I'm frustrated.

I'm frustrated with myself mostly, with others, I guess I'm even a little frustrated with God.

. . . but it's all okay. Or at least it all will be.

I wish I could realize how blessed I am. It's like it's being shown RIGHT there in my face, yet I just don't get it. I always want more.

((edit-- a little while later))

As I flipped through the channels looking for something to watch, CNN caught my eye. I soon learned that it was a "special" on the kids/teenagers that lost everything through hurricane Katrina. Coincidence that I saw this? I think not. God's pretty cool that way.

I think the new Third Day was made for me. From what I've heard of it and from what I've read from the band, it sounds extremely close-to-home-hitting:

"Everyone gets a tiny taste of love sometime in their lives that serves as a picture of what could be. Energizing, purifying, and freeing. Suddenly, in one fatal moment, life happens and fragments of hope scatter. Scrambling to protect ourselves, we construct a fortress to shelter our battered hearts. What was built to keep us safe eventually becomes our prison. When we realize our need to escape, we find ourselves institutionalized and unable to engage. That's when Love busts through the walls and sets us free." - Brad Avery, guitarist, Third Day

You have no idea how much this statement applies to me.