Anna, feel free to correct my title... ha ha...

So today was the second day back to class and my first day to experience Computer Science Orientation, Psychology, and Intro to EMC (or as Anna calls it, "intro to major").

Computer Science Orientation looks like it will be kinda boring, but probably pretty easy. At least  it's only a 55 min. class and I can leave early when we're in the computer lab (which is on Wednesdays and Fridays).

Psychology will be interesting, but does the class have to be so huge? Actually, I don't think the number of students in there bothers me too much, because I think I have just as many in my history class and I feel pretty good in there. But the room just seems to swallow everyone whole, because it's too big, so there are a lot of open seats in this overwhelming room.

And then there's EMC. It was great to be reunited with Jolene and pretty much a third of my Understanding Mass Media class from last semester. Or maybe a fourth. But the point is, there were quite a few familiar faces in there. And while I'm still not into all the exciting stuff yet, apparently our teacher is going to make sure we get some hands-on experience, so I think that's going to be pretty cool.

AO tonight! Yay!

soooo today was the 1st day of classes for me!!!
wow!!! im gonna be struggling this semester!!! im gonna have to study and not be lazy! lol!!

yeah soo i dont see the point of me being in school....i dont know what i want to do and the only class i want to take i cant...bc i cant change my work schedule!!! soo why am i there??? i dunno!!! maybe GOd will show me!

im off!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

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The view from my apartment earlier this morning.

    So I have been to all my classes except the lab now. My teachers are cool. It poured all day the first day I was sopping wet. I like having classes with chris. He's an awesome brother! I like riding in his new mustang. History may actually be interesting which is good, I don't do well with history. I should do ok overall this semester, it's going to be a tough juggle but God's awesome and He's my strength and my joy. I did well setting up for this semester, I didn't stress and didn't go overboard with preperation. I'll do my best and try my hardest and then try not to stress. Joy is the key, and I have been blessed to be able to keep mine lately.

Wow, so I got 9 remarks on my first post or blog or whatever it's called. That's neat. So...I don't know what to talk about, but, I will say this, Phusebox is definately cooler than xanga. You did a good job Mr. Nathan. mmm...so, people, give me something to talk about...I have no idea. Give me some ideas. 

So Chicago was a blast and I am already ready to go back!!!! I had a lot of fun! We did a lot of shopping :) While i was there i got to go see a play called wicked. It was a blast it was the prequil to the wizard of oz. it was about the friendship of the good witch and the wicked witch of the west!!! it was great! Also while i was there i got to go ice skating outside which was so much fun. I love iceskating so it was really cool to do it outside in the open It was also really great to spend time with my uncle and with my brother!!!!! I had a great time and it kinda snowed/rained/sleeted on the first say so that was good lol. But last night was alot of fun becouse it snowed :) Me and all of the suite mates and rachael and britt barrett went and took pictures in the snow and it was so pretty and a lot of fun :) Well have a great day loveya Jess

Whew. This morning was nuts. I still can't believe you guys got out for this...






But yay for you guys. So with this snow day, I didn't know what to expect at work this morning. I thought parents might not bring their kids due to the weather and older kids being out of school.... or...(dun dun dun)... we would have the normal kids, plus the kids that are normally in school....

I am normally in the three year old room, but was moved to the 4 and up room. Yeah, so to make a long story short, we had 40 kids in my room. With just me and one other girl. Yeah, that's right 40 kids. In one small room. We had two small tables, not enough chairs, or space, not enough snack. Crazy. But thankfully my boss was able to get someone else to come help and split the room up. Praise God. It was insane. Trying to get the attention of 40 kids is not easy, you have to be loud and demanding, without making them feel like things are out of control. But we did it and even got rewarded. My boss took us out to eat at Chef Wangs....


((There would be a picture here, but I look hideous in it.... so just imagine me and Brittney posing with the weird statue things in front of the restuarant.))
*imagine*

So, it was interesting, but kinda fun. I have been so stressed lately, and all I could do is just laugh. It was great. So praise God for that!

I hope everyone is having a great day! Hope to see most of you at church tonight!

And by the way, who esle thinks LOST should come on at 9 instead of 8? B/C if it did, we wouldn't have to miss it. Oh well, for me, that is what iTunes is for....

"God called us to be fishers of men, Not keepers of the aquarium" ~ Randy Harris


I am home. yahoo! right? ha, not hardly. I'm unemployed, unschooled, and bored.


I arrived home to the worst mess I've ever seen in my life. I have so
much junk to get out of my life, and I really don't have a clue where
to start. therefore, I sit on my bed and surf the web and chat with
friends.


This will sound strange, but I wanna go like, out on a date. dinner and a movie or something.


I also wanna be able to walk out of my house, get on a bus and go to a theme park


the rain, that's gotta go.


the cold. . .I haven't come to terms with it yet. . .I continue to walk
around in capri pants and flip flops. and it's cold. . .and getting
colder. . .


ha! and my car has a spare tire on it. . .so i can't just hop on the
highway and drive to Nashville. and I wanna drive to Hickory Hollow or
Opry mills and see people soooo bad.


