Yes, I know I'm an artist...ok not really, but I just love looking at these pictures, b/c since then I haven't seen enough snow to make a 5 inch tall snow man.
This morning there was some snow on my back porch, but it wasn't much, and the sun melted it away, so I guess I'll just have to move north to get any snow, b/c Murfreesboro isn't getting ANY
So anyways, I hope everyone has a wonderful 3 day weekend, mine is going to consist of cleaning.

Megan

Well, Mom set the yard on fire by accident, my stepdad bought a 700 dollar guitar, and I had a flat on my truck. Vualla~!

Yeah, 9am on a Saturday is a bad time for an accountability group.

so its 4:54 in the morning and i have been laying in bed for an hour...but my eyes are wide and my mind races. for some reason tonight (or this morning) i am haunted by memories of early childhood. i'm suddenly flooded with memories of singing to songs like "Song of the South" in the car with my mom and brother when i was like 5, and memories of when there was a bad ice storm when i was 7 and we had so much fun actually dog sledding down the street into the ditch cause it was so icy. then with memories of childhood always come memories of my mom. fall 2002 when i was sick with mono and she had just retired because she was too tired to work anymore from chemo. we would play scrabble till midnight (she always won) or go to walmart and buy a bunch of stupid stuff.
then all of a sudden i had a vison of memory that had a lesson in it. when i was really sick in fall of '02, i had to have surgery..i remember waking up in the recovery room, feeling so foggy headed, and then being wheeled to my room, and my mom was standing at the nurses station, and i cried when i saw her, because i wanted my mommy so bad. i wonder if somehow at that point i knew i would lose her soon. then a bitter memory of a few weeks before my mom died...i was babysitting and all of a sudden God told me that it was almost over. i knew my mom was going to die soon...it was so heart-wrenching but at the same time i'm glad God told me early, because i prepared a few weeks early. it was such a bizarre feeling, a feeling that could have only come from God. the God that loved me enough to get me ready for it, that loved me enough to get me through the funeral and few weeks following without faltering, loved me enough to bear with me when i lost my mind a few months later and my faith a few months after that, and still loves me enough to let me deal with it almost 3 years later, in the middle of the night, knowing He is there holding me and listening as i tell Him how much i miss her all the time. this is the God that can't wait until i wake up on the other side, in a fog, wanting to see Him so bad that i cry when i do...and cry harder when i see my mom standing right there next to Him waiting for me....

O

p.s mama hodge has a phusebox

Aloha YA'LL

God is Great!!! Can I say anymore….

well Jeff and i are doing wonderful down here (as ya'll can see). God has put us in a GREAT church body full of amazing people, that have taken us in and loved on us 100%.

We have already started working on the campus getting Critical Mass going. That would be the name of our college ministry that we are trying to start up..... (Yeah i know....we didn't have a say so in the name) Anyways it's a much smaller campus then mtsu, only having 2800 students. It's really different in the islands. A lot more laid back and when the waves are big......yeah, no one goes to class and its ok.... anyways this is our campus

Pretty right…..and this is our campus when it's really busy….

I know it's hard to get around when it's this busy but we try,

So we got to have a table set up to give fliers away that Jeff and I made…yeah that JEFF and I made.

And we had some good music playing….well kinda,

In case you can't read it, it's Hicktown…yeah probably not a good idea, they dont really even know what country is

Anyways it went really well with the students. You see they will stop and talk to you unlike most of the students at mtsu. If you live in Maui your not in a hurry to get anywhere.

These next pictures don't have anything to do with the ministry I just wanted to put them up…

This would be our radio in our 95 blazer….

And this is the speed limit pretty much everywhere on the island, YEAH 20....I MEAN COME ON 

Yeah this is just how nice it is in Jan….. :)

This is our pastor, Gary (the white guy) and Sean (the guy that's not Jeff or Gary or white, he's a super great guy, and he took us our to day to go snorkeling then took us and got us some real hawaii food…..umm, different.)

And last but not least……ouch!!!!

Don't side into second base….

So all in all we are doing great, and doing a lot. So even if the pictures say differently we are very very busy…. We have been put on a 60 hour work week from our head pastor(pastor smith)…yeah. But its ok b/c there is so many ministry work to be done. Way more then we can do in just a semester.  So if anyone has any question or just wants to say hey message us or something and we will try to get back to you when ever we can , that's island time by the way… and there is a 4 our time difference here so if we haven't or don't call, we are either really busy or its just to late so please don't be upset. Well guys thanks so much for praying for us. Your prayers are being heard. Mahalo

//God I'm in this place again I'm trying so hard not to fall,
but everything keeps coming down with the rain.  And I try so hard I
forget to call.  Everybody's looking around, and everybody wants to be found.  And I'm just hanging on; I give You all that I am.  I come to You with all that I am, I bring to You all that I have, and all I have is nothing, and I keep on trying, and all I want is You.  Everybody's looking around and wants to be found, and I'm just hanging on.  I give You all that I am. 
And as I sit here in the midst of You, I come to You; I bring You all
that I am.  Everybody's looking around and wants to be found, and I'm
just hanging on.  I give You all that I am. //

put like 8 or so more pics up

its late my back hurts

we got cable internet now its crazy fast

much love to you all!!!!!

life is good. eternal life is better.

-milly

I went to Starbucks tonight with Michael Dillon. We were sitting there talking about some stuff, it was all peaceful and nice and stuff. Well, this guy walked in and stood behind me. And then he bumped into me with his butt and said "Oh, I am sorry. I put my butt on you... it's clean though". Not even joking. And then this girl with him totally even told me "your welcome" as if this experience was something to be thankful for. Wow. 

well, everything is going pretty good. that doesnt mean it cant change though.  it feels pretty good to just sit back and relax. i havent done that in a while.  my mind is all cluttered up right now.  ( mmmmm clutttered, now that is the big word for the day ). but its not bad things going on. its just regular stuff, and it feels pretty good to have the regular stuff starting to happen again.  yea,     yea it does feel good. 

