Phusebox

God is AWESOME!

October 25 2005

God is so amazing, he is working with me in so many ways right now.For the last month i have felt so diconnected for some reason, and it was torture to feel the way that i did. I was desparately seeking his face, and couldn't figure out what was holding back. I didn't even recognize who i was anymore, so i prayed that he just take hold of my hand and pull me back to him, and there were certain situations that happened this weekend that directly placed me back at the place that i needed to be, mistakes that basically showed me, the old me doesn't exist anymore, and that the reason why i don't know who i am is because he is still working on me, he will always be working on me, but right now i am going through some major reconstruction. I have had a lot of thoughts processing through my mind, and a lot of debri hit me, all of which was strong enough, that it would give anybody the urge to just give up, but that is not the answer, his timing!!!!!I keep rminding myself that he has PERFECT timing, sometimes that is a hard thought to grasp hold of, ok lets face it God himslef is a thought that is hard to grasp hold on, but Faith is helping with that. Last night, God was definitely present, He basically held my hand, and guided me throuh a situation that could have been very nerve racking, but he was by my side the whole entire time, and with Him there evrything that needed to be said was said, and a common ground was reached. I am glad that the situation went so well, and it is helpng me GROW!! Man there is so much to learn, and with that i know now that the thing that happened with the first guy mentioned in earlier blogs, was to show me that it is just not time for me to be in a relationship. The same with the newer guy, because he has really been an example to me, and i want to thank him for that!!! God has truely used you, to help guide me. WOW I HAVE JUST POURED MY HEART OUT. I guess we can only sit back and enjoy the ride, God has so much to show us all. Til next time God Bless!!