i think sometimes that i forget that i have POWER in Christ. and when i am getting attacked by satan, with the power through Jesus, i can overcome that. i can't wait until the day when i can boldy say this is me...this is where i came from, this is my life...this is what God did in it. i can't wait until i can find my security in God. i want to stand firm, nothing moving me... i want to realize that God alone can meet and go beyond any expectations that i do so foolishly make... he will NEVER disappoint me... i want to really, really, for sure, realize that God loves ME. that i am truly treasured by someone... i hate being an emotional mess, so i guess in cari terms i am having an "emo day"... and i hate how those days can flow over into your relationships with people...and make everything all blah. so sorry to anyone that i may of made upset due to my emo-ness. and i am tired...full of thoughts and emotions... a tad sad, a tad lonely, and most of all just plain confused. oh well, that is life. and God is faithful and loving enough, that despite who i am , he will rise me up. so that should give me great hope, eh? sorry that i am all sad and down and crap...and crying, which you can't exactly see...but shhhhhh, so sorry for the "emo" post...and i am gonna stop now because the tears are totally making it so i can't see the stupid keyboard...haha that made me laugh. i hope everyone has a super great day! please remember that God loves you!!!