEANS! lol. they're awesome.... David gave me some last night... can you say... divine? lol.

**on a more serious note... i was thinking about it in church today... how could anyone truely get to know Christ... and not be changed?

**did i mention that Michael came up behind me at work the other night and totally just ripped off my love handles... it hurt sooo bad! haha... we have too much fun sometimes. lol. it makes me miss Am. i can't wait for her to come home from Thialand. (pray for her).

~Hope

well, i just had an awesome talk with clint.  God really moved in this talk.  i just realized, yea were getting persecuted, and we prob hate when all this crap builds up, and it seems like there is nothing we can do.  well,  we should be happy to be going through this crap. its all FOR GOD'S GLORY.  something i found out tonight, was that u always have to know where ur truth is.  over the last few days and weeks, ive kinda lost my views on my truth, and all this crap was thrown on top of it.  i didnt know what was going on, i have never felt ( if thats how u spell it ) that way before,  and it was because something else was taking the spot of my truth. and i was beleiving satan's lies he was throwing at me.  i dont know, if u wanna know some more stuff God showed me, then ask me, because i could be writing for a long time.  GOD IS AWESOME!!!!!  thank u lord for placing me in these situations to get persecuted.  its all for ur Glory LORD GOD.

here are some random amazing pictures. some of which i took. yea!!!!!

those are pretty cool.

sweet days are made of these:

*

God

queso

tons of cool kids

marks birthday party

feeling content with everything

lots of diet coke

some more God

walmart

*

who are you to disagree?

much love *muah*

life is good.eternal life is better.

-milly

best weekend ever.

it's too much to go inot detail about... but it was amazing.

maybe tomorrow when i'm more awake, i'll give an outline.

love is amazing.

and Korhy is the most amazing thing ever.

hmmmm.......it's life

so one week into the year...

how many unbroken resolutions?

pool halls = fun stuff

buying pants = pain the butt

fin

Alot of smack has been dished out here the last couple of days. Over what?! A basketball game. A basketball game! Seigal. Oakland. Riverdale, Blackman, and MTCS. 5 schools. 5 different mascots. 5 seperate school colors. Each unique and great. But when people take their school spirit over the line and allow their emotions to get the best of them, allowing them to fight, throw water bottles that cut a person so bad she has to get a staple in her head...you have stop the record and reflect. For my Christian brothers and sisters out there have you forgotten that you have self-control through what Jesus did on the cross for you? When did you give in to anger and cruel remarks to bring people down verbally? Have you substituted your fleeting school spirit for the Holy Spirit? When it's all said and done in 80-100 years for us on this earth will you look back on your life and be at peace with how well you got across to someone of the opposite school your distatse for them? My Christian friends' I pray that it would eat at you at your deepest parts that you would rather defame someone, tear down someone, and/or physically hurt somone instead of showing the love that Jesus gave us. A love we never deserved because we rejected Him.

Christian friends I strongly urge you NOT TO allow yourselves to be caught up in anything that would harm your witness for our Lord, Jesus Christ.

Philippians 2:1-5

Imitating Christ's Humility

1 If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4 Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.
5 Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus..."

As Christians that have a personal relationship with Christ we have the same attitude of Jesus. Let's put our godly attitudes to use and make an impact upon this culture win or lose.

Hey Losers!!!

                            Soo.... this is my new Phuse Box thingy!I dont know how to do anything though!!!Well anyways this weekend was kinda boring on Saturday we had a fundraiser for cheerleading && then on sunday I had cheerleading practice ((Ughh....cheerleading takes up my whole life))But I am running out of things to say && I g2g to my xanga ((although it's getting kinda boring))but I g2 do it anyways ((Gah))Well Luv Yew Guys

                                  <3 Ashleigh          

So I was raised in the Independent Fundamental Baptist tradition.  There are many things about this style of worship that I love.  One of them is that the Bible is unquestionably the word of God and that we should live our lives around it if we claim to serve God.

However, fundamentalism has taken some turns for the worse.  It has become associated with legalism.  There are suddenly all these rules among the "Bible-thumpers" that I'm pretty sure are not in the Bible.  I still consider myself a Fundamentalist in the truest sense--I believe the Bible is the word of God and that it should be followed as a blueprint for life.  I believe in the fundamentals of the faith.  I am a Bible-thumper.

