"What Hurts The Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

**Im in LOVE with this song**

Yeah LIFE is just SWELL....

Hanging out,good laughs,sun tans,pictures, and good stories make for a much needed Spring Break. too bad its over....BUT...SUMMER is soon approaching and we can hit the beaches and do all that stuff  again. OH MAN I CANT WAIT!! This summer is going to be AMAZING!!

I pray God speaks through each and every one of you to save the lives of those people down there in Mexico... and that He will give you the words to speak, so that they will not be your own but His. I love yall and im praying for yall...

Your LIFE is your MINISTRY,

Lead it with a PASSION.

wow...i dont think ive ever been that scared in my whole life. oh man.

so...yeah.

This is all so amazing to me.....i just love how God works.

Thursday, Ben comes to see meredith(not me) at reeves-sain and it comes a FLOOD!

Thursday night...Ami and Shelby spend the night.

Chewy!

MULETTS!

uhh...

HA.

Friday afternoon...Fishing,Canoeing,Kayaking,and havin fun....

aw.

I so wasnt ready...ha

getting ready to catch a big one....

me and shelbs...

i triped over this stick and almost died...yea.

OH MAN WAS THIS GUY FUNNY....it was hilarious!

Ami and I kayaking!

mine and shelbs feet....

aww.

me baptizing shelbs!

Garrett and I.

thats a good one

Forrest.

and the backside...

Ben.

Abi,Ami,and Aaron.

The minnos were scared of the worm....ha.

Now...Friday night at Bens house....

shelby...

Bens toe after he hit it...

Ben after he hurt his toe...

wow good times....MY BANANA'S NOT BRUISED!!!HAHAHA! OH MAN!

I dont have any pictures of saturday night because i spilt pink lemonade on my camera and it wasnt working that well...but i went to weston's house and chilled with him because he had surgery and cant go anywhere...but man do i wish i had pictures of that....it was hilarious! wow i love it! well i hope yall enjoyed the pictures! MY FRIENDS ARE MUY BUENO! love yall-chels

God will make a way,

Where there seems to be no way,

He works in ways we cannot see,

But He will make a way for me.

He will be my guide,

Hold me closely to His side,

With love and strength,

For each new day,

He will make a way,

Yes, He will make a way for me.

Mmm...thats that song.

" I have told you these things, so that in Me you may find PEACE. In this world you will have trouble, but take heart, I have overcome the world."

John 16:33

Its going to be okay...I know where i'm suppost to be, and God will make a way for me...

So guys here are some pictures from an amazing week i had last week....enjoy!

Chris Tomlin Concert....

Isnt that Awesome!

Chris Tomlin.

Our new friend Jeremy....that was so awesome.

One Weekend!!!!

AW i love her.

TWINKIES!

ha..

thats pretty sweet...

She's the Best....i love this picture!

DONT TOUCH GRANDMA!!!

NOOO!

OH JOHN....

HA.

me and ben.

That's a good one...

WE BE GANGSTA!

yea..

WE GOT STICKERS!!

ME AND ABI!

NERDS!

OH MAN.

I WILL END ON THIS PICTURE.....

AG FOR LIFE! haha

I love my friends...they are great....yes they are.

"Peace I leave with you;my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives.Do not let your hearts be torubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

but wait this is it...

"but the world must learn that I love the Father and that I do exactly what my Father has commanded me. Come now; let us leave." John 14:31

God is truly AMAZING.

well this isnt exactly going to be the easiest thing to do...but i just know this the way God is telling me i need to go.i just want them to know i love them.i hope they understand.

    Last night i realized just how small i actually am. I am nothing but yet God still can call me by name and count every hair on my head.He is SO BIG and yet we are so very small. It truly AMAZES me.God doesnt have to know my name, or how many haires i have on my head, He didnt even have to create me,but He did and He does.Our God is SO BIG that with a word He created the whole UNIVERSE and everything in it. He is so POWERFUL and MIGHTY that even the STARS cryout to Him(literally) I mean doesnt this just absolutely AMAZE you?Last night was simply INDESCRIBABLE. Worship just blew me away well the whole night did.I havent felt that into worship in, well i dont know the last time( thats horrible i know) But it was GREAT! Nothing at all around me mattered...all that did matter was me and God.I felt like i was put in my place last night, the place i need and want to be.

