I found this today while cleaning out my closet. It was given to me my sophmore year by my Sociology teacher at Northeast.

He's Been Faithful
By: Carol Cymbala

In my moments of fear
Through every pain, every tear;
There's a God
Who's been faithful to me.

Whem my strength was all gone,
When my heart had no song,
Still in love
He's proved faithful to me.

Every word He's promised is true;
What I thought was impossible
I see my God do.

He's been faithful, faithful to me.
Looking back His love and mercy I see.
Though in my heart, I have questioned,
Even failed to believe,
Yet He's been faithful, faithful to me.

When my heart looked away
The many times I could not pray,
Still my God
He was faithful to me.

The days I spent so selfishly
Reaching out for what pleased me,
Even then
God was faithful to me.

Every time I come back to Him,
He is waiting with open arms;
I see once again.

He's been faithful, faithful to me.
Looking back His love and mercy I see.
Though in my heart I have questioned,
Even failed to believe,
Yet He's been faithful, faithful to me.

Today I came across many things that have caused many moments of reminiscence; some happy, some sad, but mostly bittersweet. Sweet in the fact that they showed a period of spiritual growth, maturity, and responsiblity. Bitter in the fact that they are only just memories, no longer a part of my life. Over the past 5 months or so I have been living in a drought. I could probably count on my hands the number of times that I have actually prayed. I've only been to church maybe 4 times and read my Bible probably less than that. I don't want to live like this, but saying that simply isn't enough. Over the weekend I have pondered many things, this being the main one. I've come to realize that it is simply not enough for me to make that statement simply because I know its wrong. I have to say it because I mean it, because I sincerely want to see rain again. However, when it comes to sincerity I can honestly say that I have enjoyed my life over the past few months. Like any other time, its had its ups and downs, but as a whole I have enjoyed it. That is really sad, being able to say that I have enjoyed my life sans a relationship with God. I've begun to worry that my heart has been hardened as I feel that I have become almost completely desensitized to the Holy Spirit. I want to ask that you pray with me for God to pierce my heart and in doing so to create a heart that truly yearns for Him. I know I need Him, I just need to want Him.