But I don't fit with that crowd anymore.

You see, all through high school, I challenged youth leaders and pastors about things they said.  Rock music is bad. Dancing of any kind is immoral.  They even challenged dating way before Joshua Harris kissed dating goodbye.  I thought, music is good.  Rock music is fun.  Christian rock reaches people that Gospel music doesn't.  Dancing is an expression of emotion.  That's a good thing, right?  I tap my feet to the church choir and clap to the quartets just as much as with everything else.

Well, I learned today that the Bible backs me up!  Check out 2 Sam. 6.  King David has experienced a great amount of triumph in his life at this point.  As they are bringing the Ark of the Covenant back to Jerusalem, he dances through the streets in his uderwear (the Bible says linen ephod, but it's the same thing)!  He is so overwhelmed with joy, with the vitory God has given him, that it is not enough to simply speak about it or sing about it.  This joy has taken over his entire body.  It wasn't immoral or alcohol induced.  It was his way of expressing his joy.  David was a man after God's own heart.  And if you'll notice, there's a pattern in scripture.  If God isn't happy with something David does, he lets him know, usually through Nathan.

Then Michal, the daughter of Saul, comes up to David.  Now let me just say that I think her intentions were good.  Michal was all about serving God, she would have been considered a good Christian today.  But Michal called David down on his actions.  She called him vulgar, among other things.  Just like today's Fundamentalists, Michal called David down for worshipping in an undignified manner.

But look at what David says in v. 22: "I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes."

Na na na na na na, HEY!

Worship God however you are led. Don't look down on anyone else's worship.  Just make sure that it is from God--what He is leading you to do, and not your own show.

And dance away.

During Sunday school this morning, Adam challenged us to fall in love with God, and that phrase all of the sudden struck me as the solution to the struggles in my life.  I had always heard the phrase, and I had even thrown it around myself.  But this morning, I gained a whole new perspective on what it meant to "fall in love with God."  

When I got home, I started to think about what that really meant.  To fall in love with God.  What does that take?  What am I going to have to give up or change in my life?  Well, when I think of the phrase "fall in love," I generally assume it refers to the feelings between 2 humans of the opposite sex.  So, with that picture in mind, what kind of relationship does that entail?  I would say that most people agree that a husband/wife relationship should be one of good communication, trust, sacrifice, love, patience, faithfulness, friendship, humility, and so much more.  As a Christian, I understand that a healthy marriage should reflect Christ's relationship with the church, and so we can liken falling in love with God to falling in love with another human being.  But we must be careful when using this comparison because we can't pull God down to an earthly level.  He is God, and nothing can change that.  He is the creator of the universe, the one who came to die for our sins, and no amount of human likeness we put on Him will ever change that fact.  He isn't human.  He is God.  

1 John 4:16 says that "God is love," and so I believe that unless we understand God (as well as we can in human terms), we will not understand love.  Ultimately, the epitome of love was exemplified in God becoming man and dying on the cross for the sins of the world, but this love is hard for us, as humans, to grasp because God didn't have to do that for us.  He wanted to, and that takes a selflessness that I know I don't understand.  So, because it's hard for us to understand this love, God gave us the metaphor of His relationship with the church being like that of a marriage.  But the picture of marriage here is a solid, dependable marriage, not the type of marriage we see in our society today.  It's like what I described above. 

Therefore, I think that falling in love with God has to do with applying the same attributes to our relationship with Him as we do a relationship involving a husband and wife.  We must have good communication (a solid prayer life), trust (in Him and His Word), sacrifice (in tithing, ministry, gifts, and service), love (for Him as well as others), patience (for His will and timing), faithfulness (to Him and Him alone), friendship (a combination of love, admiration, and respect), humility (admitting when we are wrong and recieving advice and peace when we mess up), and so much more.  I'm still not sure how to love like this, but I know if I ask God to help me, He's faithful and will reveal to me Himself ~ the ultimate example of love.

So, with all that being said, I want to issue the same challenge to you, fall in love with God.  Make Him your only focus.  You don't need anything else.

i've just identified that craig's list has both st. louis and knoxville on it. that makes me feel better.

This song rocks my face off. Pretend it says 23 years, loading up a buick, and change the sister to a brother and it pretty much fits. and in case you want to know, the artist is carrie underwood.

