so... i like to think back sometimes. not to remain in the past, but to look back to where i was and where i am now.

today is november 19th.

last year this date, according to xanga *shutters with the thought* (jk jk), i was about to leave to go on the cruise. crazy stuff. and it also marked the 4th month of no dating for me.

and the year before, i was a senior at RHS. and according to the good 'ol journal, i was at WOC (world outreach church)... and confused. haha i was like that a lot. but those are l-o-n-g stories. but the thing that was OK to be confused about was my friendship with certain individuals and how that needed to change.

and the year before... was a sad day.

so really, since november 19th 2002, this time of year has not been the same... and since january 2004, winter hasn't been the same. funny how things change. and funny how certain songs, weather, and smells can bring back so many memories.

and funny how i get crazy thoughts like this when i am laying in bed...

but i guess you may be wondering the reason i am even posting... i am too actually. haha, delerium maybe starting to set in.

no, but, i like to do this, i guess, to see if i am growing... if i have changed. and my, oh my, have things changed!

have you ever thought about just how important change is? it is inevitable and essential for our growth.

and perhaps i will be posting more stuff about change, mainly due to the fact that my life is changing dramtically.

but there you have it kids. a late night, random thoughts post. with some color... haha i cant be that bold silly... i'll stick to the gray and black. simple.

i hope everyone has a great day!