In A Relationship
Blackman High School
jazz. music. running. relaxing. volunteering. improv. writing. hearing \'sara freakin johnson\' in a crowded room. being random. being with the best friends a chick could ask for.
matchbook romance. alfred reed. eric whitacre. frank sinatra. the ataris. sugarcult. tte. michael buble. goo goo dolls. something corporate. death cab for cutie. herbie hancock. ella fitzgerald. nat king cole. sammy nestico. dci. dave matthews band. yellowcard. harry connick jr. adagio for strings
it\'s a wonderful life
the perks of being a wallflower, the lovely bones
it's the end of something simple & the beginning of everything else
April 16 2006
well, it's been over a month.
all-state orchestra was beyond amazing, i believe that's the first time i've ever felt accomplished with my music. this week is senior week, then prom. my brother leaves for boot camp two days afterward, then it's my final blackman band concert ever.
(( the nostalgia is suffocating yet comforting in its own absurd sense ))
i have had alot of time to think about my brother leaving. the only certain thing i know about it is that it's the same day of concert dress rehearsal & all the freshmen are going to be wondering why their drum major has no emotion.
i am going to get over it, i just don't know if things will be the same.
i know they won't.
March 06 2006
the lyric of
" your skin & bones turn you into something beautiful "
has never made so much sense.
running everyday is making me so tired, not to mention i havent been eating at school to begin with. (considering how hard some of the allstate orchestra stuff is, i don't have the time anyway) i guess this will aide in mine looking okay for the prom fashion show. oh wait. i'm surrounded by twigs. yaaaaaay.
but running makes me forget that my brother is leaving. and not eating makes it okay to run, because it actually shows something. & i've been going to the tanning bed so i won't be a casper for prom. so i've basically slipped into the whole conceited persona that i never wantd to become. atleast for now. maybe it's because i'm really tired and stressed.
this thing is nice to rant on, because no one ever reads it.
(( the one bright spot is that the boy and my friends are amazing, just to let you know ))
December 07 2005
i love the wintertime. and my music, and my friends.
(( i called you from paris, to tell you that i wrote out names on the observation deck of the eiffel tower ))
November 12 2005
am i wrong to say that everyone can be overjoyed, it's just the act of finding it?
(( i'd have to say life is pretty sweet ))