sucks

January 10 2006

today officer harrison talked to me... 'nuff said.

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January 06 2006

  Felicia being Jamario's slave



me and Jamario





Sayray's new puppy



my bro, adam

what it is?

January 03 2006
i am in a great mood... juss lettin ya'll know... i also don't really like the word ya'll.. i think i will put you all from now on... yeah... don't worry i am not on drugs

well

December 30 2005
i am NOT hopeless.. .the poem was about a girl...not me...think about it...

no title

December 16 2005

She falls
She cries
She bleeds
They run to her rescue
they love her
and every morning they take her to school
and a kiss on the cheek
a pat on the head
off she goes


she falls
and picks herself up
before they can
they love her
they care for her
she walks to school now
no kiss on the cheek
but still she goes


she holds hands
then falls
and cries
they run to her rescue
they love her
but are giving up


she holds hands again
and now kisses
then falls
and cries
silence
they don't love her anymore
no one
they've given up


A guy in my 6th made fun of it. yeah just give me a gun now.

"Rescue"

December 15 2005

Moonlight
All alone in the dark night
Have you come to save me from myself?
Or will you leave like all the rest?
Moonlight
Shattered in my memory
the pain once dwells with me
Rescue me from this memory (misery?)
All that's left behind
is moonlight
Scattered once again in front of me
You've come to rescue me
O moonlight
Take me to that world you see
You see it so clearly
Far away from all but moonlight
I drift for just that one time again
I'm back again with memory (misery?)
But still you saved me
O moonlight
Moonlight
All alone in the dark night
Have you come to save me from myself?
Moonlight
I'm sure you've come
to save me from this waking nightmare
this endless nightmare
why are you stalling?
I need you to show me
I need me to see
This need of infinity (misery?)
O moonlight
If not you?
Than who?
To show me reason?
O moonlight
Will you come to save me from myself?
Who's moonlight?

well

December 14 2005
better i guess you could say... but still need help... i know it but i am too scared to get it.

reading cut

December 13 2005

need help

don't care

December 12 2005

until this person gets over whatever is irking him/her than i don't think i am gonna worry about it... unless they want to talk about it and tell me what is wrong... and not be sarcastically bitchy about crap







life...

December 11 2005
is going better... contrary to the fact that someone is mad at me for financial issue... that i could care less about.

so...

December 09 2005
nothing matters anymore... but i want it to... and sucks that there isn't anything to care about except for my friends and family.  at least i have you guys

i don't know

December 08 2005
i don't know what is wrong w/ me... i just want to feel better

well

December 07 2005
i'm ok now... i think

"Question"

December 06 2005

She asks questions
        They listen
        and answer
She cuts her finger
and cries
        he runs to her
        with a bandage
She cries
they cry



they talk a lot
       and shut her out
she asks a question
they ignore
they love a lot
each other

screaming and yelling
and shutting her out
         an asked question
         no answer
slammed car door
no bandage
         slammed door in her face
        knife in front of her



they're not home
        she shuts the door
she asks a question
to herself
she ignores the answer
        crimson stained carpet
        in front of her
she cuts...
but this time no one runs to her
with a bandage
       she cries herself to "sleep"

ok

December 06 2005

i would just like to say that i am sorry for any misunderstanding that happened, kaleena. i don't understand why you are so pissed at me but there is no point to say things that are rude about me and roth or anything like that... that just hurts and why would you hurt me when i didn't do anything to you?  ......... rae rae


anyways i don't get to see roth in lunch today cuz i have a voice lesson but o well i love Mrs. Donna.  she rox my face off. 


me and my mom got in a huge fight last night... to make a long story short she basically called me a freak because of what i wear and she said i acted like one too... so i didn't have a very good night.

yah

December 05 2005
not much to say cept somebody got mad at me for somthing i didn't say... but o well life goes on

bored

December 02 2005
well i am n algebra... but i am very bored here at school b/c roth isn't here... got in trouble for bein late... i hope it wasn't to 4th cuz then it will be my fault... so then i will feel bad about it.

well

November 30 2005
me and roth are going out now... and i am very happy... 'nuff said

downhill

November 22 2005
wellllllllll things haven't been going as well as hoped... things are just moving downward... and i can't stop it... i cant catch myself and it scares me...

yeah

October 27 2005

i can't get over the pool thing


so...

October 25 2005

has anyone else besides me and april jumped in a pool at 1:00 in the morning in 30 degree weather w/ all our clothes on?

well...

October 14 2005
things are better... i have been doing better... yeah.. tis all

to all the ppl i have hurt by doing this

October 05 2005
i am truly very and deeply sorry. beyond words sorry. i know i hurt you guys and myself by doing this to myself... but sometimes it is hard to just bear it and accept things... and i am trying harder... now

i feel

September 24 2005
sadness rolling in soon

melancholy

September 22 2005
i miss a choice person... and it sucks cuz i can't do anything to see that person... but o well... i am just feeling... calm