I guess that's all. so in short


I'm home. someone call me.

well kids, it is that time of the year again.  the time when robert realizes that he sincerley wants to win the lottery so that he does not have to the whole "school/work/study/not get enough sleep" thing.

classes are good so far.  i am registered for 13 hours, 10 of which are in the Honors department, so this semester is going to be considerably more difficult than last time around.  but on a more positive note, i usually excell when i am challenged.

the bookstore is constantly packed with people who apparently cannot read or else they would not need my help to find their books.

if you didn't know, i will tell you now: Damascus Road, the band that melts your face with its amazing guitar solos, played last night, and they did phenomenally!  Justin Holt continues to amaze me, and Josh Vance continues to surprise me his vocal improvement (he gets better and better every time i hear him)

i know that they are having a great time and are being faithful to God's will in their lives, but i miss my friends.

my mom is a pretty cool lady, for those of you who don't know my mom, if you get a chance to talk to her, do so.  i reccomend it.

i see so much of myself in my little brother that it is scary.  maybe he will be smart enough to use my mistakes for his benefit.

for the one negative attitude remark:  do your best to keep your opinion about other people's lives to yourself unless they ask you.  you have no idea how much damage can be done through seemingly simple remarks that find their way back to that person. 

ral

STOP...


...and PRAY.

Confess anything that would hold you back from experiencing an encounter with the One, the God above all Gods. Examples would be bad attitudes, lies, laziness, being a punk face to friends, family...etc. Ask God to forgive any sin issues.
1 John 1:9, Psalm 51:1-2

Sweet! You are all cleaned up! Now as the time dwindles down to Diversion get excited! Tonight you will encounter "The" Living God! The One who made you, me, the guy in second period that sleeps the entire class, everyone! His soul purpose for creating us is so we would enjoy Him and give Him glory with how we live our lives (Col. 3:17). And tonight we want to do just that. We want to ENJOY HIM TONIGHT! We will do that by singing to Him, praying prayers of thanks and praise to Him and by showing His love for us to the ones who come to Diversion tonight (and it carries on to school, Food Lion, Waffle House, Greta's House of Nails and Hair Extentions and to our families and...well...everywhere).

All are invited tonight. Wednesdays, Tonight, 6:30 in the P.M. at Belle Aire Baptist Church. If you can read this...or if you can't...you are invited.If you can't come tonight come next week.This is a NON-EXCLUSIVE SETTING. Come and check out what it looks like to give your life to something other than yourself, style, sports teams, or relationships. Diversion is about THE relationship of all relationships. And that is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

Look Forward to seeing all of you tonight!

Clint

I'm hoping that the HSers are enjoying a day off. . .the reasoning was lame. . .

I'm inviting everyone to TRUE NORTH tonight, it has been 3 years since we started our wednesday night tradition, and John Sholders will be speaking (he is amazing) and you had all day to bumb around, so now you can come and have fun w/ people...
If you want to come to TRUE NORTH, and you don't know your way then here are some directions
(From Blackman)
Get on Manson Pike/Medical Center Parkway
go past the new hospital, and you'll eventully past toots, then you'll pass the boys and girls club, then after you pass the boys and girls club you will get to a stop light and take a left onto Memorial/96
Then you will stop at the first stop light and take a right onto
Then you will go down and kinda pass MTSU, (you will go through 4 stop lights) and then on the 5th stop light you will take a right onto Bell street, and then the Student Christain Center will be on your right Middle Tennessee State University Rd (it's called something like that, there will be a BP on that corner, and then a UHaul place across the BP)
and if the the parking lot there has no parking spaces you can park across the street in that parking lot

What a treat.

I've waited a while, nice to get a little snow.

Maggie got her braces on today.

I'm gonna go have some fun...

- Jacob

"When the white snow colors the city
Let me stay by your side
Though I may bother you
Again and again
When the white snow melts
And the city becomes vivid and colorful
I like to keep you closest
To my heart"
-Ayu (Carols)

It snowed.  The schoolboard waited until the lastpossiblesecond and then canceled school.  Now the snow has melted, but we are still not in school.  It's third period.  I'm in a bathrobe with coffee.  Altogether, a superb situation.

Apparently my birthday was Saturday....at least according to Lauren and the lady with the sombrero at Don Pablo's.  It was the closest thing to a birthday party that I've had in six years, and it was four months early.  I liked it.

Man alive.  I have all kinds of stuff to say, but not on a public forum.

I guess I'll leave you with this question:

If you had to choose between betraying your country, and betraying the person you loved most, which would you pick?

I am kind of happy that today is a snow day but also I am Not happy at all

well... i want to say to everyone that i'm sorry.

i'm sorry for anything i've ever said that made you feel insignifigant, hurt your feelings, or made me seem like an asshole.
sometimes i don't even realize i'm doing it, and i'm trying to think about things more before i say them, and think about how i'm saying them.

i'm sorry for ever being selfish or only thinking about me. for expecting people to do things for me, like it's my right.

and i'm sorry for ever seeimg or being ungreatful or unthankful. for not thanking you when you did something nice for me.
i'm gonna try to start thinking about thanking people more and not assuming they'll know i'm thankful.

and i'm saying this to everyone.

you've all got Kohry to thank for this revelation. he's amazing. he sits me down, and makes me see me the way i am. and it tears me up. but he knows just how to build me back up to feel better about myself and be a better person.
i'm so naked around him. sometimes it's scary... but i'm so thankful for him.

i love you all so much.

