* Hello*

Sorry I havent written in a while life has been so crazy! Well since the last update things have gotten a little better but also alot of other things have take place! Well as yall know I lost my Best Friend/Roomate back in January due to a bad car reck and this completly changed my world! I have been dealing with alot of different emtiones and some days have been harder then others but I know God has a reason and plan for everythings...I have become Spritually Sick and not where I need to be with God, and I have started doing things I shouldnt and hanging out with people I shouldnt and almost become so numb to things around me I use to care about and people I use to love being around! My mindset has been Blahh meaning I Am hurting soooooo much I have just simply dont care anymore! Not to mention I am dealing with sooooo many other things. I feel like I am breaking on the inside and that if something doesnt change soon I dont know how much more I am going to beable to handel! Why is it so hard to be loved and accpeted at the same time without having to be someone your not? How mnay times do you have to be rejected, how many times do you have to get hurt , or let down or walked all over? I dont get it???? I try so hard maybe one day things will change!Well I promise I wont make it so long again befor I update again! Please keep me in your prayers I need answers and I need to feel Gods love and grace soooooo bad I havent in a long time......I love yall and thanks for everything! *Haley*