Ok it is the next morning, and i'll tell you the truth, i didn't sleep well at all. I went to bed around 12:30, right after i blogged for the first time, and i was almost in a deep sleep, when my aim started sounding off, all it really did was scare me a bit bc waking up to it i didn't know what it was. This guy, and this is the one that the friendship has been smugged just a little bit, he wrote to me telling me that everything was going to be ok btwn us, and it was a bit of a relief to know that bc i really needed to hear someting like that, with the state i am in. ( to him i say that i appreciate the message, and i know that in Gods time things btwn us will be normal.) But normal is not what we have right now, and i completely understand. On the other subject it was what i was thinking about as i was going to sleep, so i had this horrible dream about it, the guy i like was being so mean to me, and like a mean that i haven't incountered in my life, he was also rubbing this new found relationship in my face like it wasn't going to hurt me. Oh i was so glad to wake up from it, that would be about the time that one of the many girls in my support group right now text messaged me, so once again i was jerked awake by a shocking noise, The text included the verse Phillipians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.

Which is a verse that i am going to carry with me through this very exausting trial.

so i went back to sleep only to dram of this horrible dictator, runnung our country, and kicking my gradmother out of her home, in this dream i was running around trying to gather all her stuff for her so he wouldn't kill her, and i was standing right next to this girl that he just decided to shoot in the head, what a random dream i am glad that it was only a dream!!!

so the forcast today, still broken hearted, slowly moving on with my life, trying my best to be strong, putting it all in Gods hands, todays out look :(. ih and i think i am getting SICK, hince the soar throat.