I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

photo from lalalalala

oh yeah! i knew i was hiding that snowball...:)

photo from lalalalala

what a fun day...:)

So I went to see Dr. Witt today and he informed my mom
and I that I have a very small blood vessel in my
brain where the stroke happened that because of
dehydration and some medicine I was taking the blood
thickened too much to get around anything that could
have been in the way (such as a clot). I am off the
medicine now and he said that as long as I keep myself
hydrated I should be fine! I can return to normal
activities (such as driving and working out) and I
don't have to go on any kind of diet! WOOHOO! I had a
field vision test yesterday that showed that the upper
left corner of both my eyes (imagine your field of
vision being split into 4ths) is damaged to where I
only saw about 8 out of 50 or 60 flashes of light in
that area. He also said that most recovery is done
within the first month so I may not continue to see
improvement in my vision or in my confusion/slow
processing of information. But with God anything is
possible right?! Please just pray that my body will
continue to repair itself and be restored to full
function! Thank you for all of your
prayers during this rough time! I love you all!

photo from bee136

aww yay! friends since the 5th grade rock!! ;)

thanks for praying guys my test went fantastic!! my throat doesn't even hurt! you guys are they greatest and i don't know what i'd do without you! love you!

so uhh...yeah i have my TEE done at 12 and not 1230 so if you decide to pray right on that time, pray at 12! thanks so much!

please pray for me tomorrow at around 12:30...that's when i get my TEE (trans esophageal echo) done and i'm really nervous b/c they aren't putting me to sleep because i have to swollow the tube! i appreciate it more than you will ever know!

photo from carla

yes naima, this WAS one of the best nights ever! for those of you who can't tell...that is the wonderful Jason Mraz that we are standing with at Vanderbilt U...monica couldnt' understand why naims and i were so giddy after this picture was taken. but if you notice, he didn't have his arms around her!!! ;)

photo from bee136

oh yeah...

photo from bee136

aww it's 2 of my favorite people!! they are soo cute (as is the whole family! i love you guys!)

As I rest against this cold, hard wall
Will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there anyway to be made whole again?
If I'm healed,renewed, and find forgiveness find the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into his hands and it turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It's there I've finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh Thank You for my chance to start again

ok i promise this is the last post today (because contrary to my activity on here i actually DO have a life!) but i was watching Oprah with nicole kidman and they showed a new commercial she has done for channel no. 5 perfume with baz lerman (the director of moulin rouge) and it gave me chills!!!!!! i think oprah said it was the most expensive commercial ever made and it was GORGEOUS!!! they also played barber's adagio for strings (which if you look to your left is one of my favorite pieces of all time) and i just wanted to jump for joy! you should definately see this commercial (guys maybe not so much) even if you have to download it! anyways, oprah's back on so i must go! love ya!

so i just started a group cuz i felt left out....so join my group!!

photo from britseykins

i thought this picture was beautiful so i had to steal it! thanks brit!

this site is addicting....i got online to check my mail before my final this morning and now here i am playing on this thing....STUDY!!!!!!!!!!

photo from mtchic

aww look at me and meagan!!

so i went to lunch today with dr. isley and emily...it was soo much fun! i told her about my stroke and of course she flipped out but she was more sympathetic that i expected her to be. she was genuinely scared for me....which is much different than ms cancryn would have been! i cannot tell you how happy it has made me to switch teachers - seriously one of the best decisions of my life!!! and so now she knows everything that is going on in emily and mine's life. then she told us about her trip to europe...SHE STOPPED A TRAIN!! she's that cool ;) no she said that musicians over there are treated special b/c it's such a part of their history and culture so when they found out she was a singer, they called and got her new connecting trains and stopped just to let her catch one! and my new goal for the summer is to become more personal with people. i feel like all my friendships are very shallow - i don't know what is going on in their lives or their history. well i started on that today at lunch (which with dr. isley isn't that hard to do!) so i feel a little bit of a sense of accomplishment. now i just have to go study for my final tomorrow....BLAH!!!! have a great day!

i know i know...i need to upload some photos...maybe i'll do that later today when i'm bored out of my mind...but for now i must go eat lunch!

wow nathan this is amazing! i'm so impressed! keep up the good work!