user: pass:


Send a Message

Web Presence


Last Active:

November 16, 2006

Relationship Status




The names ♥ Elaine ♥ My friends call me Lainypoo ... Kis ... Lainykins ... Lainy ... Liz ... Helen ... and a bunch of other names I have blonde hair with black and red highlights underneath and on top ... but I'm kinda getting tired of it and prolly gonna go back ALL THE WAY blonde again!!! blueish greenish eyes, I'm 17 almost 18I'm 5'1 ya I know short! People tell me I look like Hilary Duff! But dont hate me for that! I wear a lot of eye make up ... but I like it like that ... so dont ask why I do!!! I'm from Texas! HOWDY YALL!!! I love music ... and I dont juz say that to sound cool ... you'd be suprised how much I know about music ... some of my favorites are ... ♥ THE SCENE AESTHETIC ♥ ... Senses Fail, Something Corporate, Stutterfly, The Starting Line, The Click 5, Fall Out Boy, Motion City Soundtrack, Taking Back Sunday, From First to Last ... Thrice, The Audition, ♥ MAYDAE ♥ June, The Junior Varsity, The Used, Minimal Fall ... My Chemical Romance, FLYLEAF ... and tons of others ... I cant think of em all right now ... I love GOD!!!Theres alot of things people dont know about me ... example ... i'm a farm girl who loves NASCAR and is very interested in MythologyI love to sing, act, dance, play sports, hang out wit friends, and all that other good stuff! I L♥VE goin to shows!!! I'm learnin to play guitar and drums! I love to do make up and hair I love to tan I'm very sarcasticWhen I get ready in the morning I like to turn my radio on really loud and shake my bootay!!!I have a brother hes 19 and I have a sister shes 15 so that means I'm the middle child! And no its not middle child syndrom! I have THE BEST friends in the WORLD!!! They ARE my everything!!! I dont get embarrassed ... so take your best shot!!! ♥ I want a LOVE like June Carter and Johnny Cash ♥I think brown M&M's taste better than the othersI'm scared of clowns, lightning, sharks, and drowning ... anything else ... bring it on ♥ Band-aids make EVERYTHING betterMy favorite candy is sour patch kids My favorite thing to eat is rice crispy treats!!! When I'm nervous I either bite my lip or my finger nails ... or play with my rings I love to lay in bed with friends and take random stupid pictures for hours ... I have to fall asleep with the TV on ... cant sleep with the radio cuz I start singing the songs and cant go to sleepI drive an '06 black 2-door chevy cobalt I work at sonic ... for now ... but when I go to college I'm gonna work at MAC makeup in North East Mall ... I CANT WAIT!!!♥ Kissings like my FAVORITE thing to do ♥ I'm a cuddle monster!!! *roar*I love my little sister!!! I love to laugh so hard that youre crying you cant breath your stomach hurts you have to pee and then when youre done laughing ... cant remember what you were laughing about!!!I'm LOUD ... I know ... deal with it and DONT tell me to *shhh*My favorite color is black ... no I'm not gothic ... black juz goes with everything ... cept brown!!!My room is ALWAYS a mess!!! I love meeting new people I l♥ve ice cream ... Good Heavens to be exact!!! A striaght way to my heart is good heavens ice cream or a chocolate moon pie ... yummy junk food strawberry banana smoothies are my obsession My favorite animal is a white tigerIf you play guitar I'm yours!!! I ♥L♥O♥V♥E♥ boys with shaggy brown hair and blue eyes they have to be taller than me ... which obviously isnt very hard to doI like the smell of bleach, hand sanitizer, and chlorine ... but HATE the smell of gas ... and NO I'm NOT a crack-head!!!I love to lay on the ground and have somDONOTBLOCKOURADSebody draw ALL OVER my back till theres nothing left to cover ... its relaxing!!!I love BIG sunglasses!!!I like eyesI'm not a phone person ... I dont like to talk on it very much ... I hate the awkward silences ... but I can text like crazy!!!The only phone calls I like are the ones from that special someone!!! I'm currently single right now, and have been for the past 2 and a half years so its nothing new ... But I'm gonna marry Eric Dill so dont get attatched!! I wear my heart on my sleeve and fall too easily ... getting hurt seems to be the thing I do most often!!! I cant go a day without talking to or seeing my friends ... their my security!!! I constantly get in trouble for stupid little things!!! I am forgiving ... but dont take it for gratned ... if you keep doing the same shit over and over ... chances are I'm not gonna keep forgiving you!!! I'm very weird ... I already know!!!I love being original and hate being copied!!! I absolutly L♥VE the acoustic guitar!!! Dont calle me EMO ... its a type of music not a style!!! I'm NOT shy AT ALL ... I'm very outgoing ... I'll do anything ... and try everything at least once!!! I like random things and I am VERY random ... dont think I'm joking when I say that!!! I like to sing really loud ... in my car ... in the shower ... in Wal-Mart ... LOL If you dont like me ... dont tell me cuz I dont care what anyone thinks me of ... I'm juz me and you can juz piss off!!! I'm not a jelous person ... unless you give me a reason to be jelous!!!Sad songs make too much sense to me I cant stand fake people ... mostly fake girls ... people who are too scene or juz too "hardcore" for their own damn good bug the crap out of me!!! If you go to shows to see people who you think are cool and you only go juz to LOOK cool ... please dont talk to me!!! If you write me and I dont write back right away ... that doesnt mean I hate you ... and it doesnt mean start writing me more so that I WILL write you back ... I do have a life and its not revolving around my computer ... if you keep writing me you'll prolly get on my nerves and I'll prolly end up blocking or deleting you!!! I AM a blonde ... but I'm NOT stupid!!! I dont think I'm pretty I AM awesome ... so shut up!!! I can be a bitch ... it juz depends on what side you get on of me ... you might wanna be on my good side!!!♥ FAVORITES ♥Movie - The Goonies TV show - Laguna Beach Day of the year - my birthday ... durr Color - black season - summer I HATE cold weather coffee from starbucks - white chocolate mocha Band - dont really have one ... too many good ones ... but I can say that I love all the boys in Maydae and The Last Transition!!! Song - Best Deceptions by Dashboard Confessionals Superhero - Wonderwoman Actress - well shes not really an actress ... Nicole Richie ... but if you wanna be specific ... Rachel McAdams Actor - Mmmm ... Brad Pitt ... yummy!!! I'm gonna be graduating this year and I cant wait to get outta this place and live with my two loves ♥ Trey ♥ and ♥ Stephanie ♥!!! I wanna go to UNT ... go mean grean *caca caca* LOL I know this is long ... and most people wont even read all the way down ... but if you do actually take the time to read it all ... leave me a comment!!!Ummm ya I'm so exciting I know!! No I'm totally kidding! But seriously Remember this face!! I'm gonna be famous!!!