And tonight was just AMAZING! i loved every minute of it as well as i did last night.this week is going to have to be like a number 9 on my best week ratings(10 being the highest).I LOVE IT! thank you to all of yall who have helped me and been praying for me because i know thats gotten me where i am right now. thanks.

I will put pictures up later.....

    

simply indescribable....its late so i will write more about it later.

 so last night was amazing...church was different but in a good way...we sang alot and in the middle of one of the songs I just sat down and started crying.I knew God was trying to speak to me...so I listened and what I heard was a HUGE wake up call...Ive been doing some stupid stuff and He was like "Chelsea you got to stop this" because not only was I hurting my self but others as well and Im not really living my life the way i should to be an example for others, and that upset me. I mean Ive known what Ive been doing is bad but just something about last night really got to me...and shook some sense into me.Im sorry if I let anyone down...but i can assure you that things are about to change.

"When you go through deep waters and great troubles, I will be with you" Isaiah 43:2

so guys im pretty excited about going to see Chris Tomlin on Tuesday....ITS GOING TO BE AMAZING. i cant wait....we got pretty good seats too....its going to be simply amazing.hope you all have a great long weekend and have fun in the snow! mucho <33-chels

The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

"Look at the nations and watch and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something  in your days that you would not even believe even if you were told."    

Habakuk 1:5

 So today was a snow day and a very good one if i might add! first i had to write a gay electricity essay...but then i went to tylers and we made some cd's then we went to his church for a little bit then i went to erma siegel to see ami,ben,alex,garrett,kaitlin,and olivia....then i had to go to work and weston came to see me then all of them up above came to see me...it was great! i just loved today! i laughed alot! i needed that....to bad its over.

"Prodigal" by Casting Crowns

Living on my own, thinking for myself
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again

And I've held out as long as I can
Now I'm letting go and holding out my hand

Daddy, here I am again
Will You take me back tonight
I went and made the world my friend
And it left me high and dry
I drag Your name back through the mud
That You first found me in
Not worthy to be called Your son
Is this to be my end
Daddy, here I am
Here I am again

Curse this morning sun
Drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown
Of living with my shame
Welcome to my world
And the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince
The next day you're a slave

>>>>so i guess you could say this song sums up the last 2 1/2 months for me....

it absolutely amazes me how GREAT God is to ME...this weekend was great...and i think i have the most INCREDIBLE friends... i love them so much..but i dont deserve them or anything....

My Really COOL group!

ITS ME AND MY FAVORITEST PERSON!!!

and again...but im lookin kinda rough...

there we are with our real cool headbands we made for mickey they say"WE LOVE MICKEY" be cause he bought us icecream!

me and amanda!!

just let me tell you...that was so much fun!! it was the greatest idea ive ever had!!ha

me and wes!(he so told me he was smiling!?)

this would be me and courtney!!shes getting married and i get the honor of being her Bridesmaid!! yAy!

isnt that cool!!

they pretty much stole my camera!!but im kinda glad they did! haha

yea..

this is my new friend!! his name is tyler! he is so cool!

me and kris!

elise going down the stairs!

me and some real cool kids...thats my new friend tylers head at the bottom..he didnt quite make it in the picture in time...haha

So i guess you could say i had a pretty good weekend and this goes to show i have some pretty amazing friends(but thats not all of them...) i love you all...-chels

"When you go through deep waters and great troubles, I will be with you"

Isaiah 43:2

well i think the title explains it....it was indeed a bad day... to say the least.

WOW! Ive got a huge desicion i got to make this week..and honestly im scared...so please just pray for me that i will make the right choice.

its time to start over...i fell.. now i got to get back up and finish this race.