guess who has a myspace!

mhmmm, youre right.

its me.

check it out, yo.

www.myspace.com/fact_over_fiction

havnt been on phuseboc much, lately.
but ive added a few pictures.

i love you to the moon and stars and back!

I'm in a lyrics mood..as usual.

But No Worries!! Im only posting bits and pieces of great songs that are worth reading.

* hint hint*

hmmm. I'd still like some remarks, though :]

"You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
are all worn down ...
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark."

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"I heard this old story before
Where the people keep on killing for their metaphors
But don't leave much up to the imagination,
So I, wanna give this imagery back
But I know it just ain't so easy like that
So I turn the page and read the story again
and again and again
It sure seems the same, with a different name
We're breaking and rebuilding
and we're growing
always guessing

Never knowing
We're shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments, we're Clever but we're clueless
We're just human, amusing and confusing
Were trying but where is this all leading?
We'll Never Know."

**********************************
"Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?

Ive been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow,somehow...
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
What would it take for me to be with you?
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed, please be impressed
I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all
Hopeless love please leave me.
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long
Why don't you care at all?
I'm dying for a place in your heart."

*************************************
"You know your stunning,
yeah your absolutely stunning.
And I'm running... always running.
And now I'm crying,
you know only cause I'm caring.
And if you were more daring maybe you'd stop staring.
Come over and talk to me,
and tell me about how you've been waiting patiently...
and how you tried but I just turned away
and I'll say, "yeah well you know, I'm shy that way"

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well ok thats enough lyrics..awesome songs by the way.

watergun battle today..ahah..that was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. i so wanna do that again..lol

didn't got to dance because I came straight home and fell asleep...ahah

i love you to the moon and stars and sun and back :]

well, I've just been deeply touched by a song. It's my new favorite. This is better than all the songs I've ever said were good.I'm serious. Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt. It'll be on my playlist in about a day or two.

hmm I've been with my dad this week...no comment..it's boring and wayyy too un-fun.

but today is Father's Day!! Happy Father's Day! even though no father's read this..and if there is a father reading this...Happy Father's Day!!

speaking of holidays on a Sunday...my birthday is NEXT Sunday! I shall FINALLY be 15.

"..im singing a random song and doing a happy dance.."

by the way..im going to Charleston in TWO WEEKS.  HECK YEA.  and the splendiforous laura just happens to be traveling with me...so we are going to have a fabulous time in South Carolina.

I have a hair appointment next friday..im getting highlights??!?! im scared!! i dont want blonde...im thinking just a shade lighter brown..help!! What do I need to do???

ahah, i said traveling. ^^^^^ ahahaha.

oh yea!! i've decided(with the help of Laura) that one day Im going to have a pet turtle. It will be a cute turtle and it will stay small forever and be a pretty color green :]  My little green turtle's name will be Franchesco and he will be one of my best friends...lol! Im thinking about starting a turtle trend..like instead of carrying around a little scrawny dog in my purse ill carry Franchesco. ahah . so...one day im going to buy me a turtle named Franchesco and there will be world peace. hmm maybe not world peace..but ill still have Franchesco.

wow! it's a paragraph about a turtle! lol..im sorry..im very tired incase you cannot tell.   teehee.

im finally going back to my mom's house tomorrow at 6 pm. So, im free all next week (minus wednesday) to do something. I'd totally appriciate a call...and if I don't answer..im sorry  :[   My phone is always really quiet and I don't hear it unless im like right beside it. Please Forgive Me!!

im out of things to talk about...

i love you to the moon and stars back. :]

alexanna.

"Lean on me when you't not strong, and I'll be your friend.
I'll help you carry on, for it won't be long 'til I'm gonna' need
somebody to lean on.
You just call on me brother if you need a friend.
We all need somebody to lean on.
I just might have a problem that you'll understand.
We all need somebody to lean on.
If there is a load you have to bear that you can't carry.
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load if you just call me.
Call me ( if you need a friend)
Call me."

        I randomly heard that song today on the radio, and I pretty much took it to heart for the first time. Because it 100% true. Without my friends and family, I wouldn't be anyone worth knowing. Seriously. I love you guys so much.

        I'm at my dad's house until Sunday...it's a good thing because I get time away from my stepdad and my sisters...but it's a bad thing because its ten times more boring over here and it's lonely.

        My birthday is in thirteen days. I'll finally be 15...I feel like so young compared to everyone else even if it is by a couple months...ahah

        LAURA IS COMING TO CHARLESTON WITH ME!!!! This is probably the second best news I've gotten all summer!!! Maybe even the first best!! ahhhh!! Like in all seriousness...she just saved my vacation.

        Well a bunch of people I normally talk to are on vacation this week...so..that's kind of depressing...

         Hmmmmmmmmmmm. There is nothing else to say, except that I love you very much.

alexanna

niiiiiiiice...I know.lol

hmmm.

I colored my whole driveway with chalk today...but my sisters just HAD to wash it all off with the water hose. Don't ya just love em' sometimes??