ONLY IN CHRIST WILL I / YOU GROW. 

So last night's rehearsal was normal, we sightread everything. It wasn't that difficult, I was kinda bored. I went and listened to first band for a second, it was depressing. My governor's school amigos in 2nd band were like "I want to go back to GS where we were good, and had high chairs." It was good seeing everyone again. The first band horn peope were mad that I wasn't going to all-state. I'm upset at Ruth, she acts like she doesn't know me unless she needs me for something. I hate the trendy crowd in my band. They're stupid.

Today was better, we played around in the music more. The horns are quiet, but I get them talking sometimes. I want to cry, the music is fun and all, but it's not hard enough that I have to actually work to make it sound good (that wasn't meant to sound cocky) it's just too easy. And first band is playing some great music, I wish I didn't go 2nd in the auditioning day, that's why I'm not in 1st band. But yeah, the principle horn at Governor's School should not be sitting 6th chair in 2nd band. Oh well, it will be different once I'm in college and I'm away from all this stuff. College doesn't matter, they know I'm good there just from my reputation. I may be one of the best horn players as far as performing goes, but I guess I suck at auditions. They should rethink how you do midstate auditions, everyone can play the excerpts. I think they should let you play your own solo, like professional auditions, that's how you can tell who should really get the high chairs, but how advanced their solo is.

I don't know...I guess I'm just being stupid.

hey kids! well.. SOME people thought i needed to update (ben!) so i guess i will.. tonight was the siegel vs. blackman game-- *SIEGEL NATION*!! haha but blackman played a good game. tomorrow is the dbs fashion show. im walking down the runway with swanson-- im very excited! then we get monday off cause its martin luther king day.. yay! sunday night there's a lock-in at church-- thatll be fun! love yall oh so much!

soo im missing Patrick Popes amazing hugs!!!! :(

thank you Justin and Patrick for the comments..i miss you guys!!!

today was okay....ending not soo good!!! hopefully tonight will be better sleeping!!!

looking for a new job!!!

keep Hollys neighbors in your prayers!!!

got a new book! soo im out!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

here lately, i have been having bad headaches, but last night's was the worst one yet. i was on my way home, and my head started hurting. it was just like normal, though. i was only less than a mile away from my house, so i kept going. then, all of a sudden, my vision went completely black, and i ran off the road. the next thing i kind of remember was waking up with a random guy, (he had stopped to see if i was ok), was trying to get my door open and asking me questions. i don't remember our convo, though. i think i blacked out again. the next thing i know, i'm getting on the stretcher and being loaded into the ambulance. thankfully, they did x-rays and stuff and finally decided that i could go home. so, i didn't have to stay the night. i have to go to the doctor next week, then to a neurologist. i'm doing fine right now. my head, neck, and back are the only things that hurt. Praise God that it wasn't worse! please pray that they will find out what has been causing my headaches and that they will get better...thanks!

so i took resumes to lawyers today! i was sooooooooo nervous. i'm just looking another part-time summer job, but i really want to work for one of the 5 offices i visited today. had i not been talking to chris inbetween offices i would have gone crazy.if all else fails the tractor
dealership will hire me! yes! getting hit on by boys and men in wranglers and levis all summer! lol - well i would have fun i finally played with my camera and all my pictures from break are on my computer! yay! then why aren't they on phusebox you ask? well -
see at home there's only dial-up (i live in the boon-docks!) and SOMEONE (smart techie downstairs) removed aol from my computer and i have no meanss of getting online from home unless i go to bro's again and get on wireless.
and guess what??? IT'S SNOWING!!!!!!! yay i love snow! i mean it won't stick or anything but nonetheless it's snow! I always say that if it'sgonna be cold, it should snow. and if it's not gonna snow then itshouldn't be cold! aren't i brilliant? yes i know. you can stop applauding now.
aw thanks. te he he! and yes i am having fun with this rainbow thing.rainbows are soooo beautiful. none will ever match the awesome rainbows of Hawaii! yes i have been to hawaii. i spent thanksgiving my senior year in high school there competeing in forensics. (hint: not dead people!)
well it is finally the end of a very long day. i'm tired (that's nothing new) i'll probably get to get up in the morning and do farm work (another note about my Christmas - dad got cows! te he he- we have 10 cows and 10 calves- mine is one of the smallest! i'm considering naming hin T-bone)

good night all. sweet dreams!

yes. jimmy hawkins is amazing. but i'm not sure if he has an older brother who plays the french horn for mady...

andrew the oboe is nice too. he sits on the other side of me. he talks more...i've definatly had a few larger converstations with him.

I am back.  I had a few problems with logining in, but obviosly, Nathan fixed that problem (thanks Nathan).  So many things have happened since I've been gone.  I have been making videos and such for the Oprah Winfrey show all week, so that took up most of my time.  Also I wrote a poem today...yes I was born to write this stuff...

RAIN - by Brandon Ray

Rain, it falls upon my face

the song it sings is "Amazing Grace"


Thunder clouds and lightening sound,

as the rain falls to the ground.


Rain, it makes the flowers grow,

and in the winter it turns to snow.


Rain, Rain, Rain, it will fall,

until it comes to a sudden stall.

