Someone...teach me how to make lemons into lemonade.

Cause life seems to like giving me lemons.

So yeah.  I still have what has been so conveniently deemed a "promblem".
The girl I asked actually turned me down.  I don't want pity...so don't offer any.  She is a good friend and has a respectable reason.  But now I have to go through the whole process of finding someone I would like to take and someone that would have fun.  This is difficult because it feels like i live in two different worlds.  Church and school.  Not that I am a different person in these worlds, its just that they dont overlap at all.  I have very few friends that go to both.  And this girl was one.  But all my good friends go elsewhere.  And I am now just ranting.  I hate it when people rant.  I just feel so overwhelmed that it's getting closer, I don't have a date, and I don't even know if I can find one.  One that will have fun.  I am beginning to wonder if I will go.  I mean everyone "has to go", but whats the point if you aren't going with a group of friends?  I'll just drive myself up to Nashville to eat dinner by myself, go home to take pictures by myself, go to Prom and dance by myself, go to afterProm and tag along with other people.  It just seems like its what I've been doing for four years at Blackman, and I can't take it.  It makes me sick.  I just pray that God will take this burden from me, and give me wisdom in my choice of either dates or attending prom  entirely.

Sigh. 

What a mess.

But I still manage to actually be happy most of the time.  Because of Him. 

::b