So I've come out of the dark hole called school and finally have time to write something!!! I am so upset and ashamed at myself because I broke down and joined the rest of the college world yesterday.... I am now on facebook. *heavy, ashamed sigh*. I was proud of myself for not giving in to another crazy fad of this world. We all remember the days of side ponytails and big bangs... enough said.... Anyway, my roommate Lacy convinced me into joining facebook so I'm on there and I have been trying to figure out how to use it which is annoying. I have little patience for technology,but I am pressing on. I am already connected to like 300-something people just through like 4 friends. Thats way too many people! Oh well, if you want to be my friend just look me up, I'll probably accept you.

Different topic: School is so much harder that I thought it was going to be this semester!!!! I feel like I am constantly running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I have been talking to God about it, because I don't think things are suppose to be this crazy, right? I dunno. All I know is that it has been hard because my heart's desire is to spend time with girls in the dorms and build friendships with them and share the gospel, but that hasn't been happening the past two weeks because of school work. I was frustrated and threw my hands up to God and just said, "I don't understand. I want my life to count for You and I'm trying to do that, but I don't see school work as glorifying to you. I NEED YOU to show me how this glorifies you." Well of course He is so great and faithful that He has been showing me how even in school work I can glorify him. Its not an easy thing, I am constantly having to remind myself and claim Truth. But I am seeing that through my school work God is teaching me that diligence in studying and being responsible with my time are things that glorify God. I am in the midst of learning this right now so I definitely don't have it all mastered, but God is stretching me and challenging me in this area, which is good because it means that He loves me and is growing me. God is good especially in refining our hearts. I see that I need to Trust in the Lord and NOT lean on my own understanding because my understanding is faulty and full of lies. God is good.