Peace out...
Brandon

So God's creation is all around us.  His beauty resounds in the trees, the sky, the ocean, the mountains and the people who occupy the space around us.  Living in Hawaii for the past five days has opened my eyes to the surrounding beauty of God's creation. I will post a few picutres that give examples to you of what I am talking about.  This place is beautiful...even in the rain.  The sound of the rain echoing off the roof of the BCM house each day has resulted in a soothing mood each evening.  here are some pictures for you...thanks for your continued prayers and encouragement!  We love you all!

Leslie

I like to call these "Jesus Clouds" when there is just enough light peeking out to realize that there is something as magnificant as the sun behind them!

I mean is it just me, or does this look like a postcard?? 

at Michele's house and having alot of fun! Yeah pretty sure that we are really really weird and that we are always high on something i think it just might be thing called LIFE!lol. well had to babysit and that was fun and tomorrow i have practice 9-6 and that should be alot of fun i can't wait.well i'm going to go if you wanna come see me tomorrow come to Oakland at 12 it shall be fun!  I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Love Always
Leah....AKA......B.A

So yesterday I had my first experience in authentic Hawaii food... and it was quite the experience. This wonderful and strange creation consist of two hamburger patties, two over-easy eggs, smothered in brown gravy and over white rice. They call this style of "food" "Loco" which is spanish for "crazy" and i think it might be an adequate description. Oh the irony...

here is a wonderful visual description for you.


this next pic is a cat who lives here at the BSU... i HATE him... i've actually thrown him across the room a few times.



Love never fails! (1 cor 13 8)

this is getting old

Christmas notes:

 I got a cell Phone for Christmas...

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dream made reality.

Also got some new clothes.

Good Notes:

My GPA is 3.5 (hoping to raise)

Phusebox is back!

No school monday.

Prayer Concern:

Everyone please pray for my friend Redford Tilson and his family. Some of you may know him from Bel Aire. Today his father died of a heart attack and I'm sure that they would appretiate all of the prayer you all have.They are still in shock and this a very hard time for them. Prayer is the best thing ya'll can give.

Talk to ya'll soon...

- J4(()8

You know when your parents are getting old when...

...Their breathe smells like old people even right after they brush their teeth.

...You whisper something in your mom's ear in chruch, she turns her head and shouts, "Say it again in my good ear!"

...Your mom gives you her pads and tampons and tell you she won't be needing them anymore.

...They buy a new car, but instead of having the new car small, it smells like old man farts.

...They laugh at life insurance.

...They cannot tell your irritable moods from your content moods.

...They start watching Lifetime on a regular basis, even your stepdad.

...Their glasses are bigger and wider than their faces.

...They lose something and find it in the oddest place.

...They spend more time on the toilet and they have a discussion with one another about what just came out.

...The higher the pants the better.

...You tell them something 3 times and they think it is the first time each time.

Well that is all I can think of for now. Thank you to my parent's for the inspiration for this entry.

w00t! w00t! yeah, you know Ayu's at the top! ^^ YAY YAY YAY!

yeah... not much to say... i gotta work tonite... i miss Jackie... -_-... and yeah...

"Even if you think yourself as too bold
It's just good
To be frank, I'm reluctant
To be prudent and reserved"
-Ayu (Bold & Delicious)

so yeah..I'm gonna try this again...seems like the world has transitioned from xanga to phusebox..

i guess i'll be snazzie also...

Okay so the trip to Snowshoe Mtn was a BLAST. A grand time was had by all! Here are a few of my favorite pictures from the trip. . .

The seven "kids" that went skiing. Kids because we are the younger generation even though two in the picture are married! :D

Me & My Honey! Getting ready to hit the slopes.

Quite possibly my FAVORITE picture of the trip. Random but oh so cute! (Yes we all have on bug-ish sunglasses with the tags still attached)

Hehe, suffice to say despite my hesitation it was a great vacation!

we placed 3rd...

I mean it's great considering we were only 4 points from beating the 1st place winners...

how come certain people are just so perfect it really bothers me..... i just don't understand it.

so i realized it's almost been a week since i updated so it's probly time to do that! first, can i just say that i hate it when DJ's on the radio think they're amazing and try to "connect" songs or whatever and they fail miserably...that's just annoying

anyways, the last few days have been absolutely amazing! this "stalker" of mine came back into town on wednesday and we've hung out ever since. well, with the exception of today because he left me again :( he's going on a weekend retreat with his fraternity. phi mu alpha (which i don't know if anybody will know what that is except for maybe meagan, rachel, and maria!)....it's the music fraternity. anyways, he's wonderful and such a gentleman and we are sooo compatible (except for the fact that i don't know ANYTHING about classic rock and he knows EVERYTHING! but he's going to teach me...)

so classes start in just a few days....AHHH! i'm soooo not ready! i mean, i like all my free time! but i guess it's time to return to reality again....poop. but i am kinda excited about starring in this semester's opera! i went and practiced today and my voice is getting stronger so hopefully i'll be able to jump right back into school. well, this post is definately long enough so i'm going to stop. love ya! happy MLK day!

so it's another weekend.

up until a little while ago, i wasn't going to get to see Kohry. but now there's a chance he might come up.

so it's a maybe.

he didn't have a good day.  -_-  i wish i could be there for him.

i'm seeing BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN tomorrow!! or, i'm supposed to. you know how plans never really work out exactly the way you plan them. but still...

^_^

i really miss Kohry.

i really miss my friends.

and i want school to be over so that Kohry can come live here.

and i want my friends to meet him.

it'll happen. i just have to be less selfish and more patient.

peace out bi-atches.

today is friday and it's the 13th

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me sooooo happy

          today was ok for the most part

made a real good grade on my math test

           and and

if i get it signed i can make an a on it!!!!!

sooo that well make my grade real good soo yeah

                           i am bored out of my mind!!!!

          i have to clean

sooooo yeah

        my friends are coming over tomorrow
                              and we are going to a boat show

                so thats why i have to clean the upstairs up
 i am too lazy to do it tomorrow sooo yeah

         well i am out

                       meg

I AM OFFICALLY A MARQUETTE ACCEPTANT AS OF FRIDAY THE 13th OF JANUARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY! GO HEATHER!!!

