well, it's been over a month.

all-state orchestra was beyond amazing, i believe that's the first time i've ever felt accomplished with my music. this week is senior week, then prom. my brother leaves for boot camp two days afterward, then it's my final blackman band concert ever.

(( the nostalgia is suffocating yet comforting in its own absurd sense ))

i have had alot of time to think about my brother leaving. the only certain thing i know about it is that it's the same day of concert dress rehearsal & all the freshmen are going to be wondering why their drum major has no emotion.

i am going to get over it, i just don't know if things will be the same.

i know they won't.

<3