18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they just drug on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
Baby don't forget

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever loose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
and those bills there on the counter
Remind me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said
Hey momma, don't forget to tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fall
And tell mee-mal that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
Lord I feel so small some times in this big ol' place
I know there are more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me
Don't forget to remember me

I'm kind of grateful that the January class is cancelled; I need a longer break from Leslie. Don't get me wrong, I have respect for the woman as a mentor, Child Life Specialist, and as a person. However, her style of teaching and going about business can be frustrating when she is the only teacher we have. In order to maintain my sanity, I think it is best that I wait until February to see her again.

So I've been in a bit of a "freak-out" mode with these internship applications. In the end, I only applied to three hospitals. Translation: I wasted $15 in transcript requests from Olivet. But in some cases I doubt that I really wanted to do my internship there. I would have liked to have been offered one of the hospitals in Minnesota, but they do get a ton of applicants and there were other places I would much rather do my internship, so why waste their time and my time? I would really like to get St. Louis, but I am scared about the expense. I am what some might call "fiscally challenged." And word on the street (and by that I mean from their application information) is that it is pretty expensive to rent for just a few months out there.

I would really like to get University of Iowa because it is very practical but also very functional. I would like to get East Tennessee because, well let's face it, I love Tennessee and it's a great hospital. But maybe it would do me good to be home and get my feet wet.

So in all this hoopla surrounding the perpetual "where am I going to end up" question, I have to consider the possibility that I might not get offered an internship. Statistically, it is highly unlikely. However, it is possible. I don't know what I will do if I don't get an internship for the summer. I can always wait and apply again for the fall, including more hospitals that I previously did not consider. I wish I had applied to some California hospitals after all. There are a lot of great ones out here, and I love California. But there is also greater competition for those.

If I end up at any of the three hospitals, and receive a job offer at the end of it, I will probably take it. Of course, I will continue to apply to my dream hospital of St. Jude, but I need to take the offers when they come as they are so limited.
Well now that I am all checked in for my flights tomorrow, I am going back home to relax for a while. It's going to be a busy few weeks, especially since my dad is moving right when I come back here.
And I was mistaken; I will only be in 4 different airports tomorrow, instead of the 5 that I originally estimated.

wow, can we say been forever since i've been on??

anyway, ohs vs. shs game.....tear.....

my love life.....awesome.....he makes me EXTREMELY happy

job...had one making subs...miss it very much...i quit it

all in all, good times good times

Just got back from lunch w/ Elissa, Debi, and the Emma ^^ we went to La Siesta! w00t! Debi is like a non-skanky, cute Wonder Woman lol she's so amazing! anywayz, here's a pic of her and her Emma:

so adorable! ^^

and here's the new profile pic for Debi:

now, if u'll excuse us (Elissa and I) we're gonna go watch Drake and Josh Go to Hollywood!!!! (AMAZING MOVIE!!!)  w00t!

"What was the year like for you
The struggles of Day to Day life
The people you meet
Overcoming tears and sadness
Life is a neverending dance
Happy, sad
But no matter how much one suffers
The passage of time softens it
So we believe
All of us have hope in tomorrow
And that hope
Inspires us to live on for that brighter day
2006, another page in history
another chapter in our hearts
let us hope it will be full of smiles and laughter
let us try to make the world…"
-Ayu

updated...

only 5 more months... ahhhhh =)

So I just got back from Nashville last night. It was not the best trip of my life Ihave to say. The orginal plan was that we were supposed to drive down with the group from church and that I would fly back on Staturday get home Sat. evening, run in to work catch up on a few things and then have a relaxing Sunday before heading into the work week.
So here is how it all went wrong. Gary the other over 25 year old attende was supposed to drive the van because I have never driven anything bigger then my Carolla but then a work project came up and he could not get out of  staying so now I have to drive the van down and possibly not get to stay in Nashville with my friend for a few extra days. But Chris and I were working on that whole driving thing. The drive down to Nashvill was horrible. It rained like the whole time and I was worn out by the time I got there. That night I slept like a lamb. Got up the next morning did the whole Passion thing the whole time trying to find a driver for the dang van. Same thing the next day, got to go have coffee with Em and then had dinner with the TLJ gang. Worked out some way for Chris's sister to drive the van back so I did get to stay. I got to visit the 'boro for a little bit and spend more time with Em. The downfall on the trip was at the airport. My flight was majorly delaye by like 2 1/2 hours so I missed my connection in DC so after I got on another flight I talked to coustermer service in DC and they assured me that they would get my bags put on the right flight. Of course when I arrive back in NJ I am standing at the baggage claim and no bag's for me! Oh joy! So now when I call their like you are on a priority trace beut we are unable to find your baggage at this time. So yeah I am really in a bad mood because now I have to do all of this work now  and I have none of my stuff, no make up, no deodrant, no contats stuff, no hair dryer, nothing! So I have never flewn United up until today and I don't think I ever will again.

