*sigh*

i don't think my daddy likes me anymore
:/

hahaha

am i not allowed to be happy?
this is best for me&him
but instead he gets all dramatic and asshole on me

i just wanna scream

this one is calling me out of my shelter, to face the truth.

kids. ew. babysitting. double ew.
i'm here, letting reice distract hanna and caleb
ugh

i am so confused
do i love him?
but i really wanna date him..
but the guy i "love"....
ugh. how does this work?

i am definately crushing on a certain young man
        w0w the past two days made it worse
& sitting on the roof until two in the morning doesn't help anything
        well yeh it does. but it made other things worse

yum.
wheat thins...

some guy31689: he needs to get high with trent

i got bit by the footlights
i got caught in the headlights
in any place but here

is anyone really worth it?

i vote no.

 have hope for that world that reeks of the scent of flowers, and is always blue skies deep in your soul.

jealousy
ew
i hate it
but i can't help it when i see those gorgeous girls...

how did we end up like this?
         i really like it
i really love you

so i kept it.
oops?

today, hopefully, my, nikki, and jonathon at the park
haha

sumer is here, dears
congrats
have fun.

what would you say if i pierced my lip?

i'm going to miss jonathon
*sigh*
that boy kept me going this year

tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
even though you don't know my version of him
even though you don't see his thoughts
even though you don't really know me
tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
so no one knows either of us
so no one can understand our motives
so no one sees it like me
even though
tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
speak to me like you know
speak to me your truth
speak to me how it should be
tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
to love a boy like him
to love that boy
tell me that i was wrong
to fall in love
tell me that i am wrong
to be in love

ohohoh
guess who i get to see tomorrow?
BETH
how cool is that?
         {in case you don't know that is super duper amazingly cool}
she's so much cooler than you

it's getting better
sorta
not really....

but i'm laughing

i broke my finger
          i have to wear glasses cos of an eye infection
i broke a boy's heart on accident
          i have an almost broken heart

everything is going so not right
and it's getting hard to deal with
and i don't have a best friend anymore to help
and this is sad.

haha
i like to laugh
you should laugh too

i am officially doing xc next yr
yay for me

"it hurts to want everything&nothing at the same time"-Michelle Branch
i get that line now. haha

people people people. if you've tried calling me on my cell...SO SORRY but it's been acting..odd. so just keep trying? and once my phone goes back to normal yeh....lol.

today+me=m-day shopping, cleaning, entertaining Mary (bri's g.f) and Richard

*sigh* it's not going the way it should

be careful how you bend me
                              be careful where you send me
careful how you end me
                             be careful with me-Patty Griffin

listen to her [Patty Griffin] she is amazing
            yAy for pretty boys who help you out, even if it means fighting with you, just to make you do what will make you happy.

i have this feeling
of being breathless
and confused
and it's amazing
and terrifying
and horrid
and i hate it
         I blame HIM

 

JAZZ FEST TONIGHT
so many people
jazz fest tomorrow
even more people
          i'll have my minolta camera tonight
          that means lots of fun pics
          so i'll get them developed then scanned then
           on here
guys+me=grrrrr

i don't believe him

oh well
nobigdeal

why is "love" so hard
&why must i be so cynical

sometimes i don't believe that there is love
and sometimes i don't even have hope
it makes me sad
almost all the time

why did he forgive me?
why did he help me?
why didn't he get mad?
why did he, instead, make me feel loved?
           That's what makes him so great
           What an amazing boy.

"this way >" to break my heart

the sun is surely sinking down
       the moon is surely rising
so the world must still be spinning 'round 
      & i still love you
so close your eyes, you can close your eyes, its alright
       i don;t know no love songs & i can't sing the blues anymore
but i can sing this song
      &you can sing this song when i'm gone
it won't be long before another day
     we gonna have a good time
and no one's gonna take that time away
      you can stay as long as you like
so close your eyes, you can close your eyes, it's alright
       i don;t know no love songs, and i can't sing the blues anymore
but i can sing this song & you can sing this song when i'm gone
     (james taylor....ah, how i love james taylor)

what is love?
can i stop loving you now?
you don't love me right?
please tell me that so i can just giveup.

i won't be stupid again
i promise
i won't do that

i will sleep now
do homework tomorrow
be happy.smile.please
its more than i can do.

today was wow
       i broke his finger...sorry
i'm missing you
&
i don't even know you
yet
      i want plans this weekend
      call me? k
listen to 'lips of an angel' by hinder
&
listen to 'angel eyes' by the jeff healey band

thankyou

i don't need this right? his lies...but is he lieing? does he just not know his own feelings? wtf? hahaha oh well.
                   Happy Easter my dears
have a wonderful day
                 & remember, if that..'significant other' is giving you doubts, just know, iloveyou, &i'm here for you. 

"trust me" the fray

Looking for something I've never seen
Alone and I'm in between
The place that I'm from and the place that I'm in
A city I never been
I found a friend or should I say a foe
Said there's a few things you should know
We don't want you to see we come and we go
Here today, gone tomorrow
We're only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand
If I say who I know it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me we don't give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me we don't have honesty
The things we don't want to speak
I'll try to get out but I never will
Traffic is perfectly still
We're only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand
And then again maybe you don't
And then again maybe you won't
When you're older you might understand
When you're older you might understand