Pictures for dance were today. I hate posed pictures that are taken in a studio. They aren't natural enough.

i finally have a new profile picture. :]

report cards were today, a got 5 A's and  C. But, fortunatley, I didn't get in trouble.

ooooh I almost forgot. I got a locker today too. 746, is the number I do believe. I think it's by some people I know, so it's all good.

still bored. ofcoarse, I stay bored most of the time anyways. lol hopefulyl I'll do something interesting this summer. maybe I'll color with chalk on my roof...lol. That would be interesting.

well ill edit if I have anything else to say.

mucho love-o.

alexanna

edit......

Radx3: so im like good toast? lol
Shoutakun3: yeah
Shoutakun3: the best
Shoutakun3: just right
Shoutakun3: but I don't want to compare you to toast
Radx3: no..i would say im the toast that doesnt have enough butter and gets bored alot
Radx3: lol!!!
Shoutakun3: haha
Shoutakun3: well, enough about toast
Radx3: ahah
Radx3: SPEAKING OF TOAST
Shoutakun3: you shouldn't be compared to it
Radx3: i want some toast
Radx3: lol
Radx3: ok. lol.
Shoutakun3: you are way better than toast
Shoutakun3: you should know that

And so it is.
Just like you said it would be.
Life goes easy on me,
Most of the time.
And so it is.
The shorter story.
No love, no glory,
No hero in her sky.

I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off you.
I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off you.
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is.
Just like you said it should be.
We'll both forget the breeze,
Most of the time.
And so it is.
The colder water,
The blower's daughter,
The pupil in denial.

I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off you.
I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off you.
I can't take my eyes off you.
I can't take my eyes...

{Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?}

I can't take my mind off of you.
I can't take my mind off you.
I can't take my mind off of you.
I can't take my mind off you.
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind....
My mind...my mind...

'Til I find somebody new.

The Blower's Daughter- Damien Rice

I've decided.

I am a horrible decision maker.I freak out, and never know what to do.

It seems like whenever I think that i've finally made a good decision, it isn't and screws up anyways.

or maybe it's just me...maybe i'm just making myself think that everything is wrong even though it isn't.

whenever im sick I tend to think of things like this, and I confuse myself.

I forgot to put this>>..I'm sick. After dance on Saturday my voice has been coming to me on and off. But that's ok im getting better.

oh yea...i've also decided that all guys are insensitive jerks. well...most of them anyways. BUT that's just something I'll have to live with. Anyways, I don't think that i'd have it any other way. I couldn't handle them doing everything right 100% of the time. I'd feel like I was the one screwing up, and that is unexceptable.

summer's almost here, and it can't come soon enough. I can't handle another week of school. I seriously don't think I could handle it. I feel like if I were to go to school and put up with some of the idiots I have to deal with I might explode. I'm not saying that everyone at Smyrna is an idiot...just alot of people.

I need sleep. So im going to go.

love to all.

i'm stressed,

 i'm tired,

i'm  not happy,

i'm  guilty,

i'm  mean,

i'm crying,

i'm stupid,

i'm ignorant,

i'm blind,

and i'm sorry.

"Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
go on, go on, go on, go on.

When everything is wrong we move along
go on, go on, go on, go on.
When everything is wrong, we move along
along, along, along...

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do.
nd even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through."

Top Ten Problems I have with my life.

(1st being the worst problem)

10. the way I look( what girl is happy with the way they look though..lol)

9.I could be a better dancer

8. totally unorganized

7. im too shy.

6.have a horrible paranoia or saying the wrong thing and making a fool of myself

5.my  parents are divorced.

4.Im not very good at expressing my emotions and/or feelings

3.I have a tendancy to bottle things up inside

2. I could be closer to God than what I am.

1. I am miserable at the school that im in compared to how it used to be at Oakland.

summers so close I can taste it. This summer is going to be wondeful...and its going to be a major time of phonecall to my parents from friends and family begging them to let me go back to Oakland.

help with the struggle.

hmm..i think im going to make a phusebox group that supports me going back to Oakland..!! lol

im going to..and its going to be called

Supporters of Alexanna Going Back to Oakland

join it if you love me.

alexanna

Dance Competition Today at MTSU 's Tucker Theatre!!!

Laura and I will be there...so you should come and cheer us on!

"Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
I Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me"

One - Two- Three.

listen to Ruby Blue by Roisin Murphy because its the most crazy/amazing song on the planet.

ok so im updating. don't get over excited.

Jazz fest was amazing. I loved it and I am so planning on going next year because I loved it.

so im pretty sure I hate Mr. Cobb with a passion. I hate him, his stupid  grading system of check marks and sqiggly lines, and I hate his stupid voice and GAH hes such an idiot.

Another competition this weekend at MTSU. You should come watch and cheer. Because thatd be amazing, and itd make me happy..lol. Im sad about not being able to go to Rachels party though.

The extravagant Laura needs to give-eth me a ring-eth. Because Im losing her!!!(AND i want to borrow her ipod..ahaha im j/k.)