1 of 1800 accepted students

1800 of 52,000 accepted.

WHOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now which college to choose?

now how to manipulate the Navy...

Alright.  I have officially completed the first week of my last semester of undergraduate college.  That's weird!!!  So far I can't complain!  I only have 3 classes on MWF!  But knowing me, I'll find plenty of things to fill up my 'free time.'  Why is it that as soon as I have 'free time' I feel lazy?  I guess I'm just so used to being crazy.  The thing is, senior design project hasn't even started up yet, and I know that will take loads of time, and the lab I am going to help out with hasn't started yet either.  (Don't ask me why I volunteered to do that!)  In short, my time will undoubtedly be filled, so why can't I just enjoy it now?  Man, I haven't even mentioned the mission trip, ASME, or Singarama!  *Enjoy it while you can Elizabeth...Enjoy it while you can*  Alright, self, I'll try...

Oh by the way, all the senior engineering students passed that huge test we took in October!  This is huge!  The best part is that I think I got the highest score of all the mechanics folks.  I feel special.  :)

On another note, here are some pics from my friend Ashley's wedding!  (and our christmas pic for you Susan!)

nothing to say.

leave amazing remarks and i will post again...

mucho love!!
[::me::]

so to day is friday!! and it is the thirteenth and it wasn't that unlucky of a day!!

yay!

<><Liz

So, we had a sleepover for all the girls in our Youth Choir @ Church.

It was pretty nifty...

This was at 11pm...and it was 37 degrees outside...

I love star gazing with mi amigas.

Me and Hannah we still going strong at 4am...

So I don't really know what to say.
I'm frustrated, but I'm happy.
See it's like this:
I was in love with someone.
I tried to forget about him.
We became best friends.
I started to move on.
I found a new guy.
Now this new guys history.
And deep down inside...
I still love him.
I don't like it.

How can I just stop Loving?
How can I just stop Caring?
How can I forget those Feelings deep within?

Does anyone got any good advice???

Mustard and Ketchup are sleeping.  It's a great day to take a break.

after bragging about how i never get sick, i just happen to become afflicted with the 24-hour flu. funfun. i don't think i've ever felt so bad in my life.
i did, however, catch up on the past month's worth of sleep, and watched a few movies. like the addams family. i haven't seen that movie since it was in theaters...ah, there's a strange beauty in the macabre.
so anyways, back to school today. and i got to eat! that was exciting, until i got a stomach ache. it kinda went downhill from there.
and tonight is the blackman game. i'll probably go, if i feel up to it. we'll see.

*edit*
HOLY FREAKING CRAP!!!
is the world coming to an end?!
is Jesus on his way back?!
WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?!?!

So it appears as though EVERYONE i've ever known suddenly decided to up and marry each other. seriously. i want to be happy for all of them, but i'm having trouble comprehending the magnitude of the situation. it was hard enough with the first one. now there's four. FOUR. and all of this within 2 WEEKS!

...
*brain explodes*

first week of classes havent been too bad. i only have one more left. it's from 230-455 i think.

thomas came up this week. it was awesome.

the basket ball game wensday was alot of fun. bowling last night was pretty dang fun too.

young made me laugh last night when we were talking about my prom pictures that i put on the last post. it was a good thing that made me laugh.

anyways. i think this semester is going to be pretty dang good.

we played football last night. heath is about to die.

piece

"Like falling flower petals
May my wavering heart be tall and proud
What is sad is
To lose sight of myself for the sake of myself
I believe in the scenery no one has ever seen
And wish next to you, staying in that place that doesn't exist
Like strong sunshine
Emit a light so dazzlingly"
-Ayu (Will)

I'M BACK FROM LUNCH!! delicious!! yay....so i'm just kinda sittin here in keyboarding......funfun!! uh huh...so yea   thaaaat's all folks.....................LOVE *U*....psh  

I wasn't planing on getting one of these. I mainly got it so that I could comment on people's sites, but I'll post occasionally...so...anyway...yeah...give me some comments please. 

OFF TO LUNCH!!!

Hello to all..... I hope that everyone is having a great day. My day is great, I am sitting here in my dorm in my pj's fixin to take a nap so things are good in the life of J-MO. I am officially done with my first week of school. I am hoping that I can get into the groove quickly with everything. There is still one class i have yet to go to so I am not sure how well everything is going to mesh after i see what it will require of me. - - - But yea the three day weekend is going to be great. I am really looking foward to the lock in. It should be a lot of fun. Even more because i have no school the next day haha unlike the last time we did it. OOOOOO what a stupid thing for me to do. But that was me then and now..... well i guess i havnt changed much. haha Anyways, - - - I hope that all of you are having a great day. I have been thinking a lot about my friends and old friends lately and I have to say it makes me realize how much God has blessed me with friends that are so encouraging to me. I can't possibly see how much each little conversation and friendship has influenced me to the place i am today. Anyways just a little though and a praise for God...OH what was that...... ahhhhh yes that's my bed calling my name. I have to go so i will post ya later.

In Him,
Jonathan

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND IM SO HAPPY.  IT'S BEEN AMAZING EXCEPT FOR THE FACT IT IS THE WORST LOOKING DAY OUTSIDE BUT OTHER THAN THAT MY FRIDAY THE 13TH BIRTHDAY IS AMAZING!!!!!