kellismile05

QUICK!  ART STUDENTS/THOSE WITH A REALLY GOOD EYE FOR COLOUR!!!!  What goes with pale yellow that doesn't make the combination too sugary??

Let's have a big "Ooh-rah" for Kelly's timing skills.  Such mastery of the art is derived from the following transaction:

"So how's your girlfriend liking college?"
"....We broke up today."

*Pounds head on keyboard*

Garg, I woke up waaaaaay too late today.  I need something productive to do.

I won an eBay auction.  Makes me happy, because auctions of any sort tend to scare me.  Just when some chick from Denmark realised that to cross my path meant certain death, a buyer from D.C. tries to snipe the highest bid.  Biatch, I don't think so.  Mwaha.  It was intense.  "SEVENTEEN SECOND LEFT!  NOOOO!!"  But, of course, victoire was acheived.

Pretty sure I want to try out hair extensions.  They just look like so much fun.  I'm not talking waist-length platinum carpet stuff, but maybe collar-bone length or a little beyond that.  Hm.  Ponder.

I shall now proceed to make an attempt at productivity.

::EDIT::  Mid-way through production, I have cultivated a very passionate love-hate relationship with Roget's International Thesaurus.  The vast array/quantity/amount of options both amazes and delights me, but dernit if I'll ever stand up straight again or see without the aid of industrial-strength bifocals due to my perusal of this tome.  It even has synonyms for 'varicose veins.'  Amazing.  And kind of disturbing.  I wonder what they are.  ::/EDIT::

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARY LAUREN SUNSHINE!

I think i'm gonna quit phuse box cause i really don't have n e friends on  here and i usually don't ever get remarks well actually never so bye.

<3

Taylor

New Song on my band's site please check it out you guys.... it works if you download it..... i think it sounds awesome!!! I've listened to it A LOT!!! The song is called "Tonight" it is a song i wrote for a girl................................ no, not like that, i told her that i would write her a song, when i liked her, but she didn't like me, and in the proccess of writing it, i gave up........ but then we started talking again, as friends, and this song is for her.................          NEW PICS!!!!!! hope you guys like em, seein as i don't usually update........... How is everyone?

photo from clint



TRUE!!!

 I know, I know, you think you have the bestest friends too...but you dont know my best friends. lol. If I haven't already convinced you just listen to this -

I was informed earlier this week by Andrea, Lisa, and Courtney that Saturday was Birthday Surprise Day. Little did I know that it would involve being blindfolded, dressed in different clothes by Andrea, Lisa, and my mother, driven away by a mystery car (aka the Schrieber Shofer), taken to Domos',  and finally uncovering my eyes to find all my best friends standing before me yelling "SURPRISE!".

Wow this has been the best birthday ever.  To everyone who came - thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love you all and I don't know what I would do without you.

Andrea, Lisa, and Courtney - you know that I love you and that I couldn't have asked for a better birthday. The moments that we made today mean so much to me, and I will never ever forget them.

More pictures to come later!!!!

