Goals and Resolutions for 2006

Resolutions are not really my thing.  I tend never to keep them if they’re specific.  But I do have some things in my life I’d like to see accomplished in 2006, things that are big and small at the same time, traits about myself and habits I keep that I’d like to see broken.   

In 2006, I’d like to be less afraid of what people will say – be less afraid of rejection – be bolder and less timid when it comes to relationships.  I’d like to have more confidence and not waste my time beating dead horses with my constant and inappropriate overanalyzations…that may not even be a word, but in 2006 I think I’ll make up as many words as possible.

In 2006, I’d like to wean myself off the computer a little…it really is an addiction, and I think with all the time I spent this year staring at this glowing screen I could have written a 800 page novel or painted a mural or run a marathon or something.

In 2006, I want to love more furiously…not quite so lazily, as my tendancy to do is.

In 2006, I’d like to backtrack a little and live a little more simply…which won’t mean less busily because I know that will never happen.  But I would like to learn more dependency on God - which is a dangerous thing to ask for, but I really think I mean it.  I’d like to be happy with small achievements and not overly concerned with small failures. 

In 2006, I want to laugh more and cry more…which are two of the purest things you can do, and you don’t allow yourself to do the latter you’ll never be able to fully appreciate the former.

In 2006, I want to exercise and lose weight and eat right and blah blah blah….cliche cliche, but I need it.

In 2006, I’d like (as an extension of my hope for simplicity) to learn to appreciate the small things…I’d like to have a greater appreciation for my comfortable old friendships…which are kind of like your favorite pair of jeans, you wear them so much you forget they’re even there but when they’re gone you miss them like crazy…and that’s a very strange analogy, but (as an extension of my new words goal) I will be making a lot of those this year, too.

Finally, in 2006 I want to continue to learn my place in the world as God’s daughter and servant and become more comfortable in this place…this year may be wonderful or I may sit here in 12 months wishing it never happened, but either way I know that Jesus is here with me always, in ups and downs and sideways, and that everything that happens this year has a purpose and I want to be able to trust Him in that promise.

So that’s the blueprint for 2006 and enough maudlinity (another new word!) for one day.

But I like being maudlin, so whatever.  You can handle it for one more line:

Shower the people you love with love.

Yeah, that's my goal.