be careful how you bend me
                              be careful where you send me
careful how you end me
                             be careful with me-Patty Griffin

listen to her [Patty Griffin] she is amazing
            yAy for pretty boys who help you out, even if it means fighting with you, just to make you do what will make you happy.

i have this feeling
of being breathless
and confused
and it's amazing
and terrifying
and horrid
and i hate it
         I blame HIM

 

JAZZ FEST TONIGHT
so many people
jazz fest tomorrow
even more people
          i'll have my minolta camera tonight
          that means lots of fun pics
          so i'll get them developed then scanned then
           on here
guys+me=grrrrr

i don't believe him

oh well
nobigdeal

why is "love" so hard
&why must i be so cynical

sometimes i don't believe that there is love
and sometimes i don't even have hope
it makes me sad
almost all the time

why did he forgive me?
why did he help me?
why didn't he get mad?
why did he, instead, make me feel loved?
           That's what makes him so great
           What an amazing boy.

"this way >" to break my heart

the sun is surely sinking down
       the moon is surely rising
so the world must still be spinning 'round 
      & i still love you
so close your eyes, you can close your eyes, its alright
       i don;t know no love songs & i can't sing the blues anymore
but i can sing this song
      &you can sing this song when i'm gone
it won't be long before another day
     we gonna have a good time
and no one's gonna take that time away
      you can stay as long as you like
so close your eyes, you can close your eyes, it's alright
       i don;t know no love songs, and i can't sing the blues anymore
but i can sing this song & you can sing this song when i'm gone
     (james taylor....ah, how i love james taylor)

what is love?
can i stop loving you now?
you don't love me right?
please tell me that so i can just giveup.

i won't be stupid again
i promise
i won't do that

i will sleep now
do homework tomorrow
be happy.smile.please
its more than i can do.

today was wow
       i broke his finger...sorry
i'm missing you
&
i don't even know you
yet
      i want plans this weekend
      call me? k
listen to 'lips of an angel' by hinder
&
listen to 'angel eyes' by the jeff healey band

thankyou

i don't need this right? his lies...but is he lieing? does he just not know his own feelings? wtf? hahaha oh well.
                   Happy Easter my dears
have a wonderful day
                 & remember, if that..'significant other' is giving you doubts, just know, iloveyou, &i'm here for you. 

"trust me" the fray

Looking for something I've never seen
Alone and I'm in between
The place that I'm from and the place that I'm in
A city I never been
I found a friend or should I say a foe
Said there's a few things you should know
We don't want you to see we come and we go
Here today, gone tomorrow
We're only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand
If I say who I know it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me we don't give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me we don't have honesty
The things we don't want to speak
I'll try to get out but I never will
Traffic is perfectly still
We're only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand
And then again maybe you don't
And then again maybe you won't
When you're older you might understand
When you're older you might understand

You left something undone, it's now your rerun
It's the one you can't erase
You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
To put a smile back on your face
You fall away from your past
But it's following you
You fall away
Something I've done that I can't outrun
Maybe you should wait maybe you should run
But there's something you've said that can't be undone-the fray

this song it just...fits
in a way
in a celia way

last night was fun
on the phone
i think i have a date with him
finally
haha

a sigh;;;&all lets loose
         honesty;;;&all is lost
simple words, big meanings
         accident;;;breaking hearts
didn't mean to, didn't want to
        forgiveness? a maybe
lifted up, ready to step away
        it'll be good;;;it's whats right
now the words linger in the air
        &hate lingers in the ear
love is on the lips of two strangers;;;once bound by the feelings
        well-being means more;;;sanity means more
living means most
       & the way it was;;;took life out, out
this path hurts;;;but not as much
      moving on;;;it's the time
a sigh started the page;;;&honesty closes it
     a trace of love lingers

but does not matter

i just made brownies...mm mm mm brownie batter. haha

i have a picture of mr right
he's perfect
in my mind
a drawing mind you
he doesn't exist
or i haven't met him

so i'm new to this
help me with it?
please?