-stephen-

So CFTA auditions for Macbeth were last night.  The guy handing out forms was a self-rightous jerk.  The director admittedly scared me at first by going around in sunglasses inside at night (later discovered to be the fault of ocular issues).  And one of the women who read the three weird sisters' "double double" monologue had actually called the director's wife and found out he was looking for "earthy, provocative sisters."  So we were.... Earthy and provocative, I guess.  During Earthy Provocation, I realise that the last time most of these people saw me I was capricious, prepubescent, asexual Ariel.  Proceed to feel Earthy-Provocative-Awkward.  Then botch Lady Macbeth's monologue later.  But the whole thing was fun, quite good.  Well, the witch's scene royally rocked out, anyway.  Woohoo!

I need help.  Completely unrelated to the above paragraph.

I had a really weird dream about prom.  Like, REALLY weird.  Extra-weird.  Downright insane, even.  Combined with September 11 and coal mines.  Yeah, that weird.

.....................

So yeah, I decided to take some pics and post them.

Enjoy!!!

I went to a party last night at Lowe's Vanderbilt Hotel. I saw Keith Urban there ladies.....he was just as hot in person. One of my old favorites was there too. SAm Bush. He is a phenominal mandoline player and I was really nervous about talking to him, but he was really nice. We grew up in the same place and he asked me if I was realted to a "Jane Pearl"....why, "Why, yes I am...."

Fun night. Free food. Treva, Brittany, and I watched our boys get tipsy at the bars situated around the room....it was free for the taking, so they took advantage, of course.

Sorry, Carla. I had today off too....

school's out for snow!!!! yay rah! and today is my mom's b-day! WOOT WOOOT! i woke up and panicked cause it was 10 o'clock, and then realized that we were outta skoo! yay! no Oakland for a whole day! i dunno why, but play practice seemed way more fun than usual last night....who knows. anyways, yay for snow days....too bad though, today was malcolm X day for me n kaitlin...---Cari

well....angela is gone. she left at four this morning. she called me not too long ago and they have already made it to chicago. she said they have an hour and a half layover and then it's straight on to vancouver.

au revoir angela

SNOW DAY!!!!!!!!!!!

how much do I love snow... I really don't know but days off are incredible!

man it sucks that MTSU couldn't get out for the snow! not that my classes today are really hard....ooooh choir and opera! ;) but it would have been nice to sleep in and not have to come to work at 8am. congrats to all of y'all who got outta school today! lucky dogs! my day got better after school yesterday....went to la siesta with megan, emily and steve (and yes, that is his name ;) ) and then went back over to steve's and hung out the rest of the night there. i was SOOO excited to see it snowing! that made the entire day 100% better! anyways, i'm at work and really bored and are probly going to go find a quiz or something to take. love you all!!

NO SCHOOL!!!!

I think this is the first SNOW day in like 2 years!!

ANYONE WANT TO GO BOWLING TODAY???BECAUSE WE DONT HAVE SCHOOL!!!!HECK YES!!

No School today

SNOW DAY

Countdown time :

36  Days till Blue Raider Baseball begins

38 Days till Riverdale Baseball Begins

41 Days till Braves Spring Training begins

54 Days till MTCS Baseball begins 

74 Days till Braves open season !

"happy endings are stories that aren't over yet"

would you agree?

it's..

it's snowing :]

"Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails;" -- I Corinthians 13:4-8a

Had an epiphany tonight sitting at dinner. I think I caught a glimpse of why love is such a crazy concept for humans (including myself).
I Corinthians 13 is a very popular passage of scripture, and not without reason. It describes the attributes of a concept that humans live for, dream about, hope for, die for, and sometimes do evil for. This... concept, for lack of a better term, plays a huge role in our lives and has massive weight in our decision making process, but is so confusing for so many of us.
 Look at the attributes of love: Patience, kindness, not jealous, doesn't brag, isn't arrogent, isn't rude, isn't self seeking, isn't easily angered, forgives, doesn't find pleasure in evil, rejoices in truth, bears, believes, hopes, endures, it never fails.
To sum it up, love is everything that depraved man is not. This idea of love is an extreme polar opposite to man! I'm definately not patient (ask my friends), I get jealous, as much as I fight it, I'm arrogent and prideful, I seek out what's best for me, I get angry, then fight to forgive, every single day I find pleasure in some sort of evil, then it burns me up when the truth comes and convicts. I FAIL every single day of my life. Sometimes, it seems kind of hopeless. How can I have something such as love, which is so foreign to my character?

I thank God that I'm not myself. Oh, straggling pieces of my former self may linger and irritate like a splinter under the skin, but those are gradually being pulled out. Romans says I'm being conformed to an image. The image is of the One who fits every description given in this chapter and more. He is the beginning and end of all things, including this crazy idea with a four letter name. God is love.

"Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God, and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. He who does not love does not know God, for God is love. In this the love of God was manifested toward us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him. In this love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another." -- I John 4:7-10

NO SCHOOL
NO SCHOOL
NO SCHOOL

 im done......
soo im putting my Heart back its it protective stage!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

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As most of you are fast asleep on the east coast of our beloved United States I lay on my twin mattress in the middle of the pacific ocean where it is curently 930 with a burning question on my heart.

We've become good at this whole "church language" thing, you and I. We walk this life in the midst of our Christian culture listening to our "christian music" and what not, often spouting weighty phrases with shallow intent.

So, here is my question. What is your answer?

What does it mean for God to be the "consuming fire" in our lives?

We say this phrase and sing this phrase all the time, but what does it mean?

YOUR TURN...

it snowed tonight. <3







have a wonderful week. <3

      The transition of going from having 2 brothers, in the same region of the country, to having 1, is well....quite hard. josh is equally as great..but it's tough these days. justin may be only a call or a text message away, but i still don't feel as complete as i should. this is a scary feeling...i miss him so much, and in a way...it scares me. i think that i just need people too much. maybe not..i have no idea how i'm supposed to cope with certain situations, and this just happens to be one of them. All i want is for my brothers to be happy. if it takes them moving across the world, then praise God that they are doing what they should! in writing this passage, i have come to the conclusion that this "transition" is just part of growing up.

" I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." 

i love clam chowder, and this is my second night having a real late night bowl, and i like it. :)

I can't find my campus map...

I have three classes to attend and I don't know where I'm going.

Steph

don't worry though, i plan to buy it release day though!
----
what all was right's now wrong
going through it all
singing the same dang song
everything's not perfect
and far from alright
yet I play the flute
giving off a sweet sound
when inside i'm off key
standing in a room
instead of on stage
and yet everyone still
sees me

oh man

this happy thing makes me smile

<33

 YiPp YiPp;;

 Sarah got new pictires! and they are better then ever.

So pretty sure if any of you people have xanga or myspace you better come to mine www.xanga.com/pebbles4life667 OR www.myspace.com/sarah6107

Ta-da!!!

Sarah...</3

Flyin Solo offically sux!

hello me again, i'm about to go to the varsity basketball game @siegel. i think we'll do good. ok well ne way now on to today's FYI

" what the bible says about dating"

dictionary definition: dating- meeting someone socially at a praticualr time, especially a member of the oppsite sex.

alternate defintion: dating- a guaranteed way to turn your parents into basket cases.

bible verse:

" each of you should learn to control his own body in a way that is holy and honorable, not in passionate lust like the heathen, who do not know god....no one should wrong his brother ot take advantage of him."

1 thessalonians 4:4-6  ( self explanitory!)

why is it so scary to ask someone for a date? how old should you be to go out on a date? if a guy spends alot of money on you, do you have to let him kiss you? do you get embarrassed when your parents meet the person you're dating?  

(these are some of the most common questions about dating)

intersesting fact!!

50% of the girls and 40% of guys graduate from high school without ever having a date! 

 ( that is incredible!)

kk have a wonderful day!

I feel ... so.................................bah.

Give me freedom. And keep that wretched A-Team away from me.

Well, I've finally settled on a camera.

My only setback?

It's $1,400.

I think I can do it.

Have you ever been in a place where you really sensed that people didn't know Jesus, and you got a really uneasy feeling about it? Like you were out of place, but you knew that God had your back? That happened to me today.

it's snowing.....WHAT NOW RUTHERFORD COUNTY!!!!!

-KYLE

It is snowing at my house!  It is not very much but it is still fun.  Also hooray for American Idol being back on! (Yeah I said hooray)

How great is our God! How amazing is our Father! From the beginning
of time to the very end he is the same! Never changing, never ceasing to wonderfully
wanting to mold us into His beautiful and perfect picture of what we were created to be. How great is OUR God!
He has given us victory over this world! He has given us the story of all
stories to go and share!!! He has given us divine gifts to strategically stir
his ongoing story to come into fruitation! How GREAT is our God! He has given
us, mere vapors, the privilege to team up with Him, The Creator of ALL, to help
in this divine story He has set into motion! How great is our God! The earth is
filled with His glory! May we not hinder Him in where he wants to take us and
use us! May we have soft hearts to hear the voice of the living God! May this
generation go out to the ends of the earth and proclaim His wonderful name!!!!!
HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! We love you God! We want to see you move in our
generation! We want to see you change our hearts and set them on fire for you!
Oh God we love you and want to be used by you! How great is our God! How great
is our God! How great is our God!

LET IT SNOW
LET IT SNOW
LET IT SNOW

TELL ME

Tell me I'm clever,
Tell me I'm kind,
Tell me I'm talented,
Tell me I'm cute,
Tell me I'm sensitive,
Graceful and wise,
Tell me I'm perfect--
But tell me the truth.

by Shel Silverstein

So I'm watching Phantom of the Opera in Spanish and it's funny. I dunno why...everything is translated correctly...but it's funny how the voices are. anyway...