Something Corporate, The Starting Line, Senses Fail, FLYLEAF, Morning Wood, Fall Out Boy, Saosin, Taking Back Sunday, Motion City Soundtrack, Dashboard Confessional, The Click Five, 30 Seconds to Mars, Unwritten Law, Matchbook Romance, From First To Last, Thrice, Oasis, The Sex Pistols, Bright Eyes, The Ramones, The Ataries, Hot Hot Heat, Jacks Manniquin, Hawthorne Heights, My Chemical Romance, Stutterfly, Underoath, Amber Pacific, The Junior Varsity, The Clash, Greenday, All American Rejects, Relient K, Rise Against, The Used, Yellowcard, The Rocket Summer, The Scene Aesthetic, Rookie of the Year, Cute is what we Aim For, Saving Jane, Mest, Mae, Lillix, Kittie, The Veronicas, The Vanished, The Audition, June ... etc.


The Goonies, The Sandlot, The 3 Ninjas, The Notebook, Donnie Darko, The girl next door, super troopers, Aladdin, The Phantom of the Opera,


anything by V.C. Andrews or the Harry Potter books ... I also love The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe

Other Website

17 total entries
1234Next »

I did what???

Ok ... so I made a complete ass out of myself in front of Aaron Gillespie!!!

I was at Warped Tour last Saturday ... the most amazing day of my life so far!!!

Me and some of my friends were waiting for a band to finish so we could go get good spots for Paramore ... we sat down in the shade to cool off cuz I'm not joking ... it was hotter than hell out there!!! We're sitting down and we look over and see this huge line of people and we're like ... who's signing??? Zach goes OMG I swear thats UnderOATH!!! We jump up and go running over to the line ... this is who I came to see and really wanted to meet ... we listened to their CD all the way to Dallas and I was determined to meet UnderOATH ... we get to the back of the line when all of the sudden the guy with the end of the line sign gets RIGHT IN FRONT OF US ... I'm friggin pissed ... we were right there ... BUT NO!!!

So we run over to in front of the stage they were signing on to take pictures ... cuz I mean hello??? UnderOATH is less than 5 feet away from us ... I've got to have some sort of proof of this!!! I get right in front of Aaron ... which may I add ... I'm completely in love with ... I'm stading there staring right at him not looking away with I'm sure the stupidest look on my face ... he keeps looking at me ... but I juz keep on staring and taking millions of pictures!!! My friend Zach says to Tim I 'heart' you!!! Tim says it back to him ... I look at Zach I look at Tim I look at Aaron ... Aaron looks at me and I go ... "I ... ... ... ... ... ... ... heart ... ... .. YOU!!!" Aaron gives me this totally creeped out look which I dont blame him ... if you could have heard how I was talking and seen how I was acting you would have done the same thing ... it was like I was a freak stalker ... I couldnt get my words out and he knew it!!!