"'Tis better to have loved and lost,
than never have loved at all"
Was writ by this earth's only man
Who never loved at all.

But those who once mislaid their heart
And dearly felt its cost
Know all too well their preference
To forget love's labour lost.

Killing time while half the world is pep-rallying.  I lost the original version, si malheureusement, so this is.... Well.... The substitute version.

Anyways.  I really have nothing to say, aside from broadcasting my extreme boredom.  This will probably be subject to my words once again at lunch.  Blah.  Fie.

On this day in History:

Beth had her first college meltdown induced by her mother.

(Life Sucks!)

posed to be doing history but don't feel like it.

What does it mean to be a victim of circumstance? I am  just going to ponder that for a while.  Ok now I am going to get to work.

I'm finally giving up my little vow against drugs and alcohol.  Saturday, I am going to get so wasted at Ryan's.  So wasted in fact, that I forget about everything that has happened lately.  And if I can get the money by tomorrow, I will be getting my first tattoo on Saturday.  It's going to be Jack Skellington's tombstone on the underside of my right forearm.  I need to go out and have a little fun.  This will be a nice change.

1-i think maria has gone off the deep end.
2-i refuse to walk around brooklyn late at night with no cell phone.
3-the house i now have keys to in staten island freakin rocks.
4-passion was fun.
5-the midget bed at lauren's apt, isn't as comfortable as it may look.
6-it feels good to be back into the full swing of things in the big city.
7-my namb report was only a week and a day late.
8-i've decided i'm leaving the city at the end of july instead of august.
9-i got an email yesterday saying that my apartment in alabama is $30 cheaper than the price i was told it would be to begin with.
10-the only borough i didn't go to yestereday was queens...that's right-manhattan, brooklyn, staten island, and the bronx-in one day.

the end :)

its 2:45 in te morning and guess what??? IM AWAKE!!!

im really just emotional exhausted! the past 2 weeks...i have either just cried myslef to sleep or i have just gottin soo sleepy i just pass out when i hit my pillow...tonight was the same...but its kinda different....im awake now!!! God works in some crazy ways!!!

goodnight!!!

Love Through CHrist,
Rachel

Okay so I was going to update about my ski trip and the fun time that was had by all, complete with CUTE pictures. But NOOOO, the photo thingy isn't cooperating tonight. So henceforth bed is calling and I'm gonna answer, with hopes that I can update tomorrow, with pictures. MEW

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design, or whatever, please check us out first. Thanks!

Hey Loves!!!!

                 Sooo...how's everyone been doing??Good I hope!!Well life has been good...I guess.I just got home from cheering at a game!!!It was fun!Umm....no new guys in my life ((except this guy Chris is really hott))!!But he probably wouldnt like me..he's older than me though.Well I guess I will go but leave mwah some remarks or whatever you call them!

    So today I spent from 7am to 5pm in the office trying to get the books straightned out with an accountant. It was frustrating near the end, but I had promised myself to have a good attitude... then my day got extremely awesome!! As soon as I could I bolted for the door and went riding!! Red just got shoes so I actually could ride when I wanted!! Then to top it off, we got our big screen projector system hooked up today and Mrs. Julie came over!! She is awesome!! Anyway, looking forward to a great weekend you all have fun!

PS. you all need to comment on my art!!!! pretty please I want to know what you all think.

well my friends, fellow bloggers.  most of ya'll know me.  i am typically a country music fan and lover of the pop music.  however, i have just broaden my horizons.  now, i am obsessed with r&b and rap music.  it truly speaks to the soul that is within me.  i mean i have come to love everything from outkast (even as far back as ALiens, Luda, youngbloods, Jay-Z (the black album was amazing), and the throwbacks with the likes of run dmc, and ladies love cool james (llcoolj for those of who aren't in the know).

rap is new boo jam.

holla back
m

To Those of You Who Care:

Monday, January 16, 2006...

In observance of Martin Luther King Day, we will celebrate with a picnic luncheon (potluck) at the Old Fort Park at 11:30 a.m.

From there we will proceed to Carmike, where we will enjoy a showing of Tristan and Isolde at 1:40 p.m.

Everyone is invited. 

::b

P.S.:  If you are planning to go...repost this on your Phusebox.

Okay, so I'm really depressed right now, what's new? I just can't get over something, and the way it ended was so wrong, and due to a lot of lies. A lot was unfinished, and I have no real closure. I know I need to get over this, dwelling on it does nothing, besides making me feel down. I've just sort of been walking around trying to be happy, but failing. And I can't get a job, so I have way too much free time to just think, and so I just sleep all day so I won't have to.

after all this time my heart still breaks when i hear your name. not because i love you, but because of all the things we left unfinished and unsaid

And I did actually love someone and fall in love. And if you don't want to read this crap, then don't, but don't leave me rude comments. I just need to get this all out. And, yes, I've heard all the advice before. And nothing will fix this except for time.

I thought a change in location would help, but no. So, I'm sitting here, not knowing anyone really except for my roomie. I don't want anyone to know that I'm down. I want everyone to believe that life is great for me in my new place. I put on an extremely happy face when I go out. And you know, when I'm driving in my car listening to music, I truly am happy. But the thoughts of him still linger, everywhere I go, every moment. I don't know how to rid myself of them.

Basically, I've just been eating and sleeping and going to classes. I want a job so badly, and no one will hire me it seems.

Hopefully things will start looking up soon. After the MLK weekend, I'm applying for waitressing jobs. And this weekend I'm saying farewell to my best friend, Irina. I'm going home, seeing my brother, and getting a puppy! Monday I'm getting fitted for a dress for my firend Lindsey's wedding. Only thing is, I feel fat right now, and I'll probably lose inches before then.

watching boy meets world

it gives me the warm fuzzies

pretty sure its the best thing to ever happen to tevevision

much love

life is good. eternal life is better.