I had the sudden outburst to talk 90's a few min. ago. I find that to be very pathetic. lol

sara:"I feel asleep in Mr. Hall's class, I think hes mad at me."

alexanna: "No hes not mad at you, hes just joking with you."

sara: (long pause) "wait!! whos mad at me?? why?"

alex+anna loves you.

took some pictures..ill post them when laura sends them to-eth me.

jazz fest this weekend. if your a awesome you'll be there on Saturday with the rest of us cool kids.

we did freaking amazing at our competition!!! all ultimate victories(platinums) and only one first place(gold) there were no high golds. lol!! we won tons of overall prizes too! ahah i was so excited!!

seriouslly..my dad is crazy..he grounded me for  a month form the phone..so I got all mad at him and gave him the silence treatment and cried a little bit..so he gave my phone back to me the next day and apologized. its great being a daughter, I think we get it alot easier sometimes than guys.

havn't had a soft drink in forever!! (not counting that one at Chili's with laura)

im only eating French Fries once a week..because I eat too many French fries..lol

i can't wait until these braces come off..then no one canm ake fun of my motuh or my lips or anything to do with having braces.

plus, ill have pretty teeth! lol

so im pretty much determined to make myself happy. and I think that a good first step is too quit eating so much crap thats not good for me, I think its runing my brain. its a good thing i dont drink and plan on never drinking because then Id be even worse off.

my life is boring right now.

i love you much.

alex+anna = alexanna.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

I am sunburnt.

BUT THATS OK.  I put aloe vera on it and its all good now.

Field day was today..and well..it was interesting. Quite emotionally distressing on someone though...** you know who you are**

and I love that person oh so very much because they got through it with the minimum amount of tears. you go girl.

Well I have dance tomorrow from 8:30-11:30 and then from 2:30-4:30...so im pretty much going to be tired when i wake up in the morning...gah..i hate waking up early.

I havn't spoken to Laura Liz in a while..and I miss her dearly.

Tyler sent me flowers :)   :)

That made me extra super amazingly wonderfully happy.

We are watching the LeonardoDiCaprio version of Romeo and Juliet in English..and its weird. Its like all 90's but they speak like old english. Its creeping me out.

Alas, Babylon is a wonderful read. You should read it if your not already doing so.

Well im done for tonight but if something cool happens before I go to bed ill edit.

alexanna

i didnt take that...but i like it...

im hooked on Where Does the Good Go? by Tegan and Sara....again...for the third time.

"Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive.
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go.
Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love.
Look me in the heart and un break broken, it won't happen."

i love music.

It needs to rain.

Thunderstorms,please. No tornados, no heavy winds that blow down trees and telephone poles.

Just, Rain, Thunder, and Lightning.

I wanna sit on my porch and watch it. I love thunderstorms.

I got out in the rain on Monday and took pictures under an umbrella. It was great fun.

I need a good thunderstorm, but on a convenient day for me. Wednesday, Friday, or Saturday would be nice. For right now, I suppose I can live with the sunshine.

I just want it to rain in April. April Showers bring May Flowers, correct?

You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

Fast Car- Tracy Chapman

best song in the universe.

Sunflowers are my favorite.

hmm. today was extremely uneventful.

so theres nothing to tell anyone about.

unless you count that none of my friends in gym class can look at me without smiling..thats always a plus..lol.

Sweet Chariot by Charlotte Martin

Wild Horses by Charlotte Martin

^^ two songs that have and do make me cry^^

shes got the most amazing voice EVER.

i think part of my crying is how she sings the lyrics.

I read a poem in English today...it was really sweet..I think it was called your laughter. It's my new favorite.

"Ode to joy, my lover boy's speaking in tongues
And the sky's bleeding gray
Now I pull my bag of prayers out
I hope to find one to save the day

And he judged my love, my lust
My taste with the straightest face
As I crumple up inside
A papier-mache, a shell with no name

Sweet chariot
Come, come, take me away from my fear
Sweet chariot
Come, I have to get out of here"

"I watched you suffer
A dull aching pain
And now you've decided
To show me the same

No sweeping exits
Or offstage lines
Could make me feel bitter
Or treat you unkind

And wild horses couldn't drag me away
And wild horses couldn't drag me away."

ahahah i look stupid.

so im pretty sure that im crazy.

in a good way, ofcoarse. not in a bad way. crazy in a good way.

it's ok to think your crazy sometimes..isn't it?

Sara is most DEFINATLEY crazy...she thinks Cheetos come from seeds like popcorn..lol

listen to the song Jesus Was A Crossmaker by Rachael Yamagata. The background music and the tune is captivating...atleast to me anyways..but don't listen to me..im crazy.

no school tomorrow..ahaha..FINALLY i can catch up on some long desired sleep.

dance tonight..yes...gotta love it.

OK so Tyler either tore a muscle or something at a track meet..so thats not good..and he needs to get better.

Laura Liz needs to call me ASAP or im going to post embarressing things that happened on our trip to Memphis..ahaah..DANGER!!

aucoustic version over Over Thinking by Reliet K is amaaaazing.

oh yea were gangster. were so gangster we are crazy gangsters.

its been  more than ages since ive updated this!!..which is ever so pitiful..lol

hmm i hate my school still. lol

i have a boyfriend...

my best friend is still laura..

and i still dance.