Oh man ... so if I ever see Aaron again I wonder if he'll remember me as the weird girl that wants him ... but at least he looked at me right???

3 remarks
Quick Remark:

Bittersweet endings ♥

Well ... its been a while!!!

Lets see whats happened ...

I am now 18 ... woohoo legal baby!!!
I met a boy ... a new boy ... and I like him ... A LOT!!! But ... of course things are complicated ... why would this time be any different???
Things with some friends have gone downhill ...
Home life is ok ... cant complain but cant get over excited

Well ... I'm sitting in debate class right now ... for the last time EVER!!!
Its kinda sad ... but not ... I mean I'm so ready to get out of high school ... I'm done with all the drama I'm tired and ready for bigger and better things ... but I'm scared ... scared that I wont ever see some of these people ever again ... these people that I've grown up with for the past 8 years ... even though I dont talk to everyone that I used to ... it was still nice to see their face everyday ... now that we dont have to come to school everday ... never in this school again ... I wont see them all the time!!! And its sad!!!

Tomorrow is my last day of high school!!! Its soooo weird!!! I'm graduating in a week!!! Wow ...

I dont know what else to say other than keep repeating myself so ... enough of that!!!

Now ... about this boy ...
his name is cody hes sooo sweet!!! He's a good christian which is hard to find these days, but it does make somethings harder ... which brings us to the complications ... he says he's so in love with his future wife *whoever she is* that he doesnt want to even think about cheating on her and by dating other girls ... he would be cheating on her ... holding hands and kissing and all those emotions are made for your husband or wife is what he says ... but what I say is how do you know who youre gonna marry without dating??? You cant juz look at someone and be like I'm gonna marry them!!! But I totally respect his views ... so right now we're best friends ... who knows maybe he'll change his mind and let his true feelings for me out ...

Autum's Monologue

Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good
no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...

here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you dont..

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you don't...

i break in two over you
i break in two over you, over you
i break in two
i would break in two for you
now you see me
now you don't
now you need me
now you don't

The Fiction We Live

You might be just what I need
No I would not change a thing
Been dreaming of this so long
But we only exist in this song
The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come and meet me tomorrow
I will hold you down, fold you in
Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live
I break in two over you
I break in two
And if a piece of you dies
Autumn, I will bring you back to life
Of course I see you
I do.

0 remarks
Quick Remark:


Goodbye Waves And Drive Ways

The Rocket Summer

Just walk away
Gather your thoughts for the second wave
Of this argument on this epic changing day
Its crazy to think that an hour ago all things were great
But we stand here both proud both wrong and right
Throwing cheap shots in this stubborn fight
And our lives are so intertwined in one
But we're just so stuck in this moment it's clear that were coming undone

And you see it’s hard for me to breathe
When I get all worked up with these feelings
And I don’t know exactly how it is
That we can be so mad we consider to not exist
When we both know there’s so much love clenched within our fists

The goodbye waves in the driveway they just resonate
And yes I am throwing it right back at her
While were drowning in rivers from our faces
We just wanna know if, this is this over
A trembling silence fills the air
As we stand here so impaired, so aware

I sit in this house
Alone with fresh photographs
And I just can’t relax
And like cigarette smoke, I’m starting to choke on this
That half of my soul is on the road in a car with a girl in a dress

And it’s making it hard for me to breathe
When I get all worked up with these feelings
And I don’t know exactly how it is
That just to say I’m right your wrong we both lose to win

The goodbye waves in the driveway they just resonate
And yes I am throwing it right back at her
While were drowning in rivers from our faces
We just wanna know if this, is this over
A trembling silence fills the air
As we stand here whoa-oh

So hey now, maybe we're just being stupid
Maybe we're just being dumb
Hey maybe it's time that we stopped and we realized
Like a flag in the wind we are one
And how at first it’s made so pure and lovely
But in battle can be torn to shreds
But with time and with patience and love and affection
Can be fixed with needle and thread
Because I love you and you love me
And nothing will make this leave
I said I love you and you love me
And nothing will make, make, make, make this leave
So remember me, yeah!
Remember me, yeah!
Remember me

And don’t walk away...

♥I miss him♥

1 remark
Quick Remark:


♥ Got this from someone else

Do you wear black eyeliner?: ya ... lots of it
How much black clothing do you own?: uhh ... juz about everything in my closet is
Do you think about death often?: not my death ...
Do you want to die?: not really
Are you a social outcast?: NO
Are you pale?: NOOO
Do you cut?: Nope ... kinda a weeny when it come to pain
Do you like Hot Topic?: Yeah!