+ML+

**this might make you think i am crazy**

ok....i went to kaylah(this not the crazy part yet) and me and her decided to see what was in the dirty monds in her woods..we looked over to where the huge house were and saw the scary house had some lights on...so we go over and check it out.. there was a lil girl in the window..she did move soo we hopped over the fience to get a closer look at her...so we were coming back and we started to hear thing...so we stop.. as soon as i stoped we heard a key chain thingy(more like two keys hitting each other) so we took off.. we were freaking out so her two sister and two of her middle sister's friend came back there w/ us... we didnt hear anything..i might had heard some foot steps... then kaylah saw some blue dots things she took some pictures of  the woods..their was 4 blue dot thingys..freaky eh? yeah well my dad thinks we are crazy and her parents think we are crazy too >> great well later

                           meg

So much of what people think of us is based upon our choices, isn't it?  Our choices...how we act, how we speak, how we take into consideration the feelings of those we care about most in this world.  What do your choices say about you to others?  What do mine say about me?  Well, I can tell you what I hope mine say...I am almost to a fault concerned about things being "right."  It probably drives some people nuts because I won't let go of things when they aren't made right, and it has gotten me into trouble in my life that I've even had to admit my own wrongs in order to make it right.  But that's me.  It's just the way I am, and I'm that way about almost every situation I've ever come across.  It pains me when I see things that aren't right, and yet I know that many tell me "it's life" that things are often anything but fair, honest, and right.  I love my Lord and Savior.  I want everyone to know Him and trust Him as He desires of them.  If people blindly follow, though, perhaps they won't understand the depths of His love.  Sometimes, we must experience a need for something before we can appreciate the gift of it.  If we have studied and studied and worked hard and then make an A in a class, it's a sweet reward.  If we do very little work and make a B, we're breezing through, with no real appreciation for what it took to earn it. 

Why am I so full of these thoughts right now?  I've watched many young friends, who are so close to each other, treat each other so unkindly in the past twelve hours.  The words that have been spoken have been hurtful.  Two teams, both excellent in their level of skill, played a game of basketball.  As in any game, one team wins, one team loses.  Calls are made that are unfavorable--both teams thinking more were made against them.  It's just a game.  We learn through our losses more than our wins, I think.  We learn a lot about ourselves and our friends, too.  I think some of my friends will awaken this morning to see that they have allowed much ugliness to spew from themselves.  Other friends will awaken to realize that they are hopeful to have an opportunity in the future to show themselves to be able to make better choices than their friends. 

What choices will you make now? Will you choose to undo some of the things you've already done?    Will you allow your anger to grow over a loss or your gloating to grow over a win?  There are few things more valuable than friendships.  Rivalries are fun, but they must be kept in perspective.

**************EDIT********************

i only work fri and sat from 12 till 6(sat) 7(fri)....in the unlikly even that somone was gonna come by ^_^

Soo work this weekend was awsome

We(Computer Renaissance) are moving across the st at the end of this month.....sacrificing space for visibility...

sooo we've got a crapload of stuff that we have to cram into 1/3 of the size ...goodtimes!!!!11

Scott decided that im officially in charge of organization ot the new store.....aparantly im a organizational geneius ^_^

soooo everyone who reads this needs to drop the computer store sometime

right now were over to the right of walmart at old hickory and nolensville....hit us up sometime!

later guys

Chaotic_Eclipse

Ok, so I went and saw the movie Hostel tonight. It's about these guys who backpack through Europe and end up in some place in Slovakya for like, girls and stuff. The end up all getting totured. Everyone in the entire town is in on it, so it's really hard to leave, but only 1 guy gets away safely. But yeah, don't get see it. It's really stupid. If you remember, I thought that I was going to like, be so scared and stuff. I was just like "omg, that's not scary at all" and the women sitting next to me pretty much laughed the entire time...along with the rest of the audience.

Moral: don't go see stupid movies

dear heart,
i met a boy today,
prepare to shatter</3

there's this boy && he took my heart..<3
andd he will keep it forever.

im back at arkansas state university...and im loving it...everyone...is much more agreeable i guess is the word im looking for since i got back...but neway...irewatched donnie darko this weekend and it is INTENSE....i was really tired the first time i saw it and didnt really get it but now that ive seen it all the way through it is one of my faves...also i just had a potential relationship with one miss jb devastatingly destroyed....lol....it was kinda mututal...i just wish we coulda worked stuff out//well thats my story and ....u know

1st started going out

now

..ok me and josh have been goin out for 2 months..weve changed soo much towards eachother...and like if you look at the pics you can maybe see it..its love..not fake..REAL TRUE love

So...I leave tomorrow to go to New Orleans!!! I am going with some of my sisters of ADPi to help with Katrina Victims... We have been trained by the Red Cross and are going down to gut out houses... WHATEVER THAT MEANS....