My mom is getting me the silent brass system because I like to practice in the garage late at night. Lol. So I can now practice a little bit before my auditions in the hotel room...even though I'll have warmup time and all that good stuff.

I can't believe it is actually snowing right now. We all know that it isn't going to stick...but the fact that we have snow makes me happy.

No MYO on Thursday, woot woot! I will come home and take a nap after jazz band...or go eat Asian food...which is it? Maybe both...

yeah.... talking to danielle at the moment.... yup. winter retreat is coming soon soooo it should be funs... ( I F   I   C A N   G O)    yeah lol  rents arent very fun yup.... ok ... yeah I WANNA BE OUTA SCHOOLY SCHOOLY SCHOOL SCHOOL TOMORROOW!!!!

IT'S SNOWING!!!!!!

I STILL have not gotten my Ayu CD... >.<

"Supposing man is a creature
Who is always asking for things he doesn't have
Ah, what is it
That we truly want to have?"
-Ayu (Pride)

ewwww... sooo much rain today. Walking to classes in rain= no fun.

oh but the classes are....

Harmony II
AT II
Piano II
Clarinet Choir
Concert Band (but chances of symphony band now)
Percussion Class
English 1020(again, but online this time so no retarded professor)
College Algebra
Concert Choir
So I have like a total of 17 hours, not too bad... I think I might have forgotten something. Oh yeah Lessons... I think thats it... ok Im gonna go watch Gilmore Girls now!!

Aright so i went to the class i didnt go to the first two times today. It is so stinkin awesome. It is called spiritual formation of a minister and it is hopefully going to be awesome! I really liked the first class (third for everyone else lol) Anyways just thought i would share i am excited about the class!!!!! PS i like how i got no remarks on my last post I see that no one cares about the mustang haha but you know what its somthing i like doing so...... BOOOOOOYAAAAAA! haha yall have a good day!

In Him,
Jonathan

Let it snow !

who thinks we sould get out of school ?

ok so I saw four flakes and I got excited !

Now its freaking stopped ! BOOOOO !!!

Im taking back what  I said ! Its freaking snowing again!

*************

Countdown time :

37  Days till Blue Raider Baseball begins

39 Days till Riverdale Baseball Begins

42 Days till Braves Spring Training begins

55 Days till MTCS Baseball begins 

75 Days till Braves open season !

i finally got my camera fixed and so there are some pretty amazign photo's on here

Remember that all blessings are blood bought through Christ Jesus our lord.

Rember that all we deserve from God is condemnation, and hell.

Remember that the only thing we should exalt in, is the cross. (Galations 6:14)

Now if that doesn't blow your socks off, u really should examine yourself.

That just makes me super happy

Rain on the first day back to school = uncool. But it was a fairly good day regardless.

My acting class seems pretty cool. It's small and I always like that. We played an icebreaker game and I already know everyone's name and guess what? There's another Amy! Ah! Figures! Most of them aren't theatre majors either, so I don't have to feel inferior... ha ha. We have to read eight contemporary (1960s to present) plays (of our choice) so if you have any suggestions please let me know.

My history teacher is waaaay cool. His class is going to be a little challenging, but I think I'm up for it. 75% of my grade is three tests... EEK! The other 25% is a research project. I think I'll learn a lot in his class though. Sarah B.'s in that class with me.

And God's up to something. There is a girl I met in my acting class and it turns out that she is in THREE of my classes! Yeah... three! And I know she's not a Christian. She cusses a lot and such... but she seemed to take to me pretty quickly (after she discovered we have the same major). So yeah... pray for her... and pray that I can be a witness to her. Because this is just too insane..

And I have to say... I love the library, and having adventures there with my friends.

I have a new jazz pianist. Pablo. That is very exciting. We have a lot of common goals and he is so talented. Next I need a new upright bass player cause Robert is too committed to another band. Grrrr. He warned me about it, so I can't be too upset about it. We had put a lot of work into it though.

I have some great ideas that I can't wait to put to work. I am trying to finish up a variation of 12 bar blues that is really jazzy! "Pins and Needles"...just wait.

hehehe... oakland high school colorguard members!!
remember this? :D

rain.. rain.. and more rain. which really isn't a problem. (:

i skipped school today because frankly... i slept in. not on purpose of course but yeah i slept in. didn't wake up till 930. and then i had breakfast and just stayed home. and it is raining.... :D

in other news my cell phone was cut off...so don't try to call (: but on the good side of that, today i am going to look for cell phones and see what i can afford with a pay as you go plan. (:

that and im going to the bank to get a money order for my yearbook since you know im almost 18 and i have to take on more responsibility than i have been since i was 16.

ive never gotten a money order before. (: first time for everything..

i wish i had one of these sitting in my house. i would grow money on my little tree and never have to worry about anything. (: but i wouldn't go over board with it...

well its time to go. (: see ya lata alligata.

so i watched Who Framed Roger Rabbit? last night
because it's the only movie i have with a stereotypical yankee investigator
hmm...

So in lunch today I found a RHS yearbook and found bunches of Zach Prichard pictures... that made me very happy.  I also got to miss half of 1st period so I could go dig christmas lights out of my attic for the door decoration contest.  Oh and Sunday we went to Let It Shine and I am so sore I can hardly move.

