walking home in the rain

August 20 2006

Why do I do this? I treat him so badly. Why does he stay with me? I keep telling him "I call you more" and "I'll try harder" but I really don't. I am bushing him away. I am doing it. What has he done? Nothing, he's been the best boyfriend that anyone could ask for. What does he get in return?


I almost want to throw up. I love him so much, but what does that mean if he doesn't know it? I miss him saying I love you. That song that Josh Groban sings is basically how it makes me feel when he says it.

If I don't start being the boyfriend that he is for me, he'll leave me.

Come what may.