...back in the Queen City! The very first thought when I drove by uptown Charlotte and saw the city skyline at almost 2 in the morning was "This isn't my home". I can't tell you all how many times I've thought about that since then. It seems so odd, because I never felt like this wasn't my home, at least until now.

I have absolutely no clue as to what I'll be doing now. Work...at least I have a part time job at a local Christian bookstore that I can fall back into. Full time work...hmmm...that's a good question, i'm not sure even where to start. Graduate school/Seminary...uhh...i don't know...i'm so tired of school work, even if I did enjoy it, i don't know if I can endure it. So here i am desparately praying that God would give me even a hint of a clue. Why is He doing what He's doing? I have absolutely no clue.

I feel so completely alone. I already miss the constant companions that I've had for the past 2 and a half months. Yes, even when I wanted to be alone, at least you guys were there.

I am trying so hard to contend with these feelings of failure...i know the enemy is trying to attack me. As much as I love the people of my church, I don't know how to even begin to explain all the things that have transpired. And I know they're very curious. Some friends of mine were sitting with me in in the young adult Bible study last Sunday morning, Ani and Laura asked me why I had returned. After telling them that God just didn't have me there for a year, Laura flat out said that I'd just given her the sweet, short answer and that she wanted to know the entire reason. "Yeah, easier said than done", I thought.

Guys, please, please keep me in your prayers. And if you get any time, please give me a call. I would definitely love to hear from you!
Cell: 704-562-72-42
Home: 704-525-65-60