You know something I just realized... I want to be IN LOVE with God... I know sounds so dang cleche... but i do. YOu know when you are interested in someone how every thought every emotion every piece of energy is consumed by that person. YOu always wonder what they are thinking, how they are feelings, what drives them, all of it... well i want that with God.

When did that stop or was it ever really there... I want to be excited by God, driven to please him, that "I can't sit still, can't breath, can't think about anything but who He is and what he wants"... I want to serve him and his people with a passion I can't imagine... I want to remember the excitement of seeing people get Him, of people desiring his promises... I want to be reminded why I am here... I just need to know how to get from here... to there... one small step at a time huh...

Ezekial 16:
15"But you thought you could get along without me, so you trusted instead in your fame and beauty. You gave yourself as a prostitute to every man who came along. Your beauty was theirs for the asking! 16You used the lovely things I gave you to make shrines for idols, where you carried out your acts of prostitution. Unbelievable! How could such a thing ever happen? 17You took the very jewels and gold and silver ornaments I had given you and made statues of men and worshiped them, which is adultery against me. 18You used the beautifully embroidered clothes I gave you to cover your idols. Then you used my oil and incense to worship them. 19Imagine it! You set before them as a lovely sacrifice the fine flour and oil and honey I had given you, says the Sovereign LORD.