What is this going to have in store for me?? I have absolutely no earthly Idea!!! For one I am scared b/c I am going to the center of it all...The place that got the worst hit from Katrina. A place that needs so much help, but yet isn't getting enough from those who have already gone down before me. I am excited tho. I know that this next week I am being put in a position where I can see what i take for granted everyday. I will see how much i have and how little these people now have b/c of this horrible tragedy. We are having to wear jump suits so that we don't get contaiminated and mask to keep the bacteria away. HOw scary is that..... I also know that God is going to show me something!! How amazing is that!! I know that I am going somewhere that God is leading me!!

These past few weeks haven't been that good for me!! I have tried to be happy just to make others not see the hurt. Only a few know exactly what I am going through...And I honestly don't know what I would do without them!!! But it is stupid petty things that I am upset over compared to what I am about to see!! God is going to show me things that I need to see to realize that it is all just stupid and I need to get over it!!!

I just ask all of you to pray for our group going and ask that God shows us a lot down there!! And for all of us to be safe and stay healthy!!

I will write when i get back!!!!

From my Grandfather, to my Dad, to me:

"It is none of your business what other people think of you."

Ten minutes later, from book I am reading:

"...I am not defined by what I am not.  And understanding this truth is a huge part of becoming whole."

-Rob Bell, Velvet Elvis:  repainting the Christian faith  (Michigan:  Zondervan, 2001) p. 115.

Good food for thought.  Enjoy.

yeah, that would be me.

well pretty much i just got to tell you guys this:

about 2 minutes ago i decided that fresh fruit will bring world peace.

i would say "don't ask" but you know you're curious.

okay... so this is random... but there's a quote going through my head from school... a guy in my speech class used it... and it's stuck

"Two things testify about you. your talk talks and your walk talks. BUT your walk talks louder than your talk talks."

lol... kinda sounds crazy... but if you think about it... it makes sense.

you people are really bad at leaving remarks

Hello everyone!

well...i have to say it's been i pretty nice weekend. I went to see The Producers last night with a couple of friends and it was awesome! I absolutely loved it! Other than that i've been watching the O.C. and listening to music.I'm trying to enjoy this weekend because next weekend is going to be hectic. My school is having Homecoming next saturday and i'm one of the junior attendants. I'm kinda nervous actually because i'm afraid i'll trip and fall flat on my face.Maybe it'll be fun. Well...i think i'm gonna go watch the O.C.

Goodnight!

I got a new phone. You all have permission to call me now. And I would like it to be known that buying phones out of warranty outside of a contract is not cheap. I'm just glad I didn't have to pay for it.

My hours start going WAY down at work beginning next week. Because of Gulf Coast Getaway, I'll only have five hours. GAH! Once school starts, I'll be back to alternating ten and eighteen hour weeks.

Poor Anna.

((Literally))

Anyone that has ((or knows someone that has)) The Theater Experience 10th edition and wants to loan/sell needs to meet with me. My parents really aren't in the mood to pay $70.00 for a stupid paperback.

I had a terrible ordeal delivering Harrison.  I won't go into all the details except to say I pushed (yes, PUSHED) for 3 hours.  This is not normal and most doctors would probably required a c-section though Harrison's vitals were fine.  Glad I didn't have to go that route!
A healthy baby boy: 8 pounds, 10 oz., 21 inches long, with a terrific cone head born today, Jan. 7, 2003.

Looking much better on day 3!

We decided to celebrate at "the Monkey Store" (Rainforest Cafe) today with the grandparents.

We're still working on making the number three.  It's not easy!

Yay!  Blow out the candles!

alas my sister is leaving in the morning...

for three weeks .. when i was thinking i had her for 5 more...

she'll come back for two weeks and then leave to Korea for about 6 months... i honestly dont know how ill survive...

hello!

Well we lost our basketball game today and now I'm stuck at work untill 12:00 how crazy is that? Its ok i'll live as long as I get paid. This has not been a good weekend so far. Its been a rather confusing one. There was a conversaton I had w/ someone that has been on my mind all weekend but hopefully after this weekend it'll be worked out. Lately I've been thinking about alot of things like what am I gonna do when I grow up? I know how little kid does that sound but really sometimes I have no idea.I hope I will figure it out soon. People confuse me sometimes...