what if i don't matter?

May 02 2006

what if i die and no one cares?


what if no one comes to my funeral?


what if i don't matter?


all i want is to save the world.


(is that too much to ask?)


i want my own chapter in the history books.


(i would settle for a paragraph.)


what if i spend my entire life in tennessee and my bones spend forever rotting away in a country graveyard?


(forgotten by everyone except the man who mows the grass.)


what will my headstone say?


who will bring flowers year after year?




anyone?




all i want is to change the world.


(am i that selfish?)


to be loved.


(what is love?)


what if even God forgets me?


(impossible.)




i really need a hug.


(or at the very least a phonecall.)

Eric Bean

May 02 2006
You can have a hug, but I refuse to give you a phone call. It's always busy.

Mady

May 02 2006
you matter to me. you matter to a ton of people. i love you. i would care if you died. and i bet you will have a chapter in the history books. and even if you don't, you will be remembered. i'll bring you flowers. although i don't see why you would want them after you were already dead. and you probably will change the world. out of all of the people i know, you are one of the people i most expect to be great and do great things. i don't think you will spend your whole life stuck in tennessee. unless something happens and you decide you want to. if you can't get out, there's no hope for me. and i'm about 1000% sure you don't have to worry about God forgetting about you. i will give you a big hug next time i see you. i love you.

Sara Shaban

May 02 2006
hey you.

Cari Jennings

May 02 2006
dang...well, brian, i would come to your funeral...and i would dance upon your grave, MUAHAHAHAHA! (cough cough)...j/k, j/k. i would cry a lot. and then probably die. btw, world dictators don't rot in TN cemeteries...they lie in state in some huge building. and i think mady loves you. so i that's a comfort i suppose. just have some manzanita sol and a bag of crack. you'll feel better. and if you don't, come to my house, and we can listen to Kanye West and 3-6-Mafia. much love and side-hugs to you.

Jessica Goss

May 03 2006
Hey Kid. I'd give you a hug and a phone call but uh, when my phone broke all my numbers got deleted. So we should hang out and catch up sometime. Coffee? Lunch? I'm up for whatever. <33

Amy

May 03 2006
We all love you Brian, and it's not selfish to want to change the world or to be loved, because God programmed that into you. He will give you the desires of your heart if you ask Him.

Megan

May 03 2006
I will bring flowers. I will give you a hug Friday. You can call me and talk if you want.