--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard?: Wish I could ... I know how to fall off pretty good
How often do you go into Pac Sun?: All the time
What's your sneaker brand?: etnies
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: hells ya
Are the long skater cuts hott?: sure
How much do you get in trouble?: all the damn time
Do you listen to the bands who are considered
"posers"?: some of them are
How many piercings do you have?: 9

How often do you say the word "like"?: haha ... like all the time
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: sometimes
Are the A&F models hott?: some of them are ... the others are juz ... ok
How many purses do you own?: hmmm ... maybe 10
Is lipgloss a must?: absolutly
How often do you wear makeup?: EVERYDAY
Ever had a manicure?:ya ... get em every now and then
Rock music is bad, right?: are you crazy???
Are you ever ditzy?: I have my moments ... but I'm a blonde
Do you own high heels?: sure do
Have you ever said "Oh my gosh"?: normally its Oh my god ... but pretty much the same thing
Are you a cheerleader?: used to be

Is your hair long?: yup ... very
Are you a vegetarian?: nope
Do you own a tye dye shirt?: ya ... some of my work shirts
Do you want peace?: I guess ...
Do you want to save the animals?: Ya ... I love animals
What do you think about the war?: its going on ... and I know SOME people over there ... not much about it
Have you ever made a peace sign with your two
fingers?: haha ya

Are you from the ghetto?: not really
Do you own "bling bling"?: haha ... I'm the queen of bling
What do you think about do-rags?: sometimes they're ok ... I mean for like football games and stuff
Do you like rap?: its good when youre dancing ... and sometimes its good to juz goof off to in the car
How about hip-hop?: again ... good to dance to
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: didnt really listen to him
What do you think about afros?: haha ... I think they're cool
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: lol ... fo shizzle bizzle
How about 'oh, snap son'?: nix on the son ... juz oh snap

Is life a party?: hell ya
How often do you get drunk?: every so often ... not exactly an every weekend thing ... could change one I go off to college though
What's the point of getting drunk anyway?: juz to have fun
Do you care about your grades?: I actually do ... gotta get in a good school
Do you need attitude adjustment?: haha ... of course
How far have you been?: LOL ... I'm an angle ... or am I???

How often do you cry?: its hard to make me cry ... every now and then
Do you have an ex?: yup
Do you have an acoustic guitar?: yup
Are you emotional?: sometimes
Do you like soft music?: ya ... but mostly when it rains
Do people understand you?: only my closest friends
Do you write your own songs?: sure do
Is your hair dyed dark?: underneath is

Do you play any sports?: used to play volleyball ... bball ... and track ... but not anymore
How important are they to you?: obviously not that
How important is your reputation?: I dont care what people think of me
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: haha ... no I'M a nerd
What do you think about football?: i LOOOOOVE football
Are you considered a bully by anyone?: not that i know of

Do you wear glasses?: yup
Do you get good grades?: yup
Are you smart?: I guess
Do you use an inhaler?: nope
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt?: I did until one busted and got all over me ... LOL j/k no
Does your mom buy your clothes?: some of them
How often are you on the computer?: All the time
Do you get picked on?: only but some of my guy friends

Oh and this ...

... is my prom date ... Spenser!!!

1 remark
Quick Remark:

love hurts

This is it ...

He's the one who makes my heart beat and break all at the same time!!!

It scares me ... I dont wanna feel this way ... I dont wanna hurt like this!!!

I'm scared of how strong my feelings are for him ... but the fact that I'm not even with him is what scares me the most!!! The fact that he has a girlfriend and that he has so many feelings for her is what hurts!!!

I know he has feelings for me ... the reason we're not together ... cant tell ya that!!! I know that doesnt feel nothing towards me!!! Maybe its cuz he was with his g/f now when he found out that I liked him!!!

I juz wish he could know how much I really do like him ... its not juz a little crush!!! He drives me absolutly crazy ... hes all I can think about!!! If only I could tell him ... but I cant!!! He's happy with his g/f and I dont wanna break them up ... even though I cant wait for the day when they do!!!

I hate being the second girl in line!!! I wanna be with him ... hes so perfect for me!!! If I could make my own guy it would be exactly him ... my perfect Kellen!!!

his eyes ... his smile ... EVERYTHING about him is what I want!!!

But for now I guess I'll juz have to be the friend whos there when needed and watch as he slowly gets closer and closer to her and farther and farther from me!!!

5 remarks
Quick Remark:
17 total entries
1234Next »

my friends

my pix