It's made official. I am aboslutely stressed. Mk, here's my agenda.

1)Biology II DNA Molecule project
2)English Paper (worth 635 pts. . .yeah I know!)
3)English Macbeth Video (due when we're done reading it. . do we know what that is? NO!)
4)Learning allstate music and singing it RIGHT(we don't even have all of our music and Mrs. Adams is like RLLY sick)
5)Musical Rehearsals
6)Job (but I took care of that at the beginning of January. . I'm only working on like fridays saturdays and sundays now. .)

My parent's have been raging on me and telling me, 'Cayla, you aren't the same person that you used to be. You blah blah blah!' But i believe that it's because I'm sooooo stressed, that that's the reason why I'm so irrated with people right now. I can't help it! So Me and Brittaney have decided to atleast try to read a couple chapters of the bible during directed studies for our benefit, I know it'll help. Well I must be going! Say some prayers for me. I'm going to need it cuz all of those projects and papers and also allstate is due or going on at the beginning of February. Luv ya'll!

Cay

I made halibut last night.  I don't suppose it is a coincidence that it is called HaliBUT and it tastes like a BUTT.  I really like fish....but this particular fish can permanantly remove itself from my menu rotation. 

sonia: where are your pajamas?

me: i'm wearing them.

sonia: you sleep in jeans?

me: no, under that.

sonia:oooookay . . .

I have this as the background for my myspace and thought that it was excellently suited for my current situation.

I want it to be inconvenient; I want to sacrifice my life for it. I want the kind of love that wakes me up at 3am.I want love that hurts, love that I have to work for. I want love that tests me. I want the kind of love that is hard to find, and hard to keep and never easy. I want the kind of love where you get hurt. I want love that makes me cry. I want to hold on even if it takes me through my worst nightmare. But most of all I want love thats worth it. I want love.

fhsjkhfkls
BUMP YOU!
I'm so fresh and so clean....
nigga.

rofl.
I'm so white.

well me and jordan broke upon thursday... i dunno what happened it just ended i guess. but im not sure whats gonna happen. we might get back together in the future, we might not. but he still talks to me, and we got together on friday. so im not really sure, b/c he's sending me a lot of mixed messages. i still really like him so im not sure what to do.

hmmmm.... well at least i have many good friends to get me thru this. Jamie, Kayla, Max, etc... i love you guys and i know yall will stay by my side and help me stay on the right track.

love forever and always,

Tiffany Marie

yeah, so i really hope my new Ayu CD comes in today... it seems like i've been waiting for it forever! >.<

i have a voice lesson today! ^^ w00t!

"I feel myself most miserable
When I can't step forward at the big moment
You know? People often say
Regret after action is better than regret without action"
-Ayu (Bold & Delicious)

hey everyone well i have a a phusebox duh.....well leave me some comments

ugh. first day already sucks. been up for a little over 2 hours and been at school for almost 1 and it's already been a crappy day. there was a monsoon when i woke up after only 2 hours of sleep, meaning that MTSU was going to be one big lake. my shoes are not water-friendly and my jeans are completely soaked pretty much from the knee down. AND i lost my earring along the treck from my car to work. BOOO! AND i have to see people at school that i would really be ok with never seeing again in my life. but, life goes on. my boy gets more amazing everyday and i am sooo lucky to have found him. should i tell you his name??? hmmm........maybe i'll make you beg a little while longer ;)

So yesterday I went and saw Tristan & Isolde.  It was a great movie.  Didn't break down like I thought I was going to.  I just miss her so much.  And now she tortures me by sitting across from me.  I'm sorry I haven't moved on like you have.  I can't just forget all of the things I felt for you in a single day.  Well, I can't be mad at her, I am the one who fucked everything up.  I ruined our relationship.  There is not a thing in the worl I wouldn't do or give to have her back.  But that will never be....

Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking.  Instead, fix your attention on God.  You'll be changed from the inside out. Romans 12:2 (msg remix)

so the fact that i can't sleep at night, and the fact that everything ( i mean absolutely everything) reminds me of a random memory of the past has brought me to a conclusion. suddenly, it seems as if i am ready to face the past. i've realized that ignoring that you have a past doesn't mean that you've faced it and gotten over it. it just means you are ignoring it. and as a very good friend once told me, i can't get on with my future, or even have a future, until i stop clinging to and hitching onto the past. i've got to get past it and leave it behind. so it's time to deal. bear with me...

so tonight was my last night at CFA for like.... a year (since i'll be at the Wilds all summer). and it was cool. i was on dishes... i think i had a little too much fun w/ the soap bubbles (i can't resist :) haha. got some hugs... i think i'll stick those in my pocket and save them for later. lol. in some ways... moving on is so awesome.. and in some ways... it's always hard. i guess it's a part of growing up... spreading your wings and flying. i'm not a little girl anymore... so why do i still feel like it at times? somethings and some people are easily left behind... and others... well... not so easily. but they stay in your heart... and you can look back and remember what they mean to you. the hard part is the emptiness it leaves... but that's one of the reasons that God is always there... He's the only One that can fill those shoes and stand in that gap of your heart at all times. He's the One that knows that you've been awake all night thinking... He's the One that hears your deepest sigh... He's the One that sees who you've been, who you are, and who you can and will be. He's the One that knows you're nervous about that test in 3rd period. He knows everything that goes on in your life.. He knows your strengths, weaknesses, struggles, hopes, fears, longings... He knows it all! so... for me... He's my reason to keep pressing on. ~Hope

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4 days!!! woot!