-milly

So many little things can be pushed in front of us to block Him out. Just last night while I was praying I found my mind wondering about a bad biology grade I had made earlier that day. The devil had found a way to trip me. And even though it wasn't a huge deal - I still fell for it. But there is a way to find God if you just take the time to look. What I mean is this - when you take a look at the little things that happen throughout your day you begin to notice God working in everything. An encouraging word, a thoughtful note, a good grade on a test that you expected to fail...these are all things that God uses to help you win the battle against sin. He is on your side and If He, the creator of all things, is on our side then who can be against us? It's all a matter of taking a few simple moments to consider how big our Savior really is. I have found this to be the best starting point in making God a closer part of your life. Letting your life be shaped by these simple moments and putting what you have learned into action is all God really asks of us.

But the basic reality of God is plain enough. Open your eyes and there it is! By taking a long and thoughtful look at what God has created, people have always been able to see what their eyes as such can't see: eternal power, for instance, and the mystery of his divine being. - Romans 1:19 [The Message]

Though the Word we are put together and shaped up for the tasks God has for us. - 2 Timothy 3:17 [The Message]

But you know God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. - Matthew 6:32 [The Message]

Edit: OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS!!! GATLINBURG IS TOMORROW!!!!! i think i am going to pee in my pants with excitement...only not really...i think. ;-]

"I should have people around bugging me and getting under my skin because without people I could not grow-- I could not grow in God, and I could not grow as a human.  We are born into families and we are needy at first as children because God wants us together, living among one another, not hiding ourselves under logs like fungus. You are not a fungus, you are a human, and you need other people in your life to be healthy."Donald Miller.

The more my partially introverted self tries to avoid this truth, the more i realize its true... its through my relationships (good and bad) that i have learned the most about God and His Love.  

TODAY WAS A BAD DAY.

First, we woke up at 7. we needed to be up by 6.

We missed the school bus, so we took the city bus.

We got to school at 8:10, ten minutes late.

At lunch, I went to the library, and the bell doesn't work theere, so I was late to English.

I had to take a test in English. A stupid test.

We had a test in Democracy.

The school bus system doesn't have a clue. We don't know what bus to ride home.

I got on the city bus, and it was full, so the bus driver wouldn't let my sister on. I had already put my dollar in. She wouldn't refund me.

We had to walk 2.5 miles home. Didn't take but half an hour, but still.

I don't have any money on my ATM card. My debit card pin is screwed up.

That was my day. It sucked. Goodbye. Off to get a refund from TheBus.

Does anyone have an illustration of an orange and white kitten dressed in green German folk clothes? It would be best if he's wearing a green hat with a feather in it, and flying a kite, but I'll settle for just the kitten in the clothes.

Anyone?

Anyone interested in going to see Chris Tomlin, Loui Giglio(sp?)and Matt Redman at the Ryman(sp again) in nashville on Feb. 21???

My ipod is no longer naked.  Which means I finally got to take that stupid plastic film off!  YAY!

He has a nifty blue suit.  And nifty blue ear buds to accessorize.

Mmm.

Well, the Dress-Capades are over.

I didn't get the dress I wanted.  Any of the dresses I wanted, really.

I had to settle for something I'm not too crazy about but I could afford.

That's what life's about, yes?  Learning to settle and make enjoy what you have.

Well, hopefully having my friends with me at Military Ball will make up for the fact that I'm not getting to do major dress up like I want to.

This whole college thing is about to stress me out

I'm thinking of settling for Madison

Not that Madison is technically settling... It was my 2nd Choice

But Marquette is just not fast enough

Frankly, I'm impatience and not good with unpredicablity.

The Navy is going to give me a nervous breakdown

Just tell me I've gotten into Marquette with a 4 year full scholarship
from the Navy and I'll be spiffy. I'd appreciate it

i am bored with life.

tired of school, tired of thinking, tired of trying, tired of life.

i could really use something new.

So... We had the state semi finals for the Business Plan Competition and... we were in the top 6... which mean we advance to finals! YAY!!!

photo from Mdillon2543

who are these people you may ask? well... the girl on the left happens to be one of my best friends. that's her w/ some of the people in Thialand. pray for her... and pray for the people. pray that hearts would be moved... and that eyes would be opened to the love of Chirst. pray for those ministering... pray for safty, health, and strength to endure. i mean... it's got to be tiring to go to a whole knew land... and work w/ so many people on a daily basis... that's got to be taxing both physically... and emotionally. Am, you go girl!!! you be a woman of virtue! shine for His glory!

i was watching an episode from last seasons LOST (cause I'm a newcomer to the wonderful show) and holy cow...

there's a character with my name. susan loyd. crazy

she's dead, but still it was kinda weird to hear your name on a tv show.

Hey playas an pimps whats goin on havent posted in a lonh while hmmm a recap uhhh not muvh has happened i got a car 94 Firebird well uhhh im doin decent i guesss i graduate in a couple a months and im goin to go be a DOCTOr well thats my cureent pla for now but hey whatever if the lord takes me on a different route so be it

Later

Zach

4 months 4 months 4 months!
thats right! 4 months until my 16th birthday!

i'm definitely excited =D =D =D

&& this week has been soooo awesome so far!
God's really taking care of me.... thank goodness because last week wasnt good at all...

we play Riverdale tomorrow night at Riverdale!
i'm EXCITED!

haha.. everyone have a great weekend! <3

life is hard. specially when you've got no one to share it with. i'm thinking i need to do something, because if i don't do something, she will end up with someone else. if this happens, this ben WILL dissapear. promise. first, i gotta do something, something that may change everything between one of u and me. its time to end this, its do or die, no holding back.