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In John 8:31-32, Jesus told His followers, "If you continue in My word, you really are My disiples. You will know the truth and the truth will set you free."

Truthful thinking is defining myself by what God's Word says about me. It is looking at myself and the world around me through Jesus' eyes. The Bible tells us that we are remarkably and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), that we are loved by God and were bought with a price so we could have fellowship with Him (John 3:16; 1 Corinthians 7:23)... Our tired and pessimistic spirit tells us we're not worth the effort; the world tells us to empower ourselves with positive self-talk. But Jesus assures us that we are loved by Him and created for His glory, and this truth will set us free. 

-Rachel Evans, taken from Journey



Ah that is so awesome! Just what I needed to read! God's truth will indeed set us free! You are not defined by this world or by circumstances, you are defined by God and Him alone. That is the truth. Let this set you free. We were not made to be held captive by anything. Seek God's truth and let Him set you free! The truth is so imporant in every aspect of our lives.

Tomorrow seems to be a pending transaction with the devil.

I know I shouldn't be so negative about going back to spring semester classes when I have had a nice month long break but at the moment I can't seem to conjure any thought that could possibly be positive about going back to the monotonous routin of college classes. No...I lied. I am out almost everyday before 12 pm. The only exception to this lovely thing is one of my lectures that is in the middle of the day. Couldn't have a perfect schedual now could I?

Looking for a part time job at the moment...pretty sure I'll end up looking into cleaning houses. I already do that for two people and make $220 a month so why not join something that offers a starting wage of $10? Then again I like having a little bit of a social life and I hate cleaning up after ungrateful people. Herschel said that I would be on the job and someone would ask me to do something for them and the first words out of my mouth, after a nice long eye roll, would be "You made the mess you clean it up. I have other things to do." Sadly daddy laughed and agreed. So I have a very outspoken opinion...I can't help that I know what I think!

So maybe I won't be going into the cleaning thing...two houses is good enough. I have some options open and there is no hurry because daddy and Herschel both with take care of me, they both like that I think I'm going to be an independent little girl but at the same time they are always there to help.

Got a new car...finally out of the mommy-mobile after four years of driving it. I'm grateful as all get out for the vibe and can't wait to show my daddy how much. I already suprised him by buying my tags and license plate while also calling into the insurance company to see how much it would be to move the van to a liability only and the vibe to full coverage. Even with all of that said and done daddy says I'll be back in a mini van in a few years when I get married. I laughed at him.

Herschel came to church with me this Sunday and I'm proud to say that we have both talked to his parents and they have agreed that he could come to Christian Life instead of his home church and they are even considering seeing what grabbed Herschel's heart in one visit. He loved Paster Ron's sermon, he felt Ron was real and down to earth. I love that he can love the chruch that I call home.

Anyway enough babble. Off to bed with me so I can get up in time for school! See you all around.

~Stephanie

http://s63.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2JZTKKIQ7IZJZ1E980KPSBTHB4

woot woot

the timing is sorta weird with the second part, but whatever. mesage me and tell me what you think. ill send the lyrics if you want also...

i wrote it a while ago and never got around to recording it.
im 13, remember, and this was done in half an hour.
the timeing is a little off in the second part of the song... but thats bout it.
if you want, message me and ill send you the lyrics, which im also very proud of

please tell me what you think

Have you ever tried and tried to reach someone and no matter the effort or the pain or the tears you allow them to see it never seems to get through? I just don't understand the hardness I see in some people. I can't stand to see someone cry, especially someone I love. I just don't understand. I don't understand lack of compassion or lack of gentleness, I guess in my mind that just comes with loving someone. I have tried so hard to always see the other person's side, to try and feel what they feel that maybe I've forgotten to feel what I feel. Maybe that explains the heaviness in my heart. I don't know what to do with all I feel. Some of it is so good and some of it is so hard, just like some people. Just hard. How do you get through to that? Better yet, how do you love that and not lose yourself? I am a hopeless romantic, someone who believes in fairytales and the butterfly feeling and walks in the park, and poetry and nights spent under the stars. I want all of that. I believe in loving one person heart, mind, body, and soul and committing completely. But how do you live by those beliefs with someone who doesn't display so many of them? I don't know the answer anymore. I thought everything was so right, I was so sure. Now I'm not sure of anything. How do you know what someone feels about you unless they show you? You can't just know all the time? How do you know someone is sorry if they don't say they are? You can't, or at least I can't. I believe in saying AND living. But sometimes I wonder how much longer that belief will persist. A little girl's dreams of her prince and happily ever after only last through so many poundings and sleepless-tear-filled nights. Mine seem to be succumbing. I lack the ability to revive them.