Yall ready for a post all about MWAH?!?! teheh HUH? HUH? HUH? ...well hold onto your lil socks!

Dark side of me :0

Anyway I have just joined Phusebox and I need friends so come on and join me ok thanks it would be helpful ok anyway I really have nothing to say right now so bye to everyone

So...
I really like this girl,right? She's AMAZING,and totally perfect.

She has a boyfriend. Doesn't like me like that. Wouldn't break up w/him anyways.

Pretty much knew it was dead before anything would even look like it would start...but some how,actually knowing it's not gonna happen as in hearin it from her herself...it feels a lot worse than knowing it w/o her saying it.

so... yeah... haven't updated in like a few days! woah! lol gosh, i'm thinking of all these things coming up in my life and itz hard to think about things even just in this next year... but i'm looking forward to things that happen right before those i'm dreading lol it sux... WSS auditions are coming up... I miss Richard! >.< I WANT RICHARD!

OMG! check out what i found at the Nashville Children's Theatre's site: their cast of Seussical... hmm... who's that in the lil white circle??

You KNOW it is Mr. Richard Browder! lol i love him! >.<

 but o well... I really really really really really really really really love my friends... life lines... when i feel bleah one randomly picks me up ^^

anyho, here are a few pics from Bible study last nite:

Elissa, me, and LaDonna doin funny faces lol

Elissa's brother Eric... yes, he is creepy... (inside joke: "now that's what I call A BARGAIN!" lol)

"even when I shed these tears, I'm laughing
even if there's no path ahead
I'll spread my wings, I will"
-Gackt (Farewell)

What am I thinking about??

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Because of Aimee Davis's denseness, I will further separate the two thoughts expressed in this post.

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The new MacBook looks absolutely incredible.

Absolutely.

I want one.

::b

"I want you to be yourself- not your idea of what you think is somebody else's idea of yourself." ~~Henry Thoreau, author of The Night Thoreau Spent in Jail

Yea, so we're reading that in English, and that line struck me, so I wrote it down so I could share it with ya'll. It's such a truthful statement.

Anyways, today has been one of those days. I just haven't been able to get on track. I need a hug, a real hug, a don't-let-go-for-several-minutes-because-it-just-feels-right hug. *sigh*

Thank God tomorrow is Friday, and the start of a three day weekend.

        Lindsay

So my computer died and I have multiple blue screens of death.a Dell supervisor is supposed to call me, because pretty sure no one seems to realize that it's my hard drive, not a software issue.(i can't even run it in safe mode.) so basically i figured out how to get to Phusebox on my phone, and decided to share this story. Now, the fact that i'm posting from my phone is pretty neat...took a while...but i figured it out, isn't that neat?! The end.

So my computer died and I have multiple blue screens of death.a Dell supervisor is supposed to call me, because pretty sure no one seems to realize that it's my hard drive, not a software issue.(i can't even run it in safe mode.) so basically i figured out how to get to Phusebox on my phone, and decided to share this story. Now, the fact that i'm posting from my phone is pretty neat...took a while...but i figured it out, isn't that neat?! The end.

over at the bro's for dinner ---> this is austin saying hi

hey sometimes she says i am a dork well that may be true but i pretty cool too and if you are wondering why i am talking i am a mime you should see me i am cool - so she is taking the computer back now...

mk so - me again - my car had a wonderful recall on the gear shift and now it is rather stiff to put into park but if that is part of the making sure it doesn't randomly roll backward while in park then i can deal. i have done a good deal of shopping lately...it's FUN! te he he! i was gonna lead music with josh at my bro's church this weekend but i've just been informed that will not be happening *frowns* o well- mom and i have renewed our fascination with the show Gilmore Girls! -austin interjects "that is a cool show and no i am not gay!" yeah - he does that a lot so mom and i watch it every evening and if we miss an episode it comes on the next morning at 9:30. well bo is home! i'm gonna go eat now! maybe more later.

My hair is gone!!  :o)  Yippee!!

Bling Bling night was sweet. Congrats to Meredith for winning for the girls! I am the one with the dreds...in case you couldn't tell. The message about unity was awesome also.


Group photo


Bootylicious!


Haha meredith looks like a robot

Gangsterrrs

Get..that...dirt off your shoulders!

a little freestyle

yeah yeah

U have to give credit to the only real black man at bling bling night...Ka$h Fo$ter

J-mo and Patroni

THUG



Abigail with her blinking dice earrings

FULL METAL JACKET! Smile for me daddy!!!

Me and the shelbonator.

Grow in Christ,
                G$Muny

Cool Runnings! Peace be da Journey!!!!!

Well, there wasn't a call from the major label guy, but I have not lost heart. It would be obscene if I got signed for my first audition for something like that.

I am having a listening night for a new project that I am starting. The main man in charge, I will just leave his name out, has written quite a catalog and I am anxious to hear what he has. They gave me one CD of his work that had a wide variety of genres on it. Since I do jazz, I was naturally drawn to that. The examples that I have heard so far are latin jazz numbers that scream the 70's. I could surely fit a couple of those on my new CD! There have been traces of the 70's in a few new releases, so I think it would be safe to integrate it into my songs.

The biggest influences for my new recordings are Feist and Madeleine Peyroux.

Basically, I will be making some new fab recordings, and this guy will pitch me to some labels. If I get signed, he gets paid. I am excited!

On Christmas day my car got to 10,000 miles!!!!
                      
I thought I could get home before it got to 10,001, but it changed right when I turned onto my street.  So that was fun...
I've spent most of the break working.  I worked at KBC for like 2 weeks doing different stuff.  And I worked at JCC.  So now I don't have to work anymore!! Yay!!  And I'm going back to school on Sunday and I'm going to watch the season premiere of 24!!!  It's supposed to be awesome--with two explosions!!  I so can't wait!  We're having a meeting for SLT on Monday.  I cait wait to see what God has planned for the BSU (aka BCM) this semester!! Erin got some fun curlers, so we had to play with them.  Look how gorgeous she is!!!
                       
Starbucks is yummy!!  Santa brought me a gift certificate...of course, it's gone now!  But I think they should have the peppermint mocha frappucino all year cuz it's some yummidelisiousness!!
                           
O and I found some of my senior pictures, so they're on here now!! Yay!  I'm going to the UK game on Saturday!!  I really hope they figure out how to play basketball by then...   And I love this picture!! hehe!
                            

midstate starts tonight.......please, jimmy hawkins, be amazing! please?

im having an awesome time with God right now, but a terrible time with the world.  but as long as i know that everything is his will, then that is what gets me through. but sometimes its so easy to know that, and so hard to believe it. 

WHO IS GOING TO BE SNOWBOARDING DOWN THE SLOPES TOMORROW...HMMM....MEEEEEEE HAHAHAA HELL YESH :)...hope everyone has an awesome MLK ...peace out

God is still knocing my socks off with this oppertunity he has given me. He keeps on opening more and more doors. I am really looking forward to the weekend. Oh big new we are getting cable and internet tomorrow at the apartment! I have not had cable in like a year and a half. I am also getting ready to purchase my laptop! I am very excited about that and all the cool stuff I will be able to do with it!!! Yeah! So just working right now and I hope that I might get to go for a walk today since the weather has been so nice here which is really a shock. This time last year we were about to have a blizzard. It's carazyiness. I am wearing flip flops in January in NJ!

I was randomly surfing iTunes last night, and I stumbled on something very cool. I was searching for Jack Johnson, and lo and behold, the Black Eyed Peas came up. I quickly found this song: Gone Going. It's Jack Johnson's Gone remixed with the Black Eyed Peas who wrote some new verses. It's really awesome!

I didn't get to share this pic when Rachel and I took it because my
pictures were as big as me when I downloaded them onto Safari. Thanks
to Nathan I now go through Firefox. Which leads me to create this post
to share. Thank you Nathan and those that told me about Firefox.




So this is the ultrasound picture of Rachel and I's lil'
shorty...child, Paul Aslan Nadeau. We got this back in October. No
telling what he is looking like now. I can't stop looking at him. I
talk to him everynight as Rachel sits there and laughs because he moves
around so much. It has been so surreal praying for MY SON! MY SON! I
still can't believe it! I have had dreams about him. And I have had
dreams about him for years. I wrote about him even before I was
married. I have talked about him and prayed for him. Now almost 2
months until he comes into this world I site here and think about him.
What will he be like? What will be his interests? What foods will be
his favorites? Will he like to write? Play sports? What will his laugh
sound like? His smile look like? His voice? I am speechless that at
this very second as I write these words that God, in some awesome and
mysterious way, is right there with Aslan, forming him and talking to
him. Whatever Aslan decides to do or like in his life Rachel and I pray
that he would love his Creator more than anything else. More than a
girl, more than himself, and more than Rachel and I.


Again, I look at this picture and I can't put into words how I feel
inside. To not believe that something bigger than you and me did
this?...I can't fathom it.

Most of you know my story. My childhood, my dad, my parents, and my Momma. Beacuse of what I wnet through and the things I have seen I keep a journal that I will give to Aslan one day. Or if our Jesus should call me Home while Aslan is still growing up and trying to figure things out. Here is an excert from the journal I write to Aslan.

 "If I Should Go: Letters to Aslan."

Aslan, you are precious. I am mystified how God is creating you this
very second. Awe-struck I am that God has blessed your Mom and me with
you.  Aslan, you are from The Savior and His you will remain. Your Mom
and I are humbled that the Lord has entrusted you to your Mom and I for
18 years. During that time we will teach how to fly my precious son.
May God whisper your name even now and may His voice comfort you now
as he mends and puts His final touches on you beofre your arrival.







My son you have been prayed for by your Momma and me for some time. We can't wait until you get here! Today I am praying that God grant you His knowledge, His counsel, and His understanding.

The Spirit of the LORD will rest on him—
       the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding,
       the Spirit of counsel and of power,
       the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD -
                               Isaiah 11:2

This verse is enscribed on my wedding ring. Your Momma prayed this for me everyday before we got married. Maybe she could see into the future and look what dumb things I would do and the super-buttheadish things I would say to her? Maybe thats's why she prayed that for me...ha-ha.! Aslan, your Momma loved me so much that she prayed for me. Prayed that verse for me. There's power in prayer, son. That's why we pray for you, even now as you are still in your "one-womb" apartment. So now I pray the same verse for you. Why? Because it's a tangled mess of a world. Your gonna go through some times when what feels good to you sounds a whole lot better than anything your Momma or I or the Pastor has said to you. It's in those times when we are not around when you will have to make some crucial decisions. So I pray Isaiah 11:2 over you now so that by the time you get old enough to be introduced to those situations you will have God's influence on you so much that you will know to follow Christ. And who knows? Maybe you'll even get a chance to share your faith with the ones who asked you to do those stupid things.

Aslan, your Mom and I are praying for you. We love you so much. When you get here in March...you, your Momma, and me...crazy get together bash at our place!

The Spirit of the LORD will rest on him—
       the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding,
       the Spirit of counsel and of power,
       the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD -
                                        Isaiah 11:2