So I clicked on find people by accident and to my suprise, it gave a listing of "suggested friends" - So it was funny to me that Josh was a 15% match??? whatever that means - just a funny thought.  I think we're a good match:)

Steph

well i have no stitched open wounds ( does that make any sense? whatever) and i cant wait to get a new job. any suggestions? monotonous is ok, sharp things not ok, cooking ok if not fast food. help me out

later

Well, if you're into the whole gay cowboy thing like some people...

*cough*

Then you will like Brokeback Mountain.  Mmmmmm.  Pardon my drool.  It's sad, but it's hella good.  Of course, who really thinks that a love story about gay cowboys set in the 1960s and 70s is going to have a happy ending?  Not I.

Good weekend.  Watched a lot of movies.  Beverly Hills Ninja, Fun With Dick and Jane, Brokeback Mountain, Beauty and the Beast, Phantom of the Opera...

Whoo.  Busy busy.

Le sigh.  I went shopping at Opry Mills today to try to find some clothes that would fit me.  By the grace of God I found one pair of jeans at GAP that wasn't completely fugly and another at Aeropostale that also was not completely fugly.  I also got a new skirt and a new jacket.  ^_^  Spending about 10 minutes in the Opry Mills Old Navy made me decide I should take higher stock in ours.  When you've been at a loss finding clothes big enough to fit you all day and in the space of five minutes you look around and see an abundance of 16s and 18s, you know you've found something good.

School in 8 hours.  Bed time.

so. there's this guy that i'm thinking likes me..
which is weird b/c we're friends..
and i kindof have a crush on his bestfriend..
but his bestfriend has a girlfriend.

so that basically sucks.

oh well.

i need to stop thinking so much about my single life. and enjoy it while i'm still single.

BUT ANYWAYS

today was fun.. i hung out with Scott and Garrett. We went to Toot's, books-a-million, starbucks, then to pick up Kacey, then to ToysRus, then party city.

and garrett made a good point and made me realize that
i should stop worrying about being single so much.

but anyways... i thought i had 1 crush.. but now... i have 2.
bleh.

♥

Im a strong girl ` keeping everything in line
Even wit tears streamin down my cheek ,
I always manage to say the words " IM FINE"

put up 15 new pics and thanks to my awesomly fast new net service its only took a few mins

well its off to shcool tomorrow sadly enough

the past 3 days have been nice and seemed to last forever for some bizarre reason that i wont argue with

well its been nice talking to you guys

life is good eternal life is better

-milly

p.s. please pray for kael hes goin though some crap no one should ever have to deal with

So here's some of what I've been learning in Photoshop, thanks to my good friend Jen!  It's not a lot, but it is really cool in my book.  I'm proud of myself...can't wait to learn more! What do you all think??

This is one I've been working on for our upcoming youth ski retreat.

This one is just for fun and learning.

photo from acrossgeneration

i hate myself sometimes. im sorry you guys that i am not very intelligent sometimes. i love you all!

so on a lighter note my schedule is as follows:

MWF done at 12:25
TR done at 12:45
in case someone wants to eat some lunch i have a big gap on W for a couple hours. but anyway let me know. hope to see more of you guys this semester. maybe my job wont kill me again along with Bio 2020. yeah so talk to you all soon i love you!

on the eve of my second semester of college, i ponder this question: what can I do this semester that will make me not so busy than last semester?

well, i backed up my schedule an hour so that my lunch hour is free before i have to go in to work. during that hour i can work on my homework and visit with friends that i havent seen in a long time.

when i get home i wont have as much school work to do because i would have already done it at school. if i do have some school work, i probably wont do it because being a full time student is very draining.

also, in about two months i will be a younglife leader. after spring break i will be going to either oakland, siegel, riverdale, or blackman to do my contact work. contact work is where i get to have "my boys" and i go do stuff with them. i need to free up some of my nights to where i can go and hang with them. and i have to have monday night off for younglife club.

i must get to bed. gotta get rested up because i probably wont stop till may. peace.

k sohere it goes.... i met this guy at mid-state.... and i liked him alot.... and he lives in Lavernge and now ill probly never see him again.... and i cried....
so how was your day?

what is love?

After being getting soaked in the Gulf Coast in 40* weather, losing my BRAND NEW PHONE for 30 seconds on the BEACH ((longest 30 seconds of my life)), getting asked by a random ((hot)) guy if I thought he was weird for wearing velour pants on the beach, doing a lot of Jesus praising, going to Wal-Mart for tampons and arch supports, getting sand in my camera and having it basically die, sharing a king sized bed  with Becky and Laura, stopping by every gas station in the state of Alabama in our five mpg van, getting a flat tire, and stuck in a traffic jam, I'm finally back.

And I have to do laundry.

School strarts tomorrow.

What a fun day!  We held Harrison's 3rd Bday party on Saturday afternoon, Jan. 14th.
I baked the cake for the party and a personal cake for the Birthday boy.  It was much fun!

Harrison's very own cake.

It was very yummy.

H. and his bestest buddy, Sam.

Harrison (ahem). I mean, Woody, of course!
